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"I wanted to frighten you, but I never wanted you dead. I never wanted anyone dead."
- Cardan Greenbriar, The Cruel Prince
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jude duarte sad quotes
“She wasn’t even scared. She wasn’t sure she felt anything at all.”
“She couldn’t imagine how it had felt, and as the years went by, she couldn’t make herself feel it again. The horror of the murders dulled with time. Her memories of the day blurred.”
“I know it’s an honor to be raised alongside the Gentry’s own children. A terrifying honor, of which I will never be worthy.
It would be hard to forget it, with all the reminders I am given.”
“We are getting older and things are changing. We are changing. And as eager as I am for it, I am also afraid.”
“You may think salt is sufficient protection, but you children are forgetful. Better to go without. As for dancing, once begun, you mortals will dance yourselves to death if we don’t prevent it.”
I look at my feet and say nothing.
We children are not forgetful.”
“To go inside, we must ride between two trees, an oak and a thorn, and then straight into what appears to be the stone wall of an abandoned folly. I’ve done it hundreds of times, but I flinch anyway. My whole body braces, I grip the reins hard, and my eyes mash shut.”
“Oriana steps forward, probably to remind Taryn and me of all the things she doesn’t want us to do. I don’t give her the chance.”
“I turn my gaze to the floor. Though I hate it, I sink to the ground on one knee, bend my head, and grit my teeth”
“Valerian gives my braid a hard tug. I wince, useless fury coiling in my belly. He laughs and moves on.
My fury curdles into shame. I wish I had smacked his hand away, even though it would have made everything worse.”
“I want to feel something, something besides a vague queasiness. I want to feel more, but every time I look at it, I feel less.”
“I’m so tired,” I say out loud. “So tired.”
I sit there for a long time, watching the rising sun gild the sky, listening to the waves crash as the tide goes out, when a creature flies up to alight on the edge of my window. At first it seems like an owl, but it’s got hob eyes. “Tired of what, sweetmeat?” it asks me.
I sigh and answer honestly for once. “Of being powerless.”
“He doesn’t understand how much that makes them loathe us.
Not that I am not grateful. I like the lessons. Answering the lecturers cleverly is something no one can take from me, even if the lecturers themselves occasionally pretend otherwise. I will take a frustrated nod in place of effusive praise. I will take it and be glad because it means I can belong whether they like it or not.”
“There is nothing I can say to make them stop, and I know it. I have no power here. But today I can’t seem to choke down my anger at my own impotence.”
“What they don’t realize is this: Yes, they frighten me, but I have always been scared, since the day I got here. I was raised by the man who murdered my parents, reared in a land of monsters. I live with that fear, let it settle into my bones, and ignore it. If I didn’t pretend not to be scared, I would hide under my owl-down coverlets in Madoc’s estate forever. I would lie there and scream until there was nothing left of me. I refuse to do that. I will not do that.”
“When I was little, I used to sit at the bank all day, staring at faerie countenances instead of my own, hoping that I might someday catch a glimpse of my mother looking back at me.
Eventually, it hurt too much to try.”
“I want to scream at him: Do you know how hard it is to always keep your head down? To swallow insults and endure outright threats? And yet I have done so. I thought it proved my toughness. I thought if you saw I could take whatever came at me and still smile, you would see that I was worthy.
You’re no killer.
He has no idea what I am.
Maybe I don’t know, either. Maybe I never let myself find out.”
“I pinch my leg until pain washes everything away.”
“Do you know why Madoc won’t let me try for knighthood? Because he thinks I’m weak.”
“Jude,” she cautions.
“I thought I was supposed to be good and follow the rules,” I say. “But I am done with being weak. I am done with being good. I think I am going to be something else.”
“when the fun wore off and I still couldn’t stop, it was just terrifying. It turned out that my fear was equally amusing to him, though. Princess Elowyn found me at the end of the revel, puking and crying.”
“Here’s why I don’t like these stories: They highlight that I am vulnerable. No matter how careful I am, eventually I’ll make another misstep. I am weak. I am fragile. I am mortal.
I hate that most of all.
Even if, by some miracle, I could be better than them, I will never be one of them.”
“Is this fun?” I call to the shore. I am so furious that there’s no room for being scared. “Are you enjoying yourselves?”
“My foot slips on slick rocks, and I am under, swept downstream helplessly, gulping muddy water. I panic, snorting into my lungs. I thrust out a hand, and it closes on the root of a tree. I get my balance again, gasping and coughing.”
“We can curse you to wither away for want of a song you’ll never hear again or a kind word from my lips. We’re not mortal. We will break you. You’re a fragile little thing; we’d hardly need to try. Give up.”
“Never,” I say.”
“I think about how much I hate them and how much I hate myself.”
“a different person is looking back at me.
Maybe the person I might have been if I’d been raised human.
Whoever that is.”
“But when I see human families all together, especially families with sticky-mouthed, giggling little sisters, I don’t like the way I feel.
Angry.
I don’t imagine myself back in a life like theirs; what I imagine is going over there and scaring them until they cry.
I would never, of course.
I mean, I don’t think I would.”
“Knighthood would have been boring anyway,” Vivi says, effectively dismissing the thing I’ve been working toward for years. I sigh. It’s annoying, but also reassuring that she doesn’t think it’s that big a deal, when the loss has felt overwhelming to me.”
“not giving her the satisfaction of being shocked by what she said about our parents. She acts like we don’t remember, like there’s some way I am ever going to forget. She acts like it’s her personal tragedy and hers alone.”
“A wave of panicky frustration comes over me at the sight of her intent expression. I so badly wanted her to choose me to be one of her knights. And though she can’t now, a sudden awful fear that I couldn’t have impressed her comes over me. Maybe Madoc was right. Maybe I lack the instinct for dealing death.
If I don’t try too hard today, at least I never need know if I would have been good enough.”
“My stomach is sour with the lack of food, but I no longer feel hungry. I feel sick, eaten up with nerves. I try to ignore everything but the exercises I move through to limber up my muscles.”
“There’s no shame in surrender. As Taryn said, they’re just words. I don’t have to mean them. I can lie.
I start to lower myself to the ground. This will be over quickly, every word will taste like bile, and then it will be over.
When I open my mouth, though, nothing comes out.
I can’t do it.”
“I stagger past the tournament tents to a stone fountain, where I splash my face with water. I bend down, starting to clean the gravel from my knees. My legs feel stiff, and I am shaking all over.
“Are you all right?” Locke asks, gazing down with his tawny fox eyes. I didn’t even hear him behind me.
I am not.
I am not all right, but he can’t know that, and he shouldn’t be asking.”
“What happens when they turn out my pockets? What happens when they rip my stockings? What happens when they scatter my salt in the dirt?”
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Part two of my annotations of The Cruel Prince (yes im aware it has taken an awful lot) (ch 4-10)
Jude has one of those pretty baldakin beds
“His fingers heavy with rings” Jude was certainly paying attention to some aspects of Cardan
“Make me” Top 10 list of things Jude Duarte has and shouldn’t have said to Cardan, a prince of faerie, who most definitely rocked her shit after
“I could, you know” says Cardan, grinning as though nothing would please him more.” - ok we get it you’re horny
“And Cardan is even more beautiful than the rest” honey what’s new
“And cheekbones sharp enough to cut out a girl’s heart” its canon
“I hate him so much that sometimes when I look at him I can hardly breathe.” - Jude being an idiot for 10 minutes straight
“And Cardan whispers foul things in my ear.” - my new favorite hobby is taking Jurdan quotes out of context
“You’re no killer.” - Madoc being dumb as shit for 10 minutes straight
“Let’s have a toast. To the incompetence of our enemies.” - This line is iconic and the only reason I haven’t lost all hope for Madoc yet
“Cardan watches me.” - Jurdan out of context
So in the scene where Cardan yeets Jude and Taryn in the river, we have this quote: “Cardan has one foot in the reeds, as if to take a better look.” WHAT IF, he was actually doing that in case of an emergency. If the pixies would have truly attacked, he was ready to intervene and save Jude.
