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zangyo · 3 months

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[-CRIES- Something in my theme broke in the update forever ago and it's driving me nuts. So I'll be using like a separator just so I can see where things separate with posts on my theme.]

#me: this is fine #me months later: I HATE IT #;ooc jabber #;tbd #tumblr why'd you do this to me #my blockquote.....

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bixels · 3 months

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I've been making the transition these past few months, but I think I'm gonna just move back to Tumblr. My Twitter's follower-base has reached a point where I can't tweet anything casually opinion-related without it overflowing like a toilet. I post a short thread on my gripes with color design in anime and I'm getting QRT'd with "kill this guy with hammers" reaction gifs. Like, damn, this isn't fun anymore. It's not fun to talk about stuff on Twitter in general anymore. I wanted to post some ship dynamic doodles sometime there, but I know I'm gonna get weirdly aggressive takes and reactions. Monkey's paw curls, but I don't particularly like having that many followers.

#personal #delete later #like i'm generally good at not letting internet stuff get to me #it's dumb and inconsequential and i'm confident in who i am as a colorist #i faced some racist racist racist ass shit last month when some alt right weebs found an old post critting whitewashing #like i've gotten dms from people harrassing me about being taiwanese #but tumblr is so lowkey while twitter will blast qrts in your face going “this guy hates you for your basic ass anime opinion”#and i'm like hm. :/#idk thanks for being chill in general guys. except with the miyazaki post that was a toilet overflow #best thing about tumblr is how easy it is to ignore weirdos or weirdly aggressive people #i'm still gonna post art there but really just art. it's more destructive than constructive to use twitter as a discussion space now

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panevanbuckley · 7 months

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a constant struggle as a multi-shipper is not only having to decide which fic to read next but also which ship 😭

#i never used to have this struggle so bad 😭 i blame f1 for making their entire grid so shippable #ao3 #fanfic #i've been flip flopping between ships for months now #lestappen #sebchal #martian #landoscar #galex #buddie #lokius #gallavich #sambucky #jegulus #wolfstar #drarry #it's an ongoing nightmare honestly #my marked for later page hates me

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forget-me-ghost · 3 months

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I love the idea that Vox had a crush on Alastor and he literally asked Al on a date/to be his boyfriend all those years ago, but Alastor's aroace ass thought that Vox asked him to be his 'business partner' and not a romantic one so he said 'no' to that, and now Vox hates Al with every part of his TV body while also obssesing over him.

I LOVE IT BECAUSE IT HAPPENED TO ME!

#hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin hotel vox #vox #in high school some guy asked me if I could give him private lessons #and I thought he literally meant like tutoring and I didn't have time for thay so I said no #months later my friend told me that it was him asking me out on a date #but whoops the guy already hated me by that time so yea

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joseigamer · 5 months

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Patalliro! is fascinating to me because of stuff like this. It's unapologetically gay - even within its anime which aired during primetime hours in 1982 - in a way that many later BL manga would never be, like the ones from the early 2000s which would never dare to call their characters actual homosexuals. Patalliro has actually aged quite well in this regard, there's something comforting about how campy it is.

#i still dont really understand how they got away with this kind of thing honestly #female VAs i get that - but first m/m kiss in an anime in episode THREE?????#theres also the maraich/thomas episode where they are *Both* voiced by women....advanced yuri #patalliro #i love how bancorans gender expression is pretty much explicitly to attract only bishounen #you blushed - so you must not be a girl #etc #i also love how joyful it all is #theres never anything sad or tragic about being gay - only that bancoran is forced to kill the bishounen spies/assassins/etc #when bancoran finds out that gay sex feels good after demian; in the manga he is elated. its basically a positive thing #he awakens to his true power...lol #also notable is that while bishounen youth is glorified maraich is still 18.#besides making the show more palatable; this means it portrays being gay as an adult as normal #according to the NYT japan's psychiatric body called homosexuality a mental illness until 1995 #im not going to say patalliro changed that or anything lmao but its just significant to me that banmara get to live their lives happily #especially contrasting that with kaze to ki no uta and other manga of the time (no shade intended)#yaoi #<- for tagging purposes #obviously it also got away with a lot by being a gag manga. but still!#months later edit: want to say im not intending to moralize BL manga from the 2000s either. like gen. no hate on them.#as a gay person i just appreciate when characters who act gay are considered gay textually #and its kind of disheartening how gay-as-identity was treated as something incredulous in those manga a lot of the time #even the mere suggestion of attraction to men as a whole and not just the other male lead...yknow

