my stand in ep 4 thoughts, feelings, etc
WOW WA WE WAA THAT SURE WAS AN EPISODE HUH - happy to report i went back through the episode slowly this week and took notes and really tried to gather everything i wanted to say (but i will inevitably forget something)
🌸 ok disclaimers because i have a lot of them for this particular episode 🌸
i'm just a silly guy on the internet, i'm not an expert in mental health, psychology, body language, whatever. most days i can't even take care of myself. i'm just saying things recreationally.
PLEASE do not put novel spoilers in my replies, reblogs, or tags without a warning notice. i've got an itchy blocking finger for it these days.
i am treating ming and joe and everyone involved in this show as if they were real life human beings. ming was not born some mustache twirling villain sent from hell to make joe miserable. joe is not some pure angel descended from the clouds to do no wrong. everyone in this show exhibits very human behavior and that can be distressing under certain circumstances. i'm just going to comment on them as humans. i'm not interested in a round table discussion on why a character is irredeemable, the scum of the earth, etc. i'm just putting my thoughts out there and you can take them or leave them.
🌸 alright yucky disclaimer time over 🌸
the episode really just picks us back up where everything left off - and yet joe still made ming breakfast, and ming isn't stupid (well right now at least,) he knows something is off.
i am confused why tong needs to get married on this specific day. and like bro how fast are you getting married? relax. the whole thing is just unstoppable force (trajectory of this producers career) meets immovable object (tong's fuckass stubbornness) and the collateral damage is massive.
and then there's the question of did joe ever want to play a lead? or did he let his impulsiveness and hurt put a target on his back? (only emphasized by the fact that everyone assumed joe would turn down the role)
i DO apologize for all my doubt surrounding wut. he, ja, and may are the only people in this show with any god damn sense. maybe jojo and yim. we'll see.
getting into the confrontation at joe's work, i really don't think it's that surprising when we keep in mind ming genuinely has no fucking clue what is going on. all he knows is joe woke up, was acting weird, didn't come home, and then told him to pack up his shit and leave with ZERO explanation. like, joe's completely in the right, but i'd also be confused as fuck. (i wouldn't go to someone's work about it but, y'know, we know ming acts in extremes.)
and to me this is where it really became obvious that joe has always been able to overpower ming, to get away from him, as we have seen joe's physical prowess, we've seen what he's capable of, but he never uses his body to move ming away from him - that's not who joe is, he's not someone that would put his hands on another person like that. it's just another way ming and joe are the direct antithesis of each other.
it's my thought that the argument escalates because ming is used to getting everything he wants - except for tong, and now joe. when joe begins to push him away and deny him his substitution for tong i think ming lashes out in his hurt with a thought of "it's happening again, why doesn't anyone want me?"
i will say while i do believe sol has good intentions for the most part his white knighting is getting a little irksome. while convenient, it just shows how much he's still hovering and laying in wait for a chance with joe - he, too, is not respecting joe's wishes. no is a complete sentence, sol.
and then things continue back at home and joe finally, finally throws ming's words back at him: if i'm so terrible to be with, if you're so great, why are you wasting your time with me?
and ming doesn't have an answer. what ming DOES have is another back embrace, arms wrapped around joe as he asks "don't you love me anymore?" but is he asking joe or tong?
"although i'm not as good as tong" even now joe's rampant self worth issues are still at play but at least he finally knows he's worth more than whatever this is.
then the phone rings and to me, ming looks skittish. he looks shaken. he's never seen joe so angry and he's scared and as the call progresses that fear morphs into rage when sol calls joe. and the thing is, regardless of who played the main role, ming was never going to be happy. it was either going to be joe or tong playing opposite sol and neither of those things would have been acceptable.
and then i said, out loud, in my quiet office: OH! and promptly lost my shit in the group chat.
ming doesn't look wholly present after his act of violence. his face is vacant, like he isn't completely seeing or grasping what he's just done. i get the impression that ming isn't mentally well; stress and fear and anger have a way of making people do really fucking stupid things and as these things happen you risk falling into the sunk cost fallacy - you've already gone this far, you can't stop now - which all aligns with the obsessive behavior we've seen from ming in the past.
as joe wakes up and they talk once again joe doesn't blame ming, he blames himself for not seeing the writing on the walls even though it was written in invisible ink.
