#idk is it good im taping it but i feel like my head is going to explode maybe i should just go to sleep
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bob odenkirk, andrew garfield, and jeremy allen white win golden globes or i don't go to work tomorrow
#personal thingys#either way i win#idk is it good im taping it but i feel like my head is going to explode maybe i should just go to sleep
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Hii! I’d love to see some slasher possessive tendencies (nothing dramatic, just small things that show how obsessed they are with their s/o). And I’d love to see Brahms included please and thank you! 👀💕
Ello! Most of slashers are incredibly possessive😭 good luck with that.
Gender neutral s/o!
Slashers being obsessive and possessive of their s/o
Brahms
Physical touch. His hands are always on them. ESPECIALLY around when yall are around other people. Others have to know that they are together!!!
Goes with s/o EVERYTHERE. They must go to shop with them! Wanna go outside and walk in peace and silence in garden? Uhh nah he wanna go with you! Even if s/o asks nicley to leave tjem be he might spy on them :[
Will share everything with s/o! His clothes? Our clothes you mean! Please wear his shirts! Its also vice versa, s/o's jewellery and clothes are also his. They gonna catch him using their favourite cologne or wearing their jewellery!
Wants to hold hands 24/7, doesnt care if s/o sweats! He loves them too much~
Sometimes s/o can wake up and this guy will be glued to them! Im taking wrapped arms and legs around them and s/o can feel his chest moving up cuz its so close😭
Asa Emory
Bro is not letting them leave his warehouse. Yeah sweetie he loves you but you are just too too perfect for him to let you go :[
Bonds by watching animal documentaries about bugs btw
Picks clothes for s/o. He takes your style and preferences in his mind but usually forgets and just buys what would look good on you (at least what he finds cute)
Not very clingy
Lets them paint his nails if they are nice enough
EXTREMELY jelous. S/o mentioned that some guy smiled to them when they were buying groceries? He will get offended😭
The hush
8 years later and I still have no clue what his name was??? Let's call him John because people seem to call him that
John will keep his hand AND eyes on them. Hands on their legs, shoulder, or just holding their hand (thats rare, normal affection with this Goober? Nahh)
Constantly staring at them, looming around and looking what they lover is up to (up to no good surely)
Makes them play video games with him or watch them play
Checks their phone when they are asleep cuz he gotta know everything
Micheal Myers
👁👁
No touching, no verbal nor physical affecion
Dude will hit them with 👍 on daily basis
He seems like he doesnt care, like he has them around for no reason. But of God, this guy knows everything about them. He watches them daily. You can't find Micheal? Oh dont worry sweetie he is keeping you safe, just dont look thrue window :3
Extreme jelousy, s/o can bearly talk to people😭
Okay okay I lied with no touching, its just rare! Sometimes he rests his head on top of theirs or puts his hands on their shoulders or hips
If s/o makes something from him (like drawing, peace of jewellery. Hell, even if they gift him random rock or something) that dude if gonna wear it till the end of the world, even if it breaks off? He has pockets or tape. Even if s/o skill improved and they made better? The more the marrier, he wants all!
Billy Lenz
Gets jelous when s/o gives too much affection and love to their pet
Lays on top of them
Bites, licks, woofs? As a sign of affection and love
He wants the bite marks or Hickeys to be visable so s/o friends know that they are taken!
Not as extreme as Micheal or Asa. S/o could have 2week trip to Egypt and as far as he gets to call them whenever he wants, he is fine
I still remember one time that someone requested Billy Lenz fic, asking for 'sloppy toppy' and it was 4 am and I didnt know what it was so I googled it and I kinda laughed very loudly and my mom woke up and took my pc away for month :( I wrote the fic btw
Anyways, barks at people when he gets jelous
Some of their behaviours might sound toxic or are literal red flag, but POOKIE THOSE ARE MURDERS😭🙏😱 idk if I still got the skill to write, it was a wild 8month break
#slasher x reader#slasher headcanons#billy lenz#billy lenz x reader#micheal myers#brahms heelsire#brahms x reader#micheal myers x reader#asa emory x reader#the collector x reader
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okau i know u already did these but can u do more nsfw hcs for nika???
✧.* - smutty nika hcs
warnings: this whole thing is literally smut sooo… 18+
afab!r
a/n: im havin fun with these ngl… if anything is repeated from the og hcs im sorry!!!! got carried away and some of my thoughts r sprinkled around here
MUNCHHHHHH
she gets off on eating you out i swear
nika got a pussy eater jaw too
i think its because you squeeze your thighs around her head
she likes it
i said this the last time but your pleasure matters more to her than her own
100% a titty girl like i can see it
LOVE LOVE LOVESSS THEM
like during sex she’ll cup them any chance she gets
an ass girl too
stares at em in public w no shame and grabs at your butt when she can 😭
veryyy vocal
lots of huffing and puffing when it comes to her
whiner and whimperer when she hears you getting more comfortable abt the noises you’re making
loves when you moan her name don’t even get me started
grunts too fosho
i think she’d talk in croatian too and it turns you AWNNNNNNNN
“ljubavi” “moj anđele” “dušo” “dobra cura”
dirty talks in croatian too but idk how to translate that.
she’d dom half of the time but if you wanna dom she’ll gladly oblige
strap game is crazy
totally does that thing where she teases you really slowly then js plunges into you
😩😩😩😫
never rough unless asked but if she’s angry or upset she’ll go WILLDDDDD
call me crazy but she’d def like it if you bit…
i think she’d be the hardest teaser ever
esp in public.
if you’re really feeling it when you two are out she can tell
its like her superpower
uses it against you too cs she doesn’t wanna let you get it easy
her fingers are running up and down your thighs and shes always getting sooo close it fucks you up every time
she gets you WET w one touch its actually crazy
if you were touch deprived it’d be even worse too like if she brushed her lips up against you and breathed on your skin js a lil you’d FREEAK
freak as in you’d be SOOOOAKKED
please tell me you guys think she’d wanna film sex tapes
JUST FOR YOU TWO ONLY THO
she a secret freak for those
i think arguments would lead into rlly fucking hot angry sex
but she initiates the intimacy first after bc she knows you’re def not gonna be in the mood to do so
honestly it starts w really small touches to the arm while you two yell back and forth
the next thing you know you two are fucking on the kitchen counter 😭
or she has to literally manhandle you onto the bed and fucks you there instead 🥸
uses the strap durin that too u can’t tell me otherwise
i think if you got really horny in public out of nowhere she’d take care of it for you IMMEDIATELYYYY
the family restrooms.
or the car
CAR SEX IS HER THINGGGGG ALSO
you guys could be in the car while on a roadtrip and she’ll find a way to sneak a hand onto you to make you feel good 🤫
def eats you out in the backseat too
say its your first time
definitely takes it as slowwww as you need her to be
offers to just use her hands or something first so that you get used to it
but if you wanna like go rlly far for the first time she’ll do it for sure as long as you’re comfy
she loves when you touch her abs it turns her on 😫
makes you ride em for sure cs she fucking loves when they’re glistening in your cum
makes you lick it up CLEAN after too w your tongue
WOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME OMG
she’s a switch
power bottom and soft dom
super slow when she tops you
but she lovesss when you’re riding her strap too its her fav thing next to the ab riding
ouhhhh she loves eye contact
her eyes r so beautiful like
they get all predatory when she’s fucking you its so sexy
also when she gives you the fuck me eyes i think she means it in the opposite way
meaning she wants to fuck you
cowgirl is her fav position don’tttt play
again shes a titty girl
she loves looking at them bounce.
she doesn’t bother to get fully undressed cause it shows she cares more about you
okay im done thanks.
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A Day at quadrant: LN4 (Part 2)
Author note: I don’t even know how to post anything on this and never wrote a fic but I hope this is good but I think it’s pretty shit and I haven’t finished it yet and if any writers want to use this idea you can for sure just @ me please oh and if you have feedback please let me know thanks xx
Also i tried to change my like writing style thing cause i feel like it was shit last time but yeah idk
Lando x quadrant fem reader
Blurb: reader is a member of quadrant, she games most of the time but also likes f1 along with her best friend Ria bish. She is friends with all members at quadrant and finds it a good laugh with all her mates, but maybe her view of someone in particular is more than a mate..
Warnings: sexualising, swearing, mention of a gun, leaked tape, sad distraught reader, friends to maybe lovers if I make it a series? Smut-ish? If I missed any let me know (I don’t know how to do warnings sorry x)
Well wasn't last week a fucking eventful week. You still cant stop thinking about Lando right next to you comforting you about what happened. You're starting to feel better about the whole issue and get some support from people online and all the other members of quadrant, but fuck that was just shit. You haven't been in any quadrant videos since, but you're in a better place now and probably need to start participating in them more.
Lando and ethan make the idea of quadrant meeting up at landos apartment and trying to train like him for a day. You aren't exactly looking foward to it but oh well, at least Ria is going. You text your gc back and tell them that you will do it too. Then, you get a message.
Lando: are you 100% sure ur okay to come back and film already? you dont have to if you dont want to.
Y/n: yep. I need to get in more videos and im feeling better anyways, thanks for asking.
Lando: all good
Well that was polite and unexpected of Lando to reach out, but whats more unexpected is for your panties to be soaked right now over 2 text messages. well fuck, oopsies.
