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lazylittledragon · 6 months

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the thing that i love so much about my relationship is that i feel absolutely zero pressure for us to be in eachother's pockets constantly. not just in the way that we like to have our own space sometimes but that i don't feel guilty for getting fixated on a project and not texting him or leaving him on read for a few hours. we have a system where i just say "i'm so sorry, i fell down the Art Hole again" and he says "that's ok, was the art hole fun, can i see what you did in there?". or if i have a feeling i'm going to draw until late at night i'll be like "pre warning, i might be in the art hole this evening" and when i'm done he's texted me goodnight anyway.

tldr: find someone who doesn't get mad at you for crawling into a hole and instead helps you out of the hole and asks what you saw down there

#ramble #G i know you don't tumblr but if you ever see this i adore you #context: one of my exes got upset when i started my webcomic because it meant i would be giving her slightly less attention #and another one asked me to stop sending her my art entirely and that kind of thing doesn't leave you y'know #i'm very glad i'm with someone that doesn't make me feel like we need to be texting 12 hours a day to reassure myself that he still loves m #because i already know he does :')))

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egophiliac · 9 months

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DID YOU GET BATDAD!

not yet, it's just been Oops! All Riddles! over here. 😭 I've hit the point now where I have to decide if I want to keep trying, or if I want to save my remaining keys for future cards. like, on the one hand, I'm not really in the market for another defense SSR right now -- especially a fire-typed one, and especially when I have to be realistic about my chances of getting that third-element attack, you know? but on the other hand, his battle sprite looks like this:

he SURFS AROUND with STITCH how am I supposed to say no to that

on the third hand, I just know that if I blow all my keys on this event, they're going to drop another main story card of, like, Silver going super saiyan or something and I'm going to kick myself so hard I go into orbit.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with stitch #the woes of f2p #i am very very strict about not letting myself spend money on gacha #(i waste my money on merch instead)#but i can still look at the menu as it were #and the menu for this event is SO cute #i am not upset about getting a bazillion riddles i am happy to watch them hang ten and kick out and...nope i'm out of surfing terms #but i would like a surfing lilia too :(

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myersesque · 1 year

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thinking a lot abt tess.

thinking abt her immediately parenting ellie, even when she can't be sure it's real, and even when joel is still ready to shoot her. thinking abt her knowing joel well enough to tell him to put his gun down from the other room, because she just knows he's raised it. thinking abt her treating joel so gently and calmly, even when his pessimism and anger is driving her mad, right up until the end. thinking abt how she was ready to get joel and ellie to the fireflies even knowing she couldn't continue on with them. thinking abt the pure panic when she realises they've gone, the way joel immediately knows something's wrong because tess has always been the calm one, tess is always keeping him from freaking out, what else could be wrong but the worst possible scenario? thinking abt "i never asked you for anything. not to feel the way i felt," right after joel refused to define their relationship to ellie, and right after slipping into bed at night to hold him but still getting up before him so he doesn't have to acknowledge it in the light of day - thinking of the way joel jolts to say something, to reassure her, and she immediately begs him not to. thinking about the terrible, longing look in joel's eyes before he leaves. thinking about "save who you can save", and joel accepting that tess will have to be another person he loved and watched this wasteland tear apart. thinking about the infection kissing her before joel ever did.

#does this make sense. i'm so fucking upset #i sobbed for the record lmao #i love her so much and i convinced myself this wasn't coming yet #og #the last of us hbo spoilers #tlou hbo spoilers #tlou #the last of us #tlou hbo #the last of us hbo #tess servopoulos #joel miller

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driftpng · 8 months

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day 4 of. you know the usual

#i finished my entire rewatch a bit ago and i'm sad now i don't know what to do w/ myself :-(#oh and . the scene w/ martin & babyworld finn was so fucking adorable man i'm so upset #they just left him there !!!!#art #doodles #2023 #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #finn mertens #jake the dog #fanart

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emile-hides · 1 year

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I cannot believe no one’s gifed POV Ramattra tilting your chin up with his staff yet. Must I do everything around here.

