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I’m bored so here’s a list of some things MAN have said to me a struggling hijabi on the internet 🥰🥰 (may الله guide us):
- “i hope i knew you when you didn’t have it on yet” sir what
- “you look hotter with it” HREM. I’m a minor you ugly ass fuck 🤗🤗
- “can you send me pics without it pls pls pls” no 💕.
- “did your dad forced you to put it??” I’m trying to convince my parents that I’m responsible enough to put it on irl atm bcs they’re too scared I might get assaulted bcs of it 👹👹
- “don’t you want to be free?” my hyperactive ass is more free than you’ll ever be 🤗
- “why” because.
- “mia khalifa” do I even need to respond
- “ why can’t I see you without it?? I bet you’d look better” bcs you have a d-
- “damn” stfu
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I listened to a podcast where the majority of its audience were/are straight white cis men (which I am not). The podcast was just 2 guys (also straight white and cis) goofing around for an hour or so. It was fun and they were entertaining, and the topics weren’t too deep.
But about 3 months ago, it was revealed one of the guys basically mistreated his partner while she was pregnant/experiencing a miscarriage. This includes: forcing her to go through with an abortion without allowing her the option to at least think about keeping it; threatening to leave her if she didn’t get the abortion; downplaying her symptoms and basically not supporting her when she’s literally dying from an ectopic pregnancy, among other horrific things.
After everything was said and done, the podcast ended. The two guys parted ways, and a fan base was forever divided. Before all this, it seemed like a wholesome environment where “boys” could be “boys.” Now it all feels like a messy divorce and I could go on a huge rant about misogyny and patriarchy and all that, but, like I said, the majority of their audience are straight white cis men, who don’t really have to think about how women (more specifically women of color) are treated in society bc a lot of them (but not all, thankfully) are just too blinded by their white male privilege to fully understand why people are taking the woman’s side over the guy who makes them laugh.
Anyway, the reason I’m making this post is bc someone made this “meme” about the entire situation on the podcast’s subreddit and
The links I posted from the second image (these here) are statistics of abuse toward women.
It just baffles me how men can post this kind of stuff and brush it off “just a joke” without thinking too deeply about it. Like, how is that funny? Explain the joke to me. And, again, they don’t have to think about this kind of stuff and what posting it implies, which really bugs me.
Women since probably before biblical times have been mistreated, have had their symptoms brushed off by men who think they know better and have died from being ignored (which almost happened in this situation). Too long women have been labeled as guilty until proven innocent. In this house we believe them until proven otherwise.
Fuck the patriarchy and fuck white male privilege is all I’m saying.
#tw domestic violence#tw abuse#gus and eddy podcast#gus johnson#eddy burback#abelina sabrina#patriarchy#white privilege#white male privilege
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i know i’ve made text posts up to my ears on this, but trans men aren’t allowed to have external identities, and we aren’t allowed any type of gender presentation without it being criticized and forced out of us. we just aren’t.
the softboys had the safety of their identities ripped away by cis people taking it too far and applying softboy culture onto all trans men, and in turn caused a bunch of backlash from non-softboy trans men (specifically but not limited to tr*sc*m), and now softboys are seen as infantile, even when they’re not. at the same time all of this was happening, cis people started taking that culture and applying it to their fav cis characters, and then everybody decided because it was cis women applying the label to their soft fem cis male favs that it was cringey, and the cis girls cried sexism for shaming them of their interests, and trans softboys were pushed out of the conversation all together.
the fems have had their identities as trans men erased by cis people and other trans people alike, and spend their whole lives being reminded that if they’re not even going to try, they can’t expect any stranger to gender them correctly as if trying would even help. the same people who praise GNC cis men condemn GNC trans men because they don’t see us as men, they see us as women, and there’s nothing subversive about a woman dressing in womanly clothes. it’s so blatantly obvious, and yet everybody pretends like its’ not, especially when it’s pre-t trans men. there’s a difference between choosing to perform gender in a certain way, and being forced into a gender presentation by society. learn that difference, and listen to fem trans men when they speak.
the chaotic trans men, which probably isn’t the term for them but idk what is. the trans men who associate themselves with mess, and dirt, and cryptids, and “gross” animals, and androgyny, and well, chaos, are accused of stereotyping the rest of the transmasc community as being into that as well, when in fact it was cis people who can’t confront that no two trans men are the same and just because you see one subsection being really similar, everybody else isn’t automatically the same. they’re seen as cringey, or freaks. (much like the reaction to softboys, but i feel like the reception was different.)
the passing trans men, who don’t really tie themselves to extra identities listed but are still and always will be trans are told that their experiences don’t matter and that they’ve got access to some super extra special privilege that they use in the name of Evil, as if transphobia starts and ends with a stranger’s ability to tell that you’re trans. they’re held to impossibly high standards, higher than any cis person, woman or man, and if they slip, well isn’t that proof enough that they’re dangerous gender-traitors who were fated to be evil the moment they “decided” to be men? not to even start talking about the erasure of intersectionality some passing trans men still face, as if being a man lessens those struggles.
the hypermasc trans men, - and no, i did not say the toxically masculine trans men, they’re two different things, and the fact that i need to pre-emptively point that out is just a great way to start, - are seen as predators in their own community. are seen as traitors who uphold a gender binary. people get tunnel vision around hypermasc trans men and forget the goal of dismantling the patriarchy and the gender binary and all that jazz is giving people the option to present however they want, not forcing mascs (and fems, although not what im talking about here) into androgyny (which we’ve already discovered isn’t acceptable either) lest they be accused of sexism. the way bigots think of hypermasc trans men are that they’re actually women who have done the unforgiveable, they’ve actually became men, and therefore, should be forever scrutinized, because if we turn our backs for a second, they’re going to be raping and murdering our innocent little cis girls and forcing them to become men too.
i’m sure there’s so many other transmasc subsections and subcultures and presentations out there, but one by one, they’ve all been ripped away from us regardless of where you sit. if you’re closer to the fem side of trans masculinity, you’re a cringey straight girl in disguise, if you’re on the andro side of trans masculinity, you’re (again) cringey, a freak, who needs to stay away from polite queer society, and if you’re on the masc side of trans masculinity, you’re a dangerous predator that needs to be kept in line, bc otherwise you won’t be able to help yourself and become an evil dirty man for real.
this isn’t my original thought, but to echo a reblogger from another text post of mine, these aren’t isolated incidents, or freak happenings, it’s a system at work, and that system believes that the only correct way to be a trans man is to not be one.
#charlie.txt#it's late#this might not all make sense#but god am i tired of trans men being denied community bc they're not being trans men correctly#when regardless of how you're a trans man you're told you're doing it wrong anyway#trans posts#tw transandrophobia#tw rape mention#tw murder mention
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What with all the Spidey hype cause No Way Home, I wanted to take a moment to refute the myth that the Andrew Garfield Spider-Man movies were rebooted because he wanted to make Peter bi.
That’s not what happened. Full disclosure, I myself am bi - if biphobia was the cause, I’d call it out.
There’s a lot of misinformation about this so I’ll just lay it out.
- YES, Andrew posed the question of “why couldn’t Peter be bi/explore his sexuality?” He flippantly suggested Michael B. Jordan as a cis swapped MJ.
- YES there’s an agreement that states Peter Parker has to be portrayed as a straight white cis man.
- NO, Stan Lee did not get Andrew Garfield fired because of his comments. Someone confronted Stan at a con with Andrew’s statements, trying to stir up controversy. Stan had zero say in the movies - his producer credit was in name only. He jokingly said he needed to make some phone calls, and that he thought one sex was enough for anyone. Unintentionally biphobic? Sure, but I’m sure he meant no harm or offense. Stan was an old in his 90′s. Not the most eloquent, but he was also a bleeding heart progressive. People can discuss how he treated his artists or stole the spotlight in the early years, but he was always big into social justice - even in his later life. I recall when he was still alive, people blamed him for the movie reboot and said truly horrible things - which is heinous in it’s own right, but he was also a victim of elder abuse and attempts at defamation. Even now that’s he’s gone, his official social media accounts are active courtesy of people trying to capitalize on his name/brand/image.
So why then, were the movies rebooted, if not for biphobia? A few reasons.
- The Amazing Spider-Man 2 under performed financially and critically. Andrew was contracted for only one more film, and made that very clear.
- Sony wanted to milk the franchise. A Sinister Six solo film, Venom and Morbius (which we got/are getting), there was even talk of an Aunt May prequel where she was a secret agent. This was all detailed in the Sony emails (see below)
- Disney wanted to make a deal for Spidey in the MCU, in which basically they did most of the heavy lifting for the solo films if they let him be in the ensemble films, and Sony would sit back and get money.
