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nightrae13 · 2 years

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Kessen Spirit Cameos (and where is Ryou??)

I know I’m probably late (I’m too dumb to only check Kessen Spirit now lol), but let me get this straight, Kessen Spirit MV gave tribute to the athletes from the HoneyWorks universe including those we know and those we don’t.

But, where the heck is Ryou?? Main focus is about volleyball, and the entire mv included the Haniwa athletes, but they left out my girl who was the freakin’ volleyball ace of Sakuragaoka’s girl’s volleyball team😭😭. This could have been her chance to showcase her story outside Koyuki, tbh.

I just love this girl. I’m happy that she has her new song now, but she’s just too ignored back in those days😓😭.

On the bright side, I’m happy to see the Tsunoru Kimochi dude (I guess?) who happened to be an archer. I’ve been longing for the Tsunoru Kimochi couple for weeks now, so I’m really happy to see him again😭💖 !

There’s also Karen’s beloved, Kei Sumida

And my boi, Kota-chan

There’s also multiple cameos in the mv, but I’ll be leaving this post to those who just stuck the most with me while watching. I love Tsunoru Kimochi, but they seriously included him, but not Ryou 😭. Also, Hina and Hiyori deserved to be featured as athletes too, not just cheerleaders, btw!

Okay, I’m done now. I just love how Kessen Spirit was such a good tribute, but the female athletes are left out!

For a moment, the series turned to a sports anime lol.

#kessen spirit #chico with honeyworks #ryou ogino #tsunoru kimochi #kei sumida #kotaro enomoto #late reaction post #but seriously tho kessen spirit is such a good mv #still sad ryou didn't at least appeared in the background tho #but hey the tsunoru kimochi dude!#and the scenes where arisa's friends realized they're in love lol #Honeyworks

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biblically-accurate-dca · 8 months

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day 4: angel & demon >:)

#my art #daycare attendant #sundrop #sunnydrop #moondrop #dca fandom #cringetober #i think this was supposed to be a shipping prompt cause it was angel × demon..... whoops #anywayyy the original plan was to have sun be the demon because i love when the 'nice' one is the demon and the 'bad' one is the angel #but that idea ended up changing into this one!#i really like how moon's expression turned out. such a disproportionate reaction to a cute little guy telling you that murder is bad #ignore how late im posting all of these.. i spend most of my day not drawing anything lol #but then once night falls i start speedrunning the prompt of the day before the day is over!!!!!!

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chronicallyabsent · 5 months

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i am begging. crying. Throuiwng up. Pleading for more of the one dodode.s.. the cring throwing up dyin go dodoels please. (IT IS OKAY IF NOT!! i love them so much. ive tried making my own i litearlly cant.. u got hte special ability 2 make them and i wish u the best... <3)

i'm gonna assume you're talking about the reaction images so here's some older ones that i got on hand. some of these just felt too specific to include in the other post

also peanut on skateboard emoji i saw in a dream one time

#if you WEREN'T talking about the reaction images then. idk i'll be posting more homestuck doodles anyways so whatevar ig #haven't drawn many new ones lately so it'll probably be a while till i drop more #only others i have are of me specifically rather than like. a little vague circle guy. could totally post those if anyone wants #few of these are real old #reaction image #ms paint #my art

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fiepige · 7 months

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Miguel and Hobie making their entrances (I love that they both get a slow-motion reaction shot from another spider-person as they enter)

#someone with more media knowledge than me could probably go into the symbolism of Gwen and Miles-#both getting a slow mo reaction shot as Miguel and Hobie appear #and something about Hobie and Miguel being the only spider-people to get this reaction from someone as they enter #also if you thought I was done making Hobie GIFs you're dead wrong! I'll never stop!!#I've got a few more ideas for some GIFs I wanna make but as always I'm open to suggestions <3 #I've just been focusing more on my fic lately so I haven't made that many GIFs but I'm not done yet!#also I just love the reaction shot of Gwen! It's just gorgeous! Love the colours! The contrast between the reds and blues! <3 #miguel o'hara #spider man 2099 #gwen stacy #spider gwen #hobie brown #spider punk #miles morales #spider man #across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spider man across the spider verse #atsv #my post #my gif #my gifs

