#it is for Me which is why theyre made for discord. and for my friends and partners. but theres a lot to the world yk?
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and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)
i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise
#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles#its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring#im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus.#theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny#actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters#idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me#anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too#and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys#and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male .#maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it.#guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things#i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just.#we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it.#you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week.#but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it.#i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff#but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me.#my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months.#but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy#i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play#all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good.#marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho)#i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often#uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying.#saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up#im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh#text
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Hi! I have a question. I'm an aac user (augmentative and alternative communication) because i'm nonverbal/nonspeaking and I use an app that lets me talk using symbols. (i pick words which are represented by images and it speaks for me). Some of the avalible symbols in the app I have aren't the best and some words don't have symbols. Would it be okay if I used te emojis you make in my app? (it's private and the symbols are only in the app.)
yeah sure! honestly if it helps then thats great, i wanted this (blog) to at least be useful for some people
only really issues i could have with someone using my emojis (outside discord because that's what i made them for) is just art theft and people not knowing it's from me? but that's not really something i care too much about if it's used in more private functions (like your app you're talking about!)
#rover.txt#honestly as long as someones not trying to yoink my emojis as their own im fine?#hell theres one popular emoji blog here that got asked bout someone using their emojis as reactions on like twitter but with the promise of#editing the owners tumblr @/username to it and honestly even something like that id be fine with#mostly just want this blog to be helpful and Honestly. discords not gonna be everyones top connection thing#it is for Me which is why theyre made for discord. and for my friends and partners. but theres a lot to the world yk?
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do u have any tips for getting into ocs and developing them tho 🤔😭
Hmm I’ve had ocs in the past and I’ve wondered why I picked and chose favorites among the cast I made and I thjnk for the ones I didn’t gaf about it was because I was forcing myself to make characters filling space because I thought it would make my story look more complete but it just ended up I neglected those ocs because I found nothing about them fun or compelling to spend time on.
With casey I’ve definitely gone full self indulgence which was probably helped by the fact her concept was literally based on a joke self insert character so the fuel for me spending time with her was my intense fixation on booster gold and how much I wanted to destroy hurt kill bite kill punch to death kick kill him 😀
Make things fun for yourself! Don’t shy away from making things that you know you’re already crazy for … I’m not shy about saying casey as a concept is a culmination of a LOT of favorite characters I’ve had in the past like peridot (su), the invader zim and tak storyline, Daffy Duck .. to name a few!
And I spent a long time perfecting her design so that it was fun to draw for me …. I made her a secretary/office lady type character cuz um. I THINK THEYRE HOT? LOL … and I really like that fashion style I draw her in. So she’s almost like a mannequin for me to draw clothes I really like aesthetically. so I really have a lot of fun drawing her ^_^ you can tell by how much I do it LOL
So my number 1 advice in conceptualizing ocs is to make things fun for yourself. Are your favorite charaxters always mad scientists.. you can make one. Do you think rubber aprons are hot. You can give them one. Have you been struggling with your gender identity. You can make your oc a girl with he him probouns. Do you wish columbo was a lesbian.. you can make it happen.
As for development, as soon as I got the basic deets for casey and her role in the story I had for her to paper I found one of those tumbrl oc ask games and just filled out every single question for her. A lot of stuff was made up on the spot but just felt right and most often stuck that way but there’s no shame in making little changes as your oc grows on you and you get better aquatinted with eachother. For example I had the idea initially casey would have rich/well off and well meaning parents who were extremely normal and loved her a lot and it would be kind of a meet the robinsons “THEY ALL HATED ME” dynamic. But I quickly changed it as I thought more about casey because what I have with her and spider feels more.. fitting.
It also helps a ton if you have a friend willing to lend an ear :) and I don’t mean just 50+ messages discord chats (because those are extremely enlightening too) but I mean just posting and posting and posting about your little guy and getting those precious 4 likes on your lore document. I always take this sort of approach with original stuff LOL IF I POST ABOUT CASEY LIKE A LUNATIC FOREVER EVENTUALLY ILL TRICK EVERYONE INTO THINKING THEYRE CASEY FANS…!!!
Sorry for the rambly answer! I hope I was able to say at least 1 crumb of helpfulness
#asks#and old abandoned oc that comes to mind for my failures is dove the boyfrjend of kado#and the reason idgaf about him is because his only personality trait is being kados boyfriend. I made him specifically for that which made h#him unbearably boring. I had a much better time thinking about kado and kite bcuz I developed them as characters separately and then as a#friendship … RIP dove I’m thinking of wiping his slate clean and giving him a new deal next time I feel inclined to visit that o verse#ocverse****
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Novel I have the funniest story
So I have Discord, right? And recently, my mobile Discord notifications haven't been sending. I don't know why, I have all the permissions turned on, but it won't work—whatever, right? As long as I check my phone regularly, right?
And it's been a really good day! I got the highest grade on my essay, I totally nailed a presentation, I made my favorite soup for dinner—a great day. It's around 6:50 PM and I'm cradling my soup in one hand on the couch, just relaxing from the day. It's my first break from homework for a while, and I'm enjoying it. I decide to share the positivity in one of my group chats on Discord with my close friends. So I send "@everyone love you" and I close Discord, thinking nothing else. I finish my soup, I do the dishes, and I go upstairs to play some video games on my computer.
