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#might continue this later idk I’m going out rn
nina-ya · 10 days
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Thinking about virgin Zoro rn and big dick Zoro
Like,,, the first time you have sex with him you’re just struggling to take him and it might be a bit painful taking someone as big as him
So he has this worry in the back of his mind that he’s doing something wrong
After all, this is his first time so he doesn’t really have a reference to go off of
Probably takes him a lot of reassurance from your end that he’s doing great while you’re fighting back tears from being split in half
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genshin-obsessed · 11 months
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When Someone Flirts with You! | Honkai Star Rail
Someone saw this coming and I'm very proud of you for figuring it out. Yeah, I've been getting into star rail and I thought I'd just write since I can't really think of genshin things to write right now lol this is barely edited, so have mercy <3 idk tags rn so please help me out :') ✧ Includes: Dan Heng, Welt, Sampo, Gepard, Jing Yuan, Luocha, Blade ✧ Extra: Luocha and Blade might be ooc, I'm not too familiar with them as of right now. ✧ Come one, come all! See what happens when someone flirts with you in front of your men!
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Dan Heng
Dan Heng is a really private person, he’s not a fan of showing off everything. So he’s not one to flaunt you around, but it’s not hard to tell you’re both in a relationship. He’s around you like… all the time.
He’s not one to follow around like a helicopter boyfriend, but he’s got an eye on you. If he sees someone bothering you, he’s behind them in an instant.
0/10. Dan Heng’s not super scary so they could ignore him and continue flirting with you. For a moment, he’ll just stand there as he listens to some of the dumb things they’re gonna say. You two make fun of them later for it. But then he hears something along the lines of, “come on, i’ll treat you better.” he don’t like that. 
How is this creep better than him?! They couldn’t even tell you were uncomfortable. Dan Heng will usually place a hand on their shoulder and his grip gets tighter every second the creep is still in front of you. Paired with his glare…
10/10 the creep is gone. You sigh in relief and walk to Dan Heng quietly, wrapping your arms around his waist. He immediately hugs back, stroking your hair a little.
“Let’s go somewhere else. I don’t like it here anymore.” You agreed.
Welt
Well, he doesn’t hang around you 24/7, he’s a busy man. But it’s also not hard to tell you’re dating either. Welt isn’t crazy about PDA, but he’ll give you a quick kiss every now and then and often gives you hugs (per your request).
He believes you’re capable of taking care of yourself, so he’s often not paying attention. That doesn’t mean he won’t look over at you every now and then. This time, he just happened to see some creepy creep trying to creep up on you. 
“Are you ok, (y/n)?” Is the first thing he asks when he walks up to you. He will literally ignore the existence of the creep beside him. Usually what happens here is that you’ll nod and he’ll “accidentally” shove the creepy away and urge you to come talk with him and his friends. The creep is usually so confused they walk away. But sometimes- sometimes- they follow.
Welt does NOT like that. I mean it was one thing to not take the hint from your face, but then to stop you when you’re actively trying to leave?
Welt will turn around and just glare at them. Like that silent, “I will kill you” kinda glare. It’s a staring contest for a moment before the creepy creep just kinda turns away and leaves. Sometimes, Welt does have to smack them with his lil cane. Sometimes.
“Anyway, we’re over here. Would you like a drink?”
Sampo
Sampo is all over you, usually. He loves you and the world should know? Sometimes, he can go too far so just let him know. Anyway, since he’s always over you, people know you’re dating him.
Usually at parties and events, he’s hanging off your arm, but sometimes he’s gotta go talk to some of his other friends and acquaintances. He keeps an eye on you.
Here’s the thing, he’ll come up and flirt with you too but try to one up the creep. “You look fine, darling,” - the creep. “You look so beautiful, every star in the sky and the moons pale in comparison.” - Sampo.
0/10. Of course, the creep gets irritated and asks what the hell Sampo is doing. Sampo just gives him a condescending smile and says, “that’s my partner you’re talking to. I’m not gonna let you just creep up on them.” There’s… a glint in his eyes that’s unnerving. Even you can see it.
69/10. The creep runs off, making some excuse or whatever. Sampo watches them for a minute before turning to you and smiling. You rush to give him a hug and he happily returns it.
“Wanna go home? Seems like that idiot trashed your mood a little.”
Gepard
Gepard is a very shy guy and he’s not one to be all touchy-touchy without you doing it first. He gets all flustered and looks away… but he’ll lean into your touch.
He usually sticks around you, keeping your attention so no creepies come by, but sometimes he gets pulled away. He always lets you know he’ll be right back and leaves for just a few moments. Enough for a creepy to sneak in >:0
When Gepard notices the creep, he wastes no time walking over to you. “Is everything ok?” He asked, looking at you. If you shook your head, that was it. The captain of the silvermane’s came out!
The first glare is usually a 50/50. Sometimes, the creeps acted all annoyed and walk away, pretending they’re not scared but other times… they challenge him. Gepard just places a hand on their shoulder and shoves them back. It’s actually surprisingly strong- they’ll fall over sometimes.
10/10, that usually sends them running. On rare occasions there’s that ONE creepy who just stands up and tries to take him on lmao. You know to take a step back because Gepard kinda skips the arresting and just goes to ass kicking. And he’s the shy boyfriend.
“So… we should go now. Yeah, no, just leave the creep there.”
Jing Yuan
Jing Yuan isn't the most affectionate boyfriend, but he doesn’t mind letting people know you two are together. Depends on your comfort level.
He’s a busy man, so at that fancy event, he can’t always be at your side but he tries to keep you by him. Of course, you decided to go get a drink, he happily agreed. You went off and he kept greeting more officials. You didn’t return, so he looked over and he just saw you turning away from a creep who just grabbed your arm!
Jing Yuan elegantly excuses himself and basically sneaks up behind the guy. He’ll stand there which brings you tons of relief, enough to let the creep ramble and ramble and ramble. “I could take you out to dinner, (nickname you don’t like). I’ll buy you (food you don’t like).” “Actually, they don’t like that. And they don’t like being called that.” The creep jumps away and is standing beside you at that point.
5/10, honestly, some just get scared and leave. There’s the other half though that just kinda scoff and look at you. Before they can even say anything, Jing Yuan grabs them by the shirt and force them to look at him. “Do not speak to them like that. Do not look at them, and don’t even think about them. You leave now or I’ll drag you out myself.”
10/10!!!!!!!!! They are GONE. No sign of them for MILES. Jing Yuan huffs and looks down at you. At this point, everyone’s looking at you two, making you extremely uncomfortable. He’ll stand beside you and pull you close, using that half of his jacket thing to cover you.
“We can leave. I’ll deal with everything else later. Come on.”
Luocha
This man is unpredictable. Sometimes, he’s grabbing your hand to prove your dating, others are just a straight kiss. You don’t mind. Either way, the world knows you two are together.
Luocha doesn’t mind leaving you alone, he’s got confidence in himself and you. That doesn’t mean he’s not there as your backup. Creeps creep on a daily- he’s gotchu. He sees the creep and he’s already walking toward you.
“No!” You exclaimed with a frown, “I'm not interested. Leave me alone.” Luocha didn’t mind scaring the creep off… but it was when they grabbed you that kinda set him off. “Hey.” Is all he says as he grabs their wrist to shove their hand away. 3/10. SOMETIMES people do get scared off by his demeanor. But there’s always that one. Our favorite.
For those guys, he’ll just get physical. There’s just this switch that goes off when it comes to you. 10/10. They’re either gone or out like a light.
“Come, we should go somewhere else.”
Blade
Lol. First of all, people know you’re dating this dude because you’re still alive while hanging off his arm. He’s not affectionate in public other than some sweet words. “You look nice today.” “I think you did well.” Things like that.
Blade can… be a helicopter boyfriend because he just has a 6th sense for creepies. You can be doing your own thing and he’s just standing there. Menacingly. There are days where he’s away from you, but he keeps a sharp eye on you. Then he notices the creep.
“Go away.” You say with a huff as you turn away. “Stop!” You yell, trying to pull your hand away. Suddenly, the creep is silent and frozen. You probably know exactly what happened.
You feel your arm come loose and look behind you to see Blade pointing… well his blade at the creep. He doesn’t say anything and the creep can’t help but just feel the icy fear in their veins. 10/10, Blade doesn’t fail.