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lenaellsi · 1 month

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it's honestly a bit odd to me that so many people have jumped on the 'aziraphale will be pulling all the strings and playing politics in heaven' train. like I think it's true that the metatron is underestimating aziraphale's intelligence and ability to disrupt the second coming even while separated from crowley, but I also think the idea that aziraphale is going up to heaven with a clear idea of how he's just been lied to, an understanding of how much danger he's in, and a plan to stop it is a huge reach.

frankly, aziraphale is very vulnerable to manipulation. I'm thinking now of neil’s post with the diary entry from before the edinburgh minisode where he was duped by two humans, the whole thing with the nazis in 1941, and his sponsorship of shadwell's various obviously fake agents (sergeant milkbottle, etc.). he's not nearly as savvy as fanon tends to portray him. he takes people at face value, especially people he thinks of as Good. (that's not a dunk, btw--I find these things endearing, and a sign of aziraphale's innate wish to see the best in people. I just think that sometimes the BAMF protective aziraphale of fanon overshadows the slightly more naive aziraphale of canon. and honestly, I also think TV aziraphale is just a bit softer than book aziraphale, though he is capable of stepping up when it counts.)

and he's a bad liar! I know it's a meme in the fandom that aziraphale lies all the time, but he doesn't like it, and he's bad at it. he gets nervous and comes up with terrible excuses and the only reason he ever gets away with it is because the people he's lying to are idiots (gabriel), have their own agendas (god, the other archangels), or trust him to be honest (crowley).

aziraphale's real strength is his ability to take sudden, completely unexpected action. that's one of the things that crowley admires most about him. "he's unpredictable," is what he says to nina, and it's true! aziraphale's greatest moments of rebellion have always come from spur of the moment decisions, not intricate plans. (if anything, crowley is the planner--the arrangement and the thwarting of the apocalypse, their two longest cons, were both his idea.)

aziraphale gives the sword away because when he is forced to make a decision under pressure, he tends to land on the side of rebellious kindness. shielding crowley from the rain in eden, lying to gabriel to protect job's family, defying the quartermaster and returning to earth via possession during the apocalypse, blowing up his halo--he does these things because he's following that same impulse. when aziraphale has time to over think, he frets and fusses and is paralyzed by indecision. (or worse, he falls back on what heaven has taught him.)

TL;DR: I don't think aziraphale has any sort of grand plan other than a generalized "make things better," and I certainly don't think he is planning to betray heaven. he might try to come up with a plan once he figures out how bad things are going to get, but my bet is that what will actually disrupt the second coming is an absolutely bonkers off the wall decision that no one, crowley included, could ever predict. and I think it’ll happen, as it usually does with aziraphale, just after he accepts a difficult truth that fundamentally shifts his worldview—in this case, his final rejection of the idea of “good” and “bad” people, and of the entire morality system of heaven and hell.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens meta #final fifteen #aziraphale #long post #been in a meta mood lately sorry #to be clear people can write whatever they want. playing with characterization is fine and good in fanworks #but also I do wonder if the fanon built over four years between seasons is seriously impacting the way people read the final fifteen #and because I suspect it will come up: his smile in the elevator reads as Aziraphale’s denial smile #the one where he plasters it on as a ‘this is fine this is what I want I am a Good Angel’ reaction #‘I’m not trapped in here with you you’re trapped in here with me’ is not a thought aziraphale would ever have about himself #he doesn’t think about himself that way #crowley thinks of him as a force to be reckoned with for sure. but aziraphale is not that sure of himself

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pankiepoo · 1 year

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trans day :3

#all other sparklecare chars too ofc #sparklecare #sparklecare hospital #barry ill #uni cornelius #srry i forgot to post it on tumblerrr so its a lil late #why are there reactions now #CHEEEEESE

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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2009 Japanese Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel

