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autoneurotic · 1 year

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do you guys wanna know something insane. i was 1 pound when i was born.

#i wish i had a baby pic of me i just talked ab it in the tags of a post #but i was born so premature #it’s my life so i take that for granted kinda but it’s insane #i was born at the end of my moms second trimester #had to be kept in an incubator NO TOUCH until my due date (14/02/94 i was born 23/11/93)#like that’s fucking insane. there was a drug that came out the year before i was conceived #that helped idk. strengthen babies in the womb. and had i been born before that. well. i would not have been born #saved my life and my moms!#just insane to think i’m literally in terms of weight over 100 times bigger haha #i could fit!!! i could FIT IN MY DADS PALM. LIKE MY HEAD AT HIS FINGER TIPS MY TOES JUST OAST HIS WRIST!

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myokk · 29 days

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the summer before Hogwarts🫶

in my mind, Sebastian is a huge planner & he always insisted on bringing too much along whenever he and Anne went on adventures. It’s always better to be prepared than to realize you forgot something at home😤

the next drawing will be Anne so you can compare the two😂💓

#I love thinking about their childhood so much🤧#this is a scene from my fic 🥹💓#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #sebastian sallow #anne sallow #today I was walking to work and an old woman asked me where the library was and I had time so I walked with her there #I can’t give directions to save my life #turns out we have the same favorite book 🥹#then she told me ‘qué bien te parió tu madre’ jajajajajaja (my mom did a good job giving birth to me)#god I love old women & they give the funniest compliments #anyways hope you’re all having an amazing day too💓

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prismatic-bell · 5 months

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Simon died today.

Rest in peace, my sweet little boy.

#tw pet death #he saved my life #and my mom’s #just by loving #he deserved to live forever and have ALL the treats

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coolerhope · 3 months

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I headcanon that Wyll and Gale take turns when it comes to cooking for the party, with the other being the "sous-chef". (Gale having more experience cooking overall but Wyll having more experience cooking outdoors). They learn a lot from each other.

However, Wyll quickly learns (like Gale's old teachers at Blackstaff) to give Gale little tasks while he cooks otherwise Gale's gonna be an annoying little backseater while Wyll is trying to cook.

#bg3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #wyll ravengard #i think Wyll only knows how to cook a few recipes but does them well #(had to learn all by himself after getting banished)#maybe a few more recipes thought by people he's saved #for Gale my headcanon is that Gale used cooking as a way to practice his magic #to get better at something you should make it a part of your every day life which is what Gale did to practice magic while cooking #also to help his mom out

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rexscanonwife · 1 month

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Ok FINE maybe I'll listen to Epic the Musical

#jane journals #self insert talk #sortaaa im gonna do some screaming in da tags. but first #star wars #the phantom menace #attack of the clones #anakin skywalker #shmi skywalker #🔥 general hothead 🔥#UROGGGHH THROWING UP AND CRYING AND ASKING WHERE MY PHONE IS 😭😭😭#ITS SAD ENOUGH WHEN I THINK ABOUT ANAKIN FOR TOO LONG #but when i think about his MOM #the only person. only FRIEND he had for the first 8 years of his life #and being unable to save her was just the first of a domino effect of wanting to hold on to the people he loves #a cycle that drove him to the dark side #i dont think it was a bad kind of selfishness but it WAS selfish #and exacerbated by the jedi and EXPLOITED by palpatine UGGHH #i think if brea had been there it might have been a little easier on him #but...yeah. have fun with this

