#idk what it is exactly
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Steve Harrington, when he was a kid, was always told off by his parents for being a bad Alpha - too kind, caring, nurturing, soft.
So he learned to hide that part of himself away, to only show the parts that were “good Alpha”. After all, he was also confident and charismatic, he was competitive, others flocked to him, he easily took charge and he was naturally protective.
But it felt hollow, empty, because he was still hiding away such a big part of himself. Unconsciously, he amped up what was allowed, to fill the holes of what wasn’t allowed. Confidence became cockiness, competition became aggression, taking charge became domineering, and before he knew it, he was in over his head at the top of the social food chain with a vicious pair of Alphas by his side.
But his parents approved, and Carol and Tommy praised him, and he felt accepted by them, even if it came with the unease of knowing that it wasn’t all of him that they accepted.
And then came Nancy. With Nancy he was allowed to be soft, kind. And though Tommy and Carol mocked her uptight personality and nerdy ways, they didn’t turn on him for his softness with her.
So Steve found the one place an Alpha was allowed to be gentle and caring - with a prospective mate. And finally, allowed to express all of himself, he could scale back the overcompensation in other areas. He finally felt balanced, whole, even if the times where he was allowed to be his authentic self were relegated to when he was with Nancy. It was the most he’d ever had, and he was the happiest he’d ever been.
Then it all fell apart. The world ripped apart and took away Nancy, his relationship, his happiness with it. Steve was left reeling, grieving his relationship, his love, his safe space.
Faced again with the expectation of only showing strength, assertiveness, leadership, and never sweetness, caring, or kindness, Steve felt lost. He needed to get his relationship back if he was to have any hope of being happy.
That plan also went to shit, and suddenly Steve found himself in charge of a pack of pups. And protecting them felt good, but afterwards Steve also felt the urge to care for them. And to his surprise, they let him. They didn’t tell him off for acting like an omega, not even Nancys little brother.
Back at school, Steve felt like he’d been thrown into cold water. He was disillusioned with the social role he played, with the emptiness he felt in his life after the joy and affirmation of his relationship and then the same given to him from the pups. The acceptance he got from his parents and friends now rang hollow, empty.
And for the first time, he started to think that maybe it was all bullshit. Maybe his parents’ idea of what made a ‘good Alpha’ was bullshit, what his peers thought was acceptable Alpha behaviour was bullshit, the idea that he could only truly be himself with his mate was bullshit.
Steve decided he needed a different perspective. So one day, he wanted confidently into the cafeteria and sat himself down at the table of the one person that was scorned and derided by the entire school, most of the town even, for his refusal to play along with the bullshit. The one he has spent the past few years hearing Tommy and Carol, and others, deriding as a ‘bad Omega’. Eddie Munson.
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Eddie Munson had never been a ‘good Omega’. He was too brash, too bold, loud, annoying, and confrontational. That on top of being ‘low-class trailer trash’… well, he never stood a chance.
When he was younger, it hurt. Never being enough, never measuring up. Not to his parents, not to his peers, not to strangers he met in the street.
Every thing wrong with him was met with derision, and every glimpse of what the world deemed he should be was held against him.
Eventually, Eddie learnt to protect himself, to lean into his “freak” persona. If they were going to reject him anyway, better it be on his terms, because he only presented a self that went against the grain and demanded to be rejected.
So Eddie put away his softer sides, the sweetness and nurturing, anything that society said an Omega should be, and leaned harder into his louder, brusquer, more combative side.
It helped, facing the rejection from the town and knowing that of course they would respond that way to him - it was only to be expected. But it was still hard, not being able to fully be himself. It would bleed out sometimes, leaving him feeling raw and exposed.
He channeled it the best way he knew how. His impulses to nurture and care were turned to leading and protecting instead. Not the same, not giving him everything he needed, but giving him enough to scrape by.