To further prove my theory, when Jude is throwing rocks at the pixies, “Quit.” Cardan says.” - HE WAS INDIRECTLY WARNING HER
“Cardan’s gaze is hungry, devouring.” -Jurdan out of context. Yes I’m aware he was literally shitting on her whole life in the moment
Lmao the audacity of Cardan to look straight into Jude’s eyes as Taryn was kissing his cheek
“And i was magnificently, extravagantly wrong.” MY NEW FAVORITE QUOTE FUCKS AND FUCKERS
It is canon that Jude has a sweater with a star and Cardan’s first look was a constellation coat
Jude pushes Cardan against a tree 🫡📸
Cardan’s eyes are described as “coal-bright” which i just think is a splendid metaphor
“He looked gleeful, gloating, as though my fist tightening on his shirt was exactly what he would have wished.” -Jurdan out of context. Kinky bastard.
JUDE WORE WARRIOR BRAIDS AT THE TOURNAMENT. hot
“I was struck suddenly by his height, by the arrogant sneer he wears like a crown.” First off, height difference confirmed, second, boy am i in love with this dude
“He would seem like a prince even dresses in rags.” - Aka Jude pointing out for the millionth time that he’s pretty
NOW HERE COMES A SCENE WHICH LOWKEY HAD ME ON MY KNEES
“Do you know what mortal means? It means born to die.” - our philosophy king<3 way to go Cardan
“You corrupt, corrosive mortal creature.” Nah cuz seriously if Cardan told me that I’d fold
“Good. Now, beg my forgiveness.” Again, watch me fold if that happened
“Get down on your knees. […] Beg. Make it pretty. Flowery. Worthy of me.” THE WAY I WAS SQUEALING WHEN I READ THAT
Now here comes Jude’s comeback :
“You think because you can humiliate me, you can control me?” HELL YEAS GIRLBOSS
“Well, I think you’re an idiot.” Comedy queen 🕺even though she had high chances of being killed because of that
So now; here’s when I think Cardan truly fell in love with Jude
“Cardan looks at me as though he’s never seen me before. He looks at me as though no one had ever spoken to him like this. Maybe no one has.”
If that part is really when the spark lights in his heart, im gonna melt
“No one else bothers him quite the way you do.” -great news, Locke is actually capable of saying smart shit
“Cardan emerges in the Royal Box, wearing loose white linen and a flower crown all of roses.” - IS HE WEARING A DRESS? A MATCHING SET? ONLY A SHIRT? The world may never know and that is truly devastating. Also, when he asked Jude to make her begging flowery then his dramatic ass changes outfits and puts on a flower crown 🥲💖
When she is told that a prince is waiting for her downstairs, she instantly thinks of Cardan <3
“I know humans can lie, but watching you do it is incredible. Do it again.” If Dain wasn’t like a few hundred years old that would have been lowkey kinda hot
“Desire is an odd thing. As soon as it’s sated, it transmutes. If we receive the golden thread, we desire the golden needle.” - i just fucking love this quote
Jude thinks of Cardan when she’s asked what she desires most (yes i know i took it out of context. Its her desire to not be controlled by magic and of course she thinks of him.)
I shall be back with part 3 <3 also sorry to everyone who asked for Rotten Hearts pt two. Im on it but my brain no worky. Also if yall wanna be tagged in it lemme know 💖 byee
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Fine Line | Jurdan Quarantine AU
Written for Jurdan Week 2020, hosted by @jurdannet​ | Day 4- Song Crossover (Adore You by Harry Styles requested by @mysweetvilllain​ )
Chapter Rating: M
CW: mature themes, explicit descriptions, vulgar language, eventual explicit content.
Summary: Two vindictive assholes. One shitty apartment. And a vow to get under each other’s skin. Stuck in hate together twenty-four-seven, this can only end in a crime of passion.
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Chapter 1- Adore You (Verse 1)
[Cardan POV]
The minute I walk into the kitchen, I know I’m fucked.
She’s sitting there on one of my bar stools, at my island counter, eating my strawberries straight out of the plastic container. I say “my” because I’m still in denial that I have to share this shit-hole with anyone. Especially her.
When I put the ad up online, I was skint and desperate. I would’ve taken anyone short of a serial killer, really, but I was hoping for normal. Or at the very least, boring. It’s just my luck that the only person who responded to the ad was someone so insufferable.
We were civil with each other for all of a day. Three weeks had me almost driven to moving out. Me. Moving out of my own damn apartment because even that is easier than living with Jude Duarte. 
That’s when corona hit, so I guess I’m stuck.
It’s been a fortnight of isolation. Putting up with her unmitigated bullshit. Her ceaseless presence and mulish disposition. Our constant butting heads. 
On a good day, I give myself over to the ashen taste of resignation. On the bad ones, I want to throw myself down the stairs just so I can spend the night in hospital. 
Anyways, I’m fucked because my wretched flatmate is sitting there in her baggy black sweatpants and oversized hoodie. Her knees are tucked up to her chest, giving me a plain view of those stupid rainbow socks she’s always wearing. Her hair is a mess on top of her head. Everything about her sets off a tick in my jaw.
Except the way she eats strawberries.
Her full pink lips wrap around one now and—fucking hell. I swear my cock twitches. When she sinks her teeth in, those lips come away red-stained and glistening. A line of juice dribbles down her chin as she chews. Then, she pops the stem into her mouth and eats that, too.
I find myself imagining her on her knees, strawberry lips wrapped around something else of mine. The way the back of her throat would feel as I ram into her mouth—
I blink. My lip curls. I need coffee, and maybe a cold shower.
The former is closest, so I stop standing in the doorway like the twat that I am, and walk into the kitchen. Thankfully, she’s got earphones in and is so immersed in whatever the fuck she does on her laptop all day that she hasn’t noticed my blatant ogling.
If she notices me at all, she doesn’t acknowledge it.
Good. It’s better this way. The less we talk the less we end up screaming at each other. It’s only happened twice. The neighbors came round both times.
I pull a mug and the instant coffee down from a shelf.
It irks me. Just last night, I was standing in this very spot, doing everything in my power not to lose my shit after finding a pile of her dirty dishes in the sink. For the third time this week. She always says “they’re soaking”, and I always end up doing them later anyway, because I can’t stand the mess.
She does things like that a lot. Dishes and crumbs and wrappers. Stealing my food. A week ago I found a pizza crust jammed in between the cushions of the sofa. She denies all accountability, of course.
Not to mention, she sets her alarms for the ass crack of dawn. She’s such a heavy sleeper that I’m invariably wide awake well before she is, listening to the incessant shrill of her phone through the walls as she hits snooze, over and over.
I’m certainly not without my faults, of course. I know she hates me just as much as I hate her. She’s told me as much. Which is why I’m miffed that suddenly, without any warning, I want to fuck her into the kitchen counter.
There’s a spoon in the drying rack and I use it to stir my coffee. 
Nicasia hated me, I think to myself. She loved me once, but she hated me for a while before she did anything about it. Then, I stop. Because I don’t want to uncork that bottle today. Point is, maybe it’s not completely out of left field. To want someone right when they’re giving you the very least of their attention.
I tap the spoon against the lip of my mug. Usually, I’d retreat back to my bedroom at this point. Instead, I throw the spoon in the sink and turn around to lean against the counter.
She’s still sitting at the island, honed in on her computer. I can hear the thin, metallic wail of a guitar coming from her earphones. She bobs her head slightly to the beat.
It’s not as if she isn’t attractive. In her own, unique way.
She’s strong. If I didn’t hear her pummeling that blasted punching bag she’s got hanging in her room every night, I’d have known she boxed just by the way she looks. She’s got a fighter’s build about her. It lives in her shoulders, in the barrel of her chest. As if every line of her was made bold and unyielding. With intention. 
Again, I have to stop my own wandering thoughts. I’m starting to wonder if maybe my dead end job that has me editing bad romance novels for a living is starting to go to my head. 
It pays the bills until it doesn’t. And then it rots my brain. Maybe I should quit.
Still, I tell myself it’s the quarantine talking. That if I wasn’t trapped in here with her, I wouldn’t find anything about her attractive. That I’d probably be willing to whore myself out for one cigarette right about now. And I don’t even smoke.
But then she looks up at me, mid-bite. Those honey-brown eyes are wild. They threaten to cut straight through me. She squints, accusatory. Chews her bite, slow. Swallows.
My mouth goes dry as the fucking Sahara.
“What are you staring at?” she demands, glare blazing.
Apparently, I’m in the mood to walk that fire, because I take a sip of my coffee and say, smug as I can, “You.”
