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uraveragelonelygay · 2 years

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Calm in the Storm

Pairing: Shelby Goodkind x Reader x Toni Shalifoe

Summary: You are not okay. But you are also not alone.

Word Count: 1.7k

Warnings: Depressive thoughts, slight suicidal ideations, but nothing crazy, Shoni being loving and soft gfs

A/N: Miss me? lol I know it’s not marvel, but enjoy some content!

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Being stranded on an abandoned island came with a lot of feelings. Regret. Anger. Frustration. Terror. Despair. And those were just the surface emotions. You had experienced them all. But after being on the island for nearly a month, a new emotion began to stir. A feeling that there was no point. A feeling that no matter what you did, it wouldn’t be good enough to save everyone. Hopelessness. You felt hopeless.

The feeling settled deep in your bones as you sat up against a washed up log on the sand. The bark was scratchy against your back. The night breeze caused you to shiver. A few hundred feet from you, the other girls sat around the fire, laughing and telling stories. But none of that could overpower the feeling of hopelessness that seemed to be drowning you. A feeling that it felt like nothing or no one could stop.

The feeling had been building in you for a while. Perhaps it was always destined to overwhelm you, seeing as one of the many treasures lost at sea seemed to be the medications that helped to keep your mind at bay. But the cause of it seemed to be unimportant. In the moment, all you could think about was how the feeling consumed you. How you felt as if there was no point in even trying anymore. There wasn’t a point in waking up, or doing your chores, or interacting with the girls. Staring out at the sea, you wondered what the harm would be in running out into the sea, letting your body bash against the-

“Hey, hun, enjoying the view?” A sweet southern drawl interrupted your twisted thoughts, and before you could fully process it, one of your girlfriends was sitting beside you and resting her head on your shoulder.

“Hm? Oh, yeah, just watching the waves,” you responded despondently as your other girlfriend took a seat on your opposite side, gently taking your hand in hers.

“You looked pretty lost in thought there, babe, are you doing alright?” Toni asked softly, her concerned eyes trying to meet yours as you simply stared forward at the ocean.

The words were on the tip of your tongue. The need to express yourself and be comforted by your girlfriends was burning you up inside. But a voice in your head kept you quiet.

Burden. You’re a burden. Don’t bother them with your problems. They already have enough to worry about without you being all lame and sad all the time.

You took a deep breath, and for a moment your loves were hopeful that you would talk to them. Instead, you plastered a smile on your face and glanced between them. “I’m fine. Don’t worry about me, I was just taking a breather.”

Shelby and Toni exchanged concerned glances with each other, but ultimately decided to drop it for the time being. They hoped you would come to them if it really got bad.

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You did not, in fact, end up reaching out to them. As the days passed, you did your best to fake smiles and act as though everything was alright, but all the girls were able to notice how tired you were, or the way you moved a little slower than normal, or how your smiles always seemed forced. But they opted to not directly address it, simply doing subtle things to check in on you and help you out. Your girls made sure you were drinking water and eating. Fatin tried to include you in her shit-talking sessions. Dot took on a few of your daily chores to ease your load. Martha gave you a little extra when distributing food. Leah and Rachel even offered you a spot in their makeshift band.

But this only made you feel worse. You felt guilty for making the girls feel the need to go out of their way in order to help you. You were trying to be okay. Really, you were. But everything felt as though it got heavier and heavier everyday. You were running out of energy to do anything.

Everything hit its peak about a week after your conversation with Shelby and Toni. You were at an all time low now, and nobody had failed to notice that. You wouldn’t get out of bed. You simply lied there and stared into space, your mind elsewhere. You were so tired. Too tired to eat. Too tired to drink. Too tired to move. It was all too much. You felt as though you were being crushed by the weight of everything. You just wanted to curl in on yourself and disappear. You wondered if there was a way you could sneak off while the girls were asleep. You wouldn’t use the medication. No; you had already burdened everyone enough; there was no way you were going to deplete their med supply on top of everything else. So you would have to find another way. There was always-

“Hey, babe,” this time it was your hot-headed brunette girlfriend who interrupted your dark thoughts with her soft voice, “Shelby and I were thinking the three of us could head over to our spot and spend some time together, what do you think?” She gently tucked some stray hair behind your ear, caressing your face as she did.

She was always so gentle with you. So gentle. It’s more than you deserve. She deserves better. They both do.

“I think I’m just gonna stay here,” you said, your voice coming out weak and scratchy from lack of use.

Shelby approached you then, crouching down in front of you and taking your hand. “Alright, then how about we lay here with you for a bit? We haven’t really gotten a chance to talk to our girl much lately; it would probably do us all some good.” She was good at that; at making it seem as though they weren’t going out of their way to help you. Her good intentions pulled at your heart strings. For a moment you considered being honest with them this time; finally letting all of your inner turmoil spill out of you for them to help clean up. But then the voice was back.

Look what you did now. You ruined their plans. How dare you? What a fuck up. You’re disgusting.

Your heart clenched, anxiety starting to rise at the thought of inconveniencing the two girls you loved most. “No, no, I wouldn’t want you to do that. Please, you two should go have fun without me.”

Shelby was quick with a response. “Fun? Without you? Nonsense. We’ll just switch things up a little and-”

“No!” You blurted, your breaths quickening as your thoughts began to spiral.

Useless. Worthless. Can’t even let your girlfriends have fun. A mistake. A burden.

Toni took your other hand, brows furrowing in concern. “Hey, what’s going on?”

By this point you’re gasping for air, a full on panic attack in the works as your bottled up emotions can take it no longer. “You have to go, you shouldn’t…you can’t…I can’t…”

“Hey, hey, hey, love. I’m gonna need you to take some deep breaths for me, alright? You’re okay, I promise.” Shelby rubs the back of your hand with her thumb, squeezing it gently, trying to get you to calm down.

Toni took your hand she was holding and placed it on her chest as she took exaggerated deep breaths. “Breathe with me, alright?”

Before long, you were calming down, now breathing evenly, tears streaming down your face.

“There we go, love, I knew you could do it,” Shelby cooed, taking your face in her hands and gently brushing your tears away with her thumbs.

“Sorry,” you mumbled, going to move away, but Shelby held you there, looking into your eyes with nothing but love and concern.

“There’s no need to apologize, love,” she said, releasing your face to hold one of your hands instead.

“We’re just worried about you,” Toni explained, “you’ve been pulling away, and we want to know what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours.”

She took your other hand, squeezing softly, and you took a deep, shaky breath.

“I’m not okay,” you said hoarsely, tears slowly beginning to leak from your eyes again.

Both girls’ hearts broke at the overwhelming pain in your voice.

“It’s so hard to get up each day. I feel so useless. But then by laying around all day I only become more and more useless. And you two have been so wonderful and here I am all sad and lame and annoying and-”

“Hey, hey, hey,” Toni cut you off, putting an arm around you and pulling you into her, holding you tight. “You are none of those things, okay? I can promise you that not a soul here thinks you are useless, or lame, or annoying-”

“And trust me, if they do, Toni will cut a bitch,” Shelby interrupted, causing you to let out a weak giggle.

“I’m really sorry you’ve been feeling this way, darling. I wish you’d come to us about it,” Shelby said.

You sighed. “I didn’t wanna bother anyone with my depressing shit. I mean, we’re all stuck here on this god forsaken island, the last thing I wanted to do was be a burden to you guys.”

“You could never,” Shelby assured you.

Toni nodded vigorously.

“Y/N, you’ve been here for all of our shit. You were the one at my side following my shelter building meltdown, you were the one helping nurse me back to health after we all got food poisoning.”

“You were there holding me tight after I told you and Toni about my life back home,” Shelby said, “We will always be here to return the favor. That’s a promise.”

You nodded, tears still flowing at all of the overwhelming emotions filling the atmosphere.

“I love you both so much,” you choked out in a sob.

“And us, you.”

“Always.”

You nuzzled your face into Toni’s neck, breathing her in, and welcoming the safety she brought you. Shelby’s arms were quick to wrap around your waist as she joined Toni in holding you, making you feel infinitely wanted and loved.

You were stranded on an abandoned island with no idea of what tomorrow might look like. A situation like this is one that welcomes chao and panic.

But as the three of you sat there, holding each other, one thing was for certain: you had never felt more grounded and calm than in this moment.

#shoni #Shoni x reader #shelby goodkind #toni shalifoe x reader #shelby x toni #shelby goodkind x reader #toni shalifoe #the wilds #save the wilds

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a-writes3 · 3 months

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would anyone read if i made a wilds band au that was a fatin x reader enemies to lovers. with toni and shelby sprinkled in.

please say yes.

#the wilds imagines #fatin jadmani x reader #the wilds #dot campbell #fatin jadmani #leah rilke #fatin jadmani imagines #shelby goodkind #shoni #toni shalifoe x shelby goodkind

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lycheepocketwitch · 2 years

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LPW'S 22ND BIRTHDAY EVENT

hi everyone! so, this blog hit 300 and 400 followers over the past few months and i wanted to thank everyone for following my little writing adventures! i wasn't able to host a milestone celebration event, but i have a bit more time to plan out an event for my birthday, coming up nov. 1st.

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thatsgay-ficrec · 3 years

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May 2021*

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thatsgay-writes · 3 years

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Day 16

"Here they are, the brave young women whose tale of struggle and survival has gripped the nation." The host says as she sends the camera a smile. "The unsinkable nine, as we have come to know them. Ladies, you must have dreamed of coming home for so long. Now that you're here, what do you wanna do most?" She questions as she turns towards you and your friends. "Honestly, smoke about a hundred cigs, you know? Like, really rip through a carton or two." Dot starts as she leans forwards on the couch. The host gives her a slightly awkward smile, "Okay. How about the rest of you?"

