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endlessnightskyshoutsback · 1 year

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i had a dream that tumblr rebranded to make the website called "tumplr."

#still thinking abt that.#shitpost #what am i talking about #shit i say #tumblrstuff #tumblrtextpost #tumblrgirl #i'll show myself out then #what now brain #shit post #shitpost galore #shitposting #funny shit #pmseymourva #tumblr text post #tumblr struggles #late night #late night tumblr

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cookinguptales · 1 year

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You know... I had an experience about two months ago that I didn't talk about publicly, but I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately and I guess I'm finally able to put my unease into words.

So there's a podcast I'd been enjoying and right after I got caught up, they announced that they were planning on doing a live show. It's gonna be near me and on the day before my birthday and I thought -- hey, it's fate.

But... as many of you know, I'm disabled. For me, getting to a show like that has a lot of steps. One of those steps involved emailing the podcasters to ask about accessibility for the venue.

The response I got back was very quick and very brief. Essentially, it told me to contact the venue because they had no idea if it was accessible or not.

It was a bucket of cold water, and I had a hard time articulating at the time quite why it was so disheartening, but... I think I get it a little more now.

This is a podcast that has loudly spoken about inclusivity and diversity and all that jazz, but... I mean, it's easy to say that, isn't it? But just talking the talk without walking the walk isn't enough. That's like saying "sure, we will happily welcome you in our house -- if you can figure out how to unlock the door."

And friends, my lock-picking set is pretty good by this point. I've been scouting out locations for decades. I've had to research every goddamn classroom, field trip, and assigned bookstore that I've ever had in an academic setting. I've had to research every movie theater, theme park, and menu for every outing with friends or dates. I spend a long time painstakingly charting out accessible public transportation and potential places to sit down every time I leave the house.

Because when I was in college, my professors never made sure their lesson plans were accessible. (And I often had to argue with them to get the subpar accommodations I got.) Because my friends don't always know to get movie tickets for the accessible rows. Because my dates sometimes leave me on fucking read when I ask if we can go to a restaurant that doesn't keep its restrooms down a flight of stairs.

I had one professor who ever did research to see if I could do all the coursework she had planned, and who came up with alternate plans when she realized that I could not. Only one. It was a medical history and ethics class, and my professor sounded bewildered as she realized how difficult it is to plan your life when you're disabled.

This woman was straight-up one of the most thoughtful, philosophical, and ethical professors I've ever had, one who was incredibly devoted to diversity and inclusion -- and she'd never thought about it before, that the hospital archives she wanted us to visit were up a flight of stairs. That the medical museum full of disabled bodies she wanted us to visit only had a code-locked back entrance and an old freight elevator for their disabled guests who were still breathing.

And that's the crux of it, isn't it? It's easy to theoretically accept the existence of people who aren't like you. It's a lot harder to actively create a space in which they can exist by your side.

Because here's what I did before I contacted the podcasters. I googled the venue. I researched the neighborhood and contacted a friend who lives in the area to help me figure out if there were any accessible public transportation routes near there. (There aren't.) I planned for over an hour to figure out how close I could get before I had to shell out for an uber for the last leg of the trip.

Then I read through the venue's website. I looked through their main pages, through their FAQs to see if there was any mention of accessibility. No dice. I download their packet for clients and find out that, while the base building is accessible, the way that chairs/tables are set up for individual functions can make it inaccessible. So it's really up to who's hosting the show there.

So then and only then I contacted the podcasters. I asked if the floor plan was accessible. I asked if all the seats were accessible, or only some, and whether it was open seating or not. Would I need to show up early to get an accessible seat, or maybe make a reservation?

And... well, I got the one-sentence reply back that I described above. And that... god, it was really disheartening. I realized that they never even asked if their venues were accessible when they were booking the shows. I realized that they were unwilling to put in the work to learn the answers to questions that disabled attendees might have. I realized that they didn't care to find out if the building was accessible.

They didn't know and they didn't care. That, I think, is what took the wind out of my sails when they emailed me back. It's what made me decide that... yeah, I didn't really want to go through the trouble of finding an accessible route to the venue. I didn't want to have to pay an arm and a leg to hire a car to take me the last part of the journey. I didn't want to make myself frantic trying to figure out if I could do all that and still make the last train home.

If they didn't care, I guess I didn't either.

If they'd apologized and said that the only venue they could get was inaccessible, I actually would have understood. I know that small shows don't always get their pick of venues. I get it. I even would have understood if they'd been like "oh dang, I actually don't know -- but I'll find out."

