say that you won't go 🩸🥀

I'd followed Deadcat here after reading some fic, and ended up unfollowing rather quickly, as a a lot of the rhetoric, way she spoke on tumblr, etc., was frighteningly similar to some abusive people I've known. I assumed I was overreacting, but still unfollowed/stopped reading her work. Not sure how I feel about my gut instinct potentially being correct (I'd always like it not to be, in this care), but it is what it is.

But regardless of all that, AO3 makes the rules VERY clear, and considering there are humans behind emails.... of course it takes time? No one gets shoved to the top of the queue simply because they have more words, more fics, more 'fans', etc. With the sheer amount of people using the site, it shows how damn hard AO3 is trying that they got back to her so quickly, imo. I've been on the other end of that type of job (paid, though) and it still took ages at times, no matter how hard I worked. It's not feasible to assume a massive website run by volunteers will drop everything else to deal with one person breaking their TOS. It's just baffling to me, especially after skimming her current posts. One would think it's easy to simply not ask for money in any way.

I link my tumblr so people can chat (no ko-fi or anything), and even as a "small" author get random asks/followers when I post. A "big" author? Will get more, and people will see a ko-fi/etc link just by clicking the blog--no need to mention money, donations, buying a coffee, etc....

I do remember, in the short time I followed her, her asking for money a lot, though. which ofc on tumblr? fine, I can't judge, but I do find it odd to then also do on ao3 when the rules are SO damn clear

and sorry if you're done talking about this, and def no need to post this ask if you don't want to/are done, I just had a but of a "omfg them" moment, followed by sheer bafflement 😅😅😅

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Well... At least it means your instincts are tuned to the right thing, I guess? A lot of people have had that sense reset to something unproductive (often by an abuser intentionally painting good boundaries or something as bad).

She made some hilariously idiotic comment somewhere about the "offices". Perhaps she thinks OTW is a corporation with a lot of paid staff instead of the Abuse team being a dozen randos at home on their computers in their spare time. (A dozen? Two dozen? I have no idea how big the team is these days, but I know it's tiny compared to the size of AO3.)

hi can i pls get Anything abt mr. ryunnosuke tanaka 🥺

omg yes 🥺 love my man Ryu. I ended up doing hcs for this bc I had so many ideas lol

warnings: mentions of nosebleed

strangers->friends->crush w/ Tanaka Ryuunosuke

so you "meet" on the train. you've just started additional test prep classes before and after school and it happens to line up with the times of his morning and evening practices :0

he thinks you look familiar but also he thinks you're cute 👉👈 so you catch him staring a few times and he tries to play it cool

see: fails to play it cool like he'll start whistling or lean against a pole and slip falling into another patron 🤦‍♀️ which makes you smile bc aw & it breaks the intimidating impression he gives off

so one time during winter otw to school you notice him sniffling a bunch and then his nose starts bleeding bc of the dry air ;) hey plot convenience

and bc you were watching him you immediately pull a bunch of tissues out of your bag and shove them in his face

Tanaka broke uh oh

stuttering mess poor bby this is not how he wanted any first conversation to go smh just says the most ridiculous things in a very loud voice

you laugh at his flustered state bc it juxtaposed how he looks so much and oop he died

he finds out you go to karasuno too and you're a second year like him and he's like oH that's why you looked familiar

so you tell him about the extra classes you're taking and he's like 0.0 bc o shit that means you're smart

you end up walking to school from the train stop together yk and he's surprised how easy it is to talk to you?? Like don't get me wrong he's still stumbling over every other word and saying dumb shit and lowkey hiding his blush behind the tissues bc omfg a girl is having a conversation with him

once vb comes up he turns into Cocky Ryu™ talking abt how he's a starter and a wing spiker which is the coolest position and other bragging stuff like that

and you find it refreshing to talk to someone like him bc you're mostly stuck with academic types first thing in the morning and his energy is just so,,much in a good way tho

and he's actually funny. and a dork. and you did not expect this😳 it's also entertaining to see how quick he switches from braggart badass to flustered mess at the most random things you say dirty minded ryu hello