"I don't know; Maybe hit up the OG for a never-ending pasta bowl and just... I don't know... Get back to our real lives." Toni says next followed by Nora. "I'd like to read the Odyssey again, rather than, like, live it." She jokes awkwardly, causing some of the girls to laugh in response. "Leah, what about you?" "Oh, um, I just wanna reconnect with certain people... People who may have been worried and-or felt like we had unfinished business. And if that person is watching right now, I just wanna say that I did not not miss you every day." You cringe at Leah's little monologue, still not feeling 100% about her after her fight with Shelby.

"My turn, Brooke, and I've got a nice, straight answer for you. I'm going to fuck the rowdiest guy with the biggest dick as soon as I fucking can." Fatin says, causing everyone to pause the fantasy you all shared and look at Fatin. Fatin turned to look at you, since you were at the end of the couch, and you couldn't contain your laugh. "Holy shit!" You belt out as you roll onto your side, "I don't think you can say that." You tell her after you finally catch your breathe. Fatin rolls her eyes, "Okay, make it more media-friendly. I am going to fornicate with the healthiest penis I can find ASAP." You let out a laugh at her newly formed answer.

After that, Dot changed her answer and Fatin got on Leah for her "emo shit show" answer and how Romeo's would be in everyone's DM's, before they finally started cheering over the fact that there was a chance to return home. "We're going home, bitches!" Martha yells as she holds up the bottle of vodka, causing all the other girls to cheer. You go to celebrate with them but notice how Shelby stays silent and slowly pulls away from the group. You watch her go, debating if you should follow her, as Toni helps you stand. Her face holds a large smile that slowly falls as she notices how distracted you are and that Shelby was walking away.

Ever since kissing Shelby, Toni had been confused on her feelings between the both of you. She had loved you for years but Shelby just had something so attracting about her. Unknown to her, you were having the same thoughts. "I'll, um... I'll be right back." You say as you pat Toni's hands that were still holding your own after helping you up. Toni just nods her head as you hop away after Shelby.

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"You don't seem very excited..." You try and joke as you hop around the rock Shelby was sitting on, closing your mouth as soon as you see how sad she looks. You fidget nervously for a few seconds as Shelby doesn't respond to your presence. You let out a deep breathe before sitting down next to Shelby on the rock. "Are you okay?" You ask as you slowly reach out your hand to grabs hers. You move slowly so she has enough time to pull away but she doesn't. When you tangle your fingers with Shelby's, she finally reacts some and turns her head to look at you. She opens and closes her mouth a few times wanting to say something, but ultimately ends up closing it and shaking her head. You let out a sigh but nod your head. You lean forwards and cup one of her cheeks, giving her a quick kiss on the other one. Your face gains a small smile as you notice Shelby blush, "I'll leave you to your thoughts... If you ever need someone to vent to or a shoulder to lean on I'll be here." You tell her as you slowly stand up and start hopping back towards to other girls, missing how Shelby stared after you longingly.

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As you get closer to the other girls, you smile as you hear them all laughing and joking around. "Oh, Martha, you're gonna be trippin motherfucking balls dude." You hear Fatin say as you finally reach the group and collapse next to Toni. Hopping around was not fun and you were going to need to find a walking stick or something soon. "And she won't be alone." Rachel says as she holds her hand out towards Fatin. Taking what looks to be a bag of gummy bears? You nudge Toni with your shoulder and send her a questioning look. "Martha ate edibles." She whispered to you before turning back to the group and reaching for the bag. You covered your mouth in shock and laughed at the fact that Martha, sweet and innocent Martha, ate edibles. "You want one y/n?" Toni asks as she holds one out towards you. You think about it for a second. Your doctors back at home would probably advise you not to get high but you had been feeling fine the past few days. "Why not." You answer as you take the gummy bear from Toni and pop it into your mouth.

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"Marcus!?" You hear Martha yell out for the 5th time as almost everyone laid on the beach, high out of their minds. The only ones not laying down were Fatin, who looked like she was meditating, Shelby, who still hadn't returned from the rock, and you, who had taken a seat on Toni's back and kept tracing out random letters and shapes on her back. "I'm so fucking blissed out. Not even from the gummies, just from the thought that in 48 hours I can have an orgasm." Was the first thing Fatin had said in an hour, causing you to giggle and almost fall off of Toni's back. Unlike Toni, who always got more relaxed when she was high, you got more giggly, enthusiastic, and talkative. You being high rivaled Shelby's whole "Who wants to play an ice breaker?" persona.

"Wait? You haven't like self-induced?" Leah asks, seriously but still with a playful tone. "No, I can't do it with my hands actually. I have this weird cello-vibrato PTSD. It's a whole thing." Fatin responds, breezing over the subject. "So your electric toothbrush hasn't seen any action?" Dot asks causing you to laugh more and add on, "I mean we all kind of assumed." You send a wink Fatin's way before turning your attention back to Toni's back, effectively spacing out on the conversation.

When you do focus back onto everyone, it's from Toni tapping your thigh to get you to get up. "Huh?" "C'mon we're gonna go play in the water." Instead of standing up and hopping your way towards the ocean, you just roll of Toni's back and lay on your back in the sand. "I'm good... I think I'm just gonna lie here." Toni gives you a questioning look but you just push her thigh towards the water. "I'll be fineeeee, go have funnnnn." Toni rolls her eyes as you purposefully draw out words and follows the rest of the girls into the water.

You could hear the girls from where you laid, all of them letting out screams and laughs of joy. You would have joined but hopping around on one leg isn't fun and tired you out pretty quickly. You rolled onto your side once the sun felt too hot on your face and you noticed that Shelby hadn't joined in on the fun either. You contemplated going up to her and trying to talk to her or give her more space, but went with the first choice. If she had rejoined the group than maybe she would want some company now.

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"Not a fan of the water?" You ask as you let yourself collapse next to Shelby, taking note how she now had the bottle of vodka and it had a less in it than it did before. "I... Um..." Shelby stuttered out as she purposefully did not make eye contact with you. "It's fine." You say with a shrug and lay on your side. "No need to talk, just relax." You say as you suddenly get hype fixated on making shapes and letters on her back. Missing the way she tensed up before finally relaxing. You spaced out again from what was going on, a common thing that happened when you were high.

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The rest of the day blew by as everyone did their own thing. Nora and Rachel went off talked somewhere, you noticed that Toni and Shelby got into a argument, and you just chilled around with Fatin, Dot, and Leah, while Martha decided to adventure into the woods. "Guys! Guys! Guess what I just saw!?" Martha yells as she runs over the hill and back towards the group. "I just saw Marcus and he's alive!" She yells out, out of breath, causing everyone to laugh at how ridiculous she sounded. "No, guys, I'm being serious!" Martha defends and grabs the nearest person to her, Dot, and starts dragging her along. "C'mon, he's in the woods." Dot turns to give the group and exasperated look but you all decide to follow along.

You had your arm wrapped around Toni as you all journeyed through the woods. You had tried to get out of going, but Martha wanted everyone to go with her. "You're just saying that he, like, fucking pinocchio'd?" Dot asks, having not stopped laughing or joking about the situation since you all headed into the woods. "Yes. That is exactly what I am saying." Martha says in relief, missing that fact that Dot was still making fun of her. "He turned into a real boy." She finishes as you and Toni see Marcus... Who is still as fake as he was the day he was found. "I don't know, he kinda looks the same to me." Toni says as you release her arm so she can pick up Marcus. "Hey! My leg!" You say excitedly as you notice it laying under Marcus. When Fatin goes to kiss Marcus, you kiss your leg. It was all fun and games until Leah had to mention the fact that Marcus and your leg had been swept away but suddenly ended up in the middle of the forest. You had thought the same thing but hoped to just ignore that fact. "Leah. We're mellow. We're leaving."

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"Oh Shelby, you love America so much. USA! USA!" Martha cheers, trying to get Shelby to join her but the other girl is completely zoned out. "Is she okay?" You and Toni ask at the same time. Both of you sharing an awkward look with each other, neither of you had told the other about your own kiss with Shelby. Luckily, Fatin isn't stuck in an unknown love triangle and walks over to Shelby. You all watch as Shelby starts to brush her hair, it seems to stay tangled no matter what she does. Until the brush gets stuck in her hair. Fatin attempts to help her but Shelby goes into full freak out mode. "It's all ruined." She says as she grabs the scissors out of Fatin's bag. Fatin attempts to stop her but Shelby was inconsolable.

"I don't' fucking want it! I don't want it!"

#the wilds #the wilds x reader #shoni #shoni x reader #toni x reader #shelby x reader #toni shalifoe x shelby goodkind #toni x shelby #toni shalifoe x reader #shelby goodkind x reader

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thewlwera · 3 years

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these women 😍

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laurie-stark · 3 years

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Bags

(not my gif)

Summary: After another duffle bag of supplies washes up on shore, the girls realize that they’re going to be stuck here for a while. Episode six rewrite. 3.0k words.

Pairings: Toni Shalifoe x fem!reader

Warnings: Swearing, throwing up

A/N: Okay listen I just wanted Toni fanfic but no one was writing it so here you go. Also I really tried too hard to get the bed sharing trope LEAVE ME ALONE I LIKE IT PSLFDLJ (this is your reminder to turn on Interactivefics xx) oh and also theres a bit in here thats heavily inspired by @ drewstarkeys Toni fic which you all should go read asap its amazing.