Still, he didn’t feel fulfilled, didn’t feel real, and it chafed. He grew bitter, more combative, particularly toward those that could seamlessly fit into the role deemed for them. It wasn’t fair that some were rewarded simply for existing while he and his ilk were scorned for the very same, and he made sure everyone knew it.
He’d kind of figured he was screaming to the void, until one day the unthinkable happened. Steve Harrington, King of Hawkins High and Alpha of Alphas, sat down at his lunch table and said “So…what’s this about forced conformity?”
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And then Eddie helps Steve become more comfortable with the ‘nonconforming’ parts of himself, and Steve helps Eddie accept the more ‘conforming’ parts of himself, and they fall in love kiss kiss the end
#steddie#stranger things#Steve Harrington#Eddie Munson#a/b/o steddie#a/b/o dynamics#a/b/o#alpha steve harrington#omega eddie munson#fic#ficlet#prompt#idk what it is exactly#it started as a prompt and then I outlined it or something????#anyway feel free to write it more as always
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Hi yeah as you can tell I've fallen off the ffxivwrite wagon, there's just too much going on in my brain lately due to Life Stuff idk how to write
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"He lost him, but he found himself."
To celebrate the release of Taylor Swift's 1989 (Taylor's Version) album, I did a quick art of Dazai.
#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#there's no shading because it'll take even longer#i'm still learning how to render#idk what it is exactly#if you see what i did there thank you#out of the woods#dazai osamu fanart#bsd fanart
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the couple in guernesy are cute! but lacking a certain something for me.
#seems like a Maria couple. Is not#idk what it is exactly#and I do think it’s just preference! not a failing#they’re valid (enough)#but there is something they don’t have that I need them to have#favorite moment still the Mark/Juliet breakup!#the humanity and the pathos and the humor#posts NO ONE needed but I can’t sleep. Mind is racing etc.
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It’s so nice having blorbos who are your age or even older than you. It’s great lol
#idk what it is exactly#something about being in the same stage of life and finding that relatable#(or a similar stage of life)#also a good reminder that being a teenager or in your early twenties isn’t like. the most interesting or story-worthy time of you life#*your life
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I love when arthropods have a pseudopupil. It's so whimsical and cute, and they come in so many varieties!!
little kitty cat eyes!!!
bombastic side eyes!!!!
cartoon character eyes!!!!
bigass anime eyes!!!!!
BE NOT AFRAID eyes!!!!!
#biology#arthropods#crustaceans#insects#crab#praying mantis#grasshopper#damselfly#butterfly#sorry i just googles -athropod name- eyes#so im not sure exactly what species these bugs are (yes crabs is bugs)#honestly im not sure if thats actually a praying mantis#it could just be like. a regular mantis#who cares anyway pseudopupils are so fucking cool!!!!!!!#i ESPECIALLY love damselflies they are so fucking cute and have no right to be that way#also grasshoppers have such funny faces#they all remind me of like. distinguished and rotund victorian gentleman. no idk why that is
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SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.
#simon petrikov#fionna and cake#adventure time#goin insane over him#thers no words to describe how im feelin#i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE#FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED.#ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO???????#ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P#IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH#SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP.#also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake#which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk#ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help#ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER.#im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help#maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.
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There's something on this ship that's so bad the TARDIS ran away?
#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#wild blue yonder spoilers#14th doctor#donna noble#hey guys did we all have fun with the episode haha!!!!#im really proud of this u should reblog it. <3#cw body horror#cw scopophobia#im not sure this is body horror exactly but people arent usually that big and idk what else to call it#pats art#patsart#Doctor who fanart
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reblog if you either eat at least one of the following:
toilet paper
drywall
pineapple on pizza
human skin
pussy
but no one is able to guess which
#btw i eat exactly 2 of the following#cw suggestive#cw genitalia mention#cw slight cannibalism#pineapple on pizza#zall of shame#text post#shitpost#reblog game#idk what else to tag
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aaaaand done!
