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thoriffix · 4 years

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Can you rec some media with canon queer characters 😌

ofc!! thisll by no means be an exhaustive list but idk what youre looking for specifically so ill break it into categories

my current favs!! if u follow me u know these already lol

the umbrella academy: netflix show abt dysfunctional superpowered siblings reuniting to stop the apocalypse. canon mlm character (pansexual according to his actor) w mlm romance, canon wlw character (lesbian according to someone on the show dont rmr who) w het romance in s1, wlw romance in s2 - this is one of my absolute fav shows at the minute in general its brilliant

the magnus archives: horror podcast abt the head archivist of an institute researching experiences w the supernatural. protagonist is canonically biromantic asexual, in a mlm relationship in s5, and there is another canon bisexual character, as well as (iirc) a canon wlw couple - yall know ive been so into tma lately its so so good, obviously if you dont like horror its not for you but if you do.. 👀

sanders sides: youtube series abt a gay dude working out his emotional problems via personified aspects of his personality. all the characters are gay cuz thas what thomas is baby! - i was hesitant abt putting this cuz thomas is a person not a character lol but if u haven't seen sasi i recommend it its like free therapy but theres songs sometimes

shows!

julie and the phantoms (netflix remake): musical show abt a teen girl rediscovering music after her mothers death w the help of three ghosts who were in a 90s band. canon gay character w a slow burn romance (not yet canon bfs but s2 lets go) - its very cheesy and the musical segments can drag on a bit but its p good overall

lucifer: detective show abt lucifer abandoning his rule of hell to buy a nightclub and beginning to solve murders w the lapd. lucifer is canonically bi/pan, as is his demon pal mazikeen, but queerness rly isnt a focus of the show its more casual rep - that being said its a good show overall, if a little predictable now n then (s1-3 on amazon prime, 4+5 on netflix)

kipo and the age of wonderbeasts: fantasy cartoon set in a future filled w mutant intelligent animals, kipo finds herself lost and has to get home w the help of her friends. canon gay character as one of the mains, canon nb side character - its a rly good cartoon! lots of fun, excellent soundtrack, and the main characters are all poc which is rly nice to see

the dragon prince: cartoon abt two princes and an elf assassin returning a dragon egg to its mother. canon mlm couple, several canon wlw characters, canon nb character - i havent seen the show myself but ive heard very good things abt it!

i am not okay with this: netflix show abt a teen girl discovering she has superpowers and hating it. protag is canon wlw (i THINK shes a lesbian but i havent watched it in a hot sec), developing wlw relationship - ianowt slaps! sad that s2 got cancelled but s1 is real good its a touch spooky and theres a bit of gore/blood so watch out lol

schitt's creek: sitcom abt a rich family who lose all their money and have to move into the motel of a town they bought as a joke. canon pansexual character and canon gay character w one of the sweetest mlm relationships - a rly good witty show w excellent character development for every character!

good omens: show abt a demon and an angel trying to stop the end of the world. every celestial character in it is nonbinary, + crowley and aziraphale have a nonexplicit (ie no on screen pda lol) romance - good omens is such a good queer show none of the characters care abt gender in the slightest lmao, plus the show in general is fantastic (the book is also very good)

movies!

the old guard: a group of immortals fight an organisation that wants to capitalise off their immortality. canon mlm couple - another one i havent seen yet (i will!) but apparently very good

it chapter 2: horror sequel to It, w the main characters returning to derry to defeat pennywise for good. canon gay character in unrequited love - i only say chapter 2 because his queerness isnt referenced at all in the first film, again its big horror and theres no gay romance just gay tragedy but its a good film

love, simon: romcom about a closeted gay teen falling in love w someone over emails. do i even need to state the rep? - honestly if u haven't seen love simon yet what are you even DOING its so good proper fluffy queer romcom, the book (simon vs the homosapiens agenda) is also really good!! so is the sequel (leah on the offbeat) where the protag is a bi girl + it focuses on a wlw romance

the way he looks: brazilian coming of age film abt a blind teen boy falling for the new kid at his school. canon mlm relationship - this doesnt seem to be on (british) netflix anymore so idk where youd find it with subtitles but i rmr liking it a lot!

games!

night in the woods: 2d platformer abt a young woman (well. cat) dropping out of college and coming home to live w her parents + discovering spooky happenings in her hometown. canon mlm couple and i believe the protag is canonically bi? - i will recommend nitw to literally anyone who will listen its one of my all time favourite games, deals w a lot of mental health issues and its absolutely gorgeous w a brilliant soundtrack and rly good dialogue thats witty and serious and realistic (its on steam + switch for sure dk abt other platforms, abt 15 quid i think?)

tell me why: adventure game abt twins returning to their childhood home + findin Secrets. canon trans male character - i havent got around to buying + playing this yet but it looks really good! (its in three chapters + on steam, not sure on price)

other media!

the art of being normal: slice of life novel abt a young trans girl discovering herself. main characters are a trans man and a trans woman. - a good novel! trigger warning for transphobic actions including descriptions of a transphobic attack on the guy, and its certainly not without its faults otherwise, but i thought it was pretty good

the adventure zone: dungeons and dragons podcast by the mcelroy brothers. idk specifics but theres a lot of canon queer characters in it! - i havent listened to taz yet but i know a lot abt it, inc that its good and funny and has plenty of queer rep

theres several more i like that arent listed here but to keep this from getting just ridiculously long ill leave it there :] tried to get a range of genres and medias, hopefully theres something for you in there!