“Thank you.” You say with a sigh as you run and hug his arm, looking up at him. Blade sighs and looks down at you, feeling that relief in his chest knowing that you’re fine and right beside him where you should be.
“It’s because you look cute today. Let’s go somewhere else.”
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fanficguy · 2 years
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Can you write a Fnaf 2 x reader where they go to jumpscare/attack the guard but the guard is sound asleep? How would they react?
FNaF two x gn reader who’s asleep when they go to jumpscare them
notes- in the least offensive way possible, i forgot this request existed, i’m sorry. oh also, sorry it took so long there’s just a lot of spooky dudes in FNaF 2.
warnings- mangle + puppet uses all pronouns, withered bonnie’s a he/it, leaning to platonic/no relationship in general, mentions of violence, withered bonnie favoritism, some is more low effort than others, idk if there’s anything else i should be adding
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Toy Freddy ♩
♩toy freddy ngl just don’t care, he doesn’t even attempt harming you because of this
♩probably gonna shove you off your chair and mess with the cameras, maybe play games if that’s even possible on the computer.
♩he’ll continue playing even if you wake up
♩tells the other animatronics to be quiet and stop because he’s trying to focus
♩you live through the night not because toy freddy cares, but because he wanted to win his game.
Toy Bonnie𖦹
𖦹toy bonnie’s offended you aren’t awake, he goes through the trouble to try and terrorize you every single night just for you to nap?
𖦹he wants to attack you but clearly you don’t care! fine, if he can’t kill you nobody can! he snaps at anyone coming near.
𖦹bonnie will explain how pissed he is when you return the next night, doesn’t even remember to try and get you.
𖦹you will never hear the end of it. he will keep others away while chewing your ass out too, everybody is so fucking scared of bonnie rn omg.
𖦹eventually though he goes back to normal(after a million years), bonnie’ll always hold a grudge on you for that though.
Toy Chica ↯
↯you may think because of toy chica’s vicious nature that she’ll take the chance to kill you, but no, she will probably just wait.
↯she might draw on you face
↯chica won’t care if you get attacked, kinda disappointed but attacking is the plan after all.
↯ not much for chica really, might steal your stuff.
↯if you wake up you’re dead though
Mangle❥
❥mangle would be surprised, you’re being hunted by animatronics and your first instinct is to sleep? okay..
❥whatever.?? mangle has no clue what he’s supposed to be doing. should they be waking you up, let someone else get you?
❥she decided to just watch you until you show signs of waking up, mangle doesn’t really want to get you right after you fell asleep, they’re not that cruel.
❥climbs away when/if you wake up, mangle isn’t leaving you just giving you a minute to wake up.
❥good luck the rest of the night
The Puppet/Marionette❦
❦so this is why the puppet box wasn’t winded. puppet’s tempted to just take you out(like kill, not a date) but decides to go get you a blanket.
❦might hang out for a while in hopes you wake up, if you do puppet asks you how this even happened.
❦most likely tells the other animatronics something along the lines of “let’s not do this tonight” and stays around longer just to be sure.
❦puppet will leave you eventually, he has things to get ready for the morning.
❦she will never mention this to you, it’s as if you never fell asleep to begin with.
Withered Freddy✍︎
✍︎he stares at you. if you wake up from this he mutters a bye and leaves, freddy might return later though.
✍︎you don’t wake up? he slowly inches towards you until eventually he’s right at your desk.
✍︎he knocks on the desk so you can hear it/feel the vibrations. when you wake up he looks at you for awhile then stomps off.
✍︎if freddy returns he will act the same, kinda like the puppet he acts like it never happened.
✍︎you don’t even get easy mode or anything, just an average night after that. better than freddy having had killed you though.
Withered Bonnie ☜
☜it’ll freak bonnie out a bit, at first it thought you just died without any wounds or anybody doing anything.
☜not like he’s worried just a little bit freaked out because of his first assumption on what happened.
☜eventually when it walks up to you bonnie realizes your just taking a little nap, he even feels kinda bad.
☜bonnie will shoo others away when he isn’t sitting waiting for you to wake up, it will especially try to be quiet so you can rest.
☜i think this’ll end up being an accidental bonding experience for you two(even though you were asleep the entire time), bonnie isn’t gonna be all nice or save you anymore but at least it isn’t attacking you!
Withered Chica𓅿
𓅿 chica stands there awkwardly waiting
𓅿eventually just walks up to you and tells you to wake up, apologizes, and goes back to the night as normal.
𓅿that’s it. chica’s gonna be polite but you aren’t just getting off easy
𓅿if you don’t wake up somehow chica probably sits there for a bit
𓅿eventually leaves
Withered Foxyᨎ
ᨎ”the hell’re you doin’?” that’s his very words, all rage foxy might’ve had previously has left.
ᨎfoxy shakes you awake(with his non hooked hand) then starts questioning you. why are you sleep? how are you even sleeping right now? aren’t you scared? are you scared of him?
ᨎwhen he calms down foxy tells you to start sleeping so you’re awake next time he’s after you
ᨎyou’re lucky your not gonna get hurt tonight!! foxy will get you next time though, just count on it.
ᨎat least foxy kind of cares
Withered Golden Freddy☝︎︎
☝︎he’s so sick of this.
☝︎goldie isn’t surprised just really annoyed, he never gets a break from all the bs here.
☝︎won’t try to wake you up
☝︎ goldie probably won’t hunt you the entire night
☝︎asks wtf is with you next night, how the fuck do you do this?
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brains-n-guts · 6 days
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I just saw the helluva boss trailer, and it was a lot to unpack n I tried my hardest to make sense of it. (I might have to make a second post abt this)
Let’s start of with basic things that everyone knows:
Angst.
There is going to be so much angst I can’t even describe like for example Octavia
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She’s going and will go through more angst, she thinks that her dad loves Blitzo more than her and even more than her mom (Stella and Stolas was a toxic couple and she new that they wouldn’t last) but still she’s only a teenager and looks like thing through her perspective, but I hope that she sees that Stolas actually does care for her and everything he did(like how he only stayed with Stella for her, he went through an abusive relationship just for Octavia to live a somewhat normal life.)
Angles, and Human team up.
Anywho there’s probably gonna be a big fight somewhere in the episodes and the D.O.R.K.S agents and the Cherubs are going to team up and fight hell (the fights probably going to be in the lust ring)
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(The cherubs look like crackheads)
*Opens a portal to hell cutely 😚*
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Also why I think the fights happening in lust:
Sort of a minor detail but the xxx on the building is most likely a pørn studio, Ik that pride has pørn studios, but pride’s color palette is made up of reds.
(Ignore Millie)
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(Off brand ghostbusters) Ghostfuckers!
This dude!
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I honestly feel like he’s from envy, it just makes sense for envy’s (envy hellborns). I feel like envious people would often hid their true emotions with a mask and in his case he hide his ‘death’, or the fact that he’s a hellborn. I say ‘death’ because this episode is obviously going to be centered on ghosts it literally the episode name! And most people believe that ghosts are just lost dead souls with unfinished business in the living world.
(Blitzø’s part)
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Blitzø’s possessed, but I wonder how. I think that it has something to do with the pool he’s jumping out of, but Idk.
I’m going to end it here I’ll continue it later I just have no more motivation rn.