Sometimes, it’s better to be completely honest with Jude. The truth always seems to appall her far more than any lie ever could. As if she expects everyone to be deceiving. Or maybe it’s just that my truths are so outrageous to her that she doesn’t believe them.
I wouldn’t blame her there. I can hardly admit to this truth, myself. Whether she believes me or not, though, it gets under her skin.
“Right,” she scoffs. “Is it because I’m pretty? Is it because you like me so much?” She bats her lashes at me, mocking. I am stunned by the fact that, for a moment, I wish it was real. That I’d gladly lose myself in that look if it came from her eyes in earnest.
Then I shake my head. I sound like the biggest shit-for-brains. It’ll take more than a few eyelash flutters to make me surrender.
“Oh, no,” I say, trying to match her taunting tone, “I don’t like you. I adore you.”
That makes Jude roll her eyes. “Please,” she says. “You’re probably plotting ways to stick me in my sleep or something. Fucking psychopath.”
It’s that last part that makes me take a step toward the island, lean forward to rest my elbows on the counter so I’m nearly in her space. She doesn’t draw back. Just gives me a scathing look from over the top of her screen.
“If I’m ever depraved enough to stick you,” I tell her, smirking, “I guarantee you won’t be sleeping, love.” Which may come off as anything from perverted to downright murderous, but I don’t care. The face she makes is worth it.
It’s all jaw dropped, vicious gaze, blush creeping into her cheeks like red smoke. I’ve never challenged her before. It makes her look at me like she despises me. Like the only thing she’ll ever do is despise me. I don’t know why that eggs me on, but it does.
“Would you look at that,” I hum, “You’ve got the face about right, too.”
Her nostrils flare. Jaw sets. There’s a lovely shade of puce coming up on her already heated cheeks. She’s absolutely livid, and I can taste it in the air between us. It’s like static on my tongue.
That’s when something cold and slimy hits me dead between the eyes. Jude’s half-eaten strawberry plops to the counter. I’m so surprised I almost laugh.
“You’re disgusting,” she says with as much derision as I feel coursing through me.
Part of me wants to give into that anger. Sling a string of curses at her. Throw the strawberry right back in her face. Those things won’t annoy her half as much as what I actually do.
Keeping an unbothered expression, I pluck the strawberry off the countertop and pop it right into my mouth. Stem and all. I lick my fingers for good measure. All while keeping direct eye contact with the little menace sitting across from me. Her gaze flits to my lips. So I swipe my tongue over them. She blinks.
“Delicious,” I say.
She looks just the right amount of scandalised for me to straighten, take my coffee back up in one hand, and saunter out of the kitchen. I don’t say anything about the strawberries. Or how stealing isn’t a very good exercise in courtesy.
We’ve never been courteous with one another, anyway.
When I’m back in my room I lean against the closed door and scrub a hand over my face. My heartbeat is raging since I did not.
Sometimes, I think the irritating things she does are all on purpose. Just to get under my skin. I rarely give her the satisfaction of knowing it works, but I don’t like letting her trample all over me, either. It gives me an oily feeling. Like I’m back to being under someone else’s thumb, and I hate it.
But that—whatever that was—felt more like fighting back than I ever thought I’d have the balls to do. I feel more alive now than I’ve felt in months.
Maybe that makes me a bastard. C’est la fucking vie.
I start shucking off my clothes, throwing them into the hamper in the corner, one by one. My bedroom is mercifully en suite. If I wanted to, I could live in here for days at a time without leaving.
I don’t know why I ever bother.
I go into the bathroom and turn on the shower. As I stand there under the cold stream, I think about how dangerous it is, this game I’ve entered. Flirting with Jude to get a rise out of her is one thing. That’s clear cut. A direct retaliation.
It’s another thing entirely if part of why I’m doing it is to take the edge off of my own perversions. I mean, what kind of sick fuck has sex fantasies about someone they hate? Someone they’re stuck in isolation with, twenty-four-seven, for the foreseeable future? Someone who hates their guts, too, and could probably easily take them out if it came to physical blows?
I guess that sick fuck would be me.
It’s a fine line to walk but there’s no turning back. I’ve already begun.
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AN: So I guess I’m hopping on the quarantine fic bandwagon 😅 this is definitely not what I expected to come out of this song crossover prompt, but I kind of like it? It’s (very loosely) based off of Adore You by Harry Styles- the threads are there if you look for them 😉
I’m planning on making this a 12 part series (one chapter for each song on Fine Line) so if you’d like to be added to the tag list for this, or to my Jurdan Forever tag list, let me know in the comments/my messages/inbox and I’d be happy to add you! 
-Em 🖤💫
Title Inspo: Fine Line (album) by Harry Styles, Adore You (song) by Harry Styles
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I am sick of the chase But I'm stupid in love (And there's nothing I can do)
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Jude Duarte x Cardan Greenbriar
Response to a prompt from @charrise :  “ Do you accept fanfic prompts? Because I got an idea it’s post TWK and Cardan’s wondering why Jude won’t come back and then he begins to reevaluate how he treated Jude in the past? And he realizes he treated Nicasia like a queen and Jude like dirt and he begins to wonder if Jude’s not coming back because of him and he begins to regret how he treated her?”
Cardan was pacing. It was an unfortunate habit he had picked up since becoming king, the actual king that is, one without a meddling seneschal secretly working behind the scenes. It had started at some point while Jude had been held captive by Queen Orlagh, when his days bled together because of repetitive meetings and his nights bled together because of the worry that had filled the pit of his stomach. It felt odd to be alone with his thoughts, usually when things got bad, Cardan made a point to surround himself with people and vices, in an effort to escape his mind. But those days, where all he could think about was Jude and getting her back safely, it felt wrong to surround himself with people he knew she would hate, doing things that would cause her to look at him with disdain. So, he paced.
He had hoped that the habit would be forgotten when he got her back. When he slipped the ring on her finger and proclaimed her his queen, hoping that meant that instead of pacing at night he would hold her body to his and never worry about her safety again. But then she had killed Balekin and Queen Orlagh had demanded a punishment and he had exiled her.
It had been far too long since then, far too long since Cardan had heard her voice or saw her face, and, yet she still filled his mind. He felt like when he was younger, writing Jude, Jude, Jude over and over again on paper before hiding it away in books, as if he could stop his thoughts from controlling him by forcing them onto paper. He had tried that since her exile. Writing long winded prose explaining that she should come back, that she should come home. He had not-so-subtly hinted at the loophole he had left, writing until such time as she is pardoned by the crown with such emphasis on the last word of the phrase, that he knew that lest she had, somehow, never received a single letter, then she had to understand his meaning. So he was forced to assume that she understood his meaning and chose to ignore it, chose to ignore him.
That fact hurt him more than he would admit. Throughout the whole time he had known Jude, he didn’t mind that she hated him, in fact, it usually made it easier for him, knowing that she thought of him at all, even if her thoughts were colored with anger and hatred. This time though, when he had, for once, been trying to help her, when he thought she should finally see through the cruelty and understand he didn’t want to hurt her, he just wanted her. Jude. The High Queen. His queen.
So he paced. And contemplated writing another letter.
Eventually he decided against it, less so because he thought it'd be best not to, but because the sun was slowly moving up in the sky and he knew he only had a few short hours until he’d be forced to go to a meeting and then another and end the evening with a revel. Slipping under the spider silk sheets, Cardan forced thoughts of Jude out of his mind and focused on ignoring the way his bed felt too big and cold and lonely.
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Cardan felt his crown tipping precariously off the edge of his head as he sat haphazardly on his throne. He was aware that he should be smiling, laughing, dancing, something other than frowning on his throne, wishing he could get drunk without seeing Jude every time he closed his eyes. To be fair, Jude was usually hidden behind his eyelids, but when he was less than sober, his mind muddy with alcohol and his inhibitions lowered, he found that her face was more vivid, that he could feel the intensity of her glare as if she were right next to him. So he didn’t drink.
He was slightly aware of Locke and Taryn and Nicasia off to his side, walking towards him with drinks in their hands and mischief in their eyes. As they approached the throne, Cardan saw Locke’s eyes catch on a faerie walking past, clearly enamored and lust driven, despite his wife’s presence at his side. It was no surprise that Locke split from the trio, leaving Taryn to wander away pretending that she wasn’t hurt by his actions. So only Nicasia was left to approach his throne, nodding her head in a small acknowledgement of his position before speaking.
