i hope everyone who i have ever seen crying in public knows that i never judged or thought less of them and that i always hoped they were going to be okay

Today is the day….

Happy birthday to my ego who, I’m going to reveal her name!

Her name is

JAZZY.EXE

Or

J.EXE for short

you like?

something i find kind of frustrating about 'love' is that, since you Care about (thing you love) a Lot, it inherently leaves you vulnerable. it can make you get you hurt in new ways you didnt know about, and at the same time, vulnerability is THE thing that makes a real connection possible, and that's really... frustrating.

He is simply chronically online. I dont know how someone at age 22 with no job is doing this still he needs to touch grass

I'm not going to say anything past probably illness and while it's not his fault he is ill just like it's not mine or anyone's, he still needs to take care of himself. Keeping himself in this purgatory hell is NOT healthy. Keeping himself in this mindset, especially the way he thinks it's ok to diagnose someone and invalidate their very real struggles, is so toxic, not just to me, but himself. I said it in another post but he is digging a grave for himself doing this. And I don't mean it in any way other than he will remain this way forever. Toxic. Bitter. It's really disappointing because I thought after years he'd come back to this blog and use it as a "yikes oh my GOD why did I act like that" because that's what this blog was made for in the first place. And I did think it would have ended when it did and everyone went their own ways (I don't even speak to the old mods anymore, idk what happened to them, I pray they are safe and healthy though), but... it didn't. He is still in 2010 Era Reddit. 2015 Tumblr where it was ok to do half the shit he is STILL doing. And honestly, Idgaf anymore, but I wouldn't wish ill on him or anyone. It's not fair to me, and it's not fair to him or anyone to stoop to his level and do what he did. And honestly, if he wants to keep doing it to himself, I can't and won't stop him. He will end up alone in the path he is going.

Jonathan at Metropolis Studios | by Tom Rowland

chanyeol making you ride him in the studio, in his car or anywhere with his hands on your hips slamming you into his dick choking you from time to time and whispering the most dirty things ever...... 😭😭😭 this is the only thing i can think abt all the fuckin time

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??? ((please keep doing it, feel free to send me your thoughts i love it

Nah mate

It’s the tenth

October Nover December

*J.exe has stopped working*

WIKIPOETRY - a poetry e-zine compiling poems made entirely from cut up wikipedia articles.

available here ! it's name yr own price, meaning you can also download it for free ! i'd b rly grateful if you could spare a buck or two though, but either way any interest in it is greatly appreciated (as are reblogs and any comment you may have on it) <3

can I get a panmake

The Seasons (1896-1900) Alphonse Mucha

hey everyone, this is JATCV I would like to make a special announcement....

I’ll be off a Tumblr for a little while. I am very depressed and I have a very mental illness right now…

I need to take a break and try to get help as soon as possible!

The sketchbook that my cousin from El Salvador gave it to me as a gift and so far telling me to only do different types art techniques, but so upset since yesterday, tore up the papers that she wrote to me was positive, but I was too negative and I grew up negative…

I’m not asking to like my drawing, but this drawing is going to express how I really feel….

I’m sorry you see this picture, but this is the first time I express!

I promise, however, to return treated better in a happy way and maybe return by around mid or end of July!

See you guys later, This is JATCV, and signing off! Thank you for reading this and be on concern!

I can’t decide if this suit is cringe or not but it looks so good

I’m still not where to start but I’m going to try.

My name is Jesse. I’m 21, I’m trans masc nonbinary, in my final Year of college for my IT Support degree. But that doesn’t matter.

Some of you have known about me for a few days, some of you have known about me for a few years. Like Josey and Danny.

But what you need to know is that I’m human. And I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ve never been good on social cues, especially over the media of text. I’ve always been better to explain myself audibly but I’m trying here.

I’ve been manipulative, narsassitic, and an asshole. I’ve made people uncomfortable and feel unsafe. I’m full of myself and choke on my pride. I have a police record for an ongoing case. One of which, is still going on, and the charges have changed, due to more information. It doesn’t matter what, but my “arrest charges” (I turned myself in) are different from what I’m currently fighting through. Changed for the better.

I have hurt a lot of people. Be it on purpose or on accident. I’m overly aggressive and forward without picking up on social cues that I make people uncomfortable. That being said, I don’t realise I’m doing it. I still don’t realise I’m doing it. Some of the few friends I have left, are well aware that if I do something wrong, you need to tell me. You need to yell at me, I need to be scolded.

I have adhd, bipolar, depresison, anxiety, ptsd, I’ve been sexually assaulted my freshman year in highschool. I’ve been dealt some seriously bad cards. I’m neurodivergant, I need guidance. Literally. In social situations, I used to stick out like a sore thumb because I was so hyper active, I’m such a burden. My emotions control me. And I’m self aware about that. I let my emotions and my impulse control get the better of me. I have hurt people because of that. I have BULLIED people because of that. I have turned groups on individuals because of that.

When I fear I’ve hurt someone I do all in my power to get them to hate me and abandon me. So that I don’t feel bad that I hurt them. I did that with a girl named Courtney, earlier this year. I lost 7 friends, because I didn’t want to admit what I did was wrong. And I know what I did was wrong.

I live in an emotional abusive household, with a controlling mother. I’m trying so hard to break away to being like her, and as my best friend has said, “I can see you trying, but you need to work harder.” I know I do. And I’m scared. I fear every day for change, I just want to disappear and run away.

Overall, I’m sorry for what I have done to everyone I’ve met, and anyone who knows about me. My mental illness nor my home situation excuses my actions. I’ve been a horrible person. I was worse when I was 14, but I still haven’t gotten better. I’m still not great. All the actions I have made, I made with no regrets at the time. But right now I know there are a lot of things I shouldn’t have done. That no one should do. I’m only human. But I can try to get better.

I’ve apologised personally to miki, the one who made the original post. She encouraged me to try one more time to apologise. I don’t like to apologise to a general public, I like to apologise personally, because it means more to me.

But this is my public apology. If anyone who I’ve made uncomfortable or hurt sees this, I’m begging you to messages me before the end of this week. I want you to have closure. And I want to apologise to you. Granted, I still need specifics for each person of what I’ve done, so I can reflect and acknowledge. But I want to try.

I’m so tired. But I’m trying.

I’m really so sorry for everything, genuinely.

I think it's really funny that he's using a goatee here to disguise himself. Most people in town are aware he's a thief. He looks exactly the same, he's wearing a fake beard!! and yet people don't recognize him?? Ok but I want to believe that they know it's him, they're like: "Oh this fucking guy again...? what is he up to now."

Note: Tribin is a character Luca is playing.

He's so tiny...

ohhh he can do magic tricks *swoons*

It's supposed to say "A display full of flaws" but i lost the other screenshot. After this the path splits and you have to do a skill check(?). If you fail it says this:

After that Tribin is like Wow!! you did it !! or something like that and he leaves idk i forgor. You thought you won, but later you find out that he stole your money, i think you end up sleeping on the streets.

If you win the skill check:

i was so fucking SHOOK he WHAT AT ME??? you spit on MALWARE?! you spit on him like the BUCKET?! oh! ohh! JAIL FOR TRIBIN!!! jail for a million years!!

like HELLO???? YOU'RE MAD?? YOU WERE GOING TO ROB ME ...!!

... He gets tomatoes thrown at him and booed off the stage though, after this, so i forgive him :( poor little guy.

merry christmas to all and to all a good night ✨🎄