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Emotion Booth | Songs for Stanley, the Narrator, and many of the endings.
An expanded ver of the original fanmix, because I finally got to play TSPUD and it permanently rewired my brain the same way TSP did way back when. Happy 4/27; Let's Begin Again.
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(tracklist & annotations under the cut)
[SIDE A]
1. Existential Crisis Hour! (Kilo Kish) [Intro/Confusion Ending]
2. Watch the Show (M. Ward) So tomorrow on your way into work, who will be wearing the emperor's clothes?
3. Soundproof Box (Ami Saraiya and the Outcome) Living behind these walls it feels like living in a soundproof box.
4. You're Alive (ANIMA!) [Apartment Ending] Sidewalk walkers, empty vessels, task completers / Go through the motions, keep repeating.
5. In the Glass (OK Go) [Real Person Ending] I tried to call out to him but the glass was perfect.
6. A.A.A. (Squalloscope) Can you do me a favor? Can you give me one cent for everything that doesn't make sense?
7. Crazy (Gnarls Barkley) [Mariella Ending] I remember when I lost my mind / Even your emotions have an echo in so much space.
8. Vein of Stars (The Flaming Lips) [Zending] They'll glow from above our heads / Nothing there to see you down on your knees.
9. Vertigo (The Guggenheim Grotto) [Powerful Ending] It's not that I fear the fall or crushing my bones / I fear the desire to heed the call of that unknown.
10. Humpty Dumpty (AJR) He said, "Screw it, I'mma smile right through it, and I'll scream when no one's around."
11. Why (Andrew Bird) Why'd you do that? You shouldn't have done that.
12. Complaint Department (Lykke Li) [Countdown Ending] Me oh my your luck seems to be no more / If you want to complain, I'm not the complaint department.
13. The Cruel, the Kind and the Bad (Psapp) [Museum Ending] He's taken all your best years away, but he's all that you can find.
14. The Great Escape (Patrick Watson) [Escape Pod Ending] Looking for a way home, looking for the great escape.
[SIDE B]
15. Good Old Desk (Harry Nilsson) [intro]
16. Honest Feedback (Saint Motel) Of all the illegal ways to take someone's life, there's one just as sharp and it's sharp as a knife / it's called honest feedback.
17. Longform (The Dodos) [Theme for the Memory Zone] To place an installation now for all to come and bring what they think about.
18. Eight Seven (Psapp) Though I call you won't reply / You watch me rooting through each door, you watch me lie.
19. Alive Alone (The Chemical Brothers) [Skip Button Ending] No way of knowing if [he's] ever coming back.
20. Here for Good (Jason Lytle) [Epilogue Ending] I'm here for good.
21. X-Rays (Gomez) We didn't turn it on, but we can't turn it off.
22. Since I Left You (The Avalanches) [Freedom Ending] Since I met you, I found the world so new.
23. The End Has Begun (Loudon Wainwright III) [Figurines Ending] We've been here before, you know the signs / The looks and the language, the gestures, the lines.
24. Helplessness Blues (Fleet Foxes) What's my name, what's my station? Oh, just tell me what I should do.
25. Lonely Town (Vulfpeck) He's the mayor of lonely town, population: one.
26. Hallucinating - Mariachi Ver. (Elohim) [Theme for the Infinite Hole]
27. ICE CREAM FEVER (Tomoyuki Tanaka, FPM) [Secret Disco Ending]
#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp#tspud#tsp stanley#tsp narrator#fanmix#playlist#quick repost since I managed to get back before 4/27 was over in my timezone ayy happy stanley parable day
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matthew Q&A for GQ <3
Here’s a recap of everything that’s happened to Matthew Tkachuk over the last five weeks. First, he and the Florida Panthers took down the Boston Bruins in one of the biggest upsets the NHL has ever seen: Florida came back from a 3-1 deficit in their first-round series to oust the team with the best regular-season record in league history. Both Games 5 and 7—elimination games for the Panthers—went to overtime, and Tkachuk was heavily involved. He netted the game winner in the fifth game and assisted on the Game 7 knockout punch that sent Florida to the next round.
The Panthers completed a gentleman's sweep of the Toronto Maple Leafs in the second round, and shortly after that, Tkachuk was named a finalist for the Hart Trophy, given to the NHL’s Most Valuable Player. The Eastern Conference Finals pitted Florida against the Carolina Hurricanes, a juggernaut that would have had the league’s best record if not for the Bruins going supernova. The Panthers only needed four games for them. The final fixture of that series provided the biggest moment of Tkachuk’s career. With just 4.3 seconds left in regulation, Tkachuk buried the goal (his fourth game-winner of the playoffs) that clinched Florida’s first trip to the Stanley Cup Final since 1996.
The Panthers have one more challenge standing between them and Lord Stanley. The Vegas Golden Knights, owners of the best record in the Western Conference, are no slouch. Bringing down a fourth 100-point team would be a fairytale ending to the Panthers’ postseason march—and very much in line with the fairytale that the 25-year-old Tkachuk has been living. (He uses the word “unreal” frequently.) As his Panthers have climbed the postseason ladder, Jimmy Butler has worn Tkachuk’s jersey, strengthening the bond between two South Florida underdogs gunning for improbable championships. Tkachuk has also appeared on Inside the NBA, and by sweeping Carolina, he’s had some leisure time to soak up the sun before starting the Stanley Cup Final. In his first year in Florida after six with the Calgary Flames, Tkachuk has adjusted accordingly to the tropical lifestyle. As he told GQ in a recent interview, there are far worse places to be.
You’ve had a lot of time to chill. What the hell have you been up to?
I’ve been hanging out and going to the beach a lot. I’ve taken a few quick trips. One of the perks of living in Florida is you have the ocean right there. It’s super good for your body and mind to go in there—it’s pretty peaceful in there. I’ve gone out a couple times for dinner. But mostly I’m just staying quiet at the house. I don’t know, I’m really trying to put everything into the Stanley Cup Final. I’m at the rink every single day, some days to skate and some days to recover. Obviously, I’m using everything in the basket to try and win it all here.
Oh, I went to the Heat game the other night! I got to see Game 6 and sat with Charles [Barkley] and Shaq for a little bit.
How fun was it to guest on Inside the NBA and witness that legendary Charles and Shaq energy up close?
It was awesome! It all happened last minute—literally that morning I was asked if I wanted to come to the game and talk with Charles and Shaq. Hell yeah! Let’s do it. But what was really cool was talking to those guys off camera. That’s when we were really talking. Hockey, sports, golf, just talking about everything, getting to pick their brains, and learn about stuff I don’t really know about was super entertaining.
Are you more of a Charles or a Shaq?
That is tough. It was crazy that I got to meet them. I think that [dynamic] would be a great comparison for how me and my brother [Ottawa Senators captain Brady Tkachuk] are. We bicker a lot. But we’re really tight and actually best friends. Always there to chirp each other and have fun. They were both unreal players too. I watched more of Shaq, because he was closer to my generation, but I just watched Charles in the Dream Team documentary. I don’t know who I would be.
You’re in South Florida now, but I just learned that you went to high school in St. Louis with Jayson Tatum. So who were you rooting for in that Heat-Celtics series?
I honestly just loved going to watch Jayson and Jimmy Butler. I didn’t care about the final score. I know all the people in St. Louis would be pissed at me if I was rooting against Jayson and all the people here probably wouldn’t be happy if I was rooting against the Heat. I thought it’d just be easier to root for a couple players. Now that the Heat are in the Finals and I have zero allegiance to the Denver Nuggets at all—if the Heat can pull off the upset it’d be unreal for all of South Florida.
The idea of playing hockey in Florida always has this kind of funny connotation. It’s a relatively new franchise, you’re playing in warm weather in the south, it’s a very opposite idea of what most people have in their head when they think of the NHL. But you’re making it all sound pretty great.
It’s the top destination in the NHL. When you look at it—this is my opinion, and I would say most people’s opinion—the top two destinations in the league right now are the Florida teams. Third would probably be Vegas. It’s funny how that’s who we’re playing in the Final. People probably don’t look at Florida as the biggest hockey market, but Tampa’s won all these Cups recently and been to a bunch of Finals, the Panthers had some good runs before I got here, and when you go out West, Vegas has been right there at the top. Dallas has been right there too. These warmer climate markets aren’t the same as Toronto or Montreal, but the success that everyone’s had down here is no secret.
When I chose to come here, the number one reason was to be on a competitive team, compete for championships year over year, right behind that was the way of life. But you’re not just coming here to live the Florida life, you’re coming here to win. It’s just a perk that you get to live in Florida on top of all that. My life has changed so much since coming [to Florida]. The lifestyle has been unbelievable. The way I’m able to live down here is insane. It doesn’t get better, anywhere. Playing in the U.S., having these opportunities with people like Jimmy Butler and Charles Barkley, having way more nationally-televised games, competing for the Stanley Cup, that’s made not only myself but everyone on the team more of a name than we were before.
Have you become a boat guy since moving to Florida?
I have not. I’ve gotten as far as a few jet skis. I’m not a boat guy. I like to go on boats, but I don’t want to drive a boat. No chance I could park it.
How many texts did you get after scoring the game-winning goal to go to the Final? Was your phone just unusable?
I don’t know, probably close to 400 or 500. This run has been unreal.
After scoring that goal, when did reality set in?
I don’t think it felt real until the next day. With that goal, I knew there wasn’t much time left. When Ryno [Sam Reinhart] shot it off the post, I figured we had about ten seconds, maybe a little bit less. The next few chances, whether it was one or multiple, had to be on the net quick. I sort of just walked out from behind the net. I knew I had a little bit of time to make a move, but not much. Once I saw it go in I was the happiest person ever. First thing I did was look up to see if I got it in on time, and saw there was four seconds left or whatever. I don’t know what I was thinking after that! I did the slide [celebration] and it felt like the roof was going to come off because it was so loud. Then I got a little nervous because [the Hurricanes] challenged it [for goaltender interference], and you never know with challenges. But, it was obviously a good goal, and that was the moment where I was like, “Holy shit. That just happened.”
When I got back home I hung out with some family and friends and talked about how crazy of a night that was. I woke up the next day, which thankfully was an off day, and just thought, “Wow, Stanley Cup Final, here we come.” I’ve seen enough highlights of the goal just from being in places where it’s on TV—and trust me, I love seeing it—but I don’t want that goal to define the season.
When the puck drops on Game 1, it’ll be your first game since May 24. Is the concept of rust mostly a myth, or is that something that you guys are actually talking about and acknowledging?
You know what? We had a week off before the third round and maybe there was a little bit of rust in the first period. That’s something that we’re going to learn from. In the playoffs, with days off—even if there’s ten of them—it’s great for players that have some bumps and bruises.
You’ve gotta be pretty beat up at this point of the year. Does everything hurt when you wake up?
When you win it doesn’t hurt that much.
From your perspective, why is a lower seed making it all the way to the Final much more common in hockey than it is in other sports?
Well, it’s happening right now in basketball, too! But it’s really just, once you get in, everything resets back to zero. We got into the playoffs by one point. When it came down to that—then we realized, holy shit we’re playing the Boston Bruins, the best regular season team in NHL history. [But] none of that really mattered anymore! It was 0-0. Let’s go. It gave us confidence. We do a great job of keeping our focus solely on each game. That’s what’s made us have a lot of success.
It’s gotta be that plus whatever they’ve put in the water down there that’s given you and the Heat superpowers.
[chuckles] We’re feeding off each other.
I know that hockey players are famously superstitious, but I’m wondering if you’ve allowed yourself to think about what you would do with the Stanley Cup if you get your day with it.