#im so glad theres no one here to witness my reaction to seb wins because my god #i dont think words exist in the english language for the screeching noises i make HAHAHAHAHA #i just love him too much and it is a very late hour so i feel so deranged abt him and its very unwell behavior #i am kissing the tv director was for this podium directly on the mouth because SO MANY GOOD SHOTS !!!!!!!!!#my main gripe(and youll see this often in my tags) is that they never have enough direct shots and also cut away at bad moments #this podium? absolutely fucking beautiful. i want to kiss the camera operators because their focusing and tracking is a thing of beauty #hes so cute this race!!!!!! i have way too much content so shall be 3 posts methinks. hope ya dont mind!!#ive seen a clip of him and tommi chest bumping but i didnt know it was this race so when it suddenly cut to them im like OH!!!!#seb at japan gp....truly magnificent every single season(we dont talk about 2007)#i usually put 'ft. [ther drivers] but clearly both the cameramen and i only had eyes for seb hahaha #i guess this time tommi and rocky are the features!!#sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 japanese gp #2009 japanese grand prix #sv5

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herotune · 7 months

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in fair faerûn where we lay our scene.......

im a little late heading into wyll week and im so sad but here's an illustration for day 3: modern au!!!!

wyll gives me theater kid vibes and i think modern au wyll would Absolutely be an actor. and i think he'd be incredible in shakespeare adaptations and historical dramas... so i Had to redraw one of my favorite shots from baz luhrmann's romeo + juliet with him. a modern au in a modern au...its perfect 🎭

#bg3 #wyll week #wyllvember #wyll ravengard #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyllweek #shakespeare #my art #herotune #i replaced the crucifixes with the symbol for tyr btw cries #which is hopefully understandable 😭#i Need to go back n check what wylls reaction to the tyr paladins is again its been too long since i played that part in my current run #so hopefully including the symbol for tyr is appropriate weeps...i tried to figure out if theres a diety he follows n Could Not #so i just went w tyr because the symbol for him had a similar enough silhouette and i feel like gd of justice Very much fits wyll...#although theres also uhhhh helm gd of protection and i feel like that would suit him more i just didnt think the symbol for helm would work #its like. an eye on a gauntlet 😭.....#so uh. i. ended up going with tyr #anyway im so so sad im late to wyll week ;_; i love him and i DO have a lot of sketches ive not published of him yet #but i wanna do the prompts too. i do think ill be posting some of those drawings for the free day but i think im also gonna try to get #stuff out for the rest of the prompts even tho itll have to be after wyll week is over...#wait itd still be wyllvember tho :0 #his month...yessss im late but also im not. its fine.

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anaalnathrakhs · 1 year

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For posterity, Tumblr’s April Fools 2023

- You can add little emoji reactions to posts!

[ID: Screenshot of the bottom of a tumblr post, to show the interactive button present. At the start of the row for the “sharing”, “reply”, “reblog”, and “like” buttons, there is a new button shaped like a simple smiley face in the monochrome tumblr style. End ID]

Complete overview with screenshots under the cut! Everything saved except moving visuals and audio elements (they’re described though!)

- There’s 7 base reactions: bug, cheese, crab, four (this one’s noisy), ghost, horse (this one’s noisy), and socks

[ID: Screenshot of the bottom of a tumblr post. The smiley face is clicked on and a small menu showing the described emojis is attached under it. End ID.]

(Hovering over them causes a small black speech bubble to appear above them, saying the words transcripted above, in lowercase. The parenthesis for horse and four are included in their respective bubbles.)

- You can add them to the post in whichever order you’d like (reblogs seem to reorganize them though, in another order than the one shown above), and they’ll appear without any number on them. Once you’ve clicked on them once, they’ll count two clicks.

[ID: Screenshot of a tumblr post by yours truly saying “test”. It shows under the row of notes and “reblog”, “like”, etc buttons a row of the described emojis in simple oval delimitations. They’re in a different order than the one used for the menu. The bubble for the bug emoji includes the number 64 and the bubble for the crab includes the number 2. End ID.]

- Clicking on a reaction multiple times in a row makes a black circle appear above it with the number of clicks written on it. The number progresses as you click more as long as there's not significant interruption and the bubble grows with each click. I can only assume it has a maximum size and it unlocks something, but i've gone up to roughly 1700 in one go and i don't want to figure out autoclickers so somebody else is gonna have to find that out.

