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js imma need kass to be one of the characters that fights alongside us in totk in order for nintendo to repent for having him be like. p much the only major botw side character who wasn’t playable in aoc. i have not forgotten nor forgiven and the only way i will is if my man gets his JUSTICE
#totk#tears of the kingdom#totk spoilers#ig#botw#botw 2#breath of the wild#breath of the wild 2#legend of zelda#loz#mine#i mean tbh ill never be over it w all the bs aoc put me through just to not let me play as kass in the first place#gd fairy fountain is playable but not kass ok sure#DOES MY MAN'S BEAUTIFUL MUSIC AND PASSION TO ACTUALLY AID THE HERO MEAN NOTHING TO U!!!!!#LET HIM FIGHT WITH US HE IS POWERFUL ID TRUST HIM W MY LIFE AND LINK'S LET HIM PLAY
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full list from yesterday btw bc im very right and i need u to know thay im right
#with the addition that the léks list cld go on i wld like léks' take on like half their mvs#nd if u got thanks it means id trust u w my life also
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Getting to Talk to leo casually(outside of his work) isnt too difficult. but getting to know him is trickier
#its not that he pushes people away or lies abt things.#hes very honest. if you ask him his route back home he Wont tell you. hell say Thats a bold question yakno?#hes just cautious abt who he opens up to abt his personal life bc ITS DANGEROUS for him to!#casual convo is easy and fine. smile:). you could meet him at the bar playin pool and grumbling abt the people who are causing trouble after#one too many drinks.#But hes gotta like you a lot to let u into his lil mansion bc THERE ARE Valuables there.#im eepy so this isnt as thorough w his charcater as id like but ahh#Oh for consistent communication during work hours and opportunities to build trust. ummumum#i think youd have to ssupply his goons w their weapons and such#I think meetings can commence that way.#my ocs
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Lately, I've been learning to not take things for granted. I've been taking videos of my cats a bit more. Got a video today of me feeding June Bug and Tally, including bits of their meows
I deeply regret not having any record of the sound of Cassy's meow. I'm trying to make up for it with my girls, though.
#speculation nation#animal death ment/#i do have a video of me feeding Sammy. so i have at least one sample of his meow.#i just... never expected Cassy to die so young. not even 2 years old...#this summer has taught me not to take anything for granted#& that someone can go from a pillar in your life to dead in 6 weeks.#ive been awfully paranoid about everyone i care about dying. including my cats.#nothing is guaranteed. your cat can die with as little as an hour of warning.#you can see your uncle one day and then he's dead the next.#you said goodbye but you didnt know it was the last time.#and i keep thinking about whether each goodbye is my last one. every single goodbye could be the last one.#after 5 deaths in 5 years i just really do not have a good relationship with permanence.#or rather. trust in permanence. i do not trust it. because it's clear that it does not exist.#but it'd be nice if i could look at my cats without wondering which one's gonna be next.#trying to enjoy my time with them to the fullest. appreciate them while theyre here.#and not think about how id need a new memorial shelf for their ashes bc my current one is full.#.....ok maybe i am still a lil fucked up about it all. can u blame me tho. shit's been rough lmaot#negative/#yea. this accidentally turned into a vent. whoops.
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i ✨️cannot sleep✨️ and vaguing about shit on the internet feels more cathartic than writing it out somewhere else. suffer.
#im having. thoughts. on one hand. VERY badly want woods and chicken farm.#on the other hand. i do actually like friends?#and the likelihood of making friends as a queer person in a small town is uh. yknow. not as good.#but idk if its important enough to me to put my life on hold indefinitely to create more ties to an area that ill eventually have to leave#if i ever want a chance at supporting myself financially or buying a tiny lil starter house?#ideal situation is i start a gay commune with like minded friends. but uh. people have not been good to me#on the whole 'trust em with your plans' front#sigh. idk. id love to be able to afford a place thats still in the general area but that is never going to happen#unless i can spontaneously manifest /literally/ a million dollars#i am done with romantic relationships i think. if one happens at some point? cool. but i am not basing my life plans around it.#and will not sacrifice my own peace and wellbeing just for the sake of one#god. looking for queer friends who want to live on a farm with me platnically and we all have our own space but#also raise animals together and hang out sometimes. and dogs are a requirement.#i just! want! queer commune! where i can go back to my own little bubble and have my own space too!#aaaaahhhhh!!!! albertas real estate is starting to look real good right about now!#ugh. u g h. i fluctuate wildly between 'im very VERY content not speaking to a human for a week at a time' and 'platonic life partner. pls.#maybe i just....take a page out of 18 yr old me's ballsy ass handbook. and uproot my entire life to move somewhere completely new#where i know no one have no connections and in a completely different climate 😎 it worked out last time#i could so just fuck off somewhere. oh my god it is so tempting.
