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tardlard · 19 days

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HELLO GRAVYTRAIN NATION 😁😁(its me im the entirety of gravytrain nation)

#my art #cookie run #cookie run ovenbreak #cr ovenbreak #potato cookie #currant cream cookie #gravytrain #shipping #ship art #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AUGHH #im feeding myself rn #artwork #illustration #rarepair?

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goldenhypen · 7 months

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HELP IM DROWNING IN MY OWN TEARS RN WHAT ARE THESE POSSESSED PICTURES DOING ON MY PINTEREST ⁉️

#the first four should not even be on the internet omg 😭#are those fr im crying 😭#im sorry im literallt saying these shouldn’t be on the internet as i post them myself for even more ppl to see but pls #SOMEBODY HELP MY PINTEREST FEED RN I AM GOING TO BE TRAUMATIZED !!!#em speaks

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ridl · 1 year

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keqing doodles bc i miss her all the time

#keqing #genshin impact #genshin keqing #my art #im in dire need of new keqing images so i have to feed myself asdghsajdk #unfortunately this is all i can offer i dont have a lot of energy rn

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halogalopaghost · 2 months

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#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀#how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia?#and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet).#I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!!#I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

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skitskatdacat63 · 3 months

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I looked forward in a fic I'm reading bcs the authors note was like "it feels bittersweet to finish this fic off" and the last chapter is titled "a year later" I DONT WANNNAAAAAAA STOP WHAT HAPPENS THAT REQUIRES A YEAR LATER UPDATE

#timeskips in fics is like actually the most horrifying thing in the world #<- not in a bad way #in the way that you feel like. oh god. what happens in a year from now. like why is this required #bcs its so often that the two characters seperate or get seperated or smth 😭😭😭#the one time i was reading a fic and the second to last chapter was super traumatic #and then the next chapter started w a time skip and my heart fucking dropped #also i was reading comments on this fic(its from a couple years ago)#and the author was like yeah i probably will make a sequel #and there is no sequel :< so god please end nicely i beg #theres some other fic for this ship i want to reread #because i remember it being good but i can only vaguely remember the ploy #the downside is that whenever i think about some subconscious part of myself gets morose so im worried it will heart break me again 😭😭#but ah man i am rediscovering a prev ship rn and my god am astonished at the quaility of the fics. i am EATING them #its rare for me to get into the mood for long fics but w this im like oh my god please feed me #catie.rambling.txt

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kyuala · 8 months

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#tmi but i've been trying to consume less fanfiction so i dont always resort to escapism and fantasy when real life gets tough but #it's so fucking hard #like i feel so alone w no one to talk to rn and everything is so hard and im having family trouble and the past few weeks have been awful #and allllll i wanna do is read and fantasize abt how ppl from the other side of the world who dont even know i exist would comfort me #or distract myself w other scenarios that will literally never happen n all it does is feed into my discontentment when real life is a bitch #and inevitably fails to match imagination #not only that but it also has a real effect on my real life relationships (or attempts at them) and i know i cant keep going like this #but as someone who's been an avid fanfiction reader for over a decade.... yea it's hard 🤡#this is not a pity party or a cry for help btw i just wanted to get this out and needed to dump it somewhere #feel free to ignore it! or not idk! do what u want #mari.txt #personal #tw negative

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isa-ah · 5 months

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bro my sleep schedule is wrecked. i literally just sleep for 3 to 5 hours whenever. i get sleepy i take a nap. i wake up and its back to doing whatever the fuck. genuinely not even napping at the same times of day its so random i keep forgetting to eat like at ALL.

#my husband scolding me to eat is the only reaosn i even feed myself ever bc i just totally forget #tempted to go back to sleep rn im so tired

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cinna-bunnie · 2 months

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i can hear the frogs ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა ♡⁠ there's this fenced off area nearby with tall grass and a pond in the middle they have to themselves. there are so many of them!

u can hear them in the distance from my back patio but i followed the sound one night and found the source 😌 it's good to hear them again.

