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caliumcyanide · 1 year

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"Why is it that everyone who has a supernatural ability has a twisted heart to go with it?.."

A haphazardly put together and incomplete Analysis of Dazai and Mori's differences and similarities in relation to their peculiar obsessions.

So, I recently stumbled across Taxidermia, (a 2006 Hungarian surrealist horror movie) and since everything else occupying the RAM in my brain is BSD right now, I subconsciously and later, consciously related the two together.

At this point we're all aware of the themes such as "cycle of abuse" and "the chain of salvation" that are present throughout the whole of BSD. The story isn't a horror, and is not meant so much as a warning, but a conversation with the reader/viewer. Then how can this film possibly relate to any of this? Well...

“By the way, who’s the person you said I reminded you of?” he asked.

Mori smiled faintly. Then with a hint of melancholy in his expression, he gave his answer:

...

So, in this movie, the story is told by means of three generations of Hungarian men; 3 characters with one specific trait, quirk, obsession, if you will. In simple terms: one is a pervert, the other is a speed-eater, and the third one is a dedicated to his craft taxidermist. I guess, by now, you see where this is going, right?

Now, I'd argue the situation relayed in BSD is quite ambiguous. What is a skill? What does it truly represent? (I wanted to look into the play with Tokio Murakami in the UO to figure this out, but maybe later) There's seems to be no definitive answer to this, but as always, there is an ongoing subtextual debate on the nature of human beings (not just the skill users, because even if they are their own category they still belong to the human race, don't they?) the formation and evolution of their identity throughout the years, what influences them to act a certain way, all to ask a bunch of simple questions: "Is there a correct, right way to live your life?", "If nothing I do can change the past, then should I be defined by said past?", "Why is it that everyone who has a supernatural ability has a twisted heart to go with it?", ad infinitum. That last one, eh? It's introducing a sort of deterministic element to the nature of the ability users. Which is curious, to say the least.

Now, back to Dazai and Mori's exchange. Right out of the gate it could be argued that Mori, in spite of his claim, is admitting to both Dazai and us, the audience, that he doesn't, in fact truly grasp what this teenager's dysthymia was born from.

“Dazai,” Mori began while still pondering that question. “I may not be able to comprehend your answer, but I nonetheless want to know: Why do you want to die?”

Especially when we trace their relationship to the Dark Era, where he might've used his general understanding of the human nature to force Dazai out of the Mafia, because he knew of his connection to Odasaku, but the way he argued with Dazai, the way the latter had a hard time articulating his irrational feelings and justifying them as beneficial to the Mafia (we all know how concerned Mori is with being rational.) made me question whether Mori ever understood Dazai even just a little bit.

“It’s a win-win situation. So why are you so angry?"

Dazai didn’t say a word. That was just about the first time he’d ever been unable to articulate his feelings.

“I…”

—“There is nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering.”

—“Awaken me from this oxidizing world of a dream.”

“I just…” His voice came out strained. “I just don’t get it.”

Don't worry, Dazai, I don't think Mori gets it either.

“I have just one thing I’d like to ask: What’s wrong with that?” “……”

“My answer is the same, Dazai. I will do anything for the benefit of the organization. Besides, we are the Port Mafia. We have always brought darkness, violence and cruelty to this city. “Why is that a problem now?”

Dazai knew. He knew Ougai’s calculations, his mentality, and the rationale behind the plan. That was just the kind of organization the Port Mafia was. Logically speaking, Ougai was right, and Dazai was wrong. “But…” He turned on his heel, then began walking toward the door.”

Did Mori's plan succeed? Yes.

Did he correctly predict Dazai's actions? That's right.

Did he come to understand Dazai after having him as a subordinate for all these years? No. Not one bit. Because, there is this fascinating thing about humans, where they fear what they can't comprehend. Why again did Mori want Dazai out of the Mafia so badly?

"You were afraid of me, weren't you? Afraid that I would aspire to take your position, that one day, I'd run a knife across your throat. Just like you did to your predecessor."

Then, once again, why the comparison?

Well, there's always a possibility of him just lying to Dazai plain and simple, though I can explain why it can be easily discarded as "not worth the effort". Mori doesn't need to lie to get Dazai to do things for him, he doesn't even need to be particularly discreet about it, like this example from Storm bringer:

“My reasoning is extremely simple.” Mori smiled. “If that monster kills you, nobody will be able to save Chuuya, and he will die as well. In other words, you will finally get the death you have always yearned for but with Chuuya by your side.”