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ovaruling · 8 months

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maybe a hot take but please don’t have or stop having children if you have an active eating disorder/body dysmorphia (including binge eating, not just restrictive disorders). seriously

thinking you’ll be the exception (because you’re So self-aware, unlike those Other disordered women) and won’t give your dysmorphia/eating disorder to your child is pride before a very slow and terrible fall

it never ever works. you’re never ever immune. i mean, such a huge reason of why there are so many of us now is bc our moms thought the same thing lmfao. didn’t matter how well-intentioned they were. no matter how much they tried to separate Their Problems from Ours. here we fucking are

i know it’s not women’s fault to begin with, but the reality is that those of us affected do incubate, nurture, and pass on the virus in the Current Way of Things

the buck needs to stop here. this isn’t a game. think of all the things your mother probably thought she was expertly hiding from you that you still picked up on and were profoundly affected by in a terrible and formative way. it will happen to you, too. don’t think it won’t.

if you know that you’re not solidly and confidently recovered, you have a responsibility to stop that buck and not actively attempt to create a child who will observe, mimic, internalize, adopt, and inherit your lifelong life-ruining behavior. the selfishness is breathtaking honestly

#eating disorders are one of the most treatment-resistant behavioral issues out there #once they take firm root #this is not quite the same as ‘don’t have children if you’re even a little bit mentally ill’ btw before anyone thinks it is #this is a very specific problem #and it is LEARNED #you cant always protect your child from the outside world influence but you can do something about what your child starts with at home #i am recovered now but i could’ve saved my whole life if my mom hadn’t been dieting when i was 7 #so i started dieting too #bc she was my mom and i did what she did #cuz i was fucking 7 #she never told me what a diet was. i just observed her.#and when she binged EYE binged #i blame her always for my food addiction

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bonefall · 2 months

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My birthday was a couple days ago, and I got to see my bio dad for the first time in a while. He surprised me with the fact that I have a little half-sister, whom I've never met and who was adopted about two years back. So, I wondered if any situations in BB mimic this or have a theme of "secret siblings" or "secret family"? Sorry if this is a weird ask; this blog is honestly just such a cool little place and I love the way you approach the subject matter and take the flawed misogynistic foundation of the WC books and make them so much better (JUSTICE FOR BUMBLE!!!). I've also learned a lot about healthy and unhealthy relationships here and am really glad for your deep dives on Squilf and Bramble. Thanks, Bones!

Not weird at all! I really like exploring all the little nooks and crannies of complicated familial dynamics. I think one of the untapped strengths of WC (that the writers seem to be unaware of) is how their MASSIVE cast allows them to present all sorts of unique dynamics. So I like to pick up on it, since they don't.

For secret siblings...

I'm pretty heavily leaning towards Ambermoon being adopted by Wildfur, as a surrogacy. Something feels correct about it. Especially since Icecloud is getting retooled into a post-Battle of the True Eclipse birth, and a major supporting character in AVoS-era stories as a friend of Alderheart.

Thinking about it, I should zoom in and expand this. Maybe have Icecloud, somehow, acquire forbidden knowledge that would invalidate the Queen’s Rights and he (transman) struggles with if he's going to use it to expose his parents as an excuse to help Ambermoon.

(Especially since Ambermoon and Icecloud are basically nothing alike. Amber is independent, bold, and vain. Ice is jessie pinkman big-hearted, disorganized, and deceptively meek if you look past his "chill" demeanor)

But that's wip-- there's also Breezepelt and the Three, who are going to have an actual friendship. In particular I can't unsee Breeze and Lion having a deep one. I know I commit the Cardinal Sin of borderline himbo-ifying Lionblaze in BB, but I can't help it.

Hollyleaf ended up nabbing a bunch of his most violent roles to make her villainous descent smoother narratively, so BB!Lionblaze's story ends up being more focused on Ashfur's abuse, comic relief with cats in other Clans (something that the very serious Jay and Holly have a hard time providing), and the emotional fallout of the big reveal and Bramblestar's turn on them. Breezepelt slots neatly into that.

They were friends. Lionblaze's whole life came down around the reveal, everyone looking at him and his siblings differently, like they're suddenly something terrible. Why can't we find a silver lining, Breezepelt? Why can't we call ourselves brothers if the whole world is going to do it anyway? So much is changing, but THIS doesn't have to, we will take their weapon and turn it to armor, my ally, my friend, my brother.