This was weird. It was really fucking weird. It had only been four days since we found Jannette’s grave empty. Four days since we found a clean water source. The longer we stayed on this god forsaken island, the more it felt like we were never getting off. And now another round of duffle bags have shown up. You know, as crazy as I think she is sometimes, Leah’s starting to have a point. Something is way off about this place.

Nora and Rachel were the ones who spotted the bags. They washed up on the rocky side of the beach, covered in weeds. Dot was hoping for some more food, maybe more medicine if we were lucky. But to all our confusion, all the bags contained were blankets and pillows. Ten pillows and five blankets, Dot so cheerfully announced. My first red flag was that the insides were completely dry. I didn’t want to say anything though. I was sure there was a reason for this.

“There’s enough shit here for us to double up,” Dot told us while Nora and I laid out the makeshift beds. “Except for one person who gets to sleep alone.”

“Well that’s not fair, why does one person get a bed all to herself?” Rachel asked, standing up defensively.

I rose to my feet as well. “Why don’t we rotate it?” I suggested, hoping to relieve some of the tension. “W-with our off days. That way whoever’s off can have an extra good night’s sleep before they have to work again?” The girls all nodded their heads and mumbled words of agreement. Rachel sat back down on her log.

“Great idea y/n. So who’s bunking with who?” Dot asked. Rachel and Nora instinctively reached out for each other. Beside me, Toni looked to Martha. Martha gave Toni a weary look before reaching a hand out in the opposite direction. Towards Shelby. Even I had to stop myself from dropping my jaw.

Fatin gleefully agreed to pair with her “new bestie for the restie,” Dot. That left myself, Toni and Leah. I glanced between them. Leah was avoiding my eye and Toni...Toni just looked mad. It’s not that I don’t like Leah, I just don’t know her. Not that I know Toni any better, but at least Toni hasn’t gone batshit crazy more than once. On the other hand though, I didn’t find Leah unbelievably beautiful the way I did with Toni. And Toni would never want to bunk with me anyway. I crossed my arms, not doing a very good job at hiding my uncomfortableness. I was about to open my mouth to ask Leah to share when Toni called my name.

“Y/n,” I turned to face her, eyes wide. “You’re with me?” I nod and swallow hard. Fuck.

The sun was getting lower and lower in the sky, just like our food supply. Rachel offered to go foraging for something meatier in the morning, so at least I could look forward to that.

I shuffled under the blanket Toni and I shared. “Sorry you got stuck with me,” I whispered. “I can go sleep with Shelby if you want, so you can be with Marty?”

“Nah,” Toni shook her head. “I don’t mind. Besides, I don’t really think Marty wants anything to do with me right now.” I didn’t know what to say. I felt bad for her. A lifetime’s worth of friendship thrown out of the plane. Literally.

I wondered if anyone else was awake. The light from the fire was enough to see everyone’s feet but that’s about it. I still wasn’t accustomed to how dark it got at night. I was limited to just my hearing after the sun went down. I would try not to listen though. The more you listen, the more you realized how we definitely were not alone out there. Focusing on Toni’s breathing beside me was enough to keep me sane.

Couldn’t say the same for Leah though. She sat straight up and I thought she got bit by a crab or something.

“Does anyone else think that this is crazy?” She asked us.

Fatin groaned. “Leah, we got into a plane crash. Is that not enough crazy for you?”

“No seriously Fatin, what the fuck is going on?”

“What are you talking about,” Dot sat up.

“I mean these,” Leah held up a fist full of her blanket. “Where did they come from? Do none of you think that something’s up?”

I pushed myself upright. “I’m starting to agree with Leah.”

“Oh God, not you too,” Dot flopped back down onto her back.

“No, think about it,” I started. “A bag with medicine just happens to show up? And then we find Jannette’s grave empty!? And now these duffles appear with nine peoples worth of blankets and shit? Who brings that to a resort retreat? That’s weird. It’s really fucking weird.” Everyone was sitting up at this point, staring at me. “I didn’t say anything when we opened them, but these things were dry. Everything bone dry. Rachel and Nora found the bags on the shore, like they were washed up. They should have been soaking. Hell, they should have sunk!” I took a shaky breath in. “Every day we stay here the more it feels like we’re not leaving. It’s like someone wants us to stay here. I know I sound crazy but come on!”

“Y/n...”

“We don’t even remember the crash!”

“We all blacked out.”

“That’s not how plane crashes work though!” I realized how loud I had gotten. I noticed how Nora was sitting, hugging her knees tight. Shelby’s face was pale, even in the orange glow from the fire. I closed my eyes. “This isn’t my first crash.” I kept my eyes shut. I didn’t need to see their faces while I told this story. “I got into another one like eight or nine years ago. The engines broke and we crashed in a forest somewhere near Chicago. And I remember it all. I remember the engines failing, and the plane falling and the back coming off when we hit the trees. I didn’t black out until I was on the ground. So yeah, I think something is fucking off. This isn’t right, none of this is right! We shouldn’t be here, we shouldn’t-”

I started to choke on my own words. I think I was starting to throw myself into a frenzy. Something grabbed at my hand. It was Toni. She looked me in the eyes. There was something in her gaze that told me I was safe. Told me to calm down.

“Okay,” Dot said slowly. “I think we’re all starting to lose it a little bit Y/n. And no sleep isn’t gonna help. Let’s all try to get some shut eye, yeah?”

I nodded profusely and flipped onto my side, embarrassed now from that outburst. I guess I didn’t realize how far off the rails I’d been slipping. Silently, I started to cry.

I tried to stay as far away from Toni as possible. With my back to her, I figured that my crying could be somewhat camouflaged. I was very wrong.

“Hey,” Toni murmured. When I didn’t respond, she tugged on my shoulder to roll me over. I quickly wiped the tears off my cheeks. I couldn’t look at her directly. Her gaze softened. I realized then how close we were. Even in pitch darkness, I could still make out the outline of her face, her cheeks, her nose, her lips- I prayed she couldn’t hear how loud my heart was thumping. Toni reached a hand out and brushed another tear away. Had I started crying again? Jesus I was so far gone. “I know how you feel. I wanna get out of here too.’ I said nothing.

Toni moved to create some more space and put her arm out. I looked at her, questioning, though I doubt she could see my face. “Come here,” she said quietly. “I heard what you told us yesterday, about what your mom says? Sometimes you just need a hug.” I nearly started crying again right there. Slowly, I squirmed closer until my body was curled into hers. I smiled inwards. Besides the fact that my heart was trying to beat right out of my chest, I felt better. We both drifted off soon after.

I woke up to the sun shining way too bright and the sound of…snickering? I opened my eyes and tried not to get totally blinded by the light. I looked up to see Nora, Fatin and Dot standing over me, all chuckling.

“What?” I mumbled. I must have woken Toni up because she started moving underneath me.

Oh.

That’s why they were laughing.

I had fallen asleep curled into Toni’s side and woken up completely entangled with her. It wasn’t a one-sided thing either, she was holding on to me for dear life. What. The. fuck. I jolted upright, maybe a little too fast because the three girls around us started to laugh more.

“Good morning love birds,” Fatin cooed.

“Shut up,” Toni said, using a hand to shield her eyes. “We were conserving heat.”

“Yeah, what she said,” I smiled. “Is it breakfast already?”

“Not quite,” Dot shrugged. “Martha and Shelby are still getting some berries and shit.”

“Oh well in that case I’m going back to bed,” Toni grunted, rolling over. Her and I were on water duty today, so technically we had no need to be up before breakfast anyway. Dot and the girls made their way back to the fire. I was half awake though. Might as well start the day early too. Except that Toni seemed to have other plans.

Before I had the chance to get up Toni was tugging at my arm, silently asking me to come lay down. I gave in immediately. “Come keep me warm,” she mumbled. And so I did. As I laid my head down onto her chest, I noticed Shelby looking at us. She turned away when she met my gaze, but there was something behind her eyes. Disgust. Great, just what we needed. Stranded in the middle of nowhere with a fucking homophobe.

“Do you think Shelby is homophobic,” I asked lowly.

“I dunno, maybe? Why?”

“No reason, I just….That would be pretty awkward if she was.”

“Yeah…”

Nora woke me up a second time that day for breakfast. We ate in silence like we had done for the last few days. Food was running short and we were getting antsy. Toni and I broke away from the group after we ate with half of Fatin’s luggage bag. We trekked up and through the forest towards the waterfall. Neither of us said a word the whole trip. I was starting to overthink. Like, heavily overthink. In normal circumstances, overthinking might be appropriate. The night before was…not normal. But these were not ordinary circumstances. The middle of nowhere is probably the best place to have not normal and still be fine. Whatever. Right? Was it weird? Does she think I’m some weird crybaby now? Was that just a pity hug? Am I going absolutely crazy for no reason?

I’d gotten so wrapped up in my thoughts, I didn’t even notice we’d arrived back at camp. As Toni and I got to work, filling bottles to boil, Rachel was shouting from the top of a cliff. She was holding up a sack of something, I couldn’t quite make it out.

“Who’s ready to fucking feast?”

Mussels. Rachel found mussels. Now, I’d never been one for survival training but the one thing I knew was that seafood was a no.

“I really don’t mean to be a bubble burster, it’s just that seafood can be really dangerous,” I explained. Rachel looked like she wanted to take my head off. “And we do not have the vicinities to properly prepare these.”

“So what, you’re saying I’m trying to poison all of us?” Rachel challenged.

“No! No, no, not at all Rach. This was a great find, you did good.” I smiled wearily. “All I’m saying is that maybe someone should sit this one out, you know? Just in case. If we’re all sick then we’ve got no chance.”