hobieposes 4 u <3
some ppl seemed to like the sketch i posted and then deleted so here u go ↓
#mine#spiderverse#hobie brown#spider punk#yippee i finished!#idk if it lives up to expectations exactly but meh fuck it#also i wanted to finish this by may day but. welp#better late than never i guess? 😅#also if u recognize some poses yes. i did swipe some from miles and miles42's concept art as well#and the symbols used are anarchist symbols: chaos symbol. iww symbol. antifascist symbol.#ye!! ♡#i had fun doodling these but then ofc inking and coloring had to be STRESSFUL af bc duh 🙄#dont work with oil paint pens if you know whats good for you#but im glad i finally found a good use for my patterned card stock and 1 million receipts i had lyin around#thank u hobie brown 🫶#hobie helps me clear the clutter of paper i have stacked on my desk lmfao
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would you consider yourself a gimmick blog.
oh yes absolutely
#bc why not lmaooo#tbh idk what exactly qualifies as a gimmick blog#but sure i’ll consider myself one lmaoo#ask#the hellsite answers#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit#hellsite hall of fame curators bullshit
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girl experiences gender euphoria and is immediately slammed by grief
for @litttlittt <3. this was supposed to be a portrait of caroline hill, but litta mentioned tim looking like janet when dressed as caroline and identity issues and angst and things spiraled
something about tim not knowing if he's his mother's child or bruce's or neither's.
figuring out the looks:
i wanted janet to have that poofy 70s hair
#tim drake#dc#bruce wayne#janet drake#sart#i'm picturing this as transfemme tim hence “he” and also compounding issues about bruce treating him as a daughter#which is exactly the gender validation tim wants and needs but isnt sure he deserves#but this also definitely works for trans tim#she gets to process that she looks like her mom!! and her mom will never get to know her daughter#would she have wanted to know her daughter? even though she showered tim with love when she was around#she barely knew her son#gender idk he's a girl 👍 hope that helps#i went down a rabbit hole looking up vintage dior necklaces -- hopefully something martha wayne wouldve worn#-- but dior necklaces are COMPLICATED#i almost drew pearls but i think that wouldve been too cruel to bruce lol#(a decent amount of my art--even when it's not femme tim--gets tagged 'gender' and i dont know what im going but im glad 👍)
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sometimes being a matz stan makes me feel like im losing it
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Hoodie Buddies 🍧🦁
I know lion boy looks like a beyblade mc but idc i like him, i hope he is friends with chongyun🥹💙
#genshin impact#gaming genshin#chongyun#idraw#not exactly a ship i will for his personality first#from what some cn players have said#he has a pretty common name and its cantonese#idk if its wrong to write Ga-ming so pls lmk#its the same with sundayhsr#such an unfortunate name choice#1k
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l want to do something big and something important.
You know, George, l feel that, in a small way, we're doing something important, satisfying a fundamental urge. lt's deep in the race for a man to want his own roof and walls and fireplace. And we're helping him get those things. [...]
Pop, you want a shock? l think you're a great guy.
#it's a wonderful life#filmedit#filmgifs#moviegifs#classicfilmsource#iawledit#gifs*#just something about the way that he always thought his dad was the best#for doing exactly what he himself ended up doing#but he never recognized that in himself#idk i can't put it into words but it wrecks me
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["....And there is a certain Hunger within him, that is difficult to satiate.."]
#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#true form sukuna#og sukuna#heian era#jjk sukuna#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fan art#my art#painting#jjk art#I honestly dunno what exactly i've done here but i've done it#kinda got a lil inspired by amazing jjk artists that render detailed paintings and decided i should try and slowly improve my coloring too#throw him a piece of meat and he'll be satiated for the moment don't take the caption too seriously lol#He's such a big foodie he's just like me fr frr#anywhos i hope you like my rendering! :D Because im idk bout it heh
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