But to be told that they didn't know and didn't intend to find out... oof. That one stung.

Because.... this is the thing. This is the thing. I may be good at it by now, but I'm so tired of picking locks. I'm tired of doing all the legwork because no one ever thinks to help me. I'm tired of feeling like an afterthought at best, or at worst utterly unwelcome.

If you truly want to be inclusive, you need to stop telling people that you're happy to have them -- if they can manage to unlock the door. You need to fucking open it yourself and welcome them in.

What brought all this back to me now, you may be asking? Well... I guess it's just what I was thinking to myself as I was tidying up my phone.

Today I'm deleting podcasts.

#I guess it did save me a lot of money #I'll still probably go up to nyc to visit with friends for my bday but I won't go all the way out to brooklyn for the show #and I probably won't need to get the hotel room #and I DEFINITELY won't be supporting their patreon like I was planning lmao #I'll buy myself a new tarot deck for my birthday instead #cw:#disability #ableism

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theabigailthorn · 5 months

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spent ages preparing to audition for a role I really really wanted and it's looking like (still unconfirmed) they might not even be holding auditions at all but have just given it to someone directly

which, meh, that sucks but that's the industry!

I'm just like now what? I spent a lot of my free time the last few months prepping and I genuinely don't know what to do with myself now!

#guess I'll... have a bath?#call my mum?#keep prepping anyway on the off chance the rumours are false?#I already asked my agent to investigate but she can't find out either!#that's hollywood baybeeee #sorry mario your blorbo is in another show #I should get myself a treat as a reward for all my hard work even though it didn't work out #I have 3 criteria for this sort of thing and if I tick them all off I can walk away happy #Did I approach it from curiosity not ambition?#Did I make it known in the industry that I wanted the role?#Did I prepare for the role?#I did all three of those things so audition or no audition I can hold my head up high #might get myself one of those nice cookie dough brownies from the coffee stand this week as a consolation prize

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sergle · 4 months

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I think I'm going to make a temperature blanket this year

#generally people would plan for this earlier. but. I only JUST thought of it last night #I'm considering like a mood blanket / mental health blanket or whatev instead. one of those alternate concepts #but I FEEL LIKE categorizing my mood / mental health day by day would do something to me #and I don't really want to tell on myself that hard. showing off the finished blanket and ppl going oohh... there's a lot of this color!#what mood are these two colors for!#and i'm gonna have to crumple up my color key chart and eat it before they can find out #idk maybe I'll still try that way. but temperature just feels more like. yeaahahhhhh go with the flow buddy #I bought a ton of yarn recently bc there was a black friday sale and I was grabbin skeins for $2 so I shouldn't really need to do shopping #maybe pick up another color or two. but I can probably just bust out my own stash I already have #sergle.txt #crochetposting

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crowleys-hips · 19 days

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guys look at this cool picture i got from the eclipse yesterday

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niinnyu · 2 months

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Ass artment of sketches haha...

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whitestnoise · 7 months

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#the fall of the house of usher #mike flanagan #tfothou #tfothouedit #flanaverse #(mine)#(i was looking for a generic gif set to put my little thoughties in the tags but there aren't any???)#(or not yet maybe??? hrmpff so i'll do it myself then!)#it really is becoming a flanaverse - again there were little things and phrasings carried over from the other shows #i can only remember the carcass of a house right now but there were more #i can't wait to see everybody's little posts and theories and comparisons!!! 😻#what i haven't seen yet and will come up probably is the angle of the opiod epidemic #some speeches sounded like they came right our of the other netflix series painkiller #which makes me think those quotes might be verbatim lifted from real life although they are so out there that they sound made up (?)#i don't know enough about it but it struck me as too much of a coincidence #spoilers

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ariadne-mouse · 1 year

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celestial AND a beast... holy cow

#cr spoilers #c3e53 #op #critical role #i'll show myself out

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scentedcandlecryptid · 5 months

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Impulse and Kid Flash racing in my comic/show crossover!

@givemewallywestorgivemedeath I think you mentioned these two racing in my main post, so this one's for you XDD

#I think that Impulse is canonically a lot faster than Kid Flash... but tbh #I felt bad for KF so they tied cause Impulse got distracted from this whole new universe.#or something idk XD #young justice cartoon meets young justice 1998 #young justice cartoon #young just us #young justice 1998 #kid flash #wally west #impulse #bart allen #drew this as a little treat for myself #I love bart so much #i missed him #I really need to read more of the comic and watch more of the show #but shhh it's fine #tbh I don't have any plot for this crossover #but I want it so bad #so I'll keep making art for it until I figure something out.