"all these times we were together did you ever love me?"
"you can't tell?"
again, so much of the blame and emotional responsibility of their situationship is put on joe and ming refuses to communicate any of his feelings, perhaps because he doesn't know how to after repressing everything for so long.
WE DIDN'T GET HOT KINKY CHAINED UP SEX THOUGH, WHY DOES GOD HATE ME SPECIFICALLY
but the way joe looks at ming as they linger there in the wake of joe's request looks like a goodbye, the way his eyes soak in every detail of ming's face. despite all of this and the nightmare it has turned into he did love ming, perhaps still does, and he does have some of those good memories he was so desperate to keep.
though like.. joe.... maybe we could consider a different career path??? instead of just jumping to risking our lives? like sure food service sucks, cashiering sucks, etc. but you aren't in danger of falling off any cliffs, you know? and let's be real, he could just go into modeling with those looks.
it's my impression that when ming calls joe he looks haggard, like he's lost numerous nights of sleep (and we really don't know how much time has passed) but either way it does seem like he's at least done some amount of reflecting. his voice comes across soft, subdued, and sincere.
and after everything, back in the present, we see ming. he's still in the apartment, desperately calling joe's name all these years later, still unable to sleep and waiting for joe to come home just like he asked him to years ago.
maybe ming never wanted to enter the entertainment industry before, but he has now. perhaps it was never for the attention or the money, maybe he chose to promote those watches because it was a reminder of the gift from joe. and maybe this job, in this specific industry, is the closest he can feel to joe now. and maybe with new influence and connections ming can find out why he was never able to tell joe he loved him before he lost him.
WHO KNOWS, NOT ME, CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT THO
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*turns up in a bright pink limbo and rolls down the driver's window* guess who's back in the inboxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (with another short ramble ft. our favourite plane guy)
(not a request!)
(would this be nsfw ish? For like one paragraph lol no idea)
hmmm.... maybe harvey w/ a farmer who has the strongest scented cologne EVER like it smells faintly of oranges and/or ginger and GOD he's obsessed...... ,, and also farmer has moobs because. because.... *explodes*
ok but ??1!(3?£+!!??? EUHGGGHHAAAAKKEJFJ HARVEY JUST COMING HOME FROM THE CLINIC AFTER HELPING A REALLY DIFFICULT PATIENT AND STUFFING HIS FACE INTO FARMER'S MAN CHEST. INHAILING.
ngl would /hj
harvey who's glasses get foggy due to early winter rain but farmer reaches to them before he can and suddenly farmer's the one to clean his glasses and pull him into a kiss
harvey who's straight up smitten for farmer because he loves listening to him chat about planes
harvey who craves farmer's touch because he's so warm during winter and so cold during summer???? Like he'd think how it's possible but the minute he falls into his arms he loses his thoughts (positively)
harvey who loves the rain during fall because it means evening cuddles with his and farmer's cat + farmer himself
harvey who's surprised that farmer gifts him a build-along plane set complete with paint, and it's his favourite one, too
harvey, who's so inlove and feels so lucky to have had farmer move into the valley
ok this wasn't as short as I thought it'd be
oops!! 🤭 harvey ml <333
- 🫚anon
AJAJAJWSJDJDJDJD JESUSSS THE 🫚 ANON IS BACJ OG MY GOD
Harvey,,,,, teeheee he's so silly omg I love that man, he would do such things yet still be super embarrassed and shy because anxiety go brrrrr
Spoilers for date night mod if you married Harvey
You don't get to pick the timings of the dates or where he will take you he just will bring it up.
I have this mod where I have date nights with the person I'm married to(Harvey) and he either takes the farmer out to go shopping with him just because spending time at Pierre's and you can have a kot of choices to get whatever you wanna get and you can pay for the stuff when Harvey says he'll be paying but you can still pay for it and it gets Harvey all blushful when you insist on doing so and then when you're done he whispers into the farmers ear abt having some fun time at home like woah!!