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“i offered it to you yesterday. just go in the office and look”
#the trust ava has in janine to not give a damn if janine id s gonna snoop or not bc sh totslly would#ava ‘yes ill give u access to a lil part of my life’ coleman#cuz like cmon now thats where she spends most of her time#office as symbolism of the mind#access to office -> access to self#avanine
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Enforcing boundaries has only been a positive since learning and practicing. Every relationship that’s good for my life remains good or gets even better, every relationship that’s hurt me either improves or falls away either way leaving a lot of relief and life just becomes a lot less stressful. If you worry you take care of others and forget yourself and don’t want to say no to people even when doing so would help you feel better, if you feel guilty a lot in life over a lot of things, i really think boundaries would help. i promise the good relationships in life will only continue to be good or become better, and the ones that hurt will stop and it will feel better in the long run.
this article might help but there’s honestly a plethora of info, find explanations that are helpful for you
#rant#anxiety#i know maybe only 1 person will see this who might need it but really. if u do need it. try it#i used to feel guilty and hate myself for just ADMITTING to a friend i had a bad day instead of a good day#which was not healthy for me. and it also didn't help my friends. i THOUGHT it did (hiding pain from them) but friends WANT to know#how you really are and help you the way you help them.#honest communication and honest boundary setting go a LONG way to make good relationships a million times better#and make pained ones either stop hurting or stop being connections in ur life.#if a boundary ruins something then really that thing ruined is probably something that hurt you.#i had a situation with my mom of lifelong codependency. you know how it is lol. i had to go low/no contact#i decided eventually when i was strong enough to accept her anger or disowning me. that i'd set boundaries.#id decided i would NOT let her scream at me or hit me. if she did then i would NOT talk to her.#and it was scary. she did yell. and i had to enforce my boundaries and stop talking to her and not go to her house if she did.#but ultimately you know? she apologized to me. she wanted to be in my life badly enough to stop yelling at me. she has not yelled at me in#over 2 years now. she has not tried to guilt trip me (call me a selfish bitch/horrible person/accuse me of wanting her dead etc) in 1.5 year#because when she did start doing that i'd stop engaging and enforce my boundaries. im not talking to people who treat me that way.#it is absolutely mindboggling to me. that now i can call my mom and Actually ask for help. that i can feel even 70% certain#she wont say something so cruel i end up feeling suicidal.#its absolutely mindblowing i can call her for help now. i can rely on her and even somewhat trust her now.#i can say i love you on the phone and know i mean it now. know i don't hate her now.#because i Let myself hate her. i let myself hate the cruel things she did and i decided i wasn't#going to be in her life if she did them. and she decided she cared about me enough to Stop doing them.#it was also good for her. because back in my guilt state i felt she couldnt fend without me (i know i was wrong lol)#but when i stopped dropping everything for her? she learned to reach out to friends and form a support network#she learned to ask for help respectfully to people. to do things on her own that she could. to TALK to her other loved ones#when sad instead of bottling it until she wanted to die and yelling at others. she started some self work for her own mental health.#not because i told her or tried codependently to push her to help herself. no. she did it because the consequences of her actions happened.#she was cruel to her kid so her kid didn't let her be. and she wanted to be with her kid so she worked on changing.#shes still working on it but i am still honestly shocked. id been prepared to never see her again if it had to happen after boundaries.#i had abusive romantic relationships and. none of them would've changed to be better for me. they would've left me
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i hate being everyones depressed friend bc i dont wanna be a fucking downer + also at a core level i dont actually believe the world is miserable etc + i genuinely have a lot of lust 4 life + enjoy being a bit silly to keep the horrors at bay but also maintaining this 'only mildly depressed but still a fun guy to be around!' persona/facade around ppl makes me want to rip all my fucking skin off sometimes
#like great well i guess i will just never have a shred of real human connection ever in my life forever 👍#bc no one is able to handle even seeing me at the most diluted base level of depressed i let them glimpse. let alone hold space w me#this isnt rly in relation to anything specific ive just been having a rly tough week + theres no one to tell abt it so i just have to cope#and even if anyone did give a shit theyd have to be willing to ask and dig to keep me completely truthful and also id have to trust them#in other words its just not smth that could possibly happen lmfao#fuck i miss aleks so much sometimes like maybe they didnt know me so much and i kept a lot back but they were there for a while at least#and that was enough yknow it doesnt have to be all that much im not asking for the world here just someones shoulder every now and then#urhgfhg oh well. its ok this is just how it goes how the cards are dealt etc. at least im not affecting anyone. at least im here for myself#hopefully tomorrow will be a little better etcetcetc over and over for the rest of my life#if anyones reading this sorry for being grumpy ill be alright i promise just needed 2 vent a bit! kissing u on the forehead + tucking u in#goodnighttghrthtthkt#.vent
