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ateezinmymind · 3 years

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ateez and their size kink

warning: smut, fem! reader

requested by anon,, thank you so much!! i hope this is okay.. i’m sorry if it’s not— i’m on the taller side so— i’m like :/ eh?

hongjoong:

to be one hundred percent honest i think he wouldn’t be one to say he’d have that kink ..at first !!

but the way you would just look so cute under him while he’s railing into you... he’s like wait

he’d love to run his hands all over you just to see the comparison

cups your boobs/chest

because he’s shorter.. he’d never put it away

like ALWAYS teasing you..

“hey joongie” you call from your room to your lover in the living room. making him enter the room to you laying on the bed, sprawled out on your back- causing his dick to twitch in his pants from the sight of your body. your robe the only thing on your body, loosely fit and opened, letting your glistening heat be the center of attention.

“naughty little baby... what are you doing?” he growls out coming to the edge of the bed, grabbing ahold of your ankles to pull you closer to his growing member. gasping out from the sudden jerk and now close proximity to his tent- you stutter out your best “mmmh- i need you p-pretty please?”

“and what exactly does my baby need?” he says lowly, now squeezing your thighs deliciously in his hands. making you shiver, “your cock.”

“is that right?” hongjoong hums out when he brings his hands down to rake up your stomach and to your beautiful breasts. causing you to whine more and put your hands over his, and then to his zipper- fumbling with it while chanting and repeating “yes”

he just watches the pout form upon your lips when your hands are too shaky, so when you huff out- hongjoong immediately pushes you back down and shows you how to do it properly. ending with him fucking your tiny pussy before he could even take off his clothes.

“little baby... so small”

seonghwa:

cocky #1

melts his heart honestly.. like how??

DIRTY TALKER

or more like dirty praises?

please let him cum in your tiny pussy

HE WILL FILL YOU FULL

he wondered if it was just affecting him- how small you were in comparison.

you were so small and cute, it made seonghwa become someone he had to calm down. constantly touching you, you were his little thing to fuck and love- not anyone else’s

“you like that huh? my thick cock stretching your tiny pussy?” he growls right against the shell of your ear, while you throw your head back into his neck letting out moans of pleasure.

“yes, yes! seonghwa you’re so big”

and always when you did your chanting about how much you were in admiration for his bigger size, immediately and always made seonghwa want to bust.

it was something he took so much pride into, like yes. yes he was so big, only for you- and he would never live it down, constantly reminding you in anyway that you were on the lower level.

“mmmh gonna fuck my cum in you yeah? you want that? to fill you so full it’ll spill out of your tiny hole?”

just give him the go ahead and he’ll let go.

only to fuck you over and over again until everything spills to your thighs and onto the bedsheets

yunho:

please wear his clothes

he LOVES to fuck you in his big hoodie/shirt

TUMMY BULGE!!

he knows he big so he’s extremely careful when you’re so much smaller

cockwarming!!

but deep down he really wants to destroy you

as he watches his cock slide in and out of your wet heat from his hovering stance. yunho’s hands veiny, under your (his) clothes and resting on your stomach- he feels himself poke from your inners.

the feeling sending him into oblivion, hips frantic- but gentle hearing every whimper fall from your little lips and how your walls clench desperately around him.

“baby? s-stop clenching so hard” groaning out watching your eyes roll back and body to grow limp in his big hoodie covering your top half, yunho feels himself start to lose control

“b-but i can’t- you feel so good yuyu” moaning out blissfully. each word and sounds making him grow hotter and harder

your legs spread apart so wonderfully for him, as he fucks into your body cushioned on the bed. the morning sun peeking ever so slightly from the window blinds, lighting the room- such a beautiful setting for such lewd antics

slapping sounds, so erotic- waking up wanting and needing you, yunho had caved in

you were so small, but by far the warmest- pleasurable feeling

yeosang:

he’d be like ... wow ... tiny

hahahHAHAH jkjk no

but he’d be soooo AMAZED

like.. for real would think he’s going to break you

i think he would really like you to give him HANDJOBS!!

your tiny hands wrapped around him— fuck

he didn’t think that watching a show on tv, with you sitting on the floor while he in the sofa- you between his legs. that he’d be getting hard and actually cause you to crack first.

no way was yeosang going to interrupt your show for a little bedroom playtime, so when it was you who made the first move- things set sail

your fingers brushing over his tip, gathering his leaking arousal- yeosang kept his eyes down watching every move of your small digits and the way both your hands jacking him off looked.

you made him feel huge, and it was true

“y/n- fuck” bucking his hips up, yeosang twitches closer to the edge

having no idea why you’re making him feel close so fast, you just were irresistible with those small features…. all so tempting-

“you can’t even wrap your hands around me~”

but just wait until after he grunts out his dirty comments and amazement, and cums over your hands- it’ll make him hard all over again, and then he’ll compare his size to the tightness of your cunt

san:

cocky #2

are we surprised? not really no

but there’s two things.. does he want to rip you apart or spare you the delicacy?

DEPENDS ON HIS MOOD

if he’s hornyyyy- it’s game over

he’ll do the whole nine— but you better beg

okay doggy would be a position you and san spend having sex in quite a lot.

especially if he’s feeling greedy and pretty much like the most prideful man on earth- because.. i mean he’s the biggest compared to the little baby you are.

“this small pussy takes my big cock so well huh?” he questions you in a low level moan while gripping ahold of your hips tightly

hitting in you perfectly every time, cries of pleasure rip out of you- as your arms can’t keep your upper body up any longer. “mmm- yes! only for you!”

san loves holding his hands on the small of your back while moving his hips in deliberately- making you fall apart just to his doing. your moans made him gleam with delight. and he couldn’t get enough.

so when san pulls out of your sopping cunt- leaving your orgasm to fade away into the midst of no pleasure. and you begin the begging

oh boy. “sannie! n-no don’t stop!! please stretch me out!” with a pout on your lips and hands trailing down to play with your clit- “i need your big cock~”

he’s back in- pounding into you like no tomorrow.. better yet, you’ll be going on until tomorrow- up all night, ripping orgasm after orgasm from your little body

mingi:

princess boy would think you were so cute

omg like :O

YOU ON TOP = MOANING MESS

your small body taking his big everything would make him so bananas

like.. please RIDE HIS THIGHS

climbing on the thickness of mingi’s thighs, two things were going to happen. one; he was going to take in every second of your show and not take any of it further for him, or two; bring the aftermath of it upon you. meaning you caused this achingly hard erection to occur with the friction of your pussy against his thighs, so why don’t you just be so kind and take care of it?

seeing you on top of his spread legs, bouncing yourself up and down his dick- made him feel warmth succumb every part of his body.

“y/n, baby- yes!” deep moans into the air, head thrown back, adam’s apple bobbing. mingi wouldn’t have it any other way

your thighs straddling him, his cock sheathed into you at the pace you make for yourself- all of it was pure bliss

mostly it was when you reached your high. that he couldn’t take it any longer.

your hands gripping tightly into his shoulders, as you continuously abused your sweet hole with him, clenching, moaning- throwing yourself forward to his chest.

once you hit your climax, mingi needs to pull out to spurt his cum over the small of your stomach. absolutely covering you with his white paint. so much of it- just to be splattered about, all over your panting and heaving self was absolutely pristine

wooyoung:

cocky #3

holy hell, YOURE GOING TO NEED HELP

he will ALWAYS make sure you know just how small you really are

like... oh? you can’t reach that? too bad

SO RUDEEE (not really but like) TEASE!

SUCK HIM OFF PLEASE!! he’ll get so whiny

“you little whore huh? really that’s what you are! a tiny little wh- uH~!”

constantly. everytime he’d ramble about having his thick big dick in the smallest little thing of a mouth you have, giving him just a quick suck and pump of your hands- sent wooyoung into a babbling mess.

to the point where you’d have him bucking up with need- because all you do is be small. that’s it.

be the small thing he gets to fuck and love.

oh? you’re hungry? take his cock. oh? you’re bored? take his cock.

it was simple yet exciting. you loved taking him in every way. and he loved the way you- so little yet so proud and confident that wooyoung wouldn’t let it go.