That night all you can think of is Lando, it's a bit embarrassing to admit, but he was circling around your head like it was an f1 race. You decide to get your head out of it and call Ria to come over and have a chat, since she is your best friend after all. Shortly she pulls up to your apartment in Monaco, funning in bursting of excitement to see you.
"RIAAAAAAA!" you shout when you open the door for her. "Y/NNNN" she replied back. You give her a hug and make her a cup of coffee just how she likes it. You guys sit and chat about the f1 grand prix in Bahrain coming up, and how you hope Lando continues to have a good season with Oscar this year. "Did you see the chat about the new yt vid we doing" You ask Ria. "omg yes and they are bringing angry ginge in I heard" Ria replies back.
"STOP IT" you yell back laughing. You love ginge and his videos, who wouldn't? he's a very very funny bloke. "OMG i''m definitely coming tomorrow then to the recording are you kidding?".
Unfortunately time goes by when you're having fun, and Ria was the most fun, so she had to go a few hours later which felt like minutes. Besides you both need sleep for the youtube vid you're filming tmr at Lando's. You go to bed and try to sleep as much as you can, which didnt happen lol.
rise and shine love. It's already 6am and time to go to Lando's place to film. Normally you don't have to wakeup early as fuck but for the purpose of the video and "being Lando Norris" you had no choice. You get to his apartment after parking at the front and knock on the door, to which he opens. "hi y/n" he says nicely and gives you a hug. "So good to see you Lando, where is everyone?".
"first here mate" he says almost excitedly. "so what are we actually doing today like playing video games or some shit" you say. "haha your funny mate, we are lifting weights, eating what i eat, using the sim, and neck strengthening" he says laughing at you. "fuck r u taking the piss" you say laughing. "oh my days Landoooo do I look like an f1 driver" you also reply with. "well yeah thats the whole point of the video ya dumb fuck" he replied jokingly.
"hahaha get fucked lando nowins" you snap back. he laughs as you proceed to miss the chair you went to lean on making you flinch and stumble looking like an idiot. he is still laughing which makes you laugh too. "Lando norizz" u reply. "haha you think I have no rizz, funny" he replies egotistically. "yeah i do actually" you don't at all, in fact he hasn't even tried yet he has rizzed you up. "wanna bet?" he snaps out.
you don't have time to think before he pins you against the wall and just looks at you with those hot eyes of his. you can already feel your cheeks burning and your thong getting wet. "you say I have no rizz yet your cheeks are burning, and I bet those panties are more soaked than that porridge you tipped over the counter when you stumbled at my gaze, huh?" he grunts out.
what the fuck just happened, first how did he know and secondly did he just pin you against the wall. not the first time you want that to happen. you know what fuck it if we wants to be like that then he may as well be uncomfortable the whole video.
"how did you know about my tight, black lacy thong i'm wearing over my tight pussy hey? not your first time thinking about it aye?" you tease him, but while walking over to him you see him looking uneasy.
why? because ginge was at the fucking door and heard that, and can see Lando's boner from a mile away. "well bonjour" ginge says laughing. "bonjour mate" lando says as he daps up ginge covering his boner and trying to ignore what just happened.
You already know this video is gonna be the longest set of your life..
sorry its a short one x
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Hello babies!!!💗
Soo i wanted to update you guys about the tapes I've been listening to by @adambja. They've been an holy grail for my journey!!
Soo let's start with the I AM IN CONTROL TAPE(•‿•)
I couldn't listen to it regularly for a week but i listened as much as i could!
Day 1:- I listened to it for like 2 hrs sat in peace and focused on the affirmations. I felt good ...and tbh those audible affirmations make you feel already in control.
Day 2:- Listened for like 1.5 hrs. I felt good while listening but some doubts started to come on surface. But i comforted myself telling that these are just thoughts and i have to let them go now.
Day 3:- I tested out how much am i in control😏. When i sleep for late my aunts wake me up saying it's late. So in the morning when i woke up slightly. I just said they won't say me anything and I'll sleep for however long i can and guess whatt?? No one disturbed me at all and it was the first time😭 i didn't get disturbed! I listened for like an hour.
Day 4:- i Manifested some food that i was craving...first time i Manifested some food tbh😭 i started to gain soo much of confidence i swear im loving it and im in love with adamja!!😭💗
Day 5:- soo we were going to a party and our plan to go got cancelled. I was like no we'll go....I kid you not the very next second my brother came and told us to get ready🤭
I kept listening to the tape on and off till self concept tape came. I didn't listen to it with any intention tbh i just used it for fun with zero expectations. My confidence literally sky rocketed!!😭 I felt soo much in control. All of my intrusive thoughts literally started disappearing. Then came the self concept tape...it was just for three days but I swear the way it changed my thoughts i was shocked!
SELF CONCEPT tape review (•‿•)
I listened to it for 3 hrs for 3 days ... didn't listen it overnight coz im a light sleeper and can't sleep with something playing in the background. This tape is GOLD.
Day 1:- I had a mental breakdown the morning.... literally cried for hrs even tho in my head i was affirming im okay and everything's alright 💀my aunts fucking my head for like 2 3 days. And then came the tape and omgg the moment i started to listen to it.... first of all hearing those affirmations make you soo powerful and then the secret benefits she puts idk i felt soo much at peace and thoughts like "it's all just an illusion....this all doesn't even matter why to cry over it" started coming.
Day 2:- when i woke up i was soo much at peace even tho yesterday was shit for me. And i just decided i want peace. Haven't been this much peace in my house from past 2 3 yrs😭 and oh boy i felt soo detached from the 3d. I was soo happy.
Day 3:- i completely detached from the 3d. Nothing triggered me. And my circumstances don't even matter anymore. All of my desires felt soo natural and i completely detached from the void. I didn't even wavered not at all. Zero doubts. Im completely living in my 4d naturally I don't have to remind myself anymore about fulfilling myself...i a already in the state and i don't feel like doing anything to get my desires. And i just manifested my wifi working properly just by intention! And now ik I'll wake up in the void any time soon!😭 I don't even feel much excited now ... feels like it is a fact already. I've Never felt this much at peace ever!!
I swear guyss these tapes are soo good...god knows how powerful her paid tapes are😭 and ppl who say these are JUST TAPES....NOO THESE ARE SOME MFING HELLA POWERFUL TAPES!! She do have cheaper self concept and void tape too...go for it!! And if you can't then listen to the free tapess!!😭😭 Those are effective....aff.
And if you come at me saying im supporting those high priced tapes and advertising her tapes.
NOO I AM NOT ADVERTISING.... it's my experience try them out yourself and then say something and if she's pricing them that much ofcc it must be having some real powerful stuff(benefits) in it!! No one's forcing you too buy the tapes ....try the free ones!! And i am one of those person who never got any results from subliminals. Soo im soo happy i found these tapes!😭💗
And in the end i really really really wanna thank @adambja for providing us these tapes🫶🏻💗 you are soo kind!! i am soo grateful for having you as my mutual. And we appreciate you soo much for your hardwork. Don't let the hate and mean comments let you down. There are many ppl here who adore you soo much. We all are glad to be a part of the CULT(as haters say lol😭).
-love, bee💗✨
#loassumption#void state#law of assumption#self concept#affirm and persist#master manifestor#void success#affirmations#affirmation tape
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some george fluff, maybe him and reader are childhood friends, or they’re in their school era ( idk if that makes sense💀) and they’re just pining for each other but neither know the feelings are mutual
Heartbreak Girl (George Daniel)
warning: drinking, moshing, smoking, language
note: of course i understand what that means i’m the same bitch who called mattys 2013 tumblr days his ‘small era’ also im starting to realize a lot of you people are british. weird. im from california and in PST but some of you are european or whatever. strange
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the blood is rushing straight to adam's head from where he lays upside down off of y/n's bed. the comforter is pink, mirroring the walls which are the same hue, so him and his leather jacket look out of place. she's sat at a vanity, carefully applying mascara to what's left of her lashes.
"so why are you so against having fun again?" he asks, out of genuine curiosity but it sounds like he's poking fun.
she snaps her head around, hair whipping around at her shoulder. "it's not like that. i'm not against fun. i just had a... thing... the last time i went."
he sits up, twisting upright to lean back on his elbows. "define 'thing.'"
polaroids from over the years are used as cheap decorations in this pink bedroom of hers. they’re taped the walls, tucked into the edges of this vanity mirror, and unbeknownst to anyone else, she hides a few intimate ones under her mattress.
they aren’t dirty or lewd, but they depict george daniel at some of his most beautiful moments, or so she believes, and they’re private enough that she doesn’t want anyone to walk in and see them, so she keeps them private, just for her.
sighing, "it was george," she's interrupted by adam's loud groan of annoyance but continues anyway, "he was just being weird to me. a bit cold, and he was completely sober through it because he was driving home, so it wasn't like 'greening out' kind of weird it was just him being bitchy to me. i'm scared he found out i like him or something, so i've been keeping my distance."
"just avoid him tonight. if he's choosing to be so cold to you, i'm sure he won't seek you out. you'll be fine."
the makeup adds pounds of weight to her face and she feels undesirable, but then again, she feels the same without the makeup, anyway. it’s a way of life to her.
she’s like a little child in her mothers pearls and heels, like an ugly girl in a paper mache head of a pretty one. she’s always wondered where this sprouted from. it’s not like she has some incredibly beautiful sister she’s been compared to, and she was never harshly bullied growing up, or if she was, george would have taken care of it for her. ‘no one makes fun of her but me,’ he would say.
