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21stcenturyschizoidfag · 7 months

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OK SO. HERE IS.. avery 21stcenturyschizoidfags very silly impromptu mewtuals hunger games simulator thingulator post. this thing was fucking long i didnt realise maybe i'm just crazy and beautiful. will post the next bit after

AS A REMINDER HERE IS THE ROSTER.. i didnt really have any specific metric for who i added i just added who i thought would find this funny to be totally honest. and the caroline polacheks mole v azealia banks spoon thing is a reference to this i just find it really funny because i dont personally like caroline polacheks music also i ahve a facial mole like hers too. OK LETS BEGIN. BTW click on the images to see them better :)

da bloodbath

shaan being so scary like halloween time... ANA FUCKING DOWN LIKE STRAIGHT AWAY due to famed non-binary lesbian ally nicolas cage dracula in the movie renfield 2023... papa pavel and baby emilio working together ahh so cutes.. ram said im NOT starving in here. dee plans to FIGHT. everyone else gets the hell out of there

I FUCKING STRANGLED ISA TO DEATH ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ann doing everyone a favor and scaring that mole out of here.. aviv and cassis working together awww so friendlys. Someone gave proxy bombs which is very scary dont trust him with those his icon is the joker for a reason

day one and fallen tributes

dee and pavel each get stuff from one of numerous stans worldwide. mia sneaks up on mr. flow3 while hes busy writing dracula flow 4.. mr cage dracula and my friend olive feeling adventurous. mariam gets craftyyy and ellie wellie is homesick for equestria.. scott is a feminist as expected and scare-ah lives to see another day

cassis doing some tom and jerry stuff to accy OKAYY.. carolines mole uses its connections to caroline polachek proper (its attached to her face -_-) to get UNFAIR support from a stan. Nobody is surprised. BIGENDER TEAMUP from me and shaan.. I dont know how xe can bear to be around me after i STRANGLED ISA. TO DEATH. The oomfs are going hunting.. and then proxy takes my son hunting. I SURE HOPE NOTHING HAPPENS TO MY SON. & we mourn the loss of two souls. gone too soon.. gone too soon

night one

this broke my heart the fact that emilio is having trouble sleeping like EMILIOOO ): I LOVE YOU.. max doing everyone a favor by killing carolines mole BUT with the INCREDIBLY tragic loss of ELLIEEE.. mia and proxy chilling.. vi being an incredible chef and resourceful at that. is anyone surprised (smiles beautifully). the INSANE triple combo death of two incredible gay men and a beautiful and insane bigender. TRAGIC TRAGIC SHIT? Pavel spares the life of mr. flow3. Cassis has a little nap in a tree.. mariam having a mariam moment and ram REFUSING to allow it. mariam LIVES. ann like vi is very skilled in the kitchen and everyone claps and smiles. Me and that FUCKING spoon seem to have hit it off

day two and fallen tributes

emilio, accy & cassis are feeling adventurous asf.. me + olive + ram + sarah decide its time for food innit. AVIV PAVEL DEE AND MIA DIE. JUST LIKE THAT? THEY JUST DIE. THEY JSUT DIED? LIKE THAT. THEYRE DEAD NOW. LIKE BYE EVERYONE THEYRE JUST DEAD? i will mourn them. mariam and max are IN. THE TRENCHES. watch out please.. proxy and mr. flow3 are getting their battle tactics in

Rest in peace to these fucking legends. We lost so many in ONE FUCKING ROUND. so many incredible individuals just gone like that. Greyed out pavel kitten and slay sister callie is making me scream laughing. Scoot and paddington greyed out is like who are these two little scamps. Good lord. GOOD LORD.

night two

Ram is sick what the hell when did that happen. IM IN TEARS OVER MARIAM BEGGING ANOTHER PERSON TO KILL HER. LIKE GIRL I KNOW ITS THE HUNGER GAMES BUT IM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW CAN YOU STOP? & LIKE ASKING MY SON TOO?? trenches. cassis sabotages THE SAD FROWNER scare-ah (maybe its for the best..) A spoon climbs a tree. i would love to see that. mr flow3 and ann also climb trees.. Olive is so focking cold. Dogboy bonding.. theyre giving proxy more fucking explosives i swear to g-d. OK accy looking at the night sky did make me a bit emotional because like he IS an alien.. is he homesick too? im so sorry. they took your ufo away from you to put you in these sick and twisted games..

TO BE CONTINUED..

#averyposting #sillies

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justalittlebeekeeper · 9 days

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All Tumblr Days Of The Week I Have Seen

A while ago I started making a compilation (without links unfortunately, because I am lazy) of all the Tumblr Days of the Week I have seen cross my dash, because I think it's silly and interesting and I wanted to catalog it. I didn't have any intention of sharing it, but I realized it had gotten pretty long, and who knows, maybe someone else would be interested. So, without further ado, in the order of the week:

Stupid fucking slut Sunday

Fingers in his ass Sunday

Six sentence Sunday

Suck her silly Sunday

Jungle Sunday

Shawty like a melody Sunday

Swipe him Sunday

Break stuff Sunday

Girlbulge Sunday

Polar bear Sunday

Sluggish Sunday

Somebody Else Is Gonna Have To Do It Sunday

Send me on my way Sunday

Smooch Shark Sunday

Smooth Shark Sunday

Yes Snakes Sunday

Al Pacino girl look at that rat Sunday

Kiss your mutual Monday

Sad ant with a bindle Monday

Exploding money Monday

Let's get it on cunts Monday

Maim him Monday

Sparkle on it's Wednesday Monday

We're just normal men Wednesday Monday

The missile knows where it is Monday

ps5 brain Monday

Mimir Monday

Bare Minimum Monday

Simply don't Monday

Me if I was lobsta🦞 Monday

Mole interest Monday

Safe to leave the bog Tuesday

Twelve bricks Tuesday

I thought it was Wednesday Tuesday

Tuesday light me up

End of my rope Tuesday

Wednesday is tomorrow innit Tuesday

Funky fellow Tuesday

Trash him Tuesday

Meeting on the turret stairs Tuesday

Turn off Tumblr Live Tuesday

Tired Tuesday

Trying Not To Feel Doomed Tuesday

Too Tired to Care Tuesday

tdick Tuesday

Unethical science Tuesday

Toss him Tuesday (one piece)

No Snakes Tuesday

Tuesday again? No Problem

Toasting him Tuesday

Tumblr Tuesday: National Nothing Day (by staff)

You rockin with time theft tuesday?!

This thing Tuesday

Tuck him in Tuesday

Wedical Wystery Wednesday

White Boy Wednesday

WIP Wednesday

Wet Beast Wednesday

Wob Wednesday (mp100)

End of my rope tuesday Wednesday

Wednesday Wednesday (Addams family)

It's Wednesday or as I like to call it Thursday

WAAAAAAAAAAA Wednesday (mp100)

Whoop him Wednesday

The massive "It is Wednesday" post

El woowoo Wednesday

It's Wednesday, or as I like to call it, the Ides of March

Weary Wednesday

Whatever I can get away with Wednesday

Wet rat Wednesday

We're just normal men Wednesday

Woodcock Wednesday

White Girl Wednesday

Remembering the passage of time Wednesday

Do it weird Wednesday

Dry beast Wednesday

Bigweld Wednesday

Weevil Wednesday

Its Comes Fucks Me Wednesday

Out of Touch Thursday

Thottie Thursday, or as I like to call it, Sunday

Lord Foog the 2st Thursday

Present Mic's concave ass Thursday (bnha)

We put the they in them Thursday

Thumping him Thursday

Out of touch Touya Thursday (bnha)

Unlimited brutality 5 for $5 on Thursdays

Onto better things Thursday

Tuckered out Thursday

This job sucks Thursday

Fire Gator Thursday

Very specific archive Thursday

Flat fuck Friday

Thank Gnome it's Friday

Frankie Friday (one piece fandom)

Bean Hole Bfriday

Flatworm Friday

Fuck him on the forest floor Friday

Fuck your mutual from behind Friday

Frilled shark Friday

Fuck him up Friday

Bully your mutuals Friday

Big Dumb Idiot Baby Apple Fight Friday

Electric phallus Friday

Faint Friday

Fat fuck Friday

Fuck it Friday

Lesbian Friday

Frigate friggin' Friday

Street fighter fuck her from behind Friday

Stroganoff Saturday

Slapping him Saturday

Sad slav Saturday

Snoozy Saturday

Say on my ass Saturday

Dragon Saturday

Sludge Saturday Baby

Small joys Saturday

Beat the shit out of him Saturday

Saturday shorts

Bonuses:

Penisula thurtueswednesday

happy woke up thinking it was wednesday sunday but it was actually fucking friday tuesday

#tumblr days of the week #sunday #monday #tuesday #wednesday #thursday #friday #saturday

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saanphoenix · 2 years

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I love that in that "Literal Japanese Translation" post, Aerith is all, "If someone Sephiroth really cared about died, he wouldn't care! He only cares about himself! 😤"

Aerith. Sweetie. Baby. Honey. Baby girl.

