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b-ellyache · 5 months
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𝐚𝐧𝐱𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲 𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗇𝖾 地獄 𝗈𝖿 𝖺 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝖻𝗅𝖾𝗆
𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝓵𝗈𝗏𝖾 ♡’ 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝓯𝖾𝗅𝗍 𝗋𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍
† 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗅𝗂𝗉𝗌, 𝗆𝗒 𝗅𝗂𝗉𝗌, 𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐲𝐩𝐬𝐞.
圇。 𝗆𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖾 𝓲 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗇𝖺 𝖻𝖾 𝔂𝗈𝗎𝗋𝗌
𝗒𝗈𝗎’𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿 ⭒ 𝖨 𝗅𝗈𝗈𝗄 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁
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jigglyjieun · 10 months
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⠀⠀⠀⠀ ՙ 𓆩 ♡ 𓆪⠀z.⠀﹏⠀look up ⋆ girl ?!⠀ ִֶָ⁠ ⠀⩉⩉:⩉⩉
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euyrdice · 5 months
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happy spotify wrapped lovers everybody say can i sail through the changin ocean tides can i handle the seasons of my life…
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sarkisozumm · 6 months
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blondbirb · 2 years
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5.11.22
new rei brown and joji song announced at keshi concert
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waywardwanting · 2 years
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i’m honestly surprised that i like the new NIKI album as much as i do. but nicole is certainly more lofi and more acoustic than what i heard at coachella, and much more melancholic too. so maybe it’s not that surprising at all, especially considering the acoustic version of la la lost you  makes my heart ache every time i listen to it. 
so after listening to the album essentially non-stop in the last three days, these lines are the ones running on loop through my head:  
in the rare case that i do cross your mind— you better know you always cross mine. 
- facebook friends
i’d give anything to stop time and drive around anaheim at sundown to teach my mind to put you first here you are, a hero you wanna be my new home but baby let up  i won’t ever recognize these roads 
‘cause i am lost, but not in you.  yes i am lost, but not in you. 
- anaheim
you said, "don't fret love someday i’ll be my own man, i’ll be free" oh, but darling, did you mean darling, did you mean free from me?
oh, how do we stay afloat?  when do i let go? all you do is blindside me, it’s hard to be brave but when the night cuts into the day, it’s your love i crave
- autumn
and i’m lettin' go i’m givin' up your ghost it’s come to a close
- oceans and engines
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kerstrel · 2 years
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keshi song and lyric analysis -- blue
this is gonna become a series of keshi song breakdowns, isn't it?
TW/CW: Mentioned intoxication, loss of self, drifting relationships.
-- All songs will be linked through Spotify!! --
blue -- keshi (Genre: Alt-Indie)
This is one of those songs that you blast on your radio as you drive seventy miles down a deserted highway at night. It references a blue moon-- an uncommon phenomenon but incredibly beautiful. The music video is gorgeous, you can watch that here. Overall, the aesthetic to very nostalgic to me and I have personal private connections to it. I love how the lyrics depict a gradual but still very dramatic shift in relationships that aren't quite noticed until it's too late. He expresses how change is difficult (and I agree. If change is easy for you, I both respect and fear you.) and how he copes with it. If you go onto genius lyrics, you can see keshi's direct annotations on what things mean. I'm going to talk about them, but you can read the genius stuff here. "Sixth Street" is a street full of bars in Austin, Texas and represents how one drinks their sorrows away. keshi's direct annotation of the lyrics "blue moon in different phases" is, and I quote, "been a long min." Blue moons usually appear every three years-- that's a fun transition into the next set of lines "three hours, three months away." I love the repeated use of the number three-- it's always been a really cool prime number. He references mundane life with common phrases like "date night" and "9-5" albeit most people don't work 9 to 5 anymore.