All the while, I haven't checked my phone. I don't have Discord open on my PC, and I've been trying to cut my hours on my phone to focus on the real world (aka touching grass). I play a game, and while I'm waiting for another player to take their turn, I check my phone because I'm bored.
Strangely, I have one notification. I don't recognize what app it's from, but it looks like a text or call. I unlock my phone to check and find out it's my friend Catherine calling me on Whatsapp. Strange, right? We only use Whatsapp for sending videos that are too big for other applications and for when my internet kills Discord. (For context, Catherine is my best friend and basically the Novel to my Ritz. Also, my wifi is awful—probably why I've been struggling to receive notifications)
I think the call is weird, especially since there were no Whatsapp texts accompanying it. I try to call Catherine back, but she doesn't pick up. I reason as to why she did it—most likely I didn't respond to Discord fast enough so she tried to get my attention elsewhere. That makes sense, we do it all the time to each other. So I go and check Discord.
It opens to the channel I left it on, where I pinged my friends and told them love you. I notice I had 6 DMS, but I noticed my friends had replied and I was curious to see how they were. had already forgotten I did that, to be honest, so I go and read the responses. Let me just:
(Cami)
@everyone love you
(Raven)
LOVE YOU TOO
(Jasper)
love you too
(Slyvie)
You're the best! :)
(Raven)
Why the random love you tho?
(Sylvie)
Yeah, that confused me a bit too
(Raven)
Cam whats goin on?? Why the random love you?
And suddenly, it hits me why Catherine called.
And my first thought is: oh my god, they do not think I killed myself.
I open my DMs to Catherine, and sure enough I see: "are things mostly okay Cami? You haven't marked off anything from your accountability list, and there was the message you sent in the groupchat. I'm a little worried."
And I just go: OH MY FUCKING GOD THEY THINK I KILLED MYSELF.
Which is literally the worst way you could ever respond to "love you" with, by the way
Anyway, I explained what happened and now it's going to be an inside joke with the group. I literally despise my friends, theyre the best😭😭😭
LMAO GIRL NO! You be out here givin people heart attacks professionally istg 😭
But honestly as someone who's done this on accident too this is so funny 😂😂😂
Also my discord mobile notifs have been fuckin up too! What's up with dat? 🤔
Also!
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR SCORE!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🎊🥳🥳🥳🥳🥂🥂🥂🥂 SO PROUD OF YOUUUUUU!!!!!
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i didnt leave twitter, ive always had tumblr LOL, folks really going out of their way to harrass me and call me a zoo for drawing dragons [harkness included] is so wild. Like now its past proving a point, its a witch hunt and thats weird. Just say your piece and be quiet, yall dont even know what a zoo is, bc i can promise its not someone who draws dragons. Yall talked to me all of one time, grow up, if you dont like me why don't you just block and move on. I rarely draw nsfw and when i do its to get money to take care of my bills.
Like i think its time to calm down and get offline, im genuinely trying to exist and yall are trying to chase me off the internet for what.. drawing fantasy creatures? Cry harder ig, i didnt get kicked outta tcm, just your friend groups which thank god yall are two faced as fuck.
If you wanna keep this going unblock me on discord and stop hiding, but otherwise yall should learn how to block and leave things alone, esp when you dont know what zoo means bc ill tell ya, drawing fantasy characters that can consent or respond is not zoo. Zoo is the attraction to animal genitalia which i havent drawn, its been dragons and exotic shapes from dildo makers. Oh and aliens. The person you got info from shows their genitals to kids, draws hyper dog cock [smth not even they can say ive done] and FERAL dinosaurs having sex, voring and more [the vore one ws someone 14 and tbeir 26 year old someodd partner.] Js, ill keep playing tcm and keep existing with the people who talk to me about this and think your insane, ive made lots of new friends bc of this. Just genuinely sip a bud and settle down.
Non furries when they accuse a dragon furry of being a zoo even though theyre asexual, dragons arent real and harkness plus non animal genitalia: 👺👺👺👺
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YOU. WIZARD AU GUY. TELL US MORE ABOUT WIZARD PROM PLEASE. DOES IT GET DEEP INTO SHIPPING TERRITORY? WHO GOES WITH WHO? PLEASE I NNNNNNEEED TO KNOW
HI ANON AS YOU WISH
Wizard prom. head in my hands. Dont even get me started on wizard prom. I’m assuming you’re talking about yule in their 6th year, pls correct me if that not it but I can’t think of anything else youd be referring to so I’m going to talk about Yule.
It gets a little into shipping territory! Some of the yule pairups aren’t automatically romantic. The ships in wizard au are, since i made the au, catered to me, but don’t let that stop you. These are how I wrote them but if you think it’d be fun to see stephen/alex or idk collin/cody be my guest. With that said the yule pairs are:
- Isabel & Max: They go for appearances (Hogwarts champion & Quidditch captain, Guerra family heir, one of the best witches in their year) and because neither got dates with people they liked otherwise. Which is not to say other people didn’t ask them, but neither were interested in those people. So, why not go with your best friend?
- Cody & the Beauxbatons champion, who is a sweet boy with soft brown hair and glasses
- Ed & RJ: #nonbinaryswag
- Ollie & some Durmstrang twink
- Stephen & Dimitri (imo still the funniest crackship out there)
- Johnny does not get a date (loser)
- Violet & Lisa
- Spender & Garcia: I used to have Spender go alone but that was before sparcia became real so as much as i would like to laugh at him and make him single again i have to vote for gay rights
- Isaac also doesn’t get a date (loser x2). Maybe he asks someone and they turn him down. I like to bully Isaac
- Day & Zarei
Those are the pairings I can think of. Otherwise we have Jeff who goes alone but has a great time, Suzy and Collin who spend the whole night trying to get a scoop rather than dancing (Collin was roped into this unwillingly), Professor Walker who is chaperoning, and I feel like I’m forgetting some but if I remember I’ll add them in later.