... EVERY ONE HE EVER CARED ABOUT HAS ALREADY DIED OR BETRAYED HIM (and then died)!

Like. He ain't got nothing to lose!

Except that's not completely true, is it?

He's got his memories. The good, the bad, the ugly. He's got his connection with Cloud, no matter how fucked up said connection was forged. And evidence suggests that he is, in fact, fighting tooth and nail to keep hold of what he cares about.

Within the context of Remake Part 1, Aerith and Sephiroth are the same. They are both trying to preserve their experiences.

Aerith stops Cloud on the highway because the version of Cloud, and everyone else, that she knows have come from memories of a future her. You know exactly which version. And to Pull The Lever, Kronk! to change capital "D" Destiny means HER version of both herself and Cloud, as well as the future itself, becomes UNKNOWABLE. Which is SCARY, INNIT?

Y'know how Barret's catchphrase is, "There ain't no getting off this train we're on!" ...and then he physically jumps off the train they are on? Yeah, turns out you CAN get off the train you are on. You just have to kill a Weapon, the Planet's last line of defense, and then you look out at the branching pathways of the timeline, I mean Lifestream, and you go, "Sylvie, what did you do? We get Tobey McGuire back but at what COST?!"

(That's a Marvel reference for the fortunate few of you who have never Marvel'd before.)

Meanwhile, Sephiroth is inviting change to future events by trolling the party and making Cloud dance to his merry little tune so that, at the end of everything, there ISN'T an end to everything. Because if everything ends then he ends. His memories, his experiences, poof out of existence and become background radiation for the cosmos. Theoretically. Unless reincarnation happens on a cosmic scale. But, even so, if Sephiroth comes back as a Gucci model in France, he's not really Sephiroth, now is he? And that's just not acceptable, Cloud. I won't have it.

Aerith doesn't want to lose the relationships she is going to have, should have had, and Sephiroth doesn't want to lose those that he did have. At least, as I said before, within context of Remake Part 1. Aerith chastises Sephiroth for being selfish while also being selfish herself. Sephiroth chastises Aerith for being sentimental while also being sentimental himself.

The English translation is missing out on so much characterization and thematic potential between these two characters and that makes me sad.

#ffvii remake #long post #sephiroth #aerith gainsborough #ffvii

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dreamingamongthestars · 1 year

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Hermie

Currently an F1 blog with a side of occasional deltarune shitposting (my ut/dr side blog is @princeyralsei)

Max and Charles stan first, human being second 💙❤🦁🐎🧍‍♂️🚶‍♂️

Also adore bestie Daniel, Carlos, Fernando, Lando, Alex, Logan, Lance, and Seb 💛❤🧡💚💙💜

I also find Lewis Hamilton to be very cool and handsome despite being a Max fan LOL 🤭🤭🤭🤭💜💛💜💛

Can't go to horny jail if I'm already in it

Featured tags include: (under the cut)

F1 Duos

#lestappen

#carlando

#piarles

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#sewis

#valewis or vallewis i forgor lol

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Other f1 tags

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Other

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sammygender · 9 months

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truly personally cannot stand that Genre of post/quote where it’s like. Girls have SO MUCH WRONG WITH THEM that boys will never get. woman are born with sadness baked in….. girls always have stomach pain or headaches boys will never understand this. because i do like really get why they appeal to women especially cis women. and often they’re very profound or whatever or from media or said by people i really respect. but its just another form of gender essentialism innit. we are neverrrr getting out of here. also isn’t it like lowkey just rebranded female hysteria made empowering. Girls are innately more in pain innately crazier innately sadder innately- like. babe. you’re not innately anything

#like if there is a pattern where girls tend towards ‘mental illness’ more #which debatable and i don’t know enough but. but if so that’s not like. a biological fact bae it’s not innate #i know i whine too much about harmless gendered trends #i am. THE annoying feminist of sjw blue hair and pronouns fame.#but i actually don’t give a shit i will continue to nitpick every little Girls are more special and perfect and innately DEEPER than men #commentary. not because i’m annoyed by it as a guy (bc it is sometimes actually quite funny!) but because it’s sooo counterproductive #reminds me of those quotes #like. the ursula le guin one about making a cult of women’s knowledge #and the one about a woman’s nose #ill find them at some point. but #we will never stop bc yall are OBSESSED with gender!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!!!!!

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gayspock · 2 years

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ok so tbh i really need to prep for this interview im fucked with. let me lb peacekeeper wars instead. part 1

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIDBUDGET HELLAURRR

sorry im always blown away. i remember watching so many treks, and then seeing their movies after and foaming... those were obciously MUCH bigger leaps in terms of, like, production but its like... GOD I NEVER REALLY REALISE HOW THE USUAL SHOW LOOKS UNTIL THE SHIFT LOL HELP. i should really be more observant o_o

but THIS... WTF... BUDGET... SO SCARY

NEVERMIND EIYW9IFPAEK[GK[PSDPO THE. RYGEL SWIMMING ABOUT IS MAKING ME SCREAM. DOES ANYONE REMEMBER UHM. THE windows screensaver ? the aquarium? hes so that.... I FORGOT HE WAS LIKE SOME SORT OF UCCKING WET BEAST. also the transition of him in the water to above the wter is so funny

diagnosans are so cool i wish we got them more

ALTHOUGH ALSO GRUNCDGHDLDIK WHOSE NAME I CANNOT SPELL... SO FUNNY HE JUST POPPED BACK UP. DONT GIVE US AN EXPL-

SORRY

I JUST SAW

SIKOZUS' NEW

LOOKIMHAVING ... A CATEGORY 10 WOMAN EVENT. IIS OCCURING ON MY SCREEN

ANYWAYS i want to say: like.... for the record, im kinda disappointed that they did fix john and aeryn's predicament so fast. its fine- its FIINEEE- like... its just the cheap cliffhangers are kinda so tired lol. its hardly the worst in the world, but its annoying- although WELL AT LEAST WE CAN GET ON WITH IT, SO LETS NOT FUSS....

BUT actually no i mean. i am also annoyed they fixed chianas blindness soo easily too like COME ON GUYS!! COMMIT TO THE THINGS YOU DO. SHEESH

ALTHOUGH this whole recap is so cute i love it when they do stuff like this - o rat least, when they do it right like here with john .... johns one of the few who could carry like this

THAT BALD CUNT WAS ON EASTENDERS

WHY ARE THEY KIRA NERYSing RYGEL THIS IS SO... YOURE LYINGGGGGG. BE QUEIT. i assume theyre jsut trying to avoid complications- want aeryn in on the action and stuff- and rygel is always out of the action - but omg...

also its so nice they managed to pick stark up. i love his involvement here. but kill yourselves for cutting his hair it was so beautiful

"I heard the key to these things is being relaxed" d'argo youve had 1.5 failed marr- SORRY I CANT FINISH THAT JKOKE THATS TOO MEAN SORRY DARGO ITSNOT YOUR FAULTL

also is this actress officiating them the same one who played the sebacean lass who tortured her at the end of last season

actually i WILL also say: i love the slight revamping to everybodys prosthetics. noranti and the scarran lady both have slightly different looks . chiana's hair is also so nice

SORRY BUT SIKOZU IS SERVING SO BAD IM THROWING UP I AM SO OBSESSED SORRY IM EASYYYY. i said what i said in my last post- i wish they could have used her better, because i do actually REALLY like so much of her but ARHGH execution iwse hell on earth innit

hang on. fucking hell i dont know why- i totally forgot that... this would be wrapping EVERYTHING UP, do you know what i mean? i assumed itd be closing up just the immediate things for some reason- but oh christ, we're going back to the early s4 stuff. thats kinda funny bc i did not care for that LOL. but i'm game nonetheles.... will jool be back? smile.

"is he propositioning me?" CHIANA AOIDJAOSIFASFIAFJ

"however 😏it vibrates" MATE PLEASE

also sorry i didnt say anything but why is greyza so pregnant. girl i dont want you here osrry. although shes funny shes fucking mister eastenders . bald ass head.

HONEY YOURE POINTING A GUN AT TH E BABY! [cut to rygel] IS SO FUNNY

CAN THEY JSUT GET MARRIED

also so sad i said i love sikozu and her new look and i want to know more about what my girlie is up to but is she gonna do fuck all here LOL.... OH WELL.

i love it . peacekeeper infighting . you guys. <3 rip each other apart<3

ALSO GOD OWULD SCORPY AND CRICHTON QUIT IT. GIRLS GROW UP.

ALSO WAIT- so chiana's power is just... full-on, now? no price to pay for using it? BOOOO.

d'argo and aeryn bonding... SHUT UP I NEED MORE OF THAT. WHERES THE BROSHIP BETWEEN THEM, HUH. WE NEVER GET THAT EITHER.

hii 1812 omg hiiii- DONT TELL HIM TO SHUT UP JOHN I'LL KILL YOU SORRY I DONT MEAN THAT

omg hiii jool wow wee i didnt- ALRIGHT UHM. HI JOOL. GIRL HE'S ENGAGED

im sorry but the jokes theyre pulling with rygel actually are making me laugh. "theyre having MY baby." THE WAY HE SAYS IT LIKE THAT IS MAKING ME LOSE IT.

