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end-orfino · 9 months

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man it would be cool to have a long-term creating capability wouldn't it. wouldn't it.

#slight vent/rant below idk youve been warned #unsure of where i'm going with this because i know that im standing at the border of a deep hole #this hole being an issue i keep struggling wiht but i'm trying not to fall into this hole today at 1:30am as ill try to sleep soon #but man ough. does it feel like i should be working on something.#i always had that but i guess the fact that my partner is succeeding so fast strengthens that?#i know i shouldn't be and its something i'm fighting against with an okay success comparing to how it was in the past but i will admit i am #kind of jealous. i mean who wouldnt be?? its a normal emotion to have and yet it feels so bad. at least im managing it better now #i have to keep reminding myself that he's rushing at a pace way faster than normal. and just bcs i'm more in a normal pace of things doesnt #mean im falling behind #ehhhh

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neoneggs · 11 months

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"crowley's playlist should have more queen" "crowley's playlist should have from eden" you're all right but hear me out

after "naked man friend" and "so did i" crowley's playlist is solely gonna consist of taylor swift breakup songs

#crowley: yeah im fine #also crowley ten minutes later in his car: AND i should've been THERE in the BACK of YOUR MIND #crowley #good omens #why did i pick the one song where she mentions a driving a car when aziraphale would rather fall than sit behind the wheel #i mean getaway car exists too #speaking of that song can we talk about how crowley is reputation like its not even funny #looks dark and mysterious and mean and is actually very romantic #aziraphale is fearless?? or evermore???#good omens 2 #taylor swift

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kuroo-hitsuji · 9 months

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I keep thinking about how Lucifer wears a thick vest and leaves it purposely unbuttoned at the bottom to hide his Slutty Little Waist tm

#obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me dialuci #i drew one (1) different character and now its back to your regularly scheduled lucifucker bullshit apparently--#personally im fucking Convinced he made this choice bc diavolo kept getting distracted #the leaving it unbuttoned part i mean #he got tired of diavolo falling behind on work from ogling him every time he came to drop off/pick up more papers 💀

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notquitehumanwrites · 3 months

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Thought about the constant march of time and had to lay down for a bit

#I feel like I'm behind on where I should be in life and everything is moving on without me and I'm waisting my life #like I turned 23 last fall so that means im almost 24 which is almost 25 and I can't drive I live at home and I dropped out of college #everyone else seems to have it down or at least is ahead of me #and what do I have depression and the lack of privacy that comes with living at home #I should probably talk to my counselor about this rather than posting it in tumblr tags lmao #this was not supposed to turn into this #I just went on a date and it went really well why am I suddenly sad

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gaygollum · 1 year

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splinter: michelangelo, you have heart

me (already knew that michelangelo has heart): 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#IM SORRY HE IS MY FAVORITEEE HE MEANS EVERYTHING TO MEEEE #the shot of him looking out of the sewer but it makes him look like he is behind bars …. ough #he feels trapped in the sewers. hey guys if we werent monsters that were shunned by society and we could do what we wanted what would u do #HE EVEN HAS. GLOW IN THE DARK STARS ON HIS CEILING ABOVE HIS BED. OKAY?#he wants to be on the surface. im falling apart. mikey i love you mikey mikeyyy i love you #mine #mutant mayhem #tmnt

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dullahandyke · 27 days

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didnt even touch on the sandra lynn stuff int he tags of the last post bcos if i talk about her im liable to explode. get behind me, middle-aged divorced woman proficient in archery

#wasnt around for sy as it aired but ive seen the remnants of the liveblogging and its so foul #the genuine misogyny....#saw someone claim gilear was a better parent than her and i had to turn off my computer #i know we all love gilear and hes been tbh redeemed by comedy where sandra lynn doesnt get that #but like. be serious.#that tonal shift in difference of how gilear and sandra lynn are received is wicked interesting to me #and like pre-emptive disclaimer this isnt Gilear Problematic I Want Discourse. im just thinkin thoughts here #the way fy episode 1 gilear actively left his wife n daughter and calls her a demon even if he doesnt mean it that way #but then fig/emily takes an interest in him and from there hes a radically different character whos just kind of. pathetic.#im hesitant to call it flanderization because initial gilear only got like 10 minutes of screentime before wet cat gilear took the stage #but like. in ep1 both faeth parents are shown as equally flawed and on an even narrative playing field #which is then upset as fig latches onto gilear as a comedic force and hes not as much 'dad with tense relationship to daughter he disowned'#as 'guy the pcs do bits with'. esp in fy he doesnt do much but let fig live in his apartment sometimes #(and if u rlly wanna analyse u could say something abt her basically taking care of him instead of the other way around)#this then rlly impacts sandra lynn! bcos now fig has One tense parental relationship to rest all her angst on #and where gilear gets bits. sandra lynn really doesnt get much spotlight until the prison sequence #and the lack of focus on sandra lynn Is lampshaded in-universe and i like the resolution #and then u get to sy where sandra lynn gets as much spotlight as gilear but she doesnt have his comedic shield #so instead she has the dramatic spotlight and both the story and the characters are weirdly obsessed w her sex life #and yeah i know im an aro autist maybe i take cheating a bit lightly. but its in the same category as the 'zelda is mad at gorgug' shit #shes made a spectacle but because shes not gilear and society has notions about sex she gets judged for it #like something abt gilear disowning fig getting dropped while sandra lynn is scrutinised so much rlly rubs me the wrong way #she is FLAWED that is what THE JAIL EP WAS ABOUT!!!#she is TRYING arguably more than GILEAR but she doesnt have the absolution of rule of funny to fall back on #i go insane. i go insane #post not mentioning jy bcos i havent seen it. once again middle-aged divorced women proficient in archery get behind me ill protect u

