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weirdmorefics · 7 months

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Hello, hope your doing well. Could you do a Anthony Bridgerton x wife!reader and she gets overwhelmed at a ball which makes her she zones in/out and Anthony plus the family are really worried because they’ve never seen her like this before? Have a good day/night 💙

A/N- I am doing okay just turned 21 woot. (even tho I hate birthdays because they equal change.)

Pronouns- She/Her

Warnings- Anxiety, Shutdowns, Dissociation,

Word Count- 825

Summary- Basically what the ask says

Life Preserver

This ball was particularly loud and crowded, I don't think I had ever seen so many people in my life before let alone all in the same room. Every noise felt weighted I could hear the clink of every dish, the misstep of every dance, the clink of every heeled shoe. I wonder if this is a normal event for Anthony. I grew up in a small village and only came to London for my introduction to society. I can't say I am used to events like this but it certainly did not seem so crowded at my coming out.

Anthony had been coming and going conversing with others. I felt much like the odd one out. Yes, I wore the clothes and I am married to a wonderful man but I still feel like that country girl who shouldn't be here, especially with this huge crowd. I fiddled with the seams of my gown and searched the crowd for any of the Bridgertons but they all seemed involved in one activity or another. I lingered by the table of pastries and cakes as if I could blend into the wall behind them like a chameleon.

Others tried to introduce themselves to me because I was now a Bridgerton. I had never had a status like this before I was a nobody in my town. Yes, I love Anthony but I do not love the popularity that comes with being his wife. I would respond with a smile that did not meet my eyes and a handshake. It felt like Anthony had left me for hours but I think reality it was only a few minutes.

Anthony arrived back with his mother and sister Daphne. I felt relieved to see their familiar faces but I still felt like was not in my own body.

Anthony looked concerned at my vacant eyes and put a hand to my shoulder, "Are you okay darling?"

I smile and tilt my head to try to act oblivious like I am strong like I should be, "I am fine."

My husband clearly sees through my ruse because concern seems to grow even more and his sister furrowed her eyebrows.

"You don't seem like yourself Y/n," Daphne says her tone full of worry.

I blink my eyes tight trying to come up with a convincing lie but nothing seems to come to mind. I feel so far away like my mind is off swimming in the Atlantic but my physical body is stuck here at a ball. A normal ball! Why can't I just be normal or at least act normal? If not for me at least for my darling Anthony.

Anthony taps my shoulder breaking me from my intense thought spiral. I finally make eye contact with Anthony, and his eyes look full of worry, making me feel even worse for interrupting the festivities.

He wraps his arm around my waist, "I think she needs some air. If you will excuse us." He does not wait for any response and guides me to the garden.

Once the cold night air hits my face, I feel like I can finally breathe even though I wasn't holding my breath to begin with.

"Darling, what is the matter? Are you ill?" Anthony grabs my face and presses his lips to my forehead, "no fever."

I suck my bottom lip trying to prevent the tears that I know are coming soon.

" I am fine Anthony. I am so sorry for worrying you so much," I try to wave him off.

"There is no way you could convince me you are well Y/n. I have never seen your eyes so vacant before," before I can look sad about that comment he quickly grabs my hands and holds them tightly. "You are always so full of life your eyes are like looking into the sun, they are my favorite thing about you! We will not be leaving this garden until you tell me what is wrong."

I sigh, I can't avoid not telling him my feelings because he truly will stay here all night his stubbornness is admirable but also utterly a nuisance. "I am just not used to events like this… I don't think I have ever seen so many people in one room. I-I really did not want to disappoint you. I truly tried my best but I felt like I was drowning."

Anthony brushes my cheek with his hand, "Darling I wish you would have told me. You could never disappoint me you are always my life preserver from my disobeying siblings to calming me from my anger. Let me be your life preserver to your drowning seas."

The tears that I have been holding in finally come out as I take a deep breath, " I will let you be my life preserver if I will always still be yours."

"Always," he smiles and places a chaste kiss on my lips.

#anthony bridgerton x you #anthony bridgerton x y/n #anthony bridgerton x female reader #anthony bridgerton x reader #anthony bridgerton #anthony bridgerton imagine #bridgerton x reader #bridgerton x y/n

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bloodweep · 4 months

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Wow! You got popular really fast!! :D

I was wondering if you could do JD, Bruce, and Clay with an insecure partner, and how they handle that? SFW and NSFW if you could <3<3<3

I did! It’s a bit intimidating if I’m being honest, I didn’t know so many people would like my headcanons or my writing style,, I’m so scared that people will just stop enjoying them if they don’t align with the characters I portray them as 😭😭😭

BUT OF COURSE BEING AS I AM INCREDIBLY INSECURE PERSON THIS IS HOW I WOULD WANT IT TO GO

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John Dory:

SFW:

‗ ❍ It would take him a bit to understand that you are insecure, his ego and pride getting in the way in the best and worst possible ways - I mean he finds you so damn attractive and doesn’t understand how and why you would feel insecure about him

‗ ❍ he wouldn’t see it until it became way too obvious and other people have said something - don’t get him wrong he’s attentive to you but sometimes his head is up his own ass about things

‗ ❍ once he does understand he will lose that stupid (fucking handsome) grin and look at you with such concern - he’s not very good at hiding his displeasure or any emotion for that matter

‗ ❍ he would pull you aside, privately, and ask what’s wrong and what happened, his hand brushing under your chin and lifting it up so you can always have eye contact with him- he wants to study any subtle or subconscious emotions that flicker across your face

‗ ❍ he will listen (he’s learned to do so!! And is actively still trying to ensure he learns!! He doesn’t want to mess up like he did with his brothers!!)

‗ ❍ though his sadness, anger and frustration will show on his face as he listens to your words - he cannot believe how you feel this way, he doesn’t like it and desires to fully change it if he can - if he’s far too cocky he will rom it down for you, if you need more words of affirmations he will, he doesn’t want you to feel uncomfortable around him

‗ ❍ once you’re done telling him, he will drag you into his arms, holding you tightly, his ears lowering as he whispers gentle into your ear how “you’re the best person he’s very known”, “you’re perfect for me”, “no one else”

‗ ❍ tail will be so droopy on the floor

‗ ❍ he would continue to whispers sweet and soft things in your ear, pressing gentle kisses to your ear - he really is trying to be better than he was

‗ ❍ definitely will sway back and forth with you - very subtly; only you would feel it and no one would see it

‗ ❍ he would pull back after a while and look down at you “I wish you told me sooner, and if you did I am sorry I did not listen” he would say, a determined look in his eye

‗ ❍ would hover around you more, and doesn’t care if people question it

‗ ❍ will check in when you need it and to see how you’re feeling

NSFW:

‗ ❍ he would be pretty aggressive with you in bed honestly, his hands all over you, being mindful of his claws and hurting you

‗ ❍ he’s surprisingly very VERY in tune with your body, his nose dragging along your skin to catch any fluctuation in your scent

‗ ❍ when he does he will pause, hands on your hips and looking up at you curiosity, blinking his eyes rapidly to get that daze look out of his eyes

‗ ❍ he would sneer when told you were insecure “why?” He would question, he couldn’t believe someone so perfect would feel insecure.