[ID: Screenshot of a post saying “test”. Some emojis reaction are shown under it, and a black circle with the number 62 in it, large enough to reach the top of the usual buttons row, is shown above the bug emoji. End ID.]

- It also activates the effects of each reaction.

- Bug does nothing but backflips, and stops at 70 458, the amount of votes it got in the original bug race poll

- Crab dances side to side and stops at 1000

- 4 makes speech bubbles written 4 appear. Various voices saying the word four in different languages play after about a dozen clicks, all of them very whispery, except one, saying four in a very casual tone. It stops at 444

[ID: Another test post showing the emoji 4 with the number 367 in its button. Blue speech bubbles with the number 4 written in it are shown clustered all over the post interface, blocking it from view. End ID.]

- Ghost makes post go progressively transparent and stops at 666

[ID: Screenshot of a post by yours truly saying “emoji reactions” with several interrogation points, showing multiple emoji reactions at the bottom, including the ghost one with the number 272 next to it. The whole post, including the user’s icon, is lower opacity than other screenshots and looks greyed out in comparison. End ID.]

- Cheese makes melted cheese appear on the top and bottom of your post and stops at 100 000

[ID: The same post, showing multiple emoji reactions, including the cheese one with the number 132 next to it. On the top and bottom edge of the post, varying drawings of melting yellow cheese are clustered, probably around 130 though they overlap too much to count. End ID.]

- Horse makes the horsie go (circular motion as a running horse would move) and plays galloping sounds. It stops at 500

- Sock makes green stink lines appear on your post and rise up until they fade away, stops at 1000

[ID: The same post, showing reactions including the sock emoji one. Squiggly green vertical lines in various opacities are shown over the post’s interface and text. End ID.]

- Maxing out a reaction or using it a certain number of times makes bonus reactions appear. Here’s all of them in one picture, all of them maxed out (at least the humanly possible ones)

[ID: A screenshot of the used reactions interface that shows up under a post. The crab emoji shows the number 1000. The ghost emoji shows 666. The cheese emoji shows 1228. The 4 emoji shows 444. The socks emoji shows 1000. Horse shows 500. Bug shows 3334. The next emoji is a picture of a bottle of vanilla extract, and shows 999. The next emoji is a drawing that ressembles a Pikachu with somewhat human proportions and glasses, it shows 19. The next emoji is a unicorn emoji showing 7. The next emoji shows the moon in its “new” phase, darked out, with the number 223. The next emoji is a cookie, showing 999. The next emoji is a drawing of a bust wearing a business suit and having a brick for a head. It shows no number. In two similar bubbles after that, the usual “share” button and the universal “no” red sign are shown. End ID.]

- Moon appears when you max out 4 and stops at 223

- Vanilla appears when clicking a lot on the crab (over 100 times?) and stops at 999

- Pikaman appears for some mysterious reason idk, jump and loops when you hover over it, stops at 19. After further investigation, it seems to either have multiple different but very convoluted ways to summon it, or to simply be on a randomizer. I still don’t have autoclick, sue me. After further explaining from the brick himself, Pikaman allgedly appears after a certain number of bug reactions. Either this number is inconsistent or another randomized action/combination of factors is needed to activate Pikaman.

- Unicorn appears when you max out the horse reaction, jumps and loops like pikaman, and stops at 7

- Cookie appears when you click a lot (over 100?) on the vanilla and stops at 999

- Brick appears either when everything is maxed out and both bug and cheese have hit 1000 or when you combo 1000 clicks in a row (on bug or cheese likely but might be achievable on crab or sock), is unclickable

- When you hit the maximum of a reaction on a streak, a message signed by Brick appears to tell you you can't go further

[ID: A screenshot of several popup messages on tumblr. All of them say “REACTION OVERLOAD! Unfortunately, you’re hit the max of reactions you can give. Loving the enthusiasm, though! - Brick”. End ID.]

- I have somehow gotten an error message signed by Brick. No idea how to replicate it. Editing after further testing, it seems to appear when the movement of the emoji makes clicking it impossible (the no symbol being visible) despite the maximum number not being reached.

[ID: An error popup message from tumblr, saying “Oh no. This is not working! But hey, I’m working on it! -Brick”. End ID.]