- The Sony email leaks (which are out there online) were the big thing that made this possible, as Sony had been resistant to the idea. Amy Pascal stepped down from the position she had, and into a smaller role - due to a bunch of Not Great things she herself said.
Sony realized they were hemmoraghing money on this franchise, and they didn’t have a (good) plan. Disney did. They were really hurting after that leak, and Disney was there to bail them out.
Ok, but so then why then was Andrew Garfield not retconned into the MCU? After all, there had been plans for Avengers and OsCorp towers to appear in each other’s movies at one point?
It’s simple Marvel wanted a fresh slate, free of the baggage. They also wanted a teen Spidey, and Andrew was in his mid thirties at the time.
And on top of that, Sony/Andrew were already on the outs.
Again, the Sony leaks detail this - Andrew (due to being sick) snubbed and embarrassed a chief Sony executive.
After that, they were done with him and he was done with him. He’s spoken about how naive he was when he first got the role, and despite his passion for the character, studio and corporate interference soured his experience.
I do hope that he is indeed in No Way Home, so that he can have some proper closure with the role as a bisexual man myself (and I realize I don’t speak or everyone and my opinion is my own) the myth that it was cancelled due to biphobia or Stan Lee’s biphobia is just. Stupid. And incorrect.
Stan was an old man who tried to be funny and failed, and ended up being insensitive/offensive. I’m not offended, but I’m not denying your right to be. I’m just saying it literally has fuck all to do with him.
Yes, Andrew expressed an interest in it. That much is true. In follow up interviews, he said said he was kidding, but also not kidding. It was something that started off as a joke but he ran with, because why not? It would be new and different. There was an actor’s round table where he talked with Dev Patel, who lamented his own experience on The Last Airbender film. He decried the studio interference and their unwillingness to take risks, but it was much bigger than this “issue”.
MJ’s character was not cut from TASM2 because they wanted to introduce her later as a male character. It was cut for time, and because they wanted to focus on Gwen/Peter solely. It was uncertain as to whether Woodley would come back in the third one as the character, yes, but that’s because she had committed to the Divergent franchise - which was going to be a thing.. She said it made sense with the direction they were planning on going in, but do you know what that direction was? Norman Osborn coming back, after his head had been frozen. More Sinister Six set up, stuff with the parents. Webb has spoken about plans for the unproduced third movie, and MJ wasn’t really mentioned at all.
I don’t mean this to be hostile or call anyone out, but to say the Webb movies were rebooted bc Sony/Marvel vetoed bi-Spidey is just fundamentally untrue. The mandate that he be a cis white hetero dude predates the Sony/Marvel deal.
IDK why this bothers me so much, but every once in a while I see that one post with so many notes and… so much disinformation…
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finn for the character ask
hi anon! thank u for this!
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff
best quality: prob the way he turned into a supportive and incredible teacher in s4. his understanding and care for his students was miles better than shue could dream of
worst quality: his impulsivity and numerous "putting his foot in his mouth" moments. the boy does not think, he just does.
ship them with: this is hard for a lot of sad reasons so i'm just going to say rachel based on canon. although i love in fics where he's alive, when he's written w an OC wife. i would've loved to see that in canon tbh.
brotp them with: puck, sam, mike, kurt
needs to stay away from: will schuester
misc. thoughts: hoooh okay this is where i get nervous lol bc i know my opinions aren't popular and i don't want people to attack me for them.
finn is incredibly flawed and so much of the criticism of him is valid. however, i do feel like people only focus on his negative moments to support criticizing him, and if you did that with so many characters, the consensus would be....bad. i guess i don't understand why it's so easy for people to forget these moments happened or pass them off as bad/ooc writing for everyone else, but not for finn? (santana basically outing kurt, threatening to out karofsky, every fucking santana rant, brittany outing santana, kitty giving marley a fucking eating disorder, kitty being racist and transphobic to jake and unique, continuing to make fat jokes about marley's mom, sam and artie's comments to ryder in 4x20, the list goes on) my point is, finn has done a lot of good things people just don't talk about.
"he's a straight cis white able-bodied jock why should i care" like, yeah. but let's not act like racism wasn't literally baked into this show. i don't get how that's finn's fault. the other main protag of the show was a "straight" cis white able-bodied woman but finn gets hated for it way more. and i feel like people don't get... quinn being written off as getting into yale versus santana struggling to get jobs, tina forced to wait until the literal last second for brown is also white privilege. mercedes having her album pushed off the release calendar for wanting to wear a fucking shoulder wrap in a photoshoot while miss rachel berry lies to her producers and jets off to LA for an audition and is totally fine bc she’s just “too good to lose” is also white privilege. white privilege was baked into the writing. kurt, the white gay male, got way bigger of a story related to his sexuality than the poc members of the community (santana, unique, blaine, etc). also, not a slight at kurt by any means, just pointing out the disparate writing.
finn wasn't perfect and i'm not trying to diminish the criticism of his actions, but i do think people blame him for a lot of things that weren't his fault. it seems like separating bad writing from the character is operative for everyone else and i wonder why it doesn't apply to him.
on a positive note, his struggles with what he wanted to do with his life, his identity, and his arc into teaching in s4 were so compelling and incredible and i will forever mourn that we didn't get to see things turn out as they should've.
#i am..............anxious about posting this so i've been sitting on it a couple days#i really don't want to be attacked for this you're free to think what you want and hate him all you want#this is just how i feel#also y'all please stop holding a show that was made in 2009 to fucking 2021 standards because it is dumb and annoying#the progress we've made in 12 years is incredible but media is a product of its time#and this obsession w shit 'aging well' is also kinda stupid bc that's the point of continuing to make shit??#something made in 2009 should not be relevant bc the world is different#glee#Anonymous#neha rambles
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Genuinely asking here bc maybe I've missed/forgotten some stuff but... when homo- and transphobic stuff is said in DA, it's addressed in game as being bad, isn't it? Like Dorian's first personal quest is about his dad acknowleding his homophobia and apologizing to Dorian. And with Krem, Krem and Bull both correct the Inquisitor pretty sternly if you misgender him, and Bull explains how gender identity is respected under the Qun. Not trying to fight you on this, nor do I think DA is by any means perfect, I just don't recall seeing homophobia or transphobia that isn't quickly shut down by the player or other characters. Don't feel pressured to answer tho, I know it's not your job to pull receipts for every shitty thing in a video game lol
Well first off thanks for being so polite and nice in this message, I appreciate it. I'm gonna try and cover the stuff that I've seen myself and have had pointed out to me by other people but keep in mind that I'm not trans, most of what I'll say here on the transphobia issue is me parroting other trans fans who've said this sort of thing before. I am gay though, so I guess we're clear on that front. It's also been a while since i played any of the games so if i get stuff wrong, I'm sorry. This is gonna be long so sorry for that in advance.
So homophobia and transphobia in our world. Why is it a thing? A combination of humanity hating and fearing what it doesn't understand (which Dragon Age also has) and religion, specifically in my experience Christianity (which Dragon Age does not have). Yes the Chantry and Andrastianism is heavily based off of Christianity and Catholicism but it doesn't have any of the bullshit about sexuality and gender that Christianity does. Neither in it's holy texts or it's teachings. The in universe writing about sexuality, a codex by Brother Genitivi, is also kinda homophobic and doesn't explain why this is a thing in Thedas at all. Queer relations and relationships are aparently viewed by most of Southern Thedas as 'peculiar' but no explanation is given as to why. Now I'm gonna go into specific instances.
First off, let's look at some of the stuff you've mentioned. Dorian and his dad. Yeah that whole situation hit me pretty close to home as a queer person who's pretty much accepted at this point that my dad will never accept who I am and my mother died still not having accepted me. What Halward did is definitely portrayed as a bad thing, that is correct. The narrative kind of subtly pushing the reconciliation being the good option is a bit iffy. What Halward tried to do to Dorian is straight up abuse and I really don't like plotlines that push making nice with the abuser and forgiving them as a good resolution. This is kind of more personal feelings than straight from the script fact but I wanted to say it anyway.