A full ten seconds of silence went by until Dazai broke it.

“Hwaaah.”

“Was that a yawn I just heard?”

“Look, I know what you’re trying to do, and it’s not gonna work. You can’t manipulate me. Good-bye.”

The radio then cut off. Mori held his radio with a faint smirk.”

Hehe, the infamous double suicide argument.

Mori seems to have a general grasp at how Dazai works, but that doesn't seem to be enough. Because there's this:

"No single word or phrase could accurately describe their relationship. The closest approximation would be bound by a common destiny."

And this:

"And yet no one trusted him. Because the darkness lurking within his eyes was deeper than the ink black nights that hung over the dumping ground he inhabited."

And this:

"Miscalculation.

"You misjudged the situation." He told himself. You failed to pick the optimal solution. You shouldn't have chosen this child to help you. Dazai is unpredictable. He can be sharp, but in a dark, twisted way. He's observant. He's cold and calculating with no equivalent even in the Mafia, where the most evil reside."

Honestly, the mention of "darkness" in various descriptions of Dazai by different characters deserves its own fully-fledged analysis. Even if all my examples would consist of excerpts from Oda's internal monologue, it'd still be a treasure trove of information and food for thought.

Back to Mori. I believe this "I'm just like you" moment serves a bunch of purposes all at once. "If you are like me, and I am the head of the Port Mafia, then, by extension, this is the only place that can give you purpose too, because this is where individuals like us thrive." It makes so much more sense to follow somebody else's example, if they really are as similar to you as they claim, and if they truly did find what Dazai is desperately searching for.

The other purpose it might serve can look a bit more sinister: "There is darkness in you, there is something very wrong with you and what I can help you do is put it to good use. I know, because I was the same. I can help you use it for the greater good."

What's funny about BSD is that it's not just that there is the lack of transparently defined right and wrong, (which I believe should be a standard in any media, because otherwise art is reduced to nothing but a slightly subtler version of propaganda) but the lack of a clear winner in these types of existential mental confrontations. Dazai did fail to pick up on Mori's real motives behind the Mimic incident in time, yet his observation of Ougai's lingering fear and paranoia towards him is pretty spot on. Mori did succeed in many aspects of using Dazai as a tool and even going so far as to conduct a plan to dispose of him properly, yet he remains as apprehensive of Dazai as he was from the beginning. To this day, he is still able to predict Dazai's actions, but because of what Mori defines as: "common destiny", "flashes of brilliance" and the "bizarre, meaningless fascination with suicide", he most of the time fails to see him an an autonomous individual, capable of having a purpose different from Mori's own.

Ultimately, does any of it even matter? I'm sure Mori would have been fascinated to know why is Dazai the way he is, just like he would inquire Oda about his guns in the future, but not then, because what he wanted from Dazai when he was in the Mafia is to be a polished diamond scalpel he can use for combating anything threatening the organization. And scalpels aren't known to possess any free will. It didn't matter at all what Dazai went through to reach this point, but what was important from Mori's point of view is that they do, in fact, have similar "steel trap" minds as well as certain obsessions.

"bizarre, meaningless fascination with suicide"

"Are you still lusting after little girls?"

...has a twisted heart to go with it...

I'd argue what Mori expresses here can be described as a very flawed form of cognitive empathy. It isn't full comprehension, by all means, which is why other people in their analyses usually point out the harm it can bring to project onto someone to such a degree, without acknowledging the possibility of even a single difference between the two of you, to force them to be a carbon copy of you for the sake of nothing but blind self-indulgence.

What, in my opinion is a first clear symptom of Mori's pathological misconception... is using the word "meaningless" to describe Dazai's supposed obsession with suicide. For someone of such caliber to be fooled by Dazai's facade so easily is a crazy feat to accomplish. Congratulations on your incomprehensibility once again, Dazai!

Like I mentioned before, BSD takes a more ambiguous approach to all of its themes, characters, et cetera, so it's definitely curious that Odasaku's quiet emotional empathy (as opposed to cognitive, which Oda also expresses, but much later, as a means of deepening his understanding) is, in fact, what reaches him, and in contrast to the narration or Mori's words, Oda doesn't describe him as the "darkness itself", but akin to a person, suffering from a chronic illness.

