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flamingpen18 · 1 year

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I just learned that we cannot get access to both storage units until we pay off the entire back bill. We owe $460.25. We don't have it.

I'm so fed up with all of it. It's not enough to lose our home to circumstances beyond our control.

It's bad enough that we have been on waiting lists for an apartment for over 2 years.

It's bad enough that Dave has to have a complete knee replacement and can't even consider the surgery while we are homeless.

It's bad enough I had to send my 15 yr old daughter to go live with friends, and I hardly ever see her. Her 16th birthday is on the 22nd, and I can't do a damn thing for her.

It's bad enough that I am physically disabled and no homeless shelter will take me. My disability makes it impossible to stay in the van even when I have no choice. The pain is ungodly.

It's bad enough that I have no friends and no family that can/would help. I'm not even from this state, so I do not know anyone.

It's bad enough that SSI screwed up my address and they took several hundred dollars from my pay.

It's bad enough that our van is breaking down and that Dave is babying it to try to buy time until we can afford to buy the parts it needs.

It's bad enough that I am unable to even get to my doctor appts due to the van issues.

It's bad enough that I have contacted every place imaginable to get help, and all of them, except social services, told me that they can't help.

I'm sick of getting repeatedly beaten while I'm down. I'm not even allowed a brief respite from all the bull sh*t to just catch my breath before something else comes along and beats me down even further.

I'm fed up with feeling like a failure as a parent and for letting my daughters down even though it's through no fault of my own. It's the most heinous feeling in the world.

I never wanted to be rich. I grew up with a disabled dad. We had no money and barely scraped by each month. My parents had a tight budget which meant they could not afford frivolous expenditures. We went without heat, hot water, cable, telephone service, et. That was the norm for us.

All I have ever wanted was to have a roof over our heads, a functioning vehicle, food, clothing, and our needs met with just enough money left over for emergencies. I guess that was hoping for too damn much.

@helly-watermelonsmellinfellon

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aconissa · 8 months

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Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle Vincent van Gogh, Garden at Arles (1888)

#vincent van gogh #shirley jackson #we have always lived in the castle #my comparatives #ana speaks #mine #quotes #art #graphics #popular

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humanistlaw · 1 year

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#yellowjackets #lol #van palmer #yellowjackets spoilers #lottie matthews #vans just sitting here like I was living my peaceful video store life less than 48 hours ago

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zivazivc · 1 month

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just found about this funky fish that can walk around on land and the thing looks straight out of the trolls world. look at this thing, i love it!

anyway, floyd grew up in a cage and hed grew up in a city, i doubt they'd be thrilled to see one of these things for the first time. I know I would have shat my pants if i saw a 1.5 meter long catfish walk out of a lake towards me

#...#you...#you have to understand #they are two insanely cuddly affectionate guys with very unaffectionate/affection shy love interests #jhxbjhcvch rip 😢#trolls #dreamworks trolls #trolls floyd #trolls oc #ex bandmates #hed #liv #les #mudskippers #my art #les loves animals #he would probably try to adopt any critter they'd come upon #only for hed to stop him because they live in a crammed van #at least he managed to adopt floyd lmao shdbvkd

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wylanslcve · 11 months

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I'm not leaving 2023 without the knowledge that one day I'll see them fall through a ceiling together.

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stealingpotatoes · 6 months

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Din shows up in the N-1 while everyone else is arguing and Luke is like, "I will fit in the tiny car seat, get me out of here while they are too distracted to notice"

luke would absolutely lie abt fitting in the tiny seat if it meant getting in the n-1, yes

(commission info // kofi support!)

