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i often feel like religion would make me feel more "whole" even though i am sometimes repulsed by it
#religious repulsion#target audience#religion#aesthetic#religious aesthetic#sin#seven deadly sins#christianity#purity#catholicism#religious trauma#dark aesthetic#dark academia aesthetic#agnostic#atheist#agnostisizm#ex christian#ex catholic
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If Machete and Vasco were roommates before they became a couple, there had to have been moments of innocent touching/body contact, followed by deep gay panic.
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#I think the transition from platonic friends to a couple was very gradual the line was blurry#even if they weren't a proper serious item yet their relationship was definitely romantically tinted#by the time they rented that tiny attic room together#Vasco had figured out his orientation early on he was well past the identity crisis phase#Machete had mountains of religious trauma to work through so his road to self acceptance was rocky but he did reach it eventually#he guilt and shame and doubt kept resurfacing every now and then but the need for love and companionship was stronger#Vasco is naturally tactile and affectionate it doesn't take much to get an occasional hug or back pat or hand holding from him#and Machete had grown in a touch deprived bubble so as soon as he managed to overcome the initial fear and repulsion#he began to metamorphose into the lap dog he probably should've been all along#casual physical closeness was present even before things got lovey-dovey but that doesn't mean there weren't moments of gay panic#answered#skunkbomb
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shoutouts to everyone that was traumatized by their parents into having gut reactions to everything that doesn't follow an exceptionally high standard of cleanliness btw
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I do think it is an awkward question to ask, so i want you to know that i really really don't mind if you don't answer! But, well... what are the important reasons for you to not draw nsfw? But! Like i said, i know this is not something everyone wants to respond to, i mean this is even hard to ask. So please don't feel any kind of pressure by answering this. And if you do, don't bother responding, i would totally understand!
By the way, your art is simply awesome the way it is now, please keep up your magnificent work and take care!
good question - it's not that i have an important reason not to, it's that i don't have an important reason to!
i have literally zero interest in nsfw stuff (that's how i found out i was ace) so i just channel my art energy into making cute stuff instead
#misc#Anonymous#i'm not sex-repulsed#i just could not care less about it#im also not religious in case someone is wondering
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Getting on my soapbox for a moment, topic being, uhhhh... religious influence on education and bodily autonomy? Smthn like that idk
(This ended up being really long, so, more below the cut)
My parents put my little sister in homeschool as soon as I graduated, which like, i WoNdEr WhY (it's me hi I'm the problem it's me)
And the program/co-op thing she's involved in is christian-based bc my folks are unfortunately conservative christians who think it's a good idea to bias their child's entire understanding of the world through their religious beliefs
So my sis was telling me about her health textbook the other day, and how it was kinda weird? Like, they have a unit on I guess dating and sex type stuff, but this textbook has some interesting opinions
Such as, suggesting kids (not like little kids we're talking about high schoolers here) avoid hugging their partner because it supposedly might turn them on??
And, ok, to be honest I have absolutely no idea how realistic that is, it sounds pretty silly to me, but like even if that totally is a thing that happens to people... who cares, right?
But no, obviously that would be just disastrous because we can't have anyone tempted to do something totally crazy like having sex before marriage, god forbid
And there's just that sort of "no touching" purity culture bullshit and it really pisses me off, especially as someone who was also raised in that mentality, and I was just lowkey flabbergasted by the ridiculousness and audacity of a health textbook to tell kids not to hug someone they're dating bc it might lead to premarital sex, and I basically said as much, smthn along the lines of "imagine sexualizing hugs" to my dad, trying to get him on my side I guess, but that isn't how it went
Let me preface this with: I love my dad. I do. And he has really been making progress in terms of letting me be me and still supporting me even though our views don't always align. But my dad can also be petty, and he's a very touchy-feely person and I'm very much not, at least with most people including him. We have a little bit of history of him trying to hug me, me rejecting it, and him getting butt-hurt over it. So there's your rant-relevant context I guess
So when I half-jokingly say "imagine sexualizing hugs," he shoots back with "imagine being uncomfortable with hugs" in like, a targeted mocking way, like that in any way makes sense to use as an insult toward your own child or anyone for that matter
I didn't have the presence of mind or energy to really unpack that in the moment so I kinda just went "bruh did you really just-" made some joke like "well gee sorry for being autistic" (which yeah that's part of it too) and dropped the conversation
But like.... does he really not see the irony?