ALTHOUGH i will also say. as much as i have enjoyed this so far i dont really care that much, again, for the actual plot-plot... like all this with pikal, and with the temple stuff from the beginning of s4- i thought those eps were weak, and whilst i am open to more involvement with them, their approach here is as equally uninspiring. like, so what...? reuniting them will be able to bring peace? even if more complication arises, i feel like thats such a boring concept LOL. like- do you know what i mean? but fine thyeyre making it up with everything else

"crichton is your inferior." SIKOZU, GIRL FJSPOGKSPGKSDGPKDS PLEASE...

SORRY BUT

ALSO I HAVE SAID ALL IVE SAID ABOUT SIKOZU YEAH BUT LIKE. SIKOZU/SCORPIUS IS SO FUNNY. again i like sikozu as a character, and i think her insights arent unimportant- BUT HELL, HER AND SCORPY ARE SO FUNNY. LIKE COME ON. PLEASE. BFFR. I LIKED THIER DYNAMIC, IS THE THING - at least in s4 i did.... but a romance between them, or any sexual relationship just doesnt work. please.

okay the eidelons (googled their name) are going to get fucking decimated now arent they

i mean like i said i dont.... I DONT THINK ITS EVEN A GOOD CONCEPT TO ENTERTAIN. SHUT IT DOWN <3 ^_^

is jool about to die

imagine if jool just dieshere it'll be a little funny after everything she comes back and just-

jool?

hi sorry... UHM. EHRM. AWWWKWAARDDDDD

JOOL GIRL ARE YOU OKAY DOWN THERE LOL

dont SHOOT MOYA'S ASS COME ON NOW BE POLITE

"but im prEeGGNANT"

jesus fuCKING CHRIST HE JUST RIPPED OUT HIS HEAD RODS EEK OH EEKE SCORPY ARE YOU WELL

see okay i already didnt care about the eidelons being, like, the solution to the war - it doesnt make sense - but also like... i dont like the implication that humans were sebacean's ancestors, which im pretty sure thats where thats going. sorry. its annoying. what i loved so much about farscape is HOW much humans are like... rempved from everythin, theyre so nothing... theyre not some big, significant race in the universe. theyre not, like, the moral fucking centre like in star trek. i know one of my LEAST faourite doctor who fan theories is th at the time lords come from humans- like come on, man? i dont care about explaining why they look alike! its NOTHINGGGG to me.

i also hate how "small" it makes the universe. i hate coincedences and i hate people bumping into each other. ts so fucking limiting, man. SORRY. circhtons isolation is so hard hitting bc hes so far gone from everything and anything hes ever known and should never be able to return to where he was from. just leaae it

bUHM

UHM, IS DARGO AND CHIANA OKAY

UHM HELLO HEY GUYS

HEY GUYS ARE THEY FUCKING OKAY

LIKE JOKES ASIDE WE DID NOT EVEN SEE THEM SO EHRM . LIKE I MEAN WE DIDNT- DID WE? I MEAN- NO WAY THEYRE FINE.. HUH

"You will die, when I order it." "okay :<" HELP

OKAY DARGO BABY IS OKAY OHGOD- OH OH MY GOD THEYRE ALIVE I KNEW THEY HAD TO BE FUCK OFF.. FUCKING CHRIST

I LOVE THE WAY THEY FUCKING KEEP PUTTING DARGO INTO SPACE. THE BILLIONTH FUCKING TIME. ITS SO FUNNY SORRY. LET GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE!!!

the scarran emperor should just get this man. theres no way

im sorry I DONT CARE FOR THESE GUYS ITS SUCH A WEAK ASS CONCEPT. certainly i love the idea of negotiation and peace- but just some fuck random negotiator, please, i dont care. im fine with peace negotiations as resolutions - god, yes - but when its between parties that are actually engaged and dont have some ambiguous powers ... like cmon you cant fucking just magically fix INTERGALACTIC POLITICS. LIKE THIS. like come on be for real. "the secret of peace" - please....

OH THANK GOD CHIANA AND DARGO ARE- HELP THATS SO FUCKINH GUNNY... THATS- THATS JOTHEE?????? YOURE LYING. THATS SO FUNNY.

ALSO THERE-

YEP

I MEAN IT WAS OBVIOUS THE EIDELON(?) owuld jsut die but againe ven FUCKING.... entertaining it i cant STRESS how much i didnt care like come on be REAL . BE FOR REALL. -_-

guys what the fuck did you do to stark GUYS COME ON . LEAVE HIM ALONE.

ARE Q E STOPPING THERE

OKAY

END OF PART 1

I DD NEJOY THAT I MEN I DID HONESTLY HELP

#Egg.txt #FARSCAPE LIVEBLOG

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vivaamor · 1 year

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Let It Out

Pairing: Steve Harrington x Female!Reader

Summary: Based off this post lol @bit-odd-innit

Warnings: Sad Steve :( Steve finally allowing himself to grieve after the events of s4 :( I'm a monster I know

Word Count: 1.7k

Two months.

It had been a whole two months since the events of the Upside Down. The events that left everyone traumatized, that made everyone cower in fear at any sudden movement or unexpected noise. It had been two months since your life was flipped over seven different ways. Two months of freezing every time a clock dinged at a new hour of the day, two months of night terrors, and two months of utter stressed that could only be explained as post-traumatic stress. Everyone had changed in different ways.

Lucas had quit the basketball team and spent majority of his free time in the hospital at Max’s side. Dustin and Mike didn’t even mention Eddie after his funeral, and they never spoke of Dungeons and Dragons, not even a small reference. No one saw much of Will or Eleven, even after they returned to Hawkins to move back in with Hopper, they mostly stayed home. You didn’t see much of Jonathan or Nancy, either. Nancy always went to the cabin where Jonathan was living with Joyce and Hopper. As far as you knew, she had yet to even begin to touch on what she went through to Jonathan. According to Nancy, though, Jonathan was patient and told her she didn’t have to until she was ready. Robin, an already skittish and anxious girl, despised being alone even more than she already did. She would join Jonathan and Nancy at the cabin when she wasn’t at work, and she would frequently come to your apartment, where Steve had moved in. He didn’t like being alone, either.

You were jumpy and easily frightened, but that wasn’t out of the ordinary for experience what you did. You were suffering from insomnia and when you did sleep, there were the nightmares. The awful, gut-wrenching nightmares. Those were the worst of it. But Steve? Steve, however, was fine. At least that was what he had told you and everyone else. He was the one that comforted you after every bad dream, or who held you close and played with your hair to help you fall asleep when it seemed impossible. He was the person on the other end of the phone as three in the morning with Robin while she was having an anxiety attack. It was him who would go to Dustin’s house in the middle of the night when he thought he heard a noise downstairs. It was Steve who reassured everyone that they were safe, that Vecna would not rise from the dead just to kill another one of their friends.

Steve hadn’t cried. Usually, people would take that as a good thing, but you knew better. You knew he was hurting. You saw it in his eyes every waking moment. The sadness that lingered behind his honey brown irises every time he looked in the mirror at his naked abdomen, his own fingers ghosting over the scars. He didn’t even shed a tear at Eddie’s funeral, or when you all would go visit Max on a weekly basis. He was being strong. He was trying to be strong for everyone. It was no secret that he was the “group babysitter”. Not just to the kids, but to everyone. He was holding himself together, pushing his own emotions, trauma, and grief as far down as it would go so that he could help hold everyone’s heads above water. He wouldn’t allow himself to feel.

“Good morning,” Steve smiled sleepily, laid on his side and facing you as your eyes fluttered open, eyelids still heavy from the confines of your REM sleep. The sun peeped through the blinds, the yellow hue dancing over his naked, tanned skin. “How’d you sleep?” He spoke softly, his hand reaching out to move your hair out of your face. By the bags under his eyes, as well as the redness inside of them, you could tell he hadn’t slept well. He was always the last of the two of you to fall asleep but was always already awake by the time you woke up. He didn’t usually sleep very much.

You scooted closer to him, nuzzling your face up against his chest. “Good. No bad dreams.” You told him, lifting your head to press a chaste kiss against his full lips. “How did you sleep?”

“Good, too.” He assured you, running his fingers through your wavy hair. “You snore. You know that?”

You snorted and shook your head at your boyfriend. “I do not.” You grinned, reaching over for the glass that sat on the nightstand beside your shared bed. “Even though you tell me the same exact thing every morning.” Your hands grasped at the glass as you rose until you were sat up, leaning your back against the headframe of the bed. You pull the rim of the glass to your lips, only to pout when you realized it was empty. “Ah, damn.” You sighed, moving to lift yourself from the bed, until Steve’s hand circled your forearm.