‗ ❍ “who made you feel insecure about your body?” He would demand, a snarl in his throat

‗ ❍ would lower his face into your chest, nuzzling but flicking his ears up and forwards to listen

‗ ❍ grip would tighten on your hips

‗ ❍ “you’re the most perfect person to me, your body is absolutely beautiful and perfect” he would whisper kissing down your torso slowly

‗ ❍ definitely will nibble all over your stomach gently, dragging his tongue along your abdomen - sucking a soft hickey there

‗ ❍ ugh would press his fangs into your skins so gently

‗ ❍ his hands slipping down your hips to your thighs, pressing them up and out so he can slot between them better

‗ ❍ remember, this man is a fucking munch he’s def getting into that area with immense speed

‗ ❍ his tongue UGH I know that bitch is so fucking long

‗ ❍ would nuzzle into the area, inhaling softly and rubbing his cheek against it

‗ ❍ “so perfect, tight, pretty” is all he would say as he moved to drag his tongue up so so slowly, his hands gripping into your thighs so they can’t close

‗ ❍ “going to make you know how pretty you are, gonna make you cum so much until those thoughts are gone” (RAHHHH)

‗ ❍ gods that tail wagging at your taste - definitely comments how great you taste and he could have his face between your legs for forever

‗ ❍ won’t stop until you’re whining how perfect you are

‗ ❍ ugh would try to fit all 12 inches of himself in you, hands pressing on your stomach “feel how tight you are? How tight? So perfect for my fucking cock” he would murmur

‗ ❍ totally would lean all in your face making you look him in the eyes - would stop moving if you don’t

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Bruce

Sfw:

‗ ❍ would notice immediately, his face scrunching up as he tries to figure out what caused such feelings

‗ ❍ he would gently place a hand on your shoulder and wait for you to turn to him, he wants you to feel comfortable and go at your pace

‗ ❍ “what’s wrong?” He would ask, “what’s got your scent so sour?” He would continue, patiently wanting until you answered

‗ ❍ he would keep eye contact with you the whole time, nodding to show he was listening

‗ ❍ “oh, dear,” he would whisper “I’m so sorry” he would reply

‗ ❍ he would move to sit down with you, listening attentively “I don’t want you to feel like this; is there anything I can do to ease these feelings?” His other hand rubbing up and down your forearm so gently

‗ ❍ he so would remove his necklace and put it on you; smiling

‗ ❍ his tail will be limp, he doesn’t enjoy how upset you were

‗ ❍ he would move you both out of the area if it started to get too much for you; fucking you guys somewhere comfortably on the beach

‗ ❍ he would make a picnic for you on the way there! Sitting on a blanket and enjoying each others company

‗ ❍ always holding your hand until you calm down

‗ ❍ lets you use his shoulder to cry on if needed, rubbing your upper back softly and nuzzling his cheek into your hair

‗ ❍ would press a gentle kiss to your hair then forehead “we can take to as fast or slow you need to, I’m here with you the whole time”

NSFW:

‗ ❍ he would immediately have a conversation before hand, asking what was okay with you and what was not, listening to everything you say

‗ ❍ he would state his boundaries too - which weren’t many, barely if any

‗ ❍ he would start off slow, laying you down and kissing you so gently, hands wandering up and down your body softly

‗ ❍ he wouldn’t do anything until you did something, never wanted to go pass what was comfortable

‗ ❍ once he was given the okay he would slide down to kiss along your neck, pressing his fangs against your skin and rubbing them gently into your pulse

‗ ❍ how fingers slipping into your waist band and skimming the skin hidden there

‗ ❍ his hips grinding into your thigh softly

‗ ❍ “Can I go lower?” He asked his fingers dipping closer, only finally reaching and gently mapping out the area

‗ ❍ he’s so into suckling on your chest too, so gentle, nearly ticklish, would lean back and look up at you “are you doing okay?” He would ask, waiting for a response before sliding back to your chest and sucking

‗ ❍ “you’re so perfect and beautiful” he would whisper, using his free hand to brush your hair of your face

‗ ❍ he definitely goes so soft and gentle for you, whispering how there’s nothing wrong with you the whole time

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Clay:

SFW:

‗ ❍ he is so fucking in tune with you, his tail flicking behind him quickly to show his displeasure

‗ ❍ his own anxiety would peak for faster than normal

‗ ❍ he would blurt out “what’s wrong?” Before biting his lip embarrassedly and tucking into himself

‗ ❍ holds a hand out to you to take before quickly taking you both to a separate place

‗ ❍ wrings his hands together to listen to you, his ears drooped down but facing you closely

‗ ❍ his heart would fucking snap knowing how insecure you felt his hands coming up to hold your face so gentle and moving close

‗ ❍ “do I make you feel like this?” He would ask, “please tell me I don’t actually hurt you..” he would whisper moving to rub his snout against your nose

‗ ❍ would kiss all tears away if they do fall, nuzzle into your cheeks just under your eyes and pressing soft kisses there

‗ ❍ would left go of your face and hold his arms out waiting for you to hug him

‗ ❍ would wrap his arms around your torso so tightly and holding you closer, burying his face into your hair

‗ ❍ SWAYS HE SWAYS - back and forth and side to side, just enjoying your warmth

‗ ❍ he’s the biggest baby - next or Floyd of course

‗ ❍ “let me know if I can do anything for you”

NSFW:

‗ ❍ he would listen to everything you say, he’s already had so many conversations about boundaries he need to be sure; he was extremely taller than you, and had fangs and claws that he didn’t want to hurt you

‗ ❍ and let you sit on top of his lap, holding your hips gently

‗ ❍ nervously looking up at you before contenting it to not make you feel any worse

‗ ❍ “I love you so much, I love everything about you” he would whisper running his hands up your stomach to your chest and back down

‗ ❍ “no one could make me happier than you can”

‗ ❍ “you can take control” he would say and he means it, do whatever you please with him to gain the confidence you need, doesn’t care if it ends up teasing him

‗ ❍ gosh he would enter you so so slowly, holding you softly but firm to prevent yourself from going to quick

‗ ❍ gasping at how soft and tight you are “oh, oh goodness,” he would whisper “you’re so perfect for me”

‗ ❍ lets you set the pace, one hand coming up to hold your cheek, rubbing his thumb against your cheekbone, sharing breaths as you ride him

‗ ❍ asks about everything !!

‗ ❍ “May I thrust into you?” He would whisper, eyes locked onto yours waiting for your confirmation before gently thrusting up

‗ ❍ hugs you to his chest if you need it! Kissing along your forehead and nose bridge

‗ ❍ so sweet it’s nearly torturous

‗ ❍ “mine and I am yours”

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Tagging: @akwardlydifficult

I hope you like 🥹🫶

#trolls 3 #trolls band together #brozone #trolls #john dory #john dory x reader #clay trolls x reader #trolls clay #trolls clay x reader #bruce trolls x reader #bruce trolls #trolls bruce x reader

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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 4 months

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Thanks for your response. I was the anon who ended the ask with 'the fandom can suck it'. When I saw that anon who you and twinanimatronics had assumed to be the one that keeps you know starting shit with you, I really hated that they labeled us as shipbrain or whatever they said. I am aroace who finds comfort in shipping characters and that doesn't make me any less aroace. Can't people like them just let us have this, let us share it and stop taping our mouths? God. We are not even hurting anyone. I posted a solarxmoon and solarxearth mini comic thing yesterday and behold, I believe that same anon found it and is looking adamantly through the solarxmoon and even solarxearth because I didn't use the tsams tag for my comic. I took the comic down fast and turned off anon messages so quick because God that anon was quick to leave nasty messages, six in total and that was panic attack inducing. I'm sorry for rambling about this. I don't know anyone else who got that same anon on their back. It looks like they are persistent for lack of better term and it annoys me+scares me. Can't even share things I like about here anymore. Hoping solarxmoon becomes canon so that anon can shut up already

If Solar Moon became canon, they don't even need to change anything.

The actors don't even need to pretend to kiss or be romanically involved at all.

It's literally as simple as "Oh yeah, we were dating for months, anyway..."

OH AND... FUCK THAT ANON. I know the user you are talking about, I think there's around two or three of them... and it seems like they're dead set on hunting down people who use that Solarmoon or Solar x Moon tag.

Going into popular users in the tsams fandom that I personally don't know... and spreading bad lies and rumors about me.

Like, they typically try to keep it as vague as possible, like "oh I am not talking about dana-chan-the-control-brain specifically....." but they often steal the exact wording and turn of phrase I use.

Cause I have an overly wordy way of talking on the internet.