“Great then who’s gonna be the starving one?”

“I don’t mind. I got berries.”

Turns out Shelby wouldn’t eat either. An allergy, I think she said. It felt good to see everyone this happy. Leah was genuinely smiling, Dot seemed a little less stressed. For a second it felt like we were actually on the retreat we were supposed to be on. Toni started to make out with her mussels. Or…well you know, with them. We all found it hilarious. Except for Shelby...

“Fuck you.” And with that Toni was off, running down the beach. I myself was on the brink of tears. Some churches man…they’ll brainwash even the best of 'em. I stared at the sand, not sure where to go. I wanted to chase after Toni, I wanted to stay right here and hide in the sand. The rest of the girls had gone quiet too.

“What?” Shelby asked. “Am I not allowed to have my own beliefs?”

“Not those ones,” I spat. I pushed myself up and jogged around the bend.

I saw Toni near the shoreline. She had her feet in the water. Cautiously, I crept up behind her. I didn’t want to startle her. “You good?”

Toni turned and her stance signaled she was ready for a fight. Her shoulders relaxed when she realized it was just me. “Yeah. No. Whatever, I just need a break from barbie bitch.”

“Yeah, you and me both,” I chuckled. “Will you though? Be okay?”

“You don’t need to worry about me. I’m fine.” She looked back out at the sea.

“G-good. Okay, I, uh…good, I’m glad,” I was muttering. I mutter when I’m nervous. Avoiding eye contact, all that fun stuff.

“Why are you so nervous?” Shit. So she did notice. “I mean you’re chill around everyone else but you get all twitchy around me. What’s with that?” She paused and her face fell a bit. “Do I scare you?”

“Oh god no,” I grasped her hand. “No I promise Toni, I’m not scared of you.”

“Then what?”

I look down at my toes. “I-I um…you-“ I swallow hard. “You’re pretty.”

She didn’t say anything and I was about ready to jump into the ocean and never come back. And then she laughed. She fucking laughed! Oh my god I was going to cry. I felt like I had just been publicly rejected in middle school all over again.

“That was cute,” Toni said, still chuckling a bit. I looked her dead in the eyes and she wasn’t kidding.

“Okay, I’m gonna go back now.” I turned on my heel and started walking back, very briskly might I add. I could not believe that just happened.

“Yeah me too-“Toni cut herself off and started heaving. I looked back. Toni was throwing up her entire stomach and then some. I rushed to her side, brushing the hair from her face. In the distance, I could see Rachel throwing up too. Oh Jesus Christ.

Shelby and I spent the rest of the day running from girl to girl, holding hair and passing out water. It was one huge haze of running back and forth, trying to make sure no one died. I knew that the mussels were a bad idea. God, how could I be so stupid? This was all my fault. Once Dot resurfaced from the dead, she took charge. Leah was sent to go find the medical bag while Dot and I boiled more water. She had me look over Toni and Marty while she took after the twins.

Toni was not good. By the time I got back to her, she was practically lifeless. Fatin was trying to get her to drink some canned water but it wasn’t working. Matha, who was equally unwell sat by idly, crying into her can of water and trying not to throw up again. I pulled Toni off of Fatin and into my lap, trying to get her to drink the water from my bottle. She kept turning her head away or pushing my hand. I pulled her closer and upright with one arm and got Fatin to hold her face in one place.

“Drink,” I told her. She couldn’t even speak but she shook her head. “Toni, drink. Please. You need to rehydrate for me okay?” I got her to drink a little, but she just couldn’t swallow. Martha started crying at some point. Luckily, Leah made it back with the medicine.

Trying to fight Toni into taking the pill was not working Especially not when everyone started crowding and screaming at myself and Dot. Shelby crouched to our level and took the pill from Dot. This only made things worse. No way in hell was Toni ever going to accept anything from Shelby. But blondie wasn’t going down without a fight. In one motion, she’d shoved me out of the way and climbed on top of Toni, dropping the pill into her mouth and forcing her to swallow.

Night fell and everyone was exhausted. Toni hadn’t woken up since Shelby drugged her and honestly I was getting a little worried she died in her sleep or something. Martha wasn’t looking too hot either. She’d broken into a sweat despite the cold of the night. Everyone else is tucked into their respective beds, dead silent. The cold night air made it easier to relax. After a day like today all i wanted to do was curl up next to Toni and never wake up.

Beside me, Toni started to stir. The weight I’d been carrying finally lifted off my shoulders. “Toni?”, I chimed. “Are you alive?”

“No,” she grumbled as she sat up, rubbing her eyes. I didn’t give her a moment more to readjust to life before I tackled her in a hug.

“Oh my god, you’re okay.” She laughed at me again, but this time I didn’t mind. Cause she wasn’t dead. Or close to dying. I pulled her back down on top of me. She fell asleep again in my arms. I smiled down at her. Once again, there was a moment where I wasn’t in living hell. It was just me and Toni. Somewhere safe. And warm, preferably. Everything was going to be okay.

And then Marty dropped dead.

#erana james #toni shalifoe #the wilds #amazon prime #shoni #shelby goodkind #leah x fatin #martha blackburn #dot campbell #rachel reid #nora reid #toni shalifoe x reader #toni shalifoe imagine

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mia & erana being cute.

#shoni fanfiction #erana james #shoni goodfoe #shoni #the wilds #toni x shelby #toni the wilds #toni shalifoe #toni x reader #shelby goodkind

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thatsgay-writes · 3 years

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August Schedule + this week

7/30 - Azula x Avatar!Reader

7/31 - Monthly post on @thatsgay-ficrec

8/1 - Requests Re-opening

8/6 - No Post

8/13 - Shoni x Reader: Day 22 (or interview/flashback 3)

8/20 - Deena x Reader Part 2

8/27 - Catradora x LOK!Reader Part 2

8/31 - Request Closing

(May post more during the week if I have time)

#update #requests are going to reopen #Azula x reader #shoni x reader #avatar the last air bender x reader #shelby goodkind x reader #toni x reader #Deena x reader #catradora x reader #catra x reader #adora x reader

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Day 12

The days after finding water we're pretty chill, minus finding out that Jeanette's body was gone. There was still some obvious tension between you and Toni and Toni and Martha and Shelby. You hadn't really interacted with either Toni or Shelby in the past few days either, opting to hang around Fatin. You hadn't talked to Toni because you didn't know what to say after the argument the two of you had and you had revealed your feelings for her in front of everyone. Shelby on the other head, had seemed to be the one ignoring you... Well maybe not ignoring she was just very short with you which was totally against her personality. You all had also made a schedule, seeing as you were going to be here for a while. Everyone got one chore a day and every once and a while a day off. Today happened to be your day off and you were glad, your chest pains had been happening more often and that concerned you.

It also concerned you that you didn't know when you would be rescued. The hospital, who was against the retreat but couldn't exactly do anything about it, had given you medication to help with your problem. It was enough pills for three weeks, just in case, but they had been lost like the rest of your stuff. You had checked the pilot bag that held all the medical stuff you guys had but it didn't have what you were looking for either. You've managed to hide coughing up blood by coughing into the elbow of you red shirt or spitting it out while in the woods. You had also been losing your appetite, which has been harder to hide. You'd force down some food and pretend like it was a lot so the other wouldn't worry. But today, luckily, you were starving and prepared to fully eat whatever Rachel brought for food.

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"Let's feast!" You hear a Rachel suddenly yell as she stand on top of a little hill, carrying what looks to be a big amount of food. You stood up and attached your leg before joining everyone around the fire. You watch, mouth watering, as Dot cooks all the mussels over the fire. When they're done cooking, the mussels are laid out in a big pile in the middle. Everyone stared at the pile wondering who will go first, since they all understood how little food they had been finding the past couple days. "Eat as much as you want guys, there was enough of them to fill 3 more bags. I just ran out of room." At Rachel's words you all dive in and eat the mussels, except for Shelby. "Why aren't you eating any?" Leah asks as she looks suspiciously at Shelby. Not this again. You think as you eat your tenth mussel, what could you say you were hungry.

"I'm actually allergic to shellfish. Ate one at a birthday party and my throat swelled up like a balloon." Shelby responded as she watched everyone else eat. "That's rough." You say as you grab 3 more mussels. "Damn y/n. Is it good?" Fatin asks jokingly as she grabs another mussels for herself. You roll your eyes and let out a chuckle as you flip her off before grabbing more food. "You know what this looks like..." Toni says, grabbing everyone's attention with a smirk. You mentally facepalm because you know exactly where this is going. "A pussy!" Nora yells out causing everyone to laugh, the girl had definitely come out of her shell more the past few days. Toni nods her head before licking the mussels shell provocatively. "I bet y/n knows what that feels like!" Dot yells out causing everyone to make an "ooo" sound like kids when their peer got in trouble. You and Toni's face both heated up at Dots words and you made sure to give her a hardy punch in the shoulder.

"Can you all stop!?" Shelby suddenly yells out causing everyone to freeze and look at her questioningly. "Shelby, chill out we are just having some fun." Dot says, not really understanding what all the fuss was about. "I am chill, I just don't find that very amusing." Shelby responded, her voice getting a little harsher when she says the word that. "What do you mean by that?" Toni asks as she send you a quick look and you almost immediately understood where this was going. The look was one you or Toni would give the other when known homophobes where in the area or if the two knew you were being judge for doing pda. Was this why Shelley had been short with you the past few days? You did not like where this was going and neither did Toni. "Just... pornographic gestures. I'm from a very Christian home and no one ever does things like that."