#long post #asks #media rec #queer characters

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hibibun · 4 years

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Moonlight Shadow

Series: Persona 3 Pairing: Minato Arisato/Ryoji Mochizuki Summary: Ryoji sees the blood and butterflies leading him to Minato knowing he can't do a thing. It doesn't stop him from going, up until he can't. Warnings: Allusions to suicide ideation, major character death Notes: ive fell into the hole that is the magnus archives and couldn't help applying end avatar imagery to ryoji because it fits so nicely. it's alright if you don't know anything about the series going into this it isn't really necessary. as usual, i simply like to think about ryoji being drawn to minato despite the circumstances of their existence.

thank you very much to ash who read it over and also suggested a title! it's apparently from a song called moonlight shadow by mike oldfield AO3

The night they meet is the first of many times Ryoji has attempted to stop Minato from reaching his end.

He’s been following the messy, complicated thread that ties them together, and gets as far as Iwatodai’s train station before he spots him. Over and over in his dreams, Ryoji has seen that dorm bathed in blood and surrounded by stark shadows. And as he gets closer, every time there is a trail of bright, blue butterflies leading him up the staircase and to Minato’s door.

His hand reaches for the knob, but just like all the times before, he opens the door and finds a corpse waiting for him. The second his foot breaches the threshold, butterflies burst from the figure on the bed and he wakes.

Ryoji doesn’t really know the person he’s been dreaming about, and yet, he does down to his very core.

So when he feels that same tug and sees the butterflies leading him to the station, it isn’t surprising to see Minato there. He doesn’t know where he’s trying to go this late, but Ryoji knows it can’t be anywhere else other than the dorm, however much Minato may want otherwise.

In the end, they talk and Minato goes home. The butterflies follow him inside the train terminal, and Ryoji knows he’s only put off the inevitable. It’s not his time yet though. And for that, he is grateful.

There is nothing he can do for the others he sees, and he knows as he closes his eyes, in hours they will be coffins, submerged in those inky shadows.

It’s futile to resist, and often times, he doesn’t try to intervene anymore. Something about Minato is elusively special though, so he becomes an exception. He doesn’t try to warn the business man who has a trail of growing shadows follow him, nor the woman in the white dress with long, red hair whose clothes have phantom blood on them.

Instead, he makes himself into Minato’s shadow. A harbinger, unwittingly putting off what he knows can’t really be avoided. He’ll hold onto him as long as he can, convince him to hang in there just a little longer. To see what’s in front of him and just how little time he really has left—how little time they all have left.

Every night, he still dreams of that boy surrounded by butterflies, and watches with a small, helpless smile because he knows he can’t save him.

As the leaves fall from the trees for good, there are no games or solution he has to offer for what is to come. Only a choice. He could never change things, but with his new awareness, perhaps he can provide brief solace.

“You won’t feel any pain. You can forget about it until the end.”

“I can’t.”

Ryoji wants to beg more for the one thing he feels he can finally give Minato. Every other thing he has given has also been temporary, but this kind of peace could be enough. He sees it now. The resolve to live even in the face of death. The acceptance of their coming fate. He’s done what he can, and merely grieves everything else he cannot change.

“When we meet next, it will be for the last time like this.”

“I know.”

Minato doesn’t say anything else, but as Ryoji leaves, he feels forgiven. They are the wings of the same butterfly, and it isn’t until their last meeting does he realize what choice Minato really made.

He may not be able to save Minato, but in the end he is able to give him enough mercy to help his friends. They will die here together—and in return, they will be spared.

#writing #writing: persona 3 #pairing: ryomina #character: ryoji mochizuki #character: minato arisato #ryomina #persona 3 #p3

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deadlydelicious · 3 years

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Without having read all the 2020 questions bc too many but still hopefully fun: 3, 8, 13, 16, 29, 36, 45, 47, 51, 60, 71, 78, 91 (oops thats a lot)

No that's lovely. its always fun digging into a yearly review! OK, let me crack my knuckles and dig in!

3. Ever taken a Corona test?

no not yet thankfully!

8. Been to any Corona related demonstration?

I have avoided any and all organised venues as much as possible this year tbh, although as an art sector worker the ‘light up red for arts’ campaign was lovely to see

13. Any new subscriptions you made due to lockdown?

I havr subbed to a BUNCH of new podcasts in lockdown, and i’ve particularly enjoyed The Magnus Archives (i know i’m so late to this party), Desperado, and The Viridian Wilds

16. How did you keep in touch during lockdown?

ive struggled with this a lot. most of my irl friends are in vancouver, and i moved to the uk just before the pandemic, so its been hard. i’ve been playing among us on discord which has honestly been a god send (shout out to @oakfieldmonk and @stardustandash for keeping me sane) and i’ve recently started trying fan discords. its really not easy though

29. Got a new tattoo or piercing this year?

unfortunately not, though once again i am planning. something with hellebores or lighthouses, about the journey of finding yourself or ‘blooming out of season’. there are always tattoo plans in the works

36. Favorite series that you watched this year?

To the surprise of no one, The Untamed. i’m a sucker for moral ambiguity and fraught family relationships, and Jiang Cheng and Wei Ying have me in a vice grip. Honourable mention goes to my Stargate and Teen Wolf rematches

45. What do you do to prevent yourself from going insane during lockdown?

I dissociated hard? a lot of ‘pretending its not happening’ and burrowing into Dragon Age Inquisition and art projects kept me going

47. Something you did during lockdown that you´ve been putting off for way too long?

finally passed my driving test eyyyy, turns out having nothing to do for weeks on end means driving around in your car for practice becomes the only activity you can do

51. Any new social media you started using during lockdown?

discord tbh. i had used it before on and off, but i’ve been properly giving it a go the past few weeks

60. Most used social media this year?

look at this hell site that i’m on. you think i ever leave here?

