I really enjoy drawing this little man completely terrified

The duality of Steven Grant is the reason why I'm in love with him

i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure i hate academic pressure I hate

*in school*

Friend: you should do your seagull noise lol

Me: lol ok

Me: *does an incredibly accurate seagull impression*

Teacher: the fuck?

Edit: tags

I'm stressed and nervous about my exams. all my school has been talking about is the exams. why can't they just shut the fuck up about exams.

students are exhausted by the time they get home from school and then have to revise, do homework, and spend how many hours in classrooms and do work.

We need a break. We're exhausted. Can't you see that?

me after uploading once a month

My school is gonna open tomorrow and am really nervous about it and I also hate school cus I don't have a friends after I got broke my friends well theres just my classmates that I chat with now etc I mean am not really sad but eh what happened is happened I can't change the past and the best thing I can do is to move forward which am doing <3 but anyways this blog has been my comfort zone and I have a lots of amazing besties here looking at you @raamitsu 😌 they are really sweet and fun to talk to like @thefieryphoenix and @bunbuns-cottage, @izukuisbaby, @carnationhcs, @my-stupid-advice, @smiles-advice, @k4tsukissi,@japanlover231, @life-full-of-mystery so on <3 you guys have been the best ❤❤ and I really appreciate you guys a lot ❤❤anyways school is gonna be chaotic imao and sorry for my little rant too

TW!!: HORROR THEMES

I've decided to do weekly sketch pages of little drawings I do at school. This is week one.

@worstoftimesbestofcrimes would you sit on my log with me?

Nobody asked but im kinda freaking out rn because like 2 days ago my teacher announced a group project where we have to translate english songs to our language and sing it (and also play whatever instruments we have for it) and since they know i know piano they asked me (politely) to learn the song in piano, and due to me being an absolute spineless fool i said 'yea sure'

So now i have uNTIL TOMORROW TO LEARN IT, and ive only memorized the first verse, WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW SCREWED I AM( along with preparing for a math quiz and a recitation) I might become a burnout but rn im just ON FIREEEEE

but yea

When you actually have to study instead of looking at dark academia posts all day

Oh, recently found out someone in my school is a lunatic.

Hates woman (said he would kill every female), says there’s only 2 genders then proceeds to list off sexes, said he admires h!tl3r and Andrew tate, says war wasn’t that bad and wants more wars, misogynistic, a lot of dumb shit. Yet I’m struggling on hearing him since he wears a mask.

And the person that sits him between me and him is almost as bad. Doesn’t like h1tl3r or Andrew tate, doesn’t support transgender people (like he thinks it’s a mental disorder), he also wants war, isn’t as much as a misogynist as his friend.

Then the staff at my school are confused why I don’t wanna go.

Not me forgetting that I had a meeting with my advisor for the new college I’m transferring to and completely missing it😀🙂🙃

I’m embarrassed and v sad 😩

…excuse me while I think about this for the next few days….

*in school*

Friend #1: did you know that you can buy like 4 gallons of lube on Amazon???

Friend #2: what? Why? Why would you need that

Me: you can use coconut oil too :)

Friend #3: ...??!??!

NEWS!!!!

Hello everybody, how is it going? Sorry for being inactive, back to school was 2 weeks ago and I am a little bit already overwhelmed by thinking of my year. This year, I am in première (i'm french) (equivalent of the 11th grade or the year 12) and this is the year before my last year of school so I'm thinking about my future etc etc. I don't really enjoy school, last year was traumatising for me because all the system was different and some of my teachers were really opressive, so I was very perfectionist and I just destroyed my mental health just to make my teachers happy but I wasn't and it is the most important thing, to be happy. This year seems to be better because in the french system, you have to chose, in première, 3 subjects in particular, I choose art, english contemporary world and humanity, litterature and philosophy (hlp) so it's less stressful than a lot of subjects that we have in seconde (10th grade) like economy (I had the baddest grade of my entire life :')). There are also a lot of people that I don't like in my class but with the subjects, I see them once or twice per days so it's cool :))). In art we did some casting of our faces with plaster bands and we filled the cast with some liquid plaster and I really enjoyed that!!!

Sorry for the long text but I'm very chatty :')

See you later !!

the terror that set in when the quiz was too easy and my numbers were too perfect and then when i tried to upload my work it said i couldnt access my email so i thought i did things wrong and broke a rule and thought i was going to get in trouble

Eternal

I am not afraid of dying I am afraid of living like this forever

I’m going through the motions and for what?

I am not happy here. I don’t know if my goals are worth it.

Will I just end up like this forever?

I want to stand in the forest and make my own food, knife carving fruit into careful shapes,

Feet by the fire, staring up at the stars,

Watching the darkening sky beneath a whistling and creaking canopy

As stars are born and my friends stir gently in sleep.

I want a life. A life!

To return to world of wild and old, and surviving off of teeth and claw and kindness

Where there are stars, my dear, stars! A tapestry across the sky.

 I want to be happy, I do.

But I’m just tired.