It’s natural to think about that stuff. But every time I go down that road I pinch myself and try not to. The one thing you do think about constantly is that feeling you’d have from lifting the Stanley Cup for the first time. That’s gotta be the most amazing thing in your whole life. One team is going to do it—hopefully it’s us.
What’s up with Brooks Koepka? He seems to be the Panthers’ fan ambassador right now, and he’s intense! It’s clear that it’s not an act at all—he really cares!
I actually just met him right after Game 4. He wanted to come down and meet me. I got a picture with him and got to chit chat for a little bit. He’s really excited. It’s great to see support from other athletes. Success in a tight community makes everyone pull for each other. Him and the rest of the fan base has been unreal. This building is so loud. We were talking about in the offseason—which is hopefully a few weeks from now after winning the Stanley Cup—maybe we can link up and golf somewhere.
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Hello! I love your stories very much! This request is for Dr.Stone- could you do a childhood crush thing? Like Stanley Snyder/reader but he has a crush on reader while growing up? Thanks so much!
Ngl, put this ask off for a good while bc I had no good ideas with it. But! I finally got around to it with what i feel is a pretty good base. Something simple and short while I pour my heart into my bigger fic project! Thank you for the patience.
Crushes could be such a hassle. Especially for Stanley Snyder, because his biggest childhood crushes were Xeno Wingfield, and you. And, while Xeno was a can of worms all his own, you were the crush currently standing beside the marine.
Now, childhood crushes were nowhere near new to the marine, he'd had the hots for Xeno since the age of seven and still held a flame for the oddball scientist. Yet, even with Wingfield's taste for world domination, you were still the oddest crush Stan had. Simply someone he'd met at the age of twelve, one of Xeno's school pals. No one of 'real importance' according to the young mad scientist. Yet, you'd grabbed Stan's attention and held it hostage off and on since that day.
Nothing too bad, he didn't seek you out, prioritize your whims, or lose all of his composure whenever you stumbled across the pair after school, but when you did pop up through the years, he did find himself trying to show off a little. Always having the small urge to impress you like he did Xeno.
So, now that he stood beside you. In a Walmart, between bread and chips with you, in a plain grey t-shirt adorned with the bold declaration of MARINES on his chest and sweats, he couldn't quite help but hope you recognized him.
"Oh my god, Stanley?" Bingo.
"Oh, hey there." He hummed nonchalantly, giving you a partial wave as if he hadn't been sending psychic signals at you in hopes of getting to subtly brag. "You still living around here or something?" you nodded,
"Yeah! I see you're in the military now, holy shit dude." You said, gesturing to his shirt, earning a small puff of pride in the 25-year-old. "I guess that explains why you vanished after highschool, I just kinda figured you went off to college like Xeno did."
"Nah, Xee's the one who got the scholarships and money, I think the colleges would've sooner paid me to not go." He joked, enjoying the light laugh it earned.
"Oh come on, you weren't that bad, I'm sure you could've made it." You assured, the marine just nodding along with your statement. Unsure of if his voice might crack under all of the dug up feelings from his teen years.
So, he instead just listened as you caught him up on your life. All of your work achievements, schooling, or family until you finally sighed,
"alright, I guess I shouldn't talk your ear off. It was great seeing you again, though! It's awesome to hear you got into the marines, would it be weird to say I'm proud of you for it?" but he shrugged it off,
"I don't think so, appreciate it." He assured, making you throw him a brilliant smile that hit that childhood crush like a heat seeking missile.
"Great! I'm proud of you, Stan. I hope you stick around, though, I'd love to meet up again!"
With that, you headed off to go back to your groceries. Leaving Stan with such a short, simple interaction, but such a long lasting, complicated storm of emotions.
I really need to get better at resolving crushes.
#Stanley Snyder#dcst#dr stone#Stanley Snyder x reader#x reader#ask#Idk why this took so long to think of a set up for#short scenario
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‘I always play extreme characters’: Zawe Ashton on life after Fresh Meat
As Vod in the hit Channel 4 show she shocked even her own parents. What’s next for the actor-writer-director-producer?
The problem with interviewing someone you feel like you already know is how quickly it can go wrong. One minute you’re saying hello in the empty east London pub you’ve agreed to meet in, spontaneously hugging each other. The next, you’re trying to order a glass of wine and Zawe Ashton is horrified, because it’s not even 5pm yet. She reckons we should have tea instead, so we do. And then she says, “Oh God, I can’t believe I wine-shamed you.”
It is then that I realise Ashton isn’t actually Vod, the student she plays in the Channel 4 student sitcom Fresh Meat. Vod is a literature student who doesn’t read books, preferring partying, shagging and paying her way by selling ecstasy. Ashton, 31, is a straight-A scholar, who spent all her childhood weekends training as an actor, and thus has been earning her own money, appearing on telly in The Demon Headmaster, Jackanory and Desmond’s, since the age of six. Unlike Vod, Ashton has also written a play that’s being developed by the National Theatre; has a book deal for something that sounds like an autobiographical novel, “but I can’t talk about it. Well, not much. Well, I probably will”; and has set up her own production company, Asylum Features, to release films that she writes and directs herself. She is, I have to concede, a bit busy for pubs.
What Ashton does have in common with Vod, however, is that they are both very funny, as becomes apparent when we discuss what it’s like being hailed as “one to watch” and getting nominated for “best newcomer” awards when you’ve already been working for 25 years. “The single perspective shot, Stanley Kubrick, down the corridor,” she says, her mind racing ahead. “Aww, there’s a little girl down there! And then you get closer and she turns round and has the face of” – she puts on a scary voice – “a 200-year-old woman. That is my career right now, in a nutshell. I’m actually at retirement age, internally.” She estimates that she might be due a breakdown. “Or a Macaulay Culkin moment where I just go generally off the rails. Or a Winona Ryder moment, shoplifting.” She thinks about Winona. “How did that happen?”
We head to a quiet room upstairs, where Ashton sprawls across an armchair, all long arms and legs and funny voices, her mind scattering ideas like wildflowers. She recently got back from LA – she bought a plane ticket and left the same day – and found herself getting lured into the new age scene in Venice Beach and Topanga Canyon. “I know it’s the worst word ever,” she says, grimacing, “but I really am transitioning.” Ashton has been to LA several times before, though she won’t say why (you get the feeling there might be various projects in various Hollywood pipelines she can’t yet discuss). This time, she says, a conversation with a guru has left her believing she might be on the cusp of a whole new stage of her life.
Perhaps this transition will liberate her from the anxiety she describes as something of a constant in her life. She was not a carefree child, and even playing Vod, who can be so comically unaware, takes a great deal of awareness. At one point I ask her if it was a relief that the only real sex scenes she’s ever had to do as Vod were more comic than sensual. “A relief?” she repeats, as if I have brought up something as unlikely as Antarctica or a hippopotamus. She is almost breathless. “There’s never any relief! Relief is not a word that ever enters my mind, about anything.”
Does she never give herself a break? After all, plenty of people say they want to write a play, a film, a book, but hardly anyone wins the London Poetry Slam Championship in 2000, a Verity Bargate award nomination in 2007 for her debut play, Harm’s Way, or a Raindance film festival nomination in 2014 for best British short for Happy Toys, which she directed. “Well, I think I am like other people. It’s just that I think I’m going to get to the end and then give up. But wow, thank you for saying I finish things, because I really think I am such a scatty person.”
She credits Lena Dunham with showing sex on TV that is not actually sexy, and also with the inspiration for writing, directing and acting in her own shows. “As a woman, you do have a sense that if you can do other things, then you should. If you feel, mmm, the roles are getting a little” – she raises a sardonic eyebrow – “repetitive, and you know you can write, then you should write a different role. It’s a quadruple indemnity mission. I plan on having a long career. I don’t want to burn out. It’s like, I have the shield, and I have the lightsaber” – she is doing movie voices now – “these are my weapons of choice! Hopefully, one of those will come to serve me in some way.”
Does she feel she owes it to the world to redress the balance? “Well, the world doesn’t have to give a shit in any way. It just feels like a fulfilling and smart thing to do.”
Ashton grew up in Stoke Newington, north London, the eldest of three children, and has recently bought her own flat not far from there, living with her boyfriend, a film distributor, whom she prefers not to talk about. Her mother Victoria arrived in England in her teens from Uganda, where Ashton’s grandfather, Paulo Muwanga, had briefly served as both president and prime minister. At a Christmas party, Victoria met her future husband Paul, a working-class cockney who was the first in his family to go to university (Cambridge). The couple both worked as schoolteachers, Victoria teaching design and technology, and Paul teaching English – though he later moved to Channel 4 to commission education programmes for teachers, so telly was always a presence in their house, as well as literature. The three children went to local state schools, and young Zawe was taken to Anna Scher improvisation classes merely to “burn off some energy”. She instantly loved it. “It is very odd to be a very tiny person and know what you want to do.”
Famously, the Anna Scher theatre has produced lots of big names including Kathy Burke and half the cast of EastEnders. But Ashton says it was precisely the unstarry nature of the place that shaped the artist she would become. “It was a weekend drama class that cost £2.50, and we weren’t supposed to do commercials, we weren’t allowed to use the words star or fame – they were banned. You had to say actor or success. You couldn’t say, ‘I want to be a star’ because it was meaningless, just empty calories.”
Ashton recounts a story about a black boy being sent home from an audition, having been told that he could never be the Milky Bar kid. Scher, who did the teaching herself, dedicated an entire session to discussing with her pupils where the casting people had done wrong. “We were armed with all of this amazing… activism, I suppose. She’s an amazing woman. You were always encouraged to know why you wanted to act. Politics is not something you think about as a kid, but I realise now that she was infusing us with a level of conscience. You had to be on time, you had to be present. The number of birthdays I missed. I just gave up every Friday night and Saturday afternoon for 14 years.”
It was a dedication that didn’t make her popular with other children at school. Ashton was bullied, and eventually moved secondary school when the threats of beatings from other teenage girls, who knew she was taking days off to film for TV, became too much. At City and Islington College, she found better friends who shared her love of poetry. She took A-levels and applied to do drama at Manchester Metropolitan University.
Then came results day. “I got hurried by my teachers into an antechamber. They were like, ‘Have you opened your results yet?’ I was like, ‘No? Should I? Oh my God, I’ve got three As.’ I was overwhelmed, because it had been a really tough year. My mum had been really ill with cancer. They all said, you have to take a year off to apply to Cambridge now. So there was this crossroads moment – you know, when you realise your life could go in two really different directions? But then the stupid, stupid girl – no, I’m joking. I’m really glad I did what I did.”
What she did was take a year off to look after her mum, and then went to Manchester Met anyway. The course was a bit of a disappointment, she says, the teachers intent on making Ashton less experimental, disparaging her idea to do things such as walk around the audience trailing a red ribbon behind her. (She pitched the same concept at a local experimental theatre a week later and it came second in a commissioning competition.) But she experienced student life, and the partying that she had missed while being such a focused child. She went to Manchester nightclubs and got into DJing, experiences that would prove valuable when she auditioned for Fresh Meat years later.
Written by Jesse Armstrong and Sam Bain, the duo behind Peep Show, the show is set in the fictional Manchester Medlock University. Vod is a blunt, libidinous raver; tub-thumping and workshy, with a thudding estuary accent and directional hair. She shares a house with a mismatched group of students – Jack Whitehall, “who makes me laugh so much”, plays the posh twit whose family money has bought the house. In one memorable scene she is made to read Salman Rushdie’s Midnight’s Children and tells the class the book makes her feel “like I’ve got this pompous, fat, naked man sitting on my face, and he’s resting his big, overrated bollocks on my airways”.