Second issue: Krem's treatment. So many trans people have talked about this before me, if you want some more in depth analysis of this you should go check out some of their stuff, it won't be hard to find. The basics though: Krem is voiced by a cis woman. This immediately sets a shitty precedent on the side of the devs lending proof to the theory that they don't care about uplifting trans people, just making money off them. Krem should have been voiced by a trans actor. In the actual conversation with Iron Bull you get the opportunity to be extremely transphobic. And if you do this you get told off, and that's kind of it. The fact that your character even has the option to do that is a) gross from an out of character writing perspective, and b) makes no sense in character. Why would your character have these views? There is no in lore reason for any of the potential groups your character comes from to be transphobic. Also, and this is just my opinion, but if you're transphobic to Krem (even though it makes no sense in universe) the Iron Bull's reaction shouldn't be a bit of disapproval, he should send you through the fucking wall. Seems more in character. Also, gender roles under the Qun also have a lot of potential to be transphobic, they are by no means an improvement on ours imo. Under the Qun your gender is essentially decided by your role. So if you're a fighter you're male. If you care for children you're female. Not only is that pretty hella sexist and reliant on our dumb ideas of gender roles (that again aren't supposed to be a thing in Thedas) it also has potential to be hell for trans people. Yes it would work for someone like Krem, but for someone who was AMAB and good at fighting but they were a woman? Being shoved into male gender roles and treated as a man would not be good. If the writer's intent was to create a society with an entirely different concept of and approach to gender they've done it wrong because of how much of it is reliant on the audience's perception of gender which (going by general gaming demographics) is pretty cis and het normative.
Now I'm gonna talk about the transphobia that doesn't get challenged. Sera makes a couple transphobic comments throughout the game I believe, the one I can remember in detail is in the Winter Palace when she says someone presenting a certain way isn't actually that. And without any further context the only way the audience can really interpret that is that the writers decided to take a cheap shot at someone cross dressing in a bad attempt at comedy.
Sera's writing in general is super homophobic because she was written by a homophobe. I'm not gonna go into all of that in this cos this is already too long and I could write essays about it. Other people already have! But basically, she's the only out and out lesbian romance we have in the series, and her writing in that respect is really not good.
So how about the other games? Well. In origins you can hire sex workers at a brothel. The 'special' on offer is a very masc presenting dwarf in a poorly fitting dress. This was a very transphobic attempt at humour. Zevran, much as I love him dearly, is a walking bisexual stereotype, made worse by feeding into the 'sexy Latine' stereotype on top of that, which isn't an in universe problem so much as it is proof that the writers are guilty of prejudices whether they know it or not. I suspect there's more instances in origins but I can't remember right now.
In Dragon Age 2 Seneschal Bran has a relationship of some kind with a sex worker named Serendipity, a feminine presenting elf with a very deep voice. This is played as something that Bran should be ashamed of. At least I think so, it could be that he's ashamed of having a relationship with a sex worker. Not that far fetched considering Aveline's weaponisation of the word 'whore' against Isabela. But this is also something that doesn't make sense honestly. Why is sex work taboo in thedas? Christianity isn't around to make it so and Andrastianism doesn't have purity culture going except for their clergy ( which also is never explained why and makes no sense.) Additionally, Uncle Gamlen is super homophobic. Why? There is no reason culturally or religiously for him to be that way? Yes he's an asshole but why is he an asshole in that manner? And you don't even get to challenge him on it! It's passive dialogue that you trigger when walking into his house and you don't immediately get the option to fucking fight him about it? Why put it in then?!
A good amount of this is off topic from the actual question so sorry about that but TLDR there's a lot of in universe homophobia and transphobia, most of it is not handled well in or out of universe. I do believe that they're trying to do better in this respect, inquisition was a step up from previous games it just wasn't enough of one.
If you want more stuff like this go check out @dalishious cos they have a ton of very good meta on subjects related to this.
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i feel like some of y’all don’t realize that making fun of straight/white/cishet people is supposed to be done in context. like those jokes and statements are meant to be made in retaliation or critique of a certain type of priviledged behaviour from those groups. i see a lot of rlly young people who don’t know the context of these jokes making them and y’all need to reevaluate.
ppl don’t make those jokes bc “it’s funny to make fun of those groups and they deserve it,” that’s a dangerous attitude to take. those jokes are specifically made to critique White Priviledged Perspectives, compulsory heterosexuality, etc.
young people see these jokes that people make in context and they catch on and start doing the same thing, except without the context and it’s not good, y’all. things like “can white people shut up” “can straight people shut up” are meant to be used when someone is being obnoxious about their privilege or obtuse about someone else’s lack of privilege.
and yet i sometimes see that attitude bleeding into things that have nothing to do with that privilege context. it’s annoying, it’s wrong and it should stop. as a WOC who is cishet, i see both sides of this, the sides of the minority and that of the majority, and it’s not good.
it creates an “us and them” approach, it alienates allies, and while i agree and know that allyship should not be conditional to an oppressed group being nice to allies, of course i do, i also would never alienate a white or male ally like that. don’t get me wrong, i enjoy the occasional in-context chuckle at men or white people, but not out of context, and not constantly.
“us and them” approaches are so dangerous and so discordant with intersectionality- constantly making ooc (out of context) jokes about straight people works against bipoc straight, trans straights; ooc jokes about white people work against lgbtq+ and otherly disadvantaged white people; etc, etc. dissing m/f relationships works against bi and pan people, etc, etc.
a good example is “men are trash.” This is an acceptable statement in the context that it is often used in, which is against the patriarchy, against widespread misogyny, etc. however, actually just saying “men are trash” without the attached context is bad. a 12-year-old who sees people making “men are trash” jokes on the internet will probably not understand the history and context behind this. they will just think “men are trash” and not know and probably not question why, and that hurts lgbtq+ men, it hurts male victims of assault, and fuck it it hurts straight white cis boys too.
although it’s important for minorities to be able to make these in-context jokes without being burned at the stake, it’s also important for majority kids growing up to see that there is a way to be good. yes, i know that minority kids also need to see this. that’s a different issue.
a white kid who grows up seeing white person jokes without knowing context is either going to start hating the people who make these jokes or hating themselves, and both are not good!
i’m not saying that people should be congratulated for being allies or for not being shitty majority people, and i’m not saying reverse racism or heterophobia is real, they aren’t, but i do think a lot of y’all need to cool it a little bit with the majority jokes.
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[ cw: f-slur, rape mention ]
no reblogs pls. this is a long vent.
haha not to be a hysterical faggot crippled shut-in freak or anything but the way ppl talk abt the defensiveness around the f-slur that some gay/bi male users (and some transfem users) on here as if it's some kind superiority pissing contest thing and not primarily about...respecting the boundaries and experiences of those gay/bi male (and transfem) users. like...being on this site as a fag-adjacent person (i say that half-jokingly because it sounds silly on one hand but on the other that's the most accurate descriptor of my gender identity, lol) is becoming increasingly draining and upsetting with how "progressive" homophobia against gay/bi men is apparently becoming, like, a meme among lgbtq people and that's acceptable somehow bc lgbtq people aren't cishets or because it's "only online" and therefore doesn't matter.
like idgaf abt ppl who aren't gay/bi men (or transfem) using the f-slur in every single context possible. if they're affectionately referring to their gay/bi male (or transfem) friends with that word (so long as said friends are comfortable with it) that's one thing. who cares. i even rb'd something where a cis butch (iirc) lesbian was talking about a gay man she knew who she was affectionatly calling a faggot and the things she said warmed my heart. if they're throwing it around at every opportunity or using it as an edgy insult against random strangers on the internet, that's another. the users on here who do the latter also regularly display behavior that like...shows a pretty clear disdain for gay/bi men (or transfem ppl) not apart of their online or "irl" circlejerks and echo chambers, and that is in no way disconnected from their love of using the f-slur, lol.
the "it's only online and so it's unimportant uwu go outside" thing also really feels like such a spit in the face as someone who both lives in a rural area full of cishet white men with guns that might try to kill me if i walked out of the house in drag (not to mention i live with my bf and his family and his parents are homophobes themselves i'm sure), and is also someone with health issues that usually keep me at home and in bed when i'm not working. i didn't always live here but even in my hometown the only "lgbtq space" i had was the high school GSA which didn't do shit other than the day of silence and was attended by people i did not feel safe around (e.g. my ex-friend who was very emotionally manipulative and ended up raping someone.) i don't have any other lgbtq spaces to go to other than online ones. if i never joined tumblr i might still be a self-hating cishet girl, or i might be dead, who knows. like, i've accepted at this point that personhood isn't something i'm allowed in (outside of my whiteness) so fuck me i guess if we need to but the idea that other young, impressionable, and/or traumatized lgbtq people who only can meet other lgbtq people and learn about lgbtq things online for whatever reason don't deserve to have us make an effort on cultivating internet spaces that are as accessible and safe for them as possible, or that their experiences and feelings are somehow unimportant is just...vile. like ofc not everyone needs to "pander" to "logged on" disabled fags like myself maybe but if you have any kind of large following on social media maybe consider that the things you say and do on said social media have like...an actual effect on other people instead of pretending that it's "just online" and therefore consequences for your actions either don't matter enough (to you personally) or somehow don't exist.