I've always been this way since I was 15, so I feel my style of speaking is pretty overly wordy, rambly and long compared to most people just because I don't have a lot to share with my opinions with in real life. And I also misspell things a lot cus spellcheck has gotten worse since it became AI trained and it doesn't help my dyslexia.

But how sad is that? That someone is searching out the tag for a ship that they don't like, claim that "it's everywhere" and I'm "poisoning the fanbase" when I'm just.... here... playing with my own dolls, doing my own thing.... and not bothering anyone... Not even putting the ship in the tags publicly because I have Such respect and love for the silly little youtube show, who also plays with fnaf characters like they're dolls.

(just saying.. "bio-organic" and interdimensional travel did NOT come from fnaf I can tell you that much. )

And yeah, if they're really stumbling across Solarmoon or these ships on accident.......Blacklist the tags and move on? Don't come to my messages... Don't harass my friends...

And don't harass other people I DON'T EVEN KNOW because someone just said "hehe but what if they kissed" on the internet?

Like blocklist the tag, and move on.

I know the blocklisting tagging system sucks sometimes, so maybe it's picking up "Solar" like in that case? Just scroll super fast and don't look at it?

And yeah. You don't deserve those nasty messages sent your way at all!

Oh, and if you feel brave enough to reupload your art to tumblr and DM me, I will gladly reblog it here. <3

#danachan's rants #danachan's replies #danachan's asks

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niuniente · 7 months

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YES THAT'S THE THING! The only negative thing I have heard about Buffy since it started airing in the late 90's is that Buffy always goes back to Angel, no matter what, and it can get boring.

After all, this is an extremely popular series. A cult classic. It has won lots of prizes and gotten nominations. Has gotten books, comics, a movie. Angel even got his own series!

And here I am, not believing what I'm seeing because the writing just sucks SO BAD AND MAKES NO SENSE and no, you can't say it's because the series is old.

This all is happening in S5. There have been inklings over the course that this series is indeed made by a man, because only a man would write romance or women like that. Nothing super big, just slightly annoying like "oh my god, no woman would actually think or do that".

The problem in S5 is that the series/creator clearly can't either understand what a healthy devotion is OR/AND can't commit to write Spike in one way only. He constantly contradicts himself without any given reason, which in this case would only be a severe mental health issue.

Spike is pictured as this lovesick puppy who would do anything for Buffy, a bit shy and really taking his time to gather his courage to confess his feelings, and who is also making sure that his actions won't hurt Buffy or her family, even if it would hurt or kill him. Like, this soft, gentle, sensitive man who will do anything to keep his lover safe and would never harm them in anyway. Every mother's dream son-in-law.

But Spike is also, at the very same time, pictured from this male perspective of a lovesick man; oh, isn't it romantic how he steals Buffy's clothes to smell them, has built an altar for her, has a Buffy mannequin at his crypt he treats violently when he gets angry, stalks her around her home because he can't help his feelings, how Spike asks her current girlfriend to roleplay Buffy in bedroom because otherwise he doesn't want to have sex with her, how he commissions this personal Buffy sex toy for his own pleasure and orgasms only, and how he kidnaps Buffy and tells Buffy he kills her if he can't have her? Oh, what romantic devotion, this man is SO in LOVE!

AND HE KEEPS GOING BACK AND FORTH! THIS EPISODE, HE WANTS TO KILL BUFFY. NEXT EPISODE HE ALMOST GETS KILLED HIMSELF BECAUSE HE WOULD NEVER ALLOW ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO BUFFY. WELL NOW HE STALKS BUFFY AND WANTS HER FOR HIMSELF ONLY, BUT NO, WAIT, HE'S ACTUALLY PROTECTING BUFFY'S FAMILY BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO BRING ANY SADNESS TO BUFFY.

Like, who the hell is he? Do you want him to be the every woman's dream man or every woman's nightmare? He can't be both at the same time, not without an explanation and no, him being a vampire and sensitive isn't a valid explanation for such drastic differences.

And BUFFY? Sweet lord, Buffy! She's all just "eew, no" about this whole ordeal of having an obsessive man who has killed two Slayers (and is apparently the only vampire who has ever won against a Slayer) after her. No worry in the world. No concern that this man could kill or rape her, or hurt her family in his temper tantrum? Just scolds him by saying "gross" and "leave me alone".

And here I thought the biggest issue for the upcoming Buffy and Spike romance would be Angel's existence.

Of course, the series is probably going to brush all this freaky stuff off like "Nah, never happened and look, he was just so desperately in love and Buffy is so very strong she is not afraid of anyone and has no sense of self-protection as a woman".

I just don't understand how this level of character writing is considered even remotely plausible, not to mention something to be celebrated as an excellent cult classic?

Maybe it's just the Season 5. Maybe I'm just too old. And too sad. I just want better for Buffy and Spike, separately and together.

EDIT: OK TURNS OUT THE CREATOR OF THE SERIES HATED SPIKE AND HIS ACTOR FOR MAKING SPIKE A FAN FAVORITE AND RUINING HIS ARTISTIC PLANS, AND THAT THE CREATOR IS BASICALLY JUST A MAN SIZE WALKING DICK. A clear attempt to make fans hate Spike in S5 writing.

#S6 might have some hope for me #niu watches buffy #you know it's BAD when I get ranting because 99% of the cases I don't care enough about the bad parts in anything

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jaskierx · 4 months

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little pre-warning for suicide (i'm fine though!!)

sorry if this isn't articulated very well but like. i got into ofmd only last october when season 2 was airing and i still remember it's bc i got a clip on tiktok of the "is that blackbeard?" "no, i'm blackbeard" scene which is SUCH a good fucking hook btw. and before watching it i kind of actually hated it LOL like people do with anything that's popular and Everywhere it just oversaturates sometimes. and it made me feel kind of silly to go back on my own opinion but i didn't even really dwell on that bc me getting into it also happened to coincide with a failed suicide attempt (that kind of funnily also included a gun that misfired like in-show lol). and like i was pretty understandably all over the place, but generally still in the "i want to live" moment that happens right after you nearly properly die. and the thing about suicide recovery is that you don't actually want to recover. so it was a really up and down left and right kind of situation and you're left feeling kind of like a puppet with no strings that's also been thrown into the ocean or something.

but then i liked this show that was funny and silly and i also got to see trans and gay people existing happily and normally which isn't necessarily NEW but it did feel really cool and unique to be able to go Oh and this is the moment where they would usually leave it to subtext and then they actually KISS and it's like woahhhh. i didn't know they could do that... and then as i was still processing what was happening with my own life and like mortality i got to see this character go through the exact same thing and come out on the other side of it ENTIRELY by himself and experience love and self determination and actualisation and i'm not saying it made me want to do it myself but it did feel like a really personal thing for me (hence anon also lol).

and for the few weeks it was coming out i got to sit there and think about how he was doing and it gave me another reason to not do something again. like i am so definitely not the only one who can say "this show saved my life" but honestly it literally did. like there's that thing when you're suicidal where the things that you're sticking around for are the only things you've got so they're as important as anything even if it's like... going to a concert the following week or something. or getting a burger. and i really honestly stuck around just to love this show and my cat.

it's been a few months now ofc and it still sucks and i'm not better or anything but being able to indulge in something fun for fun's sake is the biggest source of joy in my life and tbh it's not gonna go away just because there's going to be no season 3. when i'm feeling too much of particularly anything i have a handy little balm which i know everyone feels but still. a little gifset of ed always makes me feel better if i'm freaking out so it's cool i don't care if it's a bit lame. i'm a bit sad for season 3 and everyone being sad is also making me sadder but i still have a lot of love left so ah. it'll be fine :)

if anything i hope this inspires people to have a little boom in the numbers re: content now that we know there'll be no canon to possibly diverge from and we can make up our OWN season 3 ‼️ which will be fun :)

hi anon sorry i didn't reply to this yesterday i wanted to sit and think about what to say

and then i didn't really come up with anything lmao other than you're right and i love you and i love this show and it's so incredibly important to me and so groundbreaking in so many ways and has made me feel seen in a way that no other piece of media ever has. the queer rep is groundbreaking. the portrayal of ed's suicidality moved me beyond words. there are dozens of other people sharing stories about how ofmd helped them to come out or meet their partner or start transitioning or quit something that was making them unhappy. i watched s2 at a time while i was really struggling with post-covid symptoms. i've met so many incredible people through this fandom. i think about the show dozens of times a day. the show brought me so much joy and they can't take that away

they can't ever take away how special it was and how much it's changed people's lives

i'm very excited to see what the amazing fic writers in this fandom are going to give us in place of s3. i just wish we could've had the rest of the story david wanted to tell

#asks #anon #ofmd #cw suicide

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tavina-writes · 3 months

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I've realized that my writing isn't for my fandom. My favorite pair to write is less popular than others, but there are fans. Just, only happy-ending/soft characters seem to attract people, while my fics are downer-ending/harsh interpretations. What should I do? Stop publishing on ao3? Writing as other like?