“My King, wouldn’t you rather be dancing or doing something more enjoyable than sitting on your throne all alone?”
Cardan could feel a part of himself come to the surface, the other side of him reserved for his school friends and members of the court that reeked of self-importance, yet polite in the way only someone raised from birth to be a part of the gentry could master. The frown slipped from his face as he replied, “Of course, but, alas, a king must make time for his subjects to come to him with their problems.”
Cardan refused to acknowledge that when Jude was seneschal times like these were secretly one of his favorites. He would put on airs while drinking and laughing, all the while knowing Jude would always be by his side, whispering into his ear exactly what he should say and do. Now, it felt like a slap in the face to only have Nicasia by his side, someone he couldn’t banter with or insult or antagonize. The thought shot a painful jolt through his heart. Imagining the rest of his life like this: lonely, boring, sad, and all because of his actions. It was something he was loath to admit, that it was his words that caused Jude to leave, even if a part of him knew that it was a risk when he said those words on the beach, a bigger part of him hoped it wouldn’t be true. And he was wrong, so instead he was left alone with Nicasia and her pretty smiles and flirtatious words, all the while wishing she were someone else.
Something about the moment reminded him of all the revels before this mess, before the bloody coronation and Jude’s secret plot and everything, when him, Nicasia, Locke, and Valerian would walk through these same rooms, demanding respect and hurting those who refused to give it. It almost felt nice to be lost in those memories, of trysts and teenage foolishness, until Jude’s face worked its way into the memories. For every moment of satisfaction he got, there was a memory of Jude’s frown or hate shooting from her eyes, burning into his heart. It was enough for him to mumble some half-hearted apology to the direction of Nicasia as he slipped from the room into the halls that led to his chambers.
His mind felt too full, as he thought through all the times he had antagonized or hurt Jude. Flashes of her face stubbornly refusing to show weakness as he watched Valerian force faerie fruit into her mouth, glimpses of her saving Taryn from drowning in the river, all of it clicking into place in a horrid montage of his misdeeds. What struck him the hardest is that for every memory of the pain he caused Jude, there was Nicasia, standing by his side laughing or smiling, perfectly happy. Even as she toyed with his heart, leaving him for Locke, he had shown Nicasia respect and knew that she would be there as a friend— regardless of how messed up his definition of the word was. It hurt, finally acknowledging that while he only saw the kind gestures, he gave Jude, pricking her so she would stop suffering from the faerie fruit induced madness, offering her an out from his antagonizing, she must only remember the pain that he had caused, all the while treating someone half as deserving of his love and compassion more kindness than her.
It suddenly made sense why she didn’t respond to his letters or come back to him. Because even if he had thought he made his loophole clear, even if he had exaggerated the point in his letters time and time again, Jude was used to seeing the worst parts of him, of being blinded by the pain and unaware of the miniscule efforts he had made to help her.
Every memory stung like an arrow lodging its way into his skin, knowing that all of his actions were horrible, that he was horrible and cruel. Knowing that Jude must think of him as horrible and cruel, and that she was right to believe it. But the realization that right when he had earned her trust, right when Jude had seemed to let go of the memories of Cardan’s cruelty, he had exiled her, had denied her as his queen, in front of Orlagh and Nicasia, struck his heart like a dagger. And now she wasn’t coming back, because of him. Because he was everything she must think him to be, a wicked king, undeserving of love or respect, least of all from her.
So, when he arrived back in his room, thinking of all his regrets, refusing to let himself remember anything but the truth of how he hurt the one woman he would do anything for, he paced.
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So, I lied, and I wrote this all in one sitting instead of starting my school work. Which means that I am apparently better at getting things written in a timely matter than I thought I was, but I am also apologetic if this isn’t the best because I should probably edit it more, but oh well. Anyways, I hope you liked it and that it was sort of what you had in mind, I feel like I’m not that good at writing angst but I tried my best :)  (Title from Killer by Phoebe Bridgers, which side note I feel like is such a Jude and Cardan song but that may just be because I listened to Stranger In The Alps while reading this series oops)
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This 2 part fic was written for the Secret Snusband Gift Giveaway hosted by @jurdannet​ and @jurdannetrevels​ for my lovely Knife Wife @lilacs-with-lavender​.
Rating: T for Tyrannosaurus
Summary: Inspired by an episode of my favourite Cop TV show, ‘Castle’, in which a bet takes place with pretty high stakes, although the plotline has been tweaked to fit this fandom. My Knife Wife said she loved the Enemies to Lovers trope so that’s what I’ve (tried to) write here and I hope you enjoy the story of Homicide Detectives Jude Duarte and Cardan Greenbriar and their mutual enmity.
Warnings: Not so graphic descriptions of murder and mention of drugs. (Really not sure what I need to tag, so please let me know if I’ve missed something.)
Posted as a Gift on AO3 | Part 2 | Masterlist
Part 1
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“Victim’s name is Taryn Santorini, a metal sculptor by trade, she was found by her doorman fifteen minutes before we traced the address in Chloe’s hand back to her.” 
Detective Jude Duarte looks down at the motionless face of a scared looking brunette, a crimson splatter painting the tiled floor around her lifeless body. The room around her is a mess, clothes scattered everywhere, bed ruffled and unmade and metal figurines placed haphazardly throughout the little apartment.
“Lil, talk to me, what are we looking at?”
Before the white-blonde haired medical examiner crouched on the floor by the body can answer, a smooth dark voice that Jude so detests cuts through the air behind her.
“Why, Duarte, I’d say that the fact that Tara What’s-her-name was shot and killed is rather obvious.” The despicable excuse of a detective steps forward, a smug grin pasted to his face. Cardan Greenbriar, entitled little rich boy, over-confident bastard and sadly, her partner.
Patience, Jude reminds herself, patience was a virtue. 
“I meant, as I’m sure Lil knows, with what model was she killed and when?”
Liliver shoots her an amused sympathetic look before turning her gaze back to the victim.
“Looks to be a gun with a 45 caliber, same as the one used to kill Chloe Tatterfell. I’d say Taryn here has been dead for about 12 hours so pretty close to Chloe’s time of death, maybe just a half hour or so afterwards.”
“So chances are it’s the same killer.” Cardan interjects, the smug smile a little less vibrant now. 
“Yep. I’ll have to get her back to the morgue so  I can do a full inspection, see if I can find anything helpful.”
Jude steps back from the crime scene to give her some space, almost bumping in to the officer taking pictures of the area for later use. 
“Thanks, Lil.”
“Just doing my job, sweetie.”
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“This doesn’t make any sense,” Jude clips a glossy picture of their latest victim onto the precinct’s murder board. “Garrett and Van questioned practically all known associates of both Chloe and Taryn and none of them could recognise the other victim. There’s no obvious connection between the two and yet, for some reason they were both killed on the same day, by the same person.”
“And with the same gun.” Cardan is leaning back in his chair, his posture insouciant and his curly black hair falling lazily over his forehead. Surely that was a violation of precinct dress codes? Not that he’d care either way, rule breaker that he was. God knew it was only because of his daddy’s clout that he’d even graduated from the academy in the first place, whilst people like Jude had to work hard and save every penny and fight to get anywhere in the field of Law Enforcement.
“Ok, I’m going to head to the morgue whilst Van and Gare check through the victim’s phones and financials, see if Lil has anything for us.”
“I suppose, being the dutiful partner that I am, I should come with you?” Cardan’s drawl is as irritating as usual and Jude can hardly wait to get out of the proximity of his stupid raven locks and smoldering eyes.
“Please, you’d be doing us both a favour if you didn’t.”
“Aw, come now Jude you know you’d miss me.” He lets out a dramatic sigh as he half heartedly stands from his chair to join her as she speeds by towards the exit and she just barely resists the urge to throttle him.
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Lil bustles around her examining room as she adjusts the fluorescent lamps shining down on both the victim’s bodies’. 
“So, apart from the type of bullets that killed them, the only similarity that I could find between the two victims is the fact that they both have tattoos.”
Jude raises a brow. “Everyone has tattoos.”
From across the autopsy table Cardan’s eyes gleam as he smirks. 
“Oh really? You got some ink on you, Duarte?” 
His tone is disbelieving and Jude can’t resist messing with him a little.