#hello spring‚ i see u coming 🙏🏾#i know we're getting out of winter because i can just wear pants in the back now instead of needing like 5 layers for it to be tolerable 💀#y'all i have been SUFFERING 😭#before i started hrt i could b chillin w a frappe in a tshirt in 20°F no problem but that is very not the case anymore lmaoo #rn it's 44° and I'm fine w just my lil jacket 👼🏾#im not sure how cold is “cold” to me actually 🧐#anyways.. i love spring. spring and autumn r my favorite seasons #my favorite part of spring is seeing the transition into it. u know when flowers start budding and ur walks start looking noticably more #vibrant 0: and the different animal sounds and encounters. get a lil boost of energy myself (⁠✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚) spring is lovely!#part of why i like hanging out in the back is bc i genuinely love to watch the seasons go by and participate 😔💕#i feed animals year round! rn the seeds i feed to the birds during the day attract bunnies at night - usually just 1 at a time #and the bunnies attract the dog that's not a dog I've seen twice so far o: interesting stuff!#I'm glad as it ran off after the rabbit it didn't notice me bc it passed by right in front of me 💀 but idk #the other time they were just passing by on the other side here n we noticed each other n locked eyes for a bit then they kept waking #it wasn't threatening or anything but i don't know what they are ૮ – ﻌ–ა hmm. i would love to see them again

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uldahstreetrat · 9 months

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i get so tired watching people fight about the video games i enjoy

#im chronically fucked over here i dont have the energy for yall to be on my front lawn #arguing about not enough representation or the representation being wrong #i dont care if theyre not queer the way you want them to be this game is the only thing keeping me feeding myself rn #i would just sleep all day otherwise

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strwbrymlkshake · 28 days

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I am trying so hard but it still isn't ENOUGH FOR YOU? DON'T YOU SEE HOW HARD I'VE BEEN TRYING?

#mine #normally i've been good about not being too upset over things #but oh fucking boy. okay. im glad people are scared of me #i hope they know that im the only right one in the whole world and they are wrong and are justified for fearing me and im glad my existence #will turn them off from sharing their wrong opinions. but oh FUCKING BOY? ive been sitting here the whole time like oh they hate me #oh they hate me so much they want me to die wahhh and im trying to do all the things they like because im for some reason fucking bothered #by their other opinions. even though the people themselves are useless trash #and oh. like i was suspecting it but its finally confirmed huh??? you all cant fucking stand the sight of me because im right?#you dont understand the truth?? they hated him because he told them the truth? thats me as fuck rn dude #i am literally gracing your eyes with the content i make and basically hand feeding you the correct opinions to have #and yet you still reject them! people just love being stupid unfortunately. i want to kill them all.#i would be so much nicer if you all just agreed with me on the objective truth but unfortunate you have to be stupid #i have graced you with so many GIFTS and protected you from my wrath so many times but you do not even give a fuck #WHY AM I CRYING. YOU ARE ALL SO USELESS WHY AM I CRYING!!! MAYBE ITS BECAUSE YOU DONT AGREE?#i guess im crying because they are all so stupid #so what im saying is its very unfortunate that everyone does not worship me and all my opinions and the world is very hard. yes.#friendship ended with self hatred now delusions of grandeur are my new best friend #even trhing to explain myself makes me sound like a shithead but i swear to fuck if you all just listened to me like youre supposed to #then absolutely nothing would ever go wrong! but you all had to be stupid on purpose! do you like being wrong? whats your problem #explaining all the reasons im RIGHT and yet i still feel bad for having the gall to do so. i shouldnt feel bad. im doing great. youre just #uncomfortable in the fact that YOURE wrong and making me have to accomodate you for your wrongness? tf is that about #okay lunatic rant over i have finished crying ☝️

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six-of-ravens · 10 months

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literally everyone: earthlings is a very heavy, weird read. trigger warnings for everything. no, seriously

me, having read all those posts: wow I can't believe how dark and heavy and incredibly fucked up this book is

#im on page 59 #i have Dead Dove'd myself #gonna persevere tho #also this book is feeding my Mommy Issues whoops #my mom was nowhere as bad as the mom in the book but uh #The Feeling of Doing Everything Right ans Still Not Having Your Parent Believe You're An Even Remotely Competent Human #at least i can look back and go 'ha! it wasn't me after all! she was delusional!!'#i shouldn't joke about that but dark humor is all i have rn