71. Favorite game you played this year?

Dragon Age Inquisition. i’ve played it 4 times, no joke. i’m finally weaning myself off and onto deus ex

78. Did you find new (online) friends this year?

yeah! the tog server has been really nice the past few weeks, its been nice making new friends

91. Favorite tumblr trend of this year?

i mean lets be honest, has anything managed to beat the wonder that is spn season 16. i’m not even a spn fan, but that shits been breath taking

#10goatsinatrenchcoat

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oceanlandworld · 4 years

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N and P?

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

same as what charlie said for sayer lol, i most of all want CONTENT but especially for the youngs oh my god.

i wish more people in magnus archives fandom did fanart and stuff for like. the random episodes that aren’t super important to the main cast/plot but that are really interesting or scary or evocative (oblig. shoutout from mal to “taken ill”)

also... more fat and trans character designs, all the time, everywher;, fat trans martin is getting pretty normalized which is good but i need there to be more

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).

ive been thinking lately about a sayer mockumentary au (i think cuz of watching what we do in the shadows ahah) and idk how to execute this in fic exactly but i want it so Damn badly

like there’s a camera crew sent from earth to do a series abt life on typhon and they interview different characters..... god idk when this would be set timeline-wise (maybe it could be a long-running series???? lol) but i mostly really really want this during s5, i want to see those Lab Dynamics and i want young to whine abt brady to the camera

it could go past the s5 finale too... like cordero shows up and. ok initially i was gonna be like “she’s the straight man to everyone else” but yknow what? we dont really see her in canon and women seem to end up in that role too often, let her be goofy and somewhat dysfunctional

i want future to get interviewed and say some unsettling shit and then brady is like “haha! classic future”

and then the filming crew has to figure out how to wrap up when the murders start happening

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lasercruz · 4 years

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@quarterdollar fuck you and im sorry that i took so long to answer and i hope that im mostly coherent because i am. very tired as im typing this

1: Full name Nicky Jackie Marie Cruz !!

2: Age 21

3: 3 Fears Mold, tall heights if I’m not secured (like, I’m not scared of rollercoaster heights but I’m scared of like, cliffs), and balloons esp balloon animals

4: 3 things I love I love so many things uhh hh h. Jjba, adventure zone, and my friendssss 💞

I know turn ons/offs aren’t inherently sexual but i never know what to say for them so im skipping them :0

7: My best friend you 🥺🥺

8: Sexual orientation bi

9: My best first date ive never really been on a actual date :0

10: How tall am I 5′3

11: What do I miss being with my friends physically and just watching stuff or goofing around on the floor 😭

12: What time were I born 11:02pm

13: Favourite color Dark blues

14: Do I have a crush yes shh

15: Favourite quote there so much sappy quotes that are on uquizzes a lot that i like a lot the first that comes to mind is “ You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.” and so on and also “if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more”

16: Favourite place As far as just physically and not like people or other stuff that comes with with a place, I miss VT campus a lot tbh more than I thought I would. To pick a more specific place, the gazebo at the duck pond cause its where I’d go if I wanted to be alone or like if my roommate was sleeping or working and i didnt want to worry about being quite and it was always super peaceful

17: Favourite food I dont really have One favorite food it just depends what I’m in the mood for but my go to answer for favorite food category wise is either chinese or seafood

18: Do I use sarcasm Depends who I’m with ?? Generally no not often but if im close with someone and just goofin yeah

19: What am I listening to right now My love song playlist. its my go to thing to listen to cause my playlist with all my music has so much on it that i end up skipping half the songs until i find something im in the mood for and this one has a lot less that i end up skipping. the current song its on is day without you by keep for cheap

20: First thing I notice in new person It depends on the person like if they have something that stands out about them, thats what I tend to notice but like. How they carry themself i guess ? cause i feel like thats a easy way to get a read on somebody before talking to them

21: Shoe size 5 mens / 7 womans

22: Eye color Brown

23: Hair color Naturally dark brown but currently dyed black with rainbow bangs

24: Favourite style of clothing this question is on so many ask games and quizzes and I never know how to answer it cause i feel like i dont really have one specific style,, I like colorful and fun stuff i guess ?

25: Ever done a prank call? No and if you prank call a place of business youre annoying. i used to answer phones at work and we didn’t get them super often but GOD i hate prank callers

27: Meaning behind my URL emu is an old nickname and what i mainly went by until i settled on Nicky and this. is my blog.

28: Favourite movie Baby driver !!

29: Favourite song my go to answer for this is community gardens by the scary jokes

30: Favourite band THE SCARY JOKES

31: How I feel right now sleeby,,,,

32: Someone I love i love , my friendz ,, 🥺🥰

33: My current relationship status single ✌️

34: My relationship with my parents im close to my mom but i dont really get along with my dad ,

35: Favourite holiday Christmas !

