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just took so much psychic damage listening to the live performance of fast car
#it was incredible dont get me wrong#but i had completely forgotten how much i listened to that song from june-november of this last year#i think it was second on my most listened playlist#and i'm now faced with the unfortunate truth that it now brings back a lot of really tough things#the first note hit and i was like. fuck. i was listening to this song when so so many pieces of my life imploded#almost started weeping#had the same experience a couple days ago when fucking. people like us started playing at a family dinner#i was INSTANTLY shot back to looping that song just trying to force myself through the day a couple months ago#fast car is a different experience tho bc i just happened to be listening to it when some real bullshit went down in my life#so now i'm like fuck dude i love this song and i /wasnt/ using it as an emotional crutch but now it reminds me of [redacted]#ALSO#fuck my ENTIRE life but carry on my wayward son is now one of these things for me too#list of things i have in common with the winchesters: carry on wayward son was playing as my brother died#(i know that it wasnt diegetic in spn but fuck man)#vent#lea speaks
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Li Lianhua + saying "I love you" without saying "I love you" (1/?)
Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)
#i am literally weeping over a fictional man and his fictional dog#li lianhua#mysterious lotus casebook#lhl#lian hua lou#official huli jing appreciation post#(says me)#the concept of food as a love language in this show has me absolutely feral#might have to do a separate post about it but here's all this in the meantime#my mlc gifs#llh's love language#I legitimately started sobbing during this scene and I haven't stopped#it's almost been a full year now sigh
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Listening to Skyrim OST in game: ugh whatever I’ve heard this a bajillion times😒😒
Listening to Skyrim OST outside of the game:
#a reel of someone playing Ancient Stomes on a dulcimer came up in my feed and I straight up almost started weeping#skyrim#tesblr#the elder scrolls#tes v#game ost#I think maybe it’s much more emotional for me bc I’ve moved and that game just reminds me of playing it at home or smth idk#moving houses is weird
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Sir Pentious being soft
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#hazbin hotel#sir pentious#hazbin sir pentious#hazbin pentious#hazbin hotel edit#set: softies#my gifs#pentious my bb my boy i should have started with you FIRST#he is literally the saddest little wet cat that just wants attention and love#do you think emily is teaching him how to dab in heaven? *disgusting weeping noises*#also the SET IS ALMOST DONE JUST NEED CHAR CHAR AND HER DADDY#OH MY GOD AND CHERRI HOW DID I FORGET HER
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if someone gives me a number between 1 and 62, ill share a wip of that frame of the silver video im working on. i'm deranged and posting them/sharing them privately w friends and Also posting bits to twitter is Not Enough. i am going Crayzee
#hush catríona#im 32.5 files Completed. and. grips ur shoulders. tumblr u need to understand#'oh she's working on a video. cool! an animatic!! awesome' WRONG#ive DONE animatics before. theyre clean boards. this>???? this is a pmv. its. head in my hands. sniffles#its fully colored. shading. lighting. compositing. the works#i am CRAYZEE i need silver to have the coolest most ambitious love letter of a project Ever. i NEED it#I HAVE A COLOR SCRIPT. U NEED TO UNDERSTAND. I AM LOSING MY MIND#my self-appointed deadline is end of this month bc that ensures no more lore comes out before its done#ive been working on it for abt a month total now almost. started jan14. im . weeps#yea#im willing to share a few frames to keep me sane. when im not willing anymore ill just say it. heart emoji
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rating: G
tags: established relationship, fluff, smooching
prompt: Love is being late to work because you can’t ever say goodbye in a reasonable amount of time. @steddielovemonth
Eddie wakes up to a heavy weight flopping gently down on top of him. He comes to with a hum and a stretch that pops down his spine even as Steve wraps himself around Eddie, his face pressed into Eddie's neck.
Steve is already dressed for the day, green vest and jeans, his hair a little crunchy with spray, his deