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end-orfino · 5 months

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i feel like it's such a cruel joke from God that everything that makes me better also makes me feel worse.

#the attitude of 'no one else will do it if not you' along with 'you need to put in more than the bare min. because--#--this bare minimum does not make an effect on people tf is this'#was things i started thinking to motivate myself to draw more than headshots all the time & actually start putting the ideas i had onto--#paper and at least trying to tell my stories in anything more than a meaningless ramble #(i still ramble sometimes but i at least try to think of how to do it now)#and it worked #and im doing actual things now #but now this same logic is hurtful because it pushes me to make more&more&more #just to get my ideas out there #bcs just saying the idea out loud isnt enough. people will not be interested in just listening to that #i need to like make a drawing or something #and theres so many ideas and i cant make something for all of them but IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO THAT.#im the only one. and i should be the only one because getting someone else to do so is 1. not possible 2. shameful.#like oooohhh can you make this idea i had real because i cant. jesus christ id rather fall into the ground.#please dont internalize this btw. this isnt a good attitude to have. not at all!!#but now im stuck in this hell because its the only way i get to keep going #the only way im capable of doing anything and being productive is by forcing myself to do so. by pulling myself up by strings #and beating myself up into what i want to do #i will not do it if i wont force myself to.#...does this classify as executive dysfunction?#i never thought it did but #now that i phrased it that way #god i wish i had the balls to ask my parents for therapy #BY THE WAY TO CLARIFY #'DOING THINGS'? IN THIS CONTEXT?#MEANS LIKE. MAKING SHITPOSTS.#SOMETIMES MAKING COMICS OR WRITING A ONE SHOT BUT I STILL STRUGGLE WITH THAT TO THIS DAY.#IT WAS MOSTLY LITERALLY DRAWING A DOODLE COMIC INSTEAD OF WRITING SOMETHING IN A DIALOGUE FORM #BECAUSE DIALOGUES DIDNT CHANNEL WHAT I WANTED TO SHOW RIGHT AND SHITPOST COMICS MADE IT MORE INTERESTING TOO.#oh yeah and theres a thing to be said about how so much for this if not all is just so that other people would look at it.

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uncanny-tranny · 4 months

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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

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chloesimaginationthings · 2 months

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William Afton into the FNAF-verse

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nouverx · 15 days

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*proceeds to drink the whole bottle*

Yeah Alastor you're gonna be loved and appreciated wether you want it or not :)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin alastor #hazbin rosie #radiorose #platonic radiorose #qpr radiorose #even tho they have no idea what label to put on their relationship at this point #hazbin comic #comic #my art #autodesk sketchbook #it probably looks ooc from alastor to react like this but poor man has only learned his whole life that relationships have a hierarchy #“marriage > a simple friendship” in his brain and it's confusing for him that Rosie would put her friendship with him over that #also Rosie was pissed of how terrible her date went and as soon as she comes home Alastor sides with her ex husband #just to explain why she got angry so quickly basically they couldnt really understand each other that's why they got angry #I love cute fluffy radiorose but its good to see them argue sometimes eheh #I needed to get this idea out of my system and made it into a whole comic

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ghostbsuter · 2 months

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He'd been flying above Metropolis.

Like a good ghost! Doing nothing but relax! Enjoying the weather, really.

It was so cool, Superman came up to him, they talked even! Superman was very, very, uncomfortable when Danny mentioned he was kinda dead.

It was really awesome.

Yeah, the keypoint being was.

Now? Now he is in Superman's arms, very much alive after being hit by a stray beam from Lex Luthors newest invention, quite literally hit from the sky when he didn't expect it and out of f reflex turned back human.

"I'm... alive?" He jokes weakly, smiling awkwardly at Superman's stare.

Danny considered this awkward.

Clark was processing the fact Lex Luthor somehow managed to bring back someone from death, his hands now full of said miracle and—

Shit, does the kid even have family left? What's he going to tell Lois!?

#dcxdp #dpxdc #dp x dc crossover #writing prompt #fic prompt #dc x dp prompt #dc x dp #dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #Superman is so flabbergasted #superman has no idea whats going on #superman is just tired man #danny has no idea whats going on #theyre both so shocked #superman is wondering if he just became a father #danny is figuring out how to get out of thia situation #clark: i know this is scary! but now you have a new chance at life! would you like to stay with me and my wife? :')#danny: fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

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clouvu · 1 month

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Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

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ato-dato · 4 months

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I don’t think they’re ugly. But I think the number of times Jean has begged him to buy new clothes is astronomical.

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theswedishpajas · 1 year

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Just take it from me.