This lineup is WAYYYY WAY different than the OG au, I think back in 2015 it was more like:
- Max alone because he couldn’t get a date
- Ed & Isabel went as bffs
- Isaac no date
- Jang went as a group of 4 bffs with matching outfits
Which has changed a lot. Ed & Isabel don’t go together anymore because going with your sibling is social suicide and also Ed likes RJ. Wizard AU is first and foremost an izjo au, and Isabel and Johnny did the chicken dance around asking each other until it was too late, so Isabel going with Max is part of that. They end up hanging out through most of yule anyway, but they didn’t ask each other and they both kind of regret it. The gang doesn’t go with each other anymore because as fun as I think it’d be, I think it’s something they would do at 12 and not 16. Theyre all growing into being their own person, and that involves being daring and asking the person they like to wizard prom except Johnny.
I dug through discord and found these old messages bullying izjo for not asking each other. Please enjoy
#asks#anon#paranatural#wizard au#i was watching a lot of pride & prejudice around wheni was rewriting yule
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no minorrrss please, 18+ coz thats in my BLOG RULES thank youu
Okay here's a huge essay on why five nights at freddy's is very successful and works for me / has become popular. big inconsistent text dump to my friend in discord that i figured i should post. and ive already done so many essays so i dont want to clean this up coz im tired and my head hurts but im SO FUCKING INVESTED in fnaf right now. ok. the autism
many paragraph thoughts under the cut
Anyways. It’s obvious to me how FNAF was successful as a thing because A. it was VERY new when it came out and that was already working its favor. but why did THAT keep going to like 6 or 7 and counting games?? it’s coz B. the writing is??? good??? it balances horror and humor VERY well which is extremely important to make horror Approachable and accessible to a lot of people.
balancing horror and humor like that makes it so the game is not 24/7 stress, showing that it knows how to pace itself really well. i think the pacing is really well done in fnaf. to me, even tho the lore is mid because i like it better simpler, the way the lore ties in together across all of the games up until the pizzeria simulator AND keeps the vibes across all games AND tries new things with each game (some more successful than others) i think works VERY well in fnafs favor
like it was very well paced and very well tied together even though shit was made up as you go. ie scott (the creator) pulled that lore out of his ass. he only had the basic base level storyline there, but later iterations of it were added on later
unlike, for example, homestuck which is the same type of thing (made up as you go) but too much and too overwhelming. homestuck is its own big thing that like. changed a lot and was really groundbreaking for being new, but it went off the deep end and tried to be Too much. which honestly i think is similar with fnaf.
HOWEVER. even in security breach where it’s too much at once and just falls apart coz it was TOO ambitious, that story and that pacing is still??? there?? and the humor and the general tone of the whole thing is EXTREMELY consistent throughout the whole series and that’s really what makes it effective for me and why im still invested in this even like six games later
like the vibes stay the same. they dont really stray TOO much. and i think its great how Scott (the creator) tried different things in each game and each game is some iteration of the previous. some work better than others. but the tone is consistent (the humor and horror balance and pace out very well), and the vibes are consistent (the aesthetic remains similar throughout), and the pacing and the way the story and lore is hidden throughout everything is consistent. and i think because of that because it STICKS TRUE TO ITSELF it’s remained an extremely popular and successful franchise
like i said. even in security breach. which is a complete wreck of a project. the lore and shit is still consistent in there (you just have a WAY harder time getting to it because everything else wasn’t optimized), and the pacing is consistent
and like i think also even when the story is done and finished. and it’s like oh just let the franchise die. let it be over. the games still remain successful to me coz of the consistency. you could’ve ended the story there, yes, but you didn’t, you kept adding lore. however you added lore in such a way that was consistent to the way lore was added in the beginning, and you kept your tone and your vibes and your pacing consistent, so any new lore even though pulled out of one’s ass / thin air still fits in completely with the franchise, unlike the way homestuck did it with the epilogues.
ok theyre also just really funny to me. theres this sorta dark humor in there and corporate failure shit going on thats just funny to me actually. i havent really found things this funny in like. a long time in media fr
#thats all#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#is there a tag.#for like??? info? lore?? thoughts??? reviews???#review#do i need more to add to this. iunno#my writing#i think
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hey, i havent been in the cp fandom in ages, but i saw your post about cppses and was curious ? like did anything major happen with them (aside from ykno. cpr) ?
well! first i will preface with a few things.
this is my opinion on the subject and i'm not likely to change it so for anyone looking to debate in my inbox or replies.
since i have a very...negative opinion on this situation, i'll put this on a readmore. if you don't want to see that towards cpl post shutdown or in general don't read further.
so! club penguin legacy shut down. which was basically one of the more popular cppses post cpr's shutdown, though it didn't have nearly as many players at the time of it's closure.
disney came for them with a dmca recently and while their twitter page currently says theyre "temporarily paused" theyre still offline as of now.
i have my suspicions as to why. theres a reason why ttr, the biggest toontown server out there doesn't take donations after all.