36: Tattoos and piercing i have no tattoos, 3 piercings in each ear (2 on each earlobe and 1 on the top on each side)

37: Tattoos and piercing i want I want a interrobang on my wrist and an Aquarius symbol on my ankle and MAYBE the joestar birthmark, i wouldn’t mind more ear piercings and i want a septum piercing but ive seen videos of them getting done and they make me squirm i dont know if id go through with it

38: The reason I joined Tumblr sdklgkjgh i had a my little pony roleplay blog before i made my personal account

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we’re good friends !!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no not regularly at least

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no

42: When did I last hold hands? my mom tried to hold my hand when i was half asleep on the couch the other day but like i was so out of it so like it was more our fingers together and the rest of my hand just loosely dangling so if that doesnt count, you

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? i give myself about 2 hours if im doing full makeup but thats purposefully longer than i need so i dont have to worry about rushing and i can relax and take my time

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i only shave them if they’re gonna be showing or if the Urge to be Smooth comes over me

45: Where am I right now? my room at home on my bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably Kaylie cause she doesn’t drink and i assume if im drunk with other friends there she’d be the only sober one

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable, if i have it too loud i cant think so the only time i have my music loud is if im doing nothing and want to Not Think

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Ye

49: Am I excited for anything? short term im excited for the ai crushes all banks stream tonight and long term im excited to move into our apartment

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? no im not a tell everything to someone type of person .

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? i smile most of the time like, at work (before we wore masks) id always be smiling to look nice and like. just in general if i want to Not Look Unhappy or whatever

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? my mom probably like, yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? ive never kissed any1 .

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope i don’t think i really trust easily so like this doesnt rlly happen,

55: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up late cause i was up late last night so ive been tired all day I dont like the feeling

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? language barriers aside itd be super cool to meet hirohiko araki

57: What do I think about most? Whatever media im currently most into so right now adventure zone and magnus archives

58: What’s my strangest talent? umm i dunno im kinda flexable i guess ? not like ~contortionist~ level but like enough that i can freak people out sometimes

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i mentioned balloons as a fear in an eariler question so yeah that but im a lot better about it than i used to be

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? in front tbh

61: What was the last lie I told? i was on phones for the last hour and a half of my shift on friday and like. when people call and ask if an item is in stock and i can’t confirm it i, just tell them its not. like, someone asked if we had a specific kayak and i usually just search the walmart app or run over to where itd be to check but the kayaks are to far for me to run to and the app said limited stock which usually means little to none so , i just put it on hold for a bit then tell him we’re out.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? i like video chatting in theory cause its nice to see people visibly react to stuff but i tend to get too self conscious about how i look so i just do audio only

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes to both !! i am both

64: Do I believe in magic? yes in some ways i suppose

65: Do I believe in luck? yes im v superstitious

66: What’s the weather like right now? its a pretty good day its sunny but not too hot :oo

67: What was the last book I’ve read? its been ages since i last read a book in full 😔 i honestly dont knwo what the last one would of been 😔 😔

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes !!! love it

69: Do I have any nicknames? not anything i get consistently called no

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? ive never gotten super hurt that i can think of ??

71: Do I spend money or save it? save it

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? doppio bean plush ,,,,

74: Favourite animal? hedgehogs!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my phone probably on tiktok or something waiting for jojo to come on toonami

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I? dont think he has one i guess ??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? butterflies by samsa but it makes me happy in the “im crying now” kinda way itss cute

78: How can you win my heart? just by being nice and respectful tbh ,

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? idk i dont really want anything fancy just my name (chosen name please god im so scared of dying and geting my birth name on my tombstone if that happens i WILL come back as a vengeful ghost) and my birth and death dates

80: What is my favorite word? saccharine

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr by my tumblr crushes (which its been YEARS since i looked at) ; frostios, 27names4tears, smollpurrito, happynaru, and warpedlamp

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? if we being real id just get so scared dsjkfsldjglg theres so much i could say i dont know :((

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? not ? that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? why are all the questions worded super basic except this one skdlskdjfj. Shape shifting

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i can really think of anything really as long as a friend is asking i tend to answer truthfully ?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Sobble BUT this reminded me that i wanted to change it to a xenoblade pic so its this now :

90: Failed a class? no

91: Kissed a boy? no

92: Kissed a girl? no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no but oh god just thinking about that im 🥺🥺🥺🥺 id die id melt 🥺🥺

94: Had job? ye i was a cashier for a year in highschool and then i work in wamlart apparel in the summers

95: Left the house without my wallet? not when I know ill need it no, but ive left it home if im just going to a friend or family member’s house or i have my mom’s card or some cash in my pocket

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no !!

98: Played on a sports team? no lmao i dont do sports

99: Smoked weed? no

100: Did drugs? i had a weed brownie like once but it was such a small piece i didnt really feel anything

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? Ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? not currently i was vegan for a little bit to encourage a friend that was doing it though

104: Been overweight? no

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding? yes three, my grandma’s when she got remarried, and both my brothers

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably yes lmao often

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? not TV TV but if netflix and the like count then yes

109: Been outside my home country? no :(

110: Gotten my heart broken? not ? really no

111: Been to a professional sports game? ive been to a handful of Yankee games

112: Broken a bone? no

114: Been to prom? yes i went to my highschool’s and a friend’s highschool’s my senior year

115: Been in airplane? no

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none :((((

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? ye

119: Learned another language? i took 3 years of Spanish in high school but i wasn’t any good at it and dont really remember much of what i did learn

120: Wore make up? yes i do often :0

123: Dyed my hair? ye a lot

124: Voted in a presidential election? yes ever since iv been old enough to i vote