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im ngl the way some ppl on this site talk abt christianity is really baffling
#myposts#text of kin#my whole life ive been an atheist#with a strongly ex-catholic anti-theist mother and even she would disagree w some of the shit said abt christians on here#nevermind that like. im pretty sure people will just straight up lie about stuff thats a 'christian thing' or not#idk i dont actually think christianity is the bogeyman its made out to be#and i really struggle to think that im someone who at all FAIR to christians. trust me that i hate christians#its just like. comically absurd at a certain point#are you absolutely sure that its an exclusively christian thing to do squints social control? they invented and are the only ppl to do that?#youre sure? alright well if youre sure!#and im also completely sidestepping like. possible critiques to be offered to other religious structures. like even without saying#'hey its not the only bad one'. its literally gotten to a point just w christianity that some of u sound insane#honestly id love to see more. well frankly interesting discussions abt christianity happening on here#where is the investigation of christianitys role in colonialism? the discussion of the systemic violence its many forms have legitimized#it honestly seem like this site is hung up on#the role christianity plays in american politics and making that the end all be all#of both american politics and the effects christianity has had on the world--even just the political world#perhaps its naive of me to think this website would care abt anywhere other than american nevermind nonwestern contexts but. idk#it smacks to me of....ex christians particularly white ones making themselves into the only and biggest victims of it#which i would know because. again. anti-theist ex-catholic mother ive lived my whole life with.#idk how true that is. thats what it reads like to me largely#but i recognize for it to even read that way to me its getting parsed through my experience w my mom so thats a bias i know i have#all this to say. damn i hate christians but some of yall hate christians so much i think youve just started lying#and then also centering your particular experience of christians in an american WASP context#rather than discussing like any other (worse) form of harm christianity has been party to in say the global south
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PLEASE KEEP MAKING THE EWAN MCGREGOR GIFS
kddkjfg - i will. thanks 😭
#anonymous#i have so much going on in my life atm u wouldnt believe#trust me id like to gif but#so much is happening im so stressedddd#i'll try to gif it#answered
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Been thinking abt moving to richmond va once I’m done w school and my friend sent me a “pros of cons of living in richmond” video and the pros are like “yeah the location is perfect in terms of climate and proximity to things and there’s plenty of jobs and things to do” and the cons are like “things close at midnight and there aren’t huge sports teams” brother those are more pros
#i don’t trust these guys tho bc they were like yeah and it’s affordable u can buy a house for 300k!#brother I may not see that much money in my LIFE u think I’m looking to buy a house Ever?#id have to have a rich ass spouse#mine#txt
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god i love health insurance in this country
#would love it if it did literally anything#got to love the news that it won't cover anything at all for me in this surgery!#anyway i can still afford it and im still happy about it but like finances are so tight for me rn lmao.#its like. part of the reason ive been waiting so long for this is the pride and knowledge that i should not have to pay anything for#medical care under a just and correct system and having to set my standards aside and grovel for the fucking. necessary and life saving#stuff i need to not feel horrible and disgusting and ugly every day of my life is debasing and dehumanizing#to sum it u#i'm just really frustrated rn.#its so hard to like... go get help or do anything for myself in the first place ever because like. every single time i try to do anything i#get slapped with the harshest penalties known to mankind#you could argue that i could have tried to find a different doctor or whatever but i need my hand held through everything and i still think#that this one was the proper and correct choice based on that#anyway. i have the lump sum. i dunno if i should try to finance it to make myself not feel like i have no money or what.#maybe ill try to open comissions or something but idk if i even have time for that#like im still going to send them the request to reimburse me for my fucking medical bills anyway and i know theyre not going to because#fuck you. but still. id like a letter saying 'fuck you vintage go die and give me 10 grand' instead of just trusting some schmuck over the#phone about it. lmao.#im so tired. i need a break.#between this and work i think its killing me.#im hopeful my blood pressure isnt going to be too high for clearence lmao i am so fuckign worried about that because if it is then like.#nothing ive done at all to prepare for it has mattered at all#i need to be unemployed i am so tired of working for a living i just want to crawl in a hole and sleep for forever
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does disco elysium have multiple endings?