You wanted to believe Shelby, you really did, but it explained why you always felt this weird vibe from her. "Don't lie Shelby, I always knew I felt some sort of vibe from you, it's clear now what it was. Toni and I have felt that vibe enough times to know what you really mean." You say, glaring at Shelby. "What... What are you guys trying to say?" Martha asks getting worried now. She knew what you meant when you said vibe, you and Toni had both told her about it. "She's a fucking homophobe." Toni spits out glaring at Shelby. You nod you head in agreement, putting back the mussels you had picked up before all this started. Martha's eyes go wide and she sends a Shelby a pleasing look, hoping she'll deny what Toni had just said.

"Look..." Shelby says as she lets out a big sigh. "I have no hate in my heart for y'all. It was just that I was taught that that way of life is a sin." Toni immediately jumps up and point her finger angrily at Shelby, "Why you little..." Toni was too mad to even finish her sentence. Martha had dropped her head in disappointment and let Fatin wrap and arm around her in comfort. The rest of the girls were just watching as everything unfolded. "I feel sorry—" Shelby starts to say, digging her into an even deep hole. "Fuck you." Toni interrupts her before storming off, you nod your head repeatedly in agreement, not looking at anyone as you finish putting your leg on and following after Toni.

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"Toni. Toni. Toni!" You yell as you follow the girl. "Goddamn leg... Goddamn sand..." You mumble as you follow Toni down the beach. Luckily, she does finally stop after she deemed that she was far away enough to breathe. Toni kicks the sand angrily, as she stares out into the water. "I can't fucking believe this, no I can I just hoped..." Toni trails off as she wraps her arm around herself. You walk up to her and wrap your arms around her in a comforting hug, "I know, I know..." "We just get so much shit at home..." Toni trails off as she lets herself relax into your hug. "I know." You say again because that's all you can say. You relax for a few minutes before you get hit with a sudden nausea.

"Oh fuck." You mumble out as you unwrap from around Toni and throw up near the two of you. "Y/n?" Toni reacts in shock as she watches you kneel over as you try and spit out the taste of vomit and blood. Toni ends up turning around to throw up as well. "I didn't know you were a sympathetic puker..." You try and joke as you take deep breathes and slowly lay in the sand, feelin exhausted from throwing up. Toni wiped her mouth before turning back around, "C'mon, we can't stay here the heat wont help at all." Toni says as she pulls you to your feet, trying to ignore how she slowly started feeling worse. Toni has to practically drag your body back towards camp. "Help!" She yelled out as soon as she saw people and Fatin came running over. She took your other arm and most of the weight so Toni could relax some.

Luckily, the other girls seemed to be doing better than you and Toni. Both you and Toni were splayed out on the ground with Martha sitting near by as the other girls moved around the camp doing whatever. "Come on, lay on your side y/n." Martha mumbles worriedly as she listens to your labored breathing. Toni was at least a little more responsive and had tried to swallow water, while you didn't even react to someone moving your body. "Fuck, she's getting worse..." Dot said as she walked up to check on the three of you. "Where the hell is Leah with that medicine!?" Fatin almost yelled as she looked between you and Toni. Right as she said that, Leah broke through the tree line and ran towards Dot. "Why are they all dirty?" Dot yells out as she roots through the bag. "Only 2? I thought we had 3, I know we had 3!" Dot pulls out two tablets of halophen. "It's obvious who needs them the most." Shelby stated as she sat a little ways away from the group unfold. Dot bites her lip and looks at Martha, "Martha, you good?" "Yeah, I'll take a Pepto."

Dot nods her head and turns towards Fatin and hands her one of the tablets, "Figure out a way for her to take it." Fatin nods her head as she looks down at you. "Toni, I'm going to need you to take this." Shelby said as she took the other halophen tab from Dot. "I'm not taking shit from you." Toni says as angrily as she can. "It'll save your life Toni. Take the damn pill." "Should Shelby really be the one doing this." Rachel questions. "Am I not allowed to help her!?" Shelby says exasperatedly. She climbed on top of Toni and held her nose closed until she opened her mouth. As soon as she did, she stuff the pill in her mouth and covered it, forcing her to swallow. Shelby got off of Toni and turned her attention to you, ignoring how the other girls were looking at her.

"Have you gotten her to take it yet?" Fatin shakes her head no, "She's barely reacting to anything. I'm surprised she's still conscious." The girls sat silent for moment contemplating what to do. They start to panic when you cough up more blood. "Here, give it to me." Dot says as she snatches the tab and a nearby rock. She starts to crush the tab up as much as possible. "Just pour some in front of her nose and breath deep." The other girls don't really question Dot's idea and just follow what she says. "C'mon y/n, just one big breath and then you'll start to feel better."

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You were leaning heavily against Toni as you and all the girls sat around the fire. You were still exhausted from today's earlier event. Luckily, they associated you coughing up blood to throwing up to much and you didn't have the heart to tell them otherwise. No one knew about what was wrong with you except for the people at the hospital and yourself. You were finally clear to sleep by Dot because she wanted to make sure the meds had actually worked and that you wouldn't fall asleep just to never wake up again. You were almost asleep when Toni suddenly stands up yelling Martha's name and running over to her. You shake yourself awake and shakily stand up to see what was happening. Your heart stopped when you noticed that Martha had fallen and made no attempts at getting back up.

"Toni you were dying!" "Who cares? I don't matter! fuck, I don't matter. I don't fucking matter."

#the wilds x reader #x reader #female reader #shoni x reader #toni x reader #toni shalifoe x reader #shelby x reader #shelby goodkind x reader #toni x shelby #shoni #toni shalifoe x shelby goodkind

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Day 15

A/N: This was literally 1 word off from being 2.6k words and is very much unedited, like all my other work. I will read through it again tomorrow and fix any mistakes I find.

"Martha! Y/n!" Toni yells as she rushes to wake the both of you up. You sit up slowly, accidentally breathing in some water causing you to cough and sit up fast. "What's going on?" You ask as you try and stand. "The tide came in like a fucking beast!" Dot yells as she runs around in the water trying to grab whatever she could. "Y/n, come here, let me help." Shelby says as she runs over towards Marth, Toni, and Y/n. "I got them, I've got them!" Toni responds as she tries to help Marth and Y/n up at the same time. You're awake enough now to roll your eyes at Toni and let Shelby pull you to your feet while Toni helps Martha up. "Shit, my leg." "What?" Shelby asks as she helps you walk farther onto the beach. "My leg, I take it off when I sleep." Shelby pauses and tries to look over her shoulder to see if she could see your prosthetic leg at all but it was too dark out too see much of anything. "I'm sorry y/n, I can't see it anywhere." You squeeze her shoulder and just tell her to get you to dry land. You still weren't fully comfortable with Shelby after the whole muscle debacle a few days ago but you knew she was trying hard to get back onto everybody's good side and most of the girls had been taking advantage of that.

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You had all been sitting around your now destroyed camp, playing the blame game. "We're fucking moving!" Dot announces as the girls move closer to each other. "But I thought you said the cave was a bust?" Rachel asked as you all looked to Dot for direction. "No, not the cave. We move to Gold Cliff Beach around the bend. It doesn't seem to be the tide's bitch, so maybe this won't happen again." "It's also less windy." Toni chimes in, trying to be helpful. "Yeah which will come in handy, seeing as we no longer have a fire to keep us fucking warm." Dot responds without missing a beat. "I didn't think of that." Toni mumbles and you rest your hand on her shoulder. "Who was on fire duty last night?"

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That one question led to a whole argument about who's fault it was and many other arguments. "Okay, well, blame game aside, I think it's safe to say that we can blame the dead fire on our problematic Jesus freak..." Fatin says but slowly trails off as Shelby walks up to the group. "Look at what washed up!" She says as she holds up a bag that causes Martha to run up. "My bag!" Marth squeals in excitement, Toni stands up and moves towards Martha, leaving you to lean against the drift wood alone. "Alright, well that's one down. Who's does this belong too?" All the girls stay silent as they wait for someone to claim the bag. When no one does they all come to the realization that it was Jeanette's bag. Rachel walks up to Shelby and takes the bag before going through it's contents. "Damn! Didn't expect this from Jeanette." Rachel states as she pulls out a large bottle of vodka." You had stood up from where you sat a little ways away and stood by Toni, curious to what was in the dead girl's bag. "Oh my god, she has a fucking lighter. Jeanette is a fucking miracle!" Dot exclaims as she pulls out the lighter. 'Man, I mean, like, I took her for a straight edge, but it turns out she drank and smokes." Toni notes as all the other girls nod their heads in agreement. "She brought like 20 benzos to a weekend getaway." You comment as you pull out a small bag. "Jeanette was actually living that Amy Winehouse life?" "RIP." "To Amy or Jeanette?" "Both. Obviously."

"Shelby thank you so much." Martha says to Shelby after Dot prompts her to, hoping to rebuild the gap between Shelby and the rest of the group. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Doesn't anyone else find this, like, utterly and completely unbelievable that Shelby just, like, found this bag?" Leah states as she gets this sort of crazy look in her eyes. "Leah..." Fatin trails off, not wanting Leah to make a big deal out of this like she had done before. "It's like a Deus Ex Machina. It is, like, this perfect little thing that somehow has everything that we need, and I... I find it really fucking creepy that you found this just like you did before." Leah continues her rant. "What are you trying to say?" Rachel asks as she leans back and looks at Leah concerned. "I think something pretty fucked is going on here and I think somebody knows all about it."