125: Rode in an ambulance? no

126: Had a surgery? dental surgery yes

127: Met someone famous? Not anyone i’d count no

128: Stalked someone on a social network? depends on what you count as stalking i guess but like not ever in a creepy way like ive been on people’s social media to find out stuff about them like. if theyre in a relationship or especially after highschool ill wonder about someone i havent talked to in awhile and ill see what theyve been up to and what theyre doing with their life and stuff

129: Peed outside? no

130: Been fishing? yes like once

131: Helped with charity? donation wise yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? ive never confessed to anyone and been rejected but once a friend told my crush i liked them and they confronted me about it and rejected me but it made me more mad at the friend that told them than it made me sad about being rejected because i knew it’d probably go like that and it justmade thing awkward between us for awhile 😔

133: Broken a mirror? ive broken the little mirrors inside eyeshadow pallets but i havent broken full ones

134: What do I want for birthday? usually just money lol or something thoughtful and cute

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? i aggresivly do NOT want kids BUT hypohetically Elliot or Xander for a boy and idk what i’d nam a girl

136: Was I named after anyone? no

137: Do I like my handwriting? its messy so no not really but if im writing something for myself like a not or whatever i dont mind as long as i can read it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? even as a little kid i always played computer games but other than that, this guy :

139: Favourite Tv Show? Jojo

140: Where do I want to live when older? New york or japan

141: Play any musical instrument? i can kind of play harmonica

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? i burnt my thumb kinda bad on the oven a while ago its still kinda healing but right now it looks like its gonna stay a scar

143: Favourite pizza toping? i like everything/suprieme pizza but if i have to pick one single topping pepperoni

144: Am I afraid of the dark? yes :((

145: Am I afraid of heights? mentioned it earlier but yes if im not strapped in or secured etc

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no im so scared of being caught doing something bad that i just. dont

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? i mean yes but thats life babey

149: What my greatest achievments are ive gotten awards for grades and stuff but that boring BUT i got the english department award or whatever that was called im very proud of that

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery i donate some and save the rest tbh

152: What do I like about myself i can be pretty sometimes 👉👈 im cute or whateva ,,,

153: My closest Tumblr friend i dont really havent “tumblr friends” aside from friends i know irl and also tey have tumblrs ,,

154: Something I fantasise about just. growing up and having my own place maybe with someone and. being comfortable and okay and not having to worry ,,

155: Any question you’d like? dkfjhdskhf japan :000

#ask #mine

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obviouschild2014 · 4 years

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Tagged by cool blog haver @holdoncallfailed (thank u! i also simply LOVE to talk about myself)

10 songs ive been listening to lately

My friend rachel and i did this 30 song playlist game thing where you pick 30 songs that like, belong to you and mean a lot to you with no consideration for an outside listeners tastes and then you swap and have to listen to each others start to finish. it’s a super fun time and i highly rec it but ive basically been on the same 30 songs for a few weeks lmao heres 10 of them:

unpretty - tlc

vessel - dan mangan & blacksmith

miss you - alabama shakes

martha - tom waits

damn these vampires - the mountain goats

get gone - fiona apple

barcarola - sufjan stevens

i dont feel like dancin - the scissors sisters

closer to fine - the indigo girls

relative surplus value - the weakerthans

and speaking of the weakerthans ive also been blasting john k samson’s winter wheat album. it’s so little and simple and full of the cold sad home town vibes i love john k samson for.

social distancing meme

Are you staying home from work/school? nope! i dont think my job has been classified essential here in melbourne but it involves sensitive material that we havent been given permission to take home so im still going into the city every day!!!!!! super super good!!!!!!!! it’s very isolated work anyway we all stay at our lil desks and dont talk to each other.

If you’re staying home, who is with you? my parents and sister are stuck together while im still relatively free. shes a middle child cancer so u can imagine the carnage.

Who would be your ideal quarantine mate? im happy to be with my sister haha we have a lot of fun together just chilling. we play city folk we play mariokart we watch mad men she made me some earrings that are little harps. love her.

Are you a homebody? oh absolutely. where else would i go. all my stuff is here. i spend all week outside so weekends are a real relief lmao

An event you were looking forward to that got canceled? my parents were going off to ireland + italy meaning we would have the whole house empty for ages wouldve been Lit. i also miss going to the movies so much.

What movies have you watched recently? we watched the platform which fucked me up and made us realise we dont watch foreign language movies yknow. so sick of hollywood i wont be participating any longer goodbye. so then i showed my family bad genius which whips more ass than any other movie on earth. oh hang on we watched toy story 4 last night. okay okay.

What shows are you watching? im watching mad men for the first time and i feel ambivalent! jared harris finally showed up and weve made a game of deciding random throwaway characters are gay and pointing them out with a ‘do you know sal?’ the repressed housewives make me crazy. im also ‘watching’ the podcast show magnus archives which i highly rec if youve somehow managed to avoid getting sucked into it by now.

What music are you listening to? scroll up bapy!

What are you reading? my goal of reading 20 books in 2020 is already waaay behind because im only on my third book and its a honker. im reading the luminaries by eleanor catton and so far its good! im having fun. fic wise.. look away but im reading this reddie fic while also insisting im over reddie and im also reading the only genuinely amazing magnus archives fic ive found so far (im insanely picky and a huge bitch) the office party fic

im gna tag @constellatess and @medievalswords and @whiteshipnightjar and @sounis whats poppin yall.

#this is only mandatory for rachel the rest of u do it if u like! i am super curious to have more music recs tho so xoxo #txt #this was so fun actually i love being asked things

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eliasbouchardisarobloxthot · 4 years

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five times jon came out (and one time he didn’t have to)

spoilers up to the end of season 4, and cw for minor transphobia/cisnormativity

i. his grandmother

He was nine the first time.

