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beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff · 3 months

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played the snippet of von dutch to my dad yesterday and he went 'oh the liverpool clubs are gonna have great fun with that one' what do you MEAN

#i wasnt really listening and i went #“yeah-”#cut myself off and glared at him #genuinely not sure why but i cant tell if its a good thing or not.#like do you mean club music is bad or ?????????????#stop being cryptic #blah blah!#personal stuff

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beeduoo · 1 month

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wonderful

#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭#ctubbo #michael beloved #ctubbo fanart #Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this #so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her #stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w #hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY #BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS #So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi #ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i #RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!!#I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening #IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever #I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it #lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss....#I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt #too dead to do al that...#Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye

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puppyeared · 21 days

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whenever someone asks me for help or advice i want to beam all my lived experience and advice that helped me through it directly into their mind to try and spare them as much pain and stress as possible, but because i cant actually do that what ends up happening is i dump everything i know related to that topic hoping something helps them like

#and yes. i am the older sibling i am quite literally the guinea pig by birthright #its hardwired into me to make thing as painless as possible for my little brother that it ends up becoming a huge part of my personality #but i also have adhd so my version of advice is 'blurt out everything that might be even a little related to the situation #and pray that something sticks with them'#also like its hard to describe but sometimes you wont really get what someone means because its just the wrong person or wrong time #when i was a kid my dad would explain how to solve a math problem and i wouldnt get it until someone else explained it to me #and something *clicked*. and then when id tell my dad i learned smth new he'd say i LITERALLY said the same thing you just #werent listening or smth. but its not that at all.. i cant really know what its like for smth to click until it happens #i used to think i wasnt ace bc everything i saw talking abt asexuality didnt ring any bells until i found someone talking abt #something that i DID resonate with and then i went from there. so i guess what im trying to say its one thing to share what i learned #and another thing for someone to go through something or hear it from someone else to really get what i mean. shrugs #yapping

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tsukana · 5 months

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i think im really sad that im feeling bitter abt this bc like. despite the fact that ppl are saying oh yeah its purgatory its never fair. i have a bad taste in my mouth that for once it feels like its not bc of player action its partially to do with weird ruling by the admins on the event (re: the essentially. disregarding of the event points on elimination which i still kinda dont get why they couldnt just retally the points since they had the numbers?)

#tsu talks #qsmp crit #qsmp discourse #i mean yeah i was rooting for sneeg but also. i hate that he's blaming himself that if he hadnt spoken up theyd have lost anyway. bc it #wasnt his fault?#and not trying to hate on the admins at all or anything. but despite saying the wrng names #recalculating the scores and just Saying what the score makeup was wouldve solved everything without making streamers need to stream beyond #what they expected on a day that shouldve been primarily abt the egg wars event?#anwyyas shutting up now. this isnt meant to be a super neg or something post this is mostly just me reflecting on the way i feel abt today #and the way today went and the way the event went today. i still had a good time so far #and like i said. i feel sad that i feel this way bc i dont WANT to feel this way. btu like. what can i do abt that yknow. thats just how im #feeling. i really wanna enjoy the event but honestly now that sneegs out he was rly the only purg2 pov i was watching lmao. id watch #etoiles but i cant read translations while im listening at work </3

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abirddogmoment · 10 months

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The problem about Mav having been a take everywhere kind of dog is that I can deeply feel his absence no matter what I'm doing or where I am.

#this isnt meant to be a devastating post #but the fact of the matter is that im seeing mav everywhere #he got so many good adventures in his short life #but it means that most places i visit i have previously visited with him #i went on this gorgeous camping trip this weekend #and all i could think about was how mav was with me (and loved it) the last time i was there #there wasnt really any aspect of my life that wasnt deeply entwined with my dog #every hike i did was planned for dog enrichment #every trip i took was paced so he could get out and stretch his leggies and sniff the wind #i just drove four straight hours because there was no need to stop and it felt??? bad???#every time i roll down the window to look at a bird i listen for his comically loud sniff from his crate #(luckily pike does fill that niche when shes in my car - she loudly sniffs everytime we roll windows down and it brings me joy)#im doing reasonably okay all things considered #(i mean within expectations - im still crying about losing mav most days)#but his absence is palpable no matter what im doing #and that sucks so much

