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sunniecals · 2 years

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dancing with your younger sibling and having loads of fun can get tainted when you remember that you can't dance as hard because you're starving lol

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moeblob · 5 days

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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mattodore · 7 months

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matthias wiping away theo’s tears 🧎

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #I KNEW I WOULD FALL ASLEEP.............. is it really even a nap if it's four hours long... atp i just went to bed djfknjd #anyway ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹#originally the final pose between theo as an adult and matthias was just them reaching out to each other but when i was testing the pose #i was just staring at it like this is such a static pose... so i sat there for a good five minutes just trying to think of something else #and when i realized matthias wouldn't be able to just stand across from theo and watch him cry without touching him i started vibrating out #of my skin like . he would need to reach out wipe at theo's face and kiss his eyelids and let theo hide his face in his neck and cry it out #when theo cries it's........#ugh.#he keeps that brave face going for a long time and his eyes might water and tears might spill out some but he stays quiet normally #but if matthias is there.......... if he speaks to theo in that way he does..... if he touches theo....... god it just all comes out #like he cries similar to how he laughs (hence WHY when he genuinely laughs there are times he starts to cry*)#(*refer back to question 89 in the 100 questionnaire w/ theo for more on this ☝️🤓)#it just all spills out when matthias touches him and it's startling coming from someone as reserved as theo yk? it shakes his whole body #he rubs at his eyes with his fists and shakes his head and he apologizes repeatedly and looks down like he's expecting to be hit.......#which. is bc he was actually hit for crying as a child. his father would make him look in the mirror while it would happen...#so theo doesn't look up when he cries generally speaking...#but theo feels safe with matthias. and matthias doesn't ask him to stop apologizing or to calm down. he just lets theo work it out himself #and he gathers theo up into his arms and he holds him. rubs his back. brushes his hands through theo's hair. tells theo he's there.#yeah........... well. glad i've made myself sad first thing after waking up fdvjnkfdhfgnh that's just the mattodore experience baby #ANYWAY. i should take pics of the extra pose i made for this of theo crying into matthias's neck.#you can't see his expression bc he's clutching incredibly close and his face is obscured. but yeah... it's open sobbing atp... lays down #theo theo theo... baby baby baby......#but ok... think i'm gonna eat and then start getting to my activity and also!! reblog some posts i drafted from when i couldn't really type

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lizwontcry · 11 months

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I am just trying to live my life over here J Smith Cameron

#why is she like this #j smith cameron #succession #Roman x gerri #my whole body is shaking

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tothepointofinsanity · 7 months

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[The sensation of phantom pain in my dreams have intensified to a realistically obstructive and uncomfortable degree...I feel pain for a part that does not even exist in my body.]

#why does my father get cool dreams where he's a hero or whatever #while im here fighting the demons or whatever with a fever in a DREAM #the voices have been very quiet lately. that does not give me any confidence #i actually dreamed i got “diagnosed” with yellow fever #im shaking rn at all the medical inaccuracies in my own dreams #how to piss off a science man: present to him pains not even characteristic to his body and butcher the life cycle of pathogens #i don't like dreams where I'm in pain...#ttpoilog

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transfagholmes · 2 months

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how do i tell him not to be a cunt. can i call him a cunt please please please please please please please please please please please please please

#also why does my body act like i'm hiding from a bear every time I'm in the same room as him #shaking like a leaf. and for what.#first officer's log #at least i know i'm in his head too. i don't want to be but like at least i know #ok nvm I'm over this. breakfast.

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khayalli · 2 months

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I want just ONE day where my body isn't shaking like a wet little rat. Can a woman not eat soup in PEACE. without a splash zone??!?!

My body: its time to activate fight or flight as i have assessed we are about to die. We are in a life or death situation right now. Engage emergency protocols. All of them. Make this bitch shake.

Me: we are eating soup I need you to calm down.

My hands:

#my body said: put this bitch on vibrate already #im fine #just #!??!?!?!#WHY #ITS BEEN 2 WEEKS OF SHAKING LIKE A WET CHIHUAHUA CHUCKED INTO THE COLD WINTER BLIZZARD WITHOUT A SWEATER #RELEASE ME

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hes-a-tough-kid · 10 months

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I’ve been thinking a lot about how Spider felt when he hit puberty and started growing facial hair, making him even more different to the Na’vi. I wonder if he hated it.

Also the inherent tenderness of a boy trusting someone else enough to help him shave for the first time… something about it makes my chest hurt. I really tried to capture it in Foreign Body but there’s so much more that I wish I’d left space for.