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hornystiel · 2 months

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back by unpopular demand:🌟me🌟

#the demand was indeed unpopular - only one person sent me a message checking up on me lmao. not even cockles hating anons visited my askbox #anyway hello yes a month later i'm here again and i will bring my valentines art before deadline <3 #thoughts in words

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zorosdimples · 5 months

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i have such deep-rooted disdain for how healthcare—particularly for women—is treated in the u.s.

#they can’t see my iud strings so i have to schedule another appointment a month later that i have to pay for to ensure my iud is still there #‘it’s not high priority.’ maybe for YOU. but this is MY BODY. i hate it i hate it i hate it. this thing has given me nothing but grief #and now we’re not even sure if i STILL HAVE IT. but yes please make me jump through hoops and schedule more appointments and pay money #to figure out what the fuck is going on. ugh. sometimes i wish—never mind. anyway. tag rant over.#tw personal #cw personal #tbd

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inadequate-nefelibata · 8 days

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There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in • Anthem by Leonard Cohen

Allison McRoberts and Patty O'Connor KEVIN CAN F*** HIMSELF (2021)

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wilted3sunflowers · 7 months

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just to say upfront You not have any right to repost my art at all, you got here through your own course of actions and only now you want to suggest possibly 'I.d.'ing them yourself?

Multiple people block you and you keep harassing them, literally having an account called blockdodger22, @'ing people and you think that's okay? You do not know how to have any etiquette online, much less talking to people in a clear concise way and then getting pissy with them for not bending over backwards for you. You have no concept of being respectful. You are behaving as an obsessive, stalking, creep. Flat out. How are you online and do not take a block and leave. It is as simple as that.

You did not even start out our first 'exchange' with a clear message and goal.

You kept commenting under peoples posts just at random, especially after just freshly following them. Saying "Image description?" and myself included didn't understand what you're even asking about. Under multiple posts you asked me that and I didn't even know what was wrong with my description under my image until a friend told me you were asking for a description of the image itself not that you were questioning the actual description under my image. Another person even brought to my attention you flat out said to them on their own post "Image description?" "I should not have to ask more than once." paraphrasing as you even mistyped once then corrected your typo. So much time to just correct that and comment instead of just. doing what you command of people. What gives you the right to even demand any of that from anyone?

Which is not even a proper exchange, it's you barking orders at people like they're a bot and not someone to converse with. You put your time and energy into continuing this act not just towards sme but multiple other people online. Instead of just bringing it up to someone and leaving them with the choice to try to do it or not. You do not get to demand what people put on their posts or not. If it has been such an issue do not follow them. For me I want to post my artwork with the minimal words i can because I'm tired. I want to post and go. This is an art blog. I post my art and I go. I do not even have a far reaching "platform" like you're trying to insinuate. If i did, i would've been able to keep up my patreon with enough money to comfortably have. But I didn't and I had to close my patreon because i could not grow it and all my energy went into patreon rewards with very little income for me and couldn't actually find the time to create what I wanted.

You want to act like this is me hating accessibility but this is you wanting to come on, annoy people unprompted, numerous times to random people on the internet and being blatantly rude and demanding and backpedaling as if this is an actual care.

You are a rude and hypocritical individual coming up to bother people in the name of "accessibility" . You do not genuinely care.

People who actually cared would not go this obsessive, harassing, rude length. You spend more energy doing this than doing what you say you set that server out to do! In multiple times you wanted to 'contact me' you would post the same comment under over 10 posts with no clarity, I tell you i'm annoyed and with a broken keyboard with multiple people attesting because they're actually close enough to see me in discord servers and streams to see the broken keys you wanted to act as if you knew better. as if I'm the liar. you came onto my posts just to get snotty and bratty. So I of course block you. months pass, I get a new laptop, you use your blockdodger22 tumblr account and only THEN want to declare there's a discord server to 'help'.