Then at school you part ways and Tanaka goes over to the lil second year squad who are lit rally 👁️👄👁️

Nishi: "rYUUUU??!? Whomst?!??!" yk

and his poor brain finally processes and he is non functioning

you hear screaming in the distance

so you guys actually talk after that ! Mostly you tbh bc sometimes he feels too dumb to talk to you, but he doesn't let it get to him, mental stability king that he is, so he just enjoys being around you. Also likes to watch your mouth move bc he's just like that lets be honest here

Tanaka be talking about you all the time tho. Like his teammates actually want to strangle him whoops. Not like it's the first time he's had a girl obsession but like once he's done thirsting (yk it's true) he starts talking about your personality with the same enthusiasm and his teammates are 👀⁉️

meanwhile you mention him to your friends and they tell you all these rumors and stories about how he's a gang and a delinquent and all that and internally you're just: "that guy? the one that couldn't form a sentence or stop blushing when I gave him a tissue and nerds out over volleyball? that guy?? sounds fake but ok"

Then after encouragement/begging from Ennoshita he asks you (aka screams) to help him study, then immediately tacks on a "andtheothersecondyearsontheteam I mean only if you want to actually imma jump off the train now"

"Tanaka no it's moving. Also I'd love to"

You are the queen. They all love you. Nishi worships you, Ennoshita is grateful for your very existence bc even if you're not academically savvy you still know lots about studying materials and exam stuff from your classes! and they actually listen when a girl tells them

meanwhile Tanaka is a weird combo of smug, flustered, and 😍

anytime you express any doubt in yourself or your future/talent/etc Tanaka immediately turns into Hype Man Tanaka ™

negativity?? insecurity?? who are they??? the concept that you are any less than perfect INCONCEIVABLE

sidenote Tanaka would be the best hype man in haikyuu change my mind

even though he's not always the best with words (he'll apologize for that) his sincerity and genuine lovebelief in you is enough 😌

oop yea you got a crush you realize that now

one time after you were talking about your horrible day on the train home and like usual, he bashes anyone who made it worse and gets mad or sad or whatever with you before cheering you up like normal

and then you give him a kiss on the cheek😳 "Thanks Ryu"

TanakaRyuunosuke.exe has stopped working. Hard reset required.

LIKE his heart is so tender and his brain didn't even comprehend that you could feel that way?? But what if it was a kind gesture?? Nothing more??

cue Overthinking Tanaka™

and he misses his freaking train stop poor bby

can barely function around you anymore 😔🥺 lowkey you feel bad bc maybe you overstepped and he didn't like you that way? you knew he liked their manager etc so now you're overthinking aaaa

then one day he says it

"Y/N!!! I like you a lot!! If we go to nationals I'm taking you on a date!!!!"

you: 👁️👄👁️

also you: "yesomfg I believe in u" (yall the type of couple that hypes each other i-)

and we all know how that bet goes😌

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this is so long omfg I don't know how to add a read more on mobile rip

I rlly should've written this as a scenario but o well 💕 I hope you liked it!

Escape

*GIF ISN’T MINE.*

WARNINGS: Violence and swearing.

Summary: After five years, you finally escape from a shit situation. Lucky for you, you have Yoongi on your side. 

Word count: I lost track, sorry <3

***PLEASE KNOW THAT IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS IN A VIOLENT SITUATION, THERE IS HELP!!! YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!***