Ashton auditioned for the part about eight times, and saw so many other actors there, of every type and look, that she realised she could make Vod her own, that she wasn’t being asked to play any kind of trope. I ask if there has been any negative response to the only black character in the group ending up as a drug dealer. “NEVER!! Oh my God, that’s never something that’s come up,” she says, clearly surprised by the question. “And I feel like, she’s not even as extreme as a ‘dealer’. Vod is someone who capitalises on situations, sometimes ones that are really misguided. It all goes really horribly wrong – I think Vod’s got a lot of obstacles this series. I’m quite excited about watching it.”
She might well be watching it alone, however, or certainly without her dad, who isn’t too keen on seeing her shows. She might have developed her sense of humour from her parents (“They are my favourite comedy double act”), as well as her love of language (“My dad is such a brilliant writer”), but he can’t get used to seeing her on screen. He pretends her shows are radio plays, so he can keep his eyes closed. “Actually, I told my dad he should watch the episode with Vod and her mum, and he said, ‘I’d love to.’ Then he came in and I was right in the middle of saying the c-word. And he was like, ‘Might just go and put the kettle on again.’ ”
She recently played another challenging role in Not Safe For Work, a much bleaker Channel 4 comedy by playwright DC Moore, about the jilted generation of thirtysomethings whose job security has disappeared. Ashton plays Katherine, one of a group of civil servants whose jobs are relocated from London to Northampton following public sector cuts, and who has to maintain a steely professional exterior to hide the way she is falling apart inside. Other roles have included a small part in Doctor Who (for a moment, she was the bookies’ first choice to become the first female Doctor), and the lead in Dreams Of A Life, Carol Morley’s documentary film about Joyce Vincent, the woman whose remains were found on her sofa three years after her death, with the television still on.
“I just always play these really extreme characters – they’ve all come with parental guidance stickers on them. I did this Abi Morgan play at the Donmar just now and she said, ‘You play a lot of outsiders, don’t you?’ And I was like, ‘Oh my God, I do!’” She looks surprised. “And she said, ‘Outsiders who don’t need much male intervention.’ ‘Well, yes, I do,’ I said, like I knew that about myself.”
Other theatre work includes Othello at the Globe and Gone Too Far! at the Royal Court, which is the theatre where she took the young writers’ course and wrote her play For All The Women Who Thought They Were Mad, at 24. It was inspired by research into the way that psychiatric medication affects women, and the way that black women in particular are often over-medicated, so that their health deteriorates even further. “There are stories of women in pretty powerful positions, in jobs, suddenly finding themselves in institutions, unrecognisable to themselves and their friends,” she says. “So I just had to sit in the research and think about it, but there was a writing competition. The night before the deadline, I said to myself, you really owe it to yourself to deliver – just do it. So I sat down and wrote it in an actual fever, staying up for 24 hours.”
Next up is the Genet play The Maids, a double-hander with Emmy-winning American actor Uzo Aduba (best known as Crazy Eyes in Orange Is The New Black), opening in London next month. “It’s going to be really, really interesting to explore two characters who are essentially ready to burst from the beginning of the play.”
After that, perhaps she will have time for a quick personal collapse, though it seems unlikely. “I don’t really have the luxury of having a breakdown,” Ashton says. “I’ve just been working for a really, really long time.” And yet that 200-year-old woman in the corridor has got another century ahead of her, at least.
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Twilight x Reader Prompts
1. “Don’t fucking touch her/him/them”
2. “She/They/He is not yours to control”
3. “You imprinted on me and planned on keeping it a secret?” “Sounded like a good plan at the time.”
4. “So I see you’ve met my Dad huh?”
5. “Stop. What the hell are you talking about?”
6. “I didn’t want to be this way.”
7. “I didn’t want this life for you.”
8. “You imprinted on (insert name)? Do you have a death wish?”
9. “I want to be like you. Please.”
10. “How can you love me? I’m a monster.”
11. “Back away. Now”
12. “Come back to bed. The world can have you tomorrow.”
13. “Do we have a problem?” “No, but I can make one if you want.”
14. “Let me braid your hair.”
15. “Toxic masculinity at its finest.”
16. “We’re not blood related.”
17. “I promise I won’t hurt you.”
18. “I’m not the person you think I am”
19. “Take it easy, you lost a lot of blood.”
20. “Everything I did was to protect you.”
21. “Ever since I first laid eyes on you, nothing else mattered except keeping you safe.”
22. “Why do you smell like a wet dog?”
23. “You deserve to live a happy and fulfilling life.” “I don’t want it if it’s not with you.”
24. “Did she/he/they hurt you?”
25. “This is what I get for thinking someone like you could love someone like me.” “What’s that supposed to mean?”
26. “I’m sorry that I’m not her.”
27. “You ignored me for days on end while I was worried sick about you, and all you have to say about it is that you’re sorry? I’m sorry (insert name here) but you’ll have to do better than that.”
28. “You know it’s not like that. You know I can’t control it”
29. “After all we’ve been through and you treat me like this? I have to admit, this is a new low even for you.”
30. “Why do you act like you hate me”
31. “What did I do to you to make you want to make my life a living hell?”
32. “Life is a lot easier if Rosalie likes you.”
33. “I’m a vampire.” “I didn’t know we were 5 years old and playing make believe.”
34. “You have 5 seconds to back away before things turn ugly.”
35. “Charlie doesn’t quite understand, but he has the spirit.”
36. “So, can you still see your reflection, or was that all a lie?”
37. “I’ve been waiting for this ever since I’ve met you.”
38. “It doesn’t have to be this way. I can make this work. I can be better for you, just please let me try.”
39. “Is this like a Tim Burton situation?” “I’m not sure who that is, but most likely, yes”
40. “How did you get in here?” “You left your window open.”
41. “If you don’t love me, please just tell me”
42. “Edward Cullen? Really?”
43. “You have got to stop telling people that we’re together, I think Jessica Stanley wants to commit a crime against me.”
44. “You know how hard it is to say no to Emmett”
45. “I just wanted to try something daring. I wanted to feel alive for the first time in my life.”
46. “I could’ve lost you.” “But you didn’t. I’m still here”
47. “What if they don’t accept me?”
48. “I got invited, you should come with me.” “Oh, uh, I would but I don’t think that’s a good idea.” “Why?” “They’ll probably kill me.”
49. “Have you been here the whole time?” “I had to make sure you were okay, I don’t trust him.”
50. “I love you.” “Well that’s stupid thing for you to do.”
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My thoughts while watching Holes for the billionth time
It’s fucked up that the movie starts with all the supporting characters watching their friend attempt suicide
How long was Stanley’s trial and how short was Zero’s trial? Because we know that Zero got arrested the day after Stanley did, but he arrived at Camp Greenlake significantly earlier. Like, he knew Barfbag, he already had a nickname, people knew he liked to dig. How long was he there before Stanley showed up?
In the book when they sing the song, they howl on the word moon (it’s written “moo-oo-oon”) and I wish they did that in the movie
The Yelnatses screwed Stanley over by not getting him a lawyer. The little bits we see of his case prove they had no clue what they were doing. And when they eventually do get a lawyer, he’s let out almost immediately.
I love how Dr. Pendanski is written. He’s such a terrible person who has convinced himself and is trying to convince those around him that he is the nicest guy around. He fucking sucks and I love how he’s written and how Tim Blake Nelson plays him.
“Today’s menu: Chili, string beans, re-fried beans, garbanzo beans, green beans, and banana jello” — aren’t green beans and string beans the same thing?
The cinematic choices made in this movie are just *chef’s kiss*. The way they jump from timeline to timeline without ever losing pace is masterful
Eartha Kitt is flawless.
While Eartha Kitt is flawless, I want it noted that in the book, Madame Zeroni is described as a one legged Romani person (Sachar actually used the G slur) and Eartha Kitt is neither one-legged nor Romani.
Zero is the fastest digger in the camp, but they never really explain how big the camp is. Like, is he the fastest out of 25 people? 60 people, 140 people?
Just to revisit point 8, I fucking love Eartha Kitt
The yellow spotted lizards are such an excellent plot device
All the inmates are either A) mentally ill B) people of color or C) severely traumatized. But most of them are D) all of the above
When Squid throws out Stanley’s letter, catch Zero in the background with a pool cue ready to beat the shit out of that motherfucker
It’s weird that they show Sam as some kind of snake oil salesman when we know that his product actually works. The yellow spotted lizards won’t bite you if you’ve eaten his onions. Why claim they cure baldness or that Mary Lou is over 100 years old?
Zero back at it again ready to throw hands for Stanley, this time with a billiards ball
The fact that magnet got locked up for stealing a thousand dollar puppy
“You are here on account of one person. You know who that person is?” “Yeah, my no good, dirty rotten, pig-stealing, great great grandfather. That’s who it is”
Henry Winker provides such comedic levity
When Zero asks Stanley to teach him how to read and it’s such a nice moment of vulnerability, only to be shot down by Stanley. I just want to cry
What happens if someone actually dies at Camp Greenlake? Like, Zero and Stanley ran away and Barfbag got sent to the hospital, but they all survived. What would the protocol be if someone just dies while digging? Clearly there’s not a lot of oversight because Stanley can get away with Zero digging his hole, so what happens when one of those kids get overheated working all day in the Texas sun and just collapses in their hole one day and nobody thinks to check on them until the next day when the buzzards are all gathered around their corpse?
I’ve waited long enough to say this. Sigourney Weaver in this movie is one of the best performances I’ve ever seen. I fucking love her
Sam and Katherine. nuff said
“Well then I guess you’d be in a lot of trouble if your boat leaked.” *sobs*
Just casually reciting Edgar Allen Poe from memory as a way of professing my love to a woman I legally cannot be with due to racist laws forbidding interracial relationships.
I can’t help but remember that Scott Plank died during the post production of this movie. Respect to him and his ability to play such a good villain as Trout Walker
“No one ever says no to Trout Walker.” “I believe I just did.” SAY IT LOUDER, KATE!
Sam
I love that Kate’s MO came from a racist sheriff sexually harassing her
The sunflower seed thing reminds me of something that happened to me at RTC and it’s just a really nice moment for me
Stanley acting so casual by not doing the one thing he’s supposed to be doing
The look on Magnet’s face right before Stanley covers for him
I really want to know more about the Warden and Mr. Sir’s relationship
I also really want a bottle of that rattlesnake nail polish, but maybe that’s just me
I also really like that Sachar didn’t shy away from the racial implications of a white guy having a black guy do his labor for him. Then again, the whole story is an indictment of racism and the American prison system, so it makes sense he wouldn’t ignore that
The way Stanley gets so excited when Zero mentions that park. Like ‘oh, we have something in common. We used to go to the same park!’ and Zero just shuts it down with “I used to sleep in the tunnel next to the swing and bridge” Stanley may have been cursed, but he still had a home
Zero finally gets to throw hands on Stanley’s behalf. He’s been waiting to do that since point 14
Pendanski really is the shittiest
“No one cares about Hector Zeroni” “I do”
I love that Twitch was just instantly ready to help Stanley steal Mr. Sir’s car
What are the chances of Kate, Zero, and Stanley all finding Sam’s boat in the middle of the desert? And I know Kate probably spent years looking for it after the lake dried up and for Zero and Stanley it was destiny, but still
Zero, you gotta ration that sploosh
One more time for emphasis: I love Eartha Kitt
Kate dying and she hallucinates Sam, only to be snapped out of it by Trout Walker. Just Trout stopping them from being together one last time
“It hasn’t rained here since the day they killed Sam” and you think whatever deity made that happen is gonna let anyone in the Walker family end up with Kate Barlow’s fortune?
“I can’t leave without Hector.”