"I could see a thorn the size of a harpoon wedged deeply into his life."

A child who is surrounded by the darkness and hurt by it, even seemingly bleeds it, yet remains at his core a lonely, abandoned, sobbing child.

“He was too smart for his own good. That was why he was always alone. The reason why Ango and I were able to be by his side was that we understood the solitude that surrounded him, and we never stepped inside it no matter how close we stood.”

Speaking of contradictions and complexity:

“Ougai stared at the scattered reports on his desk. The organization had received an item of great value, something that more than made up for the total pecuniary damage and loss of talented subordinates. That included Dazai’s disappearance as well. Logically speaking, the results couldn’t have been better. Everything was going according to plan.

Ougai folded the document into a misshapen paper airplane. Then, with his chin still resting on his hand, he threw it. The deformed plane almost immediately crashed into the floor.

“Things sure are going to get boring around here…”

First and foremost, was that plane some sort of Guild-related foreshadowing? (that scene with Dazai's brainstorming session with Ranpo came to mind.) I shouldn't be too surprised though. I guess he didn't think Dazai would get involved, because with the only kind of leverage Mori had - gone, the former mafia executive just disappeared into thin air overnight. Little did he know...

What was that, Mori? You've won, you've driven him out of the Mafia for good, then why are you still unsatisfied?

Oh, GOD How I love the Dark era.

How I love Beast AU.

Ok, fine, I admit it. I love everything that comes out of Asagiri's head. I want to pick his brain, dissect it, put it back together and eat it with some soy sau-

...

To be entirely honest, I haven't even watched "Taxidermia" to the end. So, I don't think any of these tidbits of comparison should qualify as a correct interpretation of the themes or the overall message of the movie. What I've seen just sort of inspired me to feed some of the ideas I had to a vast collection of BSD analyses stashed in my notes.

Someday, I really should find patience to organize and post those.

...

Oh, now I remember! Why I wanted to write something related to both Dazai and the embalmer character from the movie.

It's that... (spoilers)

I was just wondering what would Dazai think of this character's method of suicide? There's anesthesia involved, so it's certainly painless, though arguably not "clean" and "beautiful" the way he would have wanted.

What a weird note to end an essay on, huh. Oh, well. I guess the one who had the twisted heart was me all along, eh?

#bungo stray dogs #bsd analysis #osamu dasai #mori ougai #taxidermia #bsd #bsd fifteen #bsd stormbringer #oda sakunosuke #and chaos ensues #i am not a writer #bsd beast #bsd beast spoilers

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scotchfairy · 6 months

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cleaned up sketches

The only things I got done today, thanks to migraine. I've got three more of Dazai Himei-sama.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #dazai osamu #bsd #dasai himei sama #digital arwork #artists on tumblr

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sayo-chan3 · 10 months

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Happy Bungou Stray Dogs Day

#bungou stray dogs #dazai #dasai osamu

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scarletta-ruan · 1 year

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Hello, this is my 4th request to you now i really sorry to bother you if you don't want to write this request you can skip it, it was okay, so my request today is can you do my previous request (wolf female s/o) but in Dazai's POV before everything happen, his s/o going to rescue Atsushi alone and dasai try to warn her because he think it's a trap, but he can't stop her because she love atsushi like her younger brother, and she can't lose him. Dazai see flashback when he try to warn Odasaku before he die but it was happen to his s/o, and when Atsushi call him he tell plan to the other, he try to save her and he see his s/o in wolf form almost die in front of him? Thank agian for do my request (sorry, it too dramatic i want some Dazai's angst)

EPHEMERAL SOUND

WARNING: OOC, hurting!characters, mention of injuries and blood, reader is female btw

TYPE: drabbles

PAIRING: Osamu Dazai x fem!reader (separately)

WORDCOUNTS: 915 words

NOTES: Thanks for sending your request, since I am too busy with the test at school so it might be slow to take those requests, but I still hope you guys wait for me patiently. Here is the other part of this drabble Please, will you wake up again?.

𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝 𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖𝙣 𝙚𝙥𝙝𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙡 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨.