Overall, the song is quite wistful, referencing the unwillingness or inability to cope with the changes taking place in the individual's life. While site-specific locations may not necessarily be the case in everyone's life, many people can relate to hitting up a bar or feeling lost in the sea of life and feeling behind while everyone moves on. Everyone changes and adjusts at different paces. I hope where you are, you're in a good place. <3 :)
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tteokdoroki · 17 days
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Side note, every time I open your blog and read your title, I always sing “just for a minute” in my head😭 NewJeans need to release new music soon😭
AWH STOP THATS SO CUTE !! people always say that i’m newjeans coded !! but i think they’re having a comeback next month and going on tour next year <3
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shortgirl98 · 2 months
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"Don't know where to hide, but I still
Eat good, drink good, feel good, it's all good"
Keshi - Limbo
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caffeinatedeath · 10 months
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keshi hell/heaven tour in sg, circa. 30/11/2022
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is this hell or heaven?
might be just the medicine.
keshi, hell/heaven
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her-and-music · 1 year
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leeyanyanyaaan · 1 year
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guess who tried writing a song 🤡
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i literally haven't sung in half a year what was i thinking AHSDBKASD i guess keshi's been getting to me lately? LOL
ah well... i've never songwritten in my life so uhhhhh proceed with caution??? this is literally just me tryna figure out how to even create a melody AKJSDBAS so its kinda a mess
but yeeeaaah :) hope it's okay??? ig??
(btw only the vocals and lyrics belong to me! the track was produced by XVN (all links in the description!!))
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waywardsatellite · 1 year
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Baby, I call in the dead of night
But you don't need me like I need you
Pray that I won't be alone
Baby, I call in the dead of night
But you don't need me like I need you
Pray that I won't be alone
Layin' on the bed
Waitin' for your text (be alone)
Babe, there's nothin' left
Faded, I'm a wreck (be alone)
Afraid what's comin' next
Wish we never met (be alone)
Layin' us to rest
But baby, I beg you (be alone)
Too soon with a drunk call (like I need you, pray that)
In the middle of the night (I won't be alone)
You took it, my fault
Didn't really mean to interrupt, yeah (be alone)
But if you change your mind then hit me up, no, yeah-he (be alone)
Pain, that's an option (baby, I)
No time for nonsense (call in the dead of night)
Can't ask you nothin'
Drank, feeling nauseous (you don't need me)
Too many toxins (like I need you)
Not even conscious (pray that I won't be alone)
Say nothin' more, say nothin' more, baby
Pain, that's an option (baby, I)
No time for nonsense (call in the dead of night)
Can't ask you nothin'
Drank, feeling nauseous (you don't need me...)
Too many toxins (like I need you)
Not even conscious (pray that I won't be alone)
Say nothin' more, say nothin' more, baby
We're better on our own
Tonight I'm gettin' throwed (you don't need me)
She never comin' home
Stay with me (pray that I won't be alone)
Say you'll leave, oh-oh (you don't need me, like I need you)
Oh-yeah (pray that I won't be alone)
Yeah-eh-eh-hey (be alone)
Pain, that's an option
No time for nonsense
Can't ask you nothin'
Drank, feeling nauseous (you don't need me)
Too many toxins (like I need you)
Not even conscious (pray that I won't be alone)
Say nothin' more
Say nothin' more, baby
Pain, that's an option (baby, I)
No time for nonsense (call in the dead of night)
Can't ask you nothin'
Drank, feeling nauseous (you don't need me)
Too many toxins (like I need you)
Not even conscious (pray that I won't be alone)
Say nothin' more
Say nothin' more, baby
Baby girl is sayin' that we just friends (be alone)
That we just friends, uh (you don't need me)
If we fuckin', are we just friends? (Be alone)
Are we just friend? No, no (you don't need me)
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audiophiliacfan · 1 year
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Baby, I call in the dead of night But you don't need me like I need you Pray that I won't be alone Layin' on the bed Waitin' for your text (Be alone) Babe, there's nothin' left Faded I'm a wreck (Be alone) Afraid what's coming next Wished we never met (Be alone) Laying us to rest but Baby, I beg you (Be alone) Too soon with a drunk call In the middle of the night you Took it, my fault (Be alone) Didn't really mean to interrupt (Be alone) But if you change your mind then hit me up (Be alone) Pain, that's an option No time for nonsense Can't ask you nothing Drank, feeling nauseous Too many toxins Not even conscious Say nothin' more Say nothin' more, baby We're better on our own Tonight I'm getting throwed (You don't need me) She never coming home Stay with me (Pray that I won't be alone) Say you'll leave (You don't need me) (Be alone) Pain, that's an option No time for nonsense Can't ask you nothing Drank, feeling nauseous Too many toxins Not even conscious Say nothin' more Say nothin' more, baby Baby girl, it's saying That we just friends, that we just friends If we fucking are we just friends Are we just friends?