“Call my mom. Tell her I said I was sorry. Tell her Theodore said he was sorry” cue Small Steps
Justice reigns over the Walker family and rain falls over the Walker estate
I would love for someone to find out just how much that treasure chest was really worth. Can one of those theorist channels get on that, please?
Hector finding his mom is nothing short of heart-melting. I’m not crying, you’re crying
“Camp Greenlake was closed and the boys were released on time served and sent to real counselors” Wait, are you implying that forced labor is an unjust prison sentence? Someone better tell the prison industrial complex!
So what happened with Sweet Feet? Did they sit him down and explain the misunderstanding before or after signing him as the spokesperson for their product? He was the prosecution’s lead witness at Stanley’s trial, but nope! All is forgiven!
The soundtrack slaps
Point 53, however you have Shia Labeouf and Eartha Kitt in the same movie and you put which one of them on the soundtrack? Just wondering who made that call. Like, you layer ‘I Want To Be Evil’ or ‘Burned As A Witch’ over any of Kissing Kate Barlow’s scenes, it’d be perfect. But no, instead we get the dude from Even Stevens trying to rap.
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Paleyfest 2006: Supernatural Panel
So I’ve watched about half the panel so far and am taking a break because my airpods have ran out of charge as I keep pausing to make notes. It was a natural break anyway as the first part of the panel was a hosted session and the next part is a questions from the audience.
So many memories and a couple of things I’d forgotten but been smiling for the last couple of hours as I watch, pause and pull the notes together. Definitely worth a revisit to remember falling in love with this show and these guys.
Here’s my notes so far which I’ll tidy up and reissue all in a single post when I’ve finished watching tomorrow (timings are based on the video link)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6YHq20XmNE
Placing under a cut as longish post:
Supernatural was named in the Top 5 of new series by Entertainment Weekly
Aww. Kim Manners ☹ Miss his influence so much on the later seasons
2:20: Jensen followed by Jared are announced to the panel. Jared arrives and doesn’t quite know where he’s supposed to go. Oh Jared.
Robert Singer looks so young! Wworking with J2 for so long has definitely aged him. 😊
3:35: Erik says as far as he’s aware, this panel is the first gathering of Supernatural fans
3:40: Erik tells the story of them filming in Stanley Park the night before the panel and they get a call about a man near their filming with a handgun, set gets shut down, J2 held away, police etc. called in and 2 hours later they find out it’s one of their own guys from Special Effects team.
They showed Scarecrow episode at the panel – great choice!
7:15: Jensen is reintroduced to the panel. The host can barely get through Jensen’s previous roles because of the fans. Jensen says something at 8.10 “Over to you, Jared.” I think, not 100% sure, but he definitely shouts something to Jared (who has still to be introduced).
8:11: Jared is reintroduced to the panel. The host is still having the same trouble getting through Jared’s roles as he did with Jensens. A guy shouts, “I love you.” Same random audience member, same
8:55: J2 slap hands as Jared sits down beside Jensen at the panel.
13:40: Erik’s been talking about the concept of the show and the care the brothers have for each other. Cut to Jared who is currently pouring Jensen some water. Aww
15:00: They auditioned “everyone in town” so J2 did really, really well getting these roles. They flew Jensen down from Vancouver and Jared’s complaining he had to drive. They thought they had found their Sam in Jensen.
15:45: Jensen and Jared trying to dodge the question by passing it to each other, Jared: What’s the exact question?
Immediately following this Jared’s talking about getting the role from his perspective and his little baby!Jared Texan accent is just…
17:05: Jared, talking about his mom being an English teacher who teaches mythology and legends: “…the taught teachings of Joseph Campbell” Jensen: “Didn’t rub off that she was an English teacher” Oh boys! Stop bullying Jared, he worked till 4.30am before flying down to the panel!
17:45: Jared’s still talking, Jensen starts snoring. I can’t… Jared shakes him to wake him up.
18:20: Jared and Kripke are trying to clarify something (who was in the room when Jared auditioned) but Singer is in the way and they keep going front and back trying to make eye contact
19:24: we get to what Jensen’s experience of the audition process was. Jensen: Pretty much the same. Jared (immediately): zzzzzzz (resting his head on Jensen’s shoulder). Jensen goes on to talk about liaising with Nutter who wanted to bring him in and reading the script (for Sam). Jensen reading the script: “What about Dean? I like Dean. He’s funny” He studied for Sam (and Dean a little bit just in case) and went into the audition, said he felt good about it and got a call later from Erik: “There’s this guy, Jared Pada, Pada Something… that they’re really liking for one of the brothers” So Jensen looks him up on line and he’s like…
Jared: He thought I was hot.
Jensen: This guy’s smoking hot, I can’t play his brother!
Jared throws his head back and does that clapping thing he does.
21:10: host is asking by the time they performed together, they actually had the parts? Jensen: No, we didn’t have it officially. Jared (a bit surprised): Didn’t we? (looks at Erik). Erik says they were the only actors they brought into the Network audition (as you have to have the formality of the network signing off).
Jared says auditioning for the network is usually a terrifying process in front of around 5 people with a few others auditioning but when they turned up, it was only the two of them. Jensen: Just you and me pal. And it was the first time they’d met.
22:00: Jensen: “...And we’ve hated each other ever since.” He reaches for his water, Jared: “I poisoned your water so…” Jensen looks at water and drinks anyway
22:15: Kim Manners gets asked how he became involved. Kim: “I read for Sam…” Miss this man so much!
23:00: Erik says he doesn’t know what they would do without Kim up there [Vancouver] Kim: I know what you’d do, you’d get another guy! Panel: There is no other guy. Not true... Jared: “There is no other guy… named Kim.” Kim looks like he’s scheduling Jared in for a 4am pick up on his next episode.
23:40: Jared and Jensen talk about Kim and when he directed for the first time – Dead In the Water – they’d asked who he was and all David Nutter told them was they would love Kim, which they did and they contacted everyone from Day 1 saying he was incredible. Jared’s memory during this is pretty amazing in terms of episodes and directors etc. All the love for Kim and completely deserved!
24:20: Jared gets so expressive he sends his mic flying. Is this the very first Jared v microphones?! I think it might just be. Jared: 0, Microphones: 1
Jensen offers his own mic then Jared asks Singer for his also then finishes speaking by just holding his own mic, saying they begged and pleaded them to give Kim a job. Jared: because he was hungry… and he kept trying to bite my arm… and I was really worried.”
24:45: They were asked what is so incredible about Kim. Jensen: “Jared and I…” Wait, I need a moment here. Jared and I… sobs. He says they just responded well to him and his style of directing.
25:15: Bugs is mentioned by Jensen, Kim puts imaginary gun to his mouth. He really hated that episode and pleaded with Kripke not to do it. Jensen goes on to tell the bees story, 65,000 bees in a room, crew with full gear on. “Okay Jensen and Jared, hop on in…” Jared: “And don’t swat them because it makes them angry!” Jensen credits Kim saying that if J2 didn’t have bee suits on then he wasn’t going to either.
I should point out that J2 are mirroring throughout this segment in terms of their body language.
26:45: John (Shiban I think) is talking about how he got involved and what drew him in, and he said 2 things: the premise, he can see 5 years of suffering for these guys. Jensen throws his head back dramatically. The second thing is casting and chemistry and chemistry is something you can’t manufacture and these guys have it… 27:20 Jared and Jensen look at each other hearing this and Jared leans in for a kiss. Jensen shakes his head and points to the audience. Jared: worth a try. Oh boys. Jared will go on to try (and fail) to get a public kiss several times and will eventually give up and admit he doesn’t kiss Jensen... in public.
27:35: Bob [Singer] is asked what about you? Bob: Can I just watch them? (indicating Jensen and Jared). Same Bob tbh
27:55: Bob has to stop talking because J2 are doing something and we can’t see what they are doing but everyone is laughing. Bob throws his hands up and says “This is what it’s like to direct them!” I think from memory, Jared might be pouring water for Jensen and he keeps pouring and overspills and Jensen stops him. I might need to check my DVD as I think it’s got a different angle than this youtube video that I’m using or possibly this point comes later in the video.
Bob’s is a very interesting segment where he talks about how he and Kripke complement one another and I think this helps understand why Drabbernatural has gone off the rails as Singer (character focused) needs someone like Kripke (plot focused) to balance him out (and vice versa tbh) whereas Drabb is too much like Singer and can’t keep a handle on the plot. Anyway, interesting to watch from perspective of 14 years later and the mess that Drabbernatural is in terms of plot. This segment ends at 31:00 where Bob and Erik hug – after complimenting each other.
33:09: Kripke and John are talking about mythology v MOTW and at this point Erik is saying they have a mythology plan for season 2 and season 3 (if they are picked up). Jared looks confused at Jensen and they both turn to John. Jensen: When do we get to see this?
34:35: Erik Kripke (when asked if he knows where the story ends): He does, but you don’t know if you’re going to get cancelled or go 37 years like Gunsmoke. Kim: The boys are in Walkers. Jensen (I think, old man voice): Sam!
Oh, how they would be shocked to learn they went for 15 seasons in total
It was a good watch, highly recommend, particularly if you’ve been flagging with Drabbernatural and all the negativity over the summer.
I’ll be back tomorrow with the rest of it.
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little t&a deleted scene (julia)
i mentioned this and a couple other scenes from “little t&a” in an earlier post-- i’ve cleaned up and added to the bare bones of this. it’s really just an alternate take on the paul portion of chapter 25, where julia calls prior to or maybe instead of ace. thanks for the encouragement re: posting these, i appreciate it!
The phone rang before he could decide what else to do, whether to wait on Gene or eat something or waste awhile in front of the T.V. It startled him a little. Ever since Gene had come, he’d rarely been in the house enough to hear it ring. Another cushion from reality.
He ignored it. It kept ringing. Six times. Seven. Eventually, the answering machine tape started up, and he heard his own, actual voice, another piece of bewilderment.
“Hey, this is Paul Stanley. If you’ll leave your name and number, I’ll be in touch as soon as I can. Thanks.”
“Stan?”
He froze.
“Stan, this is Julia. Mom gave me your number--”
He picked up the phone before he could think to stop himself, throat suddenly desert-dry.
“Julia.”
“Who’s this?” The question was abrupt and immediate. Irritated. Julia was always far quicker to irritate than he was. The agitation still sent slight pinpricks of fear driving into his skin. Paul swallowed hard. He hadn’t even thought about it. God, he hadn’t even thought about what it’d be to talk to his sister the way he was now.
“I-it…” and, stupidly, he started to cough, trying to buy himself a second or two more on the line, desperately trying to drop his voice down at least a little, for all the good that would do. A week and a half ago, he would’ve hung up. He would have rather gone another three years without speaking to her. Now, something was tugging at him, awful and aching and desperate. “Julia, it’s-- it’s--”
“Who?”
“Don’t hang up. Please don’t hang up.” He took a breath. “I… I just want to… I can give him a message for you. Whatever you’ve gotta say, just let me know, and I’ll--”
“Has he told you about me?”
“Yeah.”
“He said I was crazy, didn’t he?” Julia snorted. “He is, too. He’s been in therapy since he was fifteen.”
Paul swallowed thickly.
“Really?”
“Stan’s a wreck. He wants everybody else to be just as fucked-up as he is.”
Paul’s tongue felt like cardboard. He wanted to argue with her. It had been three years since he’d seen her. Three years. He’d never reached out to her on his own. Never invited her to a concert, positive she’d come loaded or with a bunch of druggie friends or-- or mental. Julia was supposed to be somebody hidden away. Somebody with a carved-out space miles and miles apart from his life.