but going back to the fag thing, most popular lgbtq tumblr users on my dash i see nowadays just...simply do not give a shit whatsoever about gay/bi men, to the point they're normalizing "progressive" and "acceptable" homphobia against us bc they've convinced themselves due to the bigotry some gay/bi men (often cis, white, and wealthy mind you) exhibit we are "the cishets of the lgbtq community," despite horrific violence still being committed against us every day and despite other lgbtq people being capable of engaging in that violence themselves. ppl make thinly veiled jokes and memes where the punchline is men having sex with each other or effeminacy as if those things aren't primary avenues for gay/bi men being abused, assaulted, and killed (including acts of abuse and assault of a sexually-driven nature), as if said jokes and memes don't serve to normalize the mentalities that drive homophobic hate crimes. it's not like...a coincidence that most lgbtq people who makes these jokes aren't gay/bi men (or transfem). this doesn't even get into how things like homophobia and anti-effeminacy can pretty much boot certain gay/bi men from manhood...or womanhood...or any place in gender altogether.
call me exlusionary if you want but i think it's fair to say that the chances of people who aren't gay/bi men (or transfem*) facing the repurcussions of those mentalities in any meaningful way, the chances of these people actually having lived as or going to live as "faggots" is any meaningful sense is slim to none, and that's why they're so comfortable participating in this shit, and that's why i'm triggered(tm) by them "reclaiming" faggot (which doesn't really involve reclamation bc calling random strangers on the internet or gay/bi men you hate a slur isn't reclamation you morons), because frankly if you're not apart of either of those groups, you're just not a fucking faggot. it's not your word just because some rando on overwatch called you it for picking hanzo in comp. period. end of story. it's also just extremely absurd to try and claim faggotry as something you experience while...readily and happily engaging in homophobia and fag-hate (which isn't synonymous with the former term but i'm talking abt ppl who probably seldom ever engage which discussions and theory surrounding how homophobia instrumentates itself in society - or at least that which doesn't conform to their worldview). within the gay/bi male community there's plentu of masc "straight-acting" gays who weaponize this shit against fem gays and they (should) get held accountable in the same way. you're not special.
and god, being told my gendered experiences as a fag-adjacent person where (white) cafab women are fully capable of engaging in social forms of "oppression" against me and other fags in undeniably gendered ways is somehow an outlier and therefore not reflective of broader social by (white) masc urbanite tbros with definitively more social standing than i'll ever have in my life, as if i somehow developed this understanding of gendered violence just based off my own life and not...the reported and sometimes even recorded experiences of countless other fags who get mocked and silenced because anything that deviates from a watered down, shoddy cis feminist take on gender is fake news(tm) or bordering on saying misandry exists (like no it doesn't exist but acting as if homophobic shit like anti-sodomy laws, for example, has zero to do with gay/bi men's manhood is just nonsensical). convos on here abt gender being mostly dominated by (white) cafab women or sometimes (white) masc trans guys is such a mistake lmao.
anyway i'm tired and stressed and pretty done with having "acceptable" homophobic shit shoved in my face on a daily basis both online and offline but nevertheless i must persist because i'm not lucky enough to have anywhere else to go, really. just...think critically abt ur actions regarding gay/bi male sexuality and gender-stuff pretty please. please.
( *disclaimer just in case that i definitely don't see transfems as some "type" of gay/bi men. there are transfems who identify with gay/bi manhood and/or faggotry. there are transfems who don't. that's entirely up to them. thank u. )
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the last of us part 2 opinions that no one asked for but i need to get out of my system !!SPOILERS!!
i literally don’t give a shit if the story is for you or not, art is subjective. BUT i think that there are some fundamental misunderstandings about what makes a good game or not?? idk you’re welcome to disagree but people are throwing around a lot of “i didn’t like it, therefore it is bad” ideas & it’s not sitting right with me. there’s gonna be spoilers in this post you’ve been warned.
i loved this game. it challenged me and even though it has its issues, it was still really good it still made me think and feel things so some of these reviews have seriously made me go ??!??!?!?!??
if you didn’t like tlou2 and want to argue with people that did like it about how bad a game it is i’m not going to do that,, you can go play the first game again i’m not stopping you from not liking and not playing this game. this is simply my perception of the game and the most common criticisms i’ve seen.
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if the only reason you don’t like the game is because boohoo they killed my favourite character,, literally as someone who has had the majority of my favourite characters die, they didn’t disrespect joel by killing him & ppl being THIS babyish about it & calling for them to rewrite the whole story is immature and embarrassing as fuck. that’s my biggest problem with the “fanbase” right now, we all knew that joel did a bad thing in saving ellie and we know that he’s done a ton of bad things before that, remember “we’re shitty people, joel, it’s been that way for a long time”?? tess wasn’t wrong, it makes sense that someone someday would come back for him and they did. if that’s what you’re mad about lol get a grip it’s not like we don’t see him throughout the whole game. (also i thought we all knew he was gonna die from the first trailer anyway) (also also did you guys not pick up on it when there was a song where the first line was “if i ever were to lose you, i’d surely lose myself” they laid out the whole game for you right there lmao)
things i’ve seen in reviews repeatedly that didn’t sit right:
1) joel and tommy wouldn’t have trusted abby.
joel and tommy have been living in a close knit community for four years with friends and family, there’s already a false sense of security. as far as they know, this is just a group passing through, they had no reason at all to believe that there was any malicious intent after not only saving abby but abby returning the favour and helping them out. they’ve never met them before, up until ‘the moment’ they’re very nice and welcoming, they also needed abby to trust them if they were all going to get out of that mess of infected alive. (ppl also forget that in the first game joel was, although hesitant, still perfectly willing to trust and travel with people, including henry and sam, who were kids just like this group so don’t play the ‘first game’ card)
2) ellie should have killed abby.
you’re seriously trying to tell me that killing abby would magically cure ellie of her ptsd??? if you weren’t blinded by your love of joel you’d know that’s not true lol literally the point is that killing her wouldn’t bring joel back it would only leave lev alone and vulnerable like ellie was and the meaningless violence would continue. literally none of the killing the characters did in this game made them feel remotely better, that’s the point. abby moved on from her pain by finding lev and looking after him, not by killing joel, just like ellie needs to begin to heal, not kill abby. if you wanted that fight to have a choice of whether you could kill abby or not i could POSSIBLY accept that but i would absolutely choose to spare abby every time. that last fight didn’t feel right anyway imo, i wanted to let her go before they even started.
3) ellie should have ended up with dina.
this game is shouting at your face that your actions have consequences!! no other ending made sense, if ellie killed abby and went back to find dina & jj still at the farm waiting for her there would be no lesson learned and no character growth!!
3) you shouldn’t have played as abby.
this is a grey one to me, i absolutely think you should play as abby but i think that the order was a little off, no one would be rooting for her over ellie after she killed a favourite character but if you have an open mind abby’s section of the game is really really fun and has some of the best moments in the game. i have some thoughts about what i personally think would have been super cool and i’m going to put it at the end of this post on the off chance that someone reads it but i totally get why they did it the way they did and it worked very well from abby’s day 2 onwards!!
4) it’s too violent?????
tell me what i’m missing here??? nd was as transparent as possible that this is a violent game centred around revenge and hatred that would feature brutal violence, smart ai and devastating cutscenes. yet there are people complaining that the game is too violent WHILE describing how bad they want to fuck up abby???? i understand not enjoying the violence, i wasn’t too bothered bc i’m pretty desensitised & i use way more stealth anyway but there were moments when it didn’t feel right & that’s okay?? that’s what they warned us about???
5) it’s just pushing an agenda, it’s too sjw.
people exist that are not male, white, straight and cis. stop crying about it.
i know no one will read this but i had a thought about a way to order the story to connect more with abby & needed to put it somewhere:
ok imagine for a minute if they had marketed it as a spinoff not a new game with new characters & no ellie or joel. you start as abby from her first day in seattle, forget everything before that for now!! imagine playing from there through to day 3 as normal, there are some very vague references to her dad dying and to her finally finding the killer but nothing that’s a giveaway for who her dad was or what happened in jackson. then we get to day 3 and that sniper scene (which was fuckin spectacular btw) and we see that it’s tommy there and it’s like ??!??!?!?!!??!? but we have to let it go for now to move the story on until we get to the theatre and we see eLLIE ?!???!??!?!!?!!?!!!!? and that’s where it cuts off and we go back and play as ellie and we see what abby did
i’m not a writer and i know that there would be problems with doing it that way but wouldn’t it be such a plot twist if we had been playing as abby from the start and connected with her and her friends more before finding out that ellie and tommy are even in the game never mind on their way to kill us??? i get why they didn’t do that though lol no one would have played it.
anyway this post isn’t attacking people for not liking the game or thinking that there are issues, this post is specifically about the people that claim that it’s objectively a bad game because they personally don’t like it.
here are some fuckin good awe-worthy moments that people are conveniently forgetting about:
- this is personal but tommy is one of, if not my favourite character, at least to me he’s one of the most interesting so seeing jeffrey pierce get more screentime was a big win for me!!