Dazai frowns when he sees you suddenly stand up from your seat, hand holding a phone and you are talking to someone. That means that you have a mission to do, as soon as you hang up the call, you put on your coat and say.

“I’m going to help Atsushi, if I am late, you can go home before me, my love.”

Before you are going to leave, his slender hand holds your coat tightly. When you turn around just to meet his brown orbs, you can see his serious face. Thinking that your boyfriend is going to act childishly since you leave him like this, you chuckle and place your hand on his then say.

“Oh, don’t tell me that you are going to miss me, my love.”

“No,” Dazai replies to you as his hand pulls you closer to him, he immediately holds you dearly to his body and continues. “I have a premonition that if you go there might be something bad happen to you.”

You know that Dazai always worries about you a lot since you are his lover, but you calmly pat the back of his hand and slowly take this off then says.

“Everything is gonna be okay, I promise to call you when I’m in danger. So… see you later.”

You wave your hand to Dazai before you open the door and then disappear in front of his eyes. But Dazai does not want to look at you just disappear in front of him like that so he stands up from his seat then chases after you. When he finally reaches you before you get out from the main door of the building, he holds your hand tightly with his shaking hand and says.

“Please, just listen to me. This might be a trap, just leave it to other members, they should know what to do.”

You narrow your eyes then look at him, the seriousness in your face makes Dazai not know what to say next. Then he hears your voice resound into his ears.

“Osamu, Atsushi…” You stop for a while, it seems like you are choosing your words before you want to express your emotion to him, you continue. “...He is just like my younger brother. We are nothing but related to each other because of the beast deep inside our heart.”

When you look at him, Dazai never sees your eyes like this before. Fierce but strict enough for him to understand that you do not agree with his saying. You escape from his tight crips and decide to take a leave. For a moment, Dazai suddenly sees the scene he used to see in the past.

The scene of his best friend got far away from his grip just to stop that person not to step into the other world. Dazai’s eyes widen, he never thinks that he will have to suffer from this scene again. Suddenly, tears slowly get out from the corner of his eyes as the door closes against him.

If everything happens like before, that means he is going to lose you forever like he lost his best friend, Odasaku.

He can not let this happen.

Dazai’s hands curl up into a fist. He… needs to do something before he regrets all of the things he let happen. Dazai starts opening the front door and rushes outside, he wanders around just to find you. And then his phone rings, a cold sensation runs down his spine, Dazai slowly takes out the phone and when he sees the name on the screen. He… is afraid of something bad happening.

“Hello?”

“Dazai-san, [Last name] is in danger.”

Atsushi’s voice resounds from the phone makes Dazai almost burst into tears if he does not calm himself down. When he finally returns back to his normal emotion, he says.

“Atsushi, can you send me your location? I will be there soon.”

This can not happen, Dazai freezes when he sees the scene in front of his face. His hands are shaking badly when he sees that. His beloved is killing people in front of his eyes, blood sticks everywhere on her body. A moment ago she was just a normal girl with a beautiful smile in front of him.

When Atsushi sees Dazai, he decides to say something but Dazai does not let him say anything. He sighs then slowly turns around to meet Kyouka’s eyes then he says.

“Kyouka-chan, do you mind helping me stop her before she will kill them?”

Kyouka nods her head then calls out the Snow White Demon to support her. When they finally let you stay in one place, Dazai rushes to you immediately, his brown orbs look at the beast in front of his face then his heart aches a little bit when he sees you like this. He raises his hand up, his finger tip touches your forehead as he says.

“You don’t have to suffer like that, you may know this is a trap and you would die because of it, but still… you tried to do it.”

A light appears in front of him when Dazai activates his ability. The moment the familiar person appears again in front of him, The Demon slowly releases that person for him. Dazai holds her tightly in his arms, he… is trying to hear a voice again, an ephemeral sound that proves you are alive.

#bsd x female reader #bsd x reader #bsd x you #bsd dazai x reader #osamu dazai x reader #dazai x reader #dazai x you

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ao3feed-fyozai · 10 months

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Bottom Dazai One-shots

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/4OBDc8C

by GoldenBells11

Just some one shots of Bottom Dazai For Bottom Dasai week.