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sarkisozumm · 6 months
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ugh-yoongi · 2 months
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hang up if u want to | kmg
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he's in japan. you're at home, knowing there's no point in staring at your phone, waiting. mingyu might not wanna define what the two of you are, but that certainly doesn't stop him from asking for what he wants.
pairing: idol!mingyu x f. reader genre: situationship au; a lil angst, smut warnings: swearing. sexting — use of gendered terms for genitalia, mentions of oral and penetrative sex, masturbation, images/videos, dirty talk i guess?, squirting. one mention of reader wearing a dress. another mention of reader wearing mingyu’s shirt and it being large on her. (not meant to be an indication of size—that mf is just so large i think most people would drown in his clothes.) mingyu is domineering and kind of brat tamer-y but i wouldn't say this is dom-y at all. he also uses the term "baby" a lot bc i refuse to use y/n. rating: explicit. minors dni. wordcount: 3.6k listen to: namasenda - dare (pm) / khalid, 6lack, ty dolla $ign - otw / keshi - like i need u / edward maya & vika jigulina - stereo love / monsta x - addicted / brockhampton - sugar / shy martin - good together author's note: hello, i barely text men let alone sext them, so if this sucks my bad. i'm also not 100% comfy for writing any groups outside of bts, so i'm also sorry if the characterization is off. the mingyu brainrot was brainrotting tho bc if there's one thing he's gonna do it's look hot holding his phone in a photo, so. here we are. i was gonna wait and post this tomorrow but it's valentine's day so fuck it we ball. thank you: @the-boy-meets-evil, @hot-soop, & @effortandmore for checking this over and brainstorming with me. namasenda for the lyrics in the title and inspo.
Kim Mingyu Missed Call (2)
Your eyes glance upwards at the time. It’s nearing one a.m.; Mingyu’s second call came and went only a few minutes ago. The first one will have come not long after he got off stage, because they always do. There’s a script—unspoken and unacknowledged, but a script nonetheless—and Mingyu follows it religiously.
You sigh. Leave your phone on your nightstand as you change into pajamas, back into the bathroom to wash your face. Roll your eyes as you hear the texts roll in, the sound grating and ominous as it vibrates against the wood.
All part of the script.
Kim Mingyu: just got back to the hotel Kim Mingyu: you up
Also part of the script: this is the only way it goes. Maybe Mingyu wants to text you, but adrenaline’s the only reason he ever goes through with it. That post-concert high, nothing else to do with all that energy but invest it into you, and the thing about scripts is that they get old, grow stale. Always the same thing, and you can only have that conversation so many times before you get tired and rip it up.
We all have roles to play. Mingyu is the one who refuses to define what it is the two of you have, put a label on it. He’s the one who calls from countries away and speaks in that low, hushed tone. He’s the tempter, the one who holds all the cards but refuses to lay them down.
A royal flush, every single time.
And you—you’re not helpless. Not some poor creature fighting for its life in a spun-silk web. Mingyu’s capable of devouring you in more ways than one, but it’s not like that. Not really. As laissez-faire as he is, you come and go as you please, too. Perhaps it’s as mutually beneficial as it is destructive, but that’s the nature of the production; the result of the roles you two of you play.