my friend @/selfawarecobalt aka ben also worked with them and is fine with me saying it here so i will mention he didn't enjoy his time as an artist by the time he quit at all (months before this). when we talked about his experiences working for them, he mentioned a godawful lack of communication and not being considered "real" staff despite making free art for them. so the fact that he too had a crummy experience leaves More of a bad taste in my mouth.
anyways cpl (as i mentioned a while ago on my nowadays sporadically active main) started acting like they were a brand, and used official staff names from #waddleon skits. and genuinely, i have never seen a cpps EVER call themself a brand. or have a page for parents...like a real version of club penguin would. i've also had Other issues on a more personal level like being harrassed for criticizing things in their discord server, and seeing how the community treated some nonbinary characters and sometimes real nonbinary people raised my hackles too.
i could go on about my feelings but honestly? cpls not worth my time anymore. most cppses aren't worth my time anymore. i told myself a while ago when cpr closed that i wasnt gonna sit here and let cppses dictate how i feel about the real game, and i wont! other than a small handful of cppses i feel some level of fondness for (cp3d, cpr, vintage penguin) or am cautiously interested in (super penguin/scp's rehaul) i feel completely and utterly Nothing towards cppses. and the ones i dont feel nothing towards, i feel Annoyance. and so, after being informed a cpps recently made a tumblr account i drew gun scrabble to make my stance clear: i do Not want my art associated with cppses if i can help it unless I go out of my way to make art for them!
that, and honestly? most cppses are just too stressful to be worth playing anymore, at least for me. you're either anxiously waiting for disney to kill it, or youre dealing with a volatile community. i have much more fun thinking about and rotating my penguin ocs (and canon characters but i Especially love my silly noncanon birds and "birds" <3) than i have playing cppses since well...when cpr closed!
tldr: cpl closed, presumably due to their patreon and acting increasingly more like a brand/corporate entity and not a fangame. local bird drawing nerd learned to stop worrying about cppses and Enjoy the fanart and ocs they make instead
#no reblogs since this is an oc blog <3 and also i am not dealing with this drama again after the First time i talked about them beyond#odd gameplay decisions
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hiya! im a very big fan of ur fics, ur writing is like omnomnom!! i rerereread them so often ive basically memorised half of them (especially get in loser i love it so much especially the little almost asides freelancer has like certain moments where its like not quite breaking the fourth wall theyre like. brushing it with the tips of their fingers). IDK sorry to ramble but; may i request directors commentary on either kingdom come (why those four, of all people?) or one more paradox (incoherent wailing, from me). thanks!! have a nice timezone :]
im so sorry. IM SO SORRY ITS SO LATE 🫠🫠 i have not been well for a little while and i've been rushing around trying to get shit sorted for the start of term, so it's all just been a bit of a mess
i've done kingdom come for you - i do hope that's alright! and a lovely timezone to you, too 💕💕
why those four? to be totally honest, it’s just because they’re hot lol 🤩🤩 it is a long-held hc for me that gavin and vincent deserve to be besties, and the gn gals and i were chatting on discord about fl, gavin, lovely, and vincent going on a double date and all being so handsy with each other that it was impossible to tell who was actually going out with who?? so i just kind of jumped into a new google doc and mocked up a very short sequence based on that conversation, which ended up being used basically verbatim as the opening to kingdom come - it’s up to the bit where freelancer says “I think you can manage that, can’t you?”!
can’t lie, it was both more and less difficult than i expected? it was hard because obviously i couldn’t really describe freelancer or lovely’s bodies in detail - it’s hard enough with just one listener in the scene! plus, keeping track of four different people in something as descriptive and physical as a sex scene is always a nightmare. you have to keep track of (and describe!) what everyone is doing all at the same time without getting too repetitive, make sure that it’s clear who is doing/saying what (very complicated when two of them use he/him and have the same, uh, hardware, while the other two are in they/them and can’t have their bodies described basically at all), make sure that the positions you’re describing are physically possible and actually sexy… it’s a lot!
gavin and vincent are so fun to write, though, so that more than made up for it - both of them just seem to… talk? like, if any other fic writers are reading this, please do let me know if this also happens to you - but whenever i write them, they just spout dialogue like it’s going out of fashion, and i end up just being dragged along through the scene however they want, rather than how i planned it 😭😭 so yes it was tough, but a lot of fun to write - although i will say that there was a rather embarrassing incident regarding the dialogue [head in hands]
so, in order to make sure that my dialogue sounds at least faintly realistic and isn’t too stilted, i generally tend to read it out loud to myself? like, verbatim? hearing it in my own voice helps to figure out if it sounds too unnatural, which i am aware is also why sometimes my characters will say something that’s a bit too british for the source material, but whatever.
the important part is that i was living in halls (student accommodation) when i was writing this fic, and the soundproofing on my door was… not excellent?? i had just finished ‘dialogue testing’ and opened the door to go and get a drink of water from the kitchen, when i ran face-first into one of my flatmates from the bedroom opposite mine, who had clearly been standing there waiting for a friend and had obviously just HEARD ME saying all of this… needless to say he did not make eye contact with me for some time after that and we do not keep in touch lmao
all four of them make reference to the events of this fic being one of many, um, dalliances - this is really just because i think it sounds like the sort of thing they would do! they all seem like they would be good friends - you already know how i feel about gavin and vincent, and i reckon lovely and freelancer would get on like a house on fire. let them have a rapport! let them go on cute double dates and take holidays together and plan surprise parties for each other! this is my agenda!