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chempack · 12 days
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ok everypony it is now 11pm and i am less sleepy so i will chatter about my oc idea. also @mnikhowozu hi :)
so my working name for him rn is adam white (bonus points if u can figure out the origin of these names. hint: consider some of my other characters names) but i will likely change at least the given name. i’m considering lucas but not sure, i just generally want something Classic European bc i feel like that’s what two mfs named James and Catherine would name their kid (bonus points if it’s biblical). as i’ve said i’m making the character so i can do tale of two wastelands (hopefully. if i can figure out the mod. haven’t tried yet and dk how it works so it might be complicated…) so obviously he starts as the lone wanderer
to contrast charlie (who has always dealt with barely contained rage and loathes his dad, blaming james for all the shit he had to go thru in the wasteland), adam is more forgiving to him. not that he doesn’t also have conflicting and negative feelings abt james, he does, but he also sees him as ultimately a Good Man doing things for the Bettering of Humanity. adam never had much ambition in the vault and was just kinda drifting along as he grew up, was probably gonna be a maintenance worker or something “basic”. he didn’t learn medicine from james because james never bothered to teach him and he never thought to ask to learn. BUT! later in the wasteland — most pointedly after james dies — he takes it on himself to become something of a doctor because he wants to Continue his parents’ Legacy. etc etc
i also have it in mind for him to wear a mask while traveling (think along the lines of the blastmaster helmet. except i’m actually thinking of something from the pitt i just don’t remember the name.) so just imagine this nervous 20 year old in full armor with an assault rifle comes running up to you after you were brutally beaten by a raider or something, one year post-project purity, and he’s like TRUST ME LET ME HELP IM A DOCTOR meanwhile he looks like an overblown raider boss
at his core he is a Coward and, again, not ambitious. chronically indecisive. he Wants to help but he does Not want to risk himself (though of course he does since it’s. kind of the nature of the games if ur playing a mostly-good character). this then leads him to just going along with mr. house when he gets to vegas, because he doesn’t want to rock the boat and, honestly, probably won’t even think to kill house. he has his own opinions, for sure, and he’s not a saint — the choices he does make still are bad at times. but generally, he takes the road of “what is the most helpful at large but also the easiest for Me”
also, i think the followers of apocalypse have a university in california or smth? isn’t that mentioned once or twice in fnv? not sure need to research. and also i’m aware it generally doesn’t really Match for the courier to be the lw but obviously i’m ignoring that for the sake of the mod. but, depending on whatever is going on there, the followers’ university is what i’m currently thinking of for why he went west, and he… idk, gets roped into courier work for money or for a relatively easy way to Help or something, and ends up caught up in new vegas politics
if anyone read this whole thing i love you forever and ever i’m hugging you in my mind palace rn. and if you know anything about this supposed university that i might have just made up in my head then please let me know. okay thank you love you byeee
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phantomdecibel · 7 months
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Tell me more about the girl losses-
HOLY FUCK NEW BANNER
wHEEEEEEEZE–
fun fact about the the banner; that scene might not make it into the final draft of wcbwe sadge. fun fact 2! two thirds of the characters in the banner have been redesigned XD
okaaaaaay the girl loss moment! it’s gonna be so fun >:3 (<- I’m making an animation meme of kinda like Willow’s backstory/Willow and Stella’s falling out, I’ve changed it a lot since the last time I told u about it XD)
(^ idk if I told u about their original meeting but n o w Willow is a puppet/construct kinda like Schrödinger! Willow was made as more of an experiment to see if the puppets could actually behave like living cats, which is what makes her more of a ‘construct’ and less of a puppet made to be a soldier, like Schrödinger. she and Stella were childhood friends and stayed pretty close as they grew up, until Willow got into and accident and nearly got destroyed. she’s made to grow and learn but she’s still a construct and not meant to be capable of dying, so the Incident reeeeally rattled her and she started looking into ways to ‘become immortal’ or get deified to Avoid That (she doesn’t know she’s a construct/puppet at first btw), often at the cost of her health. her and Stella get into a lot of arguments over this and start kinda falling apart
(coincidentally, around this point in time Stella Dies and due to a combination of luck and intervention is deified, and Willow is desperate to figure out how – which is what finally fully drives Stella away. she ends up travelling with the two new characters, Wander and Gray, while Willow continues her experiments
(eventually Willow starts getting increasingly desperate, and starts working with Ash and a group of powerful magick users who are working to Kill Death, hoping this could help cull her mortality. Unfortunately the group’s target is Gray, and Constellation and Wander aren’t going to let anything happen to her without a fight, which places Willow and Stella on opposite sides of the battlefield.
(Willow tries to just kinda. avoid Stella, but Stella ends up taking a hit for Wander and is really badly injured, which is her big girl loss moment in what I’m working on rn :3 originally I was gonna give her a girlboss moment instead, but what I drafted worked better with causing her pain >:D
(aaanyways that kinda makes Willow feel a bit guilty over the whole thing, and decides to abandon the cause and continue her research on her own. The group is still, mostly, successful though (which causes Problems later on), and later on she’s contacted again by Ash, leading to her last confrontation with Stella before the official timeline starts – in which Stella is Very Concerned (but still not happy at all with Wills) over the way Willow has started to… degrade, who of course insists that nothing is wrong.
(Which Is another animation I’m working on lmao! The whole thing kinda changes the Foxglove incident so I’m still finagling those details bc I think it’s important that he dies. Willow fucks off for a second time to follow new leads and also hide from Stella, where she eventually meets Arceli :>
(so TECHNICALLY that’s THREE girl losses smile. plus Wander gets traumatized bc he looses both his friends at once. this is gonna be so fun–)
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toinfinitywinning · 19 days
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Dear IVIg—I’m still thankful you’re an option but youuu suck.
🤞🏼If it doesn’t help the only other known option to help relieve Pain THAT WE KNOW OF (@⁨Mom⁩ I want to make sure u saw how I phrased this b/c of confusion last time LOL) until something else is I guess figured out is to see my neurologist in Cincy Who spoke to Serena (Williams) for my migraines and finally have to do Botox which I believe might be her last option for me as well. I mean it is possible things in Life will not be healable and that’s just what I have to tell myself. I have to stay realistic and positive at the same time —some ppl might feel differently. That’s why I’ve told ppl to pls not tell me I’m going to heal or get better. It isn’t about the gesture, I know, and have thanked ppl for meaning well. But, we, you, research has no idea. Hope. You can Hope for me but it’s too hard to hear what might never happen. Now if it was strep—barring something really bad, yea. But similarly I can’t answer people when they ask me what I’m taking for it. Or if there is a cure. So, in my eyes look at it like any other disease that’s been researched w/o a cure for decades. And COVID is very very young. I think ab as old as one of my nephews, 5 yrs. so that means as I’m sure u have already figured out on your Own that’s all the research we got. So far my body doesn’t take to any of it. It doesn’t take to many medicines either. Like at all. And that being the hard Truth I’ve had to think about how much dueling with Meds and doctors I want to do. And I told Mom the other Day i may want to Stop trying things (wait.) b/c there is actually nothing else to do. No really. That is not me giving up. It’s stopping; knowing that for now this is what we have. I’ve exhausted what is known to possibly help and I’m exhausted trying until there’s something else. It is finally resting in the fact that I can rest in the fact knowing for now I can do it. But im exhausted and all u all R too! Again sounds dramatic and it is, but I will not be a Lab mouse or statistic or trial forever. I helped research for over 2 years. And somebody got LHC a week after me Who contributed to it too. And when I say nothing has helped. That is not a Gentry like exaggeration. It’s simply sadly true. I get pockets without Pain or a migraine bandaged w/ Tylenol. At first I didn’t have to swallow that. I was not this bad at first. And having almost Pain driven hallucinations some nights is all I need to experience to make that Choice.
So, I’m giving this IVIg a really Good “shot” and the Botox if needed and continue to try what we’re doing rn and then I will live knowing I can escape for a short period of time sometimes so not to take that for granted and I truly might be one of those ppl whose Family member stays on the back of the bulletin. They’re saturated with it. I remember being little at church drawing on that back page of the bulletin and wondering why ppl just stayed there forever. I thought it was a mistake or a running Tab idk. Didn’t get it. It’s not funny but yk. I just never—no kid, anyone holding to only shreds Left of innocence ever thinks it will be them, but there is so much more we will never see on the back of one for so many other things. I like those people.
Resting in rest could be Good. Any advice on how to do that?
PS Dad and Mom not many 70 yo’s can do what you’re doing to help so Cool your jets 🤣ツ . Let me count the ways. Later.
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windowlessatmosphere · 11 months
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When the Truth Comes Out
Summary: The video Kim sent to Chay is leaked, and all of Wik's fans suddenly know Chay's name. Including the group chat.
Chay frowned slightly as he felt his phone go off in his pocket. He glanced at it quickly, seeing that the group chat was blowing up, and decided to ignore it. He went back to comparing lemons, stifling a laugh when his phone continued to buzz.
A few minutes later, he was pulling his phone out again in frustration, unable to focus on grocery shopping with the constant vibrations.
mb protection squad 7 notifications
fern 🎨 HOLY SHIT GUYSSSSSSS
new ☀️ ok i feel bad for wik but this is also very funny p’chay i can’t believe u didn’t tell us lol
fern 🎨 can u believe chay has secretly been mb this WHOLE time lol
new ☀️ I KNOW!! The betrayal 😢
He furrowed his brow as he read, eyes widening in panic at Fern’s last text. His mind started racing as he tried to figure out how they could have possibly known. He thought about pleading ignorance, but figured if he waited them out a little, they might give more detail.
ying 🐼 guys i feel like we shouldn’t talk about it since it was leaked? idk
Chay’s heart started pounding at that, trying to figure out what had been leaked, and by whom . He pulled up twitter and searched ‘wik leaked’, clicking on the first video that popped up. He put an earbud in and hit play. Kim appeared on the screen, a guitar resting over his knees.