Hi Nonny!

I am sending you hugs because it's always an odd situation to be in when you feel like your writing isn't something that other people who like the same thing would be into. And that's rough! and lonely! We come into fandom and make fanworks primarily to try to find people who like the same things we like, and it can feel really sad to be like "well I seem to be an angst person in a fandom that loves fluff."

I have a few thoughts about this, that might be helpful to you.

The first is that you can never be sure if there isn't a small and dedicated part of the fanbase who really love angst and is trying to find it in your fandom and just haven't found you yet! Are you tagging your works with the appropriate angst related tags? While fix-its are really popular in fanwork in general, I can say that I've definitely met people who LOVE tragedies and downer endings and things not working out, so like! we exist! perhaps not in quantity, but people are definitely out there. While the fandom at large might seem like it's focused on one thing or another, there are probably some pockets of fans who like the same thing you do, and continuing to write and post your work increases the likelihood of other fans eventually finding it.

The other thought I have about this is that if posting your fic or writing your fic is really getting you down because it feels alienating or lonely, it's okay to step away from it for a bit. Oftentimes, continuing to do something that isn't bringing you joy is only going to be an emotional time suck and make you feel worse, so if it's not sparking joy right now then it's 200% okay to step away and give it a rest. If it's just posting that's getting you down it's also 200% okay to write stuff and...not post it. I've written thousands of words of stuff that for one reason or another I didn't end up posting on ao3, but the act of writing those works got me through some really challenging and difficult portions of my life, so if writing brings you joy but sharing doesn't, it's absolutely fine to write and not share.

Overall, Nonny, I think only you can decide what's going to be best for you going forward, but yours is not an uncommon feeling and I am sending you my support.

#asks and answers #fandom stuff #sometimes it's really difficult being at odds with fandom at large #and it can feel lonely and alienating trying to find people who share your likes and dislikes #I don't think it's wrong to stop sharing if it stops bringing you joy ultimately

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unhonestlymirror · 14 hours

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I genuinely don't understand how people can hate the place they're living in. To me, objectively, the worst place I've ever lived was Ukraine - because of russian invasions, Maidan, prorussian propaganda everywhere, quite evil people in russian-speaking school and then uni. I still love my home. There was plenty of amazing stuff there and plenty of good people, too, despite everything. Although we changed our places of living way too often when I was a kid... Mom said when I was little and we moved to our new apartment there, I laughed, and I was kissing the walls.😅

My mom, who is Belaruthian, used to love criticizing Ukraine a lot, but, objectively, she had a much better life there than me. Maybe that's why she misses it much more than me. However, I remember perfectly well that mom wasn't interested in exploring her home and having fun, she always preferred the job and daily worries. I always had to walk around Kyiv all by myself because everyone was soooo busy and irritated. It made me sad that I had to be alone in my happiness living there.

My aunt, who is also Belaruthian and who lives in Latvia, also constantly says, "What for am I cursed like that?" Although she loves this country, actually. I've been to Latvia, and I communicated with people there, and frankly, if people are not russian, they are quite nice in 99% of cases. And even russian-speaking can be okay, too. Like, it's not that bad. Yeah, the medical system and the education suck ass, but they suck ass everywhere nowadays, Latvia is not unique in these terms. Except for Lithuania, who has good education but still fucked up medical system.

I just don't understand: if you don't like your place that much, why the hell don't you just move to somewhere you like?? Why don't you work on that instead of constantly whining and portraying the world the worse than it actually is. Especially if you have possibilities. Why don't you just try to find something nice in every day. You don't have to be always cheerful and smiley, but just... focus on good things. Enjoy the sun and fresh air, e.g. Always say hello to strangers. It's not about being positive or blind, it's about improving yourself little by little every day and making the environment a little better too. It's about caring about other people, not for attention or awards but for the little happiness you feel when you make someone feel better?? Why don't people enjoy making other people feel better? Why do people like complaining about stuff they don't want to change? For example, I can't change the medical system in Lithuania, yet, although it really REALLY upsets me. I just... make sort of schemes what to do in future?

And God, there are so many people who criticize Lithuania way too much, although Lithuania is objectively one of the best countries to live in. Thankfully, Lithuanians are not that critical nowadays, but non-Lithuanians... Jeez. Lithuania has enough job opportunities yet enough of a non-fucked-up environment, it's balanced, yk. Believe me, there is a lot to compare with.

And anywhere I go, whether it's hot Spain or pompous Poland, popular UK or even more popular Italy, everywhere, EVERYWHERE people complain instead of changing something or at least explaining what and how they want to change it. Although it's not that bad. There are plenty of good things! And yet people don't talk about them at all. I feel like there is too much accumulated violence in people nowadays, and sadly, they have forgotten how to use violence for good, how to use violence for cooperation and changing something for the better.

The older I get, the more I want to say: "Oh, so you dislike this? Why don't you shut up and try to do something to fix that instead?" It's genuinely so tiring to hear all that. It's like the virus of energy vampirism, which affects people.

#just some thoughts #Lithuania

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beethebisblog · 1 year

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I had to watch the episode in short bursts, because people kept needing me for things.

I’m gonna ramble about everything that happened for each character but first I just want to say that I loved hearing more of Tricia’s singing voice this episode, she has been underutilized so far.

-Susan

At the beginning of the show, Susan was very quickly cast as the pretty but mean popular girl jealous that her ex-boyfriend moved on. Then slowly, they did this thing that I REALLY love, where they gave her more depth, more complexity, and more dimension. They have shown us perfect Susan who works hard to maintain the status quo and please her mother (who is encouraging unhealthy relationships with food and slutshaming her daughter, seriously Mrs. St Clair can suck a rock). And now they’ve shown us another level to Susan, acknowledging that rich white families will ALWAYS do whatever it takes to protect their reputations. Her mother holds this over her head, but it was clearly a very traumatic, very difficult thing for her to do in secret without the support of anyone. Sure her parents made it so that she could get the abortion, but based on how we’ve seen her mother treat her, we know Susan doesn’t get any real support and it makes her actions that much more heartbreaking. When she tries to stand up to her mother, and Olivia (who is neither right nor wrong in her reactions) doesn’t want to believe she’s changed, you can see that she accepts that. It isn’t until Olivia is a steps a little too over the line that she reveals the truth about what she witnessed. Susan is 16-17 and she’s hurt and she’s scared and she’s sad and I love her.