He didn’t support her. Not directly. He knew his parents gave her some of the money he sent them. He knew they had her contact information. He knew Bill had it, too, in case something happened to her that KISS’ publicity machine had to cover up. But he’d made a point of knowing nothing himself. Like not knowing where she was meant she couldn’t affect him. Couldn’t infect him, either. The terror he’d had as a child, not wanting to be in the same room with her, her anger, her rages, had morphed over time. Gone from terror of her to terror of being her. Wondering whether he’d be just the same. Whether he’d be a secret his parents didn’t want to bring up, whether he’d end up on pills and drugs and off-and-on committed, too. It scared him worse than anything else, going crazy, really crazy-- not just all worked up inside his own head, but out of control.
Sometimes, at his lowest, he thought the only reason he hadn’t had anything heavier than therapy as a teenager was because his parents couldn’t stand the thought of having two fucked-up, lunatic children. It was bad enough as it was. Him missing an ear and her crazy. Hilsen had assured him over and over that that wasn’t the case, reminding him he’d come of his own volition, reminding him he showed no signs of her illness. But he never could convince himself entirely. Not with the rest of what they had in common. The bisexuality he could pop off about casually to Gene or Ace or Peter or Bill, or even hint at in the music mags for shock value. It bothered him when he was at his lowest. It bothered him to know she was like that, too.
It bothered him more these days than it ever had before. Growing up, they hadn’t looked any more alike than most siblings, but right now, especially with his face softer, features not quite as jutting and angular, the similarities stood out more starkly. It was still his face, sure, but the flickers of resemblance were more pronounced, more uncomfortable. He’d kept thinking about her-- oh, hell, he thought about her a lot, anyway, every time he called his parents, every time he took Ericka out to the movies or to an amusement park. But she’d never been on his mind half this much before the curse. He was even talking to Gene about her at random-- Gene, who’d never figure out how much he’d pissed Paul off by calling him by Julia’s name.
(julia is out of her mind)
(she was nuts even then)
(you’re too hard on her)
(i have a right to be)
He couldn’t speak. He heard Julia blow a loud sigh against the receiver, and he was surprised she didn’t hang up at his silence.
“You don’t believe me, huh? God, I have all the stories on him. I see what’s in the magazines. Whatever he told you is a bunch of shit.”
“I know how he is.” Paul swallowed again. It wasn’t just his tongue feeling like cardboard now. The whole roof of his mouth was almost like sand. “He wants to talk to you.”
“No, he doesn’t. He hates me.”
“H-he… he wants to apologize.”
“For what?”
“For putting you down.”
It could’ve been him. Some of what had happened to her could have happened to him. Nineteen years old and knocked up by God knew what boyfriend. It could’ve happened easily. Just someone willing to pay him a little attention. As a guy, he’d fallen for Gene over something as pathetic as a tiny reassurance, and ended up all over him as soon as he’d gotten the opportunity. As a girl, a real girl, dumpy and easily rattled, desperate for attention and approval, he would’ve been the same. Would’ve gone for whoever looked his way, been willing to do anything. As a girl, he would’ve reaped all the consequences, too, instead of being able to shrug most of it off in the morning after.
“He can’t mean that.”
“He does, he…” Paul trailed, not knowing how to say it. “He didn’t know how bad you had it. Maybe he’s not ever going to know. He…”
“What the fuck did he say to you? Who the fuck are you?”
“Julia--”
“Who are you?”
He couldn’t tell her. Not like this. Not the way he was now. She’d never believe him. He couldn’t drop his voice down enough to really sound like himself. The inflections and the lisp were still there, but the pitch was all screwed up. She’d think he was trying to-- to make fun of her, or hurt her. Something. She’d never even realize it was him.
“H-he’s just been talking about you a lot, lately. That’s… that’s all.” Paul swallowed. “Let… let me have your number. Please. I’ll have him get back in touch.”
“He won’t call me.”
“He… he will. I swear.” His throat felt warm. “Maybe, maybe he wants to see you.”
She laughed shortly. He could almost picture her shaking her head. His throat only felt worse with each passing moment, heavy and hot, as he realized he was edging on a promise he couldn’t keep as long as he stayed this way.
Julia was the first memory he even had. Julia, much taller than he was, carrying around that Muffie doll, with the blonde hair and blue dress and red socks. He remembered wanting to just touch that doll, knowing, somehow, it had to be special, because she was holding it. He had gotten hold of it as soon as she set it down, tugging off the socks, and then she’d snatched it back.
All that time. All those years a room apart. Knowing her, being scared of her, angry with her, and now even the chance of connecting again was gone completely. The way he was now, he couldn’t ever see her again. He’d never, ever be able to see her. If he wanted even a shot at making things up with her, he’d have to go back. If he wanted his family at all, he had to stop fooling around, stop the outings and teasing and get it all over with. Cut it out for their sake, if not for his own.
“You’re nuts,” she said, and hung up the phone.
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Good weekend and 72 km.
It got warm. Not hot yet, though they are warning of a heat wave coming. I had two layers on top as there was some overcast to start. Ended up in the sun and about 25 degrees (77F). I did a decent distance and a good pace for mixed terrain at just over 25 kph.
The big news is my power meter is coming back on line. I let it die super dead. I did a reset command from my computer and I got my new bike computer to talk to it. The new one is a Garmin Edge 130+. I figured the old one was getting stupid as it did not seem compatible with the new wheel speed sensor (it was supposed to be!). That is part of why the power meter stopped working I think.
The new unit was on double discount from a shop in the UK that sent me the thing from Spain for less money than the bike shop down the street. It could distinguish the power meter from the speed sensor which is a trick the old Edge 500 could just not do. I got them all talking.
The power meter had lost all its calibration so it took about 30 minutes for it to figure itself out. It is a very clever design. (Ibike Power Pod ) It uses slope and air speed (using a pitot port ) to figure drag and such against road speed. You can enter in your weight, and all that, but it adjusts constantly so it works out things anyway. Going uphill coasting downhill tells it what it needs to know. At first it showed stupid numbers, but eventually It looked good. It never worked very well in cross wind, but that is likely why they redesigned it a while ago. I have an older generation.
So I got a normalized power of 152 Watts and a peak of over 500 Watts.
This new Garmin thing is much smarter than the old one. It does some things not so well, but that is probably the operator. It talks to my phone and uses an AP to control things. It puts out several new metrics. One is training effect. It assigns a number of 1 to 5 for a work out. 5 is too much. I got 4.2 and it says that is very good. It gave me a badge! Basically my aerobic base is improving. Ya I knew that, but now I have a Number!
It also calculates my VO2 Max at 40 which is lower than other figures I got, but still pretty FN good for an old man. I hope that with the power meter getting zeroed in that may improve a bit over the summer. It tells me that my biological age is 45. Oh it knows how to sweet talk a guy.
The other aspect of the day was I saw quite a few of the old Lotus Mob. They had done a sufferfest up Cypress. I encountered waves of them returning through the City. First of course the hard core A group. Then the killer Bs and eventually the other Bs. I bumped into some of the Cs in Stanley park at prospect point. Nobody stopped for Ice Cream. Had they learned nothing?
I had a chat with three of the old gang. I get the impression there is some negative karma there. In any event I am glad I did not try the mountain yet. It will come, but in it's proper time. I am slow going uphill. Gravity wants me to stay low. I ascend at about 10 to 12 kph on that road. I can carry just over 200 Watts for the 90 minutes it takes. I have come down at mid 70s of kph. Cypress is good for that as the road surface is open to good light and easy to see. Mount Seymour is bad as there are lots of shadows hiding the ripples and pot holes. Bike tires do not like pot holes.
Mountains are things you feel good about having done, but you hate doing it generally. Its one of the "banging your head against a wall" activities. So good when its over.
I am starting to book more distance, but I am far behind last year. At my current rate I will hit 4000 km for the year. I hope things get better. What will happen will happen.
There is at least one Granfondo event in BC this season. Maybe two. The Victoria one is taking bookings. The Penticton one looks like it is too. Both require more hotels and such than Whistler as for that one I start from my house. We know some people in Victoria, but not enough to room with them. We know some people near Penticton, but their place is a holiday home for the family. So yah hotels for the day before and after.
Another thing is I believe both courses are harder than Whistler. Penticton is 160 km and usually epic hot with hills. Penticton is legitimate desert climate. Victoria is similar but not so hot. Both have in common the course being set by retired pro-cyclists with respected Palmares. (look up Axel Merckx and Ryder Hesjedal).
It is not likely I will sign up for either, but time may tell.
Anyway, I am out and riding and putting down miles. That really is the point.
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tag game! get to know me
tagged by: the wonderful @thetaoofbetty 💖
1. what is the color of your hairbrush? My regular one is grey, but I have a purple one in my purse that i use a lot.
2. name a food you never eat- i’ll try anything at least once. Foods i’d rather NOT eat again? Hmmm probably sea urchin
3. are you typically too warm or too cold? too cold, especially my arms for some reason
4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? feeding my 11 days old baby
5. what’s your favorite candy bar? ok so this changes quite often, right now i’d say Aero. Ask me in a month or two and it might be something completely different (i’m very partial to After Eight chocolates around the holidays)
6. have you ever been to a professional sports game? yes, many times! i live in the hockey mecca of the Montreal Canadiens and have been to many, many games. i’ve also attended soccer games of the Montreal Impact and Lisbon’s Benfica. Oh and the Women’s Cup that was held in Montreal a few years back, that was fun! Back when Montreal still had a baseball team (RIP the Expos), i went to a few as well. I’ve also attended matches of the Rogers Cup (tennis).
7. what is the last thing you said out loud? “love you” to my husband who just took over with the baby so i could have a bit to myself and answer this! haha
8. what is your favorite ice cream? i’m a simple gal: i like vanilla because it can be matched with so many flavours. i also really love Ben & Jerry’s The Tonight Dough (created by Jimmy Fallon)
9. what was the last thing you had to drink? water. i drink a lot of water because breastfeeding
10. do you like your wallet? i love my wallet! Ever since 2005, all my purses and wallets are from this Portuguese company called Cavalinho and they’re all gorgeous!
11. what is the last thing you ate? eggs over easy and crispy bacon
12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? nope!
13. what’s the last sporting event you watched? probably the NHL Stanley Cup final
14. what is your favorite flavor of popcorn? Chicago Mix baby! That thing is like crack: i will eat the whole bag if no one stops me!
15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? my mom
16. ever been camping? in a camper, does that count? In 2005, i went on a 2-weeks roadtrip with a camper across Spain and the South of France.
17. do you take vitamins? i’m still taking my prenatal vitamins because the Dr said to keep taking them until i stop breastfeeding. Normally, i don’t though.
18. do you regularly attend a place of worship? i do not.
19. do you have a tan? i actually laughed out loud at this one because i’m so ridiculously pale, it’s laughable to imagine myself with a tan
20. do you prefer chinese or pizza? pizza. i’ve answered this many times, but pizza is that food that even when it’s bad, it’s still good.
21. do you drink your soda through a straw? not if i can help it, straws are not good for the environment peeps!
22. what color socks do you usually wear? i like fun socks, i have this Harry Potter set from Hot Topic that i’ve been wearing a lot (currently the ones that say: ‘Mischief Managed’)
23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? yes... uh i mean no! Wait, where’s my lawyer?
24. what terrifies you? that something bad happens to my kids or my family
25. look to your left, what do you see? a poster of Sandeman’s Port wine
26. what chore do you hate most? cleaning the bathrooms, no contest
27. what do you think of when you hear an australian accent? i’m a lover of pretty much all accents so i’d think it’s sexy
28. what’s your favorite soda? Orange Crush or Mountain Dew
29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? drive thru, i’m a mom of three: drive thru ftw
30. what’s your favorite number? 9 because i was born on the 9th day of the 9th month
31. who’s the last person you talked to? i talk to myself in my head a lot, but out loud it was my husband (see answer to question #7)
32. favorite meat? uhhhh chicken? i dunno, i’ve never given this any thought whatsoever
33. last song you listened to? Tina Turner’s 'Simply the Best’ covered by Noah Reid on Schitt’s Creek when Patrick serenades David and yes i was all up in my emotions
34. last book you read? Lili Reinhart’s ‘Swimming Lessons’
35. favorite day of the week? we’re in a pandemic, what is time anymore? also, as a mom of 2 toddlers and a baby, there is no such thing as a favourite day of the week anymore.