#Overwatch #Ramattra #I'm going to get SO many 'Your gif was used in a post' Notifications from this one I can feel it #I know you'll never see it but y'all using this gif in your Ramattra X Reader posts I see you.#I'm gonna read every single one of them #Best way to find Character X Readers is to be the person making the hot gifs of the character #I get SO MANY posts from that one Alastor gif I clipped and it wasn't even good #It's not good I don't know why people use it fdkjgkdfjkg #I tried to make it slower but using free online tools the only thing I could do was turn down the frame count #And we don't want that now do we #This is the second time I gifed an Overwatch Omnic for me myself and I #This is the higher quality of the two but the other is Max from last year's Blizcon #Funny considering gifs that loop like this bother my eyes and upset my stomach #but SOMEONE'S gotta do it it might as well be me

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figmentof · 2 months

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Rick & Michonne in THE ONES WHO LIVE | 1x05 | "Become"

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its-leethee · 1 month

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#bonus damage from 2x09: “i'm inside sky magic but IT'S ALSO IN ME”#sometimes i like to arrange screenshots just to upset myself #4x03 #3x07 #5x08 #the dragon prince #yes of course this is going to be tagged with #cannibalism motif #dark magic #rayllum #viren #khessa

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blaiddraws · 3 months

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something I've noticed that is Very prevalent in the fandom is the assumption that All of the 10 sacred pokemon in Hisui are referred to as Nobles, which is actually Not Canon. There's the ride pokemon, but they're not Noble pokemon.

and since it's not actually canon, but rather widespread fanon, it's everywhere and completely untagged.

I'm not gonna ask people to change their headcanons or rewrite everything, that's ridiculous. but it IS technically misinformation that can be easily corrected;

therefore i propose using the "The Ride Pokemon are Considered Nobles" tag on ao3 for when one writes ride mons as nobles, at the very least

#i keep meaning to make this post but I've struggled with wording #I'm not blaming people or getting upset at people #i just like it when things have the correct information instead of fanon #like on ao3 sneasler's canonized character tag is 'lady sneasler' and that's straight up false #pla #pokemon legends arceus #particularly blatant with #submas #not art #anyway yeah. it's super easy to just go back real quick and add on that tag to fics on ao3 #I've done it myself for my oldest stuff

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crystalflygeo · 5 months

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Babe wake up new picrew (?) just dropped https://www.neka.cc/composer/12705

You know the drill, do yourself and your f/o(s) <3 I wanna see everyone selfships ehe

@zhongrin @floraldresvi @moraxsthrone @silentmoths @ainescribe @zhxngii + anyone who wants!!

alt vers bc this is fun?? Might also do Li later ehehe

POV: you walked in on crylette at the chief justice's office

#picrew #tho not really?? idk #starting a chain/game myself and tagging my besties ehehehe <3 #crylette #GODS I'M SO SHACVHAJBCHA #it will forever upset me that the human ears and animal ears are separate but OK I GUESSSSSS

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uncanny-tranny · 2 years

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I think this topic is underdiscussed in the trans community, so I'd like to talk about it.

It's okay for trans people to mourn that some of us don't have the option to have children the way we'd like to. It is okay if a trans woman mourns that she is unable to become pregnant, for example, and there is no reason to shame her for how she feels. Equally, I think it can be inappropriate to tell us that there are other options besides "traditional" means of conception, like adoption. We know that there are other options, and that isn't the point.

I go back and forth on if I even want to be a father, and in both mindsets, I mourn that I don't have all the options I want to have children. It sucks. It really, really sucks. And it's hard to accept that this isn't my fault or my body's fault. That's the hardest part for me. But whether or not it's hard to accept, it isn't my fault - it isn't your fault, either, if you feel the same ways I do. Our bodies and our selves aren't the problem. We are not broken because we don't have all the options we'd like.

No matter how you feel about this topic, just know... you aren't a problem or a burden. No matter what your journey looks like, happiness and fulfillment can be found, eventually.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #dysphoria tw #i kind of ignored my distress about this but i think it's irresponsible of me to do that to myself #because i deserve to express my greif and anger about this. i'm allowed to and it is healthy for me to do so #i brought up that example because far too often trans women* are shamed if they wished to bear children through pregnancy...#...asterisk because it isn't only trans women who have this wish but unfortunately i only have so many characters per tag #i'd probably adopt but the adoption process is far from perfect and some of the shit adoptees have opened up about is really upsetting #adoption can be beautiful but it isn't a perfect solution and it isn't always going to be perfect #this has just been on my mind and i really wanted to talk about it #parenthood in the trans community matters and i wish it were discussed more

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not-your-bro · 8 months

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the closest paul hollywood's ever felt to god

#gbbo #great british bake off #gbbo 2023 #HAD to cap this sorry. the completely genuine delivery. we scream-laughed #and i'm upset about who was sent home this week so i have to make myself feel better somehow :((((

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awesomechocolatesauce · 7 months

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One of these days, I'll learn to stop getting upset and scroll past a bad take of Astarion and the blatant bi/pan erasure of them, but that day isn't today.

I also don't see it happening tomorrow.