the whole vibe of this fic was intended to be satisfyingly filthy yet still very very sweet, and i think it works? i certainly hope it works? it is a CRIME that we have yet to have a canon audio with gavin and vincent together :((
#redacted asmr#ooh a game!#ginger speaks to lovely blogs#i have not been very well for the last few days and its really fucked me up i do apologise#i don't usually tend to get ill so when i do i am absolutely MISERABLE#i am a bit better today so hopefully should be fixed up by tomorrow or the day after#i do love this fic so much it is so [chefs kiss] in my brain#god i remember telling discord abt the flatmate thing as it was happening#MOST MORTIFYING EXPERIENCE ON EARTH#poor nick i do feel a bit bad#in hindsight it is very funny but at the time i wanted to DIE
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Give me A D and L of your Twisted OCs do it
ty for always enabling me and my twst crimes despite not twsting yourself kjdsfj 🧡
also tagging @cosmiccoincidence ty for the double enabling WOO
ok here's the sketchy whatever i did 2night, was gonna do some basic colors but i got sleeeepyyyy so maybe tomorrow ill do that lol
HEHFHSFEHFJK anyway. alda beloved none of this will make sense to u so ill try to give spark notes explanations as i go but. these two goobers are rsa [royal sword academy - the rival school that seems to be more based on the Good Guy™ disney characters rather than the main school's villains lol] students.
the very short summary is guy on left (Char - I looked thru sooo many names for him and that's the one i ended up on lol. some twst names are really on the nose like VIL for the EVIL QUEEN so why cant i use char!) is cater diamond's [a canon character who's said to have moved around a lot] childhood friend from when they were like 5 but lost contact w/him. Dañarte (literally not a name. it's spanish for 'hurt you' and it only came up/his existence spawns from a typo turned autocorrect in a message i was sending my frined and we just kept it for funsies and i made a character out of it lol 😭) is his shady cousin that has a charming friendly appearance but is going to cause problems on purpose bc hes a bitter baby or whatever.
i have a lot more details w/them and their connection with BESTIE CATER but that's not what the ask was about so i will HOLD BACK!!! for now.
ok answering the actual questions under a cut bc blahblahblahblah
A) Why are you excited about this character?
because!!! i see a lot of people make really creative twst ocs based off other disney characters and i think that's SO FUN!!!! i dont really think i myself am very creative of a person, but this was something i kinda got to have fun with. i had the initial thought with char based off one random fanart I saw like forever ago, so i borrowed the starting idea and then just completely ran off with it to do my own thing, SPIN MY OWN WEB!!!! [i think the fanart was like, just some random rsa guy recognizing cater; it was japanese fanart so i had limited google translate on my side - idr if the childhood friend thing was part of it or if that's just a thing my brain decided to fill in the blanks?? anyway i went from there / designed my own random guy / started LORE BUILDING and EXPANDING]
also their involvement is very much a soap opera esque TEEN ROMANCE DRAMA which i think is funny. a lot of this came from just talking to my friend in discord cuz there was no engtwst at the time and she was the only person i knew that i could talk to about twst, so even tho these are my characters, it's something that spawned from me going ham in our discord messages and us bouncing ideas off each other and just havin private fun. unrestrained goofs!!!
D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?
HMMMM well according to all the doodles i'd compiled in one spot, it does look like i just went with my initial ideas for both of em and kept it. they r not that deeply thought out bc i am Not much of a designer - god bless the school uniform i could steal so i didnt have to come up w/clothes kfjlsdf. and tbh theyre pretty basic right now so for all i know, maybe this is the prototype. maybe they've yet to go through their first evolution. WHO KNOWS!!!! but in their case, their existence came more from the SOAP OPERA DRAMA storyline i came up with, and wasn't so much based on appearance/character design. i mostly just had doodles and sketchy concepts just so i could continue to doodle parts of said story for funsies to send my friend on discord lol
BESTIE THERE IS NO L!!!!! instead of asking u what u meant im just gonna assume u meant I since lowercase L looks like uppercase I 😌 SO YOU'RE GETTING I!!!
I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?
ya lol. this 'story' is very much based off like a few lines of canon lore that i just SPRINTED OFF with. drag and dropping these 2 guys into the story - not really related to much of the main story, but just kinda there to cause more teen drama. for funsies.
ANYWAY THANKS FOR ASKING LOVE U BOTH BYE!!!!!!
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#gaminegay#cosmiccoincidence#asks#twisted wonderland#twst oc#cereal tries to draw#ummmmmmmmmm!!!!!#how come i was trying to be brief and concise and i still Talked So Much#i held back a lot of details. and yet.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#covers my face anyway bed time bye!!!#ocs#oc: char#oc: Dañarte
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pls elaborate on honey this mirror.... the title is increediblyy transgender yeag but im not immediately seeing it in the rest ... u could convince me though i think
Ok so im not going to post a voice note cos i sound literally insane i dont know if i sound any saner now that ive typed it all out but like. HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES SENSE you asked for me to convince you so heres a whole ass mini essay sorry do u still think im hot. this got so long kill me now. ENJOY <33
To preface this: in almost all the songs that i think are about transgenderism, the struggle with gender and identity is often portrayed as a struggle in a relationship with a lover (usually a female lover), which is pretty apparent in drowning lessons + the demolovers in three cheers for sweet revenge, and in this song. At least in my opinion.
so honey this mirror isnt big enough, on a surface level is about a toxic/failing relationship. but like i said i feel like this “other side” of gerard, or of i guess the narrator/singer, the feminine side, the “girl within” is often depicted as a lover or a companion of some sort. the title of this song is what gives it away for me because if u ignore the title then obviously the song is just about a relationship, but because its called honey this mirror isnt big enough for the two of us it feels like gerard is just singing to themself. Its not about any relationship, its about gerards relationship with HIMSELF, or with this other side of him, this other half (the woman in the demolition lovers, the victim in drowning lessons).