"you're right. when did you get so wise, hann?" she begins applying a wine red lipstick to her lips precariously, when the door to her room is slammed open by ross, who is careless as he stands there. the red leaves a large smudge off of her lips and she turns back to glare at ross.
"you're still going tonight?" he asks, not caring to read any context clues. "nice lipstick, is that how girls are doing it these days?" he laughs cruelly, like a mean older brother. she throws a decorative pillow his way as he laughs himself out of the room.
⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:*⋆.*:･ﾟ .: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆
she hops out of hann's car, doc marten boots clunking on the pavement below. with one quick glance around the landscape of the parking lot, she doesn't see george, which is a good sign, meaning she can proceed with her normal routine, which starts with a cigarette outside.
she started smoking at 16, and now, at 18, she’s more than addicted to it, but it’s just another issue in her life she’ll push aside and never address until it inevitably causes her downfall.
she's adjacent to the entrance, but she always hangs around outside for a few minutes before she buys her ticket and heads inside. cupping her hand around the lighter, the flame flicks into motion and burns the tip of her thumb in the process. a large, looming figure approaches her from her peripheral and it’s roughly six feet and four inches tall and she knows it's already too late.
removing the stick from her mouth as a courtesy, she turns to face george, lazy smile on his face. "i knew i'd find you out here," he grins.
"you found me." she's not sure what his angle is here right now, why he's smiling, why he sought her out after making it abundantly clear the last time they met that he was no friend of hers.
"well, come on, i'll buy your ticket, come," he grabs her by her wrist and she sneaks it out of his grasp but follows him to the entrance table, where one person sits with a cashbox and a marker.
"it's fine, you don't have to," she reaches around to dig cash out of her back pocket but he halts her, again, grabbing her, and she can see now just how drunk he is, he is normally way less handsy when sober.
"no, please, i insist, it's no problem, not when it's you." the words make her tingle in an odd way and she swears to herself every time that its a feeling she will ignore but she never can.
"what's that mean?"
"it means i owe you money, anyway." he hands the cash to the collector and the person draws an x on the back of her right hand with their marker, ensuring her paid entrance.
"hey, i'm gonna... um..." she's pointing to the entrance where she intends on going but george has already gotten distracted in speaking to somebody working at the merch counter. it's whatever. he's always like this, his attention is never long-lasting, and sometimes she swears that's part of the appeal. that he never seems to care too much, he's so nonchalant, like his attention is something she needs to work for, to earn. something about the 'chase' or whatever.
when the 1975 isn't playing a show at this small venue, adam and ross tend to volunteer to work at the functions, doing small things such as selling drinks and snacks, cleaning up here and there, but it's mostly just an excuse to hangout. tonight, adam is selling the snacks and drinks. ross is supposed to be, as well, but he's just eating the snacks, mostly, sitting behind adam so he doesn't have to deal with customers.
"can i get a cup of coffee?" she asks adam, who greets her with a bright smile. his expression is warm, almost apologetic, he's speaking with his eyes, 'how are you doing tonight?' adam is by far her best friend on this earth.
believe it or not, george used to hold that title for years, until she met adam through george a few years ago, and despite him being two years older, the two got along swimmingly, brought even closer once she realized her feelings for george, which ultimately wedged it's way between her friendship with him.
she even dated adam for 2 strange months before they both came to find that they were better off as friends, and they've been even closer ever since.
"ay, is george being a dickhead again?" ross yells from the back, a bag of chips in hand and also filling up his crunching mouth. he has a habit of speaking with his mouth full. "what'd he do. i'll fuck him up if he's been bad again!"
his threats are empty, ross is too much of a lover to be a fighter, and she knows he's just saying it to make her feel better.
"he's fine. it's all fine, stop looking at me, stop worrying about me, i'll survive this tonight, i'm fine." she informs and adam doesn't believe it, his skeptic gaze following her all the way to the couch that's located in the back room.
the show is in between bands right now, with a total of 4 playing tonight. the first one finished up their set a few minutes ago so the stage room consists of one band packing up and the next band setting up to play.
as she sits silently on the couch, sipping away at her coffee, she notices george walk past her, not stopping to talk or sit or even look her way, which is fine, why wouldn't it be? it's not like they're supposed to be friends or anything. right?
he walks past again, looking lost.
the third time he passes, she calls out for him, "g? what are you doing?" he looks genuinely surprised to see her sitting there on the couch, like she's just suddenly gained visibility and she hasn't been sitting on the couch the whole time.
his dopey drunk smile shows up on his handsome face again, curly brown hair in the way of his eyes and he plops his heavy body down next to her on the old couch, making her bounce a bit on the other end. there's only room for two on this couch.
she makes eye contact with adam from across the room, and it's like he can bluetooth connect to her brain just through one thoughtful glance, but through the wireless connection, she informs him that 'its fine,' like that's her new catchphrase for the night. adam nods but doesn't let the two on the couch out of his sight.
"i was looking for you."
"you found me."
"hey, you said that already," he pokes his finger into her cheek and she smiles, bashfully pushing his hand down. "ok wait, when the next band plays will you get up and dance with me?"
"i don't know, are you going to throw me into the pit again, mister?"
he laughs all too loudly for a private conversation, "for the last time, honey, it wasn't me, i swear!"
she huffs, rolling her eyes, "sure, yeah, you just happened to be standing right there with a guilty look on your face. shit hurt, that guy punched me so hard i got a black eye! you remember that?"
he gets silent and still, a little too silent and too still before he suddenly blurts out, "i punched that guy afterwards."
"what?"
"he knew better than that. i wasn't just gonna stand there and watch him push you around like that, it isn't right."
she's blushing now. she wishes she wasn't, but this is the world she lives in. she speaks small, "you didn't have to do that."
"of course i did. that's what friends are for."
"right."
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once they hear the heavy drums introducing the first song of the next bands, george is quickly up on his feet, reaching out his hands for her to grab, and he pulls her up with too much force, sending her flying into him, which she chooses not to discuss as she wordlessly continues next to him over to the stage room.
people have already filed into the room, forming a decent sized crowd, and even aside from the heavy music playing on the stage before them, it's loud.
she stands awkwardly by his side, not knowing if she should dance or mosh or leave the room or go home or go cry about it to adam in the next room. however, once the crowdkillers come in, throwing themselves blindly into the confines of the crowd, george makes a point to pull her out of harms way.
it's thoughtful, it's really thoughtful, that he doesn't want her to get hurt by anyone, that he doesn't want anyone to touch her, or maybe it's just that he feels guilty for last time. either way, he threw his arm around her shoulder and held her steady there to his left.
then, seemingly out of nowhere, matty crawls out from the midst of the crowd, shit eating grin plastered over his stupid, stupid face. "don't you two look cozy. almost like a real couple."
in this very moment, matty is the worst man in the world and she wishes him nothing but death in his future. she also wishes she never confessed her crush on george to matty because, of course, he can't shut his big fat mouth.
but then george does the unthinkable, he gets a fake-serious expression on his face and pulls her in by the shoulder to a tight, messy hug. her face is smushed into his shirt but it's not like she's complaining. she waits to see what happens.
"of course she's my wife and i love her. we have two dogs at home and a horse," he seems to laugh his ass off at his own joke, something about the horse really doing it for him.
knowingly, matty responds, "you're wasted, man," he claps george on the back like best buddies do, then to y/n, "i trust you'll get him home safe, won't you, love?"
matty is a bit of a small guy and he doesn't have any fighting experience. if rage completely takes over her body, mixed with adrenaline, she's sure she can rip his entire head off and chuck it onstage. but george doesn't let go of her, so she'll never know if it's a possibility.
she reluctantly peels herself off of him and with an awkward feeling, "a horse?"
he laughs in her face, "yeah, a horse."
she decides to play along with it. "since when do we have a horse? i can't handle your spontaneity, we need a divorce.”
“fine. but i’m taking the horse. you can keep the kids.”
