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rowanhoney · 7 months

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this has absolutely been present through my life but the more advanced my understanding of astrology is, the more it repeatedly seems to signify my struggles with my birth family, mother, and home life, and that my healing and life purpose all seem to come from creating a beautiful, loving home for myself and nurturing my own sense of family. Soooo many parts of my chart signify this and it’s linked in such a crazy way. Astrology is so fun but also makes me feel a bit insane

#it’s like ok ur chart ruler is venus. in cap in the 4th house #Ur sun is also 4hcap #4h ruled by cancer #mc is also cancer #Chiron in 2h scorpio hinting at the abuse and material insecurity/neglect #and needing stability through material/finances. which again ties in with the importance of the home #this isn’t even anything vague like this shit gets sooo specific and is so resonant #also legit I think deepening my understanding of astrology helps me so much w my struggles in life . idc what other people think abt it .#it’s legit so healing to me

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mwagneto · 9 months

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i truly am losing my mind tho coz like i literally spent weeks/years waiting to see if ofmd/gomens was bait and they're NOT. and they're both getting explicitly romantic promos and little hearts in the posters and the mcs kissing on screen coz they're canonically in looove it's all so. ohhmy fucking god

#EVERYBODY WANTED TO KNOW WHAT I'D DO IF I DIDN'T WIN GUESS WE'LL NEVER KNOW !!!!!!!!#obviously it's way more insane w g.omens but they both make me saurr emotional like dude holy fffuck....#it's the heart shaped posters for me. like i legit need to take my brain out and squeeze it dude im sooo <333 #ofmd #our flag means death #gomens #good omens #slowly slowly healing from the absolute devastation of bbc sh s4 ... you guys have #no idea how much damage that ending did to me like i was literally inconsolable. it was so.#and now i just get to have these?? FOR FREE?? 😭😭😭

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fairiencarnate · 10 months

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Why did no one tell me that the "chemical imbalance" theory has largely been disproven, that serotonin and dopamine can't cause mental illness on their own? Why have all mental health professionals been pushing this idea as fact? I've always thought the whole BPD diagnosis was bogus, just modern day hysteria slapped onto (mostly) women with complex-PTSD. Almost an official gaslight, like "your trauma wasn't traumatic enough to warrant the PTSD label so we're going to act like your brain is malfunctioning". So I'm not surprised to find all this out.

Can we finally begin a trauma-informed approach toward mainstream mental health shit? Especially mood disorders? Let's not rule chemicals and hormones out entirely, but let's acknowledge that trauma and genes have far stronger ties to mental health.

#obviously genetics are a huge factor too #and socioeconomic status altho i would also consider that under the trauma umbrella??#im starting to wonder whether my meds were really helping me chemically #or if they were giving a placebo affect bc they affected me physically so much at first #like “this feels intense so they must be legit”#and then the belief carried me through being open to therapy and healing etc #definitely pulled me from the edge of suicide #either way they helped me #i wonder if I'd be ok off them now that its been like 6+ years #NONE OF THIS IS ADVICE BTW #personal #tw medical #chronic depression #chronic anxiety #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #cptsd

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synthwayve · 2 months

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Thinks about Micolash and Laurence’s rivalry that never strays from the confines of academic snark or the occasional jab despite their shared ambition(and possibly also just accompanying a general friendship they could have had since they worked together at some point. Idk I’m a softie. Sue me.) eventually involving into a full on intellectual divorce. Cries. Explodes. 72 casualties.

#will delete #I am just having thoughts #like yeah listen I love the toxic aspects of their dynamic especially peak healing church #and I’m honestly shocked most people put Micolash in the seat of power there #if anything I think he’d be underhanded with having dirt on Laurence’s operation or his reputation #but yknow. headcanons vary #consider: they could have been soft once. they could have been #and they could have stopped each other’s descent into their respective cosmic obsession(blood and insight)#but neither can actually let the other have his way. if Micolash abandons his research and just does whatever Laurence commands him to #he’ll never be able to pursue his own interest(which could even stave off the scourge). it’d be Byrgenwerth all over #but if Laurence lets Micolash go and just do whatever his silly heart desires #not only will he legit go insane but itd happen at the worst of times. he needs to priortize the blood while they still have time #so they both just. stalemate each other to death #yadda yadda insufferable academics believing only their method must be correct to the detriment of the other #not in a ‘I personally hate you’ way but in a ‘why won’t you just listen to me’ way #I just think there’s fun to be had there. they’re both horrible.#also idk this is being prompted by Laurence being typecast into being completely helpless at the height of his power. against MICOLASH???#let’s let him be a little evil too come on now #but idk. maybe my take is wack

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lastoneout · 8 months

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"We need more imperfect female characters!" Y'all can't even talk about Nami without describing her as "mean" despite the fact that the entire crux of her first character arc is her caring about her village so much she tolerates torture and misery for years just for a chance to save it, and after that becomes one of the most kind and selfless characters in the entire main cast.