Kim Mingyu: you ignoring me? Kim Mingyu: i saw your ig story Kim Mingyu: knock it off baby
You smile, private and sardonic, because you aren’t helpless. Sometimes it’s your web, and it’s all Mingyu can do to keep his head above water. Another role you’d borrowed from someplace else but still have memorized. Still remember all the lines, the mannerisms.
On your story: a video of you, bare skin glittering beneath the golden-fluorescent light of your bathroom; you, with your dress unzipped, the straps slipping down your arms; your hand pressed to your chest to keep yourself covered. Your back turned to the camera, visible only in the mirror, as the silk dropped to the floor.
In the settings: only two accounts given permission to see, both belonging to the same person.
In your DMs: Mingyu, on his private account with the username that looks more like a keysmash than any legible thing, reacting with the fire emoji.
Related: the image hovering just above Mingyu’s texts. The one he’d repaid you with not long after seeing your story. A mirror selfie of his own: grey sweatpants hung low on his hips, a soaked-through white t-shirt stuck to his stomach, the lines of his abs visible.
That, and everything below it—all left unanswered.
The thing about Mingyu is he’ll give chase. Doesn’t shy away from all the things he wants; isn’t shy about giving voice to them.
But he’ll never, ever beg.
(Not like this, at least. When he’s in your bed it’s always a different story. He’s a kept man, there, and kept men have no qualms about things like that. Begging for your mouth, your pussy. Begging you to let him come.)
Normally you’d let it go. Let him talk to himself in your texts, because he’s got a lot of nerve if nothing else, but you’d gone out earlier. Grabbed a few drinks with your girlfriends, let the alcohol thrum through you like a livewire. Watched as they danced with men whose names they didn’t know and never learned and thought about what it’d be like to be able to do something like that in public.
Got home, felt a little scorned, just on the edge of bitter. Made a show of taking your dress off in the bathroom mirror and posted it someplace you knew he’d look.
You: did you like it?
Rhetorical. Mingyu may not want to put a label on this thing, might not want to be caged-in and suffocated, but you know what you do to him. All the ways you affect him.
i could tell you, comes the immediate reply, and your eyes are halfway rolled when—
Kim Mingyu: or i could show you
It takes a second to come through, but once it does your breath hitches in your throat. Far from the most obscene image he’s ever sent you, but just as effective. An expanse of tanned, soft skin, lean muscle; still in those same grey sweats, bunched up a little on the thigh as he lays in his plush hotel bed with his legs spread.
At the center of it all, the outline of his hard, thick cock, so fucking big as it stretches the fabric taut.
All you can do is stare.
Mingyu is not of this earth. This thought is nothing new: he has always existed outside the realm of possibility, in more ways than one, so this is merely a fact. Grass is green, the sky is blue, sometimes you can love someone in a way that’s so overwhelming and still be no good for them.
Another fact: it’s primal, the way you need him. Always has been.
You: what am i looking at? You: new sweatpants?
On the other end of the line, it’s easy to imagine his reaction. A quick snort of laughter, tongue pressed into the fat of his cheek before he clenches his jaw. If he were here, he’d haul you into his lap, kiss you deep and messy. Trail his fingers along your skin until they settled in the hollow of your throat.
Pull away just for a second. Just long enough to say, “Watch your mouth,” before he’s licking into it.
Kim Mingyu: don’t be like that 🙄
This time your eyes fully roll. Spitefully, you snap a picture of what’s in front of you: your bedroom wall, some drama playing on the TV, a sliver of amber light from the lamp next to you.
You send it.
You: while we’re sending pictures of irrelevant shit
Truth be told, you’re not like this often, but you get a streak of it every now and then. Only ever at times like this, when the two of you haven’t seen one another in a while and the distance between you is still so ambiguous, untitled.