#my brother described din as 'a guy who used to live in a camper van but now lives out of his c2 corvette' and yeah #dinluke #din djarin #luke skywalker #star wars #my doods #thanks for the ask!#the mandalorian #skydalorian

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abovesn4kes · 1 year

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AU that takes place in 1999 in which Dutch and Hosea make shitty western movies as tax write offs

#im going to make more of this au just trust me #the entire gang makes western movies together and lives in a small apartment #chaos ensues #people might die idk #im sorry i made dutch look like a pimp. its just inevitable in every modern au that he has to have the pimp look #rdr2 #red dead redemption #dutch van der linde #arthur morgan #hosea matthews #vandermatthews #modern au #my art

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heymacy · 1 month

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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

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iridescentoracle · 2 months

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i am so obsessed with how like. taken as read the ot3 are at this point. like on the one hand it feels like they've been building up to this for ages but on the other hand it kind of feels like i blinked and we skipped right past some Major Turning Point where everything got spelled out and we're just already in firmly Established Relationship-land. obviously tarvek is too well-protected for anyone to assassinate openly, look how angry his boyfriend and girlfriend are at the idea of anyone threatening him. at this point i'm half-convinced agatha's just going to refer to her boyfriends in passing to someone else and no one's even going to comment on it until van finds out twenty pages later and immediately starts making everyone pay up

#girl genius #i just. the matching frowns. tarvek's deliberately-foppish not-quite-innocent shit-eating grin and folded hands #i'm obsessed with this panel i'm obsessed with this page i'm obsessed with this entire week's comics #and everything that everyone has chosen to say about these three since. man i don't even remember. october?#when was the comment about albia worrying colette will join the polycule i forget #i mean and also everyone has said about these three ever. violetta telling gilvek to stop flirting lives in my head rent free #but the entire last month has just been. i am Reeling what has HAPPENED #i was ready to live off the group hug for the next YEAR and every comic then has felt like a brand new brick????#except for krosp and norville's grand adventure which. well that also felt like a set of bricks but very different ones #also i'm only half-convinced bc a) agatha *is* awfully good at big dramatic speeches #and it's still hard to imagine the Big Relationship(s) Upgrade(s) happening without one #b) it also feels extremely plausible that instead of agatha talking about her boyfriends to a third party #gil or tarvek will refer to *their* boyfriend to agatha (who will not comment on that until van finds out twenty pages later etc)#anthyding can hadplen etc and it feels so much like suddenly it already has. what timeline are we IN #sarah don't look #nyquil don't look

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flamingpen18 · 1 year

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I Am So Screwed

Dave got sick first. He's been coughing and running a fever. I really prayed hard not to get it. I am a severe asthmatic. Due to that whenever I get so much as a cold, it goes right into my lungs. I really didn't want to get sick.

I woke up very congested and coughing a lot. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest. My rescue inhaler is nearby, and I am using it too much. If I end up in severe distress, I will have to go to the er.

Plz help

#help #donate #donation #GFM #Go Fund Me #gofundme #sick #asthma #asthmatic #difficulty breathing #helly watermelonsmellinfellon #poor #poverty #van #living in my van #van life #homeless #cold #homelssness

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puppyeared · 15 days

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just realized i forgot to make a page for sleight on my artfight, so i decided to update his ref while im at it

#for legal reasons clawronto canyada isnt actually mentioned anywhere in laikas comet and might not even be canon #im just having fun with the furth naming schemes.. and i lived in the GTA myself and i can see him being at home in the elgin #it has like a very fancy vibe but in an aged way yknow...??the kind of thing u imagine when u think of old magic tricks on stage heh #i also wanna get around to finalizing the design for his van bc i have some concepts down for a folding down stage. like a barbie camper #theres a forum called the skoolie where ppl post abt school bus modding to make em into travel campers and im using it for reference #i.. love this guys design so much i want more reasons to draw him for fun lol #my art #myart #oc #my oc #myoc #fur #furry #furry art #laikas comet oc #laikas comet #sleight #reference sheet #oc ref sheet #fan character #? sort of?? atp hes more like a guy who happens to exist on furth than a fan character to me. idk

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arthursfuckinghat · 2 months

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"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse?#playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

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zivazivc · 4 months

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I came up with Floyd's (other) ex band mates and then I went a little insane about them. . . Anyway they're all alternative trolls who adopted him into their group. They play nu metal at underground gigs but mostly they just go to raves and get stoned out of their gourds.

original photos under the cut

I googled "90s rave photos" and had such a hard time choosing which to draw. i might make more of them in the future...