He started singing a song.
He started singing their song.
Chay’s panic increased, remembering what happened at the end of the video, and hoping like hell it was going to cut off before then.
“Excuse me.” A girl tapped him on the shoulder, gesturing to the mangoes he was blocking.
“Oh, sorry!” He got out of her way at once, then made the split-second decision to abandon the groceries in favor of figuring out what the hell was going on. He made his way outside, leaning against the wall as he started the video back up. The wait was killing him, so he just skipped to the end, leaving about fifteen seconds or so. He stared at Kim’s face on the screen, hoping desperately the video was going to cut off early.
Please don’t say it, please don’t say it, please don’t say it…
“This is for Porchay,” he said.
Fuck.
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His phone was buzzing again. He was in the back of one of Kim’s cars, being driven back to Kim’s apartment, with no idea whether Kim had seen the video or not. The driver had given him a slightly confused look when he’d reappeared without groceries, but the look on Chay’s face must have persuaded him not to say anything.
More buzzing.
He sighed and pulled out his phone.
mb protection squad 6 notifications fern 🎨 i mean NORMALLY i wouldn’t it’s just that apparently chay is mb lmao
new ☀️ SO true fern honestly p’chay ur silence is speaking volumes rn
thorn 🎮 Yes, I’m sure Chay has been MB this whole time. Mystery solved. 🙄
fern 🎨 p’thorn r u aware that ur no fun at all??????
thorn 🎮 Yes.
Chay stifled a laugh despite himself, relieved to find that at least his friends weren’t putting the pieces together. Or, rather, that they just thought it was all a funny coincidence. He really wasn’t ready to tell them the whole story yet. He still had a dull feeling in his chest, though, anxiety thrumming at the thought of people using his name to try and figure out who he was. He shot a text back to the group chat, figuring he should at least try and behave normally.
chay ok fine u guys got me 😞
fern 🎨 i knew it.
new ☀️ lmao if ONLY that would be sooo cool
ying 🐼 lol poor wik tho and he looked so sad in the video!!
Chay snorted, shaking his head with the knowledge that if Ying knew why Kim had looked so sad, she’d be the first in line to tell him off. Yet another reason he didn’t feel the need to tell them all about his relationship.
fern 🎨 lmao p’chay is actually y/n fr
new ☀️ this is just the wik version of ur mom selling u to 1D
fern 🎨 wow cannot BELIEVE p’porsche would do that 😢
ying 🐼 he would NOT
chay he really wouldn’t lol
fern 🎨 i know but SOMEONE has to do it
new ☀️ p’prae would do it!! for one (1) corn chip
chay 😢😢😢
new ☀️ sorry p’chay truth hurts
ying 🐼 by lizzo
Chay shook his head again, this time smiling fondly down at his phone. His smile faded as the leaked video popped back into his head. He wasn’t entirely sure what to do. Did he tell Kim? Did Kim already know? Should he tell Mae? She definitely needed to know, but maybe Kim was supposed to tell her.
The car came to a stop and Chay realized they were back at Kim’s apartment. He wandered upstairs in a daze, trying his best to smile at the guards as he passed them.
“P’Kim?” he called as he opened the door. It was right around the time Kim should’ve been getting home, so he wasn't sure if he was alone or not.
“Here!” Kim called back, sounding like he was either in the music studio or the bedroom. Chay worried his lip in between his teeth, mulling over how best to break the news to Kim. “Hey,” Kim said softly, appearing in the foyer. As soon as he saw Kim’s face, he realized he didn’t need to tell him. It was clear he already knew.
“Hey,” he echoed, attempting a smile.
“You saw,” Kim surmised, eyes tracking over Chay’s face.
“Yeah,” Chay confirmed. “I’m sorry.”
Kim’s eyebrows immediately knitted themselves together in confusion. “No, I’m sorry. Why are you sorry?”
“The video got leaked? My name’s in it? And I know you didn’t want it public?” Chay rattled off, raising his eyebrows continuously as he spoke.
“But it’s not your fault,” Kim replied, brow still furrowed.
“I can still be sorry it happened,” Chay reminded him. Kim seemed to relax a little at that, but he still had a strange expression on his face that Chay couldn’t quite place. “C’mere,” he murmured, pulling Kim into a hug. Kim immediately buried his face in Chay’s neck, squeezing him tightly without any sign of letting go. Chay just went with it. Occasionally, something like this would remind him of just how touch-starved his boyfriend had been his whole life. Once again, he made a mental resolution to hug Kim more often.
“It’s my fault,” Kim muttered, once they’d pulled apart.
Chay was the one looking confused now. “Did you post it?” he asked mildly.
“No,” Kim looked affronted at that, upset that Chay would ever believe that of him.
“Then how is it your fault?” Chay asked, tilting his head meaningfully.
“I’m the one who recorded it,” Kim said miserably. “I’m the one who sent it.”
Chay sighed, shaking his head. Kim had a spectacular ability to find a way to blame almost anything on himself. This was especially true, he’d found, when a situation involved Chay in any way.
“It’s not your fault,” Chay told him firmly. “Whoever leaked it, that’s whose fault it is.”
“But—”
“No buts,” Chay insisted. “You didn’t do anything wrong. You don’t get to beat yourself up over it.”
Kim held his gaze for a minute, guilt clearly still etched into his features before he looked away. Chay sighed, wishing his words were enough to make Kim understand but knowing that they weren’t. He pulled him back into a hug, pressing a kiss to his cheek before burrowing his face into Kim’s neck.
“I love you,” he reminded Kim.
“I love you, too,” Kim echoed back immediately.
“It’s gonna be fine.”
Kim hesitated for a moment, the silence bearing down as Chay waited for him to respond.
“It’s gonna be fine,” he eventually repeated.
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safetypinnecklace: cannot believe we finally know mb’s name 👀👀👀 candleswik: we hav an elbow and a name ppl!!! p@rkj1m1ns: OMG does this mean there’s a song for mb on the new album??? x_14lanadelray: not to burst anyone’s bubble but this could be old lol like for an ex taylorsswift5: this was TOTALLY for mb i feel it in my soul xxtherewillbexx: which album is this from?? ayeayecapn: brb looking up all the porchays in bangkok paiitforward: he looks so sad do u think they broke up??? 🤔🤔🤔
Chay closed the browser on his phone, reminding himself for the millionth time that reading the comments was not helping anything. He was feeling itchy at the thought of how many people now knew his name, even if they didn’t have any idea who he was. They were still speculating, wondering whether he was Wik’s Mystery Boyfriend or some ex from a few years ago. Wondering about the song, wondering about their relationship, wondering about him. 
He was feeling sick to his stomach, and it was only exacerbated as he considered how he might have acted only a year ago. While it was hard to imagine, he tried to think of how he would’ve reacted, if he’d been in their shoes. It was hard to say. Wik had never publicly dated anyone. After meeting him, Chay had realized this was because Kim had never dated anyone at all. 
No pressure.
His phone rang, and he picked up immediately upon seeing that it was Kim.
“Hi, P’Kim.”
“Hey, sweetheart.”
“What’s up?” Chay asked, trying to gauge Kim’s tone.
“Mae wants to meet again,” Kim told him, after a beat of silence. Chay worried his lower lip between his teeth, fairly certain that he knew what that meant.
“Because of the video?” he checked.
“Because of the video.”
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“How did this happen?”
“I don’t know.”
“I’m asking you—”
“And I’m telling you I don’t know,” Kim interrupted. Mae let out a frustrated huff at that, eyeing him suspiciously. Chay was seated next to Kim on the couch, silently watching them like they were engaged in a particularly interesting boxing match.
“You must have some idea,” Mae decided, narrowing her eyes at Kim.
“I only sent the video to Chay,” Kim insisted. “I don’t know how anyone else would have it.”
“You texted it to him?” Mae asked, fingers flying on her phone as she spoke.
“Um…no.” Kim’s eyes darted quickly to the side, and Mae looked up as soon as she heard the hesitation in his voice.