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starredfishing · 4 months

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petsitting and the dog peed on the couch where i sleep. so its 2 am and im doing laundry and trying to get the stain out. to be fair, my fault. i forgot to fill her water dish and she retaliated. i still wanna explode everything w my mind

#starry.txt #hater arc #im so tired i have a headache but i have to stay awake for the laundry.#the whole living room smells like piss rn #mad at myself mostly. hungry and tired. gotta be up in another 5-6 hrs to feed the animals all over

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vamptastic · 7 months

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really truly catastrophically depressed in a way i have not been in living memory. nevertheless i keep trucking.

#ahhh its not that bad im not suicidal at least. had worse when it comes to my mental state.#however. the Symptoms.#ouuuugh the amount of classes i have missed. at least i go to community college rn. all is not lost i think.#genuinely been struggling to get out of bed feed myself clean my place shower etc the past few weeks #which like normally depressive episodes would hinder my ability to do.. maybe half of that. or all of it for a few days only #three weeks of nonfunctioning is... not my usual! but i suppose i normally am obligated to go do things and be around people #and living alone now i can just... not.#idk what im even going to tell my professors. the truth i guess. mentally ill and living alone for the first time. cant be the only one.

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natandacat · 7 months

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btw im feeling a lot today bc my neighbor is having a bbq and i really wanna go but i had to lie and say i was working bc everyone there is a hardcore party goer and theres too many covid cases rn so even in an outdoor setting i would need to mask and that crowd would be super weirded out by my n95 and also it would suck bc i wouldnt even be able to eat. anyway. being at risk is like living in purgatory while 99% of the population literally doesnt care.

#I WANNA DO DRUG WITH MY NEIGHBOR AND INSTEAD I HAVE LONG COVID #i think the universe is spitting on me #the levels of restraint i need to have to remind myself that its not worth it #i kinda have to keep thinking about the infection and the bad relapses #even though its super traumatizing lol #bc if i dont force myself to remember i would just go bar crawling like tonight ngl #but then i remember being too weak to moan #and how terrifying those hours were #i remember the days where ive been too weak to move in my bed too weak to breathe without effort #and it kinda kills the urge lol #but it sucks!!! that i have to think about this all the time!!#i wanna forget those horrible times fr but the pandemic is ongoing #the mental fortitude i need to survive this fr.#just bitching #medical cw #i live alone rn i cant have a big PEM im not doing another survival week unable to feed or clean myself #im NOT lol #last year was harrowing and this time around i am more prepared and i WILL not end up at the bottom of the hole again #sorry i need to give myself this pep talk bc i hear the music outside and fuck i wanna drink and smoke weed 😔😔😔😔😔😔

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nicepersondisorder · 8 months

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anxiety! 🥳🥳🥳🥳

#i hope i'll be able to get gome without hiding in some dark alley and hyperventilating LMAO #i dont even know why im so anxious rn its stupid #im gonna try to distract myself but thatll probably wont work #UGHh i alsl need to feed my cat meds bruhhhhh #can i just sleep until the next meeting w friends 💔#☆.txt

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maraeffect · 8 months

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i keep trying to remind myself that it's only my 2nd full day home from the hospital, and that i won't feel like this forever. but holy shit. this is fucking torturous.

#things i learned from cycle 1 of the clinical trial: i cant do this trial.#i can't do anything. if i didn't live with someone i wouldn't feel safe being home.#i cant feed myself. fill my own water bottle. brush my teeth. wash my face. shower. remember medicine.#my insides are swollen so every breath hurts. so I take small sips of air instead and feel like im suffocating #i can't answer text messages from my friends or family no matter how close they are #it's all so much #at some point I'll be glad that i at least tried but. RN I'm regretting it so badly #i wish i could sleep through the next 4 days so i could hopefully skip this awful limbo state #im awake and im home but i feel like a fucking zombie lugging around a painful corpse #this all goes without mentioning that i obviously cant do grooming tasks either so i just feel ugly and not like myself.#ugh #negative #round 2 #chatter

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