His grandmother had asked him to wash the dishes, and as he did, he ran over the words in his head as he kicked one foot against the stepstool he had to use to reach the sink.

“Stop doing that,” she said sharply, her voice carrying across the kitchen from where she sat, reading the newspaper.

“Sorry,” he said, setting the dishes aside. She clicked her tongue at him, shaking her head.

After a moment, he approached her at the table. “Can I talk to you about something?” he asked quietly, making sure he wasn’t fidgeting or anything like that. It would only make his argument weaker if he was nervous. She wouldn’t listen to him if he was nervous.

“Well? What is it?”

“I don’t… feel like a girl,” he said, his voice shaky even if his body wasn’t. “I haven’t for a while. And… I want to start dressing and acting like a boy now. And pick another name.”

She looked up with her eyebrows raised higher than he’d ever seen them. “Absolutely not,” she said, adjusting the newspaper in her hands and looking away from him. “There is absolutely no way I am letting you destroy our reputation like that.”

“But—” He’d expected this, had sources, had a plan.

“No buts. Continue with your chores and then start your homework. Now.”

He left the point for nearly four years, just tried his best to get on with his life and be a normal person. And then he hit puberty, and then everything felt wrong.

From then on, he would insist at least once a month that he still wasn’t a girl, still felt wrong, still wanted to pick another name. And every single time, his grandmother would shut him down, tell him that he was going to ruin their reputation, force him back into the closet.

It was almost convincing. He gave up on it, thought it was just a phase every girl went through—until uni, until Oxford when he was free and could shave his head and dress how he liked and be who he liked…

ii. georgie

…and still he felt wrong. It became clearer and clearer that this wasn’t going to go away.

He started joining online support groups. There were some that confused him, some that helped, some that were just useless to him.

His college roommate talked to him about her friend groups—and the pair of boyfriends in it. He joined the gay-straight alliance with her and told everyone to use ‘they’ pronouns for him, and it felt… good. Really, really good. Not perfect, of course, because there was still that tiny sense of wrongness tweaking at the back of his mind, but good enough that he felt really, truly safe.

Georgie, one of the girls in the GSA, started to talk to him. Then started to hang out with him. Then they started to date, and by the end of their junior year they’d made plans to move in together. And then the sense of wrongness got stronger and stronger. He spent night after night worrying about it, barely eating or sleeping, just thinking and thinking. He spiraled—deep into his own thoughts, constantly on the edge of a panic attack or a breakdown.

He came out to Georgie only a few days later. She accepted him—of course she did, she was incredible about it. They went online and found a trading group, one that gave away binders from people who had finished their top surgery.

And then they fought, and then they broke up, and Jon was alone.

So he moved on. He got a job while closeted, and then was outed at work, and got fired. And then…

iii. elias

…he did something he wasn’t proud of.

He forged his documents. A birth certificate, resume, degree, everything he needed. He went back to the Magnus Institute, where he’d done an internship a few years before.

The interview had been a breeze. Apparently they’d been looking to fill a researcher position, and while he hadn’t studied anything even close to research science, his English degree was close enough. He wasn’t sure that was how it worked, but he wasn’t going to turn down a job he had basically gotten with no qualifications at all. Especially one that he was allowed to present male at.

There were the usual bumps, of course—he didn’t get along with everyone there, but he wasn’t expecting himself to, and for the most part, people were actually kind of nice.

He was transferred to the archives a few years later. He didn’t know the first thing about library science, much less have a degree in it, but apparently he was somehow qualified enough to become the head archivist. It had struck him as odd at the time, of course, but he didn’t question it. The job was well paying, and if he made anyone aware of the fact that he really wasn’t qualified to be doing this, he might lose it.

So he didn’t. He just kept doing his work, recording statements, getting poorly made bagged tea from Martin, staying later and later until he barely went home. It was absolutely perfect—until his new boss, Elias, did some digging.

He didn’t know what to do until Elias said that he wasn’t going to be fired. Of course, he was completely confused by that—why wouldn’t he be fired?

When he told Elias so, he just replied with a sigh and a shake of the head.

“You’re a capable archivist,” he said. “If I fired you over just a tiny bit of forgery, what would I do without you? I’d have to hire another, and…” He waved a many-ringed hand vaguely. “Really, too much work for me.”

And with that, Jon was still working there. Still drinking the slightly disgusting coffee that Sasha would make, still working with Martin and still avoiding Elias as much as he could.

Things started to get weirder and weirder, and before he knew it…

iv. tim

…there were worms. There were these terrible, awful worms everywhere and he had to save the Institute and then they were on him and he was fairly certain that he blacked out for a while because the next thing he knew, Martin had a corkscrew to his arm and he was having worms pulled out of him.

He knew where they were. He’d felt them. And there were some that they’d have to go under his binder to get.

They’d better give me a raise enough that I can get top surgery soon was the only coherent thought running through his head. He was panicking—very slightly, but still panicking.

“I can do the rest myself,” he said, standing up quickly and practically tearing the corkscrew from Martin’s hand.

It only took a few moments for him to lock himself in the bathroom and strip off his shirt, then his binder. He bit his lip, then drove the corkscrew into his upper chest.

It burned like hell as he drew it out of himself, but the worm was gone in moments. Then the next, then the next. He made his way down his chest, to his stomach, then prepared to drive it into his leg and—

“Jon?”