#is this me admitting that i might go back and add even more content to my already published and completed fic? perhaps.#spider socorro #jake sully #avatar 2 #idk why im posting this im just feeling so soft for spider growing up and battling with his… foreign body (ba-dum tss. i am boo’d off stage #but fr the way he tries and tries and tries to assimilate and his inescapable humanness is a constant reminder of his incongruity with #pandora… like he cant be truly na’vi and growing up he is presented more and more evidence that he will never be #im still turning the Spider as an allegory for second generation immigrants thing in my head… the draft post is getting a bit too long tbh #but i just cant shake the feeling that he struggles with this foreignness a lot- ESPECIALLY knowing his parentage (father)#anyway here are a couple of drawins from the pages and pages of spiders i have in my sketchbook #for me and and maybe 1 other person who thinks about this stuff 🙃 come get yall juice (cricket sounds)#theyre not very good but im really enjoying being nobody out here #so i can post my bad drawings and run away 😌#i'm trying to learn to draw please be kind <3 #kid’s post

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sysig · 8 months

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Okay actually, the OG Just Desserts style was onto something (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #And also ft. the last little bit of the WOY style attempts #They were what convinced me to look at the original style doodles! Looking for poses #I started just by going back to the early TVAU doodles to give one more proper fair shake to those rejected outfits #Wouldn't you know it they're still rejected lol but! The wings are still very good #And the poses are silly lol #She is always real cute tho <3 #It does feel funny going back to her early doodles and trying to style-match - my style was much looser at the time #Which is part of why her hair looks so good - those swirls are wild! It's very cool! But it's hard to replicate now :0 #You can kinda see it in how hard and dark the lines are in her hair - before it'd basically be a scribble nest haha #Both have their aesthetic placement I just hrmm #I miss it a bit #There's something almost uncanny about trying to go back now - sizing maybe? Proportions? I'm not sure #She was always meant to have that chibi proportion big head and simplified body so maybe it's her neck being so visible that's throwing me??#I do like the small collar tho! It's gotten a little out of control lately haha ♪ Save that for alt outfits!#The weird shape of her hairline was a bit contributor to her overall hair shape as well - lots of little details! It's neat #That crying one has gotten two redraws now haha ironically not to actually ''improve'' just to dissect what's Up lol #I am happier with this one compared to the first redraw tho :D Her feet and ankles especially they actually make shape-sense!#And I have to admit the big flowery-bubble looking tops of her shoes it's very cute and the larger bonbons - proportions! Who knew lol #Her spinning the Staff was always one of my favourites hehe ♪ Confident and cheeky little Charm #Good for her

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nordic-language-love · 8 months

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Can someone please tell me the benefits of giving kids smartphones

#i have 9 y/os in my classes that have smartphones and i do not understand why they would need one #they do not need internet access while they're out and about ffs #just get them a nokia 3310 so they can get in touch if something goes wrong #i stg kids aren't being encouraged to have hobbies these days #whenever i ask them what their hobbies are at least half the class say 'watch youtube'#and i'm like okay but what kind of youtube videos do you watch #bc i watch youtube videos about languages or history or books or star trek or travel or. y'know. my interests??#so surely you have to have in interest to start with before you watch youtube videos??#i'm so confused #if it's not 'watch youtube' it's 'play game'#which i suppose isn't really a problem but idk it strikes me as a little sad when it's their *only* hobby #creative hobbies that have a tangible impact and/or an active hobby that benefits your body feels so important to me #anyway i definitely sound like a crotchety old lady shaking my head saying 'kids these days' lmao

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tecchous-thicc-buttocks · 9 months

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this is ! and ? they're besties and I'm in love with them.

#WHY #WHY ARE YOU #WHY DO YOU DO THIS #CRYING SOBBING SHAKING #THEY'RE SO GOOFY #i know there are more posts on these goofy mfs out there but I needed to spread it to my corner of tumblr and I only wanted the gif #i've been watching it on repeat and suddenly I have back problems #I DON'T WATCH THE ANIME AS A MANGA ONLY BUT I'VE SEEN SO MANY JOKES ABT IT THAT I JUST MIGHT #GOJO IS JUST GOOFING AROUND WAVING HIMSELF LIKE A CAR DEALERSHIP THINGY #NOT A SINGLE BONE IN HIS BODY #WHY IS HE FRENCH KISSING THAT CAN #SO FUCKING INTIMATE???#YALL DON'T UNDERSTAND THE WAY I'M SCREAMINGGGG #WHY HIS ARM SO SWINGY #AND THE WAY HE JERKS HIS HEAD TO THE SIDE????#i'm not even gonna get started on geto #DUDE #DUDE WTF #WHY ARE YOU THE GRINCH #HUNCHBACK OF MOTHERFUCKING NOTRE DAME #reminds me of #“i don't have bad posture i'm just standing like a question mark bc i don't know why the fuck i got up this morning”#AND HIS FACE TOO #FUCKING CAVEMAN #KSDJGKSFJGKS #WHY IS YOUR NECK PROTRUDING OUT OF YOUR BODY IN THAT MANNER SIR #NO WONDER YOU KILLED HUNDREDS YOU'VE GOT SOME SERIOUS TENSION IN YOUR BACK AND NECK SIR #THE WAY I STRAIGHTENED MINE AS SOON AS I SAW THIS #YOU'RE LUCK I LOVE YOU GETO BC WTF WTF WTF #ACTUALLY SCREAMING RN

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local-queer-disappointment · 5 months

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hey does anyone have a cure for Sucks Really Badly At Just About Everything Disease. that would be great thanks