“you j-just can’t get enough can you?” as soon as the stuttering comes repeatedly- it was a cue for you to brace yourself for a load of his seed.

lips wrapped tight around him, your wet little tongue licking and ravishing…. what a sight.

it’s even better when it’s decorated with the milky white of his cum~

jongho:

something inside him will unlock

and he will want to suddenly make you a MESS

MANHANDLING i swear on it

he will lift you up just in regular life

AND in the bedroom

DOES ALL SORTS OF FUCKING- against the wall, standing, etc

it was the little whine that escaped your mouth when jongho had picked you up from the floor and onto the counter when you two were making out- that he knew, fuck yes.

“oh? you’re becoming more and more dumb each time i fuck your tight pussy, hmm” jongho can help the lowness of his voice to become while feeling the way you get even tighter around him, “maybe i ought to fuck you with something else but my cock?”

“no! no! y-your cock please mmmmh- only yours jongho!” your pleading whines that turn into moans into the crook of his neck, for the way he holds you leaves you no choice but to throw your head into

having your body pinned against the wall, so small- easy to use in his advantage and liking

jongho enjoyed the way you were able to be taken anywhere, and in any way. while even during the normal of the day in life- and your going about in public, how you constantly pressed your tiny hands against his abdomen holding him close. jongho, either had a hand cupping your ass or you palming him

no matter the circumstance. jongho lives to see the baby he loves- so small and sweet be needy and breakable to his every demand…

#ateez #ateez reactions #ateez imagines #ateez smut #ateez fic #ateez drabbles #ateez x reader #yunho #seonghwa #choi san #ateez blurbs #ateez fluff #ateez requests #hongjoong #wooyoung #mingi #jongho #yeosang

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glacierbash · 3 years

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i heard something about a lesbian undead cleric 👀

YOU HEARD RIGHT OKAY

uhh if you're a player in the direlight campaign do not read under the read more unless you're the dm in which case. ya know. hi josh

warning it accidentally got long and rambly Whoops

SOOOO okay my girl my undead lesbian where do weee begin

here's a picture I've just finished of her because I wanted to test out a solid line style and i went too far AND I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO SHADE THE GOLD ON HERRRRRR

so her name is! Adr Irithyl! She's a Shadar-Kai (bodied) twilight cleric who worships the Raven Queen (who in the world is called Selyn). Before dying and her subsequent revival, Adr was one of many nuns who served to help souls pass on to Selyn, so that the Raven Queen could collect them and sort them. Adr specialized in children (which ALWAYS sounds weird), helping them with a soothing darkness that followed her wherever she walked. She would sit beside them, listening to children tell stories, letting them talk and talk until their lives would end, and she'd usher the spirits back. Specifically twilight, she used the dark as a blanket, blinding the children to what was to happen.

But, one of the children she was around ended up getting her ill. She was only ~150-200 when she passed, refusing to let the others heal her at risk of getting them sick. The only one she allowed was her closest "friend" among those in her specific order, telling her "I do not want my life to go to waste. Use my body as a sign that death is to be welcomed, and not feared, and that reversing it isn't the answer."

And then she died, peacefully, after an agonizing couple weeks of struggling with an illness foreign to her body. She's from the Shadowfell, she's not used to the Material Plane. She passed, and so too did 500 years. Empires rose and empires fell. People lived and she was remembered by her Sisters.

Until she wakes up, 500 years in the future, her body a stitched up, mangled mess, surrounded by corpses of other clerics like her, with no recollection of who she even was. She lays there for over a week, just... Noticing. "I should be starving by now. I should be dehydrated by now. Breathing hurts. I can't sleep."

When she finally moves, she just... Keeps seeing the bodies. Pieces of the bodies, sometimes just skin, sometimes their entire limbs. One of her arms was too long. One had a hand with only three fingers. The stitches on her body hurt, and she was covered with arcane markings she couldn't wash off. Memories would... Sometimes hit her, the strongest being this one woman flashing a smile and offering her...

She could never remember the word. it was warmed bread with some spread on it, but the specifics, she couldn't remember. It frustrated her. It frustrated her so much she went to destroy the entire ruins and kill herself.

When she found a note, on the altar where she had been. It was in a language she couldn't read. And... It called to her. As if it would be an answer to who did this. So, rather than kill herself and return to Selyn, she lead the nunnery, left her sisters, with the strange feeling that she wasn't entirely alone, that no matter where she went, bits of those ripped apart to form her would follow, everywhere she went.

Eventually, she found a town, where a person named Henris eventually befriended her, and she stopped her quest for revenge to work as a researcher in a school of Clerichood, which is where the party will meet her!

The Lesbianism:tm: will be something she realizes throughout the story, as she recalls memories of her "dear friend." They were very much in love, but their devotion and dedication (and Adr being... Scared of that aspect of her) meant that they never grew closer than friends. But without those obligations, without that... Goal? Adr doesn't feel that same "moral" obligation to remain celibate and pure and focused on her prayers. In fact, she can barely even remember the prayers she used to say, relying on an old prayer book found on a body of her sisters.

Originally, Adr had been a soft and kind woman who would give up everything to help others, but now? With the knowledge that, surely, in the eyes of her goddess she's an abomination (a theme among my elf clerics actually, undead clerics who think their gods see them as a monster that sends them hardships to get them killed), she doesn't care. She doesn't care about being soft and nice. She doesn't care about pacifism. She doesn't want to hurt people, but if she saw the man that brought her back and to get him, she'd have to kill one of her party members?

At the moment, I don't think I can say she'd wait.

She's not meant to be some overly grimdark, "oh boo-hoo" character, she literally talks like Miette the cat, regularly tries to eat food that she physically can't since she lacks a stomach, is going to be calling one of the characters "Sea salt" because they're a sea elf (granted they deserve it SMH Cancel Sea salt the Bloodhunter 2021 /j), but... She has that part of her. The fact that she never asked to be alive. The fact that she views death as a mercy. The fact that once her goal is complete, she will kill herself without any hesitation for fear of growing too attached to life.

and yeah im going to give her the comphet I struggled with for years because IT'S MY CHARACTER AND I CAN PROJECT THE STRUGGLES

but all the negative aside she does still adore kids and wears a raven mask (see above) to hide her face so that kids don't think she's scary, she'll give kids rides on her shoulders because she's over 7 feet tall, she'll sit with you all night if you have a bad dream (UNLESS YOU'RE SRIGRALT FUCK YOU SRIGRALT /J), she'll even grant you dark vision if you need it because even if the dark is peaceful to her, it isn't that way for everybody.

But, I haven't even played her yet! I'm switching out my genasi monk for her, and I'm. really excited. Adr is so much more interesting to me because while I made my genasi a really femme woman, I can do! So Much more with Adr! AND I just love playing cleric, like. Hitting inflict wounds on the final boss? MWAH that was a magical moment with my other cleric, and since we don't have dedicated support... I'm not complaining about pulling her out ;)

ANYWAYS thank you for asking me abt her Morgan i have thunked about her a lot, expect an ask abt your githzerai cleric soon because dnd characters are <3

#character study #heeheehoohoo lesbian :)#answered ask #ty again I Care Clerics ;w;#again don't. read if we're in the same campaign please and Thank You #it's weird I can't keep dumping abt her in the tags wild...#BUT that is. That Is Her..#fun fact that drawing was the first time I've put a background to something in months!#tw body horror #tw gore #JUST. to be safe bc the backstory #the drawing isn't bad dw #You can barely even see the [redacted for dirty tag readers]#i ended up just saying words and it alternates between and

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arobandhan · 3 years

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confession

okay this just flowed out of me and idk how it got this long but hope you enjoy it my love! @balenciagastones

If you would’ve asked Hannah 6 months ago that she’d be catching a flight to Germany to see her guy best friend play professional football, shed call you crazy, she’d call you insane for even insinuating that she had a professional footballer as a best friend.

But there she was boarding the plane with Emilia and Lewis from Birmingham to Dortmund excited to see Jude.

See a couple months back she went to visit Emilia and Lewis in Birmingham for a nice break away from home, they took her all around the city along with introducing her to all of Lewis’ home friends, one of them being Jude Bellingham who she’d not expect meeting as he was a friend of a friend of Lewis’ and not expected to be home since playing in Germany. But the two met and being the youngest ones in the group became really close really fast. The rest of the group shocked at how connected they had become in the short time they spent together, but alas by the time was done Hannah had to head back up home and Jude had to head back to Dortmund but they swore they'd keep in touch and they kept that promise.