Me and ryan did a LOT of trans readings of mcr songs yesterday and the day before, and to like put it down to its essentials: a lot of the songs on bullets + revenge have this idea that theres this “girl” that gerard/the narrator wants to be or is somehow on the inside, and hes scared of her or he sees her as something he must kill or repress. at least at the beginning. which is why in drowning lessons i think the “she” that he kills is himself, and i think this is then repeated in honey this mirror isnt big enough, but instead of it being a murder, hes just trying to break up with her.
ryan put it quite well in this discord message they sent me: “he's pushing the girl out of his mind (out of the mirror)” “like im breaking up with you. we're over. i dont care how much you cry, i dont care how much i mean to you, this time i mean it. we're not doing this again (and then she comes back because she always, always, always comes back)”
honey this mirror really reflects a problem that i think a lot of trans people struggle with at first, which is: if i embrace this side of me, if i come out, it could ruin my relationships with other people. I’ll become a different person, what if they wont love me anymore. so like when gerard says to this “girl” ‘you cant touch my brother / you cant keep my friends’ thats the idea of “shit if im transgender ill lose the people closest to me”, which is depressing but really realistic in that i know ive thought like that a lot in the past. I think he gets past this and thats shown in danger days and hesitant alien (gerards solo album) but i wont go into that now lol.
and then right after that they sing “we’re not working out / this time i mean it / never mind the times ive seen it’, ‘it’ being the times they HAVE worked out. But in this song its like gerard is lying to themself, theyre ignoring the times this “relationship” has made them happy cos theyre letting fear and self hatred drown out the positive emotions this “girl” this “lover” has created in them.
Then the pinnacle to this interpretation is the lyrics ‘well i find it hard to stay / with the words you say / oh baby let me in’. Thats the girl, thats gerards reflection saying ‘let me in’ like: embrace me love me you need me dont let me go dont do this to me dont do this to yourself, which gerard ignores because hes determined to end it. but because the outro is a repeat of ‘oh baby let me in’ i think this is what ryan meant with “she always always always comes back”, just like in drowning lessons “all the times ive killed you”: ive killed you so many times but you come back every time, ive broken up with you so many times but in the end i always let you back in. like this is a constant internal struggle that if you only listen to bullets and revenge seems to have a bad ending, but it actually has a happy ending because eventually gerard/the narrator embraces this woman, this other half, and doesnt regret it.
The end thank you for coming to my ted talk i hope i got my point across. It might be a bit of a stretch but i definitely stand by this interpretation godbles
#i read through everything i wrote like 8 times and still dont know if this makes sense but whatever fuck it we ball. send post#mcr#gerry 🐑#📬
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Secrets of the Ooze: Learnt
Ninja Rap: Witnessed
cannot be said truer than [quoting discord message] "but you dont understand officer the ninja turtles are in those [bad movies] and theyre my friends"
okay. its not a bad movie, they made worse movies then and they certainly make worse now. it just. understood that ninja turtles are so enjoyable you dont necessarily have to like. particularly strong. plots. arcs. stakes. etc so its both a fun movie of fun turtle stuff and also. As a movie. like. What. which i guess is pretty normal sequel behaviour??
New April actor. Sad I liked the last one, she's still good just not as good or like. doing things either in the, reporting ploty sense or the. emotional character work sense. At least no bad vibes romance but thats. Low bar.
Splinter takes the real fucking L. Barely in it. Less like. endearing performance (vocal). Low Dad Energy, does dispense some wisdom to the. Obligatory kid character. And makes his own kids do. time out corner backflips. Does a funny.
Turtles are ofc. Perfect my perfect boys. I love them. Nerfed by. not allowed to, fight using their weapons. sad, except donnie the king (bo staff seen as less violent i guess??). Small mikey reigns supreme, hes perfect. There also a little weaker on the like. Actual team dynamics like. Which like. they're in the theme song u kno? Does leo lead or is he just. the goody goody? Oh well i guess.
Note abt the effects is that, all the faces & splinter puppet seemed. Drier? Wet these beasts. Grime em up. But they do have big cute eyes. so.
Plot tho. What is... the secret of the ooze. Well a scientific company had an accident of chemicals and radiation and fucked up disposing of the waste. ofc. Thats literally it. 15 yr ago Ooze fall in sewer, make turtles and rat Big. Present, The shredder, who was crushed in a garbage truck in the last one. He's back. He got the Ooze. Makes mutants to try and get revenge. Is defeated. end movie. Cowabunga.
The mutants he makes are also not. a rhino and warthog, bebop and rocksteady. Why. Seems like a gimmie?? They're a snapping turtle (cute. to me.) and wolf (not) and they are infact baby mutants. And nothing is done with this fact they just get demutated. Why do we refuse to give the turtles baby siblings. makes me sad every time (common enough tv ep plot).
Oh and Ninja rap. The entire climax fight does happen and like mr. ice is just there. Ninja rap.... its okay..... it is fun to say go ninja go ninja go tho.