#my art stuff #super mario #Luigi #Wario #Mario #Waluigi #I don’t think I’ve ever drawn wario before #and I am scared at how well he turned out.#take the L #take the W #take the M #take the ???#meme #doodle #sketch #I absolutely love the expressions they’re making #luigi looks so tired #Wario is just proud of you #Mario doesn’t get what’s happening but acts like he made the trend #waluigi just wants to feel included but has no idea what the fuck is going on #no thoughts head empty only WAH #edit:#A friend informed me the upside down L is a real letter and is pronounced like R #and I can’t help but imagine He thinks he’s being smoothe and doing one of those sleezy purr growl things and thinking he’s being flirty #it makes the wink so much worse #I love Waluigi but god he’s so lame (affectionate)#edit 2.0:#it is pronounced like G #idk where I got R from #’’grrr“ is even worse for waluigi

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verflares · 1 month

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i thought i felt your shape, but i was wrong. really all i felt was falsely strong, i held on tight and closed my eyes. it was dumb, i had no sense of your size. it was dumb to hold so tight.

#tumblr murked my quality so bad MY GODDDD please click on this i promise i have somewhat of an idea of wht im doing. kinda #anyway i once again have no idea what i was doing here but i did have fun. they make me miserable in the best way possible #im trying to be a bit more experimental both in style and colour... well. half on tht last one (guy who really likes reds and blues)#but im trying out line weight a bit more. hooty hoo. going to try drawing some more practice portraits n stuff soon #link #zelda #loz #botw #zelink #(a smidge bcus im insane. as usual)#princess zelda #zelda botw #link botw #loz fanart #tloz #i add new tags each time. i just like to get silly with it sometimes tbh :]#my art

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jsheios · 5 months

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So Hilda season 3. (This post has nothing to do with hilda season 3)

#no spoilers here y’all are good #this was inspired by watching season though #holy fuck dude #when I posted this on other platforms half my comments were “’HILDA S3 IS OUT???’#NO ONES TALKING ABOUT IT AND ITS CRIMINAL #I may start posting more hilda art but it’ll take a bit to get to s3 content maybe #cus I still have so many ideas just from season 2 I never got out #take this with a grain of salt #hilda #hilda the series #hilda netflix #twig hilda #this post is based on some old aged up hilda designs I posted like 2 years ago #I’ve missed them

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onebadnoodle · 6 months

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here are some messy sketches of what i'm working on. i try not to post stuff that isn't finished but sometimes its fun to share stuff like this

#sketches #character design #wips #just trying to get my ideas out in drawn form #students #story ideas

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velsatelier · 18 days

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what am i?

#gummigoo. gummigoo come back…#not my best not going to lie but just wanted to get the idea out of my head um #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc gummigoo #gummigoo #my art

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nounaarts · 2 months

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LEAKED SCENE FROM SONIC MOVIE 3 ??

*queue 80’s music*

Here’s all their crimes listed :)

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umblrspectrum · 2 months

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hi heres art so you pay attention to me now go read the tags

#ive been rewatching episode 7 like its the only thing on youtube and made note of many things #first off. the solver can only have one host. nori mentions skyn wants to kill off all the other solver hosts (with the dds) and disregards #the idea of both uzi and doll being its current host when they get chased #plus the main solver possessions only occur when skyn is out of the picture (the fightt in ep 7 is only after n decapitates “tessa”)#solver uzi is possible too but i dont count her cause she doesn't have the yellow #personal theory is that its more an instinctual response to overheating or something and not full on possession #second off nori calls the solver cyn. how does she know that name #cyn was on earth and only showed up to copper 9 recently and i presume nori's been here her whole life #it probably wasn't the other dds cause none of them made it down and they're all more savage beasts #since cyn specifies n's team retained their personalities and that makes me think the other teams didnt #also also we should've immediately questioned tessa arriving in the same type of pod as the mds when they were revealed to not be sent by j #im running out of characters also the people who dont like when i use tags like this can bite me #murder drones #murder drones nori #artori? that sounds cool #ill probably just stick with nori though #i have so many solver heart refs now #art #episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 spoilers #using the same black for shadows as my lineart doesn't work when i have to draw thin things over it #murder drones spoilers

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polarsirens · 11 months

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something about karna learning how to “play chess” as a play, a game without consequences and something done for fun for the first time (also me obsessing over how this passing comment from colin just sets up for more heartbreak because do they have time?)

also some notes on… self-indulgent things

#dimension 20 #the ravening war #the ravening war spoilers #karna solara #colin provolone #scrumptious scoundrels #(they’re all here technically just in a different form)#fanart #my art #don’t know what this is supposed to convey but i’ve been stuck with this idea for days so m just happy to get it out of my head

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wackywumpum · 6 months

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Alright but what if Godzilla slithered

#LISTEN #Godzilla vs Kong already had our boy be pretty nimble #just sayinggggg #Godzills slithering would be cool alright #ive had this idea stuck in my head for YEARS because i saw some Gmod youtube video where they just kinda dragged a Godzilla ragdoll around #godzilla #kaiju #godzilla x kong #godzilla x kong: the new empire #theres like two shots in the trailer that have some pretty iffy CGI #but im really hoping those get ironed out because the rest of it looks pretty good

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