Words: 4685, Chapters: 2/2, Language: English

Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Rape/Non-Con

Categories: M/M

Characters: Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu/Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Fyodor Dostoyevsky/Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Additional Tags: Bottom Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Top Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Food Sex, Handcuffs, Blindfolds, Vibrators, Humiliation, Verbal Humiliation, Public Humiliation, Public Sex, Crossdressing, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Suicide Attempt, Alpha/Omega, Orgasm Denial, Orgasm Control, Blue Balls, Begging, Threesome - M/M/M, Bondage, Sex Toys, Rape Fantasy, Rape Roleplay, Biting, Overstimulation, Dominant Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Submissive Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Non-Consensual Touching, Murder

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/4OBDc8C

#fyozai #bungou stray dogs #ao3fyozai #ao3feed #fanfic

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ehsan-tera-hoga-mujhpe · 2 years

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You like Osamu dasai?

Yes. Both the author and the character.

#anonymous

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sskk-ao3feed · 8 months

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Shin Soukoku Text Talk

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/bHQd0iI by Castle53 I just realised it won't let me have bold and such, so guess who it is. It should be easy to guess. The first text is by Akutagawa. Can somebody please tell me how to make this work?! Akutagawa is Bold. Atsushi is normal. Chuuya is in italics. Gin is underlined. Dazai is bold underlined. Kunikida is everything. Yosano is italics underlined. For context, This is an AU where there are no abilities. Akutagawa, Chuuya and Dasai are all in the same year group at a boarding school called: Portside College. (Chuuya and Akutagawa are the same age, but Dasai is a year older, being held back because of his childish behaviour.) Atsushi is in hospital after a motor accident, the same accident that killed his parents, leaving him to be put into foster care with a man called Kunikida. Akutagawa dials the wrong number and they become friends (Maybe more.) over the phone. Possible triggers: Swearing Mention of verbal abuse Homophobes Suicide Hospitals Ships: Shin Soukoku : Akutagawa + Atsushi This is based on the manga and anime series Bungou Stray Dogs. Words: 3482, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Gin, Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Ozaki Kouyou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Yosano Akiko (Bungou Stray Dogs), Kunikida Doppo (Bungou Stray Dogs) Relationships: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Verbal Abuse, Swearing, Hospitals, Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, Implied/Referenced Suicide read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/bHQd0iI

#ao3feed sskk #akuatsu #fic rec

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tsuko-san · 9 months

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Lower One's Eyes Crossover Sketches

(Pls no hate this is the first time I drew Wally please-)

(also I like how drew it in a creative way between Wall's and the Fire ↓↓↓)

Another Welcome Home x Vocaloid thing! 2!

This song is all about forbidden love and was based from a story called Osamu Dasai which is a reimagined version of Judas' betrayal of Christ

So let’s just say that, Barnaby is Judas and Wally is Jesus.

Barnaby is betraying Wally

“BUT FOR WHAT!?” you asked.

Well.. In a nutshell for this kind of crossover, Barnaby here is a really obsessive DELULU (delusional) to protect Wally due to having off the charts Self-Awareness like Wally has but much more unstable and became mentally broken, a victim of Self-awareness.

Explanation why became protective to Wally is that there is a moment that Wally "loves him" very much deeply during his slow mental breakdown of his self-awareness and how he loves him as an ever best friend, It was his tipping point that he finally b r e a k s.

He wanted to end being a puppet by suxcide but doesn't want Wally and their friends to be sad so decided to have a little "deal" from Home (the house), what the “Deal” is totally a mystery but something to do with planning to Betray Wally

However, PLOT TWIST! Barnaby is betraying HOME and everyone as well, in the end like any character suffers from self-awarness, he decided to burn everyone alive so they could never suffer as puppets anymore even though nobody knows it… so they could be “free”. (oh god this is an insane premise to that-)

This quote fits enough for Barn's... Situation: "Now everyone can be happy” - Sayori DDLC

Oh wow I realizee this will fit the #welcomehomeau tag lmao-

there is one more I can say here but not much, the snake/serpent was actually a reference to another story from Adam and Eve/Garden of Eden, the holding apple was referencing to the “Forbidden Fruit (which contains knowledge of the good and evil)” and if eats it will be thrown out of Eden.

That's all I can say here for today! Enjoy my sketches.

Edit: gonna edit spelling and grammar mistakes, my god I need to type a draft before I done the premise...

Oh, Also hear this song and watch the MV, It’s really good!