“Where you going?” He mumbled, rubbing his hand over his face, and tugging at your arm, silently pleading for you to stay in bed.

You chuckled and leaned down to press a kiss to his forehead. “Just need some water. I’m thirsty.”

“I’ll get it.” He grabbed the glass from you and stood for the bed. You began to protest, only for him to wave a finger at you in response. “I’m already up.” He smirked playfully and walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen.

You sighed and fell back into bed, snuggling into the warm spot where Steve recently laid, his pillow smelling just like him—Mint and a hint of his cologne he consistently wore. You hear the fridge water run, and then him begin to pad out of the kitchen. Only about a second later is when you hear a shatter of glass, but Steve is completely silent, other than the soft gasp he released in surprise. You automatically feel worried, hoping he didn’t hurt himself. “Steve?” You call out, but he doesn’t respond to you. You shoot yourself out of bed, wearing just one of his old Hawkins High Swim Team t-shirts and a pair of undies. You rush into the kitchen and stop short of where glass covered the kitchen floor. You walk around the mess and to Steve, who is stood in front of the sink, his hands at his sides and his bottom lip quivering.

“Baby, are you alright?” You take his hand in yours and inspect it for any blood or cuts, but there are none. “Are you hurt? Did it cut you at all?” A single tear falls past his lash line and onto his cheek. “Baby, are you hurt?” You ask again, cupping his face in your hands. His eyes finally meet yours and he blinks, a few more tears falling down his face as he shakes his head no. “It’s okay, it’s just a little broken glass. Nothing we can’t clean up.” You drop your hold on his face and give his hand a reassuring squeeze.

Grabbing a broom from the corner of the kitchen, you begin to sweep up the broken glass. Steve’s quiet, watching you as you clean it up. You can feel his eyes on your back while you sweep the broken glass onto the dustpan you held to the floor. You’re almost done cleaning when a shaky sigh falling from Steve’s lips catches your attention. You lift your head from where you’re crouched on the floor and look up at him. Tears are streaming down his rosy cheeks, his hands quickly moving up to wipe them away. “Hey, hey, hey…” You rise to your feet and perching your hands on his shoulders. “What’s the matter, baby?” Your voice is gentle and soft, cooing at him. “It’s okay, alright? It’s fine, it’s just-” Your heart shatters to pieces at the strangled sob that comes from him. It’s enough to almost make you cry.

He’s shaking his head as you try to console him, his face buried in his large hands as he cries into them. “It’s not fine.” He mumbles through tears, his shoulders shaking with each quiet sob that rakes through his body. You watch with wide, sad eyes and rub your hands up and down the length of his arms. “Nothing is fine.” You furrow your eyebrows, trying to understand.

Oh. You frown, he isn’t talking about the broken glass. Everyone was beginning to adjust to how different their lives were now, but Steve hadn’t even given himself the chance to feel all those strong emotions, he’d buried them. They were finally resurfacing and overwhelming him. He was finally allowing himself to grieve what they lost that day. Eddie was dead. Max was in a coma, and nobody knew if she would ever wake up. He almost died, too. It was pure luck and timing that he didn’t.

“Okay, um,” You look around the kitchen and decide to clean up the mess later. Right now, you needed to be there for your boyfriend. “Come on, come here.” You grasp his forearm and tug him back toward the bedroom. “Come here, baby.” You lead him to the bed and sit at the headboard again, encouraging him to sit next to you. He takes his own seat on the mattress, his bottom lip still trembling and tears falling down his cheeks. You hate seeing him like this, seeing him in such pain. “I know. It’s okay,” You assure him, rubbing his back as he leans down until his head is rested in your lap. “I love you. I love you so much.”

His arms wrap around your waist firmly, his tears dampening the t-shirt you were wearing. “It hurts.” He huffs, his voice coming out groggy since his nose was stuffed up from crying. You run your hand over his bare back soothingly, your chest aching from seeing him in such a state.

“I know, baby. Let it out.” You encourage, wishing you could take all his pain and put it into you. You would undergo any pain, just to make sure he was okay, because in the end, Steve was all you needed. Steve was the answer to every question in your mind.

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jenny-bridget-writes · 2 years

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Iota (Part 3)

“Aren’t you cold?” Sundara asked Mardan, rubbing his shoulders.

“Nope!” Mardan said, “Are you?”

Sundara glanced from side to side. Should he admit it? “Yeah, sort of.”

“Let me help.” Mardan wrapped one arm around Sundara’s neck, pulling him down to her height, and held her small egg-shaped flute in the other. She played a bouncy, jovial melody, and Sundara felt the air around him grow almost uncomfortably warm. “Better?”

Sundara was still rather taken aback by this display of what he could only describe as magic. Judging by her appearance, she didn’t seem like the type to have advanced invisible space-heaters or mind-warping powers to make him think he was warm. This was something weird, eldritch, alien. Something that people would post about on Nexus message boards and get laughed to the bottom of the page for. An affront to nature and reality itself. But the way she used it so… casually was nothing short of astonishing. If he were a different man, she would have swept him off his feet. “Quite. What was that?”

“I don’t know. It just sorta happens whenever I really concentrate on making it happen.”

“Is it… magic?”

Mardan giggled and slapped Sundara on the arm. Her small, sinewy body packed more punch than Sundara expected. “Magic isn’t real, silly!”

“What was that, then?”

“I have a theory,” Mardan said, not letting go of Sundara, “Not about the magic. About why you brought me out here.”

“Oh.” Sundara broke out in a cold sweat, which became a warm sweat in the presence of the hot air.

“You wanted to ask me out, didn’t you?”

“What?” Sundara was certainly not expecting that theory.

“That’s a thing sailors do, right? Find a pretty girl on the shore and do… stuff?”

Sundara felt a little scared of what this girl could be thinking. “What kind of ‘stuff’ were you thinking of?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” Mardan said, scratching her chin and gazing up into the washed-out sky, “Get ice cream? Watch a movie? Hold hands?”

“Pretty’s the sticking point, innit?” Sundara said.

“What do you mean?!” Mardan asked.

“Look, your rags don’t match. The brownish-red top clashes with the brownish-green overalls -which you don’t even have buttoned, why not just wear jeans- and I can’t say I much approve of…” Sundara motioned to Mardan’s bare midriff. “This.” Mardan gasped and threw a hand to her chest. “Although that may just be my upbringing. It really makes no matter either way. I’ve only taken you outside to get twenty dollars from the owner. And now I’ve done that, so I really have no reason to be here.”

With that, Sundara turned to go back inside.

“Do you think I’m dangerous?” asked Mardan.

“Ah, no. You’ve just got a massive bladed stick and odd plant powers. Perfectly safe.” Sundara put his hand on the door handle, but couldn’t bring himself to open it. He looked back at Mardan’s face. Oh no. There they were. Those sad puppy eyes he was afraid he’d see. A look of childlike guilt sunk into her rounded cheeks.

“Do they think I’m dangerous?” asked Mardan, pointing to the people inside.

Sundara tugged at the cuffs of his sleeves. “Well, I can’t let you wander back in. What… er… what did the vision quest tell you to do?”

Mardan shrugged and moved on. “It’s a little cryptic,” she said, stroking her chin, “the spirits gave it to me in a riddle: ‘In the land of endless snow and pine, you will find a new source of courage. Return to the village with this, and the rest of your journey shall be laid bare to you.’ I’m not sure what it means, but nothing cool has happened yet. I don’t even live in a ‘village’ like it says.” She just stood there for a while, letting the icy slush squish between her toes. “I want to go home! But if I come back empty-handed, everyone will know I failed.”

“What happens then?”

“I’m already such a failure at everything else. There’d be no reason to keep me around. I’d be all alone again.” Her head hung low, shaking a shower of dirt from her hair. Sundara thought he heard a sniffle against the howling blizzard. Then, her eyes grew wide with excitement. “Wait a minute! Maybe you’re the clue!” She grabbed Sundara by the wrist and started dragging him away from the lodge.

“Wait! Wait!” Sundara said, “That’s not likely.”

“You’re making me feel more confident just by standing there and doing nothing! Is this what therapy feels like?” Mardan shook her head, her blond curls bouncing around her face. “I’m getting sick of this snowy place. There’s nothing to do here!”

Just then, two men -though it was difficult to discern gender beneath the gas masks and full carapace armor- emerged from the forest. They carried high-powered military rifles. Steam rose from their Scoria-lined barrels. One had a short snow-camouflage cape draped over their shoulder. That one approached them.

“We’re looking for escaped fugitives,” they said, their voice unrecognizable beneath the layers of air filters and obfuscating voice modulators, “Have you seen anyone suspicious?”

“No one more sus than you,” Sundara replied in an unexpected surge of confidence.

“Thanks for your help,” they said in their robotic-toned voice. The two figures brushed past Mardan and Sundara into the establishment.

“Are you a real person?” asked Mardan.

Sundara shook himself out of his fear-induced paralysis. “What do you mean?”

