Competition / I'm Busy pt.2 / Phosphoros pt.2
I thrive on your shock when I’m better than you expected
Please keep on underestimating me
It’s what all the authorities have always suggested
Please keep on ignoring all the awards ceremonies
I’ve attended
Was I hardly there? You didn’t even see me
Yes, I’m really that busy
Yeah, here’s the follow up to everything
Here’s the follow up to everything I’ve told you
Sorry, can’t hop the queue
I’m waiting in line, just like you
But unlike you, I can’t be bothered
I’m never affected
Everyone thinks I must be so weathered
But I’m full of first world problems
Never even been infected
Yeah, I’ve had more vaccines than you
I’ve got people in my corner, lying too
At high risk, but it’s not a competition
I thrive on your annoyance when I keep my opinions to myself
And I thrive on your shock when I let them out
I never said any of this was anything I cared about
Everyone assumes I want the clout
But the truth is, I’m on a completely different route
Oh no, oh no, I cry, what will I do without
I’ll be just fine, I’ve been doing this since I was fourteen
That’s 2004
No, I’ve never done a line
But that doesn’t mean I don’t want more
I will always want more time
My plan is to be immortal
Don’t care what this business talks about
Too many people in the industry getting arrested for being creepy
Even more being ignored, but what about me
Yeah, I thrive on shutting down your insistence to talk when I’m quiet
But I thrive on your shock when I’m loud
Oh, you don’t like it?
I’m too obsessed with my own design
How do this and this combine
How do all the signs align
Please let me break my own fucking spine
I don’t have the time or energy for you
Please just give me a sign
Oh, everyone who likes me thinks I’m so divine
The truth is I will never know how to shine
I only know how to confine
myself
Redefine
myself
Just now taking everything off the shelves
the ones I built myself
When I dug this grave
Trying to take everything with me
Angels sit with me when I’m awake
But demons lay with me when I sleep
I’m just trying to exist in this ugly wet dream
Don’t need any snakes, or Eve
I’m my own evil entity
Angels always praise me
But demons are the ones who keep me
I just want to break free
But how do I reclaim myself
when demons are the ones who allow me to dream
I spread my arms, say “heaven, I’m yours for the taking”
But darkness already veils me
partially
And once a combination, no more allowance for purity
I don’t know why I’m faking
I know heaven don’t want me
So why even bother trying
Oh, yeah, I’ve got people in my corner lying
And unlike others, I live for it, consider it my love language
But everyone thinks I’m so goddamn languid
Because when the authorities finish their frisking
they’ll have found nothing
Because it’s not a competition
What are you looking at?
I thrive on your anger when I keep my mouth shut
And I thrive on your confusion when I talk
Just wanna fill everyone with shock
But I never said I’d give a fuck
Everyone assumes I’m surviving purely on someone else’s luck
But the truth is, no matter how much I wanted it
no one’s ever given me a leg up
And I don’t know what makes anyone think I give a-
Oh no, oh no, I fake cry, just so you can hear the sound
No matter what you say, think of me, do to me, I’ll always be around
Yeah, I’m around the corner
I’m not waiting to pounce
No, I’m waiting to renounce
Because I only care about myself
Keep that on the middle shelf
So it can be seen more easily by everyone else
Then I’ll just walk away
Because I don’t care
And I really don’t think this world is fair
And I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt real bad
when fighting gets me nowhere
What is this world even about
I don’t even know what this business is talking about
Too many people in this industry getting arrested for being creepy
Even more being ignored
Cringe as I watch everyone move forward
toward
their own Burning Sun
But I never wanted to shine
So I run in the opposite direction
But those thoughts still in my mind
I wonder, can I help it
or is this just humankind
Destined
Help, I’m no divine
But I want to remain on your mind
Wave up, hi to the spotlight
I may not want to shine
But I want to be shined upon
But I’ll keep it to myself every time I-
…Umm
It’s never enough, it’s not enough
I will always want to be alive
Yeah, I’m tough
I thrive
But I constantly wonder
Is that normal?
Is it normal to want to be immortal?
It’s because I feel like I’m the only one with morals
Why are heart and home always full of criminals
But darkness has surrounded me since birth
But I still see the sun, still see my worth
Always a combination, no time for separation
Keep going
Even if I have to stretch myself
I don’t want to confine myself
Want to redefine myself
Putting everything on these shelves
the ones I built myself
When I dug this grave
Trying to take everything with me
Angels sit with me when I’m awake
But demons lay with me when I’m asleep
Because I’m just trying to exist in this ugly wet dream
Don’t need any snakes, or Eve
I’m my own evil entity
And I’m my own savior, here to save me
What are you looking at?
Don’t you know, it’s not a competition
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Hellenic Gods Fact Sheets and Hymns: Hecate
Other Names: Trivia, Brimo
Epithets: Anassa eneroi (queen of those below), Aidonaia (lady of the Underworld), Amibousa (she who changes), Atalus (tender, delicate), Borborophorba (she who feeds on filth), Brimo (angry, terrifying), Despoina (mistress), Eileithyia (of childbirth), Enodia (of the roads), Epaine (dread), Euplokamos (bright-tressed), Khthonia (of the Underworld), Kleidouchos (keeper of the keys), Kourotrophos (protector of children), Krokopelos (saffron-robed), Liparokredemnos (bright-coiffed), Nycteria (nocturnal; of the night), Nyctipolos (night-wandering), Perseis (destroyer/ daughter of Perses), Phosphoros (light bearer), Propolos (guide), Propylaia (the one before the gate), Scylacagetis (leader of dogs), Soteira (savior), Trikephalos (three-headed/of the crossroads), Trimorphos (three-formed), Trioditis (of the three ways), Trivia (of the three ways).