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#welcome home #welcome home au #← of course this tag lmao #welcome home fanart #welcome home barnaby #welcome home wally #sketch #concept “thingy”#vocaloid fanart #ロウワー #lower one's eyes #nuyuri #nulut #barnaby b beagle #wally darling #art #fanart

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obscene-tevene · 5 years

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"Them's fightin' words, good sir!"

Suddenly remembered I owned these two cuties and decided to change their poses. I gotta rewatch BSD at some point.

#gavs stuff #bsd #bungou stray dogs #chuuya nakahara #osamu dasai

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jointhecosmicmist · 7 years

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#Osamu Dasai #Dazai-san #Atsushi-kun #atsushi nakajima #Bungou Stray Dogs #beast beneath the moonlight #anime

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caliumcyanide · 11 months

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Every time Dazai smiles in the entirety of the light novels (the official translations) Part 1.

Don't ask me why I did this. I wanted an excuse to read all them again, ok? I'm deathly afraid of the manga, but ln are my comfort space. With as much context as I can provide, behold the smiles and giggles of the one and only: Osamu Dazai.

Volume 1: "Osamu Dazai's entrance exam."

Prologue:

“Wait. Seriously? Wow, thanks.” He smiles bashfully, even though there’s nothing to blush about.”

“Well then, I think it’s about time we end this so I can go buy that book. We just need to slow him down, right?” Dazai breaks into a smile.

Chapter I:

“Oh, Kunikida! Good morning! Take a look at this! It’s incredible!” I’m suddenly greeted by a grinning Dazai on the threshold.”

“Good afternoon.” A man smiles from ear to ear as he enters the room.”

“I really hope we can get along, Kunikida.” Our new hire gives me a toothy smile, perhaps oblivious of my internal apprehension.”

“Ah-ha-ha. I kid. We’re going to investigate a haunted mansion, right?” His smiling face and casual demeanor cause me to scowl.

"He's a good kid" Dazai says with a grin as he looks up at the night sky.

“Thought so.” Dazai smiles, taking note of my expression.”

“You’re a real romanticist, you know that?” Dazai’s snickering comes out sounding like a sigh.”

Dazai’s sudden shrieking from up ahead causes my heart to skip a beat. He turns around, staring at me with his mouth opened wide. Then, after getting a good look at me, he slowly but surely begins to grin.

Chapter 2:

“Hey, don’t worry about it. I simply did what any gentleman would. Besides, I’m used to getting asked for things from people I’ve just met,” he replies with a smile.

“What a beautiful, misfortunate woman,” Dazai says with a smirk.

“Your treat?” Dazai asks, beaming with joy.”

Interlude:

“I mean, I’m not good at this electronic stuff.” He smiles faintly, his fingertips nimbly tapping the keyboard.

“…But I guess this isn’t something I can let others do.” He chuckles to himself in the dim car.

Chapter 3:

“So she’s available, Kunikida.” Dazai grins, gently elbowing me in the side.

I look at Dazai at my side. He’s smiling gleefully.

“Heh-heh.” Dazai smirks.

“So, Mr. Spy, what do you want in return for this information?” Dazai chimes in with a chuckle.

“Yeah, right. I dunno about Kunikida here, but I’m just a bit more cynical than that,” he replies with a grin.

“Looks like I couldn’t fool you. Too bad it’s just an ordinary fountain pen.” Dazai cheerfully grins.

“Shoot me.” He grins mirthfully from ear to ear. There’s tranquility in his smile.

His peaceful smile never once wavers. “Shoot me,” he says.

“I knew you would use that to shoot me, Kunikida.” Dazai grins, still on his back.”

Grinning, Dazai stands behind him with the bottle of liquor cracked in half in hand.

“…That hurt, y’know.” Dazai stands, and his lips curl upward—a fierce grin—as fresh blood drips down his cheek.”

“Wearing an unwavering smile, Dazai continues to close the distance.”

Afterword:

“DAZAI: “Hey, Atsushi. Just finishing up work for the day?” Dazai smiles cheerfully.

ATSUSHI: “D-did you…try to drown yourself again?” Atsushi makes a face.”

A total of 13 smiles, 9 grins, 2 smirks, 2 chuckles, 1 "beaming episode", and one snicker, that sounded like a sigh.

To be continued in the next one...

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