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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trying to remind myself that struggle doesnt automatically mean failure

#i can struggle but still make it #i have such a defeatist mindset #like if im struggling w my class then that means im worthless and will fail #even if it is completely possible for me to keep trying and working through my struggles and still come out on the other side #then i personally believe that even if i do fail thats ok. i can always try again #i just hve so many outernal pressures on me to succeed bc otherwise i might not get my wellfare nd cant pay rent etc etc #but yeah im rlly trying to practice and get better at being ok with struggling #and NOT give up when i do struggle. it's ok that it isnt easy. it's ok that i fall behind nd am slower. i can still do it

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bobzora · 2 days

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coming out of hibernation for a moment to say that makoto/ann is the best makoto pairing.thanks for listening

#bobtalk #it falls behind other ann pairs for me but i do like it more than mako/haru (which is still perfectly fine but it doesnt hit the same for m #) i mean im not a big ship guy in general there are very few that im like. ride or die for. i just like playing with character dynamics lik #dolls i think its fun. anyway theres a version of makoto's confidant in my head with ann insstead of akira and it's goated #ann has fun chemistry (not romantic specifically) with like everybody she's kind of just the best.hope this helps

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soundsdangeresque · 8 months

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inktowbew days 18-24!!

the rest you will probably get later today lol

#styx says #my art #homestar runner #inktowbew #the cheat #strong bad #dangeresque #dangeresque too #cutesy buttons #renaldo #stingy relenque #strong sad #trogdor #sweet cuppin cakes #oooogh i have done so much drawing lately and im still behind lmao #its fine i just have to finish day 16 and i have yesterdays sketched.... but for now i eep it is almost midnight and i have school tomorrow #um. sorry for falling behind btw my brain chose a really bad time to be mean and rude you get it #n e wayz. ill elaborate on some stuff when i wake up im Tired goodnight

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roboraindrop · 5 months

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My room is freezing cold and I'm so stressed from work 😭 I'm gonna need a fictional man to snuggle me up in some blankets STAT

#I almost quit again today but they convinced me to stay until the end of the week and swebif things get any easier for me. sigh #at least they're not letting me be impulsive like i want to be lmao #I've ever had a job actually care that i want to quit because im falling behind before #anyways My room is Freezing and its lunch time so that means Snuggle time #I am open to whatever f/os would like to hold me fkdnsksh #rain rambles

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8cfc00 · 7 months

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im literally going to throw up im sooooo mad i never got to trick or treat OR sleepover OR play dnd in all SIXTEEN YEARS OF MY FUCKING LIFE..... im supposed to be a TEENAGER doing TEENAGE THINGS but for some reason i CANT

#THE FUCKING TEENS IN DNDADS HAVE A BETTER SOCIAL LIFE THAN ME #WHAT THE HELL #sorry im listening to teen talk and theyre talking about key pivotal teen moments #and i literally have not been over to a friend's house in a YEAR #AND NONE OF MY IRLS EVEN WANT TO GO OUT AND PRACTICE CINEMATOGRAPHY W ME #THIS IS FUCKED #im not that mad about it though #pretty okay on my own #i enjoy the time i get to spend w myself #and i enjoy the freedom that it provides me #an di understand that i gotta make the most out of the situation i am unfortunately in #but like its so fucking hard to do things without the support of a friend by yr side...#but like being friends w someone just for the shit they provide you is kinda fucked #and if i think too hard about the power of friendship and the strong emotional bonds it creates #bad stuff happenbs #idk i just find it hard to find people who understand me #and i tend to click with people who don't share very similar perspectives on friendship w me #i just wish it was as easy for me as it seems to be for the teens #and in a way im afraid im falling behind or missing out cuz i lack a strong friendgroup to fuck around w #but i mean ive been told sleepovers are overated anyway soooo

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crybaby-bkg · 9 months

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writing a slow burn enemies to lovers fic is. a lot harder. than I had expected.