(and when Breezepelt is lashing out at the three because of the Dark Forest's influence, Lionblaze is there, taking the blows and trying not to give in to the impulse to send him flying with a single paw)

There's also Harespring and Kestrelflight of WindClan and Owlclaw of ShadowClan. All of them are from a single litter between Whitewater and Mudclaw. She was going to raise the three of them alone as ShadowClan cats, but when the sire was smote, Whitewater felt they were cursed.

She was able to give the oldest two to their bio-uncle, Torear, but the weather was so bad that day and the runt was so sickly and small that it surely would have killed him. I don't think Owlclaw ever finds out why his mother always treated him with suspicion, but it did mess him up horribly.

Over in BB!DOTC, Thunder Storm is getting more half-siblings earlier. Clear Sky and Falling Feather had two daughters-- Pale Sky and Tiger Sky.

I want to explore the way that the various stages of Clear Sky's life acted on his kids. How any little curiosity Thunder Storm had about the life he might have had if he wasn't abandoned is crushed by seeing kittens who weren't. How Clear's favoritism of his oldest child set the trio against each other from the start. How this idea of "love" is toxic yet intoxicating.

It feels good to be the golden child. The power it gives you over his sycophants is satisfying. To know you, and you alone, have what someone else craves. Problem is, that's conditional, and it's cruel.

What Thunder Storm learns from his time with his biodad is that Clear Sky is not his father at all. He's taught him exactly what he DOESN'T want to be. There may be similarities-- in temperament, in physical prowess (though BB!Thunder is three-legged, he's still ripped), in taste and senses. But Thunder Storm's father is Shaded Flower.

(BB!Gray Wing died in the first book, rescuing Shaded Flower from being trampled by a horse. Xey're a patron of wisdom, Shaded Moss is taking the role of fatherhood to Thunder)

His sister is Rainswept Flower. His mom is Bright Storm. If there was a bond he could have had with Tiger Sky and Pale Sky, it dies simply and cruelly on the knife they used to cut each other out.

Pale might have wanted to mend it, she was the gentler one. But she dies in the First Battle along with her mother. Tiger Sky is too stubborn to accept any help, should Thunderstar offer it, and Thunderstar isn't in the business of begging for others to like him.

Naturally I'm lowkey obsessed with them lmao. I need to make a BB!DOTC overviewww

#I have a perspective on half siblings colored by a dynamic in my family #The generation above me has two siblings who had an awful biodad and an amazing stepdad (who did officially adopt them)#And there was nothing ''natural'' or good about how one of them was obsessed with their biodad.#It was influenced by his surroundings and did nothing but drag an incredibly toxic man back into his sister's life #Over and over #But anyway the son used to tell me ''theres no half in siblings''#The daughter adored her halfbrother through the mother who raised them-- but was adamant that her biodad's newer kids were nothing to her #I guess I agree with the son. But not in the way he believes it #There's no half in siblings because you either Are. Or you are Not.#You have a shared experience with having that person as a parent or you don't. And that's what's unchanging.#It's not the blood; it's the sweat and tears. But anyhoo #Personal details of my life aside #Tiger Sky and Pale Sky are Clear's Dead Angel Fetus Children in-canon. I think that was Weird.#So instead I made them. Not. Dead angel fetus children....#They're characters now lmaoo #Better bones au #I think Tiger Sky (i call her Tigs in my head a lot) is one of my favorite kit saves ever though #She's not going to be from the last litter either. I haven't picked who the mom is yet but he does have even more #At least one of those is going to make a grab at power but um. Sparrow Heart will not react Well.#BASICALLY lads I'm cooking. My revamps of the DOTC characters basically write themselves because I am very fond of them.#Clear's youngest: ''OH I JUST CANT WAIT TO BE KI-"#Sparrowstar: ''-lled.''

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lgbtlunaverse · 9 months

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I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.

Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.

Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.

Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.

Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.

Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.

Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.