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astranauticus · 7 months

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Guess what i fucking did it

#rolling with difficulty #art i made #rwd #wow im so glad im finally free from this. honestly #surprisingly this did not ruin the song for me?#cuz last time i made an animatic (/first time i made an animatic) it was set to drowning sorrows by mao buyi #so. two for two on animatics using cpop songs nobody on this side of the internet has heard before #and i could not listen to that song for like a YEAR afterwards #killed stone dead by overplay #interesting. anyway #in my planning spreadsheet the last two frames were written as 'how??' for the longest time bc my original plans only went up until like #the end of the lyrics?#then i realised the outro for this song is fucking long so like i needed to add something there but i wasnt sure what for really long #basically my point is the last two frames of MR-SN was. absolutely not planned from the start but oh boy #not to like gas myself up but like #i watched this once through again after uploading to youtube bc youtube.. really did not want to upload this in full quality for some reaso #and that time around that ending really broke through the whole 'i always get really desensitised to my own art' thing #yeah.#Youtube #as a side note if you're curious the character behind VR-LA in the thumbnail is 马 ->#chinese name of the song #bc can you imagine how fucking ominous it would look if i just wrote HIM really big behind him #so no. just this once i'm going w the chinese option

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jojotier · 3 months

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can dogs get dementia or is my elderly little dog just pacing around bc titi isnt home so she doesn't want to sit

#sam's thinkin again #she did this a lot too when titi went to bed last night #and she didnt seem to understand 'go lay down' when i told her but then like #when i stood up and told her again she listened. and shes always been a bit stubborn and wasnt really properly trained so she just sometime #doesnt listen #ellie mae what in the world is with you

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bluejaybytes · 6 months

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hey does anyone want to guess what video game i went autistic for this year. any guesses. any guesses. any guesses-

#i think what really makes this is that you can tell i was listening to the burning shores soundtrack before it officially released #bc all of the burning shores specific ones are from before the soundtrack actually dropped #shoutout to the one normal song on here.#and directly below all of the HFW music was all of the splat music #viddy games..........#also this implies i 'went autistic for' in the sense i wasnt before and am now. untrue. ive been on an insane autism high from hfw-#-since its release. it just got stronger over time

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mathswizard · 9 months

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dear god its just hitting me that Steven Moffats doctor who wasnt that good.

#matt smith was my childhood and peter capaldi is my all time favourite doctor #but i cant deny. that era wasnt actualyl very good #Russel T Davies knew what he was doing tho #drunk posting #chris chibnall was bad all around and I think my reaction to steven moffat would be similar to my reaction to chris chibnall #if i went from being raised on russel t davies then moving on to moffat but i started on moffat so #8 yr old me loved matt smiths vibe #in fairness tho there are some really good episodes from moffats run but in terms of seasonal arcs n overall quality of episodes...#I LOVED LISTEN AND I LOVED MUMMY ON THE ORIENT EXPRESS AND I LOVED FLATLINE AND I LOVED HEAVEN SENT #and i even love the characters. clara and 12....

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acesammy · 4 months

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just took so much psychic damage listening to the live performance of fast car

#it was incredible dont get me wrong #but i had completely forgotten how much i listened to that song from june-november of this last year #i think it was second on my most listened playlist #and i'm now faced with the unfortunate truth that it now brings back a lot of really tough things #the first note hit and i was like. fuck. i was listening to this song when so so many pieces of my life imploded #almost started weeping #had the same experience a couple days ago when fucking. people like us started playing at a family dinner #i was INSTANTLY shot back to looping that song just trying to force myself through the day a couple months ago #fast car is a different experience tho bc i just happened to be listening to it when some real bullshit went down in my life #so now i'm like fuck dude i love this song and i /wasnt/ using it as an emotional crutch but now it reminds me of [redacted]#ALSO #fuck my ENTIRE life but carry on my wayward son is now one of these things for me too #list of things i have in common with the winchesters: carry on wayward son was playing as my brother died #(i know that it wasnt diegetic in spn but fuck man)#vent #lea speaks