- jesse, yara and lev are DELIGHTFUL i love them v v much
- the museum i cried so much it’s so cute
- the acting!!?!?!?? especially ashley, the scene where ellie forced the truth out of joel is my favourite scene in either game acting-wise it BROKE me
- i said it before but the sniper scene was incredible
- the rat king!!! i'm a wimp it was so scary but man that reveal was fantastic
- abby’s fear of heights,, HELLO that scene on the bridges!!! i’m not scared of heights but it really got me
- the hotel!! how does nd manage to make hotels so scary
- the switch between playable characters was a plot twist and a half!!!! i gasped it was so unexpected i loved it!!!
- actually showing that the characters aren’t invincible and struggle with what they’ve been through,, showing ellie’s ptsd was so important!!!!
- ok idk why but the scene in the first game with david in the restaurant makes me so nervous every time,, i start shaking and sometimes i cry when i finish it bc that’s the definition of horror to me i HATE it it’s too scary. so when i got to that parallel with ellie and abby at the theatre and ellie was ‘the david’ of that encounter i had to sit and think about it for a long time, that scene shook me and i love nd for doing that!!
there’s probably more but this is already the longest post i’ve ever made & i’m tired (i’m not the best at getting my points across as well so if there’s anything that’s worded weirdly that’s on me)
#the last of us#the last of us part two#the last of us part 2#tlou#tloup2#tlou part 2#tlou2#the last of us 2#ellie#joel#naughty dog#abby#the last of us part 2 spoilers#the last of us part ii spoilers#the last of us 2 spoilers#tlou2 spoilers#tloup2 spoilers#spoilers#the last of us part ii#ashley johnson#troy baker
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masterajcrowley replied to your post “I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but that one post with Crowley being called...”
I saw that but wait... I’m trans-F2M. When I had my kids I hadn’t come to terms with my gender identity yet. Now, my kids are grown and I have come out as male. My kids still call me mom. I was their mom for so long- I still am and always will be. Crowley, being genderfluid, may let the child make the call on ‘mama’ or ‘daddy’ or whatever. You don’t have to be male to be dad or female to be mom.
it’s a little cartoon where Crowley’s toddler wants ice cream and performs their first ‘Temptation’. It’s actually pretty cute!
ooh omg it was the comic I reblogged lmao proves that I have 0 reading skills at times lmao I hate myself
I totally get what you’re saying. Everyone is different and has their preferences. There are many people like you out there. I’m really sorry, and I’ll take down the ask.
I do just want to say, for some context about the ask, it does make a lot of people really hesitant of some content bc tbh not a lot of people (lately) handle writing Crowley and Aziraphale as being genderfluid “well” to a lot of us (of course, not everyone! There is some really good content).
There’s a lot of genitals=gender attitude in some recent content since the initial hype died down, and it’s like... people have the right spirit, but there’s weird tropes developing that just don’t sit right with a lot of people (myself included). I can get into it in detail at a different point if anyone is interested. And one thing that people do when they write these tropes is call Aziraphale or Crowley “mom” when they birth a child. Which isn’t automatically terrible! There’s some super great people who do it! But it’s sort of like a red flag anymore bc so many creators without the tact/knowledge to write trans characters have done it so much.
Basically, people are like “just because someone birthed a child (meaning: has a uterus) doesn’t mean they’ll just suddenly use fem pronouns.” Especially since there are non-binary terms for parents such as zaza.
The comic was cute! I loved the idea of “baby’s first temptation!” I’m going to delete that ask. It’s not right to judge a creator on one work without knowing why they made a choice in one piece of work. It also invalidates experiences of some trans men--including yourself. I should have never published it.
I’m sure that anon had good intentions as well, but we shouldn’t have just claimed that an artist is 1) straight and cis and 2) had ill intentions. We really do need to start examining content as a whole/creator as a whole before we throw out accusations.
Thank you so much for reaching out to me! <3
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hello friends , my name is peach and this is my lil baby atlas ! i also play scout , just so y’all know that i have two lil demons floating around. anyway , please feel free to shoot me a message if you wanna plot or give this a like and i’ll message you !
aron piper. cis male. he / him. have you run into atlas wolff around the bay ? they’re a twenty - three year old local who’s currently a bartender. they always seem to remind people of broken glass on the floor , wandering the streets late at night , & empty promises. i wonder if it’s because of their indifferent yet intriguing nature. if you’re looking for them, try beans & books ; i heard they’re there a lot. & muse 3b.
first & really only thing that you need to know about atlas is that he has big stupid energy. comes off as an asshole but he’s not that bad , just a little closed off & secluded until you get to know him. i always write long as fuck intros so i’m gonna try to keep this short & sweet !
𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒.
full name : atlas james wolff
nickname : aj.
age : twenty - three.
zodiac : sagittarius.
occupation : bartender at aces + another bar out of town.
orientation : pansexual / panromantic.
languages spoken : english , spanish , german.
𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 / 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘. triggers include : cheating , alcohol abuse , general assholery.
atlas was born to a german - american father and a spanish mother who met while they were traveling. when atlas was born , they had recently gotten everything cleared to move to the states & settled in turquoise bay which was near where his dad has found work. atlas grew up speaking three different languages at home & traveled to europe a lot to see his family in spain & germany.
growing up , atlas looked up to his dad who is , to put it lightly , a big jerk. definitely not the best man to look up to but he was atlas’ main influence & he was raised to respect him and look up to him.
when atlas was around twelve he found out his dad had been unfaithful to his mom numerous times but they only found out because one of the times resulted in a half sibling. turns out that one once of his traveling trips for work , his dad ended up sleeping with someone who had a baby , and decided to show up to turquoise bay. his dad did leave temporarily to be with the mother of his half sibling , but ended up coming right back to his mom when atlas was about sixteen.
the families made some type of agreement & have done holidays together ever since & are seemingly civil , but atlas definitely holds some resentment because his mom took him back but he’s made a turnaround since then. however , has never really been a fan of his half - sibling or their mom.
as far as his own direction in life , atlas never really knew what he wanted to do. started college but never finished and ended up becoming a bartender just to have something going for him.
wants to go to college for business & open his own bar , but hasn’t done anything to make that happen yet.
recently moved out of his parents house & in with finn & cam because he was tired of being at home but didn’t want to live alone because he would definitely go crazy in his own head.
personality wise , he comes off as an asshole. straight up you’ll think he’s a huge jerk. however ! he just takes a little while to crack & once you get to know him he’s stupid a big stupid idiot. very lovable & fun to be around , you just have to be patient.
very opinionated but not judgmental ; he’ll tell you how he feels but he won’t judge just bc he doesn’t agree.
not super big into partying , but he knows how to throw a good party. was probably more into partying in high school.
loves to dance ??? idk why this is important but if you put music on , he’ll dance. i’m not saying he’s good at it. but he will.
player guitar & piano which a lot of people don’t know about !
a clumsy man. idk why. he’s just clumsy as fuck.
this boy cannot keep a promise to save his life. not maliciously but like , he said he’ll call u tonight ? he won’t. he said he won’t forget ? he does.
i’m sure there’s more but this is already late so here u go !
𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.
the summer fling that i have listed on the main.
his half sibling which will also be listed on the main.
any type of previous exes because i’m messy. maybe specifically an ex that cheated ( or a hook up that used him to cheat ? ) because he would hate that and i’m messy pt. 2.
previous of current friends with benefits.
someone that doesn’t like him bc they never bothered to get past his asshole exterior.
someone that he doesn’t like for any reason.
a best friend ! maybe since they were babies bc i love that shit.
anything ?? anyone ?? idk man.
anyone who frequents ace lounge !