#mdzs #mdzs meta #meng yao #jin guangyao #lan xichen #nie mingjue #3zun #xiyao #rs: i wish it could've been you #honestly which is worse for xichen. Being denied his wish explicitly or only realizing he wanted it after it'd already been denied for him #OR genuinely not wanting to die but being forced to live with the fact that even after he essentially killed him jgy still saved his life #just another way he's in his debt #like no matter what he's not coming out of here okay #i switch between a bunch of these all the time but actually favor the last 2 because they're very underexplored in my opinion #I like it when 'i never even thought about hurting you' remains true to the bitter end. He never even considered it #also I just... have a lot of feelings about that being his mom's coffin #do you remember that in the novel the coffin was so heavy only sect leaders could bear the weight?#so for the burial a group of sect leaders had to be the pallbearers... the SYMBOLISM GUYS!! THE SYMBOLISM!#jgy dies in infamy but despite everything it's the highest of cultivation society who carry the coffin he's buried in #he's in the same coffin as a great sect leader!! As nmj!! After a whole life fighting an uphill battle finally in death they are equal #it's not justice and it's not fair but it's... something #wwx's interpretation is the one i favour the least. sorry bro you remain an unreliable narrator to me.#it feels rather uncharitable towards jgy which makes sense for wwx's pov but makes it not my favorite #there's an alternative version of that intepretation where jgy THINKS he's doing the coffin trio pact and thinks xichen accepts.#and has the same realization of oh no he still cares I don't want him to die and pushes lxc away #meanwhile lan xichen hasn't actually processed any of this because it all happened in about 0.4 seconds #i like that one slightly more but it's still not my favorite #there's tragedy in the misunderstanding but it's a bit convoluted.

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slythmultishipper · 10 months

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"Jiang Cheng never thought of Wei Wuxian as an equal or a brother because he never explicitly stated it."

Oh no, its almost as if there is someone who continuously scolds them for hanging out together much less refer to each other as equals....

its also as if them referring to each other as that could possibly add fuel to existing rumours which could potentially ruin their family life.

#jiang cheng #canon jiang cheng #always hilarious to me when some people use this as an example of Jiang Cheng seeing Wei Wuxian as just a servant to sacrifice #like sure dude #I also jump in front of my mom's whip to save my servant #I also sacrifice my life and basically my family's future for my servant #all while not thinking of them as my equal or even respecting them #everyone does that obviously #you think Yu Ziyuan wouldn't immediately qi deviate when she hears them call each other brothers?#but hey #what do I know #I'm just a girl with no reading comprehension.

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sbd-laytall · 17 days

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Smallville | 4.11 | "Unsafe"

Teen Wolf | 2.03 | "Ice Pick"

#that feeling when you're a super powerful being who always saves the day but you still can't ice skate 🤦‍♂️#no but I love how goofy both of these scenes are #ice skating dates 🫶#you could also just parallel Clark and Scott in general #both want to be human more than anything but slowly grow to come to terms with themselves #both fall in love ridiculously quickly #both have badass moms who I will forever admire and look up to #both have sarcastic smart best friends (Chloe and Stiles)#both technically die and come back to life #clark kent #smallville #scott mccall #teen wolf #gifs are mine #my post

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trunklewunjle · 5 months

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Woe bone pile sheet be upon ye