Thousands of texts, calls, facetimes later they were still close as ever and unbeknownst to the other one, feelings of wanting to be more than friends lingered in their minds.

Jude had facetimed hannah while she was doing some school work with a surprise for her, tickets to the biggest game of the season for her, Emilia and Lewis, along with flights already booked. She was shocked to say the least and a first couldn’t accept the gift but he insisted and thats what brought her on the plane today, the excitement bubbled inside her as she couldn’t wait to see him.

The three of them were going to be staying at his apartment while being there and he was going to go pick them up from the airport as they were going to land not long after he’d be done with training.

The plane ride couldn't be any longer in Hannah’s opinion, the entire journey her best friend kept teasing her about seeing Jude again, emilia being one of the few people who knew about Hannah’s feelings for him.

“Will you shut it already!” Hannah whisper yelled, “Jude and I are just friends okay?”

“Mhmm we’ll see after this weekend.” Emilia smirked and turned to talk to her boyfriend.

Hannah sighed before hearing the pilot announce they would begin landing soon. She felt her stomach flip with both excitement and nerves.

They landed safely and headed to the pick up area of the airport with their luggage in hand, Hannah had texted Jude the moment they landed and he had texted back he was already on his way, and soon enough she say his black Mercedes pull up to where they were waiting. He got out of the car and held his arms out to hug Hannah, to which she jumped into his arms.

“Missed ya little one.” he chuckled.

“Missed ya too giant.” she said letting go of him. The couple next to them just smiled and stared at the duo knowing the secret feelings they had for each other.

When they made it to his apartment it was like Emilia and Lewis weren’t there, it was as if there was a bubble around the younger pair, too engrossed in each other and catching up as if they hadn’t talk to each other in weeks. Jude showed them what rooms they’d be staying and let them unwind before seeing what they wanted to do for the rest of the day.

Jude didn’t leave Hannah’s side, watching her set out her things as he sat on the bed making conversation and joking as they normally did.

When she was done they both sat on her bed facing each other just making small talk, then there was a knock on the bedroom door making them both look in that direction, Emilia stood there, Lewis right behind her, with a smirk on her face making Hannah roll her eyes.

“Hey lovebirds,” she teased, “sorry to interrupt your moment but me and Lewis came by to say we were gonna check the area out so we’ll just leave you two back to do whatever you were doing.”

“Uhh yeah that's alright, maybe we can all hang later tonight?” Jude suggested

“Yeah definitely, if you two aren’t too busy for us.” Lewis piped in making Hannah give him a death glare.

Emilia snickered and pulled her boyfriend away before calling out, “See you later cuties, be safe.”

Jude turned back to Hannah and they both burst out laughing.

“They honestly are too much sometimes.” Jude started.

“No honestly its constant, all emilia does is tease me saying that we should date and be a couple based on how close we are.” she laughed nervously.

“Lewis does the same thing to me on the phone, they’re being little masterminds.” he chuckled

“Are you implying that they are planning on getting us together?” she asked with wide eyes.

Jude paused for a minute before scratching the back of his neck nervously, “Umm i mean I’m not too sure, it seems like to me, but its harmless fun right? I mean we’re best friends.”

Her stomach sank a bit, “Yeah exactly just harmless fun,” he could see her attitude change, “soo um what time is the game tomorrow?” she asked getting off the bed to fold her clothes again.

“Nah nah Han why’d you change your mood right there?” he asked getting up from the bed as well and going to her side.

“Nothing J.”

“I know when it’s nothing tell me.” she looked up at him and sighed.

“J i promise its nothing dont worry just tired from the flight.” he didn’t believe her but stopped pestering.

“If you say so, wanna watch a movie?” he smiled at her making her smile back and nod, hoping the movie will make her forget that conversation.

The entire movie they sat close to each other, light cuddling involved but nothing crazy. When the movie finished she got up and told him she was gonna shower so she can change into comfier clothes to which he asked if she wanted one of his hoodies since it was cold in the apartment, which she agreed to smiling widely.

As he waited for her to get out of the shower, he kept himself occupied on his phone, tv on in the background, the door then opened to the couple who left earlier returning from their time out.

Jude looked up and smiled, “Hey guys you have fun?”

“Yeah what about you two huh? Where’s Hannah at?” Emilia asked teasingly.

“She’s showering,” he started, “you two keep doing that thing about trying to make us a couple, basically outing my feelings, she gets awkward when you do that.”

Emilia and Lewis looked at him and then looked at each other before bursting out laughing,

“Mate do you know why she gets awkward when we making those jokes?”

“Cuz she doesn’t like me that way.”

“Wow those footballs to the head really do make you loopy,” Emilia sighed, “its cuz she likes you back dummy.”

“Nah stop playing, she definitely does not.”

“She does too.” lewis argued back

“The entirety of your friendship she calls me and goes ‘Jude said this’ and ‘Jude did that’ ‘Jude Jude Jude Jude’ she's head over heels for you but is too scared to admit it.”

“Thats why we left earlier so you guys can admit it to each other.”

“What?!” Jude was shocked at what he was hearing, yeah he had feelings for Hannah but thought the distance and everything would turn her away from being in a relationship.

“Yes now we’re gonna go to our guest room and you go to Hannah.” Emilia said dragging her boyfriend to their room.

Jude then walked into Hannah’s room and sat on her bed, he heard the water turn off and gulped nervously.

Hannah came out in just a towel and just about jumped when she saw Jude sitting on the bed.

“Oh good lord you fucking scared me,” she chuckled making him laugh, “whats up? Everything okay?”

“Yeah no everything’s good just came to spend time with you.” he smiled making her blush.

He waited for her to change into her clothes in the bathroom before she came and sat legs crossed on the bed next to him, he looked at her and handed over the hoodie he grabbed for her.

“Thank you very much.” she smiled widely putting it on making him smile even wider.

They both then just laid back next to each other in a comfortable silence before Jude decided to break it.

“Soooo..” he started

“Soooo..” she repeated giggling.

“Emilia told me I’m your favorite topic of conversation.” he teased, making her blush and covering her face.

“I’m gonna kill her.” she groaned

He turned his body to the side to face her, moving her hands away from her face.

“I think it’s cute y’know?” he smiled, poking her side making her giggle, “y’know what else i think is cute?” she shook her head as he brought his body closer to her side, basically hovering over her.

“Well, i think its cute when you blush, I think its cute when you scrunch your nose when being complimented, i think its cute how you ramble when you get fired up about something,” their eyes were locked on each other, “I think its cute how small you look next to me and right now how small you look in my hoodie, cuz you're just overall cute.”

“Why thank you but what is this all about?” she whispered smiling slightly

“Cuz i heard someone has a crush on you.” he smiled slightly back, her smile started to grow a bit.

“Oh yeah? I heard someone has a crush on you too.” she responded.

“Oh yeah? Well the person who has a crush on you really wants to be more than friends but he’s scared you won’t want the same.” he leaned down closer

“Well the person who has a crush on you is scared of the same thing.”

“The person who has a crush on wants to kiss you right now.” he said confidently

“Please do.” she whispered before he crashed his lips onto hers.

Hannah swore she was dreaming, but was glad she wasn’t.

The kiss was short but sweet and was the confirmation they both needed.

“Been waiting too long to do that.” he chuckled, making her giggle.

“Worth the wait.” she said kissing him again.

The next day there Hannah was in her #22 Bellingham jersey cheering her best friend, now boyfriend, on in the stands for his biggest game at Dortmund.

The rest was history.