She pastes an obviously fake flirtatious smile on her face and drawls in a sugar sweet voice, “Guess you’d have to find that out on your own, Greenbriar.” 
She bites at her lip for good measure and thinks once more of how bad she would be at flirting in earnest. Lil certainly couldn’t keep the laughter out of her gray eyes. Cardan, however, has a strange look on his face, one that Jude can’t quite decipher, but she’s pretty sure she’s just one-upped him and she can’t deny the slight sense of triumph that the thought gives her.
 She turns her attention back to the victims. “You were saying, Lil?” 
“I’m saying that these tattoos seem to have been done by the same artist. Look,” she pulls back the white cloth covering the body of Chloe Tatterfell, gently pushing a strand of brown hair off of her shoulder to reveal the cartoonish character of a rose, inked in with dark black ink.
She then turns to Taryn’s body to reveal a similarly styled tattoo of a mermaid on her wrist. Just as she’s pulling back the cover Jude’s back pocket vibrates and the sound of her plain ringtone travels through the air. Quickly she swipes upwards to answer the call and it’s Garrett.
“Yo, so we looked through the victims’ phone records and found a connection. Both Chloe and Taryn made a phone call on the day that they were killed to the same number, belonging to a Locke McCutchins, he’s got priors including robberies and domestic assault.”
By the time he’s finished speaking she’s already waved a quick goodbye to Lil and turned to walk out the door, not bothering to check if her partner was behind her.
“Alright, text me his address, let’s go pick him up.”
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“Locke McCutchins, open up, it’s the NYPD!” Garrett bangs on the door and the force is so strong that the wood vibrates as Jude clutches her pistol in her hand, body flat against the wall of Locke’s apartment with Cardan right beside her.
There’s no answer and the door is broken down as she, Cardan, Garrett and Van file into the room in a practiced motion that’s as familiar to her as breathing.
Right in front of them, sprawled across his couch, lies the dead body of Locke McCutchin, his tawny eyes still open and gazing unseeingly up at his ceiling, a dried red patch visible on his shirt.
Garret drops to the floor beside the couch, his sandy hair falling over his face as he leans over to check Locke’s pulse whilst the rest of them look on after having taken note that the apartment was clear.
“Body’s cold, he’s been dead for hours, entry wound looks to be about the same size as the other victims.”
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Jude scrunches her eyebrows as she stands in front of the murderboard for the second time that day.
“So, Chloe Tatterfell, Taryn Santorini and Locke McCuchins were all killed within the span of 24 hours, all with the same gun, presumably by the same killer and yet so far the only connections we’ve found are Taryn’s address that was found written on Chloe’s hand, the phone call from both women to Locke and the similar tattoos on both Chloe and Taryn, but not on Locke.”
“Hmm.” Cardan seems to materialise out of nowhere, carrying a paper cup of what smells like freshly brewed coffee. Jude was convinced that he took his coffee with added alcohol but she had yet to prove it.
“What’s with the glare?” he asks.
“It automatically deploys itself when you're around.”
He scoffs. Twirls his coffee around. Takes a long, slurping sip.
“Hey, Duarte? Don’t get me wrong, I mean, the feeling is mutual, but what exactly is it that makes you despise me so much? I’d like to know so I can make sure to keep doing it.” 
Jude barely deliberates over her answer before she responds. 
“Being an overly cocky, obnoxious jerk who has only managed to get this far thanks to his Daddy���s fat purse will definitely be the best way to make me hate you, trust me.”
He grins but there’s no humour in the curve of his sensual lips, his eyes are cold metal.
“You think that the only reason I’m a detective is because of my father?”
“Yup.” She makes sure to add plenty of emphasis to that one word.
Cardan opens his mouth as if to speak, stops, presses his lips together so hard that they turn pale before the colour returns to them when a slow smile spreads across his face, this time full of humour, but the decidedly darker kind.
“Let’s make a bet. If you can figure out what the connection between our three victims is before I do, I’ll go right up to Captain Madoc myself and request a change of partners so you can be rid of my ‘overly cocky, obnoxious’ self. Deal?” 
He was extending a challenge and Jude was never one to back down from those. Besides, the chance to be rid of him with no cost to herself or her reputation was too good to pass up on. Still, there had to be a catch, with Cardan, there was always a catch.
“And on the complete off-chance that you figure it out first? What happens then?”
“If I figure it out first...you have to come with me as my date to this party that my dad’s having in a couple days.”
Those last few words come out in a rush and Jude has to take a moment to decipher their meaning. Followed by another moment to wonder if she’d somehow completely misunderstood what he’d said.
“You want me to what?”
“Be my date to a party. Honestly Duarte, do you have any idea how many women would jump at this opportunity?” His tone is disgustingly nonchalant. 
“I-” she struggles to find the words. “Take one of them then! Don’t you have a girlfriend, Nicasia or something like that? Blue hair and eyes? High pitched voice? Talks a lot about how much she gets seasick?”
“You know, for someone who’s only met Nicasia once you do remember quite a bit about her.” His steady gaze on her is intense.
For some incorrigible reason Jude has to resist the urge to flush.
“I’m a detective. It’s my job to study people.”
“Right. Sadly, Nicasia and I are no longer together, if we ever were. I got bored. Hence, why I need a date.”
“I’m sure you could just take one of your scores of female admirers, you don’t need me.”
“Is that jealousy that I detect in your voice?”
“Cardan.” 
“Look, the point is, I can’t be bothered having to deal with yet another simpering female who thinks that one night on my arm means a promise to a life-long relationship complete with marriage, a fancy mansion and exactly 2.5 kids. All I want is a companion for one night so I don’t get hounded by my mother for not having a girlfriend by which she can procure some grandchildren.”
“Oh so now you want me to be your fake girlfriend?”
He rolls his eyes up at the ceiling and she fights the urge to slap him. 
“It’s just for one night! Besides, I thought me winning was barely even a possibility to you.”
She makes a noise at the back of her throat. “It is.”
“Then I don’t see what the problem is. Do we have a deal, or not?” He holds out his hand, sculpted eyebrows raised in confrontation.
She doesn’t really think he has much of a chance of figuring it out before her, but he had admittedly also proven adept at figuring certain things out in previous cases so there was definitely no certainty that he wouldn’t win, for all her bravado. Yet, her competitive nature couldn’t bear the thought of surrendering, so she pushes her unease aside and grips his hand in a firm shake. 
“Deal.” 
There’s an awkward moment when he takes a little too long to release her hand from his grip. Once he finally does, the rather pointy tips of his ears reddening, they both turn back to the murder board and the view of their murder time line and crime scene pictures, furiously trying to connect the dots in their heads.
A random thought intrudes in her brain.
"Wait, what if Garrett and Van figure it out before we do?”
As one, she and Cardan both turn towards the opposite side of the office where the two officers in question sat in front of their computers.
Van was typing in data on his computer, eyes glazing over and the tuft of black hair atop his head trembling whilst Garrett, or, The Ghost - as he was sometimes called thanks to his tendency to take months before answering non-work related messages - stood eating glazed donuts with one hand and speaking to someone on the phone held in the other. Jude loved the both of them but she had to admit that they didn’t exactly paint the most inspiring picture. 
Once again she and Cardan are in sync when they promptly turn back towards the murderboard and proclaim, “Nah.”
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Van’s excitement is clearly written on his face when he walks straight up to Jude’s desk the moment she arrives at the precinct the next morning, slamming down a manila folder with the NYPD crest printed on it onto her neatly arranged table top.
Immediately she reaches out to open it, desperate for a break in the case that would not only put a three time killer behind bars but also ensure that she herelf wouldn’t commit murder if she lost the bet and had to pretend to be Cardan’s girlfriend for a night. The thought makes her want to shudder.
“So, I was looking into all of our victim’s financials and I noticed an anomaly. Two weeks ago on the 7th they each deposited 95 hundred dollars into their savings accounts, but we’ve got no way of tracing the money back because the amount is under the IRS’s investigative limit” Van takes a quick pause before continuing, “but that’s not all, both Taryn and Chloe have credit card charges for small amounts at a tattoo place called Fair Folk Inks down in Queens.”
“Great, that’d be the place where they both got tattoos, I’ll go down there and ask the owner a couple questions, thanks Van.” She puts the sheaf of financial accounts back into the folder and takes a quick swig of her usual morning coffee, black, no sugar before preparing to head out once more.  