“No one says something that cool and subtle just off the cuff!” She bounced between the balls of her feet like a little kid hopped up on sugar. “You’re some kind of quote-robot. A quote-bot! Or some kind of one-liner wizard. A mage of mockery. A-”

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talaxyan · 7 months

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hello from 2023

hiiiiiii

it's so funny to think that all the posts from this tumblr are all just for me in the future but I hope it's gonna be another good reflection to see what I was like in the past.

but let me give you a little update since the last time I was here ((THERE WERE A LOT!!!))

ok first of all. im unemployed now, I graduated college 4 months ago and still haven't been able to land a job- I'm on my last round of interview for this pharmaceuticals company tho and I REALLY HOPE I GET THE JOB BECAUSE IM DESPERATEEEE. if I don't get an offer soon my OPT might expires meaning it'll be harder for me to escape indo.

as much as i love being at home and spending most days with my nieces and having no worry at all, I miss doing something intelligent like doing all the academic weapon I was supposed to be doing. it was hard landing a job yall, I swear I've applied to at least 400+ job but still 0 offer. IM REALLY HOPING THIS PHARMA JOB WORKS OUT I REALLY WANNA GO BACKKKKKK I wanna live in city I can wander around please

anyway, on the fun part ((my nonexistant love life))

in 2022, i went for a semester abroad in LONDON AND IT WAS WILDDDDD like really good experience and I love london so much I wish to go back there again and visiting my london fam innit- it was surprising really good like i had a solid friendgroup in just a month of settling down (shout out to SHAIMA LOVE U SO MUCH GURL) i went travelling to edinburg and Stonehenge. it was a surreal experience.

oh and i was on dating apps while in London and I got the taste of love (a little bit). my first ever date was really good, i'd give it 7/10 I wasn't that attracted to this dude but he was smart and caring at least before he became annoying and called me a self-obsessed girl- like dude HOW CANT I BE OBSESSED OVER MYSELFF? anyway I didn't continue talking to him because I really thought I should give an ugly guy a chance just bc he seems nice personally but he really wasn't so I went to 7 more dates after that--- ND I GOT MY FIRST EVER KISS??? LIKE HELLO? this dude I kissed, we met on tinder and I went to his place the night I first saw him and I gave him a glockglock3000 it was crazy-- but after that night I learnt why people like dick- and he got a pretty one too and it tasted sweet?????? maybe from the lube he was using but we didn't do the full thing cuz I was kinda hesitant cuz I BARELY KNOW HIM OFC??? but yea I learnt some things but my experience with men in general wasn't really working out bc ALL I WANT IS LOVE and it seems like u cant really find that on dating app.

other than that, i cut off some people from my life. it was sad but I think its about time. this girl I really wanted to befriend with since freshman year, we ended became bestie and even lived together in the apartment, but I think it was really toxic tbh- it think the more I knew people, the more I feel like I withdrew myself form them.thats kinda scared me because I really wanted to accept people the way they are but it was really not good having her around- for some reason in social settings, everytime I spent time wth her, it just irritaes me more and that made me realize that friendship wasn't supposed to be like that, it shouldn't cost you your mental health to be living with your friend so yeah, after graduation, I never contacted her and she also never contact me either so it's mutual I think

my time at skidmore was overall fun, I went to typical college parties, got drunk and wasted but it was all really fun. i love my girl friends my bbygurl I love them so much and they made my time at skidmore 100000x so much better. i would be a lot more miserable if it wasn't because of them. there was rough patches along the way but we are good friends so I was able to let go everything and keep our friendship eventho now w graduated and harder to see each other but I really hope to meet them again<3 I love them thao kim connie rebecca and my isu babies<3

my plan now is hoping i land that job in Boston > lease an apartment > fly from jakarta and meet natan > relocate to Boston and get my stuff at Uhaul in Albany > starting working and getting the sense of really world > SAVE A LOT OF MONEY SO I CAN SPOIL MY LOVED ONES AND MYSELF

i think i can do it. delusion is the key and I quite frankly believe in myself. i really hope so I wish.

so yeah, thats mostly the update from me. hopefully in the next post I can give you a better news and more GOOD STORY FROM MY LOVE LIFE yea. ok goodbye for now and I see u later

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dollwithkaleidoscopeeyes · 2 years

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I feel so alone. I hate getting older. You lose more and more friendships and it’s normal I know. People change, get married, have kids, move away, and suddenly you realize you’re the last one who has none of those things. I know everyone has their own lives and I can’t depend on them for my happiness; but damn am I fucking lonely and sad. I’m being selfish I know, that’s what depression does to you. Im lonely and crying and tired of being this sad the majority of my life. What’s the point of it all if I feel low almost all the time?…

#just ignore my post like everyone else #it’s sad girl hours #it’s mental illness innit

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Hiii. Do you have a timeline or an analysis for Half the world away?

(x)

Oh boi. OH. BOI OH BOI DO I. I do have quite a "I have connected the dots! you havent connected shit" for Half The World Away! Of course I do.

First, as for a timeline, the song leaked august 25 2020, and according to *the internet* (I believe the YT account that leaked it) it was recorded in 2013 as a demo for Take Me Home, which is a little weird considering Take Me Home was released late 2012. So either it was written and recorded in 2012 instead, or it wasn't for Take Me Home but maybe for Midnight Memories? I'm mostly interested in it being pre- or post-haylor really as I feel like this song and Two Ghosts are about the same deal, and as Two Ghosts has some haylor nudges, surely it making the most sense of it being written during/about that time.

Of all my song-linking parallel-finding messes this one was one of the firsts where I went full

so I'm happy to share that, it's got some tattoos and dancing and narratives and sadness. So this is gonna be "fun":

To barge right in, right before the cut: this song is one big ol parallel to Nickelback's Far Away. And uh...

Yeeehhp. Let's get into it:

Louis got "Far Away" tattoo'ed on him in october 2012. He hasn't said it's the name of a song, I think he implied a couple of times that it's about being far away from home, he has (allegedly, I mean, in writing, so who knows really) said that the tattoo signifies: Though I’m away from home, my family is always in my heart. (ALWAYS IN MY HEART!?) (I have no clue where that comes from but it's in a couple of grain of salt trying to get clicks articles like this one)

But then in 2015 Chad Kroeger of Nickelback 'gave away' that he has it tattooed because because it was "his and his girls song" (here) Now if you go on to read the tags of that post it's divided in 2 clear fronts: either pure hysterical laughter that that tattoo can't possibly be a nickelback lyric nor about "his and his girl" and it's clearly just about missing home OR "elounor tattoo proof". Meanwhile I'm here all by myself cheering in a lonely corner for this song actually being Harry & Louis' song at the time.

It's a really fking sappy sad love song fighting for a love that is incredibly strong but struggling, really right up their alley:

This time, this place Misused, mistakes Too long, too late Who was I to make you wait? Just one chance, just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away, for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me And you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you; I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all; I'd give for us Give anything, but I won't give up But you know, you know, you know I wanted, I'd wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you (That I love you) I have loved you all along And I forgive you (And I forgive you) For being away, for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and never let me go

And I don't know if that is setting off any alarmbells for you but it is for me. Half The World Away just seems like a fanpiece of this, really let's go over the parallels, I highlight them below but some of the stupid clear ones:

Far Away / Half The World Away (THE TITLE? REALLY!?)

This time, this place / 'cause there's a time, there's a place

Mistakes / I messed up

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore / I'm scared I'll stop breathing

On my knees / ... on my knees.

I need to hear you say: I Love You / and now you rest everything on these three words

And yeah all these things are just common words common themes for songs but it's a bit much innit?

Side-track: There's also this interview moment with some serious couples bickering going on (starts at 0:40) that I'd say is already absolute gold on it's own, but it's interesting in this context. They're asked about their first concert, and Harry says Nickelback. (Harry the one without a nickelback tattoo likes nickelback, at least at the time, noted) Then Louis makes fun of Harry's mention of them here right? (Louis the one with the nickelback tattoo making fun of someone else liking nickelback ok noted) He just comes in again with that fetus Louis idk what to do with my affection so I'm just gonna resort to bullying for no reason again kinda toddler behavior, then when the bickering is done does this thing where he looks up and licks his lips/hides a smile, something we've seen before, oh I don't know, that time Harry talked about his awards being at his moms place and Louis knowing they're actually at his family's home. It's the I know more face, it is, fight me on it. I mean maybe it was in response to Cascada, or just the bickering on its own, or it was because the mention of Nickelback as it's something special to them as he does when they're on the topic of something harry has that is related to him like the times he kept aggressively hammering on harry's Hi tattoo or "what else harry? What else harry? WHAT ELSE HARRY?!" you know, that behavior.