Ink belongs to comyet

Error belongs to CrayonQueen

Cross belongs to JakeiArtWork

Dream belongs to Jokublog

#cross sans #undertale au #dream sans #error sans #ink sans #crink #crosserror #utmv #drink rockers #drink #errordream #errink #I promised myself I would draw drink rockers at least once every year throughout the whole year #I would literally walk down the street and take a left turn on my neighborhood and walk to my local pick n save to buy a pillow and blanket #to lay in the middle of the road because the streets are full of snow from the previous day #the snow having coated the whole area in white the children screaming and laughing while they build snowmen that one day in the future they #will think back on such simple days when the only thing they had to worry about was not getting snow inside their boots so their socks #would not get wet and they would have to deal with the cold feeling until their mom told them to go inside #and then I wait for cars to run me over for them I love them so much they’re so silly #silly skeletons they are my whole life #SHHEHEGRHRGRHGRJSGRHRGHRGR CODMIGN OTU FO YM CAGE #WHY SRE THEY DO SILLY EHY ARE THEY SO CUTE WHY ARE JUST THEM THEY HAVE MY ENTIRE SOUL AND HEART I WOULD MELT MYSELF INTO A ROCK IF THEY #ASKED ME TO WHY ARE THEY NOT REAL WHY ARE THEY NOT IN MY HOUSE I NEED THEM IN MY LANE OF SIGHT I NEED THRM LIKE I NEED OCYGEN TO BREATHE #dink

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stuckinapril · 9 months

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Every day I wake up and my bookcase is the first thing I see and I fall in love w the world all over again

#actually my prized possession #a love letter (my mom bought it for me after I mentioned I’d like one in passing) and a lifeline (books save my life every day) in one #p

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angellurgy · 16 days

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im sorry

#im sorry that i lived #im sorry that i couldnt immediately be the martryr for mistreatment of tgirls by out sisters. im sorry i did what i did even though #no one will even see this #and im sorry for whats gonna happen #im not saying this for you. but im sorry i stretched it out this long. my life #this event. all of it #im sorry for wanting too much #im sorry for trying after i lived n im sorry i didnt immediately do it again #if only i let everyone think i was still dead.#and im sorry i still csnt talk or respond to msgs #i have 60 unread and i just cant #i see some bht i just cant muster the energy to respond #so. this stuff isnt abt u #im sorry for being rude in my suicidality and saying things wrongm im sorry for ruining the way you see me n our friendships #-to the four who fell through #im sorry you wont see this. csnt see this. im sorry it wont get better cause im too deep in the pit and youre too. well #normal.#i already said this shit. but oh how i love the terrible fucking isolation you 'save and love your sisters' people put on me-#-and that i continued.#im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry #whats even the point #when i try im just beaten back down #and moms not even here to care now #even if the passport application works out. now i have no one who would care enough to take me in. im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry #queue

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undertheredhood · 5 months

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AU where after dying in the pidw timeline, shen jiu is reincarnated as none other than jiang cheng. at least this life is somewhat (although not by much) better than his past life.

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turtletoria · 1 year

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older sister!!!

#turtlearts #wordgirl #wg #in my mind. shes moved to fair city after her kid got into college or grad school or whatever.#also to watch over steven because shes nervous for him after years of no contact with him. and seeing him on the news being insane #also shes an attorney because i thought it would be super funny if sally and charlie became really good friends #sallys so excited to train her or show her the ropes or smth and charlie is charmed by this very peppy lady #i have a very specific scenario in my mind that i want to save in my back pocket but its so funny i think abt it every damn day #but if she wasnt an attorney i was thinking about her being an english teacher. or even a stay at home mom #but lawyer is funniest #for now #also funny factoid is that her name was sarah in my mind but i decided to change it because i know way too many sarahs in real life #sarah is a pretty name but i think its awkward to have a fictional char share a name w/ ppl u know irl ahahaha #her second name was susan but i didnt rlly like it #charlie came to me in a dream #just kidding its the name of a char in fnaf and i liked it

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maddykomtrikru · 11 months

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i wanna know know lydia’s thoughts and feelings when she first saw cynthia walk into drama club. i wanna know all about her past and why she wanted to be a thespian. i want her whole life story

#I NEED SOMEONE TO SAVE ROTPL #ITS MY WHOLE LIFE NOW #as someone who loved grease as a kid this show owns my heart #also gay people #i need someone to write an in depth character analysis on lydia #also on cynthia #i wanna know what happened to her mom #cynthia rotpl #lydia rotpl #lynthia #thesbians #rise of the pink ladies

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