- The share button gives you a reblogging page with a generated image representing the reactions used on it and their corresponding numbers over a rainbow gradient background, as well as a little flavor text tagging @brickwhartley and two automatic tags. You’re free to modify this reblog though, and you can back out of the page.

[ID: A screenshot of a reblog by myself. Text reads: “REACT COLLECTION” in bigger letters, as a title. Next paragraph reads: “What a gorgeous flock of reactions I saw on this post! I simply have to share it with the world:”. Under it is a picture of several emojis from the available reactions of various sizes in random places of the image, floating next to numbers over a rainbow gradient background. Text under the image reads: “I am please. Thank you @brickwhartley!”. Under it, two tags are show, “#post reactions” and “#birck’s latest great idea”. End ID.]

- The no symbol only appears on your own posts and allows you to disable reactions. It will appear next to the usual “share” “reply” “reblog” “like” icons and you can click on it to reverse it.

TL;DR this was made up by manufacturers to sell more computer mouses. Hope you don’t have completionist tendencies. My hand hurts.

#post reactions #brick's latest great idea #april fools #tumblr's april fools 2023 #april fools 2023 #i don't know why but this thing triggered both the need to 100% it #and the archivist panic to make sure i recorded everything and nobody will miss out any information #10/10 experience i had a stressful morning and i needed to count some stuff to feel better #broadcasting my misery #sorry the image ID was a little late i thought i'd try editing it in with the new interface to make it less clunky #since the legacy editor isn't great at effects #but it doesn't work on my post so fuck it it's gonna be clunky #also put back an image i forgot

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pedropascallme · 2 months

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/C5SD3RBr2it/?igsh=NmViYTZiaGZmaGUy in case you still haven't seen :D

Thank you!! I hadn’t seen the full thing this is wonderful <3 posting this so everybody else who might’ve missed it can see!

(Also leaving my personal opinions in the tags just to clarify where I stand because I’m so tired of everybody being weird about Damien specifically throughout this whole thing)

#hehe send me asks #smosh #damien haas #shourtney #smoshblr #I think that everybody blowing up at him is so…I mean #first of all unfair to him and to Shayne and Courtney who are clearly some of his closest friends #but also just. generally speaking super infantilizing and not necessarily aware that like #this is a grown man who not only has more to think about than his friends getting married #which he likely knew about way WAY before any of us did #obviously #but also he’s autistic and thus processes cues and reactions differently #and everybody is like WHA WHY DIDNT HE POST WHY ISNT HE BEING SUPPORTIVE #as if Damien isn’t generally pretty private about a lot of his personal life especially when it involves other people in the public eye #but especially since this is like #his best friend getting married to his other very close friend I feel like it would be obvious that this is something he would celebrate #privately and among the friends involved #anyway that’s my two sense please let him rest he’s like one of the busiest people in the cast and clearly loves his friends so much #**cents oops it’s late #and I don’t blame him for wanting to make this something special that he celebrates with them away from the #incredibly judgy #public eye

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unicornachos · 2 months

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Getting tired of seeing gotcha posts on Tumblr lately shitting all over vegans. They've gotten more common over the past few years...

Usually it'll be a post criticising a choice like maybe 3% of vegans actually make, or more usually an imaginary vegan they've pulled from thin air based on their own stereotypes and assumptions, followed by vibes along the lines of' "I know better, actually you don't care about sustainability or human rights at all! You're completely uneducated about (insert any topic here). Gotcha! Who's the morally superior one now, huh" Followed swiftly by the implication that there is no ethical consumption under capitalism, so why try at all.

Like yeah maybe there are some young idiot vegans who think buying pleather boots is ok for the environment, but every vegan I've ever met is more likely to get a second-hand pair of leather boots at an op-shop, because it's better for the environment. Every vegan I know has cared immensely about issues with soy and quinoa, about where their food comes from, about water use and microplastics, who picks their fruit and veg, and human rights in general. More than any non-vegans I know.

So why are we still constantly berated for not doing every single other thing that non-vegans want us to do? It's starting to feel like people have a very specific idea of vegans in their heads and need an outlet for weird anger and misery and frustration, and we're an easier punching bag than the large corporations and governments who dictate the rules of our late-stage capitalist hellscape, so why not have a go?