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san--shine · 5 years

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My fansign experience (10.04.2019)

Soooo after 2 months here finally comes my fansign experience. I will try to keep it short but still it will be way to long so I will place it under the cut after Hongjoong. I hope I don’t make anyone sad or something and it can make you smile a bit maybe~

Hongjoong

When I came up to him and told him that I am nervous he instantly told me not to be nervous and tried to make me laugh. When I asked him why he said that I am cute when I laught. He then proceed to laugh with me about my post-it question which was telling me the mental ages of the members. Afterwards we still had time since Seonghwa was still busy so I let him guess my age. He asked if he should guess in korean or german age and I told him that he could decide and he decided on german age. He then leaned back and proceed to drag his gaze up and down until he settled on my eyes. And guess what. He said 23 which is kinda right since I tun 23 later this year. We were both so surprised since normally noone guesses my age right and he was surprised probably that he got it right and that I am older than them ^^

For the general vibes he gave me during the fansign: He has such a calm and funny vibe. He was nervous, you could tell, but he was always sure of himself and about what he was saying to you. Truly the perfect leader who did everything he could to calm you down or make you laugh depending on what he thought would help you more ~

Seonghwa

Let me give you something of his trained english: “HI, oh you bought shiber with you. How are you.” ... “Nervous? Me too, so nervous.” He leaned so close while we were talking. His post-it question was about his favorite korean food. And he asked me if I have ever eaten Ramen in the end and I was like “Yeah yesterday before the concert.” He was so surprised, happy and excited and was telling me that he actually ate ramen 10 minutes before the fansign and that I shouldn’t tell anyone ^^ In the end he gave Shiber a pat and said that I should come to Korea to eat with him. Poor baby was wearing so much make up tho.

Seonghwa has such a calming vibe. Like, I literally thought I would freak out while sitting in front of him. But he hold eye contact all the time and let me tell you, you could see his eyes shining with happiness. He was so happy and it managed to calm me down instantly. I don't know how often he told me how nervous he is too. It makes you feel so much better knowing that they were struggling with nervousness too.

Yunho

The first thing after he read my name was saying how muched he loves my name. He also loved that I am becoming a teacher. Though he guessed that I'm a English teacher since my english was so good. When I tried to explain him what I am studying he was struggling to understand what I mean with the word math but he understood biology. After he read my post-it note (where I asked him to write down some encouraging words for studying) he asked me why. So I told him that I was struggling with university and was scared to actually fail it in the end. Yunho said that I should always study hard and that whenever I feel that it gets to much that I should know that he will think about me. I told him that he is cute when I got up to get to Yeosang and he got so shy ~

Yunho gives the BIGGEST boyfriend vibes! Idk. It's so hard to describe actualy. But he was so curious about my studying and teaching. And I think he kinda felt bad that he didn't understood a word, but hyped me up anyway. I got the feeling that you could tell him everything and anything and he would listen to you! He always looked to endluged in whatever atiny was telling him. If you ever need someone to just listen to your rambles and then tell you that everything will be alright you will love him!

Yeosang

He. Is. So. Cute. And.. he didn't shave^^ He had so much make up on his face trying to conceal it but you could see it clearly. It was so adorable. And he was wearing blue contact lenses. Oof. I asked him to sort all member into Hogwarts Houses (because I knew from a gc beforehand that Yunho would get that question like 3 times already) and he was so eager to do it. He struggled with some word but I had written the house names in the original colors so that helped him. Actually he asked me to help him sort after a while and it was so much fun (San was watching me while doing it because he was bored but I will scream about it later). It was especially funn when we had written down 7 members and we both were looking down left and right wondering who we forgot to sort (it was Jongho btw) :D

Yeosangs vibes are just.. He is so cute. The cutest. You could actually see in his eyes how nervous he was, but he tried his best to talk to you. His english might be broken but he was so sweet trying so hard to make you understand what he was saying. He used up so much time talking to Atiny, the staff in the back almost always tapped him on his shoulder and saying that he was taking too long. And he gave me and others such a good and calming vibe because of it. Like a rock in a waterstream or something. If I ever had a problem I would go to him and he would just hold me and tell me it's fine.

San

OMG San. First of all, before I even got a chance to meet him, he- ugh. Let me tell you something. I was sitting first row, number 17, when I had to get up to start getting in line he still had no one sitting in front of him. So he saw me picking up Shiber and getting in line (I didn’t saw that). A bit later when I was waiting in line I watched the members one by one because I felt like somebody was watching me. San.. He was starring at me. Because he saw me waiting there with a Shiber plushie. When we locked eyes he made a sign like “I am watching you, just you wait until you get here” and was smiling so brightly. When he had to look away because atiny sat in front of him I broke down. I actually found myself sitting on the floor you can’t fcking believe!

Okay so when it was my turn to talk to him he was waiting for me (Later in pictures and videos I could see that he actually really was waiting. He looked at me and even had the fcking decency to tilt his head and everyone says his eyes screamed “cute” while he was watching me talking and discussing with Yeosang). The first thing he did was scolding Shiber: "Hey Shiber. What are you doing? You are supposed to be in my bed! What are you doing in her lap, hmm?" It was so funny but I got a bit defencive I guess because I answered: "he's here to protect me because I'm nervous" He just looked up to me and smiled?!! And then to Shiber again: "Good Shiber. From no on you protect her and make her smile for me yeah?" I DIED. When he looked down to write in the album he had his hand open on the table for me to hold it, like an open gesture, but I was so shy. I took it tho after a short while and he smiled and HAD THE FCKINGASLJHDFALSJD sorry.. he pulled his fingers in so my hand was touching him more (what freaking fanfiction is this). And actually, it helped so much to calm me down. He wasn't surprised at all about the kkt groupchat I am in and he was happy about it translating everything he wrote down so I could tell them in the groupchat how much he appreciates them. I had a second question prepared, because I am selfish like that where I basically told him that he is the dimple kind and if I could be his dimple queen (since I have dimplse too) San just smiled and said that I can be his queen ~ He high fived me, smiling down at our hands and even continues talking to me while I was already sitting in front of Mingi (I’m sorry Mingi sweetheart).

Now his vibes: Like.. oof. You just sit in front of him and get all kind of different vibes from him at once. Cute. Handsome. Maybe even get a bit scared if he comes to close. Boyfriend. Soft. Respect. But his voice is so soft, it makes you feel all kind of things. And he respects you so much. Like, the others hold their hands up so you can touch and high five them and he just hold his on the table in front of me (I actually didn’t saw him doing it for anyone else) and let me choose if I wanted to hold hands or not. Such a happy vibe

Mingi

Mingi sunshine I’m so sorry again ^^. But still so much fun honestly. The first thing he did was greeting Shiber and then got cut of by San because he still wanted to talk to me (I’m so sorry Mingi, I couldn’t help myself. How should I say no to San?!) While San and I were talking he signed my album silently. He was so glad that I translated the question and wrote it down in english and korean (my question for him was to list his 3 favorite things to do in his spare time). He was so happy about his question and so he wrote down his answers way to fast. And then he tried to translate them for me (Eat, listening to music, going to the sauna). He asked me which ateez concept of the album I like more the red or the black one. I said black and he was surprised and tried defending the red side ^^

He has such little lost baby kitten vibes. Mingi has so much energy in him and you could see he wanted to just run around. Especially in the end it seems to get really hard for him to just sit still. He was so active he even managed to knock over his water bottle while talking to one of the first atinys xD

Wooyoung

My baby Wooyoung. He was so nervous and looked so scared and insecure. I just wanted to hug him, but of course I wasn’t allowed. When he read my name he was confused because I wrote it normally and in korean. But instead of a “j” I used an “i” in the korean version because it sounds like an i if you pronouce it. I tried to explain to him why I wrote it like this, but I don’t think he understood. While he was signing he started to sing to one of the songs playing in the background but stopped when I joined quietly. I felt so betrayed ^^ He smiled about the question (I asked him what I could do to make him happy) He didn’t translate what he wrote down and I needed 2 weeks to get it translated (work on your fcking handwriting woo baby) Sadly we didn’t talk at all while he was writing. Of course I don’t know the reason for it. I actually think it was because I was one of the first and he was still too nervous, because I saw him smiling and opening up more and more while the fansign went on. When he gave me a high five he intertwined our fingers and said he is happy just like this. I told him that he is cute especially when he smiles and that he is loved by me and Atiny. He got so shy and said thank you ~

Wooyoung was so shy. You know how he always acts so confident, but he is such a shy bean and insecure. And he is pure. So we two were actually just two shy beans sitting in front of each other that didn’t know what to do. But he still has much more confidence than I do. The bit we talked were all initiated by him ^^

Jongho

Jongho is so precious. And he just basically overflows with confidence. I was a wreck when I finally came to him but he was so nice and understandable. His english is really good and you could see that he knows what effect he had. His post-it not was to rank his members from the funniest to the lamest. He started but then decided he want my opinion too. So we sorted them together when he struggled with deciding who was funnier. He smiled so much at me and holds deep eye contact while talking actually. We laughed together about his hippo head and the choices he made on the post-it. When I needed to get up he told me I was cute (this btch). I told him he was cute too and he didn't believe me (maybe because of the hippopotamus head). Since he was sitting in front of me we had some cute moments when he was bored. Looking and smiling at me, encouraging me to take pictures of him

Jongho gives really down to earth vibes. He was so calm. Sure he was confident but he was bubbling with energy and happines you could see in his eyes how he was containing himself. And the respect he gives you. I was red as a tomato when I finally reached him (I saw that on video, so no one can tell me otherwise), but he talked normally with me ignoring my internal struggles. He only broke when I told him that he's cute :D

Final words

This fansign was THE best day in my life so far.