“How’d you send it to him?” she questioned, tilting her head slightly. Her gaze was fixed intently on Kim, and Chay was just glad he wasn’t the one being interrogated.
“Does it matter?”
“Yes, it does matter,” Mae fired back. “Since we apparently have a security leak.”
“It was through Facebook,” Kim finally admitted.
“No, it wasn’t,” Mae frowned. “I would never have given you the password.”
“Not the Wik account,” Kim clarified.
“You don’t have your own account,” Mae argued, eyes narrowing with suspicion once again.
“I made one?”
“Then why aren’t we friends?” Mae cried, clearly outraged. Kim groaned, burying his head in his hands. There was a long moment before he emerged, taking a deep breath before speaking.
“Look,” he said. “I just made it to send the video to Chay. That’s all. I haven’t used it since.”
Mae frowned again.
“Why wouldn’t you just text it to him?” She looked confused. “That’s so much more secure,” she added under her breath, as an afterthought.
“Um…” Kim trailed off, sending a quick, questioning glance towards Chay.
“I blocked him,” Chay cut to the chase. Mae’s eyebrows shot up further than he would’ve thought possible, and Kim looked vaguely scolded.
“When was this?” Mae asked, perplexed.
“Before we got together,” Kim said. “Or…after. Or before…the second time?” His voice went up at the end. He glanced at Chay again, who looked faintly amused.
“What?” Mae was no less confused after Kim’s explanation.
“It’s a long story,” Chay told her, hoping they could move on.
“Okay.” She shook her head slightly, a hint of confusion still visible in her face. “So, you only sent the video through that account?” Kim nodded. “And you never sent anything else?” Kim shook his head. “Okay.” She thought it over for a minute. “We might be fine then. Although…”
“What?” Kim asked, when it became clear that she wasn’t going to continue.
“Whoever leaked it…might know Chay’s name,” she pointed out.
“...because it was in the video?” Kim raised an eyebrow. “I think everyone knows.”
“His full name,” Mae emphasized. “If they know which account you sent it to. They didn’t leak it, though, which is good news.”
Kim’s expression shifted quickly to concern at this revelation.
“We need to figure out who it is,” he said firmly.
“We can try, ” Mae told him. From her tone, Chay didn’t think it was too likely they’d be able to find out.
“Try?” Kim’s tone was leaning towards anger, which was unusual for him, especially with Mae. Chay rested a hand on Kim’s arm and shifted his leg until their knees were touching. Kim let out a long breath and pressed his knee more firmly against Chay’s. “I just think this is important,” he said, his tone much more measured.
“And I agree,” Mae said patiently. “I just don’t know how likely it is.”
Kim’s expression darkened at that, and he slipped a hand onto Chay’s knee before he replied. “So we’re, what? Just supposed to wait until they decide to reveal it?”
“No,” Mae said. “We can still try our best to figure it out. In the meantime, we can prepare for that…eventuality.”
Kim let out another sigh, clearly dissatisfied. He was drumming his fingers ever-so-slightly on Chay’s knee.
“Thank you, P’Mae,” Chay chimed in. “We should set up another meeting to talk about that,” he said, firmly ending the conversation.
“Okay,” she agreed easily, still eyeing Kim warily. “I’ll schedule something.”
Chay guided Kim out of her office, knowing that him blowing up at Mae was something to be avoided at all costs. Kim stayed silent as they walked down to the car, his expression stony every time Chay glanced sideways at him.
“She’ll try to figure out who it was,” Chay finally said, once they were headed back to the apartment.
“I know,” was all Kim said back, his voice monotone.
“She’s just trying to help,” Chay pointed out.
“I know.”
“And it’s not her fault.”
“I know.” This time, Kim’s tone was one of frustration.
Chay flinched a little, still unused to Kim speaking harshly to him.
“It’s mine,” Kim said with a hollow voice. Chay was shocked silent for a minute before he found his tongue.
“P’Kim!” he scolded. “We talked about this. This is not your fault.”
“It is,” Kim insisted.
“Just because you sent me a video?” Chay asked. “That’s ridiculous.”
“Not just that,” Kim muttered.
“Then what?” Chay questioned him, feeling more and more lost.
Kim didn’t say anything, but he cut his eyes slightly towards the front of the car. Chay sighed as he understood. Despite the fact that the divider was up, and the driver was paid extremely well to pretend he couldn’t hear anything, Kim definitely wasn’t saying anything else until they were home.
Once they finally stepped inside the apartment, Chay turned to Kim expectantly.
“Well?”
“I sent the video,” Kim repeated.
“P’Kim,” Chay started, exasperated.
“And I talked about you,” Kim interrupted. Chay blinked, falling silent. “And then I fucked up and talked about you again. And now people are interested, and…” he cut himself off, frustration clearly building as he ran a hand through his hand.
“Okay,” Chay sighed, pulling Kim’s hand out of his hair. “C’mere,” he instructed, half-dragging Kim over to the couch. “This is not your fault,” he reiterated.
“Why else would they leak it?” Kim asked in a small voice.
“Some people are assholes?” Chay suggested, feeling triumphant when Kim let out a small huff of laughter. “You can’t blame yourself for everything,” he said. “Even though I know you want to.”
“Just when it’s my fault,” Kim muttered, petulant.
“You always think it’s your fault,” Chay argued back, flicking his forehead. Kim looked ready to disagree, but stopped short when Chay gave him a look. He was essentially pouting, now, and Chay rolled his eyes before pulling his boyfriend into his side. Kim immediately snuggled in closer, wrapping both arms around Chay like an octopus.
“I love you,” Chay told him, kissing the top of his head.
“I love you, too,” Kim said, his voice slightly muffled by Chay’s t-shirt.
“And this isn’t your fault,” Chay reminded him, starting to play with his hair. Kim stayed silent long enough for Chay to flick his ear.
“And this isn’t my fault,” Kim echoed back dutifully.
Chay smiled at that, continuing to play with Kim’s hair when he heard his phone buzz. He grabbed it, his other hand stilling without him noticing as he read the message.
prae 💃 lmao new just told me wik is dating someone named porchay???? do u hav something to tell me??? 😂😂😂
Fuck.
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ambroise-framboise · 2 years
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Hermitcraft deserves more crossovers. So have this post about Hermitcraft and Katekyo Hitman Reborn bc current and past fandoms colliding makes the brain go brrrr.
This will not make a lot of sense if you’re not at least slightly familiar with the KHR world btw.
This is a “Hermits get dropped in a random world, proceed to baffle everyone” kind of crossover. My first reflex was to have a Hermit be Skull. Look, a Hermit can and will qualify for the title of “Strongest Flames”, so the Arcobaleno part works. The question then was ; WHICH ONE would play Skull. The whole “goofy and undying” part of the Skull persona made me think of Scar, bc man is he talented at this kind of stuff. BUT ! I’m sorry but Scar, Concorps Convex Scar is a Mist. So not Scar.
Who then ? I tried to figure out which Hermit had which flame (that’s hard, I don’t watch every single hermit and also the personality has to somewhat fit). Some are easy-ish, like Mumbo being a storm bc red like redstone and destruction (Mumbo Kills a Lot Jumbo my beloved), and Tango too maybe. Bdubs is a Sun, it makes sense in my head. Cub is Mist, bc Convex again. Joe is... Mist and Rain probably ? Doc might be a lighning and a storn, idk. Xisuma is a Sky, of course. Who would be Skull ? In the end, I was like ; okay, mischevious enough to create an annoying persona, love stunts, associated with the color purple... Grian. Is it the best fit ? No. Do I care ? Also no. So what happens ? Hermits get yeeted into a new world, and deal with it like they can, being both very chaotic and efficient. They carve themselves a little place in some almost empty part of the world, far from civilisation. Xisuma, our beloved admin, notices that the world is in Hardcore (aka no respawns) and decides that it won’t do. Hacker man powers, puts everyone back in survival. They are effectively immortal. Nice.
Some travel sometimes, and they still love roleplaying, which is how Grian (under the name Skull) ends up being a stunt artist, and gets contacted by Iron Hat Guy. Said dude has no idea who Skull is btw. He thinks he’s a civilian. Which, technically isn’t wrong. Grian does the Skull act, and the moment he can slips away to tell allll about Flames and Mafia and the Underworld to the rest of the Hermits. They are VERY interested, and a thing leads to another and oop they’re all Flame active and bonded and they made a new mafia family (maybe named the Hermits, maybe not).