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hello i’m back with another senior citizen and i am incredibly sorry .. i finished s3 of ozarks n couldn’t help myelf :/// but ANYWAYS this is gabriel taylor, laura’s shitty dad ! uwu
basics
✎⌠jason bateman. cis male. he/him⌡❝ — well, look who’s just arrived ! if it isn’t the one and only gabriel taylor. though, around here they’re known as the fortress. don’t tell ‘em i said this but the fifty-one year old lawyer kinda has a reputation of being cold and enigmatic. but y’know, they can be driven and astute too. typical capricorn. anyways, welcome home and stay safe gabe ! ❞
statistics
full name: gabriel jebediah taylor
nickname(s): gabe, sometimes
date of birth: january 7th, 1970
hometown: misty hollow, connecticut.
gender identity: cis gender
preferred pronouns: he/him
sexual orientation: heterosexual
hogwarts house: slytherin
aesthetic: crisp collars, silver tie pins, the smell of fresh laundry, hollow smiles, always a handshake, never a hug, leather briefcase always on hand, a glass of single malt scotch, perfect posture, the sound of waves softly lapping at the shore, thunderstorms with no rain.
distinguishable characteristics: always Clean
their song from the sigh no more album bc i love this album and it makes me Sad™ : dust bowl dance
background ( emotional, physical abuse tw )
born and raised in misty hollow, gabriel’s family has relatively deep roots within the town. the man comes from old money, with all the law firms he owns having been passed down from generation to generation. his father was a part of this business and his mother, on the other hand, is your typical southern belle, moved here from a small town in texas. she was a corporate lawyer ( it’s how she met gabriel’s father ) but since becoming a mother she really has had no interests in any other occupation other than trophy wife and socialite.
to say that gabriel’s parents were old school would be putting it lightly. basically, both of his parents were deeply religious republicans and were very aware of their image as a family. they were harsh parents, extremely controlling when it came to their children’s lives but at the same time were also really emotionally absent. to this day they still believe that it was all in the name of tough love but obviously it was just emotional abuse.
his father was especially hard on gabriel, he was a strong believer in physical discipline and thought gabriel to be too “soft”. he was always berating him, punishing him for petty offences, and pretty much just fostering your typical environment of toxic masculinity. though he never laid a hand on gabriel’s sister as she was what he called, “a lady” and his “pride and joy.”
but gabriel was a good kid, he was obedient aside from stupid mistakes that kids are bound to make. he was your typical golden boy, a jack of all trades of sorts. not exceptionally good at one thing, but averagely good at a multitude of things. he was a quick learner and dedicated, anything he took a crack at, he eventually excelled in. but all those opportunities he was given as a child; being able to practice multiple instruments, getting extra coaching and tutoring in activities of his choice — definitely gave gabriel a leg up among his peers.
throughout high school, he mostly kept to himself, choosing to focus on his education and after graduating, he went to harvard where he earned a dual degree in business and law and carried on through with law school. the plan was to move to boston where the business’ main office was and work for his father, making his way up until he was ready to inherit it all himself.
ok this is where things get shoddy cause everything from above is part of an old intro so if this doesn’t make sense dont look at me ndfjsndjk but i imagine this is where gabe met his future wife ? i don’t want to set anything in stone for when that role gets picked up but ! gabe’s always been .. well-meaning, for a lack of a better word. like in the beginning he initially wanted to go into criminal law and become a prosecutor before his dad pressured him into staying in corporate. these good intentions were really able to develop during his time away from home, i think. he was able to develop his own opinions and views, different from his parents.
but gabriel’s always lived to serve and aims to please, giving himself to others until there’s nothing left. and he still has this really messed up view of his relationship with his parents, especially his dad. it’s just something he’s never been able to shake. out loud, he would never utter a word against them and in his head, he’s justified his father’s actions, forcing himself to think of it in a way that made it okay because putting his actions under any other sort of light would have felt like he was betraying him.
and while he didn’t have the same dreams and ideologies as his father, gabriel felt as if there was really no choice other than to adapt. it’s what’s been expected of him since he was born. so, he poured himself into his work despite hating every minute of it, his pride preventing him to be the one to drive generations of hard work into the ground. and gabriel was good at it, like really good. and he let himself believe he loved what he did, associating the feelings of success with enjoyment.
and in regards to his own family, i think that things in the beginning were good and almost picturesque, y’know? like the vision of a white-picket-fence type of family. but as the years went on, the more time he spent working with his father and the family business, he subconsciously allowed his father’s habits and tendencies into his own head. He succumbed to his parents’ influences and allowed their ideas of success and vision for his and his family’s future to become his own.
and i think one day gabriel looked in the mirror and straight up did not like what he saw. he’s fully aware of the mistakes he’s made in the past and he feels the heft of those mistakes everyday, but what is he supposed to do now ? it’s too late, he’s too far in. and so gabe did what he does best, he compartmentalized and began distancing himself from the family. spending more time at the office than at home because the farther you are away from people, the less likely you are to hurt them right ?
personality
i’m gonna keep this loose cause i’ve noticed i tend to diverge from them a bit when i actually start playing my muses !
but gabriel is the fakest mf you’ll ever meet. all smiles and formalities, he’s like a goddamn politician i hate it. but i think if he were ever to let this decades long charade fall, everything just falls apart for him, y’know? his emotional sitch is like a house of cards, everything being perfectly curated and placed
he’s incredibly loyal to his family, he’d do anything to protect his family. and like sure, he loves them more than anything, but i think this loyalty comes more so out of duty than love, y’know ?
smart as a whip, always calculating and very cunning. the dude’s a shark in the courtroom and has he done morally questionable things to win a case? probably
idk i think... gabriel as a whole is a moral grey area. i rlly do love him and this version of him is always fun to play but we ! shall see !
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⌠JUSTICE SMITH, 22, (CIS) MALE, HE/HIM/HIS ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, JEROME ZIMMERMAN! according to their records, they’re a SECOND year, specializing in MEDICAL TRAINING + RESEARCH AND DEVELOPMENT; and they DID go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of (a shirt buttoned up to the top and tucked in perfectly to his khakis, various colored d&d dice rolled on top of a table, and a leather jacket he bought to look "cool"). when it’s the (capricorn)’s birthday on 1/03/1998, they always request their GRILLED CHEESE ON WHEAT BREAD from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation. - @gallagherintro
hahaha here with my 5th baby!! i hope you all like him bc he’s a huge nerd and the opposite of our favorite himbo
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a shirt buttoned up to the top and tucked in perfectly into his khakis, various colored d&d dice rolled on top of a table, a messenger bag filled with assignments, a first aid kit always on his person, over 40 tabs open of different mangas, cooking mama being played on a grey ds, and a leather jacket that he bought to look “cool”
“Welcome to Gallagher, Mr. Zimmerman. Are you excited to start your second year, here?”
He didn’t answer her at first, his eyes wondering around the halls. He asked for a tour instead of sitting and talking inside of the office. Simply because he wanted to get a good look at what Gallagher had to offer. And as of now, it was a lot better than Blackthorne. “Yeah, I am,” Jerome finally answered, now making eye contact with the older woman. “I’ve always heard that Gallagher was better than Blackthorne, and I believed it, trust me, but to really see it? It’s refreshing.”
“I’m glad that you find it refreshing, Mr. Zimmerman and we do apologize for whatever you experienced back in Blackthorne during your first year.”
Jerome let out a humorless chuckle with the shrug of his shoulders. “I mean, it’s not like any of you forced me to go. And I could’ve left anytime, either dropped out or transferred but I stayed.” Because he believed that things would get better after his first year, or maybe he didn’t want to disappoint his mom by dropping out. And if there was one thing he hated doing, it was disappointing his mother. “But it’s whatever, I’m here now and I’m happy to be here.”
“We’re happy to have you here,” she told him. “I will say that I’m surprised that you wanted a tour instead of having our interview in my office. Did you not want to explore the grounds alone?”
“And get lost? No thank you.” When first moving into Gallagher, he could already tell that he was going to wind up lost. His curiosity would’ve gotten the best of him and lead him somewhere that was not his final destination. “Do you guys have a map of the campus? If not, you should make one. This place isn’t huge but it looks like there’s a lot, ya’ know? I’m sure that incoming freshmen and the Blackthorne students would appreciate it. I know that I would. I like using maps, well, Google Maps but it’s still the same. I feel like paper maps would confuse me.” He paused, thinking about what he said. “Which basically contradicts me saying that you all should make a map. You know what, forget everything that I just said, okay?”
“Alright then, Mr. Zimmerman,” was her only reply, not even batting an eye at his rambling. “During this time we ask the students to tell us about themselves. Why don’t you do that.”
“Yeah, that sounds easy.” He cleared his throat and fixed the tie that he was wearing, as if he was going to give a presentation. “Hi, I’m Jerome Zimmerman, an incoming second year and I already love this place better than Blackthorne.” Was he really Jerome if he didn’t constantly shit talk Blackthorne? “Studying medical training and research and development. I’m more of the behind the scenes and eat chips in the van while the main character kicks ass type of guy. And then patch him up later after he opens the door all banged up.” He could basically see that as his future and he was into it. “I’m a hardcore gamer. Cooking Mama and Pokemon Platinum are where it’s at. You know, people used to judge me a lot for playing Cooking Mama but I never understood why. Like, think about it, she has taught many people how to cook while making it fun. How could someone ever bully someone over this game? We all played it growing up..”
The boy just kept talking as they continued the tour. And the poor office worker was already done with his constant rambling but said nothing. She just nodded her head and hummed as a reply, hoping that all of this would end soon.