#some shit#in conclusion: being a turtles fan does make u stonger because i just like the turtles so much. even when the thing is. middling to bad.#not proud of how its gonna be getting to the bay films okay. im sorry.#anyway the real metric for turtle content is not funny to funny and no crying to crying (for the turtles [cause emotional turts is good])#and this is a funny no crying. versus the first one was a funny with crying.#thx 4 coming to the ted talk etc etc. anyway
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have to put it somewhere but in the last 5 years 3 seperate groups of people have decided im the villain and never told me why just iced me out and isolated me and in 2/3 cases i dont think i actually /did/ anything i think its a mix of antiblackness, ableism, and that ive seen them/know that they hurt other ppl very badly.
group 1 was someone who i used to consider a best friend but who soft cut me off when i disliked a partner of theirs, then, when they decided to hate that now ex, they pushed for their ostricization and 'took me back' without apologizing. they refuse to make eyecontact with me and their partner now flatout ignores my existence, even though i literally was the olive branch for this friend to almost every community theyre successful in now (not that they owe me shit for that), and i think its bc im still close w another Black/mixed friend of mine who they hate now bc they called them out on their antiblackness (which they give excuses for why their nonblack ass can get away with it). this person notoriously throws people out and claims 'villain' when ppl get upset at how they treat others as so cruelly disposable, and ive seen it up close and personal even before it was me and i think that also plays into why they treat me lkke this now.
2nd group was my exes friends who only knew me when i was a self destructive alcoholic. i was loud and obnoxious and yeah i had shrapnel (never abusive), but they decided covid, year 3 of my sobriety, that id never changed, ramped up my exes resentment at me for the alcoholic years even after they said theyd forgiven me and were proud of how far id come, and were instrumental in the breakup if that 5 year relationship. even though one of those friends was literally also sober, they just couldnt forgive me for ever having been an alcoholic, i was just worse than all of them i guess.
3rd is a current happening. someone i knew from god 9 years ago, again who i invited into the community when they were new in town (see a pattern?) had their white friend LIE ABOUT NOT ONLY KNOWING ME BUT ME MAKING HER FEEL 'UNSAFE' (IVE NEVER MET THIS WOMAN), to kick me out of a discord all my friends are in, and when ppl challenged that initially, this person had the gall to say that i made them uncomfy, to the point for a while they wouldnt go to POC events i was at. this person who took the side of 2 white boys who isolated me at 19 bc one of them led me on then dated my ex bf (they didnt have to like me, i was FPing the guy, but the isolation and all my friends picking their side still sucked), and then this person went on to be sexually inappropriate and preassurey and crossing boundaries w multiple friends at this point. but i cant hang out where my friends r bc i make this person uncomfy. i think theyre scared id 'out' them as predatory or something (wouldnt w/o permission of vics obvi) and so they paint me as the villain first
and like if i did something wrong let me know so i can leave y alone and fix it (like i did getting sober going to therapy getting on meds ect) im invested in not hurting ppl. but i dont think i ever /actually/ hurt any of these ppl, i think they just benefit from me not being around and are willing to lie and exclude and ostricize to get it. and ik that sounds conspiratory but like. fuck.
#its been so long and ive tried to be nothing but kind to folks#i try rly hard to be a good persob#i feel fucking insane#i feel like im going fucking insane#is anyone gonna stand up for me or am i actually evil andnjust never noticed#abd evetyone knowz#abs they only keep me ae9und bc im entertaining#or a good therapist#or they know ill ride or die and they knownthey may need tonuse that one day#this sounds so self pitying#i promise ik the times i have majorly fuckdf up#there r ppl who dont speak to md for good reason and i respdct rhat and leave them alone#we were all fucked up traumatizdd kids#i just dont think these cases are those#fuck#life and times
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delayed post from 07/10/22 - A weird week: still depressed // might need to get the “hottest girl in rehab” sweatshirt. // modern feminism // why am i attracted to older men i dont even ducking have daddy issues
The last part happened today but i’ll include it into my evenfully unevenful week
i’ve been ridiculously depressed and irritable this week. i havent touched my prescripted medicine and i probably should. i’m in no way getting better.
During the 4th of july, i got into a hugeeee argument with my dad and i ended up staying home and playing roblox w my friends. it was kinda fun, then it all hit me. I’m at home during the 4th of july, doing absolutely nothing. I was bored and depressed. I HAD NOTHING TO DO!! So I ordered some food from grubhub and it made me feel better for a little bit. Then it hit me again. I'm getting fomo. How can i celebrate the 4th. of july? and listen I’m not the most patriotic citizen, and to be honest, i’m not big on independence day. although I am big on the celebrations itself, whether or not i really give a fuck about the reason of the celebration .
i decided to try lsd for the first time, and it was def the most sensational type of high i’ve ever experienced. especially bc it was laced with some other strong ass shit, which i didn't really know until i got tested positive for other stuff. I didn't rly mind tho, i had a good time regardless. My therapist was not happy ofc, so they actually told me that they may have to send me to a 30 day rehabilitation program if things don’t improve within the next week. It’s either that, or I have to stay at a psych ward for 7 days minimum, which isnt as bad, given that it’s so easy to trick them into thinking that you’re doing well within the span of a week. But either way, i’ll be stripped away from any sort of communication with all of you. unless i can memorize all of your number. not tryna do all that.