-Dot

I don’t have much to say on her, except that she really is a sweetheart who deserves better friends. Honestly, sometimes a pity date with the bad boy of the school is way better than sitting there alone while your friends all have dates. She’s so cute. Her poor nose and eye :(

-Hazel & Wally

Doing them together because they were together in all of their scenes. Hazel was giving Cinderella vibes. I appreciate the fact that while Wally doesn’t understand some of her Hazel-ness, he really seems genuinely interested in learning about her interests and getting her to at least attempt to enjoy his too. I loved their duet. I love that during the utter chaos that was the rest of the episode, they got to be in their little bubble where everyone pointed out that they are seemingly perfect for one another. I don’t normally trust media when it says stuff like that, but I actually really like them together.

-Nancy

I love her so so so much. It’s entirely relatable the way a crush can feel all consuming and irritating all at once. Her (and Cynthia’s) song was very much a highlight of the episode. I love that Nancy is just an all in type of person and she doesn’t really stop to hear a no for the answer. I do wish they would give her a little more depth. They’ve done a good job with Susan and Jane and Olivia and Richie and Buddy. All we really know about Nancy is that she is incredibly headstrong, a very talented seamstress/ designer, the daughter of the owners of the frosty palace who may or may not be an only child, a Buddhist who’s not a fan of reading, “scary” and although she hasn’t had much of a romantic life in the past, she has a big crush on Potato. Which is valid, because he‘s great. But still, I want to see a new dimension of Nancy with this new conflict within the Pink Ladies.

-Cynthia

She is in the “shit I am gay but no one can know, especially not the person who made me realize it’s true” phase where she fights it HARD. Compulsive heterosexuality hurts. She needs someone to talk to, before she implodes further. That moment with Lydia made me so so sad, but that’s just a real part of quiet culture for someone. Cynthia is hurting, and that doesn’t give her a free pass to hurt Shy Guy like she did, but I understand it. She’s gonna have to apologize bug time, when she comes around. Also, as always, I loved Ari’s part in the duet.

-Olivia

I’ve decided that if her and Richie are twins, she’s the older one for sure. The ages are so hazy, or at least their grade levels, and I’m kinda confused. So my head cannon is that she’s the older twin. Which would explain her protectiveness over the Pink Ladies, without factoring in the slightly homosexual overtures to hers and Jane’s friendship that is not present with the other PLs. Olivia hates Susan, and she does have reason for it. But that really doesn’t explain why she wouldn’t let Jane explain. Because people can change, and they can learn. But Olivia does NOT have forgive Susan, but she should’ve given her so-called best friend a chance to explain. No matter what Susan said, Olivia had NO right to do what she did. She knows what the school is like once they realize you are a “slut” and she knew that the consequences always land on the girl (does she not remember the extent of the conversation at Dot’s party??). Sorry that just made me so mad. And then to tell Richie what happened between Buddy and Jane :/Her moments with Gil were really sweet. But her going back to her abuser does not send a good message at all and I hope this is addressed before the season is over.

-Jane

She did the right thing not going with either guy to the dance. She was unsure of her feelings for either and did not want to lead them on or hurt them by choosing too soon, and that was a mature decision. Her budding friendship with Susan is interesting and kind of ironic. Her accidentally confirming Olivia and Mr. Daniels is unfortunate, but also something that would reasonably happen to me because I am bad at de-escalation techniques. Jane is very much people pleaser, even after everything, so it makes sense that she would sort of defend Susan. Her coming home to Olivia’s jacket already on her porch (which like, hello Flash because how did she get there before Jane) was almost the opposite of the scene where Olivia brings Jane’s jacket to her house. She did not even really register what Richie told her about Buddy and the election results (which like, how did he find out?)

-Richie

He is a good guy. He respects Jane’s space; he saw that Dot was devastated about her going dateless to the dance (which also sorta implies she’s never been if they previously had to have a date to register a ticket and she said her friends always had dates but not her). He was very kind to go with her, and go along with her quirks. Teenage jealously makes a person unsteady, and I am just glad someone told Jane the truth about Dick Aldridge.

-Buddy

I am still not his biggest fan, but man was he sad this episode. It seems like everyone is moving forward except him, which is expected when you realize most of your life is a lie. He needs a slap in the face and a hug.

-The others (Shy Guy, Potato, Mr. Daniels)

As for the rest: Potato remains one of my top guys; Shy Guy and Cynthia in the kitchen actually made me cringe because I know she feels nothing what he feels for her; and the predator needs to be imprisoned. I can’t believe he is trying to suck her back in :(

I need my girls back together. I need some proper communication to happen between Lydia and Cynthia.

Also episode 8 comes out the day before my birthday so I hope it’s a good one (they have not let me down so far).

#grease rise of the pink ladies #pink ladies #Susan St Clair #dorothy #cynthia zdunowski #nancy nakagawa #jane facciano #lesbians #t birds #buddy aldridge #olivia valdovinos #richie valdovinos #miscommunication trope is going to kill me #Will someone teach these teenagers how to communicate without literally blurting out every secret thing they know????#potato is a good guy and I hope he stays that way

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alpaca-clouds · 8 months

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Where is the love for Shojo anime?

Lemme talk about this one thing just annoyed the living fuck out of me: Shojo anime often get just completely ignored by the wider anime fandom and any anime related media.

Yeah, yeah. I know. The stereotypical weeaboo is a dude, who never has seen a real woman up close, but from my years long research on the weeaboo community aka being a weeaboo for too long I can say with certainty: There are a lot of female weeaboos anime fans out there, who will obviously watch shonen anime... but also shojo anime. And it is kinda annoying how this part of anime often just gets ignored.

I love watching cooking shows on youtube. I admit, I am basic like that. And the thought came me there while watching the "Anime with Alvin" stuff on the Babish channel.

There are a lot of shojo anime that show gorgeous food. But... instead the series will each and every week just focus on some shonen. And not just shonen, just always some battle shonen of some sort. And that kinda seems like a waste.

And it is not just there. Just in general when non-anime-media talks about anime, they will usually talk just the newest battle shonen. Heck, it is gonna be a rarity if it is gonna talk about even seinen anime/manga. But shojo and yosei gets pretty much ignored.

Let's face it. It has a lot to do with misogyny. Because shojo stuff will just get thrown out as "boring romance stuff", which is simply not true. Because... there is a lot of shojo, that is not - in fact - romance. While there is also a lot of shonen, that happens to be romance oriented.

Shojo has so much variety. There are even action heavy shojo series (just think about all the magical girls). So, really, the "boring" thing just does not make sense.

Of course there is also the sad truth that over the last ten years the amount of shojo anime (especially those, that are neither connected to a big franchise like PreCure, nor a remake of a once popular show like Tokyo Mew Mew and Fruits Basket) has drastically decreased. Most anime we have right now are just the usual battle shonen, some sports anime and then the twenty-thousand isekai light novel adaptations.

And it really kinda sucks. I would do a lot for a new shojo series. Or heck, just a remake of Ouran High School. Because... Shojo anime can be so darn good, too.

#shojo #shojo anime #anime #manga #anime and manga #romance anime #drama anime #magical girl #mahou shojou

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thecurioustale · 8 months

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Liking Things that Go on to Become Popular Kinda Sucks

I have the unfortunate tendency to be something of a social contrarian. For instance, just as a throwaway example, I learned recently that my favorite whiskey, Jameson's Irish Whiskey, is also America's most popular whiskey. You might think that I was pleased, as someone who almost never holds majority tastes in anything, but in fact all I could think of was, first, that I'd been usurped, and, second, that this will inevitably lead to the collapse of the brand once it stops being the current hotness. I am a very, very light drinker, but I would still be sad if my favorite whiskey became hard to find.

My contrarian streak is not for the sake of arguing. I don't actually like arguing, for the most part. Rather, it's often a mixture of feeling personally displaced (like I mentioned above) and internally cringing at the coarseness and imprecision of popular opinions (which is also a form of displacement, but subtler and more involved).

The first reason is pretty easy to understand: I've been a social outcast my whole life and have therefore come to have a strong sense of individual identity. When something obscure that I like becomes popular, I feel like I am seen when I don't want to be seen, like I am getting unwanted attention via my interests and affiliations. This is pretty simple human psychology and I don't have much to say about it that's worth making you read through.