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chocokano · 14 days

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a sequence of events (smooching more like stealing)

+ extras under cut

#if the show won't give more content of them i'll do it myself #friespinel nation has been a bit dead lately this is my attempt to rejuvenate it #friespinel #amethiosanguishshipping #had to add an amethio in anguish to live up to the name #pokemon horizons #pokeani #anipoke #pokemon spinel #spinel pokemon #pokemon friede #friede pokemon #sorry for being cringe i will do it again #my art #i think spinel should lose his composure more. as a treat #let him freak out let him (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)#there's supposed to be more but the read more thing is NOT COOPERATING.#it keeps replacing everything with amethio when i add a third image.. fly high extra doodle you will be missed

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sapphire-drawings · 11 days

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Sorry to bother you Sapphire but I came upon a song that gave me MAJOR Triumphet Wilson aka Shadow King Wilson vibes! It is called MIRABEL'S VILLAIN SONG - We Don't Talk About Bruno | ANIMATIC | Disneys Encanto by Lydia the Bard. I can just SEE Wilson as Mirabel singing this to the other survivors, Maxwell and Charlie! You should give it a listen! It is pretty good!

It's never too late to reply!! Isn't that right whoever asked this LAST JULY!!!!?

I apologize but also LOOK I DREW TRIUMPHANT WILSON AGAIN! HE'S SO COOL AND I LOVE DRAWING MY DST SHIT AGAIN

And yeah, I can see the T.Wilson vibes with the song

#I've been trying to do convention stuff. ok? Also I sort of burnt out and/or got kinda sad. Pick your poison #dst wilson #triumphant skins #dont starve together #dont starve #chafi replies #one day I'll learn to reply faster but for now I got a lot to doodle lmao #KEEP THEM ASKS FUCKING COMING!!#are the eyes spooky enough??? I'm scared of those type of pictures but I also want to make them myself #Just imagine Charlie showing those big eyes of her~

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stagefoureddiediaz · 1 month

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sorry but I can't stop thinking about Eddie 'playing' jell-o body around the station when he's trying to will away boners caused by Buck just being buck 😳🫣🤭

#I'll show myself out #but you can't tell me he doesn't #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 abc

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estiniens-ponytail · 3 months

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nothing but the most sweeping romantic gestures this valentine's day

#bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #bsd #bsd manga #valentine card #valentine's day card #this popped into my head and i couldnt rest until it was made reality #bsd spoilers #bsd 112 #bsd dazai #bsd fyodor #i'll show myself out

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raayllum · 1 month

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It'll never be the same. Because of Rayla. To me, this'll always just be the anniversary... of the day she left.

—Junot Díaz

#rayllum #rayllumedit #caylangst #death by a thousand cuts era #quotes #he said the one on the actual pictures in case that wasn't clear #and caption from 4x01 #bc boy was sad and adamant #sadamant if you will (yes i'll show myself out)#my edits #graphics #multi #s3 #s4

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pharawee · 9 months

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st-danger · 11 months

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I would like to suggest a name for the new ghoul.

I know I'm late throwin' my hat into the ring, and I think everyone is latched onto Phantom now, but I would like to present to you all an idea and my manifesto as to why.

Aeon.

For a few reasons, being as follows:

1.) Aeon represents an indefinite and long period of time. Quintessence, the fifth element, was thought to be a unknown and magickal element known to make up the cosmos. A powerful element found in every aspect of nature, and what modern physicists refer to now as dark matter, believed to make something like 65% of the energy in the observable universe. Quintessence being timeless and existing infinitely, for aeons and aeons and aeons...

2.) Aeons play a role in Gnostic creation myth. They were said to be the personification of the idea of knowing. As in supreme consciousness, from the mind of God. In a few Gnostic systems, the Aeon of wisdom rebelled against the order and became the Aeon of Chaos.

3.) Aeons were a concept from our favourite occultist (next to me) Aleister Crowley as part of his mysticism and religious system Thelema. The idea was that each history of civilization was divided and grouped with a different (Egyptian) deity, and different magickal and religious expressions would occur under these.

4.) Aeon shares the same "ae" as Aether and honestly that fucks.

In conclusion,

A short and snappy name that plays into the idea of a vast and unknowable magickal substance that began long ago and will continue forever. Something ethereal. Also has bonus religious and occult connotations.

#I'll show myself out #st-speaks #ghost #the band ghost #ghost headcanons #phantom ghoul #aeon ghoul #nameless ghouls

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