The boypussy art is having an small peak. Heres an remake i made some time ago so just i can throw this somewhere

I noticed you weren't posting much for a while, you seem more active now adays and I hope you're doing okay! Say hi to Hugo!

omg... I appreciate the concern!! I'm not great but I am feeling better rn than I have been, and do not currently have a gun in my hand. also Hugo says hi back.

Unnecessarily Complex Fit

Cringetober 2023

i don't always know what words to say (rn for example) but i often see you guys' posts and go 💖💖🥹 would it be ok with you guys if i just left hearts and other emojis in your replies???

Ok, I'm burnt out, pretty grumpy, and having a really hard time, so I'll be turning asks off for awhile. Posting will be more sporadic. I know I don't have to announce things like this, I figure I'll let people know so they don't think I'm ignoring them or anything. I'm just having a shit time, y'all.

Take care, everyone.

you know what i miss the most? a stable mental state

Oh! I've seen a lot of female Miguel O'hara ideas floating around? Do you think the features would translate well on a more feminine headshot? Or not really?

Uhh, well. Maybe this is a weird, and perhaps kinda hot take. But I'm just not really a fan of genderbending characters. I just… don't really get the point. It's obviously totally fine to fiddle around with the concept, I'm not a complete hater! But it's just so often I see people turn the scruffy, burly, "imperfect" character into a sexy, hot, big titty, big ass, air-brushed babe and slap the genderbend label on it. It gives off this weird vibe that the character is only worthy of love if they have sex appeal...

Maybe I'm super weird about it, idk, but I would love to hear a different opinion. And obviously, if you don't agree, it's all good! It just leaves such an odd taste in my mouth.

To actually answer your question though lmao, I don't really think you can completely translate his features, but you can get pretty close, and I've seen it too! But yeah, I'm sorry, I'm probably not gonna be drawing my own version 😅

I've had a realization after reading a post on twitter why I can watch Bad's entire streams without break, yet can't with others.

It's because he makes it accessible for everyone! He's not overly loud and is rarely around people being extremely loud unless necessary (when the Brazilians were added to the qsmp, god the stream up to where Bad, Jaiden and Slime went to look for the eggs hurt me from how loud everyone else was), he doesn't make jokes that make me uncomfortable as he's family friendly (s3x jokes, dck jokes, swearing every other sentence that sort of thing make me uncomfortable. Nothing against the people who do but it makes me extremely uncomfortable so I can't watch then), if there's something he knows could cause people problems he'll warn people multiple times before it happens to make sure, with QSMP he makes sure everyone watching can understand what he's saying and so much more!

I tend to have severe auditory issues where any loud noise can upset me or make my head hurt so watching someone who's rarely unexpectedly loud and has a calm voice lets me watch comfortably.

His chat is just as good too! I usually don't like to make comments or send messages on things but I've been able to without worry during his streams! The QSMP stream where Foolish, Roier and Max met up with Bad when looking for alarms made my head hurt as the other 3 were so loud. I mentioned it in chat as others were talking about it and people tried to help (I already had my volume right down and they were still too loud for me to handle) and Bad even turned down their volume in game to try help! He'd wonder off from the group at times when they were being really loud too.

It just makes me really happy I can watch his streams without having to worry about feeling uncomfortable because of things he says, jokes he makes or getting overwhelmed by the amount of noise being made.

... Mhm

The more stuff about bkdk that Hori draws, the more it feels like their hearts are on a direct path to each other. That bkdk isn’t even about possibilities anymore... because their feelings of love finally connecting to each other feels like an inevitability. After every shounen I’ve read up until now, it’s like I’ve slipped onto another timeline that shouldn’t exist but it does and we’re in it right now. It’s got me all blissed out like Kacchan when his last thoughts were of Izuku. I dont know how else to describe this feeling. It’s a very strange and surreal time right now...

My cat just ran outside while I was taking my dog out to the bathroom, refuses to come back while calling her and shaking food at her. Actively runs in the opposite direction. And ofc someone broke the laser pointer I keep on my keys so I can't trick her back into the apartment. I'm so pissed that shit broke off, all my other crappy keychains are still attached. The laser was how I got her back last time she escaped but she'd only taken a few steps out and I was able to snatch her.

And I'm not supposed to have her so I can't even notify the apartment complex a cat is missing 😐 guess she's an outdoor cat now :/

Huge fan of Furina being the worst fucking wingman for Neuvillette btw.