It’s important to note that they don’t... really care about the murdery aspects of the mafia world ?? They’re very used to death games, and kinda assume that people just respawn in another world when they die. Many Shenanananangians laters (including Grian getting cursed to be baby, which makes every hermit laugh a lot, and Scar being like, terrifying to most of the mafia world), and we get to the sacrifice/big fight where all the Arcobalenos are supposed to get a team and fight each other. Now, instead of asking the flames of the earth guy (whose name i’ve forgotten rn, oop) Grian of course asks his friends.
The others Arcobaleno have no idea these guys existed (well, they had heard of the Hermits but had NO IDEA they were Skull’s Family) and are thus very surprise. Fighting happen, the hermits are overpowered bc HERMITS, and Kawahira arrives. Tries to punish everyone for rebelling and refusing to be a sacrifice/continue the endless cycle.
It looks bad, until ! TFC, beloved grandpa, man actually older than time (and older than Kawahira) and maybe Herobrine himself but who was retired, intervenes. Kawahira stands no chance and gets bonked into submission by a pickaxe. The problem gets solved, and then it’s a race to stop the resident scientist Hermits and Verde to bond over blowing up entire cities and making inventions of mass destruction.
I’d say THE END but it’s really not.
What do you think ? What Flames would YOU give to the Hermits, what events and interactions would you like to see ?? Send an ask or a comment ! I’ll answer as fast as I can
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mrcspectr · 2 years
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OH. Oh I just had a thought. I was just looking at Marvel timelines, and … Multiverse of Madness takes place in November 2024 (after Halloween that year), and Werewolf By Night takes place after MoM (according to the recent Marvel Updates tweet), but presumably around Halloween time… That could mean that it’s set a year later in October 2025. Which would mean that it takes place after the events of Moon Knight, which are set in early 2025.
Could that mean… Is that why in the FYC interview, Mohamed said “very soon” and Oscar said “yeah” and then had to backtrack with a shrug… Maybe Marvel is just playing fast and loose with their timelines, and Werewolf is set in 2024. Maybe I’m just being way too literal, and reading too much into things, and I’m completely off the rails…
I’m whispering this very quietly in case Marvel hears me and kills my dreams but…
(If there is a Moon Knight reference in Werewolf By Night … could it possibly be Jake who’s in the Moon Knight suit??)
My brain is now spinning in circles.
Okay but why is the Marvel timeline like this, honestly I'd have to have a goddamn murderboard put together with red string just to keep it all straight??
I might do that, actually. Anyway.
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This.. does make sense because then Hawkeye was right before Christmas in 2024, Moon Knight at the beginning of 2025. And the thing is, if there did happen to be a Moon Knight appearance in Werewolf by Night, and we're correct in figuring our timeline here.. And we'd have to be, if they've already confirmed it's post MoM?
I'M GOING INSANE THOUGH HOLD ON. I can't believe I'm doing this rn. Spoilers for the Werewolf by Night rumor under the read more:
I'm literally freaking out about a rumored mention of Moon Knight on the news in a completely different show so if that's really all we get, whatever like it's not even an APPEARANCE. BUT. BUUUUT. I'll accept this because there are IMPLICATIONS. TWO OPTIONS.
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This is Jake Lockley. I mean, both options involve him somehow and I'm NOT just saying that because of who I am as a person lskdgjslkgjs. BUT as far as who'd be fronting in that news clip, this very much would almost have to be Jake if we see nothing new between now and then. I don't think he'd have his own suit yet, unless they play around with what his might look like and give him something completely different then what we're all expecting. I don't think they'll do that though, I think they'll be pretty dead set on the black and white armor for post. I don't know what to call it, revelations, maybe? Post meeting? To give him a certain level of independence and distinction between Marc and Steven while wearing the armor.
This is all of them, coconscious, deciding on one person's armor. All three present, doing what they do best; saving people. While this would actually make my heart so full, I'm.. not leaning towards this one at all just because we'd have to get through a LOT of story to get to that point. And I'd be pretty upset if we didn't get to see that journey between the three of them, it's kind of the whole point, you know?
IDK MAN I AM JUST. Squinting at Diab's "very soon" comment that seemed a little too quick and completely out of the blue compared to everything else they've said. And Oscar's suspicious eyebrows every time someone asks. In the meantime, I'm gonna continue to look like this:
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m1d-45 · 1 year
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hello, I'm sorry I haven't been sending as much asks. I too feel like I fried my brain a little on sunday and if I don't have like new things to comment/write ask about then I don't rlly ask?
idk I want to bring new things into the table so if I don't have any I tend to stay quiet.
midas my love/p your most recent post? chefs kiss. I'm in love by how well you portray each character, especially wanderer since he's one of my favs (lvl 90 and widthsith r5/hes my baby)(xiao and kazuha too, anemo men my beloved)
I'm interested in this Diluc fic you have upcoming, I might wait a bit when it's published until I feel like I can handle the angst. my school has been kicking my ass
teddy darling/p I would love cheesecake, I haven't rlly tried it before but I'm sure yours will be great. also how do you not get scared by analog horror I'm in shock, I have to agree that what midas wrote on alternate! Xiao and zhongli made my palms sweaty and heart race, you both truly have a way with words
I am going to continue studying for precalc rn, but I have some ideas for little writings/art that I might send in later. I'm considering making a blog but idk if I'm comfortable with it.
- 🍄 (why does this feel like I'm in another land sending a letter to my spouses, I hope you have a great day teddy and midas)
[gazing wistfully out the window] when will mushroom return from the war…
off the bat don’t feel obligated to send asks, we’re just guys being pals and it’s ok if you’re silent for a while
second thank you, from one wanderer enjoyer to another (mines at 80/80 bc i need anemo rocks :( ) i’m glad you found his voicelines enjoyable. he speaks very particularly so i was worried i’d get it wrong-
(can’t believe i forgot but anemo men my beloved as well, i’ve been meaning to do lines for xiao)
good luck with your precal, i’ve never done it but shit looks hard. hope you make it out alive /hj
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kurooandkenmasslut · 2 years
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To continue — I saw a TikTok about someone deciding to read what the Haikyuu fandom called the most heartbreaking fics. So they read them & the Kuroo + Kenma fic was rated the highest on the pain scale. So naturally I decided to start with that one first out of the bunch cause I figured the rest wouldn’t be as devastating.
I’m not kidding, I couldn’t even read the others. That fucking fic broke me to the point I woke up a few hours later — cause I was up till 5am reading it — and had to go for a drive cause I felt HOLLOW LMFAO — Like I truly believed it wouldn’t hurt that bad cause you know what’s coming from the beginning. Naw I literally sobbed like someone I knew personally died right in front of me.
i am currently reading it rn and I can already guess what could happen. I am on the part where kuroo just confessed btw**
So, since kuroo and kenma are together or smth and I noticed that kuroo cant say 'i love you' or he'll die?? So just from that, I can guess the ending, or at least picture it. It's where kuroo might be be really happy and he accidentally says ily and then bae dies
ORRR kenma likes someone else, or kuroo does smth bad and he pretends to like someone?? and then he told kuroo that he doesn't like him or whatever and then kuroo's emo and then he just says it and then kenma is like"kuroo hasn't been in school in days, i wonder whats wrong" and he comes to his house and hes dead
IDK HOW THIS STORY WILL GO BUT I'M IMAGINING IT LIKE THAT SKKSLDS
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kdipshit · 1 year
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Addicted ;
Am I addicted to thinking about the things I have on repeat in my head? Like is it an addiction, I guess idk how else to think, or what else to think about, it’s kind of sad. Well in better light, I’ve taken up a shit load of study, im really gonna do this writing thing. I really want to do this writing thing, I read the entire brochure of the academy I want to go to, im so happy to be intrested in something, as tedious as the learning journey can be for me, im learning how I learn the best way I can, the only way I can.