He flinched, seeing Tim standing at the door with a shocked expression on his face. His eyes flicked from Jon’s face to his chest back up to his face.

“Those look pretty bad,” he said hollowly as he stared vaguely in Jon’s direction.

“Yeah,” he said quietly.

Tim stood there in silence for a moment.

“You’re not going to tell anyone,” Jon said, his voice shaking violently.

“No. I’m not.”

Jon pulled his shirt back around himself. He looked away from Tim, praying he wouldn’t try anything.

He heard a sound from beside him as Tim sat down, looking straight ahead rather than at Jon. It was a small relief, but a relief nonetheless, and he tried to struggle back into his binder to little avail.

“Hey, hey, don’t do that. You’re still bleeding, Jesus, Jon.” Tim put a hand on his shoulder to steady him. “Just… just sit here, I’m gonna get you some gauze and we’re gonna get you down to the medical team so we can get you fixed up.”

Jon shut his eyes tightly, and he leaned heavily on Tim as they both tried desperately to get him sitting up.

“Just take your shirt—you want your jacket, too?” he asked, helping Jon to his feet.

“Y—yeah.” He struggled into his shirt, Tim helping him with the buttons. After a moment, he leaned on Tim, clinging to the lapel of Tim’s jacket tightly. He hated feeling so helpless, but he could barely walk for all the holes in his legs.

“This changes nothing between us,” Tim said as he brought him to the ambulances outside.

“Of course.”

v. basira

Everything was normal for a while. He could pretend things were normal for a while.

He flat-ironed his hair less regularly. Martin grew more distant. He and Basira started working together, traveling together.

America wasn’t the best place to be, but he was tolerating it. They were hopping, motel to motel, never staying in one place too long. Staying in the same room, same bed sometimes. Didn’t matter much—Jon went to bed far later than Basira most nights, anyway. So he was careful.

Really, it was inevitable that it would happen.

They were watching a movie together, curled up on the motel room couch, closer than Jon would ordinarily have wanted to be but close enough to satisfy the pain in his skin when someone wasn’t near enough to him. He couldn’t remember a single plot point from the rest of the movie, but there was something happening with explosions and a girl with spiky hair.

“You good, Jon?” she asked, one hand on his head and one around the massive bowl of microwave popcorn.

“Tired,” he murmured, curling up against Basira. “Really tired.”

“You want to shower and go to sleep?” she asked, turning the volume lower on the TV. He shook his head, still leaning against her shoulder.

“You always go to bed so late, Jon. Please? For once?”

He sighed, curling up into a ball next to her. “I can’t.”

“And why can’t you?”

“Just can’t.” Words were becoming difficult. He didn’t want to compel her to answer him, force her to do anything, but it was getting harder and harder. “You’ll—”

“Jon. Please just… just sleep. I don’t care about seeing you ‘unprofessional’ or whatever, I just—”

“I don’t care about you seeing me like that, I care about you seeing me without my binder!”

There was a long silence, where Basira didn’t move. Jon could feel himself getting more and more tense, until she finally shifted on the couch to pull him closer.

“I’m not going to judge you for that, Jon,” she said quietly. “I bind, too. Not like you’re special or anything.”

He sighed in relief. And things got easier. Travel got easier when he wasn’t hiding anything from Basira, movement got easier now that he could take off his binder for several more hours a day than he had before. They made far better time getting around than they ever had before, likely due to the fact that Jon wasn’t constantly exhausted.

And then they returned to the Institute and things were different. Worse. They had to rescue Martin—or, more accurately, Jon had to rescue Martin, because that was the only way.

Things were not normal. Normal wasn’t real anymore. But…

+i. martin

…what things were, that was more difficult. If Jon had to put a pinpoint on it, he would say things were comfortable. A new kind of comfortable, of course, one that sat just to the left of the end of the world, but comfortable nonetheless.

Martin was, in the most complete sense of the word, perfect. He was so caring and generous and offered to do pretty much everything, since Jon was nearly incapacitated since the Lonely and had to use his wheelchair nearly constantly. They managed to live what could have been called a normal life for at least two weeks.

And then Jon managed to work himself into a panic over the fact that he hadn’t been on testosterone for three weeks, and locked himself in the bathroom to sit and cry.

“Jon? You in there?” Martin asked, gently knocking on the door. “Er, I mean, of course you’re in there, but are you alright? You, er, you’ve kind of been in there for quite a while…”

“Y—” He sighed. “No. I just—I didn’t—”

“Oh, you didn’t get to bring any testosterone with you, did you? Shit, Jon, sorry. I thought there was something off, you’ve been really moody. How many milliliters are you on? You can use some of mine.”

And that was that. No need to think about it, no need to worry. Just Jon and Martin, living their lives, going into town to get things from the market, being happy.

He could get used to this.