Usually Mingyu will come by your place. Get you stripped down to almost nothing, have you writhing on his fingers. Then, in between satisfied groans, he’ll slap at your thighs, tell you to stop being a brat.
Kim Mingyu: then send me something worthwhile You: you first
Another beat of silence. Long enough to flick through the channels, plug in your phone, let some of that heat dissipate.
Your phone chimes, and when you look down—
Those grey sweats are long gone, replaced with a pair of black briefs barely containing his cock, still hard and curved toward his stomach. You swallow. Let your eyes linger on the corded muscle of his thighs, all that soft skin. Let your mind remind you, just for a second, how it feels beneath your fingertips, your hands, your mouth.
All the sounds he makes.
Kim Mingyu: is that better Kim Mingyu: is that what you wanted
Unbidden, the corners of your mouth lift. hm… close but no, you type out. Let it sit for a few seconds before you delete it. If Mingyu wants to be a tease, you can do the same.
You situate yourself against the pillows. Angle your phone so the length of your body is visible: your bare legs twisted in the sheets, the bruise Mingyu had sucked into the inside of your thigh before he left just barely making it into the frame. What’s fully visible, though: his shirt that’s draped over your frame, how much it engulfs you, the way you’re drowning in it. In him.
You send it.
You: depends... is this what you wanted?
The response is immediate:
Kim Mingyu: absolutely not. take it off baby.
You’ve starred in this production before, knew where it was headed the second you saw the missed calls, so you’d put on his favorite of your underwear. Skimpy red lace, part of a set he’d had sent to your apartment. Used to tell you in desperate whispers how ruined he was seeing you in them; used to have to rein himself in so he didn’t rip them off.
So you snap another photo. Spread your legs a little further, pull the hem of Mingyu’s shirt between your teeth. Know seeing that sliver of your stomach will drive him crazy, too, but it’ll pale in comparison to the underwear.
You consider video calling him. Want to see his face when you send this photo—the pinch of his brows, the slight drop of his jaw. The way he’ll whimper a little, say baby in that tone that floods you with heat: a little desperate, all hushed awe, bordering on a whine.
The same kind of heat that starts to creep back in again. There’s power in desire, in being desired, and even though you’re here and Mingyu’s in a hotel room in Japan, you can still feel it. Subconscious, like some kind of red string shit. Anticipatory.
Kim Mingyu: goddamn Kim Mingyu: you wear those for me? Kim Mingyu: fuck, i wish i was there to take them off of you
You suck in a breath. and if you were? you send back.
Kim Mingyu: you know that pair is my favorite Kim Mingyu: drives me crazy every time you wear that set Kim Mingyu: but i’ve changed my mind. i want you to keep them on Kim Mingyu: want you to keep my shirt on too You: yeah? you want me to wear your shirt while you fuck me? pull my panties to the side? Kim Mingyu: slow down baby, i’m taking my time with you
In your bed, you snort to yourself. Mingyu has never been patient with anything, but especially not with you. Most of the time he’s so keyed up, wound so tight, that it’s all the two of you can do to make it to your bed—and sometimes you don’t. Sometimes Mingyu puts all that body to use, presses your back to the wall and throws your legs over his shoulders as he eats you out. Wraps your legs around him as he fucks you right there, the slide so, so easy with how wet and messy he gets you.
You remind him of as much. Type out, you? taking your time? i’ve got a couple walls in my entryway that would say differently, and laugh when the reply comes through—can’t help myself sometimes—and promptly stop laughing at the next one: never can, with you.
Kim Mingyu: have i ever told you what i love the most? Kim Mingyu: just kissing you. you always taste so good, baby Kim Mingyu: the way you get so worked up and start grabbing at me when i’m doing it. the way you try to get me to touch you. the way you start grinding your pussy on me like you can’t go another second without me inside you
You feel like you’re on fire. Gets worse with every word you read and re-read, try to commit to memory. You know it all too well, what he’s talking about. Know how warm his skin is, how firm he feels under your touch. Know what he tastes like. How soft his lips are. The way he sounds when you start to writhe, the way he groans when he presses tighter against you, presses you into the mattress, hard cock rutting against you, enough to take the edge off but nowhere near what he needs.