“Going somewhere, partner?” 
She’d bumped straight into Cardan when stepping into the elevator and she lets out a small groan of frustration as she steps back from his sturdy form. He looks annoyingly chipper, usual cocky smile in place and laughter in his tone as he looks down at her slightly shorter self. His cologne is strong and emanates the scent of the woods and sunlight in the small elevator. The woods and sunlight? Clearly foregoing the rest of her morning coffee hadn’t been a good idea.
She’d thought she could make it out of the building before he finally arrived, necessitating in having to take him along as well, but clearly fate had other ideas. 
“Tattoo parlour. Queens,” she grits out.
“Let’s go then,” his tone is sickly sweet.
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“Hi there, you guys lookin’ to get inked?” asks the pink haired girl behind the counter in fishnet tights and a tank top, looking up from where she is perched on a stool behind the counter when she hears them enter.
The parlour itself is shiny and white, the smooth metal counter and two spaced out black leather tattoo chairs complete with wheeled stools are the only pieces of furniture in the small space. Mounted on the walls are designs, each of them evoking a sense of fantasy. A pixie there, a selkie here, an ornate dragon, all staring right back at Jude as she takes in their surroundings. She takes note of the fact that the pictures staring back at her were very reminiscent of Chloe and Taryn’s tattoos, solidifying her suspicion that this was where they had got them done.
Before she has time to explain the reason for their visit, Cardan pipes up.
“You know, I’ve been thinking of getting one of a slithering snake, maybe across my back? I believe it would add to my already abundant sex appea-”
“Actually,” Jude cuts him off with her most scathing glare, to which he irritatingly responds with a grin. “We’re here on official business, NYPD, we need to speak with the owner of this establishment.” She holds up the badge that she’s just extracted from her plain black wallet as she speaks.
“That would be Vivi, hang tight a sec I’ll go get her.” With a sway of her hips Heather trounces off behind a curtained section at the back of the parlour. 
Unable to stand still for even a few moments, her partner has already wandered over to the corner of the room, pointing at a pinned up design, ““That goblin over there reminds me of Van.”
She ignores him. 
“Oh come on Duarte, you have to admit, there’s a definite resemblance.”
She spares the quickest of glances at the design and it’s true, there’s a striking similarity, but she isn’t about to give him the satisfaction of agreeing so she simply makes a non-committal grunt of recognition.
“Tell me, are you always this tightly wound or is it just for the majority of your day?”
“Excuse me?” Her eyebrows have inadvertently traveled upwards on her face and she can’t believe he has the audacity to say what he just did, although really, she shouldn’t be so surprised.
“Come on Duarte, we’ve been partners for quite a while now and I don’t think I’ve ever even seen you laugh.” He’s standing a few feet away from her, his expression serious, not backing down.
“It’s called being professional.” She can feel the muscles working in her face as she hisses out the words through gritted teeth, blood pounding furiously. 
“Ahem.” She whirls around to find a tall bronze haired woman with striking cat-like eyes that were currently meeting her gaze wearing a lazy look of amusement.  
“Heather said there were some policemen who wanted to ask me some questions?”
Jude cannot believe that she had just gotten so sidetracked by her insolent partner that she’d forgotten why she was currently standing in the middle of a Tattoo parlour in Queens, clutching a set of regular sized close ups of three now dead people. She tamps down the irritation at her own actions as she thrusts out the photos in front of the woman facing her, Vivi, the pink haired girl had said.
“Yes, ma’am, do you recognize these people?”
She watches intently as Vivi carefully peruses the pictures before answering, “I know the two girls, Taryn and Chloe, we’re friends, I’ve even tattooed the both of them. I’m not really sure who he is.”
“Are you sure you don’t know him? Look carefully.” Cardan is all business now, stepping up to Vivi.
“I’m sure.” Vivi’s tone is almost defiant, daring him to question her again.
“You said that you were friends with the girls, how close were you?” 
“They came into the tattoo parlour at the same time about a month ago and we started up a conversation, we exchanged numbers and would meet up for a drink from time to time.” 
“Did they ever meet up with just each other?”
“Not that I’m aware of.”
“Can you think of any reason as to why they’d both be killed by the same person?”
“They’re...they’re dead?”
Jude had intentionally asked the question in a way that would require a reaction and she wasn’t sure that she was entirely convinced by the shocked undertone of Vivi’s voice.
 “I’m afraid so, ma’am.”
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“She’s hiding something.” Once again Jude is back in front of the murderboard, furiously capping and uncapping a whiteboard marker as her mind whirls. She’s full of nervous energy, on the brink of a precipice and she wants nothing more than to be able to push herself off of it.
“Agreed.” Cardan is pacing the floor between her and the murder board and his posture indicates that he’s just as worked up as she is.
“But what I can’t understand is why she would kill two of her acquaintances plus a random vending machine operator, I mean, there’s no clear motive.” She’s barely conscious of the slight pain that tingles as she worries at her bottom lip.
Cardan halts in front of the board, takes a hard look at the scrawled timeline on it before once more resuming his brisk walk.
 “And what the hell is the connection between these three victims? They lived in opposite neighbourhoods, worked in completely different areas and fields, never seemed to have been in the same place at the same time and yet somehow they were killed by the same hand. Also, where did all that money come from?” 
His phone chooses precisely that moment to start ringing and the sound of ‘Horns’ by Bryce Fox cuts through the tension. 
“It’s Liliver,” he mouths as he swipes upwards to answer and puts the medical examiner on speaker phone.
“You got something for us Lil?’
“You bet I do. I had scraps from the victims’ clothings tested to try and find a common link. What I found were traces of bleach, acetone, sodium chloride and ammonia.”
“Drugs. They were making drugs. That would explain all the money.” Jude is burning and luminescent with victory, until Lili’s next words cut her down.
“It’s not drugs.”
“How can you tell?”
“Because of what isn’t there. If your vics were making drugs, there’d need to be a couple more ingredients. That being said, they were definitely up to something.”
She lets out a sigh of defeat. “Thanks, Lil.”
Cardan hangs up before bringing his fingers up to his temples, massaging the sides of his head as he burns a hole into the board in front of him.
Jude bites back a scream. “This is like the start of a bad joke, a teacher, a sculptor and a vending machine operator walk into a tattoo parlour…”
He scoffs, “Yeah, except we don’t really have a punchline.”
“Other than ‘they made a bunch of money and got themselves killed.’”
There’s a lull in the air and the frustration is palpable. There was so much more than just their bet at stake here, there was the need for justice for these three victims, who regardless of their crimes likely didn’t deserve what had befallen them. Besides, there was no way that they could let a ruthless killer roam the streets freely.
Suddenly, Cardan whirls around to face her, once again bringing his pacing to an abrupt stop, with a speed to rival that of the animal that was his tattoo inspiration.
“Made a bunch of money,” he repeats. 
He sounds like he’s just jumped off of the precipice. She, on the other hand, remained firmly mounted to the ground. 
“What?”
“A sculptor who works with metal, a chemist and a vending machine operator...I know what they were up to.”
Slowly, the light starts to dawn on her and her pulse speeds up. Yes, she thinks.
“Think about it, when counterfeiting money, what’s the biggest problem you face? Finding the paper,” he continues.
“And a vending machine operator would have an endless supply of one dollar billls!”
“Exactly, then the chemist would come in, using the chemicals that were found on the vic’s bodies to white wash those bills.”
“And then the sculptor would be able to fashion a set of metal plates with which to type in fake serial numbers’ so they can get larger denominations of money…”
“Right! So, plates, paper, there’s just one missing ingredient.”
Beaming smiles break out on both their faces when, in unison they reach the same conclusion. 
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The 12th Precinct’s interrogation room had contained many suspects from the time it was built. Some were innocent and some were guilty, but there was no doubt in both Jude and Cardan’s minds that the feline woman currently seated across from them with her legs up on the table was one hundred percent guilty. 
“So you think you’ve figured it all out, huh?” Vivi’s drawl is deceptively flippant.
“I think so.” Jude answers calmly. “For instance, we’ve figured out that you were involved in and likely the mastermind behind a counterfeiting operation that raked in a substantial amount of money. You provided the last ingredient needed, the ink from your tattoo parlour stocks that was used to print on the bills.”