#original work #text #mine #fanfiction

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daimonios · 4 years

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was tagged by @severmyneck to post 10 songs ive been listening to (a while ago) & by @meethapaan to post that + a longer thing

jack the ripper (specifically some live version) - morrissey

kinda bonkers - animal collective

here comes your man - the pixies

and with her came the birds - cult of luna

astronaut - amanda palmer

ringtone (remix) - 100 gecs, kkb, charli xcx, & rico nasty

hierophant - king woman

heavy water / i’d rather be sleeping - grouper

wind chimes - lanayah

cubicles - mcr

andddd here’s the questions

Are you staying home from work/school? yes

If you’re staying home, who is with you? my housemates (i have 3) and their 2 dogs. i dont really talk to them much ? when im at my apartment im kind of a shut-in

Who would be your ideal quarantine mate? probably my friend wes. i was gonna go stay with them for a bit but it ended up not working out at the last second. not to mention we’d planned a trip over spring break to visit one of our other friends. but honestly any of my friends would be a good quarantine mate

Are you a homebody? not reeeeally. i dont like, Go Out or party or anything but i tend to spend a lot of time at friends’ houses

An event you were looking forward to that got canceled? bah. i was gonna see dorian electra, and go to the LA phil, but both got cancelled/postponed. aaand i was gonna go to the cruel world music festival in may that also got postponed. plus the aforementioned spring break trip. im glad i got to squeeze in seeing cult of luna before all this tho ;_;

What movies have you watched recently? aw jeez. i think the last movie i watched was the ballad of buster scruggs on st patricks day w some of my friends

What shows are you watching? i watched some little witch academia with a couple friends on netflix party the other day

What music are you listening to? glad to know im not the only one who hasn’t been listening to a ton of music lately... ive mostly been listening to podcasts (i started relistening to the magnus archives bc the new season comes out soon & taz amnesty just for fun)

What are you reading? umm a lot of research stuff for my art history classes. the last book i cracked open (besides the dnd player’s handbook) was probably a book of catullus’s poems or running with scissors by augusten burroughs. still gotta finish that one + i have a list in my journal of other books ive been meaning to read. ive been meaning to take a book to the beach by myself

What are you doing for self-care? playing dnd with my friends on roll20. playing a lot of minecraft (lol). cooking really tasty meals for myself. calling or facetiming friends when i can. journaling. taking walks by myself & playing pokemon go

i tag @dangerbitch45 and @lefthandshake (miss you guys), and anyone else who feels like it ig

#personal

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cryptvokeeper · 4 years

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Im over jse and have been for a like six months now but ill be damned if I dont rub my sinful Magnus archives obsessed hands over every fandom ive ever been even passingly interested in so time to diagnose some egos with fear entities lets go dont fuckin @ me about it

so like for starters theres a difference between the entities that would hunt a person and the entities that would make someone their avatar. and of course multiple entities can affect someone at different points in their life and just ...we like to speculate in this house

Marvin from a strictly canonical standpoint can really only go with The Stranger. I mean, performance, mystery, lack of identity, fucking masks, The Stranger wold have a field day with him, or he would have a field day with it, I dont know. But if we wanna get into meta, and fanon, things get more interesting. When the lack of identity thing gets played up you get big vibes of The Lonely. You know, vying for attention and trying to stay relevant and all that. The fear of being forgotten and such. Suppose the fear of being forgotten could sorta be construed into The End but let's not get too crazy. For interpretations of him as a knowledge seeker, too curious for his own good, The Eye obviously works well. The Spiral could be another fun one, playing with perception and all would line up well with magic. (honestly just give him a leitner deadass i wanna see that)

Back to The Lonely tho, we got big Brody energy there. I mean look at him. I could speculate about his place as an audience surrogate and possible Beholding connections, or The Desolation with enough of a push, or the End with the whole ‘tried to kill himself’, but he just gets the Lonely, plain and simple.

Schneep was actually a lot of fun to consider, cuz his story taken him some PLACES. The disaster doctor angle gives a quick and nasty connection to The Flesh that I just love, as well as slightly with the End with the death and near-death calls. But he also has some GREAT fears of manipulation and control going on that give a solid tie to The Web that is just lovely. Again, the difference between the fear a character represents and what they themselves are afraid of, you know?

IDK whats been happening since last I checked so maybe he got more characterization but as far as I know Jackieboy is still like.... fuck all in the canon department so lets take a moments to bask in the fanon cuz theres so many great takes on him; As an angry or impulsive fighter-type that would match up really well with The Hunt, really just a perfect fit. But then theres also the interpretations as someone searching for answers, or as a hacker that. give The Eye vibes. I mean personally I get The Vast vibes but for the absolute life of me I couldn't give you any definitive evidence as to why. Maybe it's somewhere tied into jack’s fear of heights and like, superheroes that fly, I don't know. I just thing its neat.

JJ is another one with Lonely vibes. Man out of time and all that, could be isolating. The Spiral vibes too. like look at him, big illusion and doubting-whats-real energy. For all those puppet theories he’d make an excellent one for The Web or The Stranger, manipulation and not being who you say respectively. And I know he's had a new video lately but in haven't seen it and likely never will DONT @ ME-

And then theres Anti and hoo BOY can we go in some fucking DIRECTIONS. Gotta love a villain a not quite solid motivation, goals and power set, and fanon only muddies the waters. Manipulation gives Web Vibes, obviously, but computers aren't quite its aesthetic. Computers aren't really anythings aesthetic tho, not concretely. The disguising oneself as other people is a Stranger thing, but glitches could be places under the umbrella of the Corruption if you stretched the definition, and he has been compared to a disease before...(computer virus?) Always watching is obviously The Eye, and the knife and the stabbing can be The Hunt, or The Slaughter, OR The End! And hes got a weird red hallway, which makes for a possible Spiral connection! AND all this mystery and unknown surrounding him makes a decent argument toward him being associated with The Dark!

Honestly. it all depends on where you wanna take his character and what aspects of him you like to play up in your interpretation, and its honestly anyones game. That goes for all of them I guess. I’d be interested in other peoples interpretations... But also id rather walk into the ocean than go any further into this than I already have.

#jse egos #fuck it im over this enough to make a quick post abt egos again #I wanna have some fun dammit

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