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Anyway back to Half The World Away, I think this song is a combination of Harry's true feelings at the time and coating it in some One-Direction-Approved-Narrative. In terms of sadness this is pre-Two Ghosts: Half The World away: "we're starting to lose who we are", Two Ghosts: "we're not who we used to be, we're two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty", and the worst: Ever Since New York: "there's no water in this swimming pool" (ESNY explained here)

I think I should attempt to break down the lyrics, although in this song, egh, I think there's quite some filler, some storytelling narrative, of all his songs I personally find this one... not... that... impressive? Is it OK to say that? I'm sorry? But I'm gonna do my best to properly look at it anyway:

If you’re a good friend You’d always be there when I need it

Harry screaming don't cut me off. The Too Young analysis is too fresh this is hurting me with Too Young's "so I cut you off 'cause I didn't know no better" and it fits way too well with this song, and also the "you" in Half the World Away (starts with an L ends with ouis William Tomlinson) is referred to as a friend although the whole song is making clear they're... not friends (Alexa play Ed Sheeran - Friends)

'Cause I’m on my knees and babe I’m bleeding And it kills me that you’re not around

Far Away parallel but 10x sadder, self-deprecating harry is already fully active here in 2013

So you’re not my girlfriend

This is some good double-meaning shit. Sad we can't be together openly because you're not a girl sadness while also dropping a "girl" too, that's some classic One Direction lyrics right there.

Don’t pretend that makes us nothing

DON'T CUT ME OFF

Tell me you don’t miss this feeling I’m starting to see who you are

growing bitter because his not-girlfriend is being cold towards him.

'Cause there's a time, There's a place

high fiving Far Away again

and I'm always gonna hear your name

yeah that's cause you're in a band together

There's a right, there's a wrong And now I see it all along, I messed up, you'll be fine

Sorry but just some easy songwriting using antithesis, rights and wrongs, messing up and being fine? But also the right vs wrong is used a lot in 1D/solo career songs and for sure some of the times, possibly all of the times it's in the context of , the "but this 'wrong' love feels right?", the "Why is our love 'wrong'?" kinda thing ("is it so wrong that you make me strong"), I mean maybe.

I'm gonna sleep alone tonight

They really really don't like sleeping alone that's clear time and time again.

Never gonna be the same 'Cause you're half the world away

Things have changed, he can't touch what he sees, Two Ghosts, all that.

The story you’d heard

Ok so throughout the song he's creating this whole story right, I did something and you found out, now I'm trying to make things right and I'm scared we can't come back from this thing I did, which could be that, maybe he literally did mess up something and as a result he's getting cold-shouldered, sure, but it's so smackbanginyourface I feel like it's just for the sake of the concept of the song, makes sense?

As I said before, whenever songwriters plomp down words like "story" in their songs I take it as a hint that it's just that, a story. A narrative, fictional. Especially with One Direction's sneaky lil shits where all this band does is lie, and has the balls to release "Story Of My Life", here with "the story you'd heard" I'm just going HMMMMM once again.

It can just as well be taken literal tho. Bringing this 2013 interview in because it describes a partner hearing a story better than I can, it's literally Harry giving an answer in an interview that fits the story of Half The World Away:

GQ: Do these rumours feel at all intrusive? Harry: Some of them are funny. Some of them are ridiculous. Some of them are annoying. I don't want to be one of those people that complains about the rumours. I never like it when a celebrity goes on Twitter and says, "This isn't true!" It is what it is, I tend not to do that. The only time it gets really annoying is that if you get into a relationship and you get into a place where you really like someone and then things are being written in the papers that affect them and how they see you. Then it can get annoying. (x)

And uh for context, he says this right after being asked if uh "gryles is real" basically, which he denies, as well as confirming he's not bisexual, this interview is wild.

Now you rest everything on these three words

I need to hear you say these 3 words, I need to hear you say I Love You, nice little Far Away parallel again

Now I’ll walk to you till my feet hurt, So tell me that’s not good enough

Coming back to this one after going over the lyrics.

And I started drinking I don’t know half of what I'm thinking

alcohol to cope, reoccuring theme, don't like this at all, moving on

And deep in I’m scared I’ll stop breathing

Again Far Away parallel, but scared. They're in deep. I dont know what to say about this but my heart is hurting

We’ve started to lose who we are

All I'm thinking here is "To Be Continued In Two Ghosts"

I want you around-round-round Are we going down-down-down? I want you around-round-round Are we going down-down-down I want you around-round round Are we going down-down-down? Are we going down? (down, down)

It's just pure sadness, not wanting to let go but seeing they're on a downward spiral.

~more side-tracks~

Back to the "Now I’ll walk to you till my feet hurt" line. I'm just gonna go for a stupid reach, why not. I'm clinging onto Louis' Far Away tattoo already, and now I'm dragging Harry's Never Gonna Dance Again into it. This tattoo is a line from George Michael's Careless Whisper:

and put this on his feet as the song goes "never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm", and here in Half The World Away we got hurty guilty feet walking. Which... could be a Careless Whisper nudge? Half The World Away's storyline kinda matches Careless Whisper's pretty well too. Maybe maybe not? Am I thinking too highly of him again? Is it just a "'cause you know I'd walk a 1000 miles if I could just see you tonight" MAKING MY WAY DOWNTOWN TUTUTHTUTUTUT little feetwalking thing because the person is far away and that's all?

~Wow look at that it's another sidetrack and it's not even about Half The World Away anymore~

Sidetrack no 369: there's also this dances and chances thing going on in all these songs floating around Half The World Away. I already mention this in the Perfect Now analysis, so if this looks familiar that's why, and I realise it’s an easy thing to rhyme, so don’t take me too seriously on this but:

Harry’s tat Never gonna dance again:

I'm never gonna dance again Guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend And waste a chance that I'd been given So I'm never gonna dance again The way I danced with you

Louis’ tat Far Away:

One last chance for one last dance

Later on Louis got a tattoo Given a chance along with the dagger, a line from Kings Of Leon’s Be Somebody:

Given a chance, I’m gonna be somebody If for one dance, I’m gonna be somebody

Then there's Perfect Now:

And you don't wanna dance, I know you love to dance, You never stop given half the worldaway chance

But then, in TPWK, we’re starting to dance again

Giving second chances I don’t need all the answers Feeling good in my skin I just keep on dancin’

Now don't get me wrong, dancing/chances is really really really damn common in music, just listen to 3 random songs and you'll probably get some of it (Literally right now I'm hearing music playing and it's going "dance fucker dance man he never had a chance" while I'm typing this), but, it's a little excessive right? Not saying this all is definitely related, how would I know, just pointing it out. It just seems that they're drawn to this theme of having a chance to dance. Further enforced by ofcourse the (not) dancing in the Walls and TPWK music videos. They just really really fancy a chance to go ballroom dancing.

Also these tweets just turned 10 today cry with me:

And while on the topic of tweets:

In conclusion, 2013 was sad, haylor was bad, Harry doesn't wanna be Half The World Away from Louis, and they just wanna dance.

Oof that went places

For more lyric analyses: Too Young - Perfect Now (short) (full breakdown) - Sunflower vol 6 - Louis’ 28 songs playlist parallels Fine Line - Ever Since New York - Harry’s top 10 songs - Love You Goodbye - Right Now

#i hope that was what you were looking for anon #the dancing spiral im sure came out of nowhere lol #cry with me they just wanna dance #dances and chances #welikeparallels #smart things with lyrics #half the world away #two ghosts

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lsholland · 3 years

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London Lights (pt. 1) - Tom Holland

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader (1st person)

Genre: Party!Tom

Warnings: swearing; alcohol; nothing much but I don’t recommend -18 to read.

Word count: 1.9k

Author’s note: Hey guys! That’s my first story on this blog. I hope you’ll like it. I’m not native so there may be a few mistakes. I’m trying a new genre of fiction. It’s my first Tom Holland fiction. It’ll be a series of 2-3 chapters. If you want to be part of the master list for Tom please like this post and message me.

Synopsis: Quarantine has been tough. I’ve lost my boyfriend, and I’m feeling lonely. Clubs and restaurants are open again, but I feel like it’ll never be like it used to. My friends have been pushing me to install Tinder and go on dates. Well, tonight, I’m going on a date. I don’t really want to but I’m going to try and have fun for once. Just a few drinks and I’ll go home. What else could happen?

PS. You can read the story on Wattpad.

What am I doing here? I think to myself.

I matched with this guy on this famous dating app . . . And now I'm supposed to meet him here, at this bar. But I don't want to. I'm just hoping he won't show up so I can escape from this shit-place.

I've been seated at the table for a good 5 minutes. The waitress cleans up the table next to mine and asks if I'm ready to order.

No, I want to leave.

I quickly glance at the drinks menu.

"Ehm . . . A pour over Irish coffee, please."

She nods and leaves. I don't even know what I just ordered. I hope it tastes good. Hopefully it'll make me drunk enough not to remember this awful date.

It hasn't even started yet.

I'm sweating.

"Hey there" says a husky voice right behind me.

I turn around and see my date. His name is Jordan. He's good-looking and I bet he's intelligent, but I don't have this feeling with him. I don't know why I accepted to go on a date in the first place. It's awkward.

"Hey!" I grin.

"Have you ordered something already?" he asks, touching his short, clean beard. "I'm thirsty!"