#literally can't even do one fucking thing #cleaning the cats litter #and i spilled shit all over the floor #almost broke the plastic bag an shit #I'm supposed to clean the other one too but i think i might cry #there's literally like nothing wrong. it's not a motivation thing i mean i have shitty motivation too but literally the only reason why I'm #so bad at everything is just because I'm Like That #i can't do anything #the only word i can think of to describe it is clumsy but that seems whimsical and almost silly funny haha #no like i cannot do anything it's not fucking funny #it's not like my hands were shaking or i was dizzy or something #I'm just so fucking bad at everything sometimes i feel like a toddler piloting an overgrown vessel #my arms are too big for how weak they are. my head is too heavy on my neck for how fucking EMPTY it is #nothing in my brain works nothing in my body works I CANNOT DO ANYTHING #vent

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rivianaaa · 3 months

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When I started to understand and ship the least like canon ship even though I like the fanon ship, I felt my morals are bending and my stomach churned and the urge to vomit was overwhelming. It's like my body is rejecting that thought.

#for example drastoria #fuck they are so good to each other #like i should write a fic about hermione healing astoria's blood curse at least for i can do for this beautiful tragedy ship #my mind started to accept drastoria BUT MY HEART DID PALPITATIONS ON SAYING WHAT THE FUCK YOU BITCH! YOU DON'T DO THAT #about hermione healing astoria i should put theo to pine astoria and MY BODY STARTED TO CALM DOWN WTF #ao3 #dramione #drastoria #my body hates drastoria #my mind has seen the appeal of drastoria #astoria is a cool girl y'know she is the reason why draco doesn't have a stick on his ass and my fingers started to shake so hard #no shit im not kidding

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reikunrei · 27 days

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#food and weight talk ig. just in case. but #i would love to know wtf happened to make me like this rn..#had a lot of food for dinner last night and now I’m laying here awake like. okay so I can’t eat anything today #like. i know why this is happening. it’s because I’ve been getting my weight taken a lot recently bc of all my dr appts #so it’s just. made me Super aware of it as a number which has always been bad for me #but it’s also. gender dysphoria. and just general feelings of self consciousness about my body that I’ve always had #but just feel so Heightened lately. like the last month or so it’s been so so so bad #and I’m just so stressed about other things that everything is just exacerbated so like. idk my brain has latched onto this #and it’s… really hard to shake. i keep restricting what I eat bc if I then eat too much I feel guilty about it #thoughts like this have been beating at my skull for the last like 2 years bc of dr appts and stuff. and I guess it’s just finally reached #a head that makes me wanna disappear into nothing #last night I think was the first day in 2 weeks or so I didn’t go to bed hungry bc I actually ate enough. and that makes me feel Bad #i say things

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rustinged · 8 months

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on what account do your base your idea of yourself on? do you base it on your past actions, thoughts, ideas? how far back? do you account for how you have changed? do you base it on what you are doing in your day to day? I force myself to be brave. does that mean I am brave? am I simply feigning the personality of bravery? or is that what a brave person is to begin with? what is a brave person? say your current actions conflict past actions, but you feel your current actions (positive, negative, or neutral) don’t reflect you. what is “you” ? how are you defining you? for how long can you continue with your current actions before your past actions become irrelevant?

#example: you have to get up early everyday for your job/school/etc but you like to sleep in. you consider yourself a nocturnal person #but it’s hard for your body to keep up with staying up late so you begin waking up early consistently - even on the weekends. you naturally #do it and never sleep in anymore #would you still consider yourself a night owl #even though you mentally know that in the past you liked to sleep in - there is no new evidence to back up that you are in fact a night owl #your current actions say you like to wake up early #i feel like it always boils down to the question of: are you your actions or your thoughts #am i brave because I carry out brave actions? I am a cowardice at heart.. but none of my actions say that. but do they have to?#am I a brave cowardice then? shaking as I reach every goal #is it possibly to exist as both? should it be possible to only exist as one?#drives me nuts to think about this kinda stuff. it’s why I hate filling out that mbti test #am I answering these questions based off of past actions that I may or may not identify with anymore if I don’t have a recent example?#if I don’t go out how can I answer social questions? if I do go out because I didn’t leave my house for 2 years and am catching up on all #the social time I missed BUT it still feels out of character for me - how do I answer??#they ask for my actions I can give them my actions but the lack of asking my feelings and vice versa is what gets to me #I have to end this cause I can seriously go on forever

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m-arahuyo · 1 month

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[radical acceptance manifesting in preferring songbird art in full no-bullshit chrome and with Trauma and the blackwall fuckery baybee]

#it’s the Teeth of it darling the Teeth of it #if we done remove the chrome and every ugly thing that came w it then that’s erasing an integral part of the character #and subsequently erasing the meat of her bond w whoever yall shipping her w #but parts/body changes done well…… now That is my jam i want smth Credible sweetie #[me clicking away in 0.9999998 secs when i see/read Organic Body #now see this is why i stay hungry #[shaking my skull sponge for being a choosing beggar] Bitch W h y u gotta be like this #personal

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