Anyway, here's a screenshot of my female human bard and the canonically pansexual vampire elven man who adores her.

#'I DON'T KNOW HOW ANYONE CAN SEE HIM WITH A FEMALE' probably because he's pan???#I'm going to start blocking people on sight for this nonsense #I know it's not something worth getting upset about because he's a fictional character but I can't help myself #people who make posts like 'stop romancing him with a woman' just gets me so mad #he's canonically pansexual #also I paid $80 for this game so I'll play it however I damn well please 💕#baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 #bg3 astarion #astarion #astarion x tav #elayne the bard #astarion x elayne #jessica's personal stuff #text post #screenshots

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cowardlycowboys · 7 months

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looks at you with big sad brown eyes and asks if you still love me

#omg kiera no one cares #it's the mental illness srry #do u love me like i love u or do u want me to kill myself in front of you hypothetically #I'm getting ready 4 bed and being upset to fob

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ruanbaijie · 2 months

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我会保护你，保护你一辈子。无论是你的一辈子，还是我的一辈子。 ARCS OF THE SPIREALM 致命游戏 (2024) [in/sp]

@userdramas event 15 something new: a new show from 2024 @asiandramanet mar creator bingo board ⎈ typography ➻ notes for translations and motifs (spoilers!) used below the cut

Arc 1: 雪村 Snow Village

Quote: 一人不如庙，二人不观井，三人不抱树，独自莫凭栏 One person shall not enter the temple, two people shall not look into the well, three people shall not hug a tree, one shall not lean against the balustrade alone. - the death rules of this door

Motifs: a circle meant to represent the well, split into two to represent (what are assumed to be) the "real world" (top half) and "virtual world" (bottom half). note where rnz is placed

Arc 2: 菲尔夏鸟 Fitcher's Bird

Quote: 小老鼠搬鸡蛋，鸡蛋太大怎么办？一只老鼠地上躺，紧紧抱住大鸡蛋。一只老鼠拉尾巴，拉呀拉呀拉回家。小老鼠搬鸡蛋，鸡蛋太大怎么办？一只老鼠地上跑，紧紧抱住大鸡蛋。一只老鼠拉尾巴，拉呀拉呀拉回家。Little Mouse, carrying an egg, what shall it do if the egg is too big? Little Mouse, lying on the ground, tightly hugging the big egg. Little Mouse, pulling its tail, pulling and pulling and pulling it home. Little Mouse, carrying an egg, what shall it do if the egg is too big? Little Mouse, running on the ground, tightly hugging the big egg. Little Mouse, pulling its tail, pulling and pulling and pulling it home. - the creepy as hell nursery rhyme recited by the three girls

Motifs: broken egg, clock ticking backwards that's formed by the staircase that's rotating clockwise (which I realised was a neat little trick to hint that they were travelling forward in time) and the cut birthday cake

Arc 3: 阿姐鼓 Sister Drum

Quote: 她不见了，找不到她了 She's gone, I can't find her - the words written by the older sister in her diary

Motifs: top view of a Chinese drum, bamboo

Arc 4: 佐子 Zuozi

Quote: 我的腿没有了，你的给我好吗？My leg is gone, can you give me yours? - the death line of this door

Motifs: ripped pieces of paper, handwriting, slowly appearing words

Arc 5: 威福利山疗养院 Waverly Hills Sanatorium

Quote: 已经过了八点了，你们为什么不睡觉？It's already past 8pm, why are you still not asleep? - what the nurse says right before she starts chasing after the players who are outside their rooms

Motifs: room 502, overlapping but non-concentric circles representing a Russian doll

Arc 6: 雨中女郎 Woman in the Rain

Quote: 总不能是你一直保护我们吧 It can't always be you protecting us - what lqs says to convince rnz to let him go into the painting world

Motifs: picture frames shifting from scenes of the players to scenes of the door god and painting world, and back again

Arc 7: 哭儿郎 Crying Baby

Quote: 天惶惶，地惶惶，我家有个哭儿郎，过往恩客念三遍，一觉睡到大天光 Panic in the skies, panic on the earth, I have a crying baby at home, when the kind guest who passes by recites three times, they will sleep till the next morning - the line that will save you in this door. Interesting to note that there's actually a similar line that exists, except one of the changes is instead of 恩客 (ēn kè "kind guest"), it's 君子 (jūn zǐ "gentleman"), and while I translated 恩客 literally as "kind guest" here (what each of the individual characters means), the word itself actually in the past, used to refer to "benefactors" - the customers whom prostitutes fell in love with