#it’s why it took me so long to start akdhfkfjf #I’m just not used to writing slow burn!!!!#or enemies to lovers!!! lol #especially since enemies to lovers toes a very thin line #of this being too fast and all at once after a brief makeup #OR they’re too mean in the beginning and it’s like why do u have any attraction to that person at all.#so I’m trying to find the line of hesitant friendship somewhere along the line of that!!!!#even tho I’m only on chap three right now AKDHDKFJFJF #IM SO USED TO RUSHING THIS FEELS SO WEIRD!!!!!!#I’m ready for them to fugg #bc fugg is all I know I fear #but it’s coming along very well and I’m enjoying the writing process so much!!!#only downside is my wrist and back hurting #but trust and believe I’ll be back writing tomorrow ☝🏼#I’m enjoying this so much it’s so cathartic #I think I’m gonna write about five chapters first before I publish it and then write the rest as I go #I just know I can fall behind bc of school and depression but I’m really liking this so far!!!#also think I might upload on Monday’s or Thursdays??? idk #bc I do school tues/wed and I don’t typically get on my computer on sundays #and I usually go to bed either really late or really early Fridays LOL idk #I’m rambling soooo much I’m just so excited about this!!! OH and j made a banner and I love that too!!!!#—in store chit chat! 🍫

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thewhizzyhead · 16 days

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anyways sometimes I feel like putting my mass communication major to good use by analysing modern advertising of modern musicals that are either like really popular, those that become cult classics over time (ride the cyclone), and those that fell out of the public eye because of lack of traction (watt kinda fits here) like I genuinely wanna do a ramble series on that

#and then i remember that not only do i have a very busy acad and extracurricular and family life #i also have adhd #so #fuck me i guess #but i really do wanna like analyze this especially for broadway and off broadway musicals in recent years #because like fhjdd rn the current state of broadway is that off those that are backed by strong IPs or rich prod people survive #but those that are more unconventional both in theming and in production stuffs fall behind #and yet somehow these unconventional musicals are what remains strong in the public eye #one very prominent example of this is RIDE THE CYCLONE #i dunno like fjdjd i just find it interesting how a creation or a production gains prominence through either consistent advertising #or just by accident or unintentional means like bootlegs #i dunno like im really rambling rn but i do find it interesting #anyways #personal shit

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soldier-poet-king · 1 year

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Not to be like. All of this can be summed up by naruto. But maybe. Simplified. Gaara. Why do I exist. What is the purpose. What have I done. What will I do. How can I make up for existing.

#franposting #MAYBE SO #the duality of fran is naruto in one hand and kristas harrowing manuscript in the other #and im laid bare between them like. this is fine. i am definitelt a normal well adjusted person #and not a monster and wretch hiding behind my carefully constructed facade of kindness and cheerfulness ans generosity and humour #to make up for the complete lack of anything good or worthwhile #if you wear the mask long enough does it become you. do you fool others. is it enough? will it be enough? to make up for it all?#you run and run but its in circles and youre always left back with yourself when the mask falls ans the distractions fade #god i am so annoying and pretentious and i dont even mean to be it just.#well. another thing to make up for. is complete self effacement possible. idk. i am trying

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abimee · 11 months

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i love doing this oc draw thing instead of artfight because the number 1 stress-out factor for me with artfight is the concept of people drawing my ocs because i dont have the wide interconnected friend circles everyone else has so when i see people getting like 12 attacks from friends and then i get none i literally feel like im about to rip the floorboards to hell off but not in a ''ii deserve to be attacked!!!!!'' way but in a delusional ''everybody is laughing at me singing up for artfight and intentionally planning coordinated efforts to not attack me so that id look silly singing up and not getting anything so itd be better if i never would have signed up at all''

and that ladies and gentleman is why bipolar disorder is a very good thing to screen for

#the schemas in my brain are out to ruin my life so i just have to mitigate it as much as possible #signing up for any sort of event that involves needing people to like you is hard for me because if i fall behind my friends #my brain goes into an overdriven mode of spiralling until it decides that because someone didnt respond to my attack #that means that i did something horribly wrong and that ill be brought out to the public and flayed alive any second #and if youre reading this ans thinking Rylan this is extreme thinking EXACTLY! im exampling myself to show you #just how bad bipolar can effect basic every day thought patterns

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lovedtogekiss · 2 years

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something about the human condition or doemthing; somstbing about finding fifty-something covers of the "predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us!" on youtube made ten-or-so years ago with cracked voices and grainy video and inconsistent singing voices and just. thinking about people ive never met who have never sang professionally in their lives being united by a beautiful song, being united in the experience and the story it tells, taking to youtube in all of their unpolished glory to share a song that made them feel something enough to bare some vulnerable part of themselves to the world; theres something so distinctly human about that

#the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us!#sufjan stevens #predatory wasp #something something predatory wasp of the palisades #just to be clear i know the experience of falling in love with your best friend in an allo thing thats not the universal experience im-#talking abt #this post is abt humanity using art as a means of connection and how the meaning behind it transcends the need for talent or polish #this applies to the more professional covers too #the black and white high-def acapella cover has an outro of them singing for fun in a parking garage #the lead singer in the bathroom cover gets the verses mixed up #a choral acapella cover has the loud buffetting of the wind sometimes overtake the singers #sometimes the guitar makes that high twangy sound that happens when you pull on the string a bit too hard #or that awful buzzinf that happens when you dont hold down the strings properly #i love people #the worst part os that even if i leave a commeng most of them will never know hos cool i tjimk they are #becauss these covers were made upwards of seven years ago #bookmark tag

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