Or going to that hot air balloo again as a date teehee
OR going to the saloon for a date and there's just the farmer and Harvey in the room he rented out and they can either play pool, or go outside and walk to the beach to stargaze, the farmer play pool and he tries to win and then yada yada they head home and he brings up Spivey time WHICH DAMN
anyways :3!!
For the stargazing one he is rather a sad man, not shy, he says he wasn't happy with his life and he wished to yoba something could change his life, and he made that wish the day before the farmer showed up and then he says he got what he wished for and then the two of you kiss and head back home, and yes he does bring up if you get there fast the two of you can have fun together back at the cabin and then the farmer instantly runs back.
Ive been wanting to share for so long
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sorry i'm. just walked breaking dawn part 2 and i think this might be the funniest fucking movie i've ever seen. like yeah dw there's love and sex and stuff. and body horror. and underage relationships. like what a movie.
stephanie meyer is so goofy honestly. and so is this movie. there's even a whole sequence like 'omg guys we need action for the ppl who don't want the vampire melodrama!!' as if i would have watched this far if i didn't.
anyway. love your beloved media so good. i'm sorry i can't take it too seriously but i think that's such a huge point of it <33 genuinely one of my favorite movies to watch while i'm sad.
no no please don't apologize that is exactly how you should be viewing this it truly is ridiculous. out of the core 4 books breaking dawn is my favorite because it's just like WHAT is happening here
and oh my gosh that "omg we need action!" sequence is a whole thing. I wasn't alive to experience it fresh in theaters, but the stories I've heard about the way people screamed...oh if only I could've been there. I probably would've gotten miffed at the inaccuracy to the storyline before I got upset about Carlisle, but still.
you're so right the only reason I got this far was because I've become obsessed with this silly idiot dramatic vampires, I don't need a dramatic movie fight. I need to watch Jacob and Rosalie be petty and Charlie grumble about everything in the whole wide world
It's been too long since I watched the movies, I should watch them all. cannot take them serious. I cringe so hard watching them but it's so fun. I own at least two of them on dvd, I just need to collect the others now to indulge fully
so glad you watched and thought of me, at least enough to share this. i am the twilight mutual </3
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My boyfriend was on the phone with his dad yesterday so I went out to sit on the patio to pet the geese and play on my phone for a bit, and while out there I came across a comic of baby Grimace (yes, that Grimace) being sad because everyone hated his milkshake and saying he wished he never had a birthday. Then there was a follow up where tons of people had commented saying they loved the shake and wished Grimace a happy birthday, and that made him happy again.
This, for whatever reason, emotionally devastated me. I was sobbing. I was ugly crying so bad that even the geese waddled away side-eyeing me.
After a while my bf yelled from inside, "Okay, you ready for dinner?" and I was forced to accept I had to go back in the house a defeated sniffly little wreck.
My boyfriend, who has only ever seen me cry once in the whole year we've been together, looked horrorstruck. He assumed the worst. Someone got hurt. Something was wrong with my family. Someone was mean to me (a cardinal sin). The panic that washed over his face was unparalleled.
He, upon seeing me, (somewhat theatrically) rushed over and grabbed me by the shoulders. "What's wrong, what happened? Are you okay?" he asked, frantic. "What is it?"
I realized how ridiculous the whole situation was and just shook my head.
He was growing more panicked. "What is it? Why are you crying?"
I then had to stand there and look him, this completely normal human being, in the eyes, and blurt out "Grimace"
Confused silence followed.
"....Grimace?"
I nodded.
"...The McDonalds guy...thing?"
I nodded.
"What...what did...Grimace...do to you?"
I then tearfully recounted the silly internet comic that had absolutely broken my heart. And this poor guy--this poor, wonderfully sweet, nice, patient guy--kindly stood there trying to figure out how to comfort me that Grimace was not, in fact, sad. (Nevermind that he's a corporate mascot who isn't real)
This morning my phone rang just after 5am. It was my boyfriend. It was my turn to panic, to assume the worst.
I didn't even have time to say hello before he started excitedly yelling, "Look at the TikTok I just sent you! Look! Open it!"
Confused and not entirely convinced I wasn't still asleep, I opened the TikTok.
An official release from McDonalds confirming Grimace (who still isn't real) did, in fact, feel special on his birthday.
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