#every time I see someone call Nami a “mean lesbian” before implying she would never give a shit #about her friend's problems or wellbeing I lose ten years off my lifespan #even as a joke it's just blatant mischaracterization #regardless of her hypothetic sexuality she's legit so empathetic and she cares so much all the time #she gives up money constantly to help people #she can be a nice lesbian you know #not all lesbians are mean #idk I know it's a joke mostly but Nami means a lot to me as a character #so I hate to see people call her mean when SHE ISN'T SHE'S SO NICE ALL THE TIME #she's usually the FIRST one in the crew to stand up to injustice #she puts so much energy into caring about people and protecting them #she's incredibly selfless #to the point that it's a flaw #she's only mean sometimes as a defense mechanism bcs she's traumatized #and she heals and stops being like that #one piece #nami one piece

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liquidstar · 1 year

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I started reading oshi no ko recently and it's. A lot. Wow. But what i am thinking about right now is that kaguya having a cameo here means that reincarnation is now canon in the kaguya sama universe

something else ive heard abt only though out-of-canon content is that in the kaguya sama universe is that the tale of the bamboo cutter is an actual historical event. this holds no actual importance to the plot and is never actually referenced. supernatural shit exists in their world but it just doesnt fucking matter we have highschool romance melodrama to act out rn no time to acknowledge these things at all

#ive read it a few times so i can assume it was said somewhere officially but i cannot find where rn #maybe i am wrong. but im pretty sure....#considering its the same universe its also insane how much of a better time kaguya and co are having than the oshi no ko cast LOL #dont get me wrong a lot of their backstories are legit fucked up but like. theyre just hanging out now. theyre healing via hanging out #but the oshi no ko cast is making each other worse

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theboarsbride · 6 months

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just wanna send love to you guys because it means a lot to have hyperfixation stuff and silly self-insert shenanigans supported and encouraged🥺thank you all so much for being so kind about Bear Wife and showing love for her... it means a lot!!!!!!!💛

#legit this has been like...the best fandom experience i've ever had #'the terror' fandom is probably the first time i've ever actively had fun interacting IN the fandom (even tho i'm still vibing in my corner #yall are just so kind #boo to the NBC hannibal and harry potter peeps for ruining my relationship with fandom #thank you to the terror girlies for letting me heal that bond #.............and thank you for letting me be insufferable about a character we all agree is unsufferable #sir john you stupid old fuck i wanna kiss you and smack you <3333

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greyias · 9 months

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So I’ve reached a point where I’m seriously considering going back to an earlier save file to revert a choice I made. Because the further I go on, the more I realize my previous decision is just not working for me. (It’s not the mushroom — the mushroom is just gone, there’s no going back. My stupid paladin ate it mid-battle and choices or misclicks in this case have consequences).

No. This is bigger than all of that. I’ve tried to move on, gone through several cutscenes and battles and can confidently say.

This adamantine armor.

is ugly af.

And I miss my girl having this somewhat iconic (in my mind) look that I’ve associated her with. Are the stats better on the adamantine armor? SURE. Does it make my AC higher? YEAH. Can no one score a critical on me while I’m wearing it. DOT DOT DOT YES.

But it’s also way too shiny and bright and reflective. It washes out her face in cutscenes. YOU CAN’T SEE HER FRECKLES. Those freckles are important! The neck on it is too tall. The silhouette is all wonky and square and bulky. It glows in weird spots. It dyes horribly and is just distractingly shiny in every cutscene. I even tried to give it a cape to make it look all fancy and it just didn’t matter.

And she just looks like some generic MMO character now.

Where is my crest of devotion? My lovely blue tabard? The loving and intiricate golden embroidery? Where is the fashion my dears? Is it smart to wear my starting armor to end or even mid game content? NO. Maybe I'll live through a fight but at what cost???? Look at that face! How can I make her wear something ugly?

She deserves the best.

So either I give it to another party member who could use a boost in AC and the ability to resist crits… or I roll back (thankfully not too far, just the Arcane Tower bits) and create an adamantine shield. Thankfully, I had enough foresight to create a save file called “second forge item”, so I don’t have to go through that boss fight again. But like… DECISIONS MAN.