It really feels like people are unconsciously mad with themselves that they can't do more to help the world and possibly have unexamined issues or guilt with consuming animals themselves, and feel better about themselves after telling vegans they're just not doing their activism hard enough, and that everything they buy from the grocery store is a human rights violation, so really you're just as bad as the rest of us.

Idk man I just. It really feels like a lot of whataboutism most of the time from non-vegans who have a weird, skewed view of militant white vegans, while the majority of vegans (who aren't all white, might I add) are just living their lives, trying to make the world a slightly less shitty place. We should absolutely criticise racist white vegans. Take them the fuck down. I don't think you think vegans are who you think they are, though. Vegans are from intersecting identities just like everybody else, and come from many different countries. And also there are some silly, uninformed vegans with misplaced ideas, just like there are silly, uninformed non-vegans with misplaced ideas. But if you imagine a vegan to be someone you'd hate, it's a lot easier to ridicule them to make you feel like you're right and good.

I just wish that the people who make these posts and the folks who join in and/or reblog, would take a look at themselves and think about what they themselves are doing to prevent cruelty in this world, in any shape or form. Like are you painstakingly making sure you're not buying clothes with plastic in it? Are you checking the label of every food item you buy to make sure you knew where it came from? Do you only buy your veg from local farms within 10km or only eat things from your own garden? If not, idk what to tell you, but it's probably that you should give vegans a break if you're not doing all the very things you tell us we should be doing.

It just feels like a lot of misplaced anger. Why are you so, so enraged at vegans not being perfect people when you could be going and protesting outside the farms of migrant workers, if you're so pissed about where our fruit and veg comes from? If you're mad about fruit and veg, wait till you hear of the human rights abuses in abattoirs.

When someone tells a vegan that there's no ethical consumption under capitalism, it just feels like a cop-out. You're not trying so why should anyone else, right? I just think people should be allowed to try to make the world better in their own ways, and not be ridiculed for not living up to an unattainable standard set my non-vegans.

Being vegan is about doing the least harm you can, within your means. It's not an on-off switch- it's a sliding scale of effort to do less harm. It's not stupid to acknowledge unnecessary suffering and choose not to take part in what's within your means to abstain from. Some vaccines still use animal products. Some of my medication has animal product ingredients. Am I going to go off my meds and become an anti-vaxxer? No. Do I think Indigenous Peoples should stop eating the foods they have always eaten, often for tens of thousands of years before colonisation? Of fucking course not. It's possible try to unsubscribe to shitty things in this world without doing it perfectly. The whole world would be a lot better if most people consumed 70% less animal products, than 2% of the world doing veganism perfectly.

I think most non-vegans are too afraid of what they might find out if they actually research animal agriculture so they stubbornly make excuses not to bother. So that's their choice, but until you're as perfect as how you claim we should be, literally shut the fuck up and find something more productive to do with your time, like actively try to fight against the very things you think we've all somehow decided to turn a blind eye to. Because I bet the majority of people consuming whatever unethical product you've decided on aren't vegans.

Coming across one silly vegan on the internet doesn't mean you have permission now to write off the crucial need for our planet to massively reduce animal agriculture, and the possibility that you might potentially be able to opt out of it. Criticising veganism doesn't mean you've absolved yourself of any harm you yourself are doing, and also doesn't absolve you of finding ways to do less harm to people, animals, and the planet.

And if you're pissed about vegans having moral superiority, I'd really like to see non-vegans examine their own moral superiority they seem to feel they have over vegans.

Ok signing off lol

#that felt so good #i needed to get this out of my system so bad #its a trend that i am so sick of seeing lately #veganism #vegan #i hope my username adds another layer to this post lmao #apologies about the use of stupid im tryinf to avoid ableist language but i know some slipped in there #I've been vegan for 10 whole years now and the number 1 hardest thing about going vegan is people's reactions to vegans #ridiculing vegans doesn't make you the cool edgy critical thinker you think it makes you #it actually just makes you an asshole

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queenlucythevaliant · 9 months

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Here's what I'll say regarding choice of worship music (and I'm not 100% sure where I'm going with this, so bear with me): I think it's very easy to get burned out on specific kinds of worship, no matter what they are. And that kind of burn-out is hard.