One of the major reasons I'm not comfortable with hugs and touch in general is literally BECAUSE of how it's been sexualized, like, that's kinda the whole point?
Of course I'm not going to want to hug you, my father, when there are voices in my upbringing suggesting that touching people is sexual, duh
Like it's literally so obvious to me how the two lines of thought are inextricably linked and how this sort of ideology can fuck someone up because, hello, living proof right here dude, so let's maybe NOT teach the same shit to your younger child?
Yeah you're right I'm not comfortable with hugs and that's kinda sad but I'm trying to get you to see that part of why that is is because of the same idiocy you're letting someone preach to your daughter, so if you don't want us both to be like me,,, maybe don't do that
To the kids and anyone else who needs to hear it, when how and why you touch another person should be up to you and that person and no one else. If you want to hug someone and they vibe with that then hug them, please don't let some bible-thumping freaks tell you it's a slippery slope to sin or whatever. Your body is your own and you make the decisions about what to do with it. That is one of your most basic, most fundamental, most bar-on-the-floor rights as a human being. Anyone who tries to guilt you about something like this is trying to control you and you should be wary of them
Me personally, I just find it interesting how society is so set on calling drag queens and queer people groomers when there are literally religious teachers out here manipulating children into not having bodily autonomy
What's up with that?
#duck rants#hug discourse i guess?#hugs are both sacred and repulsive to me so yeah i was gonna rant about this#obviously#religious trauma#bodily autonomy#sexualization#stop sexualizing touch#education#health education#family issues#this is health class not sunday school#get your puritanism out of the damn textbook#so help me god#(yes i see the irony)#purity culture#fuck purity culture
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Bro how am I supposed to explain catholic trauma to someone who didn't grow up religious, its like yeah I know I sound insane and logically it doesn't make sense but I can't get rid of the deep existential sense of guilt and wrongness after every time we make out and yeah its faded over time and now I can kiss you without feeling bad but the concept of having sex makes me feel physically sick
#religious trauma#catholic trauma#this is why I love hozier so much#its the catholic trauma#at least I think its the catholic trauma#sometimes I think I might be asexual though#its really hard to tell if its religious trauma or if I'm sex repulsed#and either way how do I explain that to my partner#Like “sorry babe you're getting cock blocked by jesus?”#who neither of us believe in#tw: catholicism#tw: sex mention
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I've been thinking a lot about my sexuality these last few years, I'd even say sometimes obsessing to an unhealthy degree, and I think I've come in terms with the fact I almost certainly am bisexual and denying that is pretty lesbophobic and frankly dumb in many ways, and mainly cruel towards myself. Gonna be reading up on internalized biphobia and whatnot
#Turns out men around me just suck#And men that are thirsted over most of the time do too#Alright they don't meet my preferences**#No toxicity here everyone's valid#I have had my reasons to think I'm gay and I don't think I was that 'delusional' (idk a better way to say it) thinking that I am gay#But the more I move forward the more I realize I'm just lying to myself#I don't have to date men or be interested in what most people think is attractive in men to be bisexual and that's alright#I am a little disappointed in the way bisexuals are treated in certain lgbt+ spaces specifically chronically online ones#Is it cringe to admit that the thing that broke the camel's back was a fandom meta post where the author said that people in fandom#can't tolerate bi characters/HCs because the idea of a character having history is repulsive to younger fans that want there to be one and#only love interest. Or smth along these lines. That resonated with me. I have no clue why tho. I don't have much history with anyone myself#Aside from a homoerotic childhood friendship or two (celibacy sweep)#Not just that there were a lot of good points made but yeah. Fun things#I have a feeling I'll continue obsessing over this stuff#Obsession grind never ends babyyy 💯💪#It does feel nice to admit to things I like without feeling like I have some sort of reverse religious trauma#the center of it being one ultimate queer experience and if you've straighted you're condemned to be seen as a straight by gays#for all eternity#Bisexual#Bi pride#//rambles
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Everyone’s out here like “it’s so easy to romance Astarion.” Maybe for you. I’m getting rejected. I have been cursed with morals.