“i never even wanted the horse, silly,” the lights are on and the band’s set is over now, so she walks out the door of the venue and continues out to the parking lot, more than sure he’s following behind like a lost puppy. she’d take sappy drunk george over cold sober george any day.
the night is inky black and light pollution causes stars to cease to exist in the sky. it’s no big deal. y/n’s seen them before on other, clearer nights, and george just doesn’t care.
she leans against the stone wall of the building and george stops to stand right in front of her. he’s close. he’s too close. he’s not still in place. he’s jittery, fidgety, his hands wring together like his words will pour out of them like water if he squeezes hard enough. they never do.
she chews the inside of her mouth, maybe all the damage she does to her cheek from her teeth is the reason george never liked her back. maybe that was the big deal, the one reason that held the line.
but she knows things aren’t black and white like that. she knows it’s a cocktail of things all put together that george has observed about her over the many years growing alongside one another.
she could argue it’s near impossible to love someone through all the changes from childhood to adolescence, all the phases and new shapes an individual inevitably takes in order to find some peace of mind.
but it wouldn’t be true, because through it all, she’s still so in love with him.
she’s thought about writing him a letter. a long letter, it will cover everything she wanted to say, everything she almost did but never came out. in this letter, she’d magically gain the confidence and cadence of an old poet, an old soul who’s words are like honey to the tongue, and she’d give it to him.
no, she’d give it to adam to give it to him. no, she’d mail it to him. his mom would retrieve it from the mailbox and leave it on his messy desk where he wouldn’t notice it, much less read it, until she’s long gone, somewhere far, far away.
she’d go to london. no, she’d go to amsterdam. no, seattle. if he dared to read the letter word by word, between the lines, he’d find secret instructions telling him to meet her there.
wherever she ended up fleeing to, it wouldn’t matter, as long as she would be far, far away from the aftermath of confessing her feelings to him. she can’t imagine looking him in the eye when it happens, much less being right in front of him.
she’d stand at a distance, a 1,000 mile distance, and watch her life implode into chaos and she would have nothing to do with it until she chose to come back. or maybe she wouldn’t. and maybe when reading the letter, george would never know to meet her in seattle, maybe he’d get two lines in and he’d fold it up, crumple it, and toss it into his wastebin under his desk in his bedroom.
then maybe years later, she’d finally come home for christmas, and he’d have stayed there, he’d have waited for years and years for her. and by then, the city of seattle had changed her, she’d have lost the meaning of christmas, and george, who had taken up work at a local christmas tree farm, could return it to her with a few witty jokes and sweet kisses.
then she could sell the story to hallmark and leave again. maybe george could tag along this time. maybe the years apart aided him in gaining some worldly wisdom, and he’d know to follow when she walks out of her own life for the second time.
george’s fingers dig into her knotted hair. his thumbs parallel on each side of her frosty cheeks and his mouth is blowing warm air onto her lips.
she gasps, quiet and low, “what-“
he acts for himself and doesn’t let her finish her sentence, he traps her lips into the embrace of his own.
she always did wonder what it would feel like to kiss him. it had occurred in dreams many, many times before and once they parted, it would always be followed by some friendly remark, like ‘i was just curious to know what would happen’ and then the plot of the dream would continue on like normal.
but this isn’t a dream, this is real life, as real as it gets, and if she doesn’t act on this now, she may never get another chance.
she pushes him away, “what the hell george?”
he stumbles back, backing away from her absentmindedly. “fuck, god, fuck, i’m sorry, shit, i’m so sorry.” he grovels like it will fix this. “i’ll go, i’ll leave you alone, i’m sorry.”
now it’s her turn to grab him harshly by the arm. “fuck you, no. you’re staying here. we need to talk about this. why did you do that?”
“i’m so sorry, i’m so, so sorry. i’ve just had these feelings. for so long, i’ve had these feelings and i didn’t know what to do so i didn’t do anything and i know i should have but i didn’t and i’m sorry. and i thought that tonight was the right time and that you have feelings too but you don’t and that’s ok, i’ll leave you alone for now, i’m sorry i screwed things up with you, i hope you can forgive me.”
george doesn’t cry. it’s not in a toxic masculine way, it’s not like he’s not allowed to cry or he doesn’t let himself cry, but as a general rule of thumb, he simply doesn’t cry.
y/n’s known him for ages. even as a little kid, falling off his bike, tripping over his feet, blood could be gushing out of a fatal wound of his body and she swears he would just walk it off, free of any tears.
but now tears stream down his face. it’s a sight to see. he roughly wipes them away with the sleeve of his shirt, even looking surprised at himself to be crying.
and she isn’t quite sure what to do about any of this, she’s aware, now, that her initial reaction made her seem as though the kiss was unwelcome. and that’s far from the truth.
“stop. just stop.”
he’s got a desperate look on his face and it physically hurts to see.
“what do you want me to do? i’ll do anything. just tell me what to do.” he looks much more sober now. his eyes are more focused and he’s swaying a lot less.
“kiss me again. please.”
he just stands there, jaw slack. if he were animated, he’d have a big question mark over his head.
so she makes the move, instead. she holds him by the back of the neck and kisses him harder than he had.
he smiles into the kiss but again, he pulls apart, this time holding her head tenderly with both hands. “you’re confusing me,” he shakes his head.
“then i’ll make it simple. i’ve had the biggest crush on you since the first grade. here i was thinking i’d be the only pining idiot but now you’re here telling me you feel the same? i can’t believe it.”
he giggles, “you mean year 2?”
“that’s what you get out of this?”
he smiles wider. “can i take you home?”
“you’re drunk. i’ll take you home.”
“yeah, yeah that sounds good.”
⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:*⋆.*:･ﾟ .: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆
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task force 141 + last minute christmas shopping
Characters: Simon "Ghost" Riley, John "Soap" MacTavish, Kyle "Gaz" Garrick, John Price, Alejandro Vargas, Rodolfo "Rudy" Parra
Warnings: none
A/N: my sister won't stop making fun of my old facebook posts help
simon "ghost" riley:
alright let's be fr under normal circumstances ghost would never have to do last-minute christmas shopping
he's simply too prepared for that
like he's coming up with lists in october, buying gifts in november, and has them wrapped early december
but for the sake of story let's just say that he has some last minute shopping to do for whatever reason
maybe all his gifts got blown up and he has amnesia so he can't remember anything
jk idk just pretend he's been busy or something
anyways
ghost always has a good idea of what he wants to get people for christmas
so the problem is rarely what to buy but where to buy it
usually he'll go to a plaza that has a bunch of shops so he can just visit each one and see if they have it
another nice thing about ghost is that his sheer size and signature death glare makes it so that he never has to fight with another person to get a gift
he's definitely traumatized more than a few shoppers who tried to grab the same thing as him
somehow though he manages to get everything on his list
even if it takes him all day to find it
john "soap" mactavish:
alright so let's be real pretty much all of soap's christmas shopping is done last minute
he's a procrastinator what can i say
however after years of last minute panic soap has mastered how to get all his shopping done last minute
a few days before christmas he'll wake up early and then head to the mall
and pretty much just methodically work his way through each store until he finds something good for everyone
after he always rewards himself with a soft pretzel and gelato
it's a weird combo he knows but it's what he always bought at the mall as a kid and it brings him back
now soap doesn't necessarily have the intimidation powers of soap but he makes up for it by being ready to throw hands over gifts
besides it's not really like he has a backup plan
so because of this soap's gifts usually end up being those useful knick knacks that you always need but never remember to get
like can openers
he got everyone can openers one year
im kidding (or am i?)
kyle "gaz" garrick:
alright so if gaz has to go last minute shopping it's usually only for small things
like extra stocking stuffers, wrapping paper, tape, etc.
so thankfully there's usually not much riding on it so it's less stressful
gaz actually really enjoys shopping because he can pop in his earbuds, turn up his music, and just unwind for a bit as he walks through the aisles
off topic but he's definitely the guy to just wander around a target listening to music
he'll usually just make the trips as he needs to
but they're usually just to walmart or target so he can stock up on candy and supplies
he also likes getting some of those fancy ghirardelli chocolates to snack on while he wraps gifts
his parents raised him to be polite so if he does end up reaching for the same thing as another person he always lets them grab it
but if it's the last item in stock he definitely gets secretly annoyed at them for it
john price:
alright so in a weird way i feel like price is sorta like the grinch
not in a "i hate christmas" sorta way but an "i don't want to go into town" kinda way
he likes to spend his christmases in his cabin/on base and he doesn't like dealing with the rush of customers doing last minute shopping
but of course there comes times where he has no choice but to run to the store to get another gift or restock on wrapping paper
and during then price is on a mission to get in and out of there as fast as possible
mainly because one year he got stuck in line behind a total karen
and his ten minute trip turned into an hour long ordeal
so now to reduce the chances of that happening he tries to speedrun his shopping trips
that being said he is a gentleman at heart so if someone grabs the same item as him he'll let them have it
even though he'll secretly be annoyed at them because then he has to stay even longer to find another gift
alejandro vargas:
alright so honestly i feel like alejandro is like ghost in that he tries not to get stuck doing last minute christmas shopping
he just doesn't like all the crowds and the lines
i mean he's not the most patient man in the world so it makes sense
he usually tries to keep his last minute gift buying to a minimum but if he does need to buy stuff he'll usually go to one store and get everyone things from there
think like home depot/a hardware store or maybe like a bath and body works
(they have a surprising amount of men's stuff okay)
that being said he usually knows what he wants to get each person from those stores
so if he comes to a point where him and someone else are reaching for the same thing he can sometimes get confrontational
it just depends tho
bc on one hand the gentleman in him is saying to let them have it but on the other hand he wants to get his friends a good gift
usually though he'll end up giving it up if it's like a woman or child
but with men he'll usually try to fight for it if it's really getting heated
rodolfo "rudy" parra:
alright so poor rudy would be so stressed by last minute shopping
i think he probably got a lot of his stuff done early but he wanted some extra things because he was worried his gifts weren't good enough
i feel like rudy's the kinda guy who goes really last minute and so a lot of things are going out of stock quickly
and so he is super duper stressed
mans is biting his nails and everything
definitely is racing throughout the stores to try and find everything he needs
and he simply will not be in a situation where someone grabs the same thing as him because if he sees someone in the same aisle as him he is sprinting and grabbing that thing asap
he really doesn't want to have to fight with someone else over it
especially before he knows he'd end up giving it to them
what can i say it's how he was raised
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I'm a baby goth who really wants to get better at makeup and more specifically eyeliner similar to what you do. Do you have any products or tips you reccomend for getting started? I try to look up advice online but it's overwhelming and it's kinda embarrassing to ask for advice irl.. ty in advance if you decide to answer this.