Leah walks towards Jeanette's bag and starts going through it again, "Seriously? Water purification tablets? There's enough protein bars to last us forever. There's warm clothes, more meds. Why the fuck would Jeanette bring this shit to a casual retreat in Hawaii." Leah rants on and you can't help but agree with her. Some of the contents in Jeanette's bag didn't make since for a simple retreat in Hawaii. You weren't expecting Leah to jump up suddenly and get in Shelby's face. "Who the fuck gave you this bag, and what the fuck do you know?" You jump up immediately and get in between Shelby and Leah, "Leah calm the fuck down."

"I... I just want everybody to think about this for, like, two seconds. Think about what Shelby has done. She has found not one but two magical, lifesaving bags. She is persistently optimistic, almost as if she knows that we are not in actual danger. She uses icebreaker after icebreaker to pump us for information like some sort of slumber party spy, and not to mention, she didn't eat any of the fucking mussels." Leah continues to rant and you watch as gears in the other girls heads start to turn, it was a little suspicious. But before any of them could continue to think about it, Leah grabs the lighter out of Dot's hands.

"Tell us who you're working for, tell us what you know." "Leah what are you doing?" "Nora, it's fine, really. If I throw this one out, another one's just gonna pop up. Right, Shelby?" It's quiet for a few moments as everyone is trying to think of what to do to calm Leah down, when Nora tackles her to the ground. "Get a grip Leah." You all wait with a bated breath as Leah looks like she's going to calm down but instead rolls Nora over and head straight at Shelby. Before you can even react, she grabs Shelby by her jackets and grips Shelby's face in one of her hands. "Where are you going, Shelby? Where do you sneak off to every morning and every night, and what the fuck is happening on this island? You're hiding something. I fucking know it."

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"I'm a fake bitch with dentures. Just one more reason to hate me. Not that you needed anymore." Shelby says as she makes eye contact with you and Toni, more so Toni, before taking off down the beach and away from the group, clearly embarrassed and ashamed by the secret she told. Against Toni's wishes, you followed after her. Hopping on one leg down the beach, making sure to shoulder check Leah as you went by her. "Good fucking job." You tell her sarcastically and don't look back.

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You find Shelby sitting at the edge of the ocean just staring out into the water. "I came here to be alone." She states as she hears you walk up. "Well, I'm already here and I'm too tired to walk back." You respond as you sit down next to her. Shelby turns to look at you with concern in her eyes, "You shouldn't have walked all this way, we still need to find a replacement for your leg." You just shrug in response. "I'm more sad about losing my guitar over my leg." It's silent for a moment and it's clear that Shelby wanted you to elaborate on your reasoning. "It was my brother's... the only thing I had left of him after he died..." You shake your head and remember the reason you followed after her. "I didn't come here to talk about that. I wanted to make sure you were okay." You turn to Shelby and ignore the tears stains that were still on her face. "Why are you concerned about me? Everyone pretty much hates me after what happened." You shake your head and put a hand on Shelby's shoulder. "While what you said was... wrong. You can't help but say and follow what you know and have been taught. It's clear that where you're from, isn't the most accepting with people who don't fit a certain mold." Shelby nods her head and hangs it in sadness. "It's not a bad thing but now you have a chance to learn different. See that it's okay to not fit that mold." You slowly pull Shelby into a hug, and your heart skips a beat when you feel her relax into you.

"We're on a deserted island in the middle of nowhere. No rules, no laws, no parents, no nothing. I couldn't think of a better place to learn how to be yourself. Minus the fact that we are stranded and struggling to survive... but you get my point." Shelby laughs at your sentence and removes herself from the hug. "You're right... No rules and no expectations." The both of you share large smiles and you feel yourself start to lean in. Your brain is slowly but surely freaking out, trying to figure out what in the hell you were doing but it all just felt so right in the moment. You stopped before you could fully lean in, wanting Shelby to be the one to instigate the kiss, knowing that if you did, it could mess everything up. You were honestly surprised when Shelby did in fact lean in and connect your lips together. You felt her rough hands caress your cheeks and you slid your arms around her mid section, ignoring the awkwardness of the position.

The kiss ends abruptly when Shelby pulls away, eyes wide as she realized what she had just done. "I shouldn't have done that." She says as she quickly pulls herself out of your embrace. "I... you... Toni... I shouldn't have done that." Shelby tries to say before she takes off into the woods. "Shelby!" You yell as you try to stand to fast and fall over. "Dumb fucking leg!" You yell out in frustration as you lose sight of Shelby as she runs deeper into the forest. You let yourself fall into the sand as you think about what just happened. "I kissed Shelby, Shelby kissed me... We kissed... Holy shit we kissed." You sit up and put your face in your hands. "What the hell am I going to tell Toni... I don't actually have to tell, do I? Why did I like it so much though... Argh!" You say as your grab a handful of sand and throw it out into the water. This all just got so fucking confusing.

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When you finally return to the camp that was now being run by Rachel, it was an absolute shit show. It had been a few hours since Shelby ran off and the walk back to the others took longer because you were missing a leg and the camp had been moved to another location. "Where's Toni?" You asked Martha as you walked up between her and Fatin. "Somewhere in the woods." She mumbles as she passes you the bottle of vodka. You definitely needed it right now. "Where's Shelby?" Fatin asked, toothbrush hanging out of her mouth. "Somewhere in the woods." You copy Martha's answer as you take a drink from the bottle. "Damn, it's been a minute." You say as you cough a little. "Why are they fighting?" "Turns out Rachel didn't actually get into Stanford and then it all kind of spiraled out of control from there." You nodded your head, took another drink of the vodka and sat down. Today was just such a mess.

---

You had honestly fallen asleep somehow in the span of 10 minutes and woke up when things hit their climax. Toni and Shelby ran out of the woods, Fatin's toothbrush died and she punched Dot, and Dot yelled at everyone. "Stop! Stop! Just everybody, stop! This right here, this ain't happening. If we go out, and I'm not so sure that we won't, it's not gonna be at each other's throats, because there is zero fucking dignity in that." You wake yourself up more as you hear Dot yell. "What do you mean go out?" You called out.

"I've been thinking. First few days of this, we were on every paper, every channel, news vans in front of your houses, sticking microphones in front of your moms and your dads and your dogs. A couple more days go by and maybe it's only the local news. A few more days and... Country A invades country B. Elijah Wood dies, Sasha Obama rips a bong, and then... we're no longer in the conversation. The world's moved on. And I mean, maybe we've got some diehards out there, people who love you enough to keep making noise and pounding the pavement, but it's been... It's been days and searches don't last forever, not without leads and not without cash. We are stuck here. The least we could do is not kill each other, 'cause trust me, this place can take care of that just fine on its own. Jeanette might've been the lucky one. The one who went out quick." You were all quiet at Dot's explanation, it made sense. You knew that there was no one back home that was waiting for you.

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"Boiled and cooled water if you're thirsty." Toni says as she held out the bottle to Shelby. You watched with a raised eyebrow at the interaction. Toni's whole anger around Shelby seemed to have faded fast. You and Toni made eye contact and she quickly looked away. "I'm fine." Shelby responded, making sure not to make eye contact with either of you. She had kissed both of you in the same day and had never been so confused about her feelings before. Dot tried to get Shelby to start up a game of Never Have I Ever but the idea was shot down immediately. "Does anybody else hear that?" Fatin asked randomly. The girls looked at her confused, "Hear what?" Whatever noise Fatin had heard, slowly got louder and you all watched with wide eyes as a plane flew towards the island. All the girls got up and started waving their hands and moving around on the beach, minus you. "He sees us! He fucking sees us!" Dot yells out in excitement as the plane does another fly by before continuing on it's way. You watched with a smile as everyone around you started to jump up and down excitedly and started hugging each other. You stood up to go join the hug with Martha and Toni but stopped when you saw Shelby looking down. "Hey..." You grabbed her hand, causing Shelby to tense up for a few seconds before relaxing. "You okay?" Shelby looked down at your intertwined hands before looking at you and giving you a fake smile. "Yeah why wouldn't I be?"

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Interview

*TW- Mentions of rape and sexual assault, do not read if it makes you uncomfortable*

"Can we ask..." Dr.Faber starts as he moves some papers around. "Can we ask about the Dawn of Eve? What is it? How did you find out about it?"

*2 months before the plane crash*

"The court finds the both of you guilty. On accounts of child endangerment, accessory to rape and sexual abuse, Mrs.Woods will spend up to 20 years in prison with the chance for probation. On the account of child abuse, rape, and sexual abuse, Mr.Woods will spend up to 35 years with the chance for probation." The judge announces as he slams down his gravel. You let out a breath of relief as you watch your parents get escorted out of the court room, trying to ignore the glares they send your way. You were finally free of them.

Even though what they had been doing hadn't lasted long, it definitely had long lasting affects. You were uncomfortable around men more than you were before and struggled to stay seated next to to your male lawyer for the entirety of the case. It also completely messed up your sleeping. You would always wake up in cold sweats or imagine the pressure of your father's hands as he held you down or groped you.

You had luckily been able to make a deal with the state so that you could stay in your home until you turned 18 and that the money from your parents bank account would go towards the bills for your house. The one problem you had now was trying to figure out how to pay the hospital bills. You had worked a job before but had gotten laid off soon after your brother's death because you didn't go to work "happy" enough.

As you leave the court room, arms wrapped around yourself. A women steps into the path your walking. You attempt to walk around as you give a mumble of "excuse me." Before you can fully walk around the women, she lightly grabs your arm and you flinch away from her. "Sorry..." She says, instantly letting go of you. "I don't know why I thought that was a good idea." "Yeah neither do I." You say as you attempt to walk a way again. "Wait!" The woman let's you by but keeps stride with you as you walk. "I don't mean to pry, but I did just watch your court case..." You just nod your head in response.