#can’t wait till we get to his story line#because that would bring major approval points#right now I’m being morally good and he’s just eye rolling everything I do#closest I got to him liking me was him asking to sleep with me#unfortunately I can’t explain that it’s due to religious reasons#but now he thinks that I’m repulsed by him#like sir#I know your history but jeez#I’d like to mention this is not me bashing anyone for playing more evil choices
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i'm 5 weeks clean today
#tw blo0d#cw bl00d#recovering addict#clean and sober#dark aesthetic#red aesthetic#aesthetic#religious repulsion#religous trauma#target audience#southern gothic#mention of religion#moodboard
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2 years ago i'd be disgusted at the thought of kissing someone i like but now i can talk about kissing people i barely know, i'd say it's a big improvement
#gem talks#btw nothing wrong with being repulsed by kissing!!! it's just that mine was caused by religious trauma and ig i'm getting over it :)#vent#ish
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Growing up I really wanted to be sex favorable, so much to the point I forced myself into relationships and forced myself to be sexually active. All for the sake of spiting my parents who kept a telling me sex was bad and it was evil. Typical catholic shaming for lustful sin. But as I loosen my hold on my grudge on my parents, I find myself unable to accept that I am much more sex repulsed. But I will not make the same mistake as them. My beliefs lie in sex positivity. I will not deny people their happiness just because it doesn’t line up with my idea of happiness. I must mindfully be willing to let everyone, including myself, live our best lives.
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Christians on this site are out here thinking that they know more about Judaism than Jewish people. How embarrassing. What clownery.
#i keep seeing Christians and Jews getting into debates over abortion#bruh#Christians really HATE to see other religious people disagree with them#i know christians are bigots and antisemitic but it never fails to repulse me#religion
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Thinking about that day when I join a discord hypersexual group that I found in TikTok, bcs I was felling horrible, and then "You can't have that usser name!!!! Its hate speech !!!! It doesn't care if you have religion trauma!!!! K*ll yourself"
Come to Latinoamérica I DARE YOU
Also I'm still catholic, HOW can I hatespeech myself???🤨
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just because it sounds ridiculous to you doesnt make it less valid or less true.
we all go through life living different lives and experiences and having beliefs and values that dont align with other people.
it doesnt make it more or less valid especially when you have a good heart. & a kind and understanding soul.
#doesnt matter what beliefs you have#doesnt matter what political stance you have#if you are kind and caring#if you have a good heart#have pure intentions#are empathetic or sympathetic#having a empathetic and kind heart and having good intentions outweigh what side of politics or beliefs you are apart of#you are not less valid for being christian#you are not less valid for being sex repulsed#you are not less valid from being former lgbtq based on personal religious beliefs or for just realizing youre not gay#you are not less valid for being ace whether you are religious or not#God still loves you if youre ace#youre not less valid and never less valid for being christian because youre not like the hypocrites and bigots who raised you in church
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happy aro day of visibility to!
loveless aros
lovequeer aros
aroallos
aroaces
aros in relationships
aros in qprs
nonpartnering aros
aros who experience romantic attraction sometimes
aros who never have and never will
gay and lesbian aros
straight aros
mspec aros
trans aros
cis aros
romance repulsed aros
romance favourable aros
romance neutral aros
aros who ship
aros who don’t
aros who are good at relationship advice
aros who when asked for advice spin a wheel in their brain with the options “talk it out” and “dump his ass”
religious aros
aros of colour
disabled aros
neurodivergent aros
non-sam aros
aros in the closet
aros who are still working thru all that stuff
aros who are questioning if they’re aro or not
aros who have known for ages
all aros!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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wild wild country is rly up there with tiger king as far as "both of these factions fucking suck and are the worst"
#was it a cult that exploited ppl did awful unethical things and genuinely threatened democracy. yes#however god the fucking obviously racist xenophobic ass white people misusing the law... bite bite kill kill#at least a lot of the rajneeshees seemed to earnestly just be responding to what they felt was religious persecution.they werent all sheela#like yeah it was a cult committing crimes but they WERE bending or breaking or selectively enforcing the law for obviously biased reasons#very rules for thee but not for me very hypocritical very racist like it just drives me nuts.#very 'i don't have evidence but i JUST KNOW they're guilty so ill come up with something'. which is not how the law works#it's just so obvious to me that they didn't actually care if there was any wrongdoing in the first place it was just bigotry#the genuine wrongdoing was just a convenient tool to force out the people they already wanted to force out for bigoted reasons#like that's just very repulsive to me on basically every level lol#and like god the poor fucking unhoused people who were just caught in the middle of this being thrown around like a football 😐 awful
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