But the second reason is more interesting: I have this incredible compulsion toward precision in my life. Anyone who has listened to me speak in person, or read my nonfiction writing at length, will know that my sentences are often extremely heavily qualified, full of asterisks that anticipate the inevitable objections to my clean general statements in their basic form. There is almost nothing of great importance that I could say as a general truth without being at need to qualify it.

When something that I like becomes popular, it is almost always the case that the prevailing appreciation or popularity in question is unbearably simplistic to me—leading directly to one of the things that makes me chafe more than anything else: being misunderstand through oversimplification. If someone else likes something that I like, but for extremely simplistic reasons, and their understanding of the thing is what ends up being promulgated through society, then anyone who sees me and my interest in the thing will, without knowing better, be apt to classify me as just a typical fan of the thing—when in fact my particular liking of the thing is likely far more esoteric and elaborate.

It's a form of erasure mingled with misrepresentation, and of course I don't like that. This too is fairly simple human psychology, and well-spoofed in characters like Comic Book Guy from The Simpsons. (Though I try not to be insufferably gatekeepy about it like he is. We all like what we like, and I'm not gonna tell other people "the right way" to like a thing.)

I should note that this doesn't apply to things that I come to like because they are popular. If I'm jumping on the bandwagon like everyone else, that's much less jarring than if I had previously liked a thing which goes on to become popular.

It doesn't always happen that I'll get upset if something I like becomes popular. In fact, it usually doesn't happen. What needs to come together for me to feel put out is either what I described above about the whiskey, where the thing I like is likely to become harder to enjoy once it inevitably loses its popularity, or it needs to be the case that the thing which becomes popular is something that I not only like but which I also pour some measure of my identity into. That's the cut in the skin that lets the act of being erased really sting.

And if this all sounds moderately petty and animalistic to you, it totally is. I am not claiming otherwise and not idealizing any of this as something you should aspire to. But maybe it's interesting to read about anyway.

#Armchair psychology with Dr. J

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Oh, you KNOW I was made for the hate wins ask game. Could I get uhhhhhhhhhhhh 1, 5, 6, 7 & 16, please? <3 I would ask you more, but I feel like that's excessive, and I need to get to work now. Okay, love u, bye, see you when I get home <333

sigh. Don't touch me.

I don't have a single fandom I'm known for or particularly attached to right now, so ill just jump around as i feel.

THE CHARACTER EVERYONE GETS WRONG

I am self appointed idiot who makes every character i get my grubby little hands on ooc. Because of this, I can't say for sure that any characterization I see of my faves is objectively WRONG because my own ideal version of them is surely not right. Now, having been an adult and saying all this I can say with the utmost confidence this award must go to Claude Von Riegan [FE3H] just by virtue of how he's probably one of the more popular characters i adore and as such gets the brunt of the bullshit.

I hate when people write him as this flirty, overly charming guy. Claude cannot flirt his way out of a clear bag and he is paranoid as shit. He isn't seducing your white prince and dragging him down to the dark (ha) side. He also doesn't strike me as someone who's deeply curious about other house's gossip because he actually cares. Claude stays in the know because not knowing is a blind-spot he can't allow himself to have. Screams. its whatever.

5. WORST DISCORD SERVER AND WHY

Worst discord I was ever in ... hard toss up between the ye-olden HQ discord servers or the one dmcl one I was in? Surprisingly, as far as I experienced it, both had very nice people in it on the whole. But the sad truth is too many cooks in the kitchen fucks up the simple soup-- which is to say, having so many other fans with different [WRONG] interpretations was annoying.

I can't deal with not having complete control or like, a general understanding with the people around me in fandom discussions so these servers were just, by their own nature, places I was never meant to be in. [Spits] What do you mean CLAUDE would wanna join the BL class. Go to hell.

6. WHICH SHIP FANS ARE THE MOST ANNOYING? WHY?

Short answer? sylvix. Long answer? Regardless of the fandom, the fans of the biggest most accepted ship [canon or otherwise] will always be the loudest and most annoying imo.

When you've never had to work for your food you get comfortable fast and complain more. Its a natural byproduct of being lucky enough to deeply enjoy the lowest common denominator. In most cases, regardless of fandom-- whatever reigns supreme brings the biggest headaches with it. But If this is still too general then... mmm.. people who ship objectively canon ships because their imaginations can be too small and they'll find rare-pairs odd, weird or even stupid to be into. Many a time I've had someone tell me "they've never even spoken tho.." as if that was a needed component of every ship. They're tiresome people with tiresome arguments. But it's whatever <- she is the most annoying bitch alive.

7. WHICH CHARACTER DID FANON RUIN FOR YOU?

This one is really interesting honestly. I'm usually pretty ambivalent about anyone that isn't in the blorbo pile or the poison pit.... but.... maybe Dedue or Ferdinand? Dedue because f3h fans racism and Ferdinand because he was always someone shipped with Hubert and little else. I think its sad, both ,men have so much going for them too. I'll put Tsukishima on this list as well because he was my number one and ruined by fandom. Actually no put like 90% of the HQ cast here actually hq Fandom sucks ass and ruins every cool guy. it's a bitch.

16. YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE THIS THING

God. I'm such a hater.,... this could really go on forever... Okay, I swat at the hornets nest for this one. fics over 100k. 9 times out of ten, they're not good. Quantity/=/ Quality. Usually most of the word count is just used for shit you didn't even come to the story for. That's fine, I respect any writer who can even make that much of ANYTHING, but people who can read it (and more so ACTIVELY search for it) are odd to me.

I've been worrying on this for a few days and mellowed out since I started so nothing is tooo grating or bitchy here. Look guys I'm kind and sweet forever. Enjoy. Huzzah.

#the funnies #im #not tagging all this shit #lol

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lostcauses-noregrets · 10 months

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Sorry to send this to you and you can definitely ignore this question if you want but I do feel very alone that's why I'm sending this to you :(

I joined this fandom 5 months ago and Er*ri is so popular, AoT and Levi are very popular in general, so I was really excited, all my other ships were really underrated or rare, finally I could be part of a big fandom. But after spending some time on Twitter I was really surprised to see how much this fandom... argues? There are surprisingly a lot of people who mock and ridicule everyone who ship Levi with anyone else which, yeah I agree I can't see him with anyone else, but it doesn't sit right with me to mock people :/ it's not just Er*ri to be fair "Er*mika is canon you can't ship them with anyone else" is also a popular statement in this fandom even though they are just fictional characters. And there is this weird trend where Er*ris just.... hate Levi? lmao if it makes sense. I keep seeing them insulting, belittling or reducing him to Erwin's bf which convinced me that a lot of Er*ris are just Erwin stans who ship him with Levi because he was very devoted to Erwin but doesn't like him at all WHICH IS THE REASON I am writing this message because this fandom is so so so SO interesting. Every other fandom comes up with the most ridiculous reasons to explain why their ship is more complex and their characters with 10 mins screen time is actually important while this fandom often reduces this ship to 2 obsessed weird middle aged men hahahaha well it's often Levi is obsessed with Erwin but Erwin sending 15 years olds to their deaths left and right for his own obsession which is.......... yeah. I don't know I saw so many Er*ri accounts (popular ones from my experience) treat Levi like he's the most basic, bland and boring character and only interesting thing about him is his promise to Erwin and I wonder if you agree because I find his character very fascinating and not everyone has to be a Eren or Reiner. That is my point I think ,this idea of reducing a part of your own ship and thus reducing the ship inself to something.... less. Look I'm mentally ill and I keep questioning myself so whenever I see things like that I wonder "damn maybe I made it all up maybe this ship does suck if he's actually just a dumb pawn for Erwin and occasional fuck and he's just obsessed and not really in love" and I spend the rest of the day thinking about why I love the ship. Like I said it's impossible to control this for me and until I read a good fic I doubt my own ship :/ to be fair I think it's only twitter? Fic writers on ao3 is great but when it coems to twitter fandom I have never seen a fandom who hate a side of their ship so much lol Listen Er*ri is my all time favorite ship I have never had a ship this.. idk special? A ship that hit me like this, it's just so good and I read fics religiously (yours are great especially <3) the reason I'm sending is this because a) I felt very sad and even though it's easy to say ignore that part of the fandom the best part of being in a fandom is to interact with others and every time I see things like that I close my Er*ri tabs for a day :/ b) I don't think there is anything wrong with questioning or discussing the parts of your fandom since it has nothing to do with the ship itself AHHH SORRY like I said ignore this if you want I just saw another discussion on twitter exactly like this about Levi being.... nothing basically from Er*ri fandom and like I mentioned my mental illness kinda makes me doubt it all and makes me sad sadfgdsadf :')

