can’t even begin to imagine how traumatic it must’ve been for debbie to walk into the kitchen and see liam overdosing, looking practically dead
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Astra is only about manipulation...
Meanwhile at least Gabriele is a bit better, there's even one bingo! (he's not that bad I promise)
// Astra
“Astra…Astra…” – she doesn’t recall the name. Should she remember it? She tries, but fails, although she’s usually good with names and faces. Nunnally supposes she doesn’t know the man and probably has never met him. That’s for the better; it doesn’t seem they have much in common and wouldn't be a good match anyway. Although winning in a game of chess with him would be interesting. The other squares tell her so. Taking a white queen from a chess board, holding "her" in her long digits for a few moments before putting it back to its place, and taking a black pawn instead: --
“What about a game of chess?” – she asks into the void; unaware she has already become the objective of his game.
// Mun's comment:
I had a problem with this one since Nunnally has no idea about Astra’s existence. And it is very unlikely she ever will have (if it’s not for Gabriele?), and I didn’t have a good idea how to include Anthony Queen into it. So something a bit odd, but I hope you’re okay with it. I also hope that perhaps they can play an actual chess game at some point in our thread.
Also, despite so little squares checked, there is almost a bingo if the manipulative square is being checked. I think Nun would assume he qualifies for it, but she might be wrong.
// Gabriele
“…”
Staring, somewhat sheepishly, at the bingo card. There must be some mistake. Bingo? With Gabriele Vasco? That’s ridiculous! He cannot even stand her in the same room. Nunnally is sure he’ll be avoiding her. But she is not that easy to be avoided if she wants to. The question is does she? Perhaps she should take some interest in him? Explore the possibilities...Perhaps at least he can give her something she really wants: --
“Will you really teach me how to use a gun?”
@distopea
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no bc 15-year-old V was so afraid of posting fanfics or even write like yeah go little girl go
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Most fucked up chocolate i have ever seen
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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?
they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.
you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.
you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.
mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.
you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.
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*I worship you Tumblr don’t remove it
Once upon a time
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