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doodlebloo · 2 years

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Do you guys ever think about how (as far as we know) c!Tubbo arguably made the right choice by deciding to never open up to c!Ranboo... Because c!Ranboo (when Enderwalking) retains all his memories and works alongside c!Dream anyway. So although c!Tubbo doesn't know it, his paranoia is actually keeping him safe, because the less info c!Ranboo knows the less he has the ability to tell c!Dream... Not that c!Ranboo necessarily would, but it sucks that like... c!Tubbo probably beats himself up for not wanting to share anything with his sweet and loyal husband, not even knowing that sharing the wrong stray detail about c!Tommy could have caused something disastrous. Like c!Tubbo was right to be a closed book and that shit hurts to think about!!!

#i need Ranboo to explain cRanboo so bad.#one of the only things i care about anymore. pls just tell me why a version of cRanboo with all his memories WHICH BTW #HIS MEMORIES WOULD INCLUDE THE DISC FINALE. Why that version of cRanboo would willingly help cDream.#Even IF cDream went ''oh i wasnt really gonna kill Tubbo it was staged also its good that New Lmanberg was exploded by me''#and even IF cRanboo wasnt told why the prison tnt needed to be set off & therefore didnt know hed be hurting cTommy #how could he work with someone who he knows has hurt cTubbo like that. If he genuinely cared.#and i think about that a LOT a lot bc like. We see all these glimpses of cRanboo just... not listening to what cTubbo is saying.#the warning about cWilbur in ho16 is a good example but also just about history and Lmanberg in general... cRanboo sort of gives off the #vibe that he thinks he knows better than cTubbo does. That he thinks he knows what cTubbo needs and what's best for him #but also that he like... idk i just have thought about it a lot and worryingly i think he could become similar to c!Technoblade eventually.#Not in the ''violence is the only universal language'' way but in the way of like ''as soon as someone doesnt agree w my ideals and feels #differently than I do they have lost my respect and protection until they Prove themself and Earn it back'' type deal. not NOW i dont think #cRanboo is like that NOW but... Everyone always says ''cRanboo grow a backbone'' but he DID... While enderwalking.#ew!Ranboo is him with a backbone and apparently the him with a backbone does not care if he hurts his loved ones.#like cRanboo is part of the problem of people brushing aside cTubbo's grief and pain like it doesnt matter. cRanboo helping cDream has the #same energy as cJack trying to kill cTommy. this sort of ''he'll get over it'' mentality about cTubbo that assumes that just because he HAS #in the past been able to ''bounce back'' from indescribable loss that means things dont bother him or he can do it easily #so like. i do believe cRanboo isnt unsalvageable. i think the parts of him WE see are very much just misguided and not intentionally #hurtful. but sometimes i think abt Ranboo saying he was gonna make it so no one could be an apologist for cRanboo and I think like #what Memory does ew!Ranboo regaun that suddenly makes it fine for him to hurt his loved ones? for ''Dream Is The Reason'' to completely #disappear for him? is cDream offering him something he cant refuse or god forbid does ew!Ranboo just AGREE with him?#that to me is like. Once i know that i can be at peace. thats like one of the only things I'll be genuinely upset if it isnt explained #bc when i tell you it has been haunting me for like a year.#ok sorry for the rant and sorry boobers if i messed up some lore details lol #doodle.txt

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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Have you ever heard the Pillar Men theme from JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure? If so, then which RGG characters should have it as a theme song?

you can't just snatch the theme from the gods and throw it on any average joe bro that shit CRAFTED for the immortals only

#snap chats #also i have no idea it really doesnt fit anyone LMAO #tho i have to tell a story now because i used to have the pillar men theme as my ringtone #and one faithful day in my high school math class while my math teacher was giving a lecture #my phone went off at full volume and even tho i shut it off real quick and no one really made a note of it #shit was mortifying and the second most embarrassing moment in math class i ever experienced #ps this math teacher i had was lowkey intimidating as hell #like i mean i cant shit talk him cause. cause highkey he's prob how i'd act as a math teacher LMAO #but point is he's bullied kids for less and listen my mental health was even worse back then #so i wasnt ready to handle gettin dogged on for my loud ass ringtone but LUCKILY like i said no one made note of it #also ps on that teacher he was a cool teacher even if he was blunt and kinda abrasive #but i cant even blame him cause Again id prob be the same or i'd think the same lmaoooo