You're not even sure how the hell this fight started. When it comes down to it, it never really matters how it started anyway. It was going to end the same way, it always did. You curled into a ball crying and begging him to stop. Unfortunately for you, your begging fell on deaf ears. He was so overcome with anger, that he couldn't hear you. He would continue with the beating until he felt you had "learned your lesson." After what feels like forever he finally gets off you and walks out of the apartment without a single glance your way. You laid there not wanting to move, knowing that when you did, it was going to hurt like a bitch. After half an hour,  a few pep talks and the help of the wall, you were finally able to make your way to your bathroom. Not bothering to look at your reflection you stripped out of your clothes and got into a hot shower. The water stung a little more than it normally did, you knew it was going to be bad.  Standing in front of the mirror, you decided it was time to look at the damage he had done and wipe the steam from the mirror. Looking at yourself, you're not sure if you want to cry from how angry you are or because of the way you look. The blood was now gone thanks to the shower but the blue, black and purple marks that littered your skin, were hands down the worst he had ever done. You had always been scared to pack up and leave your boyfriend because of the fear of what he would do when he found you. Holding on to the counter, taking everything in, you couldn't help but say "fuck it" and go start packing. You grabbed everything you felt that you would need and threw it all in your bag. Walking through the apartment, you realize just how broken and empty it is and has been for the past five years. Gathering your keys, phone, wallet, and bags. You double check you have everything as your eyes fell on Dylan, your dog, still in the carrier where your boyfriend had put him so he wouldn't attack him while he was attacking you. Getting him out of the cage, putting the leash on him and picking everything back up and walking out. After walking for about fifteen minutes, you realize you have nowhere to go. Your family lives eight hours away, not that they would care to begin with and you don't exactly have friends. The only place you could go is your studio. Checking your phone "2:02 am" you read out loud. No one would be there, tomorrow is Saturday, if anyone did come in they wouldn't be there until after 12. Another ten-minute walk and you're unlocking the main door and turning the alarm system off and resetting it. Walking into your studio, you notice that your sunbae had cleaned up after himself this time. You were beyond grateful for him doing that. You set everything down and sit on the couch at the events of tonight finally hit you! You made a promise to yourself when the abuse stated that you weren't going to waste your tears on him and until now you had stayed true to your word. You let yourself cry and cry until you felt you had nothing left. It was after 4 am by the time you laid down with Dylan laying at the foot of the couch, guarding you. For the first time in five years, you rested well.

You woke to Dylan growling into the dark. Turning on the small lamp,, you notice you and Dylan are still the only ones in the room and the door to your studio is still locked. After shushing him, you just sit there and listen to your worst fear as it was coming true. Your boyfriends' voice echoes through the hall getting closer to the room that you're in!

"I fucking know your dumbass is in here! You think you can run from me and get away with it?" He yells out as he gets closer to your studio.

"Please don't find me!" You whisper between you and Dylan.

"Hey, you! How the hell did you get in here and why are you yelling?" Your ears perk up at the sound of Yoongi's voice. You can tell he was fixing to enter the studio from how close his voice is.

"No No No! I won't let him hurt anyone because of me!" You fear for Yoongi as you jumped up and run for the door before your brain could stop you.

"It's none of your goddamn business how I got in here or why I'm yelling!" Your boyfriend yells at Yoongi.

Before Yoongi could respond, you rip the door open and put yourself in between your boyfriend and Yoongi. Unfortunately for you, it was your jaw that your boyfriend's fist collided with instead of Yoongi's like he had planned. Everything seemed to happen in slow motion after that. You fell to the floor from the force of the hit, holding your face. Your boyfriend bent down and began to spit in your face and who knows what else, only to have Yoongi pull you out of his grasp before he could do any more damage than he already had.

"You stupid son of a bitch! The fucking cops are on their way!" Yoongi yelled in your boyfriend's face but he didn't seem to care. He was still focused on you.

"This isn't over you bitch! This fucking prick won't always be around! You might want to watch..." Your boyfriend's threat was interrupted as Yoongi's fist made a connection with his jaw, knocking him to the ground.

"Look you ignorant fuck! You don't get to threaten Y/N in front of me or ever again for that matter!" Yoongi spat into your boyfriend's face as he leaned over him.

When the police arrived, they took one look at you and arrested your boyfriend. You sat in Yoongis chair and explained the last five years of your life to a room full of police, while the paramedics made sure you did not need to go to the hospital for further medical treatment. Once the police report was done and the paramedics told you that you would be sore for a few weeks but should be fine (which you already knew, you've been through this a million times) It left you, Yoongi and your dog.