I must admit I'm struggling to know how to answer this. Regarding your first point, ship wars are a fact of life in all fandoms. The SnK fandoms are not unique in that respect. Sadly there will always be some fans who prefer shitting on other ships rather than enjoying their own. I find that the best way to deal with these people is to block and mute, regularly and often. I am a bit surprised that you've been seeing a lot of this behaviour recently. I'm not aware of any recent ship war drama, but maybe that's because my block list is working as intended.

Regarding your second point, about Eruri shippers shitting on Levi, this is where I am genuinely confused. In all my years in the fandom this isn't something I've experienced. Sure everyone has their own fave, but I think I can count on one hand the number of Eruri shippers I know who actively dislike Levi or see him as nothing more than Erwin's pawn. Fans will definitely take the piss out of both Levi and Erwin, but it's not intended to be taken seriously. In my experience the kind of fans who see Levi as "basic, bland and boring" tend to be dudebros who claim to be above shipping. Most Eruri shippers I know see both Erwin and Levi as deeply complex and nuanced characters, with a believable adult relationship based on mutual trust and respect.

Having said all that, the Eruri fandom, like any fandom, is not a homogenous unit and you will find lots of different perspectives and preferences. If you come across fans whose take on these characters doesn't match yours, or who cause unnecessary drama, just block and move on.

PS I have no idea what you mean by saying "not everyone has to be a Eren or Reiner."

#asks #eruri #snk

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fangirleaconmigo · 1 year

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heya -

you did a four character game back in like, october, and what you wrote hit me so hard that i sometimes still visit the post/screenshot i have of it if i’m feeling particularly. sad. it’s one of the most important things anyone has ever said to me and you literally don’t know anything about me but it’s cool. and then at the end of my feels i always look at the tags you left , uh ,, ‘sorry im fully drunk right now’ and that is so goddamn funny. you suck. anyway i just looked at the screenshot again & thought maybe i should tell you. i had tony stark, sherlock, lambert, & iroh

Hello! Ok. I’ve read your ask a few times and I’m not completely sure how you feel about me because tone on the internet is hard. It seems like you like visiting the post but then you say that I suck so I’m not 100% sure 😅

So I am just gonna plow ahead and tell you how I feel about those posts. For those reading who weren’t following then or don’t remember, almost six months ago I posted this:

Ok, how about this game? Send me four pics of your favorite blorbos and I will psychoanalyze you.

Here’s how it works:

Send four pics

I need to know at least three of them. If it is live action scifi and fantasy, I’m very likely to know them. (If you want to do animated, I won’t know them unless it’s ATLA, Arcane, or Castlevania. I won’t know any video games other than The Witcher.)

I will psychoanalyze you.

This is for entertainment and fun. I am not a psychologist.

i might be too close for comfort. I might be incorrect. Pls pls pls don’t be mad. I don’t know you. This is just for fun.

I’ll do this til tomorrow.

Send me your blorbos.

I think waaaaaaaay too deeply about fiction, as anyone who follows me knows. I also think a whole lot about psychology and human behavior. That’s been more for my own survival.

So I thought hey this will be fun. I’ll look at the characters. I’ll find a common thread of emotional impact each of these characters can have on people. I’ll find a common point of emotional connection between them all. Then I’ll free flow.

And on one hand it was fun. I really do like doing it.

But on the other hand I started getting really really anxious every time I answered one. What if I missed the mark and offended the asker? Or worse? What if I hit too close to home and made them feel too vulnerable?

I know it’s just fictional characters and I was clear that it was for fun and I tried to come from a place of affection and positive uplifting thoughts for each person.

BUT STILL I didn’t know how I was making each person feel and that was freaking me out because what if I was making them feel bad?? (I often worry about the way I make people feel on the internet. I can’t see you guys so I don’t know how I’m making you feel so I get neurotic about it.) and not everyone responded to my answer and so ofc I just worried twice as hard when that happened.

So I have actually a lot of those asks left sitting unanswered in my ask box. It was really popular. People sent me asks who didn’t follow me, so even though people didn’t all rb their posts, it somehow broke containment (people were maybe sharing in dms or discord?) and I got a lot of them. But at some point my worry and anxiety about it stopped me finishing answering them. And now it’s six months later and I don’t know what to do with the posts I still haven’t answered. Would it be weirder to answer them or not answer them?

Anyway. Back to your post.

Everything I answer and put out there is with love even when inebriated and overly honest. And I just went back and reread my answer to you and went yep. That’s still what I see as the connective tissue between those characters. I hope on the balance it was a positive experience for you.

#asks #four character game

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artem-wing-wife · 1 year

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MR. STREAMER ALERT! CP.4

As Cyno walking back to his room, the stream went wild and his stream views went skyrocket. Cyno calmly sit back to his gaming chair and unmute his headset.

" Is there something I missed? ", Cyno ask his chat calmly while his chat still going ballistic about what they just saw.

- 500K Mora Donated by HaithamVA

Is that the nerd that you always talked about? Are you in love with him or something? Did you do anything to him? Oho? Why didn't I know anything about this? Cyno? Tell me A.S.A.P, you know what? Tell your viewers some good shit.

Again he groan, Cyno face palming himself.

" You know what? Let just say things straight up here. I don't like rumours, so let me just say it on stream "

" The man that just on my door is the love of my life. I wish not to say his name because it was him to decide whenever he want to say it. I called him by Nari because it was part of his name. He's a nerd, and I love him for being one. The charm that he had stunned me and I actually had been in love with him since highschool. I don't think he know that I exist until our university life. I took Law, and he took something related to Herbology. I won't disclose anything anymore, and that's final. Come on, this is not a lover reveal stream! " Cyno blushes and cover his face off. " Urgh, blame Haitham for a short stream! Fuck you man! " Cyno immediately end his stream and jump to the bed.

' This stream sucks, but atleast Nari wanna be my boyfriend... Is this a pretend relationship? Yeah, I think so. Maybe he will fall for me, that's for sure... Right? I mean, I'm a nice looking guy with a great personality. I have the money to spoil him, I have lots of things to satisfy him. What do he really need though? ', Cyno then let a frustrated sigh. ' Maybe I should get him something tomorrow ', Cyno then stand up and walk outside the room, walking straight to the next door.

" Nari, my dear? Are you asleep? " Cyno knock on the door.

" N-No, you can enter the room "

Twisting the doorknob, Cyno look at Tighnari who is blushing in front of his laptop. " Oh? Do you have a fever or something? " he touch Tighnari's forehead which is getting even warmer.

" I'm fine, don't worry about me " Tighnari push Cyno's hand away which made the man a little sad " You know that fennec have a really great, sensitive hearing, right? "

" Wait... You do? "

" Well, duh. Your stream, indirect love confession? I heard all of it ", his face formed an awkward smile.

" I thought... Nevermind, I don't have to be so secretive to you. Anyways, so you heard all of them, eh? What do you think about it? ", Cyno waiting for his reply.