I grew up at a church that did 95% CCM for worship, and after a while it either (a) exhausted me emotionally or (b) bored me. By the time I hit high school, I really really struggled with corporate worship because it felt as though I wasn't responding as I was supposed to. Getting to sing mostly hymns at the church I attended at college was a huge breath of fresh air, and it helped me immensely in terms of re-orienting my heart towards Christ-centered worship (as opposed to me-centered worship.) For the first time in my life, I found myself listening to Christian music on my own time during the week.

I watched the recent Jesus Revolution movie with mom over the summer. Her family started attending Calvary Chapel (then-nascent hippy church in Orange County) midway through her childhood, and she got really excited talking about the difference between the hymns she remembered from early elementary school ("we sang the whole hymnal rather than selecting for the really good ones like they do at your church") and the much more dynamic music that came out of Maranatha and other early "contemporary" Christian groups. She actually played me a whole bunch of the songs she grew up with the next morning. They sounded horrifically cheesy to me, but she got real joy out of it and even ended up texting a few songs to my aunt.

And yet, my mom has remarked a whole bunch of times to me that she really can't stand current CCM; that she desperately misses singing the old hymns. I look at myself and my own experience and I can totally see myself coming back to some of the CCM songs I grew up with and encountering Christ through them all new again. As recently as last month, I had a really beautiful experience driving back from a concert crazy late at night with my sister and listening to some of the old Chris Tomlin and Hillsong stuff that I hadn't heard in a while. It brought me back to a sense of incredible comfort and safety nestled up against God like a baby chick. Do I want to worship with that sort of music every week right now? No, definitely not. But it has its place.

Obviously worship transcends something as incidental as music genre. It's an expression of why we were created: glorifying God and enjoying him forever --- and yet, because of the fall, it's really easy to get burned out on specific expressions of worship. I don't necessarily think that's a bad thing so much as just a symptom of the fall. I also think that people who are really burned out on a particular kind of worship can be really, really obnoxious about it. I know I was for a while, and I still definitely have my hangups with CCM.

But like- I don't think it's so much about judgement or superiority towards the kind of worship music that you're burnt out on as it is just the overwhelming sense that that kind of worship music felt exhausting and this kind of music actually feels like I'm able to worship again. I know when I started singing hymns at church, it just felt like I'd found the Rosetta Stone. I was suddenly so much less in my own head on Sunday mornings and oh my goodness singing to God was a joy again and I can't remember but I don't think it's ever been a joy like this before has it?? It was almost like my head was spinning with some great new revelation and when I was obnoxious about it it was mostly a manifestation of my being like Why didn't anyone ever tell me it could be like this? Why isn't everyone singing hymns? It's just so much better this way!

Mostly, it just feels like saying "don't be overly critical of how other Christians like to worship" kind of. Misses the trees for the forest, if that makes sense? Like, it's accurate to the big picture, it's absolutely a true and worthwhile thing to say. But at the same time it kind of rankles for me because it misses how it feels to be truly and deeply alienated by the kind of worship you're exposed to.

For better and for worse, worship is (I think) the spiritual discipline that engages the emotions most directly. The feeling of being in a group of people all worshipping together, and your heart just isn't responding right no matter how you try to re-focus and orient it? It's one of the loneliest feelings I know.

#long and rambling #what else is new #I've been chewing on a couple of the worship posts floating around (from liz kaylie and ella? i think?)#they're all very good and true posts and yet i was having sort of prickly reactions to them #not defensive exactly so much as just. hypersensitive? idk #so I've been mulling and this is what I've got on the subject #also worth noting that a lot of this is tangled up with my very-concurrent experiences with chronic illness #and all the grief and emotion-in-God's-direction thereof #anyway #only thou art holy #pontifications and creations #sunday school kid #unproofed. if there are any big errors I'll fix later. it's crazy late and i should not be posting on Tumblr #do please chime in if you've had similar experiences and let me know I'm not crazy lol

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