Cardan leans forward. “We’ve also surmised that you killed your partners in said operation; Taryn Santorini and Chloe Tatterfell, both of whom you met through your tattoo parlour, just like you said.”
“And our third victim, Locke McCutchins? Yeah, we know he was your cousin, once removed on your mother’s side wasn’t it? A distant enough relationship for you to not be flagged when checking his family, but close enough for you to enlist him in your scheme so you had access to vending machine bills.” Jude continues, she and Cardan having perfected the art of interrogating together ages ago, their tactics working smoothly together alongside each other. 
Vivienne sneers. “So what? You have no proof.”
“On the contrary, ma’am, we do. You neglected to hide the metal plates that you got Taryn to make for you in a place that wasn’t under a loose floorboard of your room, easily found with the aid of a search warrant.” Cardan smiles.
“You also tripped up when you stored your used gun with matching ballistics to the weapon that killed our victims in the same place as the plates.” Cardan’s smile is copied on Jude’s face.
Vivi’s skin pales and her cat’s eyes narrow into slits as she bangs the table, hard, before slouching back in the metal chair, the fight leaving her.
“Well, I suppose the jig is up, as they say,” she drawls.
Satisfied, Jude stands up and gathers the notepad and pen that she’d left on the desk and then bends over the interrogation table to meet Vivi’s gaze.
“What I can’t understand, though, is why? Why would you kill them if you’d already paid them?”
The Accused smirks. “It was all that idiot Lockes’s fault. He’d gotten himself into debt with some mob shark and needed more dough to bail his sorry self out. I wasn’t about to give it, he had his cut and that was all. But then, he threatened to go to the cops and tell them about what we did. Couldn’t let that happen, so I figured I’d kill ‘em all of. Just to be safe.”
The casual way in which she speaks of her deeds chills Jude to the bone. Wordlessly, she turns her back on yet another cold hearted murderer and exits the room with Cardan right behind her.
They come to a stop in front of the now empty murderboard, its surface shiny and white, devoid of words, but not for long. There was always a murder happening somewhere or the other, Jude had been a detective long enough to know that.
“So, now that Vivienne Insmire, tattoo artist, mastermind and ink supplier of counterfeiting operations and killer of ‘friends’ and distant male cousins is safely behind bars, I think you and I have a certain matter to settle, Duarte.”
She’d been trying hard to avoid this moment all day, pushing back thoughts of her close defeat and what its consequences would be. It seemed like now, she'd run out of time. She gulps.
“I suppose-” she almost can’t bring herself to say the words, “I suppose you won our bet, then.”
“Yup.” He’s not even trying to hide his gloating, “and you know what that means.”
The noise she emits is one that is resigned. She knows what’s coming.
“I’ll pick you up at eight tomorrow.”
“Or I could just take a ca-”
“Don’t be late, Duarte,” he calls over his shoulder as he leisurely strolls towards the precinct exit, slinging his leather jacket over his shoulder.
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TFOTA As Weird Stuff I’ve Said, Part Who Even Knows Anymore
Madoc adjusting to the mortal world: *Holds up piece of bread* What am I supposed to do with this?
Cardan: What's with all the murderers?
Oak: Since I don't know what to say I'm trying to find a fitting gif. 
Jude(I don’t know why, just the vibe): I guess I’m going to sneak out in the middle of the night and leave a bunch of pumpkins in the snow.
Madoc: Death is actually pretty cool.
Cardan, trying to eat dumplings: I'm competent at being incompetent.
Val Moren: *angrily quotes Shakespeare*
All the Duarte sisters and Cardan: Fuck my childhood!
Grima Mog: It's only cannibalism if you're eating something just like you.
Also Grima Mog: No, snap her neck, that's more fun.
Heather: I am intelligent and thoughtful. ...According to my frozen yogurt order.
Jude: I don't run from the rain, the rain runs from me!
Vivi: Boy, or as those kids on the internets say, "Boi"
Nicasia and/or Cardan: Bitch I'm elegant as fuck.
Cardan: Gotta look killer to catch a killer!
Me @ Balekin: One day, you're going to die and I'm going to laugh.
Cardan: *Cries outernily* (instead of internally)
Justin and Eva, when Jude was growing up: She has a lot of anger for a one year old.
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I cannot fault Locke for choosing her. I am violent. I've been poisoning myself for weeks. I am a killer and a liar and a spy.
Jude Duarte, The Cruel Prince
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Book Review: The Wicked King by Holly Black (The Folk of The Air #2)
“Power is much easier to acquire than it is to hold on to.”  - Jude Duarte
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Author: Holly Black
Genre: Young Adult Fantasy, Romance
Publisher: Little Brown Books
Year: 2019
My Rating: 4 / 5
Synopsis on Goodreads:
You must be strong enough to strike and strike and strike again without tiring. The first lesson is to make yourself strong. After the jaw-dropping revelation that Oak is the heir to Faerie, Jude must keep her younger brother safe. To do so, she has bound the wicked king, Cardan, to her, and made herself the power behind the throne. Navigating the constantly shifting political alliances of Faerie would be difficult enough if Cardan were easy to control. But he does everything in his power to humiliate and undermine her even as his fascination with her remains undiminished. When it becomes all too clear that someone close to Jude means to betray her, threatening her own life and the lives of everyone she loves, Jude must uncover the traitor and fight her own complicated feelings for Cardan to maintain control as a mortal in a Faerie world.
I will give you my honest thoughts:
I assume you have read The Cruel Prince before reading this review because geez, it’s so good and I want to gush over it!
I have to admit, The Wicked King is so much better than the first book, The Cruel Prince. Mainly because we get to see more complicated conflicts that Jude has to face. Now that Oak is safe in mortal world with her sister, Vivi, Jude is not only dealing with her family, but also everything related to the High King. With Cardan as her puppet king, she gets what she wished for: power. The Cruel Prince left me wondering what would Cardan do to break away from Jude’s control. No one liked to be controlled by someone else obviously, so I was anticipating the answer in The Wicked King.
Something I genuinely love to see is the character developments! I could find out more of the folks’ personalities in The Wicked King since The Cruel Prince are mostly talking about Jude’s perspective and conscience. I am absolutely delighted to read about the other monarchs who finally put their hands on the politics in Faerie. Also, we get to see the backstory of The Court of Shadows which is such a nice thing to read. However, our one and only High King of Elfhame, Cardan, took my breath away the most.
Cardan is definitely one of the best character ever written. I take it from the first book that he is a bit mysterious. He hides a terrible past. He doesn’t show his true self in front of everyone and likes to show off power instead. Cardan is seen as a cruel boy while deep down he is vulnerable. His relationship with Jude Duarte is undoubtedly the most painful one for us, the fans, who are longing for their long, deep conversation without any interruptions. It’s such a disappointment that we don’t get a chapter in his point of view (or perhaps a whole book?!). I would love to know what’s inside his head (and his heart!) and I am sure I am not the only one craving for this.
In addition, I found it kind of ironic that they like have a swapped personality. I mean, some folks have more humanity than humans themselves. Jude is such a feminist. She is not only fierce and strong, but also arrogant and greedy. On the other hand, Cardan is more compassionate when his childhood is probably worse than her. Like he claimed it himself, he was never a killer. Regardless, I think it’s another point that makes the story so interesting.
Overall, The Wicked King gives you the climax of the whole The Folk of The Air series. Yep, it’s in here. The turning of event. The real struggle of the protagonist in maintaining her position. I can see why The Wicked King won Goodreads Choice Awards 2019 for YA Fantasy. Now I am looking forward to reading the final book for the resolution of the story.
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I exile Jude Duarte to the mortal world. Until and unless she is pardoned by the crown, let her not step one foot in Faerie or forfeit her life.
-  Cardan I-am-not-a-killer Greenbriar, a.k.a. Cardan I-didn’t-want-anyone-dead Greenbriar.
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Emjen! What do you think about the QoN excerpt?
Hi! Here are my thoughts:
1. Of all the things I reasonably expected, Locke dying was not one of them. My knee jerk reaction is to say killing him feels like a cop-out, but I suppose getting rid of him would serve to streamline the plot by removing people Jude feels she needs to get revenge on (Madoc and, sorry folks, Cardan are the top of that list).
2. Taryn says that Jude looks like she’s been in a fight. Knowing, Jude that means she’s probably actually been in a fight. I’ll bet Bryern and Grima Mog are both faeries. Grima Mog is probably the cannibalistic one mentioned in the synopsis.