I'm against it, obviously. I’m functioning! I should be fine.
The reason why i’m not making such a big deal out of this is bc I’m not being too irresponsible with everything. Honestly i really do believe that they’re just trying to profit off of me. No one really knows what to do in those places. None of the staff members really know what they were getting themselves into. If you’re there for the money, why cant you at least try to put some effort on the shit tht you were supposed to do?
if i do end up in one in the future, best believe i’m pulling up in the corniest fit ever
but fr tho i actually have to start putting some effort because i’m not trying to go to some goddamn facility. I have many plans for this summer and living in a place w a bunch of druggiez isnt my thing. if all fails, i hope to be grouped with cool people.
i met someone on roblox, which i’ve spent a few hours with….at night. it was fun okay, and im not for edating, but this is entertaining for me. i wonder how many ppl he’s groomed online. better yet, i wonder how many people get groomed on roblox??? He’s 21 btw i forgot to mention, and yeah he does sound like it. Thats all i can say tho.
The thing is, you’ll never know if your the groomer or the groomee. Edating is so funny to me despite the times that i’ve attempted to do so. I got out of that phase towards the beginning(-ish?) of 9th grade. After that, I’ve just started fishing for some creepy pedos online and i tried to see if i can get money off of them. I found many, but they all wanted my fucking face to be in pictures/videos and they wanted to be able to hear my voice and such, like how desperate can you be? Theyre all really fucking pathetic and it just pissed me off seeing people live like that. Discord users are really something else……..
just dont edate. It's that easy.
One thing that I have noticed is that I kinda have a problem with older men. Why am I writing about this online rather than telling a professional about this? Idk but I just felt like it needs to be talked about. No, I don't have daddy issues, which proves that it's only a common stereotype. Women have such a great amount of power, simply just by existing. Next thing you know, you've hypnotized them into throwing their cash onto you.
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死 ; death ; muerte
it's so cold
warnings — none.
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this is the final brawl—at least it feels like it should be. when i look into takemichis eyes, i can see hes determined to finish this never-ending cycle of self-torture mikey has brought upon himself. if theres anyone in this world that can put an end to his history of dark impulses, im sure its takemichi. its not me, that i know. no matter how long ive been by his side, theres no universe in which i could be remotely helpful to him. the only thing i can do is let him drown me and kill him to set him free. everything we touch dies.
i look at manjiro and i see all i couldve been. theres no other feeling in the world like being sano manjiro. it makes me wonder if im in the wrong here. hes angry and hes confused—rightfully so. why am i so indifferent? shin was also my big brother, kei was also my friend, emma was also my little sister, ken was also my heart. ive been keeping my eyes fixated on making mikey happy for so long that ive forgotten how to care about anyone else. i love all my friends, but all i feel for him becomes discord in my mind and burns stronger. theyre all standing on the side opposite to mine—it seems mikey and i have been misplaced.
im aware of all the mistakes mikey has made. im aware i couldve ended up like him. hes just a kid, lost inside his own mind, victim to his own power. although ive stayed by his side to keep him from derailing any more, i cant hold him up any longer. theres only so much of the weight i can take. i tried to make him happy and i tried to make him mine. im aware of all the mistakes i have made.
i know im just like mikey. i know ive been following in his footsteps, pretending to be taking care of him. ive lost all hes lost. my brother, our brother, our friends, our sister. ive lost him. ive lost mikey, too. im all alone; ive lost manjiro and hes lost me. my love is just as unwanted as his. it hurts to know he loved me more. it was all a waste of my time, it seems, because i suffocated him out of his mind. maybe therell be a lesson under all the blood and corpses when this is through.
the battle is about to start. takemichi will charge forward and hopefully save mikey in a way i never could. i stand behind him and watch it all play out. im no longer needed by his side. hes wasted me; hes killed me.
its so cold.
—あごす (agosu) • 2020
#it's so cold#tokyo revengers#tokrev#sano manjiro#manjiro sano#manjiro sano x reader#sano manjiro x reader#mikey x reader#tokyo revengers x reader#tokrev x reader
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About both 911 and Ted Lasso
911 AND Ted Lasso okay lets go
4 - what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?
i dont generally block people except for like. terf stuff (and bots obviously), so i will say the last straw that made me unfollow someone from 911, which was the amount of discourse they were actively sowing was an absurd amount and there were just some real stone cold takes in there. and i dont think ive unfollowed or blocked anyone from ted lasso but ive heard theres people out there shipping ted and jamie which? i would unfollow and possibly even block for that
5 - worst discord server and why
i have not been in ANY fandom discord servers! so none of them and all of them. shrodingers discord server
8 - common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about
911 - my mutuals are never wrong :) but there is a lot of bobby is eddie's father in law stuff out there that is simply incorrect. they are mirrors and would and do have a relationship outside of buck
ted lasso - that rebecca and ted should have ended up together. i get why people say that. but theyre still wrong. them being friends is better :)
9 - worst part of canon
911 - answered here
ted lasso - the whole last bit of the episode. idk if it was meant to be ted's dream or w/e i just. did not like it. for many reasons. but you'll have to message me again if you want my whole rant as;kldjfal
10 - worst part of fanon
911- all the nonsense about the lawsuit situation. people woobifying buck 'he didn't do anyyyything wrong' YES HE DID! and thats okayyyyy
ted lasso - i dont think im familiar enough with ted lasso fanon to say, i'm not as 'in' the fandom as i am 911
hater asks :)
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