36. can you say the alphabet backwards? probably... but really slowly
37. how do you like your coffee? just with milk, nothing else
38. favorite pair of shoes? i have a pair of lace-covered flats that i really love
39. time you normally get up? at whatever time my kids wake up
40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets, always.
41. how many blankets are on your bed? i sleep with bed sheets and one comforter (is a comforter a blanket? do the sheets count? i’m making this question is harder than it needs to be, aren’t i?)
42. describe your kitchen plates? they’re white and round (i used to have a set that was square, but we keep breaking them and there are only 2-3 left now)
43. describe your kitchen at the moment: there’s stuff everywhere no matter how many times we clean it and put away everything. Did i mention i have 3 young children?
44. do you have a favorite alcoholic drink? probably gin & tonic
45. do you play cards? i play solitaire on my phone when i’m bored
46. what color is your car? my car is blue, the family car is silver grey
47. can you change a tire? most definitely NOT
48. your favorite state or province? i live in Quebec and it’s pretty gorgeous over here. Can’t complain, 10/10 would recommend. Come visit me when this pandemic is over, I have a Bughead room and everything! Ask @cheryllclayton!
49. favorite job you’ve had? the one i have now: full time mom (i’m on mat leave). But also, the one i have now: coordinator of the CBC Literary Prizes for CBC Books.
tagging: @cheryllclayton @jandjsalmon @anchor-bird-94 @crowns-and-milkshakes @lizzybuggie @darknessaroundus @bluevelvetvideo
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Rebjukebox 25 for 2020 Vol 3 Playlist
Hi back with the third edition of the the new Playlist series, Rebjukebox 25 for 2020. We have 25 track all released in January 2020, so all just a couple of weeks old. The Playlist is the normal mix of genres that we post here on Jungle Indie Rock, we post well known bands and unknown bands, from anywhere on the planet. Once again started with 100+ tracks and cut them down to the required 25, some we have posted already, but the majority we have not, listen to it, share it, but most importanly just enjoy it!! Reb.
Hope to post vol 4 of this series towards the end of the week or early next. If you like this Playlist and missed the first two volumes than go check them out from the links below.
Vol 1 | Vol 2 | Vol 3
Tracklist
Green Day - Oh Yeah!
The Naked And Famous - Bury Us
Las Kellies - Funny Money
Waxahatchee - Fire
Lala Lala - Legs, Run
Moaning - Ego
Basic Plumbing - Keeping Up Appearances
Polica - Sea Without Blue
Lauran Hibberd - Bang Bang Bang
Islet - Geese
A Girl Called Eddy - Someone's Gonna Break Your Heart
Torres - Dressing America
The Flytraps - Female Of The Species
Andy Shauf - Neon Skyline
Thick - 5 Years Behind
The Luka State - Fake News
Erica Freas - Fantastic Future
Dear Boy - Heaven Moves
The Plastics - Drunk On Love
The Flatmates - Shut Up And Kiss Me
Color Tv - Anybody's Girl
Tracy Island - Work It Out
The lottery Winners - 21
Stanleys - A Better Life
Approachable Members Of Your Local Community - Small Change
#Rebjukebox 25 for 2020 Vol 3#Rebjukebox 25 for 2020#playlist#Jungle Indie Rock#new music#2020#indie#indie rock#indie music#music#alternative#alternative rock#punk#punk rock#singer-songwriter#indie folk#folk#folk rock#garage rock#indie pop#pop
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“Are you a friend of Zeehva’s?” asked the old lady.
Jocelyn assumed her to be Genevieve Stanley, Zeehva’s neighbour who took care of the alpaca. “Aye, ma'am. Jo. An’ yer Missus Stanley?”
Mrs. Stanley smiled warmly at her unexpected, masked guest. She primped her white hair, drawn into a tight bun. Jocelyn, clad in her brown leathers and shemagh, looked at the woman’s blue dress. It was covered in white powdery handprints and smears.
“Oh, that?” asked the old woman who had noticed the examination. “Baking flour! Do you like warm bread? If you want, you can stay for lunch.”
Jocelyn shifted the heavy crate of old wine bottles she had carried from ‘her’ underground cache. “If'fn et’s ok wit’ ya, I’d like ta se’ this doon on yer porch fer now…”
Mrs. Stanley started. “Where are my manners. Of course! Here, let me make some room…” she said, hurriedly pulling a bench off to the side, away from the door. “There you are, deary.”
Jocelyn was surprised. The old woman really is as nice as Zeehva had said, she thought. Damn. She set the crate down. The bottles inside clinked together. She opened her pack and extracted two more: remuneration for Zeehva’s efforts.
Mrs. Stanley reached out. “May I see those?” she asked. “They look about as old as me!” She chuckled. The heavy bottles made her arms drop a bit; she had not expected them to weigh as much as they did. “Where’d you get these?”
“I, uh…” Jocelyn looked at the bottles uncomfortably. “Well… a favour fer a priestess, yea. She asked me ta ge’ some wine fer th’ ceremonies, an’ I did.”
The old woman set one of the bottles behind her - they appeared identical. She brushed some of the dust away. “Sunnyglade… Sunnyglade Furmint,” she read. She read the vintage. Her mouth dropped. “Oh Gods above,” she whispered.
“Wha’? Everthin’ ok? Is et bad?”
Mrs. Stanley continued to dust the bottle. A gilt image of a rising sun behind what was now called the Tower of Azora had writing beneath it. She swallowed hard.
“It can’t be,” she said, taking a seat.
“Wot!?” asked Jocelyn, alarmed. Her thoughts began to race. Breathe in…
“Did you read this? Did you read the quotation here?” Mrs. Stanley gestured at the writing under the illustration. It was in an elabourate cursive script. The letters looked familiar to Jocelyn, but different; she had never seen ones like these before.
“Cannae say as I ‘ave,” she said. She could feel her face flush behind her shemagh. “Wha’ is et?”
Mrs. Stanley looked up at the younger woman. “It’s history, Jo. I am holding history. Could… would you mind if you pulled down your cloth?”
Jocelyn itched her scalp. Breathe in… “Why’s tha’, mum? I kinda like no’ havin’ a face, yanno?”
“You like to know who gives you gifts, yes?”
Jocelyn nodded.
“I know you’re leaving these for Zeehva as gifts,” said Mrs. Stanley. “By handing them to me, by letting me think about something from long, long ago, you have given me one, too. Do you see?”
Jocelyn did not see, though she wanted to. She believed the old lady had no malintent. She unwrapped her shemagh, folded it into a small triangle, and stowed it in her pack. She looked toward Mrs. Stanley obviously uneasy.
“Oh, miss,” said the old woman. She had a look that was both empathetic and sad. She momentarily forgot about the bottle in her hands. “Why do you hide away? You are beautiful, did you know that?”
“Wha’? No, I ain’,” she replied. She looked off to the side. She thought about her face: the beauty marks, the brow, her jawline. She did not appear female enough to herself. Not like that elf. Not like the Director. Not even like Zeehva or Dr Hayes or this old woman. She moved to itch her scalp, but stopped herself, instead running her fingers through her short, unkempt hair.
“You’re unique, Jo,” said Mrs Stanley. She placed a hand on Jocelyn’s shoulder. “Unique is beautiful.”
She had nothing to say to that, mostly because she had never thought that way before. Maybe that’s why she loved beauty so much - the women were so very different, but the men were expected to be uniformly the same in every sense of the word. She even thought this ancient woman with white hair drawn into a tight bun; sun-wrinkled face; and simple blue linen dress covered in flour - she thought that this woman was beautiful, too.
Mrs. Stanley could see she had moved her visitor. She advanced hug her. Jocelyn, who would have normally twitched and pushed away, accepted it with an open heart. They held each other tight. There was nothing but warmth. After awhile, the two let go of each other. Mrs. Stanley was smiling; Jocelyn could feel that she was grinning at the very least.
“Now,” said Mrs. Stanley. She clapped her hands. “This bottle of Furmint…” said Mrs. Stanley. “Have you ever heard of it?”
Jocelyn thought about it. She remembered a deal that Dmitri, the exiled crime boss in Hook Point, had mentioned a few years back. Someone had bought a case from him. The old Bull wouldn’t say who the client was, and Jocelyn had no desire to know. But the word stuck in her brain.
“Et… et’s a whi'e wine, ain’ et? Can only ge’ et ou’ o’ some kinds o’ soil an’ rock?”
Mrs. Stanley nodded. “See that Tower there, sticking out above the trees?”
“Oh sure, mum,” she said.
“That area used to be called Sunnyglade. There was a vineyard there many, many years ago. This bottle,” she said turning it toward Jocelyn, label up, “is from that same vineyard. And that writing…” The old woman took a moment, like she was reliving something, something good. “…it says 'In Remembrance of Barathen’s Victory, 25’.”
“Vict'ry? Vict'ry o'er wha’? Orcs? Elves? Othah people?”
Mrs. Stanley shook her head bemusedly. “This is from before that time. No, no… this is a celebration of the end of the Gnoll War. When Stormwind became the capital of the Eastern Kingdom. This bottle celebrated the 25th anniversary of that.”
Jocelyn looked confused. She did not know anything about Stormwind History.
At all.
“This bottle is 75 years old, Jocelyn. It’s from a dead town, made for a dead king.” Mrs. Stanley shook her head. “If this is your gift to Zeehva, I can’t imagine what is in that crate,” she said.
Jocelyn was rendered speechless, frozen. The birds chirped; time was nothing to them. Nor was it anything to the trees, whose leaves quaked in the gentle breeze. The scent of warm, baked bread wafted over them.
“My loaves!” cried Mrs. Stanley brought back to the present. “Don’t just stand there, deary. Come in. Please do come in!”
Jocelyn blinked. She could feel her feet move, her body move. Soon, she knew she was inside. What was this feeling? It was like she was watching herself. Why was she having this feeling? She shook her head, took a deep breath, and brought herself back to the old woman’s home. She helped her wrangle the loaves, cut them, prepare ham and cheese sandwiches. She looked out over the lake behind the old woman’s house.
“Coul’ I…” she started, gesturing toward the lake.
Mrs. Stanley was already on her feet. She returned less than 30 seconds later with a towel, a bar of soap, and other accoutrements. “Just be out of the lake before the sun goes behind the trees - it gets cold fast!” she said.
Jocelyn took off her cloak and left both it and her pack behind. She almost ran down toward the lake. Mrs. Stanley was overwhelmed by the scent of horses emanating from the young lady’s belongings. She washed the operative’s cloak and shemagh. Later, when Jocelyn returned, she hugged Mrs. Stanley and thanked her profusely before packing up a couple of sandwiches and fresh spring water. She began the short walk back to Stormwind.
Time to get back to the stakeout.
( @zeehva / @lovelydeadlysocialite )
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Stenbrough AU Meet before "It Chapter 2" aka The Runaway Groom.
Bill Denbrough is a famous writer, who is almost famous because the end of his books are bad. He is 25 years old. His friend is an actress, Audra Philips, who found a job for him as a screen writer.
He has a routine (go to the studio, write, write, avoid all the dates Audra want for him...) and everything is okay...