Domains: Witchcraft, magic, necromancy, ghosts, nightmares, death, initiation, the crossroads, gateways, passage between worlds, and the night.
Appearance: [My UPG] A tall (over 6’) woman, neither young nor old, with waist-length black hair, pale skin, prominent cheekbones, a heavy jaw, and intense green eyes. She is usually dressed in black folds molded into a simple dress or robes. She has a severe expression and an intimidating presence. She speaks with a low voice.
Sacred Days and Festivals: Eleusinia (22 Metageitnion). Nemoralia (August 13th-15th). Deipnon, last day of each (lunar) month.
Symbols/Attributes: Torches, keys, daggers, strophalos (iynx wheel)
Sacred Animals: Dog, polecat, serpent, horse, frog.
Sacred Plants: Yew, cypress, garlic, willow, hazel, black poplar, aconite, belladonna, dittany, mandrake, hemlock, asphodel
Elemental Affinity: Darkness, light, fire
Planet: Moon
Colors: Black, saffron, silver.
Crystals: Black onyx, hematite, obsidian, black tourmaline, moonstone, smoky quartz, agate, amethyst.
Incense: Myrrh, almond, cypress, camphor, saffron, mugwort, pomegranate.
Tarot Cards: The High Priestess, The Moon, Death
Retinue: Empousai, ghosts of the dead, dogs, Lampades (torch-bearing underworld nymphs)
Associated People: Witches (and other magic-users), the dead
Offerings: Bread, eggs, honey, garlic, menstrual blood, graveyard dirt.
Syncretized With: Artemis, Diana, Persephone, Eileithyia, Selene, Nephthys, Ereshkigal, Nicnevin, Heqet
Hymns to Hecate
Orphic Hymn to Hecate
Hekate Enodia, Trivia, lovely dame,
Of earthly, watery, and celestial frame,
Sepulchral, in a saffron veil arrayed,
Pleased with dark ghosts that wander through the shade;
Daughter of Perses, solitary goddess, hail!
The world’s key-bearer, never doomed to fail;
In stags rejoicing, huntress, nightly seen,
And drawn by bulls, unconquerable, monstrous queen;
Leader, Nymphe, nurse, on mountains wandering,
Hear the suppliants who with holy rites thy power revere,
And to the herdsman with a favoring mind draw near.
Hecate’s Hymn to Herself
I come, a virgin of varied forms,
wandering through the heavens, bull-faced,
three-headed, ruthless, with golden arrows;
chaste Phoebe bringing light to mortals, Eileithyia;
bearing the three synthemata [sacred signs] of a triple nature.
In the Aether I appear in fiery forms
and in the air I sit in a silver chariot,
Earth reins in my black brood of puppies.
(From Porphyry’s lost commentary on the Chaldean Oracles, preserved by Eusebius of Caesaria in Praeparatio Evangelica. According to Porphyry, this hymn was composed by Hecate herself.)
Magical Invocation to Hecate
Approach, you of the netherworld, of earth, of heaven, Bombo!
You by the wayside, at the crossroads, light-bearer, night-wanderer,
Enemy of light, friend and companion of night,
Rejoicing in the howl of dogs and in crimson gore,
Lurking among the corpses and the tombs of lifeless dust,
Lusting for blood, bringing terror to mortals,
Grim one, Ogress [Mormo], Moon – you of many forms,
May you come gracious to our sacrificial rites!
(Preserved in Refutation to All Heresies by Hippolytus)
Invocation to Hecate from PGM IV 2708-84
Come, giant Hecate, Dione’s guard,
O Persia [daughter of Perses], Baubo Phroune, dart-shooter,
Unconquered Lydian, the one untamed,
Sired nobly, torch-bearing, guide, who bends down
Proud necks, Kore, hear, you who’ve parted / gates
Of steel unbreakable. O Artemis,
Who, too, were once protectress, mighty one,
Mistress, who burst forth from the earth, dog-leader,
All-tamer, crossroad goddess, triple-headed,
Bringer of light, august / virgin, I call you
Fawn-slayer, crafty, O infernal one,
And many-formed. Come, Hekate, goddess
Of three ways, who with your fire-breathing phantoms
Have been allotted dreaded roads and harsh /
Enchantments, Hekate I call you
[…]
O Hekate of many names,
O Virgin, Kore, Goddess, come, I ask,
O guard and shelter of the threshing floor
Persephone, O triple-headed goddess,
Who walk on fire, cow-eyed BOUORPHORBE
PANPHORBA PHORBARA AKITOPHI
ERESHKIGAL / NEBOUTOSOUALETH
Beside the doors, PYPYLEDEDEZO
And gate-breaker; Come Hekate, of firey
Counsel, I call you to my sacred chants.
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