If you ever get the chance to meet them or you are struggling to decide if you wanna try to see them just do it. Its worth the stress and the money and your time. (The fansign actually cost me less than the concert ^^)

They ruined my biaslist those 2 days completly. Yunho at the concert and everyone else at the fansign. San is still on top and will forever stay there tho.

I hope you had fun reading my little rant ~<3

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What I Want - Bad Boy! Taehyung x Reader - Chapter 11 - Soooo...What Are We?

Synopsis: You are an innocent, excitable new girl, moving all the way to Korea due to your dad’s new job. As you anxiously learn about the new world around you and how you’ll make your mark, you stumble into none other than bad boy Kim Taehyung and his band of six crazy friends. He seems to be bothered but you, something he doesn’t even understand. Will you be able to tolerate the shenanigans of Taehyung and his rowdy friends, or will you fall victim to his charms just like everyone else?

Featuring Jihyo and Dahyun (TWICE) as your friends, and BTS members as Taehyung’s group of friends.

Genre: Romance, BadBoy!V, BadBoy!BTS, High School Romance, Drama

Length: approx. 4k words

Chapter 11 - Soooo...What Are We?

“Wait, Taehyung!” You shouted as you followed him down the street. “I really need to talk to you.”

“I know.” He said. “Trust me, you can talk to me all you want when we get where we’re going. It’s not that far if we run.” You sighed, quickening your pace to follow him down the road. You ran for a few more minutes, across a few streets and down a few blocks until you reached an apartment complex. You glanced up at the tall amount of apartment buildings stacked on top of each other and sighed.

“…So where are we? You’re house?” You asked curiously, hugging yourself a bit because it was starting to get cold. Taehyung shook his head.

“Nope. Jin-Hyung’s apartment.” He said. You raised an eyebrow.

“I thought he had a house with a hot tub.” You pointed out, remembering back to earlier that evening.

“I lied.” He grinned. “Come on.” He reached out and took your hand again, now walking up towards the apartments and inside. You were in the elevator for a few moments, rising up and up the building until you reached the 15th floor. It was weird being alone in the apartment with Taehyung, especially since neither of you were talking. He was trying to make a move on your either, taking advantage of the alone time you were sharing. You opened your mouth to speak.

“Taehyung, I-“

Ding.

The elevator stopped and the doors slid open, making you close your mouth and stop your sentence before it even really began. Taehyung led you out. As the elevator doors closed, you started stepping ahead when suddenly, you felt something over your eyes. It was a set of hands.

“What? Taehyung what are you doing?!” You gasped in surprise.

“Just follow me.” He said, as he gently began guiding you somewhere unknown. You were a bit nervous to see what would be before you when Taehyung moved your hands, but at the same time, you were a bit excited. You walked straight for a bit before he made you turn left. The sound of a door creaking open was heard before it closed itself behind you. You must be inside Jin’s apartment. “Almost there…” he said, guiding you. He stopped you for a second before you felt his foot nudging at yours. “Keep your eyes closed and take off your shoes.” You couldn’t help but smile.

“Fine.” You said, before using the heel of each foot to slide off each shoe. “Remind me to fix those when I get my sight back.” You stated. Taehyung simply hummed and continued to lead you. You still had no idea where you were, but you felt warmth and you smelt something delicious.

“Okay,” Taehyung said, lowering his hands. “Open your eyes.” When you did you were amazed. You were standing inside a tiny, but functional dining room living room combination. The dining room table was set up, two candles sitting in the middle, their flames lighting up the entire room. The table wasn’t set with food yet, just utensils and cups. There was a little Christmas tree set up on the counter that looked into the kitchen, lit up and sparkling, and looking around you saw the rest of the apartment had a few decorations in it as well for the upcoming holiday. You smiled a bit, turning to Taehyung. You saw he was still in his leather jacket and jeans, but he had on a nice shirt and even a little bowtie that was sloppily put together. You grinned.

“What’s all of this?” He walked over towards you. You lifted your hands up and fixed his bowtie as you waited for him to explain himself.

“Well we were planning our second date, but I got an idea of maybe surprise you. Jungkook suggested a picnic but it’s too cold, so Jin-Hyung offered us his apartment for the evening so we could have a nice Christmas dinner instead.” Your heart fluttered. “But I wanted to keep it a surprise, which is why I said we were just hanging out in his hot tub that he doesn’t have.” You chuckled a bit.

“Clever…” you said breathlessly. Taehyung led you to the table, pulling out the seat as you sat down and got comfortable. “I’m surprised Jin is allowing you total access to his kitchen and apartment.” You said. Taehyung shrugged.

“He’s not.” He said. You raised an eyebrow, before hearing a cough. Looking over, you saw Jin, standing at the door that led into the kitchen in an apron and a chef hat. You had to stifle a laugh, grinning a bit as he stepped aside. Behind him, Jungkook, Jimin, and J-Hope were standing there. It seemed they were wearing waiter attire, and all grinning like morons. You laughed.

“What on earth?” You watched J-Hope walk up to you, a pitcher in his hand.

“…Something to drink~?” He cooed. You laughed, nodding as you watched him pour you both drinks.

“He said I could only use his house if he could cook the food and they could all act as our waiters.”

“Five personal waiters and a personal chef, hm?” You glanced back over, seeing Yoongi and Namjoon had appeared and were standing up behind the small opening that looked into the living room. “Wow, you really have some connections.” Taehyung chuckled.

“You don’t think this is lame, do you?” He asked.

“No! Not at all!” You said quickly. “I think it’s so funny and they look great.” Taehyung sighed in relief.

“Good.” He said. You watched as Jin approached the table with Namjoon and Yoongi. Yoongi and Namjoon set down two plates in front of each of you, and you could hear Jimin and Jungkook holding back laughter from behind the door.

“Worldwide Handsome has made you a worldwide meal,” Jin said, grinning. You giggled as Taehyung covered his face.

“Hyung, please…” he begged. Jin laughed a bit as he shrugged, motioning the boys out of the room.

“Let us know if you need anything~.” Jimin cooed, before Yoongi pulled him into the other room.

“We’ll all be in Hyung’s room playing video games and not watching you-“

“Jungkook!” Taehyung glared at him, and you watched the boy run out of sight in a fit of laughter. You smiled as you looked down at the plate before you. Jin had made some noodle stir fry with some chicken, and the warmth of the food hit your face and it made you relax. There was some rice placed in the middle of the table as well, and some condiments and other things needed to enjoy. Taehyung lifted up his chopsticks and sighed. “Enjoy.” He smiled a bit. You nodded as the two of you began to eat.

The moment you took a bite, your eyes lit up. “Oh my goodness! Jin made this?” You asked. Taehyung grinned as he continued to eat, nodding. “Wow! That’s incredible, he’s so talented. This is so good!”

“Then be sure to tell him that when he comes back.” As you both continued to eat, Taehyung eventually glanced up at you. “So…what did you have to talk to me about?” he asked curiously. You blushed a bit as you thought about it.

“Well…” you set your chopsticks down and put your hands on your lap. “First off, I wanted to say I was sorry for the way I acted at the end of school. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings or anything if I did.” You sighed. “Everyone’s been asking me every day what we were and if we were dating and everything. I was trying to ignore it but I just couldn’t.” Taehyung frowned.

“Why were you trying to ignore it?” He asked.