He looks nice.

The waitress hands me my third drink. They help the clock tick a little faster.

He's been talking about his job, his passions. He loves football and practises daily. He has 2 sisters and lives in Camberwell.

Cute.

For a moment, I feel sad for him. He drove all the way to this East London bar, put effort trying to look nice and being cool . . . and yet, he doesn't know it but he has no chance to get lucky tonight. Not with me.

I shouldn't be sorry.

But I am.

I glance around looking for something that might be a little more entertaining than him. I realise I've avoided eye contact since he arrived. I finally glimpse at him. He has beautiful hazel eyes.

Still not enough.

I quickly check my phone. It's getting late. I don't know how to end this.

"Look," I slightly bend over the table. "I'm so sorry but I don't feel like it tonight"

"I noticed." He smirked. "Kinda awkward, innit?"

I chuckle. I am so embarrassed.

"It's okay, though." He added. "I'm just trying to meet new people. I broke up with my ex-girlfriend a few weeks ago. My mates told me I should try these apps."

Okay, now I feel worse than ever. He's been so nice with me and that's how I treat him. I grab my drink and gulp it down.

I shouldn't have done this.

"Let's go dance. I owe you one." I say as I grab his hand and walk towards the dancing area. It becomes difficult to keep my head straight.

I'm drunk, I must admit.

I'm going to regret it, my sober-self shouts in my head.

I don't care is what I reply.

The dancing area is not crowded, but there are already a few people. Most of them are girls.

Girls . . . I wish my friends were not so busy all the time. I would've come to this bar with them instead of wasting my time with strangers.

I start dancing. I stare at him. He looks amused.

A group of guys join the dancefloor and all the girls on my right start screaming. It's so high pitched I cringe.

"What the fuck guys?" I shout, trying to focus on the music.

"Woah, that's Spider-Man!" says my date. He grabs my chin and makes me look in his direction.

No way, I think. It's actually him.

I know he lives in the area, but I've never met him before. It's always weird to see movie stars in real life. They look so much more attractive.

He is so much more attractive.

I try not to be a drunk fangirl and shyly wave to him. He doesn't notice.

"You wanna go and take a picture with him?" my date asks.

"Oh, no, no!" I answer. I'm blushing. "I don't even know what I'd tell him."

He laughs.

The worst thing that could happen is to annoy him during a night out. He needs privacy and I must respect it.

But it's so difficult.

I can't stop staring at him. I don't even control it. Being drunk doesn't help.

"D'you want a beer?" I ask my date whose name I completely forgot.

He nods.

I weave my way through the crowd. I can't believe there are so many people on the dancefloor. The area is so busy since the Spider-Man actor walked in.

Even the bar area is crowded.

I let my body rest against a barstool but quickly lose balance and almost fall on the dirty floor. The flickering lights are making me feel dizzy. I grip the counter and get up. I peer around to make sure nobody saw me.

He did.

I dust off my dress trying to save the dignity I have left.

"Want something?" someone asks behind me. I turn around, it's the barman.

"Two pints of Guinness, please."

I glance back at the same spot, but he's gone. It must've been a dream. I'm so drunk I can't trust everything I think I see.

I'm grabbing both my drinks and look around trying to find my date, but there are too many people. I take a sip of my beer and hold the other one above my head.

Someone hits my arm.

Oh no.

"Oh my God I'm so sorry!" yells the drunk blond girl.

I look at my dress. It's soaking wet. I politely smile at her. "It's okay," I mouth.

What a mess. I glance at the lavatory door. I need to go and save my dress.

"You haven't been lucky here."

I turn around to find out who's talking to me.

It's him. Tom Holland. Talking to me.

"What?" is all I manage to say.

"Do you need a hand?" he politely asks.

I blush so much it's noticeable in the dark.

I'm choking. I'm panicking.

I give him my two beers and walk towards the lavatory. I'm surely starstruck. And drunk. This isn't a good mix.

Once in the room, I grab a handful of tissues and try to soak up my dress. I groan. Did I expect to make that beer mark disappear? Yes. Did it work? Of course not.

I watch my face in the mirror.

I look like shit, I think.

A door slams shut. Two young girls just walked in.

"OH, MY G—THAT'S TOM HOLLAND!" shouts one. They are both panting.

I roll my eyes.

Oh . . . I've given him my beers. What about my date?

"Shit!" I hiss.

I violently open the door and frown my eyebrows as the lights blind me.

He's just here gazing at me. Two beers in his hands. One of them is half empty, the rest being displayed on my dress.

"I'm so sorry!" I say embarrassed as ever.

He smirks. "No worries." He hands me the full glass of beer.

I give him a questioning look as I grab it. What about the other one? Oh, right—He's drinking it.

"What's your na—"

I stop him.

"I know who you are." I peer down. "I'm sorry I didn't wanna disturb you" I say as I'm walking away.

This time I'm smart enough to avoid the crowd on my way out.

"That's rude to leave without saying goodbye!" Tom shouts from a distance.

I turn around and stare at him. He's got a soft smile; he doesn't look drunk at all. I wave him goodbye.

Now, he's approaching me.

"I meant to your boyfriend" he nods in the direction of my date who was dancing with a group of other people.

"He's not my—" is all I can say before he chuckles.

"I figured."

"How?" I clench my jaw. I'm hypnotised by his hand running through his hair. And his smile. And his lips.

"I can barely hear you," he points at a booth in the corner of the room "maybe we could sit there" he suggests.

My mouth softens into a smile.

It's difficult to walk with Tom Holland. Every couple of seconds he's stopped by fans requesting a picture. And he accepts every time.

I'd never be so patient.

"What's that?" he asks.

"It must be so annoying sometimes." I tell him as I sit on the booth.

"When they're nice and ask me, it's cool." He chooses to sit next to me. I can feel his arm touching mine. My heart is racing. He uses his other arm to hold his chin; he looks at me with so much intensity. Sometimes peering down my lips.

His face is so close, but he keeps talking. I can feel his breath on my skin. I'm going to burst into flames. "But when they're taking pictures without asking first, that's delicate."

I nod. I can't really listen to what he's talking about. I'm trying not to lose control.

"So, what's your name?"

He smiles when I tell him. "Why did you leave your date alone?" he asks.

I'm so nervous I stutter. I can't find my words. "I . . . I wasn't in the mood. He knows it. I shouldn't have come here."

"I'm happy you came." He says looking me in the eyes.

I raise my eyebrows. "Are you flirting with me?"

He barks out a laugh and breaks the eye contact. He rests his head on the wall behind us.

He isn't as confident as I thought he'd be. I don't know what's up with him, but I enjoy it.

I suddenly remember he's a movie star. He's always being watched. I glance at the crowd and see flashing lights. They're taking pictures of us.

I'm getting dizzier.

I don't want to see my face on a dumb article talking about Tom Holland's mysterious partner. I don't even know him.

"This is stupid" I mumble.

Tom is intrigued. He hasn't got a clue what I'm talking about. He hasn't even noticed the fans stalking him.

"I'm sorry, I gotta go" I abruptly say as I stand up. "Have a good night."

I grab my phone and leave the venue. I'm upset because I really wish I could've met him in a different context. I open my Uber app: there's no driver available.

Shit.

How's that even possible on a Friday night? In London?

I refresh the app, but it doesn't work. I guess I'll have to walk home.

A part of me wants to go back in this bar and spend time with Tom. He's sweet and I'm sure we would've had so much fun together. I glance through the window trying to see his face one last time, but I can't find him.

"What are you looking for?"

I cringe.

"Oh, sorry I didn't mean to startle you."

It's him. It's Tom.

"What are you doing here?" I ask.

"Going home too. The fun of the party is leaving . . ." he sighs. I smile back at him. I'm embarrassed.

I stand in front of him, none of us say a word. It's awkward. I'm getting anxious and walk away. I'm so overwhelmed.

He grabs my shoulder. "Wait, are you walking home?"

"Yeah, it's okay don't worry." I smile.

"I can drive you home."

"Sorry, but you've been drinking. I won't let you drive me." I curtly say.

He grins. He looks at one of his mates and nods.

"No way I'm letting you walk home alone," he sighs "besides, you're drunk."

"Come with me then" I instantly reply without thinking.

He nods.

What?

He's coming with me. My heart is racing. I won't survive a 30-minute drunk walk with him.

Not with his beautiful glossy eyes staring at me.

Not with my burning desire to kiss him.