I don’t like therapy because I don’t like being told my ways of dealing with my issues are wrong, or bad, or something like that, even though I know they are, and I would be better off without them, I’m very defensive of my coping mechanisms, I take care of them, because they take care of me… in a way, I see them as taking away my primary feeling at the time, which is usually guilt, anxiety, determent, hurt, things along those lines, even just overwhelmed and feeling 100 feelings at once, my coping mechanisms are pretty good at taking away the mess and helping me to slow down, not feel it or completely ignore it. I don’t even like telling myself that they’re bad. But they are, and its not only slowing me down, but its potentially holding me back… I don’t know where I put weed on that spectrum because I know I abuse it but it helps me so much, I know I need to manage my use, I don’t want to lie. Ill try. I’m continuing to do things I don’t want to do to stay in the moment, and its hard, but I try. For me. My anti-psychs restarting to kick in and I’m getting super drowsy, I’m tired, but still hungry, might have some sugar toast lol, yes I eat sugar toast with lost of butter and idc, its all I eat lol, my sugar intake should not be legal I binge eat lollies like its popcorn, like those hard sugar lollies… I get a big bag of piñata lollies munch it like popcorn. Its a problem, i guess no lollies tomorrow either lol. I eat em when I’m BIG B WORD but once I start its like I can’t stop. No wonder I’m sick, I’m excited for this bag to be gone so I dont have to eat them anymore lmao, do you see my fat bitch mentality I have rn watch in a couple weeks ill hate food again and not eat for 5 months. Psycho. I’m gonna make some sugar toast lol. Brb
I better figure my shit out now while I’m still learning and not later on down the line when my foundation is secure, I’m sure it won’t be secure if my shit isint figured out but I have everything under control, it’s like a massive Hurd of bulls rushing towards me and I’m somehow controlling their next movements.
Certain people just take away all the pain for me, and I thank them for that, but theres heaps of other things I can do by myself that will fulfil me just as much, even more.
So I’ve come to realise I’ve got some sort of victim complex going on because why else am I still holding on so tight to things that hurt me? I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, I’ve been knowing that and like thinking about not feeling sorry for myself lmao, but to look at it fully and see I really do have a victim complex and I can’t get go of the feeling, but why should I hold on? I don’t want to guilt myself into letting go, I just want to let go, and I am, by fixing what I pushed away so many years ago, bring it to the front and figure out that fat knot in the chord, that shouldn’t even be here. Ugh, idk man. I think I’m making a lot of sense, I’m just trying to get it all out, I don’t feel sorry for myself when I look back, I see me making the right choice, every single time, whatever lead me here, to cut it off, thank you so much for bringing me here today. Im so embarrassed that it’s taken me this long, but that’s just a feeling it’ll pass, it’s not even that bad, I want to live for myself and that’s it, I’m absolutely worth it. I feel like I’ve already let it go I’m just stuck on the thoughts now lmao, I’m tripping too hard they’re just thoughts, clouds, movements, let themmmm moveeee onnnnn.
I’m totally okay with having a drink today, if the subject arises from Hayley or someone, I would love a glass of bubbles. I’m also done with going the way I have always gone, thats not the way up.
So I talked to my mum about me possibly having a drink tonight, she doesn’t think it’s a good idea, but she said if I feel like I’m in a spot where I can control how much I have, then by all means have a few drinks and enjoy yourself, but if you feel at any point it start to go down, stop. My problem is not stopping, this ripples out to me drinking as a coping mechanism and not as something fun to do with people you love, and let go. That’s what I wanna do, I wanna let go. I’m scared a beast might unleash, it’s not going to tho, because this is the good place. I’m quiet nervous tho aren’t I? I don’t want it to open up the doors for me to drink all the time. I don’t wanna do that, I just want to enjoy this one time, im aloud to. I know I am stronger and bigger than alcohol, and I can control it easily because I monitor my alcohol intake. Count my drinks? I don’t want my family to make assumptions about me if I chose the drink, I have grown and that’s not my way of thinking anymore, I guess me saying that is me judging myself, I have the full capability to live as I am, I have learnt so much and I have implemented more into my life. I’m coming at this from a different angle, i probably won’t even drink tonight who knows? But if I choose to, I choose to do it properly. Follow my mums rules and everything is fine.
I’m not going to let go of myself, I’ve got ahold of who I am and I’m not losing sight.
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wed 2nd Nov 2022 journal 09:22am
rip takeoff. that news really hit me yesterday. especially to hear that he wasn’t doing anything but caught a stray bullet. It’s too sad to hear. yesterday was a lot. waking up today and asking myself “what do I want?” And “do I really want to continue doing what I’m doing?” scary questions to ask yourself when you’re on the journey of self discovery. An honest question too. The house is silent. Idk if Angie is in or not but I’d assume she isn’t. I’m not called in till the afternoon so I’m probably gonna do some work In the meantime. maybe I should do something that makes me happy. I also need money. The thought of going to central London and cycling does sound appealing I won’t lie. I might just do that but I also don’t want to tire myself out. I need NEED NEED to get back to Amy today about the counselling sessions. I don’t know if I just found new found motivation rn or if I’m just ideally thinking but either way I feel better than when I was talking about that whole self discovery stuff just above this. Death is such a sobering part of life. I’ve been looking at a few Diddy interviews, just studying his body language when he’s asked something that is quite intrusive and how the responds to it vs when other people are telling stories about moments they’ve had with him and I can’t lie something seems very predatory about this man. This is why I put above, do I really want to go into this industry in other words. sometimes to be an artist is a lonely life. It’s like the world sees you but also doesn’t see you. I think there’s changes I’ve opened myself up to (involuntarily) and I’m having a hard time accepting them as a way of life now. There are a lot of tapped individuals walking amongst us. it’s scary man. The things people say sometimes I ask myself if they think before they say whatever comes out of their mouth and more often than not they don’t. I don’t know if God made me resilient to words or if it’s just a defence mechanism that helps me block out things but what Bethlehem said to me yesterday regarding my whole situation with Taneetrah was very very low. And that’s coming from a friend. It was tactless and distasteful in my opinion. She made a point though but it’s the fashion in which she made the point that was distasteful and tactless but I can’t argue that she isn’t right. It rubbed me the wrong way. All in all I just want peace. I want harmony. I want beauty. I want quality of life. Nadine did say something rather noteworthy yesterday though. She said, if you see life as a cycle, either going up or down, you know once you’re down the only way is up and you can only go up from there. I really don’t know whats happening . I just know that I don’t trust a lot of people and it’s showing with how i interact with people. In a way it feels like I’m closing up instead of opening up and it’s simply because I’m in rooms I don’t necessarily feel safe in. Things feel quite reactionary. I don’t believe I have to find the motivation to get up and do this job. This fucking degree. I’m gonna see it thru for future me but fucking hell. I don’t have the energy to act like this is fine. And people keep seeing me and thinking I’m being rude or bad vibes but explaining what’s going on is just too much to do at this point. I don’t have the time and energy to explain what’s going on and be met with the same response of “sorry to hear that happened to you” or “I don’t really know what to advise you”. I’m tired of it. 23 really has been a year of absolute fuckery. A month left of this age. It’s been ROUGH. still rough. I guess I feel low because I’m thinking about everything I haven’t had a chance to fully process this week and it’s only Wednesday morning. I’m thinking about putting my name down for the Audio thingy at LAMDA but I might ask Amy if I could get an extension but we’ll see what she says. I’m just trying to make it thru my day and see another one. It’s 09:55am. I’ll update you later. sign out time : 09:56am.
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kallikrein · 3 years
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“Come home already,” Nahoya grumbled and you snorted at your end, hearing the Smiley whining at you just because he misses you. This wasn’t something new at all, usually whenever you work during the night and he has to stay home, wrapped up in blankets like a good little househusband, he pouts at you.
“Come home,” he said again. “Come home, come home…”
“I’ll be home soon,” you brushed him off, busying your hands with work and focusing on it. Your phone was between your ear and shoulder and you heard some rustling before a deep, weary sigh.
“…I miss you,” he grunted. “I don’t see you as much as I wanted, you know?”
You nodded and remembered that he couldn’t see you so you followed with a hum. Nahoya continued talking but you zoned him out as you wanted to finish working without him pestering you, “You know what? I’m gonna talk to your dipshit manager to change your shitty shifts.”
“Cool,” you answered, not fully digesting his words.
“Yeah? I’ll go there right now?”
“Yeah, yeah.”
“Wait for me, babe.”
“Hmm?”
“I’m gonna talk to your manager.”
“Huh?”
“See you!” Then he hung up. You don’t know what he was excited for but again, you brushed it off. Not until later when your manager was viciously shaking your arm that it might fall off and seeing his rumpled shirt collar.
“You’re a Kawata!” Your brows flew past your forehead and gave him a look of obviously and he face palmed, “Kawata Nahoya!”
