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Something we need to address.

Very strong image for the start of a blog, I admit. Although I have blocked words out for personal reasons. I needed to discuss publicly how although I am anti-harassment, this type of "Callout in tags" and mentions of "complaining" when setting boundaries is absolutely disgusting. I will be writing my horror/thriller fanfic, I even started it when the votes were settled yesterday. But this is my genuine moment of taking a breath in and sighing. I was hesitant over whether I should even talk about this on Tumblr or not but there are very few TeruAoi fanfics on the tag and the fanfics on it are horrible outside of my own. I'd love to see less and less of this type of fanfics. This is the fifth one I see online. You are allowed to disagree with my "joke" headcanon as it all started from a typo which made me gain mutuals, but I like both cis and trans Aoi. Can we start a challenge with fluffy TeruAoi writing? Just one day other writers on the tag write fluff for them. Anything, small drabbles really. Life isn't entirely about sex and smut, I'm not going to dictate what you can and can't read, but please try to provide other types of content. Spamming a tag with an already bad reputation and using my headcanons to directly call me out is simply mean and uncalled for. So I'll create a tag called "TeruAoi challenge" and hopefully, before the end of 2023, other people will have joined in. Thank you, truly. Sincerely, a desperate TeruAoi-er. PS: If you need sfw TeruAoi fanfics, here are all the ones I've proofread or written to make sure they're not problematic in any other way then the original manga. If the writers are horribly problematic, just tell me. One - https://archiveofourown.org/works/35769124 Very little mention of TeruAoi but it parallels HanaNene Two - https://archiveofourown.org/works/37620811/chapters/93907264

The fanfic that made me ship TeruAoi Three - https://archiveofourown.org/works/47864101 Written by one of my old friends, a genuinely sweet fanfic. Four - https://archiveofourown.org/works/48853798/chapters/123241390 Fanfic written by me, it's an alternative universe where both have numerous count kills, and their pretty privileges are always used to their advantage but when put against each other, they are unable to fight. Five- https://archiveofourown.org/works/50115895 When I saw this fic pop, I screamed happily. Six - https://archiveofourown.org/works/50275678 Written by me again, it's just a TeruAoi sleepover with gamer Teru. Seventh - https://archiveofourown.org/works/50809261 This one feeds the TeruAoiKaners but the mentions of TeruAoi in this poly couple is absolutely adorable.

we had to decide whether the ending involved a dead baby or not

(via @nerfherdingteleporter)

i dont think people realize (nor do they care) just how much i want to die sometimes

Not to be sad but Moon Knight and Doctor Strange both being on the same team in Midnight Sons potentially when they both lost younger siblings whose deaths they blame themselves for

No but like. The potential of Marc being presented with someone who's somewhat of an authority figure, a leader. Someone who's blame and guilt are of a similar shape to his, could understand parts of him in a way that not many others could. To show him that he can grow from that, could be better despite it. Could still be a hero, even if he's still not really sure what that means to him yet.

There's just.. a lot there.

before october 7th this blog was a meme page btw.

you know i'm something of a civil engineer myself

we should talk more about cities that are vampires. cities that are cold and wet and sink into your bones and stay there. cities that are hungry and want to live. dead cities that dont know they're dead and suck the life force of their people to maintain the delusion. cities with harbors that are actually mouths; one-way entries. cities that are devastatingly lonely and see consumption as love

i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:

struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings

are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs

have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests

haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential

struggle with personal hygiene

don't have any friends or dating experience

don't go outside much or at all

take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes

have unusual ways of speaking

generally aren't "normal"

Do you guys notice how when Shawn Fain, president of the United Auto Workers union, started planning a general strike, he did it by a) targeting his messaging towards unions with the ability to safely and effectively strike in large numbers, b) laid out a clear, actionable plan for those unions to follow (setting contracts to all expire at the same time, since many unions cannot strike while under contract), c) is using union contracts to set clear, actionable demands that can be met in order to gauge success and provide an end goal, and d) started organizing FOUR YEARS before the proposed strike date to give people the chance to plan accordingly, because it takes a really freaking long time to get tens of millions of people organized?

You notice how he didn't do it by slapping a message on Twitter saying 'hey nobody go to work on Monday, that'll really show 'em'?

my mom: how would you survive a day on only 2 hours of sleep you sleep like 12 hours a day

me, even going 0 hours of sleep some days: 🧍‍♂️

is this what love feels like?

not to be a high elf apologist but ​i have to say it’s actually kinda sweet that old man both expected to see gorgug again and made intentional (albeit goofy) effort to get his name right even if the best that’ll come out of his own mouth is grape nip

i cant get over the ball being so CLEARLY all for crowley i can't get over aziraphale trying to woo him with a WHOLE FUCKING BALL because that's what he knows that's what romance IS for him because he's been wanting to dance with crowley ever since dancing was invented and he's so stuck in time with the way he dresses and talks and he still thinks a dance is the high of romance AND HE MADE A WHOLE ENTIRE FUCKING BALL FOR CROWLEY JUST SO HE COULD DANCE WITH HIM like now it's so fucking obvious he gave away his BOOKS without a second thought and it was all for crowley he organised a whole JANE AUSTEN THEME BALL just so he could have an excuse to finally dance with the love of his life and i can't get over this i'm shaking my fists and pacing up and down he did not give a single fuck about anything other than dancing with crowley and HE BARELY TOUCHED OTHER PEOPLE'S HANDS WHILE HIS WHOLE FUCKING PALM WAS PRESSED TO CROWLEY'S AND i need to lie down

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

happy four seasons total landscaping day to all who celebrate