There aren’t measurements of how bad your ED can or should be to start recovering. If you have an eating disorder you are already suffering, you do not need to suffer more to be allowed to start healing.

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this is your reminder that your body is beautiful just the way it is-- scars, stretch marks and all-- and that you don't have to change it for anybody or anything

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Been trying to not bother anyone, but I am wondering if anyone could send donations. I can't pay rent today (even if I pay the half I will on credit) and more fees are adding on, and outside of some help I've barely been eating for a long time here. I'm just struggling to afford rising costs of living with constant new crises happening, and I haven't been able to get someone to take over my lease, so I can't just couchsurf. Not at all asking anyone to over extend or send me more if they've had, but if anyone could help I'd appreciate it.

(I have seen as many case managers and financial aid advisors as I can and am using every resource I can too! There's just not much where I am now.)

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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

slime gets repeatedly ran over by his daughter (affectionately)

sorry I’m still stuck on how much etoiles wants to fight to get tilin and juanaflippa back despite never even meeting them. he never met them but he knows that their deaths were NOT FAIR and he fights against what’s unfair ! … I LOVE YOU ETOILES !!!

Something something Jason feeling like he doesn't quite fit as "Greek" or "Roman" as a metaphor for bisexuality, particularly the semi-canonical bi-coding in his half of experiences during the Cupid scene and how Favonius and Cupid speak to him in parallel to the scenes confirming Nico is gay.

Something something the camps as metaphors for traditionally acceptable forms of relationships and Nico living as a rogue outside of them, rejecting expectation (ergo in himself representing a metaphor of queer identity and living outside of boxes and defined/usually hetero-allonormative/binary ideas of what love/relationships should look like) versus Jason struggling with the expectation to conform to a label and even discussing with Nico both of them remaining at CHB together.

Something something the inverse of Jason shifting away from the camps after he breaks up with Piper, feeling lost and unable to find a place between the camps as he begins to explore his queer identity properly for the first time versus Nico only remaining at CHB because he has entered a relationship. In this essay I will-

You let your heart go a bit / Like a dog that you call back when he wanders off.

Jean-Michel Maulpoix, from “From all over, she flows...”, A Matter of Blue: Poems (trans. Dawn M. Cornelio)

oh i absolutely LOVED the lore stream, it was amazing especially since we got a little bit more insight on 2b2t

it somehow drives people into madness, which is so interesting, how does the place make you go insane? what makes you go crazy? the lack of rules? the constant conflict? the toxicity?

the toxicity.

this might be a bit out there, but i do consider the word "toxic" synonymous with "radioactive" in this scenario, countless times we had Fit mention too many "radioactive fish" he ate

now, another interesting thing, Fit has stressed how much of a "default human male" he is in the beginning of the stream much foreshadowing, but Madagio says otherwise

perhaps this is the reason Fit has not been effected by the Black Matter? or to lesser extent? like i'm not saying he's not human and all, but he is not quite normal, maybe Fit is actually built different lmao

maybe the Matter targets those who are mentally weak? i doubt that Fed workers have much mental resistance, and Forever has been going through it before he got infected maybe islanders didn't have enough contact with it to get infected?

Philza has Rose's protection i think?, rest who had prolonged contact with Black Matter has gotten sick that literally leaves Fit as the odd one out

Your partner should never punish you for your mistakes. You deserve a loving conversation where you can work on your worries, not a test or abuse. 

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crop tops are for everybody, regardless of gender or body type!

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Adios Bolas, I won't leave without her.

Okay so something about the spiderbit wedding has been sitting in the back of my mind for awhile now and I don't know if anyone's talked about it but I just recently figured out the words to articulate it (kind of) so here we go!

Prior to the q!spiderbit wedding, a lot of the fanart/fanfics I saw/read depicted Cellbit waiting at the altar while Roier is walked down the aisle by either Foolish or Vegetta. Which makes sense! It keeps with the idea of the father "giving away" the bride (or in this case, the groom) at the wedding, which wouldn't be possible for Cellbit since he doesn't have any parental figures on the island. So, I was a little surprised when the wedding day came and Cellbit was the one to walk down the aisle while Roier waited at the altar. I was a bit disappointed at first---they missed a chance to do a sweet little spin on a wedding tradition! (Found family* my beloved <3)

But then I kept thinking---something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle to the altar where Roier, his soon-to-be husband and trusted confidant, stands; where Felps, his best friend whom he just got back from an unknown fate, stands; where Forever, the friend he wronged but never lost faith in and wants to do right by going forward, stands.

Something about Cellbit being alone and walking himself down the aisle towards them like he is making an active choice. After the fear and the isolation, pushing others away and hurting those close to him so he could make himself a martyr because he felt like he had to face the Federation alone and that he could only rely on himself---now choosing to walk towards the altar where they stand---walking towards his happy ending.

Because this is his happy ending. I'm not at all an advocate for the idea of "oh romance/marriage is the only thing that will make you happy in life" but not only is being married to Roier something Cellbit desperately wants, this wedding means so much more than just getting married.

Of course, this isn't really the end, but for someone like Cellbit, it's a start. A new beginning. A brand new chapter of love, friendship, and trust. So yes, Cellbit walks down the aisle at his wedding, and he does it alone, and he does it because he deserves it, and he does it because he wants to, and he does it because he has to, and he does it because he needs this.

*I would just like to note that found family does not have to follow a nuclear formula with parent-child roles and I don't wish to propagate this misconception. That's just how Roier's family is structured in canon. Foolish and Vegetta are boyfriends and Roier calls them (or at least Foolish) "dad" that's just how it is and it is beautiful &lt;3

Also apologies if I get any lore wrong. I'm not a Roier or Cellbit main viewer but I learn a lot through what I do watch of their streams and what I absorb through my dash. Hopefully this still makes sense.

Here's to my favourite Abueloier moment where he called Lovejoy "Blowjoy" and then immediately followed that up with asking Q!Quackity whether him and Q!Wilbur have had sex

Abueloier : About your boyfriend Wilbur - What's - What's his band name ? It's like Blowjoy

Quackity : *laughs* UH NOo. No it's Lovejoy

A : Oh Lovejoy oh. Sorry I'm so sorry

Q : Yeah no no no it's alright Grandpa. It's oh - Everyone makes mistakes

A: And how's your relationship ? Are you having sex ?

Q : *Laughs*

merlin is so sickeningly full of 'there must have been a moment when we could have turned back but we missed it' moments it makes me lose my mind. it's not good but it's good . oh at this moment he could have trusted arthur enough to tell the truth and arthur would have been in a frame of mind to accept it but he is riddled with self-doubt and constantly warned by the authorities in his life to keep himself ot himself so he didn't. at this moment he could have told morgana he believed her and she would have had an ally in the castle but instead he listened to a scared old man and agreed to be complicit in her gaslighting, setting them both out on the road that ends with them as mortal enemies. at this moment he could have - and it's just like that for sixty five full episodes and every time i'm like oh this time he'll do the smart thing. this time he won't miss it. and then he misses it

also okay. Leo voiding and Foolish going “that’s alright I’ll just wait. I can wait. I wait.” like yeah totem boy that’s all you ever do isn’t it. waiting loyally for Vegetta to come back, for his plans to find fruition, for islanders and federation workers alike to take him seriously, for Leo to return now, just like he waited for her before, keeping patience like none other. he’ll wait - that’s kinda his thing.