#from seeing ppl talk abt it i assume theres at least 2? a good and bad one?#is the bad one disappointing kim#literally if i ever disappoint kim ever make him lose his trust in me id just stop playing the game then and there id#id just throw my whole gd computer away id walk into the woods and just find a nice hole to lay down & die in#literally my life hinges on this mans opinion#anyway so how many endings are there? 😊#n if theres multiple. how easy is it to fuck up. bc im p good at fucking up!!#& as i understand it this games wants u to fuck up at least a bit#but id like to not Royally Fuck Up#especially since my brain usually doesnt let me come back to things once im finished so idk if ill b able to replay#but god would i like to. i wish i could play this game a million times#i have the art booklet too i cant wait to look at it once im done#disco elysium#smudgy.txt
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Ugh I'm literally so fucking upset I can't even concentrate but i need to if I want to get out of the situation that's upsetting me sooo likeee!!!!
#this is just so fucking annoying tho cause even if i get out of here soon my sister is still gonna work there#with him#and its gonna be awkward#cause when she eventually finds all this shit out shes gonna be PISSED like id be afraid for his life if i gave a shit abt him#whatever tho whatever whatever just#lesson learned#lesson(s)#1. dont go for older guys just cause theyre supposedly more mature ! none of them are motherfucking mature ! girl every song has been#telling u this for years fuck!!!#2. dont settle for a short ass just cause hes nice to u jesus christ how many times#3. trust no one! 4. question everyones ulterior motives! just cause u dont have them doesnt mean everyone else doesnt!#im just glad my friend swooped in right before i was about to embarrass myself past the point of no return cause fgs#thank god for her anyway 😭😭#anyway several people are now dead to me and my nice lovely job where everyones nice and lovely just became a warzone#fucking hate everyone#ellies shitchats
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eggecutive vp 270 infested with three flyfish im deperately trying to bomb but theyre all out of range and the person with the inkjet only bothers to pop it when theyre the last one alive, revives us all in one shot and then doesnt bother to go after them after. bb girl its a special youre supposed to use it in special situations and a flyfish infestation is literally what you are made for youre 270 you should know this
#please for the love of god mr grizz just let me pick my special no one else can be trusted with it#literally if i have the inkjet i get excited bc it means i get to chew through flyfish whyyyyy would you not use it right#i should get a flyfish tattoo#ive said this before but my goal in life is to get the bronze silver AND gold flyfish badges and have that be my entire badge section#my username had been gayluigi for years but at that point id change the display name in game to gayflyfish#we have a love hate relationship is my point#but back to the main point: if you are blessed with the flyfish ruiner it is your job to ruin the flyfish and keep the rest of us safe#hit the red side first to make sure it wont kill you then take out the other half#red side always targets the closest player so i like to bomb that one to make sure ill be safe refilling then take out the blue side#i can usually get both sides in one cycle#blue side targets a random player so like if u know ur gonna die id bomb that one to protect ur teammates and then itll target you#with the other side but youre dead already so theyre rendered useless#to defeat the flyfish you have to think like the flyfish‚ truly understand the machinations of their minds#you also have to be good at bombs unfortunately#but on the bright side i am now insanely annoying with my point sensor in turf bc flyfish eliminater tranates to good bomb aim and#better ink monitoring#its part of why im a nautilus main is i can constantly mark people for death#whether by myself or by others You Cannot Hide From The Circle#sorry for rambling this is my first edible in a while LMAO#im just very passionate about flyfish and also the nautilus#splatoon 3
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ik u can never Earn someone's trust that's a v manipulative mindset in a relationship but I'm so honest w myself i often feel that way w my siblings and iK it's the Third Parent in me
#oh u mean u wont tell me a single thing abt ur life unless it serves u to have me do smth for u w that information ???#have i not proven myself trustworthy ????? my siblings do not like to hang out w me#ik it is manipulation to act on this so i never do. i would hate to b the third traumatizing parent to them#but god its so lonely and isolating feeling#to never feel worthy of someones trust and also know they dont care to know u personally either#they srsly j arent ppl id choose to b around outside a sibling relationship#its so hurtful. idk what to do or whta to think ever i j dont know#cant u tell i care ??? when have i ever shown judgement for ur life choices#goddamnit i hate this feelinh#soundbooth;#i hate getting upset i always break out in hives on my neck jfc#all i do is care for them idk it feels like the least they could do to show they care/appreciate it is share their lives w me
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