...Until one day, when he is driving to the studio of WB, Bill bumps into a runaway groom.
"What the hell?", Bill claims, meanwhile the groom enter his car.
"Drive! NOW! NOW!", the guy looks terrified. So Bill drives (where? The mysterious groom only said "far awaaay").
The guy, with curly hair, brown eyes, seems very scared. "You are okay?", Bill asked to the runaway groom.
"...Not now...maybe i-in a minute", the groom look at him, "I-I'm sorry...I just made you have a hard time. Practically I kidnap you...", he laughs without much encouragement, "Sorry, I am Stanley, Stanley Uris".
"I am Bill, Bill Denbrough".
"Wait a minute, the writer?", Bill saids yes, "Your finals..."
"I know, they suck".
"No, no...well yes, but I think you could do it better".
Stanley doesn't have a place to go. He runaways from his wedding with a girl called Patty. She is a friend, but their families wanted them to unite as a couple. Both are obligated to do that wedding. Stanley can't supported. He runs.
Bill offers his home, it's very big for only one person.
"Maybe you think I'm crazy for offering you that...".
"No, no, I don't think so. Actually, i feel that... i can trust you. That is crazy, isn't it?", Stanley show a little smile.
Bill's heart is beating very fast. Only for that smile. So familiar.
Stanley lives in the house of Bill. He cleans the house, makes the dinner, wash the dishes and clothes. Audray jokes about how Stanley is Bill's "wife".
Bill and Stanley blushes everytime she mentioned that.
Stanley calls Patty to tell her about he is sorry for the wedding. She is fine, but Patty's parents not. Neither Stan's parents. They insisted to do another wedding.
"So...what are you gonna do?", Bill asked him.
"Maybe don't call them, anymore. My dad is always mad about me for something I did on my Bar Mitzvah", Stanley doesn't seems worried.
Stan helps Bill with his books. They are going better.
Stan comforts Bill every anniversary Georgie's birthday and death. He doesn't speak about how (He doesn't remember).
When Bill goes to a interview, the interviewer ask about "someone special" in his live, to inspire him (specially for his character, his hero, a jewish man who always find a way to save the others. Being brave, be true...).
Bill didn't answer the question.
Stanley makes the same question.
Bill kiss him in response.
Stanley and Bill sleeps in the same bed that night.
And all the nights that come.
They married in 2016. Stan parents doesn't talk to them.
They like to solve Stan's puzzles. And watch the birds when they have time.
Now Bill is helping with the screenplay about his book. He is in the WB studios, talking with the director and Audra...
...When he receives the call.
From Mike, Mike Hanlon. From Derry.
It had come back.
Oh, god, Stanley.
He has to go, he must to let Stanley know. Surely his husband will ask for an explanation, and will give it to him when he returns.
"Stan, I'm in home",No response, "Stan?"
He heards the sound of water running upstairs in the bathtub.
Bill had a bad feelings and quickly climbs the stair to the bathroom. He opens the door and...
"STAN!"
End of the First Part(?)
See you later, alligator(?)
#stenbrough#bill denbrough#stanley uris#stan x bill#au it#it chapter one#it chapter ii#pre it chapter two#runaway bride au#runaway groom au#the end?
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10/20/2020 DAB Transcript
Jeremiah 35:1-36:32, 1 Timothy 5:1-25, Psalms 89:14-37, Proverbs 25:25-27
Today is the 20th day of October welcome to the Daily Audio Bible I am Brian it is wonderful to be here with you today. It is a joy to come around the Global Campfire and take the next step forward, which is what we do every day. And, so, let's dive in. We’re reading from the Christian Standard Bible this week. Jeremiah, chapters 35 and 36 today.
Prayer:
Father, we thank You for Your word and we thank You for continuing the journey and…and taking us deeper and deeper and deeper into it. We thank You for the admonition to respect those who are older than us, who are before us, who are wiser than us, who have lived longer than us who are brothers and sisters in Christ. We see them as Fathers and mothers and that we should see those that are contemporary with us as brothers and sisters, with all purity, that this is the posture that we have toward one another, the posture of a family and we thank You that You have made us a family, Your family, not just any group of people who have decided to bind themselves together in some sort of family apparatus, Your family on this earth. And, so, Father, it's been a tense year and we've had every opportunity to do anything but treat each other like family. Or maybe we've treated each other like family in our darkest moments but when we’re really after each, when we’re really, really perturbed and the gloves are off but You have invited us to be unified, that You are the head of this household as it were, that You are the Father and that we are Your children and that we submit to You. And, so, as we move forward in these times, these pretty tense tenuous weeks that we find ourselves in, that You bind us together in love, that we treat each other in love, that we do what we do in Your name, that we stop and consider whether or not what we’re doing can be done in Your name because we represent You upon this earth. We are Your children and we are in this together. So, we represent the family, the family of God. And, so, Holy Spirit come and help us to behave appropriately we ask in the precious and mighty name of Jesus. Amen.
Community Prayer and Praise:
My name is David Browning from Savannah Georgia and this is my first time calling in and I’m calling in because on October 12th I heard God’s Smiles and I heard her prayer request and I felt…I heard the agony in her voice and I felt the agony in her pain and it brought me to tears and I just…I just prayed for her, I just prayed in agony and…and in tears for her for the relief of her pain. She is…her attitude is so phenomenal, and she is so positive and upbeat and blesses me so much every day. I pray for you God’s Smiles, every day I pray for you and for relief from your pain and for healing for your condition. I love you all DAB. I thank you Brian Hardin and your family for everything you’ve done. The DAB has brought incredible changes in my life in the last six months. I love you all and keep on keeping on. Good night.
This is Valerie calling for the first time from __ Arkansas and I am calling in regard to our 35-year-old son. He is a very good-looking intelligent boy going to respiratory therapy school at the time. He’s had asthma all his life and wants to help others with breathing difficulties but right now he’s in a very dark place mentally. He’s always struggled with anxiety and depression most of his life but right now he says he sees no light at the end of the tunnel and he says his quality of life is so, so bad that he really wants to take his own life. He’s socially isolated taking online classes. His brother has quit having anything to do with him and he just feels like he’s totally alone in this world. He’s not found a suitable woman yet to be a wife. He would love to get married and have children and he’s given up all hope on that. He’s telling me that any day now is going to be his last. As you know, as a mom this is very, very distressing, it’s heartbreaking, it’s crushing. I just appreciate everyone’s prayers for him, and I thank you so much.
Hi DABbers this is Kira from Denver and I put this on Facebook already but I wanted to lead my DAB family know that I did make a huge, huge leap and confronted my boyfriend and said I didn’t want to fornicate anymore but also I didn’t want to get married and I can see us being together forever. He got really really upset. I said…he said I’ll do anything. What can I do to make it better? And I said we need help. But then he switched, started gathering his stuff, and he’s been out and coming back. So, we want prayer for that. But to avoid him yesterday I went on a solo outing myself and I was walking along beautiful area outside Denver sort of mountainous doing a stretch and this woman came…saw me and came up to me and apparently was warning me about stretching like this. Was rare, but you could get hurt. She had torn her clavicle and she was in so much pain for years and years and years, so bummed she couldn’t do yoga anymore to make it better. We started crying and I started telling her about my testimony and my story and my beliefs and we walked together and talked together for a while. I asked her if I could pray for her and she said yes. She said her mom had prayed for her for years and years. She’s a little older…older woman. So just older than me. Anyway, please pray for Tammy. I was thinking a lot of God’s Smile when she was telling me about her pain. Anyway, it was nice to share my testimony through this grief and really hard stuff I’m going through. I love you DABbers…
Dear DAB family this is Dove from Northern California calling on October 14th, 2020. I’ve been a listener for seven years and this podcast has truly changed my life. I suffer from excessive self-reliance and a reluctance to ask for help but God has brought to me my knees with my son’s opioid addiction over the past 15 years. I admit my powerlessness over my son’s addiction. My son has not had faith in God, and he is also felt that he could solve his own problems despite his addiction. However, he has been in jail for the past 18 months and will go before a judge on Monday, November 23rd for sentencing. Since being in jail my son has been a problem the communicative, intelligent, and thoughtful person that he was prior to his addiction. He has expressed gratitude for Bible verses that I send to him. Please pray with me that his court appointed attorney will prepare for the court date thoroughly and will represent my son to the best of his ability. Please also pray that my son will be able to express his remorse and that the judge will find that my son is worthy of a chance at rehabilitation through his placement recommendation after his sentencing. Primarily I ask you DAB family to pray for my son to accept Jesus as his Lord and Savior for him to humble himself before the Lord and for him to accept the forgiveness Jesus offered…offers and for his ultimate redemption. This is a lot to ask in my first call, but I trust that you will include him in your prayers. Thank you DAB.
Hi Daily Audio Bible family this is Stanley from Maryland. I just wanted to shout out Brian for writing of the book…oh…what’s it called? The God of Your Story, yeah. One-year adventure with the God of Your Story. Man, it’s just incredible to kind of see words on page. I know Brian does a good job of explaining a lot of what we are reading like day after day but I just want to kind give praise for this book because it…it reads less like a book and more like a…man…just…I don’t know how to say it…just a kind of explanation….not an explanation but expanding on the reading and it’s so encouraging to just read after listening to the actual reading. It’s something I can…I can ponder for the rest of the day. I’m a visual person…person, I’d like to think. I learn more visually. So, for me and if you’re…for me it helps and if you’re like…like me and you like to see the words on the paper it helps a lot. And, so, I really appreciate it and…and just want to encourage you as you continue to go through this journey with…with…with the community, pick up the God of Your Story or buy it maybe for a Christmas gift so you can start it next year. It’s not too late and it’s definitely been a blessing in my life. I…I love it and I love the gold little placeholder in the middle, the ribbon. It’s…it’s just…it’s beautiful…it’s a beautiful, beautiful design. All right. Stay humble.
Hello DABbers, this is Kristen Brown at __ Louisiana I’m calling to say we’re about to have a double DABber baby. First, we had a DABber baby __ then we had we had the first grandbaby now we’re about to have a double DABBer baby. Congratulations Jill and Ben. Family I’m calling for prayers for my sister. She’s in the hospital with the virus and she’s in critical condition her name is Janice. Please lift Janice up in your prayers. She desperately needs it because she is in critical condition. Secondly, there’s a gentleman who called in, I think the other day about his abdominal pain after having a surgery and it felt like gas pain __ and I identify with that. Immediately my prayers went out for him. Family I desperately still need prayers…
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Jack Klein of Sector Seven
Final Fantasy VII Remake: The Investigation Unit Within the Painting
A Short Story by Kazushige Nojima
Translated by Stanley
Chapter 2: Jack Klein of Sector Seven
Jack Klein lives in a company housing in Sector 7. The information was easy to obtain, I knew it from the pilot who transported me to Mideel.
He is an old man with a swollen face. Even though it was in the morning, he was already reeking with alcohol.
“You're a trooper too, right? We have to protect our secrets, isn’t that so?”, Jack said to intimidate me, who wants to know what happened 15 years ago.
However, after handing him wine as a gift, his attitude changed. I also got information out from the pilot.
“When I get drunk, I have this habit of speaking non-stop. I might spill out some things that might get me in trouble if someone heard it.”
“15 years ago…”, I asked again. “You gave Glen Reiner, who was a trooper infected with Mako Poisoning, a ride didn’t you?”
“Let me think...”
I waited.
When the bottle became about half empty, his monologue began.
“At that time, the handling of Mako was still unstable, the number of people who got poisoned compared to now was much more. After I handed those guys over to the people in white coats from the Science Department, I was able to receive money. It became my allowance. I also felt that money was meant to keep me quiet. They explained that they needed collaborators to come out with a cure for Mako Poisoning, but I wonder why so? The people in the Science Department are inhumane…”
Jack’s face turned sour. It seems that he also realised that he was inhumane.