You: love that too You: love when you’re inside me even more
Kim Mingyu: me too baby Kim Mingyu: love the way you feel around me Kim Mingyu: always so fucking tight Kim Mingyu: ffuck
Your stomach drops at his last message. are you touching yourself? you type, even though you already know the answer. Another sight you’re blessed to know: Mingyu’s hand wrapped around himself, how the size of his cock makes it look small in comparison. Head tilted back, abs flexing under the weight of the pleasure.
You get a singular character in reply: 응.
show me.
He doesn’t respond right away. The pause is enough to have anticipation thrumming through your veins, make you a little shaky. Your hand trembles as you trace patterns into your warm, soft skin, pretending it’s Mingyu’s touch and not your own. Pretend it’s Mingyu’s hand that grabs at your breast beneath his shirt, thumbs over your nipple; Mingyu’s touch that has soft gasps escaping you. Pretend it’s Mingyu’s hand that dips beneath the hem of your panties.
Kim Mingyu Attachment: 1 Movie
On the screen: Mingyu’s face greets you first, eyes half-lidded and hazy, the corners of his mouth lifted in a smirk. He tilts his head back, lets you see the sweat-slick skin of his neck, the column of his throat; pans the camera down over his collar bones, his bare chest, before he flips the screen. Can barely fit the entirety of his frame in the shot, and it strikes you someplace deep, how big he is. How overwhelming.
You suck in a breath as your eyes focus—as you take in the way he’s stroking himself. His cock glistens with whatever lube he’d indulged in, but you can’t help but pretend it’s from you and your mouth. Wish you could see the way he’d touch himself as you sucked him nearly to orgasm and told him to finish himself off. The way he’d whine, beg a little, get a little shitty with you.
“Fuck,” you say out loud. You can feel your pupils blow at the thought.
“Jagiya,” comes Mingyu’s voice, intertwined with the sounds of the tv, a city so far away from you, “fuck, I’m so fu-fucking hard.”
If you’d thought you were on fire before, it’s nothing compared to now. Hearing the need in his voice, watching the way he’s touching himself. The way his hips stutter as his body seeks out more, more, more, always more, and the way he squeezes the base of his cock so he doesn’t come too soon.
“Wish it was you. Wish it was you touching me like this. I—fuck, need you so bad.”
You watch as Mingyu strokes over the head of his cock, as each subsequent pass gets more tacky and wet. Lick your lips at the sight of it. Want, more than anything, to get your mouth on him and taste the salt of his skin, the precome he’s jerking himself off with.
Before he even needs to ask, you start recording a video of your own. Leave your panties on because you know he’d want you to. Record the first pass of your fingers through your slick, let out a disbelieving little laugh at how wet you are, how you can hear it. Moan as you dip a finger into your cunt, just to the first knuckle. Say, “I’m so wet, Gyu, oh my god,” all breathy.
Not all that different from how you sound when he’s here. When he’s flesh and blood and right beside you, on top of you.
You use the wetness you’ve gathered and move your hand to your clit. It’s throbbing beneath your touch, your body already wound too tight, and you nearly hiss in oversensitivity and relief when you finally touch yourself the way you’ve wanted to. “Fuck.���
You force yourself to take your time. Slow, small circles, when everything in your body is screaming to be selfish, begging for release the same way Mingyu’s had.
“Should I finger myself?” you ask. A sharp inhale as your next pass has your toes curling. “Wo-won’t feel as good as you, but I need—need more.”
Before you cut the video, you zoom in a little. Make sure Mingyu will be able to see the way you’re touching yourself, be able to hear the sound of your arousal, the same sounds that have warmth blooming in your cheeks.