"But I literally sent you a link to people who will do this for you. And I'm in that server too. I'm in there helping people who care about accessibility." If this is how you act to random people online, why would I ever want to come into a server with you? If this is how you behave? Why would anyone?

if you did care you would flat out be commenting on the image description you want to see typed out for yourself. As many people already DO on tumblr without any issue at all! you wouldn't have to do this fake song and dance.

I've had multiple people in the past of my works,- typically only Steven universe fanart itself which i do not make a ton of, only adopts, They will reblog with the image description. They don't even have to ask, they just do it. Why? Because thats what they want to do and what they care about. You want to say "Oh I'm only trying to help, I guess you don't care about accessibility." You did not want to help, you wanted to make a mountain out of a molehill to random people online who are not influencers or even big time corporations. You are not treating anyone I see you come into contact with any respect or politeness.

All you genuinely want is to either

1. feel better about yourself thinking you're doing good with something you're not putting the actual energy towards that you say is important to you. Like other people online, who do that thing and especially do it for artists unprompted because they want to SEE it being done and take the time for themselves.

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2. to look for a fight using these people as a smokescreen because you keep obsessively trying to get people's attention on their posts and then act automatically like you're in the right despite being nasty and rude online.

If you cared so much you would be putting your money where your mouth is. You would be putting your energy into putting all these image descriptions on these images that you want without all this fluff. But you don't, why? I genuinely don't care for an answer from you. I want you to leave me and everyone else alone.

There's people behind these screens, you don't care, you only care if people do what you say at a moment's notice.

You want to say I don't care about people with disabilities for the fact I don't do one thing. One thing that only you have demanded of me in all my ten years on this blog.

You're acting as if I'm bashing people online and saying they have no right to be here. As if I hate them. You're now just wanting to paint a broad stroke of me hating disabilities in general instead of the actual topic at hand. I make multiple characters with disabilities for myself and my adopts. That I myself have issues too.

I am doing my own thing. I am simply posting my art. You are simply annoying the hell out of many artists myself included.

This is a matter of me disliking you.

Especially when I found out you are not only harassing me but people around me, other artists and even smaller artists at that! What gives you the gall and the right to be acting so self righteous when all you've done is act as a genuine dick to people.

#marrow talks #The one thing i hate the most is people being rude not just to me but others as well #To demand things of anyone is attrocious behavior especially to random people you dont know online #i know a lot of people wont get whats been going on because i ignored a lot of this person #but literally i tell them to stop spamming comments with the same comment they get up in arms #ofc i block and then months later they return with a block dodging tumblr account to only then say hey theres a server to do this for you #then i ignore them and block because why would i want to be around them #and then they come in to EMAIL A SUBMISSION because of double blocking #i want to be left alone!#leave me alone!

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mochiwrites · 2 months

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queertemporality · 5 months

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i have admitted a want and/or need. this is tantamount to admitting weakness. now i must go and fold my arms behind my back and contemplate the wall for the next six months

#post #i love this for me #i’ll be like ‘m-maybe we should hang out’ and then i have to go pretend I don’t have feelings for like 6 months #someone recently was like ‘it comes off like you don’t like people’ and im like huh wonder why that is #surely not my avoidant behaviors leading you to conclude that I don’t care #I do wish I could like um express literally anything without um wanting to crawl into a hole about it #like sorry! sorry I said that. I need to go become my father for a while. to cope. you know?#still obsessed with the way my one friend will be like ‘I love hanging out and talking to you’#and an hour later my brain will be like ‘she basically said she hates you and she never wants to see you again’#like can I live beyond the shadow of my mother

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jarchaeology · 1 year

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THE SCANNER SERIES [BOP Magazine June 1998]

#the scanner series #the scanner series: 1998 #every time he said he wasn't into the hollywood party scene it just makes me want to be a fly on the wall at his first hollywood parties #i hate parties but it's wild to me that he graduated from HS in texas and then ended up in hollywood months later #but also i want to know how normal stuff went more #like grocery shopping and laundry for a boy who had his mom do all of that for him before

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talentforlying · 2 months

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priest: i don't, ah, quite know what to say to you. if you are in such terrible danger, why are you taking it all so calmly? constantine: hmh! i dunno, father. i had a bloke beaten to a pulp earlier this evening. that sound calm to you? priest: you did what...? constantine: i must've been off me bleedin' rocker. i've never done anything like it before in me life, y'know?