" Well, it is very thoughtful of you to consider my feelings, I thank you for that. Second, how do I never even see you on highschool? "

Nervously laughing, Cyno just smile. " Remember the senior year of your highschool decided to make a school fair? I went there with a couple of friends then I walk by myself on the day 2. I am not a big fan of being in a crowded place, so I decided to check on the Science department instead. I think I went to the lab and then, I saw you with a blonde boy? He's your best friend, I think? You are giving the visitors a quick study of your project and I was there. I felt like I was struck by lightning " Cyno then laugh to himself. " Silly me, I tried to get close to you, but the man name Albedo ask me to go with a green hair girl instead. Not trying to be weird, I just follow her instead of greeting you. I tried to go to the Science department on the next day, but Albedo say that your booth is closed. I didn't give up though, I asked him about you from him and he just smile at me "

" What did he said? ", Tighnari getting invested with the story.

" He said and I quote, " Tighnari is a pretty popular around here, so I really think you are one of his newly fan. I never see you around here though? Nevermind with that, but if you want to get to know him, you can give him a call. I can give his number. I assume you are from other school since your uniform is not from one of here. Tighnari never a fan of love, so him wanting to get to know you is rather... odd if he does. He is very smart fennec, a very attractive one too. I don't have any advice for you, but maybe don't be such a creep to look for him. As his best friend, I want only the best for him and not into a forced relationship " Albedo said ", Cyno then hug Tighnari from the back. " But I glad tonight, I can have you by myself "

" Cyno, this is only a pretend relationship, okay? You need my attention, and I need your fund for my studies. After this, we are only friends. Did I made this clear? " Tighnari slowly huff.

Cyno then turned silent, but hug him tighter.

" I know ... But, you still can try and fall to me, right? "

" I never a fan of being in love, so it's hard for me. I... I will give you a chance, of course ",. Tighnari slightly blush and smile at him.

" I think you already fell for me " Cyno nuzzling on Tighnari's back. " Can we just sit like this for a while? "

" Sure... "

Minutes passed, the two of them slowly drifting themselves to sleep, hugging each other.

" Nari... I love you... Please just love me back ", he sleep talking.

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Plot is going too fast, but y'know what? It kinda make sense to me lol

#genshin fluff #cyno fluff #cyno x tighnari #cynonari #genshin smut #cyno #tighnari

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Hi dream. I thought I had been doing well, but I don’t really think I am anymore or have been. It feels like a short lived phase. I don’t even feel like being negative anymore. I’m just here. I wish everything would be okay. I went to the popular law of assumption accounts on here and it made me feel worse. It reminds me of why I left the community in the first place. 😭 We have all these feelings and they tell us we are doing it wrong and blah blah blah. It just didn’t feel right so I exited off their pages and came here. You are the mother of law of assumption. I feel like you understand the god aspect, but also that we are human.

The last time I sent an anon, I was rejected from UCLA. My spirits were up and all but they’ve been down now. I know I said my mother gave me that motivational text, but it wasn’t motivational at all. Yesterday, I realized that my family truly does make my my soul unrest. I don’t even feel comfortable being the real me around them. The words they say to me, my mom sometimes says some real shit lol but it never motivates me. Being here does not make me feel good. I’ve always never felt at ease around my family. Now that I’ve come to terms with it, I don’t know what to do. They feel like such a brick wall on releasing myself. When they left for vacation yesterday (I didn’t go because I recognized that I never truly enjoy trips with them), I felt so at ease but as they were on their way home and as they arrived, my soul felt low again.

On top of that, I still don’t want to go to UCLA, but I need to. No matter how much I daydream, I don’t want to just smile in my head. I want to get away, you know? If I don’t go to UCLA, I have to stay here. So that sucks. I want to be out of the country, with my ideal career but nothing is working out. This may sound bad, but I am not good enough for anything I desire. It may sound like the normal insecure sob story but it’s actually true for me, not just self sabotage. I’m not great to look at. On the inside and outside it’s just nothing good there. It’s sad but I tried to answer these spiritual questions. Do you know the inner questions that people talk about? They say like “What is something you like about yourself?” “What could you do to get closer to your dream self?” What’s sad is… I couldn’t name a single thing I like. I spent time to think about it and there is nothing. I may be nice to others, but it doesn’t feel good when I can’t even be nice to myself.

I guess I’m just down because everything is just bad and things haven’t changed for years so I don’t know if they ever will. It’s scarier because every single account I used to religiously depend on up here doesn’t have it together either. They gave the greatest advice (I guess). They tell us to just suffer in the 3d but force yourself in the 4d. The thing is, they talk about how they suffer too. So if the advice they give doesn’t work. What will? I don’t resonate with anyone. I just feel stuck and like I will never be relieved. I feel that there is something I’m missing but I just can’t find it. Or it’s just me hoping that there is something I am missing so I don’t give up hope. Financially, mentally, physically everything is……. I have no words to describe it. I know I am the only one who can figure it out, but it’s just nice to tell someone my thoughts. I literally have no friends (which may sound sad but I am not sad about it. I’m not ready to be around people in this state) and my family is not someone I can express myself to. I don’t even believe in the law anymore. I just have hope that maybe one day I can get everything I want.

This will be my last anon message because I guess coming to law of assumption Tumblr every time life sucks isn’t making me any better lol. I truly appreciate you allowing us, anons, in your space. I know it’s not easy having people vent to you and you give advice. You’re a human being living and growing like the rest of us. So a big thank you for your help and advice. Also, I hope your language learning has been going well (I remember you have another account for you learning a new language, I actually saved one of the posts from there. It was helpful). Maybe one day I can learn more languages like you! 🩵

hiiii <3

thank you for that super cute compliment ! hahah honestly, i just stopped following the crowd and started to follow myself, and i encourage everyone else to do the same. the answers will never be on a screen, the truth is the answers come from within you. the thing is we're often just too scared to trust ourselves and follow that feeling, so we choose to believe in what others say. or in my case, maybe what feels right to do you is opposite of what everyone else says is the path, it makes it scary to go off and follow yourself. but that's exactly what i did regardless, and i've never had a moment of regret.

you definitely have to heal your relationship with yourself more than anything else. it's pretty hard to go after what you want, when you're too busy blocking the idea that you're even worth the opportunity of it. we've all been there, but it's up to us to break ourselves free. the way i liked to see it back then was, why do i see myself as this special chosen one that life is *especially* mean to ? why do i think i'm so unique that i'm so horrible while everyone else is worthy ? it's kind of a reverse psychology i guess hahah, but it can be helpful for you to get real with yourself and realize you're actually just like everyone else. worthy and capable, with some hardships of your own to face sure, but certainly not doomed. we all have a life thats full of up and downs, with mental health to worry about or inner struggles. its part of the journey, and the hard pill to swallow is you're not exempt from wonderful outcomes.

i definitely get that, the thing about giving advice on this topic is it's very fulfilling to the ego. it makes you feel better, it provides a lot of attention bc its making everyone else feel better. and no one has to show credentials for any of this, its easy to read about the law and then create content about it without any successes of your own. thats why i just encourage everyone to stop worrying about whatever someone else says and just... literally do you. honestly, thats the truest and easiest way to apply the law. i literally dont do half of what anyone encourages, and yet the miracles don't stop coming. sure, i can tell myself now that i was born under a lucky star. but i'll never forgot the years of never ending pain and anguish i had to go through before i started experiencing a sweet life for myself. following other people's advice never helped. i've always been open about that and i'll never stop being real about this being a journey. not an overnight quick fix.

once again, thank you for your sweet words ! and i totally appreciate that hahah language learning has been really wonderful for me, i seriously love how learning a language also comes with falling in love with another culture and learning so much more about the history and the people. ahhh so lovely ! i know you can definitely do it as well <3

your journey will certainly be a beautiful one, and you can surely experience that life you want, but really you've truly got to start with the relationship involving you and you and you. that needs to be priority #1 ❣️

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