and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)

i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise

Kanako Moonweaver: A Retrospect

In this post, I’ll be taking a look back at Kanako Moonweaver. She is a character I’ve had for two years thus there will be a lot to write about! If you wish to sit down and take a read, then feel free to do so under the cut!

Kanako Moonweaver was a character who I RP’d with for over 2 years of FFXIV. She started out as simply an alt but grew to become my main RP character. Her story started as simple as “She’s a wannabe merchant queen with a fraternal twin sister. She’s stubborn but ambitious!”. Kanako also acted as a major confidence booster for me oocly. She was confident and liked to talk to people; these traits really challenged and pushed me to actually go out and seek people for RP. I made a lot of friends RPing as Kanako and made so many memorable stories. 

The strongest storyline Kanako had which spanned for almost the ENTIRE TWO YEARS was with @of-shadow-and-storm . I still vaguely remember the idea we had for the two of our characters. They met in Limsa and despite Feine essentially blowing her off, she persisted. This would lead to two years of friendship, challenges, strong emotions, and in the end, sadness for the two of them. I am a very emotional person, I have a very difficult time hiding my emotions and often times, my own emotions can be extremely overwhelming. To give you perspective, during some of our rp sessions, I found myself crying because shit was so emotional and tense. It’s crazy to think that we had such strong RP sessions!

She also met @catnip-smuggler-radio (Tray) and @mischiefandmystics (Sun’ra) at around the same time and BOY OH BOY WOULD THEY CHANGE HER! These two saw the transformation from “Kanako Moonweaver” to “Marigold”. The personality change took place after a “wait I should be dead” experience. She took on the moniker of Marigold - the masked vigilante!  It was thanks to Sun’ra and Tray’ju that she realized that she just couldn’t keep such a facade going. This character ark didn’t last long but it was fun while it lasted. Marigold was the first thing I found myself doing a “soft retcon”. I did this mainly just because of the conflicts which occurred and plotholes that were caused. While it is still part of her story, many of the details have kinda been brushed over

The next stage of her life would be with her exposure to smuggling. Well, this happened before she became Marigold but she kinda just slipped back into it after that whole situation. She became exposed to the drug buisness, smuggling, information brokering, and voidsent! Voidsent are  always good! The voidsent subplot also didn’t last very long but it definetly further changed her outlook on life.

What came next would be I think my 2nd longest running rp which last a good 6 months. These six months changed Kanako beyond repair as she became truly trapped under an employer. She became distant, spiteful, and cold. She used her failures in life as strength to keep pushing forward and seek revenge. It was also during this time that I considered her death. I began drafting out a point system. When she hit X amount of points, her mind would be completely broken beyond repair and her main plot to meet her death would begin. Part of this process actually saw the light of day but it was never continued any further. Ties with myself ant the RP were cut for good and I found myself pretty lost and not really sure what to do with Kanako. I established her as an information broker and drug dealer with vast amounts of connections but due to my motivations being so....weakened, I didn’t try and actually go out and seek contacts to let RP flourish.

Coming towards the final months with Kanako, she met Valtemont ( @tiriontrobane ). Well, let me rephrase, she reunited with Tirion as he was an old company mate but the character would soon retire and Valtemont was born. Valtemont would become her lover and truly help her seek change and give her hope. It was during this time that I buried the thoughts of her death, I was happy with where she was. At this point, it was just a matter of reaching out for connections and giving her a real direction. Though, just as things were looking up, I went on hiatus. I needed a break and found myself pretty burned out from rp. What I thought would just be 3 weeks away turned into two or more months away from rp and it just crushed whatever plans Val and I had. We both reached an agreement to let the two characters be married, adopt Sakura as their daughter, and live in the East.

That is where her story ends. Kanako has seen so much in her life and been through so much and thinking about on it all, it makes me so happy that I was able to just experiance it all. From the bottom of my heart, thank you to everyone who I’ve RP’d with and helping making Kanako into who she was. Theres still so much that went on in her life that I didn’t mention here but I wanted to try and keep this post SOMEWHAT short (I still failed). Her story came to a happy end and maybe one day she’ll return, I just don’t forsee it being anytime soon. To show the general changes she went through, here’s a shitty collage I made in about 5 minutes! I couldn’t find any close-ups of what Kanako first looked like, sad.