She gets the faintest whiff that Neuvillette is having emotions and she's all over it.

She's not subtle about anything. Most of the "facts" she knows about romance are via cheesy novels that she's read over the years. The same novels that she gives to Neuvillette and is ADAMANT that these will help him understand human emotion. They don't, but he appreciates the effort.

She's tried multiple times to schedule bullshit meetings between you and Neuvillette just so he can see you and try to talk with you (you and Neuvillette already meet almost every day because he finds himself stealing time to talk with you and learn more about you). There's like, five notes from "Neuvillette" on your desk that are so clearly written by Furina. The number of times she's tried to spy on you and Neuvillette to see if he's taking her advice is overcome by the fact that she's so obviously staring at the two of you the whole time like 👁👁

Busts into his office at any given free moment he has, ignores his exhausted sigh at knowing what's coming, and practically shouts, "Have you kissed them yet?!"

Hydro Archon who? Archon of "getting the Chief Justice to stop hiding in his office and acknowledge that he's in love" 💅🏾 (she is very bad at it but you can't just tell her that -)

do yall ever think about how weird wash's fight scene in s12 is? specifically, that moment where he does that sideways flip while shooting (I believe) at felix? like wash is an enjoyer of combat rolls, my man is always rolling, but that one flip is a flashy, and dare I say, unnecessary move for wash to use.

I also find it interesting that they had him use his sidearm instead of his battle rifle, since in previous cqc situations wash has always used blades or blade like objects such as the epsilon unit. the only times I recall him using a magnum off the top of my head is when he shot south in s6, when he shot donut in s8, and when he threatened carolina in s10. if wash busting out his magnum, it's always symbolic of him letting some part of his personal feelings guide his actions, because shooting someone with a sidearm meant for close range is more intimate than using his primary mid/long range weapon.

this was obviously not the case in the s12 fight, and they probably did it just because it looked cool, but idk that's my random wash thought of the day.

I just want to crawl into bed and hide underneath my duvet for like a month but I have to go be a functioning caregiver in like half an hour, I have no idea how people do this full time when it's already breaking me to be a part time caregiver

It honestly feels so unfair that (most) bullies just get on with their lives like nothing ever happened once they're done bullying you. And the victim is left picking up the pieces of who they once were for many years to come, never able to fully reconstruct what was broken by those people, and having to learn to live with that pain and with feeling like something was irreversibly taken from them.

Having been excluded, harassed, verbally abused, and physically assaulted throughout my entire life has left me with so much damage that I'm still not able to simply be. I can't just live my life. I have to put in a lot of work and effort with therapy to even get to a point where I could possibly work, let alone go to university. There are more reasons for that than the bullying, but it's the biggest cause for my current state. It's my most intense trigger. It's why I have complex-PTSD and why I can't have a single day of peace. Because I've been stuck in survival mode since I can think.

And it just doesn't feel fair to me, and I'm not going to pretend like I'm not bitter about that. I'm not going to pretend like it doesn't upset me and make me angry. I'm not going to pretend like I didn't wish every day that it had been different. I'm not going to pretend like my dreams for my life and future feel unattainable now because of the bullying I had to endure.

it feels so stupid that i got like. actual trauma from a shitty job situation because it was objectively Not That Bad as a situation. but it was bad in a way that uniquely dovetailed with my existing issues and trauma, and thus this Not That Bad situation fucked me up to the point of missing work due to panic attacks eight months later, emotional flashbacks well over a year later, a destroyed or at least very damaged relationship with my faith and faith communities, and, y'know, an actual therapist going "yeah no that's complex trauma for sure"

and like. when i try to explain it to anyone without 10 years of backstory it sounds like i'm making a big deal out of quite a small thing but unfortunately there is ten years of backstory, and there's also two years of backstory where this situation was more or less my first sustained human contact since before the pandemic and i had been living completely alone for 18 months and was all the way fucked up already because of that, without having realised as much and therefore without having proper coping strategies in place for that

but that is the thing about trauma. and the thing you don't really get from pop-culture depictions of it. sometimes it's not capital-T Trauma, life-threatening event or obvious harm or anything that people would think of as trauma. sometimes it's somebody dropping an object onto the already cracked glass table of your brain and just fucking shattering it. wouldn't have happened if it wasn't already cracked. object wasn't that heavy. but if it hits at just the right angle... boom, glass everywhere