#that boss fight tho #poor ari got squished by the hammer during it #and somehow miraculously survived with like 5 whole hitpoints #like she legit needs a higher ac #as she's supposed to be a tank #every preview of the armor i saw tricked me into thinking it would be cool #but god that armor is not doing it for her #i can't take it #she can at least wear the helm that dropped from the boss fight that also neutralizes crits #but then i lose a slot for my special bard healing hat #if i made the shield then i couldn’t hot swap over to phalar alive when i want a shrieking sword #these are the difficult decisions i have to make #i don't really want to install mods yet #so i guess i must suffer fashion choices for now #grey's bg3 tag #bg3 posting #bg3 spoilers #(ish)#ari's og campaign

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katyspersonal · 3 months

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A frustrating bit about the idea that Yurie is called the last scholar because of her having been one of the OG Byrgenwerth squad is her visible age.. Willem was already a sluggish ancient self even in Laurence's flashback and is still alive, for all we know the time in Byrgenwerth really has stopped as 95% of it is drifting between reality and Nightmare, but.. why at the expense of some wrinkles :pensive:

Would just be pretty great if she looked like a 50+ years old! (around 20 as Byrgenwerth scholar and at least 30 years since then because if Hunter's Dream has about 360 gravestones, it means 360 full moons ie at least 30 years of it existing) But, I guess it IS just a version?

#bloodborne #yurie the last scholar #every day. I am thinking about the implication of her title as the last scholar.#she is one of my crucial points in saying that byrgenwerth was not instantly isolated from healing church #and in fact it was only declared 'forbidden' by the church so people like simon don't snoop around for their origins and secrets #but healing church members legit know password of the Gatekeeper + there is a secret cave through which fauxsefka snooped #so would be fair if Choir that does honor descent from Willem would still communicate and Yurie just... stayed #I mean not like only arrived back there with Fauxsefka but I mean like STAYED stayed #presumably when Rom was retracted from the Choir back to Byrgenwerth #(mfw the girls realized Willem was sexier than Laurence but you didn't hear that from me lol)#for all we know she either never met Fauxsefka before or haven't seen her in years #Cainhurst Fauxsefka implication too and of course vampires don't age like normal people... BB where are the OLD women #as usual Eileen and Witches of Hemwick got me lol

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heraldofcrow · 1 year

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Ok??? What???

So, I found this randomly, but apparently this woman…Caryll…was an English lady who was known for receiving divine visions?? One of her most famous ones was a vision of an icon in the sky that represented the death of Christ, but also foretold the murder of Tsar Nicholas Romanoff. This was her…known for her red hair…

She apparently saw these visions throughout her life and they were religious-themed because she was Catholic. Priests apparently sent people to her to be healed as well…there’s so much here…

Some key details about her visions…

I mean seriously…wtf…

And her life was heavily shaped by her mystic insight too…

She was also known for her love of wood-carving…particularly religious, Catholic woodcarving…

I mean, knowing the Bloodborne fandom…there’s no way this is the first time someone has made this connection? Am I late to the party or…?

#i have so many thoughts rn #my brain is exploding #tell me lads…#coincidence or connection?#because this is sus af #HER NAME WAS LEGIT CARYLL #AND SHE WAS A REDHEAD #FANTOMETTE ARE YOU SEEING THIS?!#OUR CATHOLIC HEALING CHURCH CAINHURST MYSTIC WOODCARVING CHILD #???#runesmith caryll #bloodborne #caryll houselander #CrowNotes

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tomuras · 9 days

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i got the rough sketch back for my selfship comm with webby and i’m so 🥹💙/pos

#z.cries #and the artist drew my body RIGHT #like god it feels so nice to see me in my true size/body type with a fav #like it legit is so healing oh my god #like yeah i’m a mess okay haha

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cosmic-kaden · 23 days

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One thing that I love about Sackler? He genuinely doesn't give a shit about my body weight. Like.. at all..