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siobhanromee · 5 months

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why does no one understand the importance of privacy any more (/nobody here)

#Like my irl friends are not totally freaked out by the whole live 365 thing #Like I HATE the idea that someone can know where you are at all times #It's so scary #And then if you voice this opinion #People are like are you trying to hide something? And the thing is I want to be able to should i need to #Like i dont want people asking why I'm going to a certain doctor or why I shop where I shop #Or like who's house I'm at #And I know it is genuine concern on the part of some people but it's so fucking scary #And then theres the whole instagram thingy #Which I only really have bc I hate being left out #and it makes it really easy to start conversation bc someone can post that they went to a movie and I can say oh I saw that one did u enjoy #And so on and so forth #But like I dont like that everyone has to have it and wants to have yours #And my brother who I detest came into my room and was like what are you trying to hide #When I turned off my phone #Like I wasnt even doing anything other than watching a youtube video abt conservative book banning #Which he would find boring. And I dont want him to know what I'm watching because I hate him and I dont want him to know what I care abt #Bc anything I care abt can be something he can bully me over #And he never fucking listens when I tell him to stop. Not sure how I'm going to get through another year at home #He makes me so miserable and then nobody does anything abt it and when someone does make a consequence hes like 'oh its bc your the fa..#..favourite child'#And he was like I know you have an Instagram account which like i was technically not supposed to have as a teen. But I'm a legal adult and #I can do what I want now #at least in that aspect #Oh and ppl excuse his behaviour bc hes a boy. Well I'm a fucking boy too and I never pulled that shit. (Ig I'm a man now. Weird to call mys #...myself that. Young man makes a little more sense)#Damn this started as a vent abt privacy but it's really abt my brother #Honest to god wish I wasnt related #Or at least that I didnt have to deal with him #And he calls me stupid sometimes bc I dont get his jokes and I respond seriously to his jestful questions and

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#listen. im just gonna rant abt something real dumb for a sec #the framing of missing 411 stories make me so annoyed. and if u dont kno. missing 411 stories are focused on ppl who went missing in #national parks or just out in nature with no real explanation. i dont even kno why i watch these videos they just make me mad #theyre not all bad but like mother fucker do u not kno how easy it is to get lost in thr fucking woods?#theyre like: this person was an experienced hiker. they wouldnt have just done X #like no. fuck off. it only takes one bad move. one bad day. one unexpected run in and boom that's it #its not that crazy???? its not magic or bigfoot. its ppl getting confused or disoriented and panicking #i mean. obvously not in every case but fucking im like 99% sure its not spooky stuff. its just easier than youd like to think to get lost #my little sister got lost in the woods when she was like 6. she took a wrong turn on a hiking path and walked so far my dad almost turned #back bc he thought she would never get that far but there she was. one tiny blip in a big big forest and she was on a path #its so so easy to miss one tiny point out there. this also goes for places out in the desert #like sure its flat. how could a person get lost in an open space? but no fuck u. ive gotten lost walking along a 50m flat transect #i looked up and for about a minute i wasnt where i thought i was. the heat and not drinking or eating enough can really mess with you head #ugh. i dunno. one of my lab mates has done more like serious outdoors stuff. like not going back to civilization for weeks doing field #work out in Colorado. and he says there is something weird about being alone out there. like some places have a call to them. a temptation #compelling you to do things u kno r bad ideas. but i also pressed him and it seems to come from a lack of othet ppl watching you #like a lack of socal constraint enables the temptation to make reckless choices. so like i dunno it sounds more like a human thing #than the supernatural but like what do i kno? anyway. missing 411 stories make me man #mad. god. there was one i watched where the guys were like. hm they seem to happen around weird places like swamps. or around bad weather #events. so maybe these places or events cause disappearances to happen. like fucking no! do u hear what ur saying?????#the disappearences occure around places that are objectively difficult to search under conditions that delay search effort????? is ur brain #broken? the bad conditions make it hard to find ppl so u find less ppl and theyre marked as missing. jesus christ #anyway. its baffling to me. but i keep watching thr videos. probably bc i have nightmares about running into wild animals out in the woods #so im searching for like. god what not to do if i get lost in the woods. when what i shoukd do is watch survival videos rip #unrelated #ugh. also ive done some work in a national park where u would think its super super hard to get lost but our fieldwork got delayed bc ppl #had to go do search and rescue and the person was dead by the time they were found. i dont kno the details but like its a thing that #happens. its not that crazy #not to mention all the dumb fucks who fall of the cliffs every year down where i grew up. every fucking year. it happened to one of our #neighbors. he was at the bottom of this cliff for a whole day and survived. i dunno bad things happen everyday. u r not immune