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MEET ELLA’S COUSIN Y’ALL / they used to be best buds but had a falling out rip / lives with his mother who’s legit his best friend / a fucking nerd who plays d&d and likes anime, fucking weeb / shit talks blackthorne a lot (just gonna say that both him and emmett DO NOT get along and that emmett for sure punched him in the face) / can’t fight for shit so uh he better stop shit talking / our pan king (srry harpoon, you’re the only straight child) / “uh yeah, of course i’m a true gamer” *shows him playing cooking mama on his ds* / rambles a lot and like not in a cute way like sunny or naomi / book smart but not streets smart
wanted connections
a blackthorne boy he could call his friend: you know, he could never bring himself to trust anyone because it’s blackthorne. but this guy? was someone that he hung out with a lot and could just be normal around. he felt safe with this person.
someone who he went to spy prep school with: ya know, just someone that he could’ve been like “oh my god, you’re here too? what’s up.” as if they were close. i’m sure they weren’t because he’s awkward and doesn’t know how to hang onto friends.
a fellow weeb who becomes a close friend: the two came to found out that they like anime and have dedicated two hours once a week to watch anime together. before they know it, the two went from just meeting once a week, to hanging out after class, getting lunch, and sharing personal information. it’s kinda cute, ya’ know?
ex-blackthorne students who HATES him: he talked a lot shit, for sure about the school and about some of the students. emmett already hates him, give me more people!
someone who’s helping train him fighting wise: he can’t fight so of course he needs someone to help him. GIVE ME PEOPLE WHO PITY HIM AND TRY TO HELP OUT THIS LOSER.
idk homies, throw any and everything at me
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Agree w/ the anons with those little special moments bookmarked. Mine is definitely Chapter 14 when T jerks off over C's breasts (and can't forget chpt 4 premature kids. Love that.) Looking forward to the prequel. I really appreciate when authors depict the feels of the penis owning member bc often times it's just the feelings of the vag owner. I really love those descriptions of the sensitivity of a dick. Thanks from a nicely shafted anon ;)
Dear “nicely shafted anon”,
I’ve sat with your message in my inbox for a few days now. It’s possible that I know who you are, since your message delivered in a close time frame after a male Tumblr user followed me. Though it’s also possible that this person isn’t you, and I could have it all wrong, which has been the overwhelming brunt of inner-confusion that’s taken place in me as I’ve tried to figure out how to respond to this message.
I’ve been trying to process my feelings, been trying to deal with the empathy, confusion, and frustrating anger that’s taken place in my gut since I read your message.
Afterglow is a story for everyone. Let me make that clear. I would never discourage anyone, male or not, from reading my story. But I can’t shake the lingering discouragement that I give myself when I consider that my story is being used as a jerk-off companion for a dude that’s solely seeking it out to read wlw smut. It’s possible that wlw smut is better for you than lesbian porn. I get that. It’s gross- but I get it. WoSo fic writers are very talented with what they do, so I guess I could see the appeal. Though my only question is- what room does a male have in a space created by women for women? What business does a male have, reading queer-women content, if not solely to substitute it for lesbian pornography? Is fanfiction more accurate? Is it more emotional and realistic? Is it hotter? Is it sought after because it offers an inkling of a glimpse into the (honestly) magic and otherworldly connection that women are capable of having with other women? This reminds me of that scene from Blue Is The Warmest Colour (another female creative space tarnished by a male) where some dude describes his jealousy of knowing that he will never experience a female orgasm in a lesbian relationship. Is that why you read?
What’s disheartening, to me, is that my own anxiety over your intentions with my story has taken the joy and creative exploration out of writing smut or answering questions that relate to my intersex character, because it’s so difficult to shake the feeling that the words I am writing and the questions I am responding to are helping you get yourself off- nevermind the other 175,000 (and counting) words of a complex, beautiful, conundrum of a love story that I’ve tried to create for my readers. It’s disheartening- the thought that my story, and other M-rated F/F stories in this fandom, are something so easily available to a male who will use it solely for their unfulfilled pleasure. I find myself grossed out at my own words. I find myself staring blankly at a word document, nauseous that the scenes I’d wanted to write and the moments between my characters I’d wanted to describe are no longer sexy and fun and worth it to me.
I want to be angry with you because this is what men, specifically straight cis-men, do. Right? They approach a space not meant for them, especially if it involves queer-women content, and they use it for their own benefit. So many times in my life has my own body, my own creativity and that of my friends- my work, my passion, my voice, my sexuality, my mind, my drive, my energy, my desire, my whole fucking life- honestly, has been used and spun outside of my control by a man that sees how well I depict the “feels” of a penis instead of how well I try to describe love, growth, energy and pleasure of a two-characters meant to ride off into the sunset together.
What’s destabilizing, what gives me empathy for you, is the knowledge that you likely had no fuckin’ idea the type of turmoil your message caused. You don’t understand how currently, it’s difficult for me to write these characters having sex without picturing you opening up my chapter and scrolling past hours of my hard work until you find the scenes you’re looking for.
Queer women have this innate protective mechanism, when our spaces are invaded by men, to shrug it off. To say, “Oh, this is just what happens. I’m not going to let myself get angry because it’s not worth it. It’s better if I just let it go.” I’ve done this more times than I can count, and I bet you there isn’t a single Queer woman on the face of this planet who doesn’t understand what I’m talking about. Fuuuuck that, though. I don’t think I’m comfortable shrugging it off anymore. Afterglow, while open for everyone to read, is not something created for you to jerk off to. And female authors probably describe the feelings of a vagina more often because we can’t even graduate high school without a man talking about his dick every five minutes. Female authors probably describe the feelings of a vagina because we’re pretty damn tired of hearing about males not understanding how to work them properly.
Now, I’m not going to let your comment put me off of my own story. That would be morbidly unfair to not only myself, but the women who read it for their own pleasure, whether that be for the love story itself or for the smut. From now on, however, I think we’ll probably shift in a direction of smut more catered to “the feelings of the vag owner”.
It’s not my intention to keep you from reading my story, but I sure hope that if you keep reading F/F stories in the Woso community, for whatever reason it may be that you read them- you understand that they were not created with the intent for you as an audience, so please don’t gross our authors out by sending them vulgar messages.
Without respect, but with compassion,
-M
#tcafterglow
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『ANTON THIEMKE ❙ CIS-MALE』 ⟿ looks like JAMES MARLOWE is here for HIS SENIOR year as a FINE ARTS student. He is 21 years old & known to be CLEVER, INVENTIVE, UNRELIABLE & EGOTISTICAL. They’re living in NOLAND, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ SLOTH. 25. EST. SHE/HER.
hi hello welcome 2 my twisted mind ☺️ marlowe is a character i’m still fine-tuning bc he’s brand-new, so this is unfortunately.... a bit of a mess.... and mostly made up on the spot.... c’est la vie!!
(a late addition but u can also peep his weheartit collection here 4 some vibes)
his government name is james marlowe but he only goes by marlowe & only introduces himself as marlowe like he’s madonna or sting.... most ppl who know him (apart from like close friends) probably don’t even know what his first name is. maybe he doesn’t have one!
hails from Appalachia, specifically a trailer park in a poor-as-dirt stretch of Virginia where he was born n raised, baby. he’s Appalachian white trash and not afraid to admit it. marlowe’s very casual about his upbringing and his dumpster fire of a family (no less than three relatives are currently incarcerated, one of which is his older brother who’s probably serving a minor sentence for whatever dumb shit Tim Riggins got got for in FNL or like, selling illegal fireworks out of his trunk :/ ). the only thing he’s a little self-conscious about is his twang which he’s mostly suppressed by now, but other than that, he’s got no shame in where he comes from bc lbr no authentic artist ever came from money anyway!
born sandwiched in the middle of five siblings, marlowe’s always been wild and creative and impulsive, a loud-mouthed kid with too much to say for his own good, prone 2 getting in trouble but learning absolutely nothing from it. it was his mission in life to be Different from all the other kids who grew up where he grew up, with the way he talked, dressed, acted, because he knew that he was destined for bigger n better things so it was just a matter of getting other ppl to believe it, & then seeing how far a little talent and a lot of charisma would take him >:)
from age 8 onwards, he told people he was an “artist” and that became his primary identity. when he was 16 he completed an independent sculpture project (called “Skyscraper”) where he constructed a 20-foot tower made out of junk collected from around the trailer park and then glued Barbies n other dolls all clawing over each other to get to the top, smack dab in the middle of Main Street and refused to take it down even when the local fire department showed up 2 threaten him with fines. it did eventually get taken down bc it was ‘structurally unsound’ and someone nearly got concussed by a falling mannequin head, but at least it got some attention from local newspapers and w/ that as the crown jewel in his portfolio, marlowe got into a few different art/liberal arts schools the following year. radcliffe was the only one who offered a partial scholarship and the east coast sounded nice n far from home, so anyways lets go ✈️ college
FAST FORWARD its senior year babey and marlowe’s been making the most of his time here at radcliffe. he’s a fine arts major but specializes in mixed media sculptures (and probably is really shit at most of his other classes, like art theory where u actually have to read textbooks? still life drawing? boring. yawn. won’t do it.) his entire profile as an artist i’m cribbing from Rachel Harrison bc I saw her exhibition at the whitney a little while ago and her sculptures made me go ?????¿¿¿¿¿ which i think is exactly the kind of bizarre nonsense that marlowe is going for with his “art”. feast your eyes on these masterpieces. the joke of it all is that marlowe is the first to admit that his art isn’t like.... good. but his philosophy is that if people respond to it & praise it like it’s art, then by definition, it’s art. and if it gets him places (like it got him onto Cultured Magazine’s “30 Young Artists To Watch This Decade″ list), then yeehaw!