“Yes?” You heard the familiar voice answer from behind him and you thought your eyes were pranking you until your husband gave you a lilting chuckle.
Your manager leant to whisper in your ear, “Nahoya! I thought you married the angry one!”
You were stupefied with all that’s happening but you didn’t hold back from lashing out at your husband, completely ignoring your manager, “Why are you here?”
The manager looked between the two of you and sensing the rising tension, he slowly inched away, “Uh, I think I can finish your job now…”
You didn’t hear him and you put a hand to your hips, glaring at Nahoya, “I said I’ll be home soon!”
“But I missed you!” He countered.
“So? I missed you too! But I’m working!” You almost, almost, stomped your feet because seeing him right now makes you giddy. Though you will never admit that to him at the moment.
“See? That’s why I’m here!” 
“Uhh,” your manager intervened.
“What?!”
“WHAT? 😁💢”
“Nothing!” he squeaked.
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tbh idk what i was doing :(( but here’s a cute husband nahoya ig. sorry for the shitty grammar and the shitty content rn...i’m just skdjsjkskss sigh…
taglist. @sugokawata.
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hey can i request something where sero accidentally find out his bf has a praise kink/body worship like whether the bakusquad is just joking around or he’s complimenting him or something but later that night he takes total advantage of that and is just complimenting tf out of him. thank you very muchh
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compliments (nsfw) sero x reader
pronouns: he/him
warnings: bathroom sex! praise kink, using cum and saliva as lubricant
a/n: christ @jream-23 sorry i could've done your boy so much better :( idk why i had such a hard time writing this one even though i love the concept so much. i'm also sorry if this is too short or if the praise content isn't enough i can not work my brain rn for the life of me
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"god y/n, you're so perfect" sero said as he kissed your stomach and thrusted into you.
"h-hanta please, it's embarrassing."
"i can't stop…you're just so perfect, every part of you. your body, your face, and of course that sweet voice of yours."
you and hanta have been together for sometime now. ever since he confessed to you, your lives have been better than ever. sweet remarks here and there, an occasional flirt from your boyfriend and of course bakugou telling you two to get a room and denki getting jealous of you two.
sero was a loving boyfriend, always showering you with compliments. of course you enjoyed hearing them but…maybe a little too much…
due to the fact you never told sero about it during sex he didn't know how much of an effect it had on you whenever he would compliment or praise you. it drived you crazy but you could never find the right time to tell him. sometimes the compliments made you feel loved but sometimes it made you want him. you wanted pto melt in his arms while sero whispered those sweet words in your ears. whilw calling you his, making you his and telling you just how good you feel inside.
just another normal day at school when mr.aizawa for some reason gave the entire class a study block. some of your classmates actually studying, some taking a nap, some on their phones and some straight up left the classroom to train.
you had some work do to but they weren't urgent, all of it was due next week so you decided to take a break and go hangout with your boyfriend. as expected sero wasn't doing his work either so you thought it was alright to go bother him a little.
"hey sero!" you said as you gave sero a small peck on the cheek. "whatcha doing?"
"nothing much handsome." he said as he returned the kiss. "just reading this new manga i found how bout you?"
"nothing much, i didn't want to do my work so i came over."
sero understood what you meant by that so he grabbed a chair and gestured you to sit down on it. he pulled you closer to him and made you lean on his hand as he held your hands.
"you're so perfect everywhere." the black haired male said while stroking your hair.
"t-thanks." you said while blushing.
there it is again, the casual compliments that make you go crazy. sero giggled a little and gave you a kiss on your forehead. feeling embarrassed you shoved your head into sero's chest and clutched onto his uniform.
"aww, you look even cuter when you're embarrassed y/n."
that was pretty much the last straw. hanta's compliments were getting to you and you wanted him right here and then. but you can't do that can you? you were infront of a bunch of people, not to mention all these people you know personally. you didn't want to feel this way but you can't help it. as much as you wanted to stop the tent forming in your pants you couldn't. there was only one way you could save yourself from this situation.
"hanta! i need to g-go to the washroom for a bit i'll be back soon alright?" you said as you pratically sprinted out of the classroom. hanta was left with confusion but didn't think about it too much and just assumed you had to go really bad.
you quickly hid in a bathroom stall and unbuckled your pants. the bulge in your pants was too big to ignore so you had to do something about it before leaving. you took off your boxers and started to stroke your cock slowly with your eyes closed, thinking about your boyfriend. you untied your tie and opened loosened up your uniform a little after a while.
"hanta…it feels good-"
"hey y/n? you alright? you've been gone for a while now."
speak of the devil you heard your boyfriend's voice from the entrance of the bathroom.
"o-oh hey! yah i'm fine just my stomach haha!" you said with a trembling voice.
sero knew you better than that. there was no way you would go to the washroom for that long, even if you did have a stomachache you should've been done by now. he had a slight feeling of what's going on and used his quirk to stick to the ceiling and took a peak into the stall from above.
you and hanta met eye to eye and his face immediately turned to a deep shade of red. seeing you all vulnerable like that, dick out and chest exposed turned him on to the max. next second you know sero lost his grip of the tape and fell into stall that you were just jacking off in.
"s-sero! oh my god- are you alright."
"ouch… yah i'm alright but you don't look so alright there huh?" sero said with a smirk.
since sero caught you anyways you might as well be honest with him right? you grabbed onto sero's arm and looked down so you wouldn't have to face him while saying it.
"sero this was…all because of your compliments, everytime you compliment me during class or anywhere, it makes me feel so...y'know? everytime, right after you say it i want you in me, telling me the same things you said but in a different manner."
sero finally understood the reason to your reactions everytime he compliments and he was glad you were being honest with him.
"well, we still have 30 minutes till class begins again. if you want, we could…" sero said as he held your head up and stared straight at you.
you couldn't believe that your boyfriend was offering you something like this. it wasn't an ideal time or place to do it but due to your current "situation" you agreed to it.
next thing you know sero kneeled down on his knees and started to tend to your cock. he first teased the tip that was already leaking previously and soon moved down more and more fitting your entire cock in his mouth.
"my beautiful boy, you taste delicious down here. look at how much your leaking, it was all because of your thoughts about me wasn't it?"
"hanta…i'm getting close."
"cum right in then~ i wanna see how you taste for a change."
you couldn't hold in anymore as hanta continued to suck your dick skillfully, licking everywhere with his tongue. you panted slightly after shooting in your boyfriends mouth.
"damn baby boy, that tastes amazing." sero said after he swallowed all of your seed.
"sero please…put it inside, i want to make you feel good too."
"your wish is my command."
to loosen you up, hanta wiped some of the leftover cum mixed with his spit on your cock onto his finger and put it inside your asshole. his fingers squirmed inside you as you did the same in response. as your moans started to become more consistent, hanta knew you were ready to take his cock. he took his finger out and stood up to unbuckle his belt and take off his pants. his cock was already hard and waiting to be inside you. your eyes become hazy looking at your boyfriends entire length, excited to fit it all in.
"i'm gonna put it in alright y/n?"
"p-please do…"
your boyfriend thrusted into you slowly so it wouldn't hurt too much. his cock slipped right into you due to your ass being loosened already.
"wow… look at that. it went all the way in right away, your so good at taking my cock y/n."
after moving around a hanta started to move his cock. it started slow at first and sped up a little as sero got familiar with his surroundings.
"god y/n, you're so perfect" sero said as he kissed your stomach and thrusted into you.
"h-hanta please, it's embarrassing."
"i can't stop…you're just so perfect, every part of you. your body, your face, and of course that sweet voice of yours."
it was true, you tried holding in your moans and whines because you were scared of other student roaming around in the halls to find out what you two were doing. but you couldn't, hanta's cock felt so good inside you. it may not look like it but he knows exactly where that spot is and just how to pleasure you with it.
"you're taking me so well baby boy. every part of you, so perfect."
"mmghm~"
"i'm getting close y/n, you feel too good inside i can't hold it in anymore."
"m-me too hanta… please cum inside me."
sero didn't say anything in response to that but instead just pushed him self onto you and locked your lips with his as he came inside you.
"we sure made a mess huh." sero said with a little giggle.
"we sure did." you said to sero in response.
"better clean it up and head back to class, or else aizawa's gonna get mad."
both of you laughed as you cleaned up the stall and headed back to class just before next period started.
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