“Ah… Glen Reiner... I definitely retrieved him from the clinic in Mideel. He seemed as wobbly as a typical drunkard. It was as though he was a different person after I sent him.”
“Sent? You mean Glen was sent to Mideel? You sent him?”
“You came here without knowing that?”
He started talking about the Special Ground Investigation Unit and it sounded as though he was bragging.
It was a volunteer unit which existed for a short time 15 years ago and was under the direct supervision of President Shinra. Recruits were promoted upon appointment, and a tremendous bounty was promised if they succeeded in their mission.
“Of course there are risks. There was a high possibility of having Mako poisoning. What the Investigation Unit was looking for was nothing more than natural plots of land, something like a Mako Reactor. Moreover, the President probably was going insane. The only clue given to the troopers was a photograph of a landscape. But not exactly a photograph, but more like a painting. These paintings were made into photographs.”
Thirsty all of a sudden, I swallowed down my spit.
“Rumours were saying that the artist was a mysterious psychic.”
Jack took up a posture as though he’s in the cockpit of a helicopter, gripping the liquor bottle like a control stick.
“The troopers who volunteered for the Investigation Unit differ in age and gender. They were probably struggling to break away from their boring lives. They fly, believing that the landscape in the photograph they’re given is somewhere in this world. The coordinates were written on the back of the photograph, but that doesn’t mean that the photograph’s landscape will be there. The coordinates were only a guide. For the most part, those working on the upper floors of the headquarters were probably making rough estimates.
Jack pulled the control stick.
“I flew many times and sent troopers to the borderlands. An agreement was made for me not to land. The monsters were scary and Wutai Warriors were also lurking around. With a parachute on their back, the troopers jumped out from the helicopter. An arrangement was set to meet again 10 days later, but I could only meet a few of them again. I also did not hear any news about a “Mako treasury” being found. They were probably killed off by the monsters.”
Jack chugged down the wine.
“I didn’t hate them. These people had dreams and ambition. After getting used to life in Midgar, they did it even though they will lose their way of life.”
“What kind of photograph or painting did Glen have?”
Jack looked distant when I asked.
“The reason why I remember Glen Reiner is because of that photograph. We had a dispute regarding the destination. The photograph he brought to me looked like a landscape around Cosmo Canyon.”
“Cosmo Canyon…”
Located in the wilderness far west of Midgar, that is the name of the village in it. It seems to be a land closely related to the Study of Planet Life.
“On that day, I gave 2 people a lift. One of the destinations was to the south of Fort Condor, whereas Glen’s was the outskirts of Cosmo Canyon. My base at that time was Junon. Considering factors like the weather conditions, I headed to Fort Condor first. There wasn’t a problem. I dropped the first person off at the specified coordinates. The cabin was just left with Glen and me, and then he…”
Jack looked like he was assessing me.
“He handed over a note with coordinates for Mideel along with 10,000 Gil. Well, the fact was that I had no reason to refuse.”
The wine bottle turned empty.
“Retrieving the investigators wasn’t my job. I completely forgot about Glen and returned to my original job, to fly around the world and transport goods. Thus, I was surprised when I saw him again in Midgar half a year later. He performed such a terrible jump that I wondered whether he landed properly and not died. Still, even with Mako Poisoning, he somehow was alive.”
So, Jack did sell Glen to the science department. I tolerated the urge to condemn him.
I stuck out a photograph in front of Jack. The young man in the photograph was wearing a white coat, with no distinctive features. At that time, he was perhaps around 25 years old.
“Check it. Do you know who is that in the picture? The man on the right end.”
“Oh! That’s Glen Reiner. He was wearing a white coat? So, he wasn’t a trooper after all…”
After I walked out of the drunkard’s house, I took a deep breath. I then gazed at the photograph I just showed Jack.
There stood a smiling white-coated Geddy Buck, and beside him was a 9 year old me.
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for the cute asks can you do all of them? i saw you do it before but if you cant pick out your favorite ones
you’re in luck, I somehow have nothing to do! ever! (I had some other asks but then I got this one and figured I’d do them all in one).
1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?
I try to have more cereal than milk but I always end up with more milk than cereal, which is fine ‘cause I like milk.
2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?
love it!
3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?
receipts or random scraps of paper.
4: how do you take your coffee/tea?
milk with two sugars for both.
5: are you self-conscious of your smile?
oh, definitely.
6: do you keep plants?
I can barely keep myself, so no.
7: do you name your plants?
my housemate named a plant jessica. I think I’d name one goliath.
8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?
does making spotify playlists count? (I also do some writing and poetry).
9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?
yeah!
10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?
side.
11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?
ham rolls.
12: what’s your favorite planet?
saturn.
13: what’s something that made you smile today?
I got to see all of my grandparents doing food deliveries. it was really nice.
14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?
open plan kitchen and living room, maybe a counter to have a little separation? big couch! there will be a nintendo wii! lots of ikea furniture, lmao, and light but not overbearing colours.
15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!
there's floating water in space!
16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?
spaghetti.
17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?
I’d like to dye the rest of it purple but I have been informed that is unwise. maybe blue!
18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.
fell down some icy stairs once when I was very drunk with my hands full of: my phone, a mcdonald’s, and a coffee, and I didn’t drop a thing! until I got home.
19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?
nope.
20: what’s your favorite eye color?
Hazel? I’m not overly fussed.
21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.
I… don’t have a favourite bag??
22: are you a morning person?
Sometimes, it depends on how my sleeping pattern is going. I can be.
23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?
literally do nothing. Just chill out in bed watching films.
24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?
no.
25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?
I’ve done a lot of accidental trespassing onto farms #countrysidelyfe.
26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?
I always buy tan boots.
27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?
apple.
28: sunrise or sunset?
sunset.
29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?
ramble.
30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?
Yes. don’t even have to think very hard.
31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.
I love socks! possibly my favourite article of clothing. I buy colourful socks, patterned socks white socks, black socks, ankle socks, trainer socks, knee high socks, socks you can’t see. I just love socks.
32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.
there was a bird. in my bathroom. I was not sober in many ways. the trauma lives on.
33: what’s your fave pastry?
sausage rolls.
34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?
I had one of those monkeys that had velcro on its hands so you could wrap it around your shoulders like a cape. he was called stanley after the cartoon and i still have him.
35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?
I like them but i rarely use them.
36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?
right now? the wallows, perhaps.
37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?
clean. tidy room tidy mind.
38: tell us about your pet peeves!
I don’t like loud chewing or gulping. “well, actually…”. men who can’t take instruction from a woman in charge. leaving doors open.
39: what color do you wear the most?
muted ones, blues, beiges, pinks, some white, grey, and black.
40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?
I have a star necklace that my mum gave me. It has meaning but I would like to keep that to myself.
41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?
The Princess Diarist by Carrie Fisher.
42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!
not really.
43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?
God, a handful of people from camp, we just lay on some bleachers one night and had a lil gossip session under the stars.
44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?
?
45: do you trust your instincts a lot?
Uhhhhh, most times.
46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.
I’ll have to give that question a good old punder as I have too many.
47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?
chewy yoghurt! no!
48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?
the weeping angels from doctor who and the dark. I’m still scared of the dark.
49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?
I love buying records! the last one I actually bought for myself was either fleetwood mac or kacey musgraves, I can’t remember.
50: what’s an odd thing you collect?
I means, I collect coins and pop vinyls but they’re not really odd.
51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?
my best friend: ‘last resort’ by papa roach.
52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?
the gossip girl meme, hands down.
53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?
yes. no. no.yes; great. idk. idk. eh.
54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?
My gramps earlier today.
55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?
you’re going to have to be more specific. I do a lot of dramatic things.
56: what are some things you find endearing in people?
laughter, any odd quirks, rambling, how they talk about things they love, how they take their tea/coffee, reasons for things they hate.
57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?
felt like i went on a journey, as always. who doesn’t dramatically reenact the lyrics? either you’re that scene from wayne’s world or you’re doing it wrong.
58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? Why?
I’m the vodka aunt. in fact we’re all vodka aunts, it’s a mess. help.
59: what’s your favorite myth?
any one of the mabinogi, to be honest. branwen and blodeuwedd are classics, though.
60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?
I like it but i don’t read it much.
61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?
I got my gramps, who does some birdwatching, a mug with fake bird poop on it.
62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?
Not really, but if I did it would either be orange or apple and mango.
63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?
I put my books in size order and then alphabetise my music by last names.
64: what color is the sky where you are right now?
pretty grey, though some blue is peeking through.
65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?
bitch we’re in lockdown, of course.
66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?
thorny.
67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?
melancholic.
68: what’s winter like where you live?
cold and wet, sometimes there’s snow.
69: what are your favorite board games?
monopoly and articulate.
70: have you ever used a ouija board?
no, but I would like to!
71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?
breakfast tea or peach iced tea.
72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?
yup.
73: what are some of your worst habits?
leaving things until the last minute. being judgmental. eating and drinking junk. not listening. my stubbornness and need to be right. not doing the things i enjoy. giving up if i don’t get it right on the first try.
74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.
they’re a good person at heart, we have gone through so many arguments and friendship break ups and distance but we’ve since grown up and always make time for each other, even if it’s just going for a drive. we actually have good chats about everything and nothing and have a healthy respect for each other, but we;re not afraid to call out bad behaviour in each other.
75: tell us about your pets!
big ball of energy! he’s a greedy guts who stole my pizza three weeks ago and i’m not over it! he’s fifteen and a half but you’d think he was younger and he’s one of my best friends and i love him. hims stinky though.
76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?
If the circumstances were normal i’d be starting my summer job right about now.
77: pink or yellow lemonade?
to drink? yellow. to write about? pink. iykyk.
78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?
no club.
79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?
I loathe to think about them but my old flatmates had decorated our flat with a bunch of bunting and balloons and surprised me on my birthday two years ago.
80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?
blue. yes. I like blue.
81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.
ice glacier.
82: are/were you good in school?
I was good in school. I am now struggling to even be mediocre.
83: what’s some of your favorite album art?
You ruined new york city for me by fletcher, dirty computer by janelle monae, and melodrama by lorde.
84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?
i’m planning on getting a giraffe and a spider-gwen themed one.
85: do you read comics? what are your faves?
yeah! I like most spider-man variations (miles and gwen’s being favourites), fantastic four, wonder woman, and more recently captain marvel.
86: do you like concept albums? which ones?
I love dirty computer (shoutout again to janelle’s artistry).
87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?
power rangers 2017.
88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?
I like surrealism and photorealism, and perhaps some fauvism.
89: are you close to your parents?
I’m close with my mum.
90: talk about one of your favorite cities.
i have a favourite memory attached to paris. my friend and I had taken a mini roadtrip and on our way back we accidentally ended up in paris? (we were trying to avoid it because of emissions laws) we didn’t realise until we saw the eiffel tower lit up in the distance so we decided to ride it out and put paris by the chainsmokers on. lmao. so by association its now one of my favourite cities.
91: where do you plan on traveling this year?
Hahahahahahaha. florida next year.
92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?
depends on the pasta, I am both.
93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?
either straightened or in a low bun with some bangs.
94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?
my oldest sister.
95: what are your plans for this weekend?
nothing.
96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?
procrastinate them a lot. like, a lot a lot.
97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?
intj, taurus, all of them at this point (gryffinclaw)
98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?
no idea.
99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.
hypersonic missiles by sam fender, strangers by fletcher, promises by naomi scott, hello my loneliness by delaney jane, cry baby by the neighbourhood.
100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why?
time doesn’t exist.
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