Kim Mingyu: jesusf fuck Kim Mingyu: god baby youre so hto Kim Mingyu: wanna see you finger yourself Kim Mingyu: please
It’s a little embarrassing, how incapable you are of denying him anything. You trust him implicitly, love him even more, so it’s second nature to give in, to adjust your phone so you don’t have to hold it. Second nature to press record, pull your panties to the side just like you’d proposed earlier; second nature to make a show of sticking two fingers in your mouth, sucking on them, before bringing them to your entrance and easing them inside.
Nothing compared to the stretch of Mingyu, both his fingers and his cock, but it’s still good. Enough to have you sighing softly, barely audible over the sound of everything else: the rustling of your sheets, the low thrum of your own television, you in general.
A rhythmic song and dance. Practiced. You grow wetter with each push and pull; know Mingyu will be able to see it, the way you work yourself open. That, too, has you a little dizzy. Breathless. You wonder what he sees when he looks at you. Not only like this, but all the time. Does he see an expiration date? Something good while it lasted? Is there just this—something carnal and superficial?
Or does he just see you?
It drives you crazy. Inspires something within you: not just the desire to please him, make it worth his while, but to be something else, something more than this. Has your fingers moving a little faster, has you grinding your clit against the palm of your hand. Has you a whining, writhing mess; has sounds spilling out that you aren’t sure you’ve ever heard come out of you.
You send it before you can overthink it. Whatever Mingyu sees in you, at least these are the images that’ll play in his mind whenever he thinks of you. At least you’ve sunk your claws into him.
Seconds pass in a blur. You’re still on the brink of a mind-numbing orgasm, stuck in this liminal space simply because Mingyu isn’t here, and you know, too, how this goes. Know you aren’t supposed to come without his say-so in the same way he edges himself until he gets yours.
Kim Mingyu: shit shit shit Kim Mingyu: i wish that was me. wanna take you apart like that. wanna finger you while i eat you out, make you squirt all over me again Kim Mingyu: fuck i thin k about that all the time Kim Mingyu: im gonna cum
I think about that all the time.
So do you. You, on your hands and knees, Mingyu eating you out from behind. Bracing yourself against the headboard with one arm, the other one reaching behind you to pull at his hair. You remember how relentless he’d been that night. A man possessed. Disregarded all your breathless pleas, every Mingyu, Gyu, fuck, fuck, Mingyu, baby— that left your mouth. His tongue left your pussy only long enough to say, you can take it, baby before he was right back at it. Before he worked in two fingers alongside his mouth. Before his free hand came down hard on your ass, the sting startling you, making you jerk, forcing you closer to his mouth.
You remember coming with a scream. You remember coming to with Mingyu’s lips to your neck, the sweet way he was speaking to you. You remember the knee-jerk embarrassment you felt when you saw the giant wet spot you’d left on the bed and how quickly it dissipated when Mingyu pressed a kiss to your temple, called you his good girl.
You: you can come, but you know the rule
You move your fingers back to your clit, feel all that pleasure flood back, start in your toes. It’s not long before you’re pulling a blistering orgasm from your body—one that feels like it belongs to Mingyu, wasn’t yours for the taking.
thank you, he replies, right beneath a photo of his abs streaked with cum.
The comedown is jarring. You feel both too big for your body and completely out of sorts now that you’ve fulfilled your role. Now that there’s nothing to do but sit in the stillness of your bedroom, that same drama playing on television, some girl getting her heart broken.
You wonder if Mingyu’s thinking the same. If his body also sags with relief, if the absence of all that tension feels crushing. If the first thought he has in this newfound clarity is also I love you and if he also swallows it down every single time. You wonder if he thinks about his role, if it’s becoming stale and tired.
Because you know what comes next:
Kim Mingyu: i’ll be home soon Kim Mingyu: can i see you
And you also know what you’ll say. After all, you’ve played this role before.
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if you've made it this far thank you so much for reading! this is prob not my best work since it's a lil rushed but i needed something to get me out of my slump.
i would love to hear your thoughts! <3
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