“Well I didn’t know what to tell them, that’s why.” You said simply. “I mean…” You covered your face. “I don’t know. On one hand, everyone tells me that you don’t just kiss someone you’re not dating but I know that may not always be the case. Plus you didn’t ask me out and-“ Taehyung smiled, resting his head in his hands as he listened to you ramble out excuses and thoughts that you had been feeling this entire time.

“You ramble a lot.” He said, grinning as you stopped.

“Well…what do you make of all of it?” you asked. Taehyung shrugged.

“Honestly? I thought we were already dating, especially with the way you and I act now.” He said simply. You blushed and took your napkin, putting it in front of your face. “….Is that not what we were trying to do here?” he asked curiously. You could hear the confusion and almost slight…annoyance in his voice and it made you feel so guilty.

“No…” you choked out. “I just feel so stupid…I was waiting for you to ask me out but when you never did I thought you were waiting. But then you were acting like we were already dating so I just didn’t know what was going on in your head. I really liked how we were getting along but every time I tried to just enjoy it I started thinking “What if this isn’t what I think it is and I look like an absolute idiot?”. Everyone told me not to let any of these people whispering get to me and it did and I’m so sorry. You must think I’m such a fool…” Taehyung sighed, pushing his seat back and getting up. You glanced up from behind your napkin, your eyes glossy as you tried to hold back tears. He walked over to you, squatting down to look in the eyes at an easier level. He took the napkin from your hands and gently dried your eyes.

“Does it mean that much to you that I ask?” he asked. “I would’ve if I had known.”

“I know…” you sniffled. “Like I said, I felt so stupid but I couldn’t help myself. And people constantly asking me – no, telling me – that I was your girlfriend when I wasn’t even sure wasn’t helping. I know I shouldn’t jump to conclusions but I couldn’t help but think we didn’t feel the same way about each other…And that idea made me really sad….” Taehyung watched you take the napkin back and dab your eyes before setting it back down.

“Well if it helps any…I really did think after the festival that we were dating. But if it helps you feel better…will you go out with me?” He asked. You chuckled a bit, nodding. “There.” He stood up. “Now, no more tears and just enjoy yourself, okay?”

“Okay.” You smiled. The two of you continued to eat, occasionally chatting up one another. When you finished your drink, you held up the glass and smiled. “How do I call one of them over here for a refill?” You asked. Taehyung grinned a bit, pointing to the little bell on the table.

“Ring it.” He said. You picked it up, gripping the handle as you allowed it to ring several times. When you set it down, you heard a muffled “Oh shit” in the distance, before sounds of stumbling and feet pattering out of the back room. You and Taehyung snickered as Namjoon and J-Hope poked their heads in. They were still in the waiter’s outfits but looked like they had a few drinks while they were taking their breaks.

“…Yes?” They both said, and the two of you laughed at their appearances.

“We need refills you bunch of alcoholics.” Taehyung teased, motioning to the empty glass you were holding. J-Hope fixed his tie, taking the reins on this as he grabbed the pitcher and brought it over, pouring you some water. You smiled up at him.

“Hoseok, I cannot believe how serious you’re taking this.” You said. J-Hope grinned down at you as he shrugged.

“Can we take a picture of you two?!” You heard Jimin shout, and you glanced over to see him and Jungkook standing there with a camera. “We need to treasure this moment.”

“Oh God please no,” Taehyung begged, covering his face.

“No dessert if you don’t let us take a commemorative photo.” Jungkook teased. “Jin-Hyung let us have a taste already and it’s really good.” You looked at Taehyung.

“Oh God, I need some dessert.” You said. Taehyung groaned.

“Fine.” Jungkook stepped forward and J-Hope backed up, and he lifted up his little camera. You saw Taehyung lift a peace sign over his eye, giving a small smile, and you couldn’t help but mirror him. He glanced at you for a moment, before smiling a bit more and looking back at the camera as Jungkook snapped the photo. You watched the boys gather around the youngest boy to see the picture.

“Awwww~.” J-Hope swooned. “So cute.”

“Me next!” Jimin begged.

“Out!” Taehyung pointed to the door, his cheeks red. “Where’s the dessert you promised?? Also, clean our plates. What kind of waiters are you guys?!” You couldn’t help but laugh as you covered your mouth to stifle it. You saw Jungkook go back into the room to get Jin and Yoongi, while Jimin, Namjoon, and Hoseok took the empty plates and glasses as they headed into the kitchen to put them in the sink. You watched Jin make his way past, a playfully smug look on his face.

“Did you enjoy your food?” he asked, hands behind his back. You sat up straight.

“Jin, you’re an amazing chef! You should do this professionally!” Jin grinned.

“I appreciate it.” He said happily. “But hopefully you like my dessert too.” He said. You watched him go into the kitchen with the others, hearing some requests for them to get out because it was too cramped, before seeing Hoseok and Jimin leave in a fit of giggles. Yoongi was standing nearby, resting against the wall. Taehyung turned to him.

“…I kind of wish there was a piano here.” He said. You tilted your head.

“Well, there’s not, so…” Yoongi shrugged.

“Do you play, Yoongi?” you asked.

“He’s great,” Taehyung said. “Learned to play as a kid. If you saw him play you’d never think he hangs out with people like us.”

“And what’s that supposed to mean!?” Jungkook asked, putting his hands on Taehyung’s shoulders. You smiled as you heard Jin shoo Jimin and Namjoon out of the kitchen. They came out, each holding a plate of what looked like chocolate cake. You saw a piece in front of you and your eyes lit up.

“Wow.” You gasped, clasping your hands together. “This looks good.”

“Enjoy~,” Jin said, turning to Namjoon and Yoongi. “Shall we?” Each one of the boys took either Hoseok, Jimin, or Jungkook and practically dragged the trio back inside. You waved them off.

“Dig in,” Taehyung said. The two of you began to eat. “Damn, Hyung never fucks it up, does he?”

“Seriously, he’s so talented.” You gasped, putting another forkful in your mouth. Taehyung smiled at you. “I really am amazed that they’re willing to help you in such a way. You really have some good friends, Taehyung.”

“Yeah…” he said. “I’m pretty lucky.” You watched him eat another piece and rest his fork down. “Did you…like this surprise?” he asked, his cheeks tinting pink. You nodded.

“This was the best meal I think I’ve ever gotten to eat. And it was the most fun too.” You said. “So yes, I had an absolute blast.” Taehyung smiled, nodding a bit as the two of you finished up. “It’s a shame it’s over.” You said.

Glancing out the window and towards the balcony, you could see that it was beginning to get dark. The two of you got out of your seats to stretch and prepare to leave the apartment as the six others came back in from the other room. Your empty plates were cleaned up by the other boys and put in the kitchen, and Jungkook was the one who brought you your coat and pocketbook from the hallway. You got your stuff and turned to Jin.

“Thank you for the food. You’re an amazing chef.” You said, smiling. Jin laughed, a bit of shyness hitting him.

“Aww, thanks. Make sure Taehyung gets you home safe, okay?” You nodded. Taehyung was by the front door with Jimin, putting on his shoes.

“Did she tell you what’s got her so bothered?” Jimin asked, leaning against the wall. Taehyung stood up and turned to him.

“Yeah, but it’s not that big of a deal.” He said. “It’s over and done with.” He glanced behind him as you approached. “Ready to go?”

“Ready~,” you said happily. Turning back to everyone, you waved to them. “If I don’t see you before the holiday I hope you all have a good Christmas!”

“You too,” Namjoon called.

“Let’s celebrate New Year’s together!” Jungkook called, before Jin motioned him and Jimin into the kitchen to start with the dishes. Taehyung waved them off as he led you outside and closed the door. You fixed your jacket and turned to Taehyung, who offered you his hand.

“Let’s go.” He said. “It’s supposed to snow tonight and I want to get you home before then.” You nodded, taking his hand as you both headed back to your house. The two of you walked in silence for a little while, just enjoying the cool night air and the Christmas lights that dawned local shops and some homes. Street lights were wrapped in candy cane-like wraps, and different light-shaped objects such as stars and snowflakes were seen hung between them.

“I can’t believe your birthday is right after Christmas.” You said, cutting the silence between you. “Are you sure you don’t want me to get you anything?” Taehyung shrugged.

“Nah.” He said. After a moment of silence, he squeezed your hand. “You’re enough.” You blushed, looking away. “But next year I expect a present.” He smiled a bit, and you nodded.