3. Quick background ramble about Taryn: I recently read some articles for my English major final project talking about how female characters are hated and denounced for things readers would forgive in male characters. As a result the fandom’s hatred for Taryn has started to make me extremely uncomfortable, especially since no one says anything about Madoc, Locke, Balekin and the like. The fandom is so focused on denouncing Taryn that most people have forgotten that she has the same upbringing as Jude. The vast majority of Jude’s trauma, Taryn shares. Ultimately they both want the same thing: to belong in faerie. The difference lies in how they go about trying to belong. Jude’s grand plan is basically to gather as much power as possible, prove that she is as powerful as any faerie and force the faeries to take her seriously and give her the respect she deserves. Taryn, on the other hand, chooses to attempt to fit in. Her hope is that if she just does what was expected of her, the faeries will notice how good she’s being and accept her. The methods are different, but the end result is the same: the faeries notice that the Duarte twins are like them and they are able to participate in faerie as equals.
4. So, Taryn kills Locke. Admittedly, Taryn was not very high on the list of characters I expected to commit murder. I would have put the odds of Jude killing Cardan as higher than the odds of Taryn killing Locke. That’s not to say that I think Taryn is a saint (literally no one in this series is, save Heather maybe Oak), but outright killing never seemed like her style. Knowing that, I’d say that whatever it was that ended in her killing Locke had to be pretty serious. Taryn knows that Locke won’t be faithful to her from long before they get married, so it’s unlikely that she would have killed him in a fit of rage at seeing him with someone else (that’s Madoc-style pointless violence right there). Honestly, I can’t see Taryn killing Locke for any kind of emotional reason. Taryn isn’t a killer and she really wants to fit in in Faerie, something that killing her faerie husband will not help her achieve. Honestly, I see Taryn killing Locke because she’d decided after much thought that there was no other option (very Jude-like, you might say, and you’d be right). Not to say that Taryn would be able to take committing murder in stride and go on with her life, she’s probably at least a little broken up about it, but she still did it, and that’s not something I expected from her.
5. As for why Taryn killed Locke? I don’t have the textual evidence to theorize (could be anything from him plotting treason to a zombie plague, tbh). I suppose Madoc could have ordered her to do it, but I don’t think that’s likely, because if that was the case, why would she go to Jude about it?
6. I do have a theory about the curse that gets mentioned in the synopsis, but my copy of TWK is currently in my room and I am not. Since I don’t feel capable of sharing that theory without referencing the book, I’ll save it for another time.
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cardan: I'm no killer
jude: oh but I am
cardan:
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So I havent had the chance to read tfota yet and you seem to have a lot of knowledge on it can you like give me stuff about thats out of context. Like the cruel prince but with no context
hi hi! first of all, thank you so much for the ask! i hope you'll forgive my late response, i'm not dead. i had the pleasure of reading your ask right before the start of last weekend and was going to respond with a brief list of things- only, what was meant to be an afternoon of reading my fav tfota scenes spiralled beautifully (like most things in my life) into an entire week of rereading the series through again, complete with the drinking of many cups of apple tea and eating crystallised ginger (very on theme, highly recommend). it was glorious. so now i have for you an exceptionally thorough list of out of context tcp (i know i'm annoying it's fine):
fishsticks
sixth born to the high king of elfhame, yet still the absolute worst
hate is the new word for love pass it on
faeries are twilight creatures
court of jerks
circle of worms
"sweetmeat"
"you're no killer"
"horror of horrors, you might have a good time"
"a well-seasoned strategist waits for the right opportunity"
"to the incompetence of our enemies."
"it's all just a game."
"never is like forever."
"this is the least of what i can do."
i'll just pepper in the fact that i am gay.
"our dad is really conservative."
*casually beats up flirty boys to stave off the terrifying possibility of romance*
"i am going to shame you with my defiance."
not the first to green gown her.
everything is awesome, but it also sucks.
seven falling stars
the great game
i'm not sure i feel good, but i know i feel great.
there's salt in my human blood.
only in faerieland is the giant toad the less conspicuous choice.
"you're like a story that hasn't happened yet."
"i am no murderer."
roach
ghost
bomb
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"nice things don't happen in storybooks."
i am coming unraveled. i am coming undone.
mithridatism
dramatics?
"if i can't find a good enough story, i make one."
blusher mushroom
golden acorn
silly, ruffly shirts
"he likes to ruin things."
all forests are magic.
"you are my creature, jude duarte."
"show your power by appearing powerless."
instead of being afraid, i could become something to fear.
my real skill lies in pissing people off.
if i cannot become better than them, i will become so much worse.
i will go as far as there is to go. i will go way too far.
we all want stupid things. that doesn't mean we should have them.
nightfell
red cap
"time to change partners."
moths
one does not have to lie to deceive.
everything is, of course, not at all fine.
wolves always come.
charmers are charming.
eyelashes thick af.
"is that what you imagined?"
"a year and a day. and not for one minute more."
he made me into a story, and now i am going to make a story out of someone else.
"do not expect others to share my depraved tastes."
"my last thoughts would be of your boredom."
ear tracing
"i know, i know. don't bore you by dying."
"that bespeaks weakness, the kind that will inevitably be exploited."
"a secret, which is far better than a scheme."
"i turned out to be useful after all. what a terrible surprise."
"she ties very tight knots."
"my night has been full of dull conversations about how my head is going to find itself on a spike."
"have i told you how hideous you look tonight?"
"i cannot."
the liar
thorns so thickly
"go on. it's all yours."
and that's it! that's the entire book. hope you enjoyed this, i certainly had fun combing through the book for gems (there are so many). this was just the cruel prince so if you'd like me to do out of context twk, i have one for that too, however, i didn't want to make this post any longer than it already is. so just let me know! happy reading :)
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Being fair.
“We don't need to be good. But let's try to be fair.” 
- Jude Duarte, approximately 6 months before kill Prince Balekin, Ambassador of the Undersea and brother to the High King.
In TCP, Jude had said that they didn’t need be good, but fair like any Elfhame’s prince.
Cardan had expelled Jude out of Elfhame may have been very bad for their relationship, - May? Who am I trying to fool? It was like stepping on a flower that was about to bloom -  but as King it was... fair. Cardan couldn’t just let it be, ok? 
TWK, chap 5:
Valerian’s body is buried on Madoc’s estate, beside the stables, and if it was unearthed, I would have heard about it before now. She’s guessing. And so what if I did, anyway? I am at the right hand of the High King of Faerie. He can pardon my every crime.
The thought that Jude has in Chapter 5 is messed up. If there is no limit to what she can do - being a right hand or a Queen - how can she claim to be being fair?
She couldn’t.
The Folk of the Air isn’t just Jude story. It’s Taryn’s and Cardan’s too. And a lot of folks (I made a pun in another language, I’m so proud of myself. Wait, I made a pun, didn’t I? I do not understand that language enough to be sure.)
And Cardan’s story includes be a good ruler for the folk. And, be more that he had believed he would be.
We have to remember that the morality of fairies is not human morality. And He/She/They were governing Elfhame. So it has to be the fairy’s way.
TWK, Chap 2:
The Tower of Forgetting is so named because it exists as a place to put Folk when a monarch wants them struck from the Court’s memory. Most criminals are punished with clever curses, quests, or some other form of capricious faerie judgment. To wind up here, one has to have really pissed off someone important.
Their punished are capricious. Cardan could had been capricious.
We know that he wouldn’t sentence her to death because he hates the idea of be a killer.
But it is curious that if he wanted to punish Jude, Cardan  could sentenced her to any of the things she had told him not to do against her when he was in her service.
TWK, chap 6:
“And you may never order me arrested or imprisoned or killed,” I said, ignoring him. “Nor hurt. Nor even detained.”
That would be capricious.
But he didn’t. He expelled her - punished Jude and at the same time putted her away from a place that is terribly dangerous.
TWK, chap 26:
I exile Jude Duarte to the mortal world. Until and unless she is pardoned by the crown, let her not step one foot in Faerie or forfeit her life.
So had expelled her wasn’t good, but it was fair. And reversible. 
Curses and quests aren’t all like that? With breach? A seemingly insuperable challenge that can only be overcome with cunning or luck or a combination of the two? Decision and bravery, too.
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