"Terrible people but I want to help you." You give her a questioning glance. "Why?" You ask as you hold the door open for the older woman. "Let's just call it my good deed for the year." She responds as she points towards a car, which you guessed was hers. "Maybe we could go get some food and talk about it?" She asks you. If this had happened a year or even months ago you would have said no so fast and ran but now, now you were alone. Your parents are in jail, your brother is dead, you haven't talked to Toni or Martha in months, this woman could literally kidnap and kill you right now and you wouldn't care. So you shrug in response, "Sure why not." You follow her to the car and walk to the passenger door. "What's your name?" You ask you enter the car and buckle your seat belt. "Gretchen." You nod your head, "Gretchen, sounds like a witch." Gretchen laughs at your bluntness, liking you even more because of it. "Now let me tell you about this amazing girl retreat." "Sure what's it called?"

"Dawn of Eve..."

*Back to the present*

"The retreat was only supposed to be 2 weeks..." You don't finish your thought as your chest starts to hurt and it gets a little hard to breathe. You try to rub your chest casually like nothings wrong. "I'm, I'm actually kind of tired... Can we finish this tomorrow or something?" You ask smoothly. Dr.Faber and Agent Young share a look before answering you. "Sure, Agent Young will accompany you back to your room." You nod your head in response and shakily stand up out of the chair. "Here." Agent young says as he hands you the crutches that were replacing your prosthetic leg for the time being. "Thanks."

You and Agent Young walk down the halls silently with you a little behind him. You tried to sneakily check around you and see if you saw any other rooms or anything memorable to help you remember the way to your room. "Here we are." Young says as he opens the door for you. You give him a nod of thanks as he closes the door behind you. As soon as you hear his footsteps walk away, you rush as fast as you can to the bathroom sink that was out of the camera's view. You end up dropping your crutches on the way but ignore it and hop to the sink. Almost simultaneously, your hands meet the sink and a ragged coughing fit hits your body. Your grub on the sink tightens as you try to standing, your body shaking with each cough. After a while it finally stops and you feel like you can breathe again, the pain in your chest lightening a little. You let out a sigh as you look at the bathroom sink, it was now sporting splotches of blood that had come up as you coughed. "Fuck it's getting worse." You whisper to yourself as you clean out the sink, erasing any evidence of the episode you had just had.

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Prolouge

You sat at the metal table, playing with your fingers as the 2 men in front of you look at you curiously. "I'm Dr.Faber and this is Agent Young." The white guy, Dr.Faber, says. "We want to know about your time on the island. I'm here to make sure you feel safe while informing Agent Young about your time. I know what happened to you ladies was probably the most traumatizing..." You cut Dr.Faber off with a laugh. "Sure it was traumatic but I wouldn't rank it number one on the list. Maybe number one for the longest traumatizing thing to have happened to me but number one overall... I don't think so."

Dr.Faber doesn't speak for a moment, thinking of what to say next but you interrupt him before he could say anything. "Who else have you talked to?" "No one, you're the first." You nod your head in understanding before drumming your fingers against the table. "Where should I begin?" "At the beginning hopefully." Agent Young says as he looks down at his notepad. You nod, "Well first things first, getting on the plane. Now I have never traveled in a jet like that before but it was definitely jaw dropping to be in one. It's funny..." You say with a far away look in your eye as you nibble on your bottom lip. "I was actually happy to go on that stupid trip. Until of course I see who's on the plane."

"Who would that be?" Dr.Faber asks you, breaking your staring competition you were having with your hands. "Toni... Toni goddamn Shalifoe, my ex... I don't even know... ex-friend or ex-girlfriend... I never quite understood where we stood but I did love her." You shake your head, trying to stop a walk down memory lane. "But that's beside the point. Anyways, it seemed like everyone had a pair on that plane except for Jeanette and me. I don't know where Jeanette was from or whatever but she didn't have someone that knew her or knew of her... The odd one out. Myself on the other hand, I was the third wheel. I had known Toni since we were kids and when Marty joined the group later down the line and we became a trio."

"Could you tell us more about the plane crash and what happened during that time?" Agent Young asked. You nodded in response, "Sure... It went like this..."

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Day 3

You woke up the next day slowly. You blinked you eyes a couple times trying to get the blurriness to disappear. You felt something warm against your back and turned around to see Toni holding you close. You woke Toni up and you both walked over to the Fire Dot had started. Weirdly, Shelby wouldn't make eye contact with either of you. "We need to make a shelter." Dot said as you and Toni shared a bag of airplane nuts. "Well I'm out." Fatin responded almost immediately. "That sounds like hard work and with rescue coming I don't see a point." Dot let's put a frustrated groan as no one else seems to jump at the chance of making a shelter.

You watch quietly as Rachel and Leah walk by and head towards the ocean. "Where are you guys going?" Shelby asked them. "We're going to go swim out to the plane wreck, see if we can find anything useful." "Are you should that's a good idea?" You ask and Rachel gives you an annoyed look. "Well it's not like you and Leah are always on the best term." You say holding your hands up. "Oh yeah, well if it's such a big deal than why don't you join us? Oh wait I forgot you only have one—" "I'll go." You say, interrupting Rachel. Rachel pauses for a second and nods her head, a little respect showing through her eyes. "Alright cool, you just better be able to keep up once we're in the water."

You nod your head and Leah let's go of the homemade raft to help you stand. "Umm what the fuck? No your not going with them." Toni interrupts. "You can't even walk by yourself." She says matter of factly. You roll your eyes at her. "I'm more useful in water than I am on land. Just because I got one leg doesn't mean I can't fucking swim Toni." That seems to make Toni mad. "Can you really because I remember having to fucking haul your ass last night to get out the storm. Didn't make it seem like you were useful in water." Toni says standing up in getting in your face. Leah felt very awkward having to stand there as the two of you stared at each other. "Don't be an ass Toni and I didn't fucking ask you to drag me out the storm last night. I also didn't ask you to help me get over here this morning. I have been perfectly fine for 6 months without my leg and without you! So whatever knight in shining armor shit your trying to do now needs to be put to rest. You couldn't protect me before and I don't know what makes you think you can protect me now." You turn away and get Leah to start walking before Toni could even respond.

The swim out to the wreck was quiet and you couldn't tell if it was awkward quiet or normal quiet, so you just didn't say anything. "You know you and Toni are pretty hot and cold with each other." Rachel says as you get closer to the wreck. Leah nods in agreement, "Yeah on the plane you two looked like you hated each other and then the last few days, you two have been like holding each other non stop. Then this morning it's all happy and stuff and then y'all got back into another yelling match." You let out a sigh as you kick your leg. "What can I say, we have some interesting history..." You want to stop there but you can feel Leah and Rachel burning a hole into the side of your head. "We grew up together... Best friends before Marty ever joined the picture. Some... stuff went down and we stopped talking. Last time I talked to her was the day I found out my brother died." The two girls nodded and thankfully didn't ask anymore questions.

"Alright, we're here. I'll go down first to get a quick look at everything down there." Rachel said before taking a deep breath and diving down. You floated at the top with Leah silently. You didn't really like Leah, you don't know what it was but she just gave you this weird vibes."Okay so I saw a suit case and a black box which we could use and a guitar case but I don't think that'll be useful." Rachel reports as she surfaces. "Wait what color is the guitar case?" "Black and gold." "We need that too." Rachel rolls her eyes, "Look the guitar might be yours but it's not really useful to anyone." "It has my back up leg in it." "Oh."

"Come on Leah we need to get that black box!" Rachel yells as she and Leah come up for air the 5th time. "I can't, I can't..." You put a hand on Rachel's shoulder. "I'll go." "You sure?" "Yeah."

Holy shit! I almost died! You think as you guys make your way back to shore. The plane was a lot deeper than you thought but you managed to stay down long enough to get the black box out of the plane. You watch as Leah and Rachel pull everything up to the camp as you use your guitar place as a second leg. You stood in the circle with the group as they discussed what to do with the box. "I agree with opening it. We don't know if it could have gotten messed up from the crash." Rachel goes to argue again but someone else cuts in. "Why don't we just vote?" Everyone thinks for a second before nodding in agreement. "Alright then, raise your hand if you want to open the box" Shelby says and almost everyone raises their hand. "Welp I guess that settles it."

After Dot and company worked on opening the black box and fixing it, you finally take the time to sit down and put your leg together. You open the guitar case and let out a sigh as you rub a hand over your brother's guitar. You were glad you had made improvements to the case and that making it air tight was one of them. "Wow that's a pretty guitar." Shelby says as she walks up behind you. "Thanks, it was my brothers." You say as you pull out pieces of your leg. Shelby sits down next to you and watches you work for a few seconds before speaking again. "Anything I can do to help?" "I would normally say no but I don't have a screw driver and it's making it take forever to screw stuff in... so sure." You hand Shelby the calf and foot part of the leg while you work on the knee cap area. "Here." Shelby says as she hands you a Bobby pin that she shaped into a mini wrench. "Thanks." You say as you look away from your leg to her. "You know, your hair looks very pretty down." You say and reach out to play with the ends of her hair. "Thanks." Shelby mumbles, trying to hide the blush that crossed her face. Maybe there was more to her than what met the eye.