“I’ll make sure it’s a great present.” You said. “So you better prepare for it now.” Taehyung smiled a bit, bringing your gloved hand up to his lips and kissing it. You were about 5 minutes from your house when it began to snow. “Oh no. I thought this was supposed to start an hour from now.”

“Can’t ever trust the damn weather channels.” Taehyung huffed. “We’re almost home, anyway.” You both quickened your pace just slightly as you head towards the house. However, it seemed that with every step you took, the snow started getting heavier and heavier, sticking more and more to the ground and leaving your footprints behind you with every brunch in the newly formed snow. “Jeez, it’s really coming down.” He said, putting a hand over his uncovered head. You sighed, taking off your pocketbook and putting it over his head.

“You should’ve brought a hat.” You said. Taehyung blushed a bit, pouting.

“I forgot.” He said. “But we’re here, just in time too.” You both headed up to your steps and to the door, the awning keeping you shielding from the snow just a bit. “Okay. Get inside and get warm, okay?”

“What, you think I’m letting you walk home in this? No way.” You said. Taehyung raised an eyebrow.

“Well, I’m not having anyone come get me?” He said. “So what am I supposed to do?”

“Come inside and warm up, maybe the snow will die down a little bit soon and then you can hurry home.” Taehyung sighed, glancing towards the door.

“Will your dad lose his shit?” he asked. You nodded as you unlocked the door.

“Oh yeah.” You smiled up at him as you led him inside. “I’m home!”

“There you are! What on earth happened to you?! You’ve been gone for almost three hours!” Your father snapped. “It’s almost ten o’clock and-“he glanced at Taehyung. “I’m assuming your tardiness is because of him.”

“Dad stop.” You said as you both took off your snow-soaked jackets and hung them up. “We just got some dinner and it started to snow. I’m not letting him leave when it’s this bad out.” Just then, your mother came out from her bedroom, wearing her pajamas with her hair up. She smiled when she saw you, and glanced out the window.

“I agree.” She said. “Taehyung, you can stay here tonight.” Taehyung blinked.

“Oh uh…” he looked at you, and you simply smiled. “Only if it’s not any trouble.”

“Of course not.” She said. “Don’t listen to my husband, he’s a fool. Will the couch do?”

“O-oh yeah!” He said. “That’ll do.” He patted his clothes. “Luckily I’m not too soaked.” Your mother smiled as she headed down the hall to get a spare blanket and pillow for the couch. You watched your father get up and walk over to Taehyung, glaring at him. Taehyung, obviously not intimidated, simply looking up at him and put his hands in his pockets.

“I assume you’re smart enough to know that you’re forbidden from my daughter’s room tonight, hm?”

“Dad!” You gasped, covering your face. Taehyung put a hand on your shoulder to stop you.

“I hope you know I have no bad intentions with your daughter, Sir.” He said simply. “She is my girlfriend, after all…” hearing him say that made your heart flutter a bit. Just yours though, your father looked like Taehyung had just threatened him, and he glared down at Taehyung. You could sense the tension between them, it was so thick!

“Leave them alone!” Your mother snapped at your father, making you all look at her. She laid out a pillow and blanket. “Don’t be so rude to him. You can say that without an attitude. Now, why don’t you do something useful and make everyone some hot chocolate?” Your father huffed, glaring one more time before he went into the kitchen. You smiled.

“My dad can never say no to my mom.” You said, and Taehyung chuckled.

“You’re absolutely right.” She beamed. “Now, get comfortable. I’ll see if we have any spare pajamas or something that you can wear.” She said, heading into the hallway.

The two of you sat in the living room and sipped hot chocolate for a while, allowing you both to get warmed up. But it was late, and the running while in the snow did knock a lot of energy out of you. So, once you finished your drinks, you were ready for bed.

“Don’t listen to my dad.” You said as you watched Taehyung lies back on the couch. “If you need anything, feel free to wake up and ask me. But you know where the bathroom is and all that so…”

“I’ll be okay.” He smiled. “Sleep well.” He said. You nodded, getting ready to head upstairs. “Oh! Wait!” You turned to him. “C’mere….” You walked over to the couch, leaning forward to look down at him. He sat up and gave you a quick peck. You smiled as he lied down. “Goodnight.” He said.

“…Goodnight.” You said happily as you headed up to your room. As you closed the door to your room, you put your fingers to your lips, the light peck still lingering on your lips. You threw on your pajamas and crawled into bed. The thought of Taehyung being just downstairs made you anxious and the quietness of the home wasn’t helping out too much. Knowing that the two of you finally had a label and that you were officially a couple, made you feel so much more at ease. You closed your eyes as you slowly waited to fall asleep.

You slept soundly for the majority of the night until you heard a slight knock on your door. You groaned, opening your eyes as you sat up in bed. It was still dark, only 2 a.m., and you were just barely getting your eyes adjusted to the darkness. But then were was another knock, before someone slowly began to open the door. You saw a figure poke their head in, and after another moment of your eyes adjusting you knew exactly who it was.

“…Taehyung?” you mumbled, rubbing your eyes. You watched him walk towards the bed, and you turned the light on. You saw he had a somber look on his face as he looked down at the floor. You sat up more, sitting on the edge of your bed. “What’s wrong?” He glanced at you, biting his lip in embarrassment.

“I can’t sleep.”

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Brains and Sparks and Percy

// Under a cut because I’m rambling and this is going to be long and messy. Basically: Things do not work like they do with humans (at least in tfa) and sparks are super important and brains are, well, pretty important, yeah, but not in the same way.

// So I’m trying to figure this out. The emotions thing with Percy is kinda weird because Cybertronians have both the spark and the brain, and supposedly the spark’s got something big to do with personality and memories and junk, and the brain,,, doesn’t???

If I remember correctly, when Yoketron died, Prowl just grabbed up his spark and stuck it in a fresh protoform, and he woke up. Same guy, no problem. Died right after, because he wanted to, but it can be assumed that that could have worked.

And then you’ve got Starscream doing stuff with the clones and replacement bodies, but the Allspark bits were involved so that might be different. Also one may assume that Starscream would make clones with brains like his IF that is how it works, which it might NOT be. Unknown as of yet.

But then CNA, which is stored in the spark, is their sourcecode and determines pretty much everything that their being is based on, and it’s also what they use for clones. So????? How important is the brain (processor), really????

Humans are like this: The brain is the all-important thing that stores all of what makes a person that person (only not exactly because the body plays a role and the chemistry is important and there are hormones and stuff and basically if you lop off a limb or remove some organs you not only make the body work less well, but also screw up the balance of Stuff and the brain is affected and the person is actually Not exactly the same, but that’s just what I’ve heard and I don’t even remember where) and the heart is just the thing that makes the rest of the body go. More or less.

Replace the heart and person A is still person A. But the brain, move that thing around and the person goes with it. Mostly. Er, well, we actually don’t do that, for the most part. But basically that’s it. There’s a whole When Are We Not Alive/Not Human/Someone Else/Etc Etc Whatever debate in here but I’m not concerned with that now.

Cybertronians are different. (talking strictly TFA here) The spark holds the personality, memories, CNA, and??? We don’t know what else. Maybe information in general too, because why not, and because Yoketron and Starscream had zero trouble remembering things, despite having no transference of files from processor to processor.

This also kinda explains how Starsceam’s personality was able to take over the simulation in Rise of Safeguard (tfa comic) when they took his CNA and got his decepticon code from it. Soooo idk maybe they got excited and just stuck his CNA in there wholesale instead of splicing it up and taking the useful bits. Ergo, a fully formed Starscream personality within the simulation, wreaking havoc and strong-willed enough to take over the computer until it was weakened in-sim and then they got control over the comp and his program again out-of-sim. Nice going Percy. I wonder if they kept that sim. Probably did. Probably have a diced up version of Starscream’s personality in there, just conscious enough to exist as an entity within the computer, but not enough to resist. Cool. Yeah, or not, whatever--not important; getting off track.

So sparks have a ton of stuff in them. So then what about the brains.

The brains are the interface for the spark, they connect the spark to the body. Yyyeah. The spark in part powers the body, which in turn powers the spark... I guess? maybe not? The...brains...act as an emulator? Eh. The brains interpret the data in the spark and realize it. Yyes? The brains....