You hadn't moved from Yoongis chair as you watch while he paces the floor. Knowing his mind is running 90 to nothing, you let him take his time on figuring out exactly what he wants to say.

"Are you okay? No. You don't have to answer that. Of course, you're not okay." Yoongi gets out all in one breath. Standing up, you meet him in the middle of the room. You place your hands on his cheeks in hopes that he'll understand that you want him to relax.

It's no secret that you two have had a thing for each other since you first had met. Yoongi had asked you out a few months after working with you only for you to explain you had a boyfriend. That didn't stop the glances that both of you let slip, the occasional touch of the fingers when one of you would hand the other something or the way you both made the other's heart skip a beat. You had known Yoongi for three years before you both went your separate ways. That was seven years ago. It amazed you that even after ten years you still had that effect on each other.

"Yoongi, slow down. I'm okay. I'm sore and covered in bruises, but I promise I'm fine." You reassured him with a smile that didn't quite meet your eyes.

"After everything you've gone through, how can you be fine?" Yoongi asked the same question you've asked yourself for a very long time.

"Yoongi, I'm fine because I have to be. Over the past five years, I've only ever had myself to lean on." You try to explain without crying.

Without warning, Yoongi embraces you. Feeling safe in Yoongi's arms is what causes you to break down, a feeling that you haven't had since you can't remember when. Yoongi didn't utter a word until he felt your sobs calm down.

"Y/N you don't have to be okay anymore. I'm here in any and every way you need."

"Thank you, Yoongi. If you don't mind, could Dylan and I stay with you until I find a place?" You question quietly.

"Of course." Yoongi sounds beyond excited.

*6 MONTHS LATER*

FROM YOONGI: Are you home, baby?

TO YOONGI: Yes, love I am.

FROM YOONGI: Stay right there! I'm otw. We need to talk!

TO YOONGI: Is everything okay??

You could see that he read your text but didn't reply. When they say old habits die hard, they aren't kidding. You went over everything in your head to make sure you hadn't screwed up at any point with anything but came up empty. So why did he want to talk to you right then?

"Guess I'm fixing to find out." You think as you hear the passcode being entered. Not long after the door is closed, Yoongi appears.

"Hey, baby." He greets you with the gummy smile that makes your heart skip a beat. You've grown to love the pet names between the two of you. You were so grateful for Yoongi. Over the past six months, he has been your rock. Showing you how someone treats the one they love.

"Hey." You respond quietly, still apprehensive as to why he needed to talk to you right then.

"I know that look. It's nothing bad, I promise." Yoongi watches as you let out a breath and relax.

"Then why did you need to talk to me right now?" You ask, confused.

"Because I've had something in mind but have been too scared to actually follow through." Yoongi had you worried and confused.

"Okay?" You question him.

"Then Jin Hyung reminded me that we've known each other for ten years. It wasn't until he said that, that I realized my heart was yours from the moment we met." Yoongi spoke carefully, not get tongue-tied.

"Yoongi. Baby." You're close to tears just from hearing his words.

"Shhhh love. I'm not done." He takes your hand and gets on one knee with a velvet box in hand.

"Y/N, they say if you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it's yours. We went our separate ways and manage to find the back to each other. There wasn't one day that you didn't cross my mind. Baby, I know you've been through hell and back but if you'll let me, I'm willing to spend the rest of my life showing you what real love is! Will you marry me?" Yoongi watched and waited for you to respond.

"Yoongi! Oh my goodness! I'm speechless! I don't know what to say!" You rambled out as tears leaked from your eyes.

"Don't overthink it, just trust yourself and say what you feel." Yoongi relaxed you when you needed it the most.

Taking a deep breath, you closed your eyes and let your heart speak for you.

"YES!" You cried out.

Yoongi placed the ring on your finger and stood to embrace you.

"Thank you for being my past, present, and future!"

"Thank you for being able to escape!"