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Day 1

“Oh you got to be fucking kidding me!" Toni loudly exclaims as the two of you make eye contact. You roll your eyes as everyone looks up at the outburst. You decide to be the bigger person and just ignore whatever Toni says. It's not like it was your fault the two of you were on bad terms. "Hey Marty." You say with a smile and give Martha a hug. "Hey Y/n!" Martha reply's with a big smile. You look at the seats and find that the last available one is right behind Toni. Great You think as you sit down and put your guitar case in between your legs.

"You still play that piece of shit?" Toni asks when she notices the case. You freeze and tense up at Toni's words. She doesn't know you got a new guitar, she doesn't know what it means to you. "If you mean do I still play guitar, then yes yes I do." "Ooh you should definitely play something when we get to Hawaii, you always wrote the best songs." Martha says with a smile. You return the smile as you take off the baseball cap you were wearing. "Totally, I've written some new stuff since the last time I played for you guys." Toni just let's put a scoff and slouches in her seat as you and Martha keep conversing.

*Time Skip*

Why the hell did you all listen to the blonde cowgirl and get roped into doing an ice breaker. Of course, you got stuck with Toni because you two had some "inner turmoil" that you both needed to work on. "You still play?" You ask, noticing she was wearing a basketball shirt. Toni looks confused for a second before looking down. "Nah, got kicked off the team." "Why?" "Some girl was doing to much and I just..." She shrugs like what she was about to say was normal. "peed in my hand and fucking threw it at her." You look at Toni for a second before busting out into a laughing fit. "Oh shit..." You say trying to calm down. "I would pay to see that shit." Toni's heart beat speeds up at the sound of your laugh.

"Wish I could say I did something as crazy as that to get kicked off the soccer team." You say giving her a smile while her eyebrows furrow in confusion. "You got kicked off the soccer team?" Toni asks as you both grab a piece of cake from the flight attendant as he walked by. You nod your head in response as you take a bite of your cake. "What the fuck? You are like the best scorer they ever had. Only reason that suck ass team ever won a game." Toni says with annoyance. "Aha! You finally admit that I'm a good soccer player." Toni rolls her eyes at you and goes to respond. Before she can, however, the plane starts to shake uncontrollably and red lights start to flash. Without thinking, Toni stands up, grabbing your hand, and runs to Martha to hold her. Neither of you seem to realize you are holding hands as the three of you close your eyes and prepare for the worst.

"What the fuck..." You say as you lean your head to the side and spit out a bunch of sand out of your mouth. You take a second to catch your breath as you try and take in your surroundings. You're on a beach... You're on a beach... WHAT THE FUCK YOUR ON A BEACH! You realize with wide eyes as you realize the last thing you remember is being on a plane. You go to stand up and almost immediately fall when you realize your leg was missing. "Fuck my leg..." You say as you realize your prosthetic must have detached when the plane crashed, who knows where it's at now.

You then remember that you were also huddled with Toni and Martha as the plane went down. You almost immediately forget about your missing leg and grab a long stick nearby to help you stand. "Toni! Martha!" You yell as you slowly hobble down the beach, keeping a lookout for your leg and friends. "Toni! Martha!" You walk down the beach for what feels like hours, and it probably is considering darkness falls before you finally hear noise. You want to yell out Toni and Martha's names again but you had honestly almost lost your voice at that point and you couldn't exactly decipher what the noise you heard was.

All you knew was that you were tired, hungry, sore, thirsty, and ready to collapse. You see what looks like a group of people and walk towards them. You get closer and closer until you finally can see one of their faces and realize it's the girls from the plane, none of them had heard you get close to them because you were walking barefoot and your stick didn't really make much noise in the sand. You almost let out a cry of relief. When you see Martha sitting next to the blonde Texan that had made you do that stupid ice breaker. "Toni... Martha..." You say, loud enough for the girls to hear you, with tears streaming down your face.

Everyone turns to look at you in shock as Toni immediately jumps up and runs to you. "Y/n!" Toni runs up to you and gives you a hard punch in the shoulder before pulling you into a hug. "Where the fuck have you been?!" She whisper yells into your ear as you collapse against her, causing the both of you to fall to the ground. That alerts the other girls a little and they run to help you stand up. "Are you okay?" Martha asks as she hobbled over to you and pushed herself in front of Toni, who had been standing in front of you. You give Martha a small smile before responding. "Better now, I'm just exhausted. I've been hobbling around all day looking for anyone."

"Hobbling? Did you hurt your foot or something? I can take a look at it, I had to take a lot of first aid courses to be a camp counselor back in Texas." The blonde girl, who's name you later found out was Shelby, had said. You let out a chuckle before responding. "Sorry Blondey, I don't think your first aid training can fix my problem." You say as you raise your stump into the air. The lower half of your joggers under your knee fall flat as you lift your left leg up. "Unless you can make another prosthetic or find mine, we're both out of luck." Toni had snickered at you calling Shelby blondey but almost immediately stopped once she saw your leg.

•••••

"You lost your leg before the island?" Dr.Faber asks. You nod your head, "Yeah, 6 months before actually." You let out a small laugh, "I had just gotten use to using my prosthetic too." "Do you think you not having a leg affect how the girls saw you or how you saw yourself?" "Well it definitely made me feel useless the first couple of days but luckily I was able to return the favor of not being to do much with nightly entertainment." Dr.Faber and Agent Young share concern glances before looking back at you to elaborate on what you did for... entertainment. You roll your eyes at the two men. "Nothing like that you pricks. Jesus get your heads out the gutter. I found my guitar when I went to back to the plane crash with some other girls." "The guitar, you mentioned it before... Why is that guitar so important to you?"

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Flashback 2

*TW- Mentions/Implying of Rape/Sexual Assault*

"You got time?"

•••••

It was barely even two weeks after Elijah's death that things started to get weird. Maybe if you hadn't been so filled with sadness, guilt, anger, and resentment then maybe you would have noticed. You were sad and guilty because you blamed Elijah's death on the fact that you had asked him to come pick you. You could have just walked home and Elijah would still be alive. You felt anger and resentment because he left you here alone. There was no more long night talks, no more midnight drives, no more random ice cream runs. It was all over. Not only had you lost your brother that night but you also lost Toni. You were now officially alone.

The first time you had felt your father rub against you, you didn't think anything of it. You had been standing at the counter making cereal for breakfast and he needed to squeeze by to get the fridge. You didn't even think to move or to wonder why he couldn't have walked around the other side of the island, you were just too out of it to care. You did start to notice, however, when it became a constant thing. In the morning, afternoon, lunch, evening, any time of the fucking day. The final straw was when you were doing dishes one night after dinner. Your father needed to get by again but this time when he squeezed by, you felt not only his hand rub against your ass but his member too. You tensed immediately and sped through the last of the dishes before going upstairs to cry. "What the fuck?" Was all you could mumble as you cried yourself to sleep.

After that day, you barely went into the kitchen anymore. When you did, you would search the whole house to make sure your father wasn't home or that he was too preoccupied to go to the kitchen. When you did have to use the kitchen, you would only eat cold food or food from the pantry, nothing that involved cooking or staying in the kitchen for long. As for the dishes, you would do them sometime between 3 to 5 am because you knew your parent would be asleep by then. You also made sure to do the dishes as silently as possible. When you did want a hot meal, you would walk 5 miles to the nearest fast food place, McDonald's. You would have driven but Elijah's car had gotten totaled in the accident and your parent had no plans of getting another car for you to drive.

It happened when you were asleep one night, it was now 6 months before you would be involved in the plane crash. It had been a good day, you weren't as sad as usual and you had managed to be civil with your parents. You even used the kitchen to cook without interruption and do the dishes after dinner. The first thing you remember waking up is the outline of your dad as he held one hand against your mouth and the other gripping your bicep. You immediately start to freak out. You start kicking your legs out and using your free arm to make home let you go. You stopped struggling when he removed his hand from your mouth and slapped you across the face.

"Shut up you slut." Your father whispered angrily at you. "Why are you doing this?" You sob out as you look up at him in fear. He just ignores your question and moves his free hand towards his belt. "Your brother isn't here to save you this time." He says as he starts undoing his belt. Hearing him say that caused you to freak out. He had tried to do this before? But Elijah had stopped him? Why wouldn't he have told you? You hear your door open and felt relief flood you as you see your mom standing at the door. "What the hell are you doing?" "Mom please help me." You sob out. "At least bring her to the basement, I don't need someone calling the cops and interrupting my beauty sleep." "What? Mom no ple—" Your yelling gets cut off as you father puts his hand over your mouth again and walks you down to the basement.

Someone had called the cops, you neighbors had heard yelling and were concerned. They were too late of course. You had already been violated. Luckily they stopped your father half way through but the damage was already done. You had sat in the police station for who knows how long before they took you into a interrogation room. It took 4 months before they could finally hold the court case. During those 4 months some... not so good thing's happened. The day after you were questioned and your parents were taken into custody, you went to have a rape kit test done on you. While getting tested, it happened. At first your thought it was just a normal cough until you pulled your hand away and saw blood covering it. That definitely caused a slight panic and they kept you in the hospital longer to run some tests. "Have you had any other problems?" "I've occasionally lost feeling in my leg and had some chest pain but other than that no." The doctor nods her head and leaves the room. "What the hell is going on?" You ask as you cough again, more blood splattering out.

You had been in the bed for about 30 minutes waiting for the doctor to return. You chest had started to hurt a little but you ignored it, it had happened often the last few months. You didn't start panicking until you started coughing up blood. You weren't fast enough to sit up or roll over and you ended choking on your blood. You flailed out your arm and hit the emergency nurse button. The last thing you remember is the nurses rushing in as you passed out. The next time you woke up, your leg was gone and your doctor was standing at the foot of your bed.

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