Motifs: a lamp with lqs as the flames (vague hint at what rnz always tells lqs) and rnz as the base (note the orientation and negative colours), swirls meant to mimic water as in the book, this door was slightly more strongly related to the river god

Arc 8: 扫晴娘 Rain Doll

Quote: 如果这样，明天还是阴沉下雨的话，我就砍掉你的头 If it's still gloomy and rainy tomorrow, I will chop off your head - the line to recite in this door in order to make it rain

Motifs: umbrellas in the corners, a window (there's this one beautifully framed scene in this arc where they both open the windows of their room at the same time) showing the iconic nanqiu umbrella scene (each of them coloured differently on purpose) vs. the outside of the window with the rain dolls and additional rain overlay layer

Arc 9: 箱妖 Box Demon

Quote: 别看那个箱子，看我 Don't look at that box, look at me - what lqs tells rnz when he gets "hypnotised" to open the box

Motifs: diamonds forming 3d boxes

Full list of scenes used since this gif moves too quickly: rnz waking up from his "hypnosis", rnz and lqs staring at each other after rnz returns from his "death", cyx turning around to look at lqs when they thought rnz was dead, cql being pulled into the box, juxtaposition of rnz (upright) and ybl (upside down) in front of the stained glass windows, one of the box people in the box rnz nearly opened when he was "hypnotised", rnz being full of shit in front of everyone else (as usual)

Arc 10: 无解 Insoluble

Quote: 二人去一人归 Two people go, one person returns - the hint that appears consistently for the 11th door

Motifs: kaleidoscope of the final scene before rnz walks away

I put the two final doors (百鬼夜行 "Night Parade of Hundreds of Ghosts" and the "real" "12th" door) together because I really like how the hint applies for both the 11th door as well as the ending of the show

I also used 无解 "unsolvable" (the original name of the final chapter in the novel) for the name of this arc because of how short and simple it is, but also how it just summarises the 意难平 (idrk how to translate this, but sort of like the bittersweet feelings, being unable to let go of the past) of this arc and the entire show. Just like how there was no way to solve the 11th door with a happy ending for both people (assuming only two people went in lol), there was no way to solve the 12th door and the entire game with a happy ending for both rnz and lqs

However, instead of translating 无解 as "unsolvable", I used "insoluble" instead as it sounds just a little more poetic and is more symmetrical, and also hints at how lqs's memories of and feelings for rnz, whether his whole experience was a dream or otherwise, never dissolved with time 🥲

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nose-coffee · 11 months

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does anybody want to talk abt how the first of nona's mortal wounds when she starts falling apart in front of the Tomb is over her heart? anybody at all?

#shrieking into the void #lying in a huge puddle on the road in the rain #fuck off lou #my post #tlt #the locked tomb #ntn #nona the ninth #nona tlt #parallels #i'm fine. just making myself upset randomly over nothing #it's just that it opened up over her HEART #going to vomit on the floor i'm so upset

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bleaksqueak · 3 months

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While i work I've been listening to an LP of the Telltale Walking Dead Games (the ones with clementine, I do not care about the others lmao). Ages ago when I played these I was well aware/amused that part of season 2 takes place in Parker's Crossroads/Parker's Run because I grew up right next to it and the detail stood out to me. But I never caught the line of "We'll head to parker's run. It's just up the road from here" until just right now. So I had a sort of "wait, where the fuck are they supposed to be right now?" (search)

ARE YOU SHITTING ME LMAO So by process of elimination, since it's the only city with anything even remotely resembling a large home supply store, that would mean they're in my literal hometown. My tiny hometown in the middle of nowhere that's never in anything that barely anyone knows of. How in the fuck lmao

#shut up pu #random stuff #I guess Howe's would be our Co-Op #I moved away forever ago but my brain often still returns to that tiny town. the biggest city in henderson county. lmaoo #Did they just randomly pick a place on the map for the location... parker's crossroads/run surprised me but it's at least more of a thing #i'm upset with myself for never picking up on that before #sorry telltale but we never had a comic book store you have to go all the way over to the next county for that #also your geography's wrong it's east tennessee that has mountains #west tennessee is all hills #i'm being nitpicky but it's out of amusement #of all the places to end up in a zamboni apocalypse #my poor girl clem lucky she made it out at all #lmao I strongly dislike this series all BUT these games with clementine #and I love her so much #goes to show what a good likable character can do #anyway I'm upset that you don't get to go raid the dairyqueen in season 2 #maybe this is an odd thing to post about but I literally come from a #“the nearest starbucks is 40 minutes away” level of tiny nowhere town #and playing this game when it first came out only to realize this detail about a decade later made me spit my drink out

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