hi !! idk how good my advice will be but ill do my best to answer as well as i can !
as a heads up i freehand everything but i have seen people use the tape method to keep their liner/eyeshadow straight (which is just putting a piece of scotchtape on the side of ur eye where u plan to have a straight area of liner)
i found using water activated liner helped me a Lot when i started doing more graphic looks at the end of last year (since its water activated u can easily just wipe it off with a makeup wipe or wet tissue) but there is a difference in feel when applying it compared to using a liner pen (to me at least) ie the brush length makes it easier for me to do the smaller details as it gives me more control, but once i got a good feel for doing stuff like that it made using the pen easier. water activated is also much better if u plan on more colorful looks; liner pens do come in colors but they dont pop as well or as bright as the water liners.
as for making ur liner symmetrical… not sure how to give the best advice for that 🤔 the way i do it is ill line out one eye with the outline of what i want to do & try to match the other eye best i can. i have shakey hands but ive found planting my elbow on my desk table & my lining hand on my cheek really helps to stabilize myself so my lines come out straight. to straighten out my lines (like if i made one side to thick) ill just wipe a smidge of it with a wet cotton pad with water liners, but when i use a liner thats waterproof i use micellar water or a make up wipe to fix it.
as for my lids i use a mehron skin prep toner (its the only product ive found that works for my Very oily lids, but its definitely not for everyone… stings like SHIT if its in ur eye especially since i am… not supposed to use it for what i have been 😬. adding that bc if i do t use it sometimes the oil will denature the liner & smear it all over my lids lol. on top of that i put foundation & whatever eyeshadow i want on top of that when the foundation is dry enough it wont smear. putting liner over whatever u layered on ur lids is a commitment & a little hard to fix if u want to put the liner on in 1 go which is why i recommend practice & playing around !!
dont be scared about it not looking nice at that start, just start with something simple to get that feel for it so u can work up to what u want 👍
as for products, i got my water inks from bymelolops (latina owned, based in puerto rico !) i bought this liner brush (and a few water inks as well) from gavissi. my eyeshadow is mostly sugarpill (i only buy when its on sale, its a little pricey but worth it) but if ur on more of a budget colourpop has good options. as for liner pens, ive been using the last of my nyx liner, but am looking for a good alternative (loreal supports isr*el) so im unfortunately not much help here as im Also on the look out 😮💨
i definitely suggest getting some cheap stuff to play around with !! many places like sephora & ulta also sell small sample sizes of liners so u can get one of those to try out before u commit to something. a lot of what i started with years ago came from the dollar store bc that was all i could afford at the time lolll
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ok wait now i wanna talk abt weird/interesting things from my experience getting top surgery. ive seen other ppl talk abt some of these things b4 but not all of em
i thought my surgeon was gonna do the incision, like, underneath the curve of my tiddies?? he ended up kinda slicing thru the middle of them, so my scars run over the middle of my pecs, not underneath them
speaking of; ig my pecs are more developed than i thought since my chest isnt like perfectly flat but rather both my pecs have a layer of fat/flesh on them and i can feel the muscle underneath
also the dip/space inbetween from when i had tiddies looks p much exactly the same, my surgeon said sometimes it ends up buldging out and a revision is needed but thankfully that didnt happen to me
the discharge nurse let me know afterwards that my tits were 11 kilograms (right 6kg and left 5kg) like no fucking wonder i have back pain at the tender age of 19
so yknow how pain raises ur body temp and makes u sweat?? immediately upon waking up i was so warm and damp i told a nurse id soiled myself and needed a change of underwear, i hadnt! i was just really fucking sweaty lol
i also threw up twice after waking up (fortunately into containers both times), turns out anesthetic doesnt agree w/ me, also it was like a dark bottle green?? since id been fasting from the night b4 ig i was bringing up nothing but bile
pre-surgery they cldnt get the IV in my left hand and had to switch to my right and ig that made my heart rate pick up bc one of the asistants immediately came by my head and talked to me to calm me down, he was rlly nice :)
im p sure i conked out within seconds of them getting the IV in and starting up the anesthetic too, none of that 'count back from 10' shit, i took like 2 and a half deep breathes and was OUT
from a combination of the iodine and natural swelling/bruising my chest looked REALLY yellow for like 3 weeks after surgery
i got sent home the same day i got my surgery, they keep some ppl over night if theres complications but apparantly i was all good to go after resting in the post-op ward for few hours
speaking of, i woke up, puked, got some water, dicked around on tumblr, called my mum, took an 'i lived bitch' selfie, slept for a few hours, woke up, went on tumblr again, got dressed w/ some help from a nurse, pissed (by myself, woo!), and then got discharged
my scars are uneven! my left incision goes further under my armpit than my right one, and my scars vary in thickness, it actually looks kinda like ive got two scars on my left side bc it thins out so much in the middle for a few milimeters
my nipples are also a lil uneven and they ended up puckering up as they healed so i kinda looks like ive always got stiff nips oops, also theyre more brown than pink
apparantly that might be bc they took the nipple graft from my areaola bc they werent able to graft the actual nipple, idk ¯_(ツ)_/¯, obvi it doesnt look perfectly like a cis guy's nipples but i knew the chances of achieving that were relatively small + p dependent on how i healed so like im not too bothered by it
my surgeon used dissolvable stitches and one of em ended up poking out thru my scar a lil b4 it disolved, which was weird
showering w/ a plastic sandwich bag duct taped to ur chest so u dont get ur scars and nips wet is An Experience TM i'll tell u that
my scars stretched!! it happens!! esp if u raise ur arms, which u will inevitably have to do eventually, idk if they'll ever fade on their own or if i'll need scar revision treatment in the future but fortunately they didnt go keloid
my surgeon used what he called crosshatched stitching rather than drains so that saved me a lot of discomfort, i DID get a slight build up of like, i think around 40ish mls of fluid in my left side a few weeks after surgery, but my surgeon dealt w/ it by p much just poking it w/ a syringe and draining it out lol
which i didnt even feel him do at the time bc of the nerve damage lmao, which was weird asf since i could very much SEE him sticking the needle in but couldnt feel it at all
i regained my mobility like, straight away?? my surgeon said bc im young + relatively healthy it was likely that id bounce back from surgery quick but like,, i had none of the exhaustion, pain, or immobility ive seen ppl describe??
i couldnt lift my arms very high for a while obvi but like i was fine dressing myself and even washing my own hair if i just leaned over
having to sleep upright for a few weeks after surgery was v annoying since i usually rotate like a shawarma trying to find a comfy sleeping position
the post-op chest binder was sensory hell bc it was scratchy and it kept slipping down my back since it had no shoulder straps, also i accidentally bruised my ribs a lil bit by wearing it too tight oops, the fuckin relief i felt when they told me i cld stop wearing it
the post-op 'please wear these at all times so u dont get thrombosis' socks were p comfy tho, idk why they didnt cover my toes tho
regaining the sensation around ur scars is weird! my right side's been completely fine but ig bc my left scar is thicker + longer ive been getting some pain n tightness, its not a persistent issue or anything but its just kind weird bc ive never had any surgeries or major injuries to heal from before this one
u will have to get ur boobs felt up and examined probaby multiple times b4 surgery, this will feel very different from touching ur own boobs and, in my case, was ticklish??
my posture has improved somewhat since getting top surgey, what not having 11kg of weight hanging off ur chest and compressing it in towards ur ribs/spine for roughly 9 hours a day will do to a mf ig
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The Coffee That Never Came pt1/?
hey gang, this is my first time writing in ages so please don’t hate me, just wanted to get back into something that makes me happy! lately I’ve been simping for markiplier him in that beret FUCK but yeah this is just a prologue of sorts I guess? idk maybe if you enjoy it i’ll write more. but yeah idk enjoy
pairing: head eng! mark x reader (this prologue is gender neutral, i’ll try my best to keep it like that if I write more but sometimes my monkey brain auto pilots to fem!readers im sowwy)
warnings: angst, derealisation, essentially solitary confinement, detailed descriptions of passing out i have anemia so we get first hand details rehehe, hallucinations, swearing, literally no fluff at all teehee because thats how i like it, i think thats it please let me know if i missed anything
word count: 1.2k
authors notes: this is in first person and all the proper ‘thoughts’ that captain has will be italicised also unedited im sorry im tired
‘Coffee That Never Comes’
“Good morning Captain!” The automated voice pierces through the chamber, it almost drowns into nothing as it is something that I've become, well, well acquainted with. The sickening minty blue words on the navy blue screen blur together, the same ones that I can see painted on the backs of my eyelids; those same words that quickly flick to red. “We are currently ERROR years into our journey. . .” the voice pauses quickly, a few mechanical tones buzzing out, “Coffee is in route.” I wonder what coffee tastes like, or I at least try my best to remember. Bitter? No, I remember loving coffee. I would always add just the right amount of milk to make the colour resemble his eyes, a colour that I can no longer picture no matter how hard I try. I do remember adding a pinch of salt too, though I can not place my finger on why I started it. Christ, it has been a long time since I've had coffee. Knowing what comes next, I begin to open and close my fists, trying to loosen my joints concealed within my black leather gloves; despite the work put in every day for the last decade, they look and sound brand new, squeaking with every movement. Has it really been ten years? Surely not. The robotic tone once again takes me from my thoughts, I begin to ram my fist into the side of my chamber.