Because in canon, he literally told his lover at the time "gather my fat, you'll feel less alone if you gather my fat" and he was like reassuring as fuck.

ranting and raving in the tags lol

#SACKLER!? Making me feel comfortable in my own skin!? BANANAS #Hearing him say that was so fucking healing to me in a sense!? Like ????? You??? don't ???? care!?!??! <33 #I struggle with my weight a lot its the reason I make my S/I skinny... but maybe.. just maybe one day I will make them my body type...#Like what do you MEAN this man would love the stretch marks on my stomach/lower back and upper thigs!? what do you MEAN he would call me #beautiful and mean it!#Not saying that I think my other f/o would be lying but its the fact that THIS ONE CANONICALLY does not care! Like LEGIT!#I felt such a swell of love for like not only him but like....myself!? THAT NEVER HAPPENS WHAT!?#T_T Loving this man more by the fucking second..#My favourite bad habit;

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2ovenya · 2 months

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so on palm sunday i went to church 🥺🤍. the moment i stepped in the Lord’s home, i feel like i changed into a completely different person. things don’t upset me like they used to, i can calm down my irritation but still express things i’m disappointed by, i’m more connected to my younger self again, and i feel even more closer to God. it’s like a shift happened 😭🫶🏾. i absolutely LOVE that !! mind you i haven’t been to church since 2012 so to be back again not only healed my younger self but healed me currently as well as also blessed me inside and out. like thank you God for this 🥹🙏🏾. i’m excited to go back on easter !! amen to that and God bless you all !!

#🎀🫧🧸#2ovenya #palm sunday #i went to church after all of these years and it was worth it and now i feel so good !#i feel like a completely different person now #i’m legit so happy and blessed #i thank God for EVERYTHING especially this phenomenal change #me and my younger self are forever healed and connected through this now #again thank you Lord for this !!#best believe i’m going back to church this sunday for easter ya’ll !!#☁️🩷🪽

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that-one-guy-called-rey · 4 months

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just finished reading mockingjay and I’m feeling too many things again also I forgot that books can be good actually

#legit cried at the end #something about the healing from trauma and the pains of it just really hit me #also prim’s death is so brutal and tragic holy crap #shout out to suzanne collins for being a fantastic writer I’m sorry it took me so long to actually read and appreciate your books #mockingjay #hunger games #hunger games mockingjay #random stuff #random

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stillcominback · 11 months

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✨back by popular demand✨

#it’s me i’m back from my dallas trip!!#photos to come maYBE #it was truly chaotic and wild (joseph quinn’s handlers were legit the worst in the world but anYWAY)#it was fun! good memories! and a much-needed break!#now back to the regular slog until my next con/little trip in july!#missed you all and hope you’re doing okay! 💞💞💞💞#but like met jon bernthal 🥰 charlie cox 🥰 gabriel luna 🥰 jodi benson 🥰 grace van dien #and joseph quinn of course!!! he’s so cute and lovely but they overbook him to deATH and his handlers were horrible so the experience #was just not great 🫠🫠🫠 not joseph’s fault! he was so lovely but yeah ick #BUT!! all the others were SO BEYOND lovely — gabriel is maybe one of the most wonderful people i’ve met #he remembers people BY NAME and like went into his line to talk to people and thank them???#also he’s SO DAMN CUTE JFC i was literally swooning #he called me ‘sweetheart’ multiple times and my friend and i ‘cutie patooties’ like —#💍💍💍💍#also i got to hug charlie cox twice and it was VERY HEALING 😭💞#and we gave grace matching cutie bead ‘friendship bracelets’ to match ours we bought there from an artist/vendor #and we all just high pitch girl squealed like she’s literally so cute wtf (and i think she wore them the next day too 🥹😭)#ANYWAY gonna chill (be on discord and stuff!) and mentally prepare for work tomorrow #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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itsbinghebitch · 1 year

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this is the last time i ever fly this close to the sun like. u have to understand. i just do not stan people, it's not part of who i am as a consumer and it never happened organically before, but this parasocial relationship (w build) basically ran itself. vegaspete was the reason i even started watching kinnporsche and it's been 6 months since the show ended and still some days in the last few weeks i had zero thoughts about anything else except vegaspete. and the worst part is the industry blurs the lines between actor and character so much, and pete was the character i identified the most with now it's virtually impossible for me to distinguish pete from build (hoping this might change but im not holding my breath).

anyway tldr ive been feeling like shit since yesterday. you let yourself stan celebrities once in your life for funsies and this is what happens.

#i wrote thousands of words in pete pov fic only in the last month and it like #PHYSICALLY pains me to think about resuming any of it now #i had to legit lie to my family yesterday and why i look so depressed LMAO #like the most clownshoe thing that has ever happened #i am just hiding everything behind ten layers of irony rn bczu it's actually so disturbing how much it hurts it's like something has been #ripped away from me and im never getting that enjoyment back ever again #i wrote about love and grief and friendship and immigration and abuse from the perspective of this man #this character helped me process and heal and make invaluable friends in this fandom #so yeah #the five stages of grief #thats what's up!

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