#tom holland #London lights fic #Tom Holland one shot #tom holland fiction #Tom Holland imagine #Tom Holland x reader

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michaelsdcblog · 2 years

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time for my rouges takes

these are what they are like in the michaelverse (tm)

Riddler/Edward Nygma

Nerd lmao

made like fmv computer games in like the 90s and then his boss fucked him over

he probably stays in whatever hovel he has and sends out riddles to important screens across the city

he’s gross and dirty cause he’s always working on gadgets and tech and computers and stuff

full of himself but that’s a given lmao

mainly inspired by: btas, arkhamverse, year zero

Jonathan Crane/Scarecrow

Southern™️

Very strange man very off

Was a teacher but then he fired a gun in glass or he covered a girl in spiders?? he keeps changing the story and no one from that class can seem to remember

Very blunt

He’s surprisingly patient? if that makes sense?

he doesn’t talk a whole lot

He just gives off bad and off vibes he’s

just genuinely scary lmao

Mainly Inspired by: Codotverse (mainly just the voice assfshsgagdiab his @ is voiceboss no one show him this post), Certain comics, btas

Harvey Dent/Two-Face

Poor Harvey Dent! He used to be so handsome!

he was at the peak of his career! the dude was running for mayor and was still doing his DA duties at the SAME TIME

But then came the Accident and now he’s,,,different

talks to himself a lot even before the Accident it seems like he’s having full conversations with himself sometimes

he shows his emotions 100 percent like he can’t be in between when he’s angry he’s ANGRY and when he’s sad hes INCONSOLABLE

Mainly inspired by: telltale, btas, comics

Jervis Tetch/Mad Hatter

oy he’s a scientist innit

Jervis tetch is a man of many interests, while he is a computer/robot/whatever scientist he is also a writer and lover of Lewis Carrol

Idk what to say you probably already know this

He likes this girl he works with named alice she’s not interested he goes a little Crazy and mind crontrols her or whatever

Inspired by; btas, comics

that’s the only ones i’ve given a whole bunch of thought but feel free to ask about anyone i left out 🥰🥰

#dc #batman #batman rouges #michaelverse

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angelthebedsheet · 4 years

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my fav boys with slick black s/o pt 1?

a/n: im losing inspiration for my current requests and i’m not feeling good mentally or physically. my mood has been down the whole week and it’s messing with my school work so that’s also putting me in a sad mood. but im also in the mood for some fightin words so i’ll use my comfort boys. this may be corny but hey it works for me and this is my blog ❤️

lets get it

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Bakugo Katsuki

bro you MATCH his ENERGY so well with your clapbacks

tbh... bakugo’s clapbacks are just trash

he got the aggression but cmon now

tf is “shitty extra”

boy if you dont sit ya ass down

he LOVES your clapbacks tho

them shits be making him lose his mind

any slick shit you say he eats that UP

one time monoma was talking too much shit and you just

“nigga if you dont sit yo ass tf down fore i snatch yo forehead tf off”

safe to say bakugo busted out laughing

you were ready to post up

he lives for when you be roasting ppl under ya breath

what he doesnt like is when you roast him

bc you can and will read a bitch no hesitation

he really thought he was special....

aint shit sweet come get these roasts nigga

“boy if you dont take them damn pants off. shits look like hammer pants. cant touch this headass”

yall know how i have desiree roasting him?

that’s exactly how it be

you got a sharp ass tongue and will use it against anyone

let someone get both of yall pissed off together???

straight up verbal abuse at that point

file a complaint bc you and bakugo def made someone cry before

i think the class lwk hates you bc you helped bakugo’s clapbacks get better

which is bad for them

yall rmb those roasting vids where they go mmm after each one?

thats bakugo in the back

“big body headass”

“mm”

“dumpster truck headass”

“mm”

typa shit

he’ll hype it up too much

Todoroki Shouto

you think this man dont talk shit himself????

bro he can and will read a bitch RIGHT TO THEIR FACE TOO

he want all the SMOKE

yall together??? im sorry to whoever pissed yall off lemme plan they funeral

i imagine the way todoroki reads niggas is real sophisticated like he will point out every single insecurity you HAVE without even knowing you that well

no cursing for majority of them

“what shoes you got on?”

KAJDJSKKDKCKDDJ

yall would read bitches together but like this

“shou it’s the lifting acrylics for me”

“it’s the dusty wig for me, love”

“its the disconnecting wig for me”

“its the cakey makeup for me”

painful for them

i think he can do rapid fire roasts as soon as someone tries to start shit with you

“i know you’re not coming for my s/o. it’s the talking shoes, it’s the bootleg supreme shirt, it’s the fake chain, it’s the brittle hair”

he gets real disrespectful and wont care who it is

unless it’s your friends or family then he’ll dial it back a lil bit

if you start roasting endeavor????

my mans might be on his way to the jewelers

“try this ring on. i wanna see if it can fit you”

he finna spouse you up (spouse IS gender neutral innit?)

unrelated but todoroki is a hottie and will “ah 😜 mwah 💋” everytime and you might have a video of him losing his mind girls in the hood LMAOOOOO

Killua Zoldyck

now this boy.... cant roast for SHIT

yeah he’s a lil brat and can get mean and petty

but he cannot compare to you

this nigga’s a whole trained assassin but cant kill niggas with his words that well

🤡🤡🤡

i think the meanest thing he’s said is call you “a stupid fuckin idiot”

to which you responded with

“shut the fuck up, mushroom built ass bitch. body built like a smurf. hair lookin like hairballs cats cough up. dont get loud lil boy”

killua respectfully sat down and scratched his head

no cap that shit lwk hurt but he gonna pretend like it didnt

he dont even know what the fuck a SMURF IS

he just know that it hurt

lwk thought that was your nen

the ability to manipulate emotions into irritation or anger or some shit

like no baby they just good at roasting bitches

after a while he starts to hype you up in the back

“how you FEELLLLL”

“OOOOH BURNNNN”

“SHIT GOTTA HURT DONT IT BITCHBABY?”

eventually he learns how to roast and clapback then it’s over

the sass meter is overboard

like you might have to knock him a couple notches down

swear to god this boy uses clapbacks on leorio just to piss him off

one time leorio was telling killua to do sumn he just

“oh you must want me with the way you keep gobbling on my fuckin nuts i will do it soon relax”

you damn near BEHEADED this boy with how hard you slapped the back of his head

like it was funny but leorio wouldve JUMPED YOU

Kamado Tanjiro

OUT OF ALL OF THEM HE DOESNT WANT THAT

listen he likes to be the peacemaker

but with your clapbacks they’re enough to make zenitsu wanna post up

like you read him a lil too much

“THATS HOW YOU FEEL Y/N-CHAN? ALRIGHT”

cue tanjiro rapidly apologizing while dragging you away

the first time you roasted the absolute shit outta inosuke he had to sit down

he didnt even know what the majority of the shit you said meant

same with killua all he knew was that shit kinda hurt

tanjiro be TIRED of yall

“y/n can you PLEASE relax”

“NAH HE WANNA GET LOUD WITH ME”

“HE BREATHED”

“AND IT WAS AN AGGRESSIVE BREATH”

of course you know your limits

there’s no way you’re gonna get tanjiro to roast people

but this one time you heard him clapback by accident

“you heard me loud and clear, sir. dont act like you couldnt hear me correctly.”

like oop?

i felt a lil HEAT

aint no where near burned but for tanjiro??? good e fucking nough

dont act like he dont say some lil slick shit on the dl

this man got pent up aggression fym

tho you do be making him laugh

esp in battle if you just start reading a demon

he cant help but snicker

baby loves the way you talk and wouldnt have it any other way

if you roast him he will just go

“oh okay 🙂”

he doesnt know how to respond to that

if you roasting someone who deserves it nezuko will be your hype girl bc tanjiro’s busy trying to de-escalate the situation 💀💀💀

“and thats why yo grandma got a busted funeral”

“MMPH!”

“Y/N NO STOP THATS SO RUDE IM SO SORRY FOR THEIR BEHAVIOR THEY DONT MEAN IT”

“YES TF I DO”

“y/n shut up NO THEY DONT SORRY”

before dragging you away

jfc you’re like verbally feral

Nishinoya Yuu

your personal hypeman

will respectfully allow you to roast people

cant roast to save his life either

“you tell em!”

“yuh!”

“mhm”

“bitch”

hopping around n shit LMAOAOAOAOAO

you got that shit

someone irritating him?

“y/n.... baby.”

“alright who is it?”

“tsukishima”

“aight bet. AYE BITCH”

legend has it tsukishima is still recovering from those third degree burns

do not roast him this man will run away he values his life

“oh you must be ready to attend this barbecue”

(love that guy)

“IM VEGAN” liar

and DIPS

nigga will 100% ROLLINGGGGGG THUNDAAAAAAA tf up outta there

he can clapback and that’s the most he’ll do

he do be saying slick shit bc i hc him as someone who want all the smoke

ride or DIE

on they ass

(struggling to come up with clapbacks w/o anything to clapback to 💀💀💀)

(been cryinf over rengoku and hw my brain is mush)

“GO OFF Y/N TALK YOUR SHIT YOUR MAJESTY”

NIGGAS A CLOWN ✋🏽😭

thats all for this one folks lmao

#x black reader #bnha x black!reader #bnha x poc!reader #mha x black reader #haikyuu x black reader #haikyuu x reader #hunter x hunter x reader #hxh x reader #tanjiro x reader #killua x reader #bakugo katuski x reader #todoroki x reader #nishinoya x reader #perryat bitch #teehee

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