“Current sHip staATuS iS C A T A S T R O P H I C.”
The sirens and alarms signalling every aspect of the ship going to shit is like that of a morning alarm to me. The same thing, everyday. An ironic melody for the hell that I've been damned to, and I've no one to blame but myself. I thought hell was at least supposed to be warm. With one last good slam into the door, it opens- the pain physically is one that regardless of time, has yet to numb. Grabbing my shoulder briefly I drop my hand and punch through the glass to get to the fire extinguisher and with one swift movement chuck it behind me by the main control panel. My legs almost absent mindedly carry me towards the main door, muscle memory due to the days among days that I've done this. It makes me feel like I'm in a terrible movie and someone keeps rewinding the tape. Oh what I would do to just sit down and watch a movie. Next scene: fixing life support and stabilising O2. Before I put my hand up to the scanner though, I hesitate. Glancing over to the left I see the twin chamber to mine, the chamber that has not opened in years. Christ, maybe it had been longer than ten. I keep my eyes fixed on the door, the urgency I once had for stabilising the ship diminishes, something that has not happened in a while. I mean, if I fuck up I will just end up back where I was seven minutes prior. For some reason, I'm unable to take my eyes off the chamber. Please. Maybe, just maybe will the door pop open with that hiss of O2 that I once found so refreshing, but alas; nothing.
I have problems to solve, hope is what got me into this mess and if I have any minuscule amount left then I'm using it to get me out of it. My hand, even with the glove on, is much smaller than the prototype outline which lights up that disgusting minty blue as it scans the chips embedded in the pads of my fingers. With a loud bang and a hum the heavy metal doors begin to open. Okay, O2 stabilisation, recalibrate asteroid defence, head into cryo-what was that? I take a backwards step into the main room, leaning my head back to look at the chamber I was previously fixated on. Was there a shadow? The visual hallucinations started around the 11th day in the loop of being alone. I've gotten used to it but that one made my heart jump, my chest tighten, my breathing quicken, was it because I was waiting for something to be there?
I stay put for a few seconds longer until I begin to notice that the alarm sounds muffled. I reach to pull out my earpieces but quickly remember I haven’t worn them in ages. Where the fuck is my mind? With the feeling of having cotton in my ears mixed with the ringing they’re producing I barely take note of the darkness shrouding the edges of my vision, pulsing with each slowing yet pounding beat of my heart. Fuck, O2. This is what hope does to you, makes you lose track of what’s important. I hastily turn back to the door and nearly run into it as it has since shut, how long have I been standing here? Putting my hand up to the scanner a little harder than I mean to, the realisation of my dwindling time hits. Having a hard time placing which sounds go where the disembodied bang of the door beginning to open doesn’t even feel like it’s in front of me, the hiss of a pipe bursting behind me sounds like it is to the left everything feels everywhere all at once. Clumsily, my legs carry me to the Life Support chamber as I try to focus and slow my breathing. My mouth begins to go tingly along with my fingers and I know I've little time left. Stumbling, I somehow manage to land my hand on the second scanner. Come on ‘Captain’. I feel like my thoughts aren’t even mine as I can barely hear anything over the pounding beat of my heart that has taken over my ears.
‘Captain.’ ‘Captain.’ ‘Captain.’
It is always his voice that pushes me beyond the point where I want to quit, sometimes even to a fault. Although at this very moment I can barely remember what it sounds like, as much as it pains me. My thoughts leave as I trip over my feet and fall into the oxygen control panel, ‘Captain.’ I can do it. ‘Captain.’ It’s just on the other side of the panel. ‘Captain!’ That last one was louder and I know it’s my last chance. Taking a leap of faith that’s more like a step and a half I reach for the bottom valve but miss and land hard on the floor. As my breathing slows and my eyelids begin to feel heavy, there’s a shadow that casts across the wall from the red lights. ‘Captain?’ But alas, it’s just another hallucination, moving quickly, panicked even. I can barely keep my eyes open and that’s when it turns the valves, doing what I failed to do; not much of a captain if I can’t even make it through the second most basic task. My chest tightens once again, and I find it hard to catch my breath, through my now minute vision I see him. It can’t be, he looks too real. His hair, his hands, his eyes, his voice almost booming as he begins to pick me up in his arms trying ti get me to come to. Is this where it ends, finally?
“Captain! I’m not letting you go this time.”
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well hope you enjoyed it gang, idk just something that i brain shitted, but yeah mwah let me know if this is worth a next part? peace
#markipler egos#in space with markiplier#markiplier#angst#uhhhhh yeah#imagines#fanfictions#fanfic#scenarios#darkiplier
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2/2 of 2x08: ‘why is she acting like this? Is she okay? Oh god, is she sick? What’s wrong deb? Talk to me, redhead! *deb tells vic about ben* please, for the love of everything i own, stop talking. Why are you still talking? I said STOP! Twist your words? Deb, girl..that’s what you said, do you want me to rewind the tapes? AND TO SAY THAT TO VIC?! YOU WISH HE WASNT WHAT NOW? Listen to me Deb, straight still gets hiv. MIKE GET BEHIND ME, I MIGHT HATE YOU BUT I GOT YOU! OH NO HES HEARING HER! WASTING AWAY TO NOTHING? AND SHE SAYS THAT TO VIC OF ALL PEOPLE?! Poor vic. Fought for his life and now his sister says all that?! *pauses the tv and looks at me all scared* just so you know, i would NEVER say something like that to you. I might be an idiot but I’m not *waves his hand at the tv* that dumb…can you get me another soda?’… ‘he’s more sad for vic than himself? Damn, he has his nice moments. Deb, why would he have to tell you about Ben? That is literally none of your business. What’s up with you and Ted? SHE FORBIDS HIM FROM DATING BEN? Man, i hope Ben fucks the shit out of Mike this episode. I’m talking can’t walk for a week type of fuck! Because yall are pissing me off!’ And now the scene with britin is up!!!! ‘Ohhh look at them. Getting busy! Why is Justin talking about Ben? What is going on this episode..Man, ben has to have the craziest hiccups this episode. THATS RIGHT BRI! ITS MIKES DECISION! FINALLY SOMEONE WHO IS SMART! *pauses tv* justin. No. Please never do it raw. You can’t trust anyone THAT much. Cheating exists. And also you and Bri Bri don’t exactly have the most….how shall I put it nicely? Ethical relationship..is that respectful? Idk either way *shakes his head* no blondie! Brian..smack sense into him, don’t encourage him! GOOD BOY! EXACTLY BRIAN! Condoms are your best friend *shakes his pill bottle* next to these lil shits. HE WANTS HIM SAFE! AND HE WANTS HIM AROUND FOR A LONG TIME, YOU MIGHT AS WELL SAY I LOVE YOU! (My name) did you hear that?! He wants him safe! And around! FOR A LONG TIME! That’s like many years! I cannot wait for him to say i love you to Justin! Would be a dope finale. Like *pretends to be brian, ig* “Justin!!! I love you. And i wanna be with you!” Yeah that’s the shit!’ My heart breaks for when he’s gonna see the finale. ‘Brian looks good. Leather jacket, messy hair…i fuck with it. Ohhh i like Brian and this bandana chick! Look at him taking his kid to the park. OH FUCK HER PARENTS *the scene in the park with that random lady comes up* the fuck they do?! I bet Michael just got a boner hearing her say that..Brian..Brian, come on i was rooting for you! Not to be the devil’s advocate but at least his reasoning was nicer in some weird way.’ He just scoffed at the sight of Deb so i’d say he’s doing well ‘Deb..you’ve talked enough. I think you should be quiet for the next 3 episodes..oh vic forgave her way too fast! Couldn’t be me tho’ ‘…no offense but if your parents don’t like you, you really shouldn’t care..but i get it, our greatest fault as human beings is the need we all have to be loved, it’s the only thing we all have in common. *look at me as if he just saw me* ice cream! *goes to get ice cream*’ I honestly wonder how he would watch this if he wasn’t high as a kite. ‘Is justin blowing a strap on?? Go off, i guess! Oh shit oh shit! Oh the dad is having a blast. i am honestly impressed that brian is quiet’ The scene with Ben and Mikey is on and he is not okay ‘NO MIKE NO! I mean do what makes you feel comfortable but NOOO DONT LET THEM GET TO YOU! But also I support your decision but fuck’ this obviously ended with him going for a smoke and is currently outside talking to mom and lying about why he was MIA, he also tried to turn the subject on qaf but failed badly bc his attempt was ‘how would you feel if i had a boyfriend with hiv?’ It was followed by ‘no mom, i im not gay. I’m not. HE IS JUST A FRIEND’ Keep my soul in thoughts and prayers because i am going through it.
AHAHAH YES. Exactly. Deb is such a fucking hypocrite. Ugh she is the worst about Ben’s HIV. And then Michael makes it so fucking awkward when he confronts Debbie IN FRONT OF BEN.
Your brother screaming about a) wearing a condom and b) I WANT YOU SAFE AND I WANT YOU AROUND FOR A LONG TIME is all of us. He is in the fandom. Brian DOES love him.
“our greatest fault as human beings is the need we all have to be loved, it’s the only thing we all have in common” - I know you described him as a himbo but Brother Anon is spitting some serious thoughts here.
Asking your mom how she would react if he had a boyfriend with HIV. I am dyingggggg. I love you brother.