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agusthoneyd · 8 months

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tysm for the alt ver jungkook love u 🫶🏼

#all my WHATS get cute for me 🤨#wasnt expecting much from his verse but be so fr .... Anyway #the chorus is so catchy the body on body on body part......jungkook ur insane #twt already fighting and having discourse like ... im allowed to not like a verse sorry hes being weird and maybe misogynistic #everyone's like u just hate fun ur scared of sex like ..... we can do all of that without being weird #and also just . 😭 rhyming everything with jungkook is so funny #this man went jungkook look took untook stony brook and crook ! wow amazing #i dont Hate it djsjejfjd but i would just listen to the alt ver if i could lol #plus my baby has a really insane notes in the alt ver #also its body to body to body SORRY im sleepy

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hella1975 · 1 year

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hella I keep getting edits with some sort of original version of waiting room?? on my fyp and I'm gonna be honest waiting room wasn't a song that did me in quite as badly as the rest of you but this version I keep hearing literally rips my heart straight open😭😭 like I've been planning on fixing the no waiting room on spotify issue by taking it into my own hands🏴‍☠️ but now I know it's gonna have to be this version I'm not even bothering with lost ark waiting room. it's just gonna be waiting room og bc what the fuck?? "I never grew up with you, and you're not my waiting room" what the fuck??? with the haunting background noises literally WHAT THE FUCK????????

OMG IVE SEEN THAT ONE everyone keeps going on about the vocals of 'and you're not my waiting room' but i really cant get over 'i never grew up with you' like what??? WHAT??????

#for some reason i rlly connected this song to a childhood friend of mine that im pretty sure ive at least vaguely mentioned on here before #but basically we were INSEPERABLE for years of my childhood and he was about 2 years older than me #so i think i was 5 and he was 7 when we met and we stayed friends until i went up to secondary school so SIX YEARS #and we literally spent all day together we'd play in the gardens and run about the place and we were both really outdoorsy #and obvs it was before proper tech really started coming in so it was when kids literally just got shoved outside for the day #and left to their own devices and it was GREAT like i remember him and that time so fondly #but he was also really messed up like he'd come from a lot of foster homes and he'd had every kind of abuse #and he'd finally been adopted by the couple on my street who just couldn't handle him bc their answer to his issues #was to spoil him and give him what he wanted so he just got worse bc he had a real violent streak in him #and obvs if you let that grow in a boy they're not gonna wake up one day and it'll be gone like. it's going to get malicious #and low and behold he started getting like actually dangerous like he choked his sister once and he got kicked out of school #bc he threated to BEHEAD A GIRL WITH AN AXE like really fucked up shit #but i was in a pick me moment bc he was always really nice and respectful to me until he wasnt #and even then ive never ever blamed him for it bc we were both young and he was so traumatised #and sooner or later we stopped hanging out and my mum was relieved bc that's how bad he was getting #and ive literally never spoken to him again. but he's just one of those people i think about all the time????#like idk if it's bc of what went down or bc of the age i was but he was a HUGE deal to me and my development #and for some evil fucking reason i think of him when i listen to waiting room especially the 'i know it's for the better'#bc i KNOW it's for the better i got away from him before he got really bad but still i so desperately wish i couldve helped him yk?#especially now i understand what abuse actually means and what he'd suffered which i had no idea about at the time #SO TO ADD 'I NEVER GREW UP WITH YOU' WHEN I FEEL LIKE I ABANDONED HIM AS CHILDREN?? STOPPPP #PHOEBE PLEASEEEE #anyway unnecessary rant over rori pls pirate this song for the masses pls pls the world needs you #ask

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