constantine: but there's header gets his guts blown out, and george is stickin' his head in the noose, and helen gets ... jesus, then friggin' sarah bites me head off — ! everything's coming to bits in me hands and it's so easy to just see red and now, shit, they could've killed the tosser for all i know! and now i'm just like the bastards i've hated all me life! kill him! fire him! close them down! piss all over him! screw you, i can do whatever i want! i so much as blink and you're dead, pal! i'm in charge!! ...

constantine: 'scuse me, father. i'm always like this when i don't get me own way. — hellblazer #81, "rake at the gates of hell pt. 4"

babygirl you are just....so, sooooo offputting. (and grieving, and guilty, and terrified, but yeah: offputting.)

anyway, it's issues like this one that remind me why i kind of hesitate over some of the retcons in the recent spurrier runs, like the one with him now having opened dream's pouch of sand and stolen some before they even met. because like, it's easy enough to look at john constantine now — with 70 years of worst possible choices and unresolved trauma crystallizing underneath his skin to cover up all the soft, hopeful bits where he's used to getting hit — and assign him arbiter of ill intentions, magus of wasted potential, saint of shit choices, but man . . . he was new to this, once. he was still new to this 80 issues in.

80 issues in, and he's not used to losing friends yet; he even has time enough between catastrophes to grieve each individual one. still has enough left to live for at this stage to necessitate running and hiding, instead of bodily throwing himself at the problem like he learns to later, or sitting apathetically by to do nothing except smoke and watch the world fall apart when he finally gives up. fuck, he still apologizes.

and you're telling me this guy, this soppy wet cat motherfucker hiding from the devil in a church basement, so guilty over not knowing what happened to the guy that he paid people (paid chas, so chas could pay people) to attack that the bottle he's holding in this scene isn't even his second or third........this guy's past, more innocent self lied right to the face of DREAM OF THE ENDLESS and got away with it?

hm. i just don't know about all that.

#also this is where my headcanons tag is from <3 #( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD.#( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.#sometimes i just think that. people really like to reduce constantine down to one or two things #and somehow. after 250 issues of putting his life on the line bc he could never really make himself look away from people suffering #the soft sullen guilty person who wants so fucking desperately to be a better man? is never one of those two things #idk man. i think about this issue all the time #if i put these pages side-by-side with his grief in hellblazer 2? with his grief in hellblazer 213? 215? during the empathy virus arc?#it becomes CRYSTAL clear that the guy we know at the end of hellblazer isn't someone the guy who sat vigil for gary lester would recognize #in fact i think he's someone that hellblazer 81 constantine would fucking Hate #ANYway yeah. i don't think he lied to dream about the pouch. i don't think he ever got it open. i don't think that's canon for me #i want him to fucking Earn his asshole nature. the hard way. by making All The Wrong Choices that it took to get him there #he paved that road with good intentions himself but. he also used to remember the ones he started with #idk if i'm making sense but i have had this panel open on my laptop for Two Months now #bc i can never stop thinking about how fucking crushed he is here to realize that he might be exactly as bad a man as sarah said he was #and how little it will surprise him later on to learn that he is Easily capable of So Much Fuckin Worse #and with that your honor the defense rests. our evidence? just. just Look at this fuckin guy #scopophobia /#scopophobia #eye contact /#eye contact tw

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skunkes · 4 months

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#had to rearrange it but i think the doodle page is semi saved now i dont hate it as much #thank GOD bc it was torturing me #i have to figure out colors now though #i have colors i associate with every month but ive been letting them rule entire pages for a while now #which isnt as fun. restricting.#a doodley #delete later #january is yellow btw.

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archduke-enver-gortash · 16 days

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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

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onestepbackwards · 3 months

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My new monitor broke :')

#ITS NOT EVEN SIX MONTHS OLD YET WHAT THE FUCK #i hate it here #at least it isn't the gpu but FUCK me man #i at least also have my drawing tablet as a second monitor but good lord #knock on wood #my bad luck strikes again OTL #i am trying SO hard not to lose my shit rn #its not too expensive at least #but man :/#i at least hoped it was the cables but even different ones won't work #aaaaaaa #zed.talks #personal post #delete later

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