Thoughts & Prayers Anon. You are truly doing the lord’s work.
#ask winderlylandchime#dear sweet anon#queer as folk#a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023
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ummmmm guys. i have had a day let me tell you. super long diary like entry lol
i had to get up early to go see my papa and help him move some furniture, and although i was running on a total of 2 1/2 hours of sleep i was excited. he lives out in the city and its about an hour and a half drive but the highway is completely surrounded by trees so that was a fun ride. listened to lots of music and talked about barbies with my dad. we counted 21 total yard sales on the trip.
got home and ate lunch after unloading some beds. my papa wanted some old twin beds out of his house so we took them home. i have a new mattress now!! which hopefully means far less daily back pain!!
after lunch we decided to go to a few of the yard sales we passed by. and let me tell you i got a HAUL. i got a pair of really nice pajama pants that have little skulls on them, then at the next one they had SO MUCH STUFF!!! like guys.. i got a sweater for 25 cents.. GUYS. i got a little black sweater, a flowy black summer top, a fucking black velvet CAPELET, and the most gorgeous black 80s prom dress; although sadly it does not zip and needs alterations but its WORTH IT!!! it has really big poof sleeves and a massive flower sash omg guys its AWSOME. at the same place i also got a little fake ivy for my kitchen :D it desperately needed a little life, a big ass puzzle to work on with my brothers, and they had MOUNDS of vhs tapes... for FREE. soooo uh yeah. may or may not have come home with like twenty new tapes. oh yeah did i metion that i only paid like a total of six dollars so far?? i made out like a Bandit. final yard sale and the woman was like 'uhhhh $1.25.'. so for a $1.25 i got a peanuts drinking glass (i think from mcdonalds..), the entirety of firefly on dvd, and a ceramic angel. normally i do not go for religious imagery in my decor, but. it was like 102F.. i hadnt slept since my two hour night.. i was severely dehydrated.. heat exhaustion was setting in a little bit.. and i dunno, she just called to me. she reminded me of laura palmer.
okay, so i get home and unload all my of goodies, then i start cleaning my room. i have to disassemble my old bed frame and clean under my bed and shit. i already have a pounding headache at this point but i have schedule to keep. beds gotta be moved b4 tmrrw. so i am FIGHTING trying to get the frame apart, i'm all sweaty and gross and i finally get it!! :D i feel some stuff falling over behind me and b4 i can even look up i get whacked right upside my head loony tunes style with a huge metal beam :( i start feeling kinda funny and i vaguely remember talking to my brother who told me to lie down. i pass out cold and hard on the couch for about an hour. vague memories of seeing something in the room with me. not really important i just think you should know.
wake up to my brothers shaking me to make sure i havent DIED. i lived! yayyy!! ate dinner, and then it was time. i have been looking at this online auction for over a week now and it was ending in a matter of minutes. i did when some some stuff! i got the directors cut of JTHM, revenge of the filler rabbit, and some other comic which i cannot remember rn.. but anyways it was 5 bucks! and then i bought a snoopy wallet for a few dollars. although i did miss out on a clear phone.. so sad. but overall i had a very good shopping day today idk why. everything just like fell into my lap at affordable prices... like wow..
after the auction i still had not moved my new bend in (ya know.. bonk on da head) so i fight forever to get it put together. but yippeee!!! its al here! and i was given a new blanket to put on it which is very soft :3
anyways now im here after showing and watching x files for a bit.
if you read all of that.... wow. ily <3. i normally dont like to just like info dump about my irl daily stuff, but today was just so like action packed it was kinda bonkers. anyways i have to go to bed bc i have more stuff going on tmrrw.... and i honestly might just cancel them.. i am TIRED.
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Sara and August were actually really cute ngl 😭 I think a lot of ppl including me expected their relationship to be like a toxic edgy villain power couple or sth but it turned out to be just really cute and normal and that made it worse when August did what he always does and it all went down the drain. But while they were actually together it was fine? It was adorable? August hugging her when she cried? Sara calming him down from the panic attack? Idk I can't imagine why Sara would choose this guy in particular to do all this with when she KNOWS he leaked the sex tape but um at least the relationship was cute lmao
ngl i thought their relationship was going to be hella toxic with august taking advantage of sara both for her meds and like as a hook up by pretending to like her more than he actually did. before s2 came out i literally texted my friend and said i was scared lisa was going to make august semi-likable bc as much as i love how nuanced and multidimensional all the characters are i didnt want him to have his redemption before wilmon reconciled bc its fucked up he got to be happy damn near the entire season while wille and simon were fighting almost the entire time bc of the fall out of august's actions
that being said, august was literally the definition of "asshole to the world but never his girl" this season which showed us a side of him i didnt think existed tbh after how he treated felice
no matter how i flip it i cant imagine why sara chose august other than bc he was the first guy who showed an interest in her and was consistently nice to her and didnt make her feel different bc of her diagnoses. i've cut hoes off for less if they messed with my friends so rip to sara but im different ig
also august not saying that sara tipped him off when an (unstable) wille had a literal gun to his head? jfc talk about love making you crazy
but overall yeah their relationship was cute but im mad about it and conflicted at how august had to go and do what he does best and ruin a good thing 😂
#also the 'i king august promise you queen sara to take care of you and our kingdom' was objectively so sweet and cute it fills me with rage#it was also hella pretentious of him but thats a different convo#sorry this turned into an essay#i am once again tipsy and thinking about yr#so you have really gotten a bit of an unfiltered look into my garbage heap of a brain#good ask anon#anon#young royals#yr s2 spoilers#young royals season 2 spoilers#august of årnäs#sara young royals#august young royals#ask#my yr thoughts#tipsy yr#idk if thats a tag ive used before but its surely one now
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MK liveblog ep 2, Summon The Suit
The sudden pan up from sand FUCKS
The security footage scene is both so cute n sO embarrassing
Also I want JB n Steven to b bros they seem like they’d b rlly goofy n fun
“Larry in maintanence is going to absolutely shoot you”
MARC WALKING OUT ON THE TAPES WHAT A FUCKING SCENE
The Human Resources scene is rlly nice asmr
Steven having to give up his name n symbolically himself as he further journeys into his life falling apart makes me YELL
The guy at the storage locker place says he never forgets a face but isn’t put off by the accent, did Marc never talk to him?
Marc’s clothes being in the storage locker… gOd
Steven’s autistic interest blocking out any fear on a magical floating scarab
MARC STANDING INBTHE REFLECTION INBTHE LOCKER IS SO FUNNY
“Yeahr.”
“Idc how bloody handsome you are,” Steven that’s kinda gay :-/
Marc looks so worried n then Steven’s just like: lol you’re fuvking ridiculous lmao
Marc eyes on th gun
Khonshu walking down the hall w the lights is sO fucking creepy
The freeze frame my beloved💖
LAYLAAAAA
Layla’s intro is so good her character is like immediate
Layla don’t tap on the glass :-/
When Layla first sees the poetry book she probably thinks Marc was missing her but then Steven starts reciting a thing OiuhHhh
The music being soft n sweet but also unnerving n out of place
Marc’s already in the little door mirror in the background when the divorce papers come out lol
Layla baby I love you and you are so emotionally unstable this episode lmao
Also her jacket already kinda resembles the scarab stuff
Dialogue still hits clunky this ep idk why
This is why you never talk to cops Steven
Love that the Harrow goons that come after Steven r based off the Lemire orderlies
Steven head bonking on the car window for his life
Marc’s voice is so gentle but firm when he’s not angry, and he sounds so tired and I love him
Steven is just close to tears oh baby
Harrow stop touching him all caring like it’s creepy n I hate you
“KILL IM.”
“Wow beautiful 😌” (tomatoes)
God the cult is so…. Unnerving
Harrow as MK sounds so fucking creepy
The lil American man…
Confused and eating soup, the best way to be except in this case
Steven just slurpin soup n not listening. His lil “alright… 🤨” while he doesn’t listen to harrow n is so funny
“Gimmedabody”
I think you should actually kill Donna Steven. Get her ass.