When he’s not busy creating new monstrosities, marlowe takes one fat nap per day (usually at a time when he has class) and is otherwise a very social creature who needs constant attention. he’s got a lot of friends and is always looking to make more, not in a #fake way but just as a person who genuinely likes being around people. he very quickly gets bored if left on his own, so he’s prone to following people around campus like a stray cat regardless of whether or not they tell him to shoo. he dorms at Noland but is almost always found in other houses, often crashing in other people’s rooms (needs to be close to his friends or He’ll Die), and he definitely frequents parties, bc marlowe never passes up an opportunity to drink other people’s booze and get a lil messy and Chaotic. he’s [jim halpert voice] not a slut, but who knows? he’s kinda a slut! he’s also definitely pulled another stunt similar to Skyscraper by taking over the quad for a guerrilla art installation with his sculptures (and without the school’s permission oops) which may be the basis for some connections if ppl know him from that particular exploit!!
in summary..... marlowe can be a bit up his own ass at times, but being around him is generally a Good Time bc he’s easy-going and friendly and always down for anything, always. litcherally zero impulse control so nothing gets in the way of a dumb idea that might potentially make for a good story. perhaps he’s not the most reliable person, so don’t expect a prompt text back if ur in a life or death situation, and he doesn’t care very much about anything, so ur setting urself up for disappointment if you do expect him to care about something (the fact that he’s never been in a long-term relationship... very telling). all he wants to do is just have! fun all the time! he’s trying to scam his way into the American Dream with his dumb art, so that he can live a good life and maybe get rich and famous and eventually party at Art Basel in Miami with Frank Ocean! is that really so much to ask!
appearance: marlowe’s very vain and a lot of thought goes into his appearance even when (especially when) it doesn’t look like he’s done anything but roll straight out of bed. all of his outfits are as outrageous as his sculptures are ugly. think mismatched prints and loud colors, silk shirts gaping open like he got tired after the first three buttons, a pawn’s shop worth of jewelry, weird dangly earrings w/ feathers or tiny charms, tinted yellow or pink sunglasses, sometimes a bandana around his neck, just for extra flavor. his hair always has to look perfectly tousled; u can catch him checking out his reflection in pretty much every mirrored surface. at least half the surface area of his body is covered in tattoos & he’ll suggest getting more during every drunken night out, which... is why he has so many by now!
connections: to be quite honest its 2 am and i feel all of my higher brain functions shutting down so i’m gonna make these very simple n straightforward, but we can always workshop!!!! pls feel free to message me even if none of these strike ur fancy :0)
peers in the arts - friends, acquaintances, rivals, probably some former group project members holding a grudge....
fellow party animals who don’t mind sharing when marlowe inevitably mooches off their alcohol and drugs :)
unlikely friends!!!!! it’d be fun to have a friendship dynamic with someone who’s very different from him!!
a roommate in Noland... possibly one he’s not on good terms w/... even tho marlowe hardly EVER sleeps in his own dorm room, he uses it as a storage locker for all his “found” art materials. i can imagine that living in that mess would try the limits of anyone’s sanity :)
enemies - they can hate his whole Genius Artist shtick and they’d be valid :/
fellow insomniacs! marlowe is very much a night owl (regular naps during the day may be 2 blame but oh well) so he needs a fellow nocturnal to hit up the late-night McDonald’s drive thru with him and then lay on the grass lookin at the stars and contemplating life’s great mysteries while eating chicken mcnuggets
exes - idk if u can even call them tht when his past “relationships” have all had a lifespan of six weeks or less, but hey there’s drama in that too!!
fwb - i don’t think marlowe’s the type 2 be juggling too many fwb/hook-ups at one time simply because That’s A Lot of Work. that being said... he never likes to sleep alone ;)
#radintro#im working on some gif icons but full disclosure.... they gon be sparse and shitty!#so instead we have this pic where it looks like he passed out on a lawn and woke up w/ shit scribbled all over his face#and u know what? on brand#anyways plot w/ me!!!!!!#about
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Exclus: Aces don’t experience real oppression bc their ace
Me: Really? Because i have personal experience of being abused and assaulted explicitly because i’m ace. By cis het allo perisex people.
Exclus: Well you see thats jsut your experience and- you really shouldn’t bring your trauma card into its not really that common uwuw
Me:really? Because heres a bunch of stories, both online, offline, all antcedotal, but all victims of horrific crimes bc these people are ace
Exclus: well see your assault and abuse didn’t happen the way you remember. Uwu. SO stop bringing it up.
Aces: So you’re gasslighting us now.
Exclus: No we’re not, stop using the terminology of REAL ABUSE VICTIMS
Me: Me and many aces are assaulted heres a bunch of stories
exclus: YES BUT YOU SEE ITS NOT IN AN ACADEMIC JOURNAL IN A QUEER THOERY CLASS
me: Yeah because ace, while it has always been there, has been erased for a long time. Ace as we understand it today is incredibly new, just like how bisexuality, and nonbinary was at one time. Research is being done, its just not very often, and not very popular
Exclus: But you see thats not true bc you’re not queer. No laws abuse you
Me: you’re right, except not really. Studies have shown we are asaulted, and denied housing similar to bi people. We are discriminated against by cishets for not being “enough”. We are queer to them. You do not decide who is welcom in the out group, the group that makes up society does. And society has excluded us from them. So our only option is you, people who are also not straight, not cis.
Exclus: So sexual deviants are just welcome in lgbt spaces now!!
Me: pride has a long history of welcoming kink actually its rather Neat(tm) but to answer your question, no, a cishet perisex woman and her cishet perisex male partner are not queer just bc they do bdsm. But do not ignore the history of lgbtq people.
Exclus (with f*g d*ke or tr*nny somplace on their blog uncensored) ANYWAY I”M GAY NOT QUEER UWU I”M LESBIAN NOT QUEER BI NOT QUEER
Me: Hey that phrased was created by terfs to divde “proper political gays” from trans and “nonpolitical gay” people. It is inheirently transphobic please don’t use it. It divides lgbtq people from their oldest members and that aint cool.
Exclus QUEER IS A SLUR HOW DARE
Me: No ones saying its not. But it is reclaimed, hence why its used in classrooms. Context matters.
Me: exclus mirror biphobic, and terf rhetoric, please be aware that many phrases you use, many ideas you have, come directly from them. no I don’t believe you, a trans person who is bi, is infacta terf, but i do think you are unknowingly parroting them, and i don’t want you to hurt other people with their talking points.
Exclus: WOW HOW DARE YOUC ALL ME A TERF YOU CIS HET
Me: i’m nb and pan.
Exclu: YOU FILTHY CISHET HOW DARE I”M A TRANS PERSON
Me: So am i, please stop rhetoric doesn’t mean you are a terf.
Me: I was doxxed, so was bi woman, by exclus. I’m also a victim of stalking and abuse, so giving out the smallest bit of information about me sets of my PTSD and causes me great stress and pain. I didn’t leave my house for weeks because I was afraid due to this small information given out. i understand this was irrational, but the fact is that it triggered me, caused me great mental and physical pain.
Acey lovely: LMAO LOOK AT THIS IDIOT THEY DON”T kNOw whAT DOXING MEANS
Me; I have been violently stalked and abused. It doesn’t matter that it was one private thing, the fact is the result on my mental, and physical health was the same
Acey lovely: HOW DARE YOU TELL ME YOUR FUCKING TRAUMA I”M A PESRSON TOO
Me:Its hyper relevant that you understand that you are supporting the pain that was caused me. You are now responsible for the fact that I was hurt. Just because it doesn’t seem super bad to you, doesn’t mean for me it wasn’t trigger, caused me unbelievable regression in progress. Years of my mental health and physical health undone in an instant because of one person. You are saying this is okay, and that in fact makes you an abuser.
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