Gah, I don’t know. Maybe all brains are essentially the same, and it’s the spark that makes them different. So with a Cybertronian, you could do a brain transplant and be chill; the bodies still have the same personalities and stuff as before, like human with a heart transplant. But change the sparks and you take everything that makes a bot that bot and move it. So frame/body/shell changes aren’t too hard. Only the spark is essential. That would explain Yoketron, Starscream.. even the Jettwins-- Jetfire’s head was gone. Also the Stunticons, Drift maybe... hm. Yeah.

So there are places where we do know stuff about brains, so I might have to disagree with stuff I’ve said above now. Or not! Hopefully not. Arcee’s brain was damaged by the EMP, deleting her memories and rendering her comatose. But that changed. The Omega Sentinels were created with simpler processors. Derek J Wyatt’s wording on Percy was that he deleted his emotions to clear room in his hard drive for more science. I’m thinking this isn’t how computers work, and the wording and specifics were changed anyway so it’s.. mostly moot? It’s moot.

So I’m thinking brains are, for the most part, blanks. Generic. Pretty much all the same. The brains actually go with the body/shell/frame/whatever, and are primed to take care of that body, regardless of what spark it has in it. It’s kind of like the nerves and spinal cord and brain stem and such in that it is integrated into its body and meant to keep that functioning.

Crud, the whole headless thing though. Oh my goodness, how the heck does that work. Crap. Uhhh... A wireless connection? Sure why not. Ok so if the brain and body are in proximity they can still communicate... Spark to brain, brain to body, body to brain, brain to spark, etc. and the bot can still move around comically unless another brain unit hacks in and takes control of the body. Like in the show. Ok. That works.

Blast a bot’s head off, destroy the brain, and the spark can still survive. It might sustain trauma from the loss of the brain, but it’s still alive. For a while anyway. It could fade pretty soon after. Important point is that without the brain, the spark cannot control the body. The brain is what does that. The brain acts as a conduit between the spark and body. Destroy the brain (or completely sever the wireless connection, or block it) and the living spark cannot move the body. It can keep it powered for a time, but can do nothing.

But if you get a new brain in time, things are ok! Like a heart transplant! Connection restored, and things are working again! As long as the brain is compatible with the body type/size and spark size/power output, things are great. So like Arcee couldn’t be a brain donor for an Omega Sentinel, but an Omega Sentinel could be a brain donor for another Omega Sentinel. They’re compatible. They could also probably just. Build more brains. The spark’s the important bit, so there wouldn’t really be a moral issue.

So basically the spark can’t communicate directly with the brainless body. Doesn’t work. Spark is funky energy and data, and needs translation into stuff the body can do. The Brain does that. Spark can give power to body, keep it alive and “on,” but even base functions won’t run without a brain. (Why? because aliens. Because robots. Because whatever. Because if the spark acts like a brain, what point is there in having a brain. None. But they do. So I make up nonsense like this.)

It would be interesting if a bot had multiple processors throughout the body. Backups. Blow their head off and chest brain 2 powers on. Headless but not hopeless indeed. There’s probably a drawback to this, or at least a taboo, but I imagine it could be made to work. Sweet.

Mm and I guess another thing on brains, they are interchangeable to a degree, but CPU speed is another difference that would have to be taken into account, in addition to size and such. The spark-compatible speed may or may not be determined by CNA--so a bot with lower CPU speed wouldn’t do well with a transplant of a higher-speed brain. Probably. I don’t know computers.

Oh, and of course the brain takes in data from the body and processes it and sends it to the spark. When a bot sees something the optics send the data to the brain which sends it to the spark where it becomes part of a memory and other stuff happens too, and the spark sends its reaction to the brain which sends it to the body. ....Sure.

Okay, Now Arcee and the Omega Sentinels. Arcee got blasted with EMP and as a result lost her memory (but it came back later) and went into a coma (but she woke up later). Percy told Ratchet that the damage to her processor was irreparable. Evidently he was wrong or lying. So if we take that at face value, the EMP fried her brain. If I’m right, this means that her spark was fine, and her memories and all were intact there, but that the damage to her processor prevented her from accessing them. And further, the damage incapacitated her--she was still alive, but her brain didn’t work well enough for her to get up and walk around and talk. She was in a coma.

The scientists and medics did what they could (or did they) and still she didn’t recover. They kept her for some reason; guess they don’t kill/let die coma patients? I image they’re easier to keep alive than human ones. So after she was captured by the Cons she woke up and remembered Ratchet and was able to function a bit.., Shockwave digging around in her head didn’t help--or maybe it did? Maybe the events of her capture jostled something in her brain into the right place and from there she just had to reboot and restore stuff back into her brain from her spark. Took a while, hence the kinda slow recovery of her mind. I think Sari helped? Maybe? Or Bee? I don’t remember.

The Omega Sentinels. Created with, according to Percy, very simple processors, so that they comprehend the repercussions of their actions in the war less, and question orders less. Yeah pretty sure that was it. So okay! A few possibilities.

Their sparks are normal sparks and the brain is normal, but has (potentially removable) blocks and mental barriers coded into it so that they question orders less.

The sparks are normal but the brains have been directly (and slightly more permanently?) altered so that a bit less communication happens between the spark and brain on specific data channels, resulting in less questioning orders.

The brain is actually pretty normal, entirely normal even, but the spark was messed with so that they question orders less. Percy just said that it was the processor that was altered because... reasons.... I don’t know.

Both brain and spark were altered. Spark was messed with as in 3, and the brain was messed with as in 1 or 2.

I don’t see Percy or the Autobots having much of a problem with any of these tbh. So I’m going to pick the one I like best and say they did that until I get info that supports one over the other. I think for now I’ll go with 1, until I psychoanalyze everyone involved in the decision and figure out that I’m totally wrong. Hey idk maybe I’m right, 1 is the easiest and they are kind of trying to get things done quickly.

Anyway, so that takes care of Arcee and the Omega Sentinels. Aaand it seems like my idea of sparks and brains holds up! Mostly! If you tilt your head and close one eye! Now for smaller and less plot-relevant details that could still unravel my theory.

The Jet twins. Jetfire’s head was blown clean off. Both bodies were reformatted into ones capable of flight. Both had flyer code taken from Starscream added in so that they could fly. It was taken from Starscream’s CNA, so it stands to reason that it was integrated into their CNA--put into their sparks. Jetfire got a new brain, and both bots were fine after everything. Same personalities and memories; the only difference was that they could fly. This goes fine with my theory.

Perceptor. “Deleted personality subroutines” is the canon take on it, though this is in Shockwave’s words, which is maybe relevant. There are a few possibilities:

He deleted standard brain programs that dealt with parts of emotion and personality; his spark was the same, but the personality data that was sent to the brain was not processed, or at least wasn’t processed the same way. Thus freeing brain space for other data and possibly speeding up processing. I have no idea if computers actually work like this and will have to ask someone to confirm or debunk this.

He left the brain alone and messed directly with his spark and CNA so that the coding for personality bits was erased, freeing up spark data space for science. I don’t think sparks work like this.

He created blocks or paths in his brain that redirected emotional/personality data to other parts, away from the CPU, so that he would be less biased when doing science. This one makes sense??

Number 3 but he can turn it on and off. He does science a lot and likes to be unbiased, so the block/redirection is mostly on, but he turns it off when he can’t otherwise come to a decision, or when he knows that he needs emotions to plug into a certain situation. Or when he realizes that it would make an experience or social situation work better. Or when I want him to have emotions. After so long without emotions, they can be terrible and fantastic.

Something else.

I really like 4. Even when redirection is on, his spark would still feel things in reaction, and his em field might even do stuff to show how he feels, depending on how those fields work exactly--emitted by spark and dampened by brain?--and he could even store the emotions he’s not actively feeling alongside memory, so he’d have copies with and without. Yeeah I like this but idk if I’ll actually use it..... .....Yeah I probably will tbh.

Eh, and whatever he did, he messed something up and his voice became flatter. That’s right, it was just a mistake. Ha. Yeah this isn’t certain either I could still change my mind on this or change it

Wow. This is a mess. If anyone actually reads this, I’d love to hear any thoughts you might have!

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