Steven I love you so fucking much
“Then don’t”
Steven looks weird w his outer coat buttoned up
Layla walked into danger so confidently bc she was so used to always being able to trust Marc to b there n support her like breathing but Steven isn’t Marc n things r diff so they have to run
“Thatwasawesome”
Steven’s panic attack…. The overwhelm is done so well god being trapped between two ppl n the silence and the disorientation n Laylas distress n then her saying his name being what grounds him
The jackal hits on the door like a heartbeat
I love the mr knight suit being a real costume so bad the MCU has made me love cloth also it’s GORGEOUS
Marc ur accent ily
Layla seems so off her game this ep bc she’s being introduced to so much along w Steven n she doesn’t expect to fight monsters
ROLLIN UP HIS SLEEVES YEAH BABY YOU GO U ARE STEVEN W A VEE
Steven laying facedown in the middle of the street looks so goofy
“That was a hell of a punch back there” THIS SCENE MAKES ME BITE WOOD
MARCS MOON EYES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HEAHHHHHH
oh I never realized bystanders actually got hurt in the background
THE CHASE SCENE MUSIC IM GONNA AHHHHHHHH
The vibes the vibes I’m I’m im normal
“Gotcha! >:-)”
Marc in Steven’s clothes looks so off
The way letting the suit off is like a release, like he can breathe
Then his paNIC
Harrow do u just judge that man to kill him for no reason I hate u
The shots of London r lovely
God Marc is so pathetic n tired n sad
SO THIS IS WHAT ITS LIKE BEING ON THE INSIDE YEAH ITS HORRIBLE ITS ALRIGHT YOURE ALRIGHT I FEEL LIKE INCAN SCARCELY MOVE ITS OK BREATHE THROUGH IT HOW LONG YOUVE B N DOUNG THIS I DUNNO LONG TIME I DONT LIKE IT I DONTBWANY IT
this scene is so
its so
its so
marc is still trying n his voyce is so fragile n steven is so angry n atbhis end point
oscar acts across fromnhimself so well
marcs growing anger n just just the arguneny n marc being so worn out and high strung
KHONSHUBI HATE UR BONY ASS LEAVE HIM ALONE
khonshu sounds so good in this scene tye VOICE ACTING HIS LAUGH
khonshu i hate you i hate you
Near and dear as she is to him indeed Jake lockley my beloved it’s what she deserves
STEVEN JN THE MIRROR THE LIGHTING THE WAY MARC IS TIRED N HAS TRASHED THE PLACE J LOOKS SO OUHGHHHUHHHHHNNN YELOW N ORANGE N THE MUSIC N YHE MUSIC N THE SWWELL N THE CURTAIN AHHHHHHH
I love the ending songs so much but this is probably one of my all time favs
Headbopping
The hallway flickers between Steven’s apartment, the storage locker hall, and the Duat asylum
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hi my love! this is ☹️ anon and i read your response to my ask! first of all, thank you so so much for taking the time to read all of that and responding thoroughly. ive heard of other peoples manifestation journeys and thought “oh that’s similar” but it feels like your old self is literally me, like ive never met someone with a journey that exact like mine and someone with a mind that works similar to my mind. i also got into a sammy ingram repetition phase and when the roe x 3dolc required you to repeat your affs too, i thought it wasn’t normal for me to deviate from a set affirmation list and i stressed about wording. i was affirming to get something and i didn’t know intent mattered? i think ill try inner convos but are there any affirmations pertaining to manifestations that i should include for faster results? and i never heard about the dylan james thing. i thought belief and trust didn’t matter when manifesting tho? just as long as you’re contradicting opposing thoughts? ill try the dylan james / affirmation tapes whenever i feel like spiralling. im gonna walk you through my thought process a bit.
“here’s some things ive noticed about my thinking pattern. i plan conversations before they even happen. so ill have a whole conversation with myself or someone else before i even talk to them. i also see the scene in my head, maybe of their text coming in and once in a while, ill even add in our voices to make it more realistic.
when i spiral, i usually say the same negative affirmations, BUT i change it up like im ranting. for example, a week ago i might’ve gone “im a failure, this is why i can’t manifest and everyone is better than me?” then the next week, it would be like “im always failing at manifesting, i wish i was good enough to do it”. basically same concept different wording or it’s just repeating “im a failure” in my head over and over again while thinking of a past event that caused me to spiral like looking in the mirror and not having my df or waking up and not living my dream life and it’s usually 3rd person.
one thing about me is that i always complain, no matter what it is.. im gonna complain about it and i swear a lot too and over exaggerate. example: “why tf can’t i manifest? im never gonna get it. why is it so hard?” i do a lot of question asking too because im also a very curious and logical person. i think im also very harsh and gaslight myself too. for example: “i think i can manifest” “bitch.. are you crazy? how would you out of all people manifest? you’ve never done it successfully before? what makes you think you can do it now?”
i am also a music lover, so listening to music puts me in a good or bad mood depending on the song.
IM ONLY USING NEGATIVE EXAMPLES BECAUSE THATS WHAT IM USED TO.
i think the best thing for me is to implement my normal thinking pattern into manifesting and idk how, but i feel like id need a base or a set of affirmations/rules to refer back to when i spiral and implement. but also a bunch of affirmations to just rant with?? idk. i hate making a routine for manifesting because i hate routines and the pressure of having to stick with them and then making it a chore. BUT if im not doing a routine, im worried that im lacking repetition and consistency. i know i shouldn’t say this but repetition and consistency is what ive seen the most results with with others. but the same 3 affs get boring for me, but i worry if im repeating enough if im not looping those 3 affs. and i hate deadlines but the problem is i need to manifest my dream life before college because that’s when circumstances are going to hit even harder and im going to be more prone to negative thoughts.”
hi ☹️! im gonna try to address/answer everything in order :)
when affirming, intent doesn't really matter. if you're affirming to get something, you will still get it. however, i noticed for my own mind that this was creating unnecessary stress for myself, so now i think of my affirmations of reminders of what i already have. but intent doesnt actually matter
i love inner convos sm so im glad you're going to implement them! some affirmations i love for faster manifesting are "my 3d conforms instantly", "the second i affirm something it comes true" and simply "i am doing everything right" "wow i manifest so fast!"
belief doesn't matter while manifesting at all! as long as you persist and continue to affirm, the repetition of affirming creates a belief naturally. but its perfectly normal if ur repeating affirmations and don't believe them. as for trust, it's not necessary either, but it helps sosososo much. trust is allowing yourself to think of other things throughout the day other than manifesting because you know its yours and its on it ways to you. it's knowing that you're doing it right and no stressing over finding new affirmations or techniques every other day. it's knowing that the law is just that--a LAW--and that your desires are promised. now if you're thinking "yes rem but its hard for me to know these things for a fact bc xyz and i thought u didn't need to believe etc etc" you don't! trust is as simple as letting it be. thats why i personally love doing what dylan james recommends and telling myself it is done and forcing myself to think of something other than my manifestation. (i dont remember if i linked u this post in my last response but here is more on the dylan james thing)
^since we r so similar in the way we think i think this might benefit u if u want to give it a try.i was wary of it at first but it was so relaxing and freeing to be able to think of something other than my desires, which i had been thinking about obsessively before i watched dylan's vids and took his advice.
you say that you always rant, complain, swear, gaslight yourself, and ask questions. so here is an example of an inner convo u could do for self-concept:
"omfg why do am i so good at manifesting its so annoying! this shit isn't even exciting anymore because i just get my results instantly and i barely even have to affirm 🙄 why do *i* have to be god, like out of everyone it had to be me?? like this is just so much pressure, having everything u want and more is such a huge responsibility ofc i'd have to deal with it out of everyone. its literally so fucking annoying cuz everyone is so jealous of me bc i always get everything i want but i literally just cant help it."
as for gaslighting, its good for flipping thoughts. for example, you think "i suck at manifesting :(" you would then say, "um? are u fucking stupid? look at everything u manifested dumb bitch"
if you want a routine this is what i will recommend for you:
when u wake up, if u lay in bed before getting up, hype yourself up and tell urself ur gonna have a good day! i like telling myself "something amazing is going to happen today"
throughout the day, if you're doing a mindless activity like getting ready, showering, chores, etc, do an inner convo/rampage (like the example one i gave u)
for the rest of the day, try to distract yourself. if you think of your desire, tell yourself "it is done" and force yourself to think about something else. if you have a negative thought, just flip it quickly and think about something else.
fall asleep listening to the dylan james affirmation tape. its literally a miracle worker i swearrr
if you don't want a routine then u dont have to do that but i would recommend it
ik it can be hard not to give into your negative thoughts and spiral, but if u really want ur dream life, put in the effort and force yourself to let those thoughts go. ik it can be comforting to think of the old story or beat yourself up, but overall its just hurting you and does not serve you.
i hope this helps<3
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mon 19th dec 2022 21:09pm journal
i feel a type of way right now but i think i’ve been feeling it for the last couple of hours. i think im still hungry. but like im coming to terms with the just how funny i am but like im having a hard time accepting it because idk theres a fine line between laughing with and laughing at someone and i just wanna be respected thats all. but in the same breath i love myself more than i love anyone else. so i think im good. i wanna make more of those fucking tempura prawns and duck rolls with the burger sauce on the side. I had the meeting with Kate today. she’s fucking amazing. she said she was gonna send me a side today to read over and get self taped for her so im excied to see what she’ll bring me. this is kinda what actor life is like. i have to get used to this. deeping im leaving my old life per say for a new and better life. this is the start of something new. new beginnings. new love. new job(s). new skills. new life. new money. new people. new style(s). onr thing about life is if you’re anxious and you write or journal your stream of consciousness down you’ll automatically calm down after a while. thats one of the codes to life me thinks. i believe in myself and my capabilities. im that fucking guy. new styles 2k23. new work. better pay. new travels. ugh. this year has taken alot out of me and removed people from it too. i hope 24 really gives me some good luck and good fortune man. its 21:17pm and i feel better now. i no longer feel a type of way i felt 10 minutes ago. infact 8 mins ago. anyways. the wind outside is blowing. really hard. im warm and dont need a heater. i have raspberry pink socks on, black trousers, cream turtle neck, black bomber jacket and cream/ecru casual smart shoes and a brown/tan scarf to top it all off. my style is my own and i love it. it’s me. i’ve accepted that i like interior design and fashion styling. putting together colour palettes in my head is so fun and really touches my heart when i see beautiful colours come together and mesh well. really really puts me in a good mood, writing is such a joy. almost as good as talking but not just quite. life is good. happy go lucky. im grateful for life and the beautiful stuff i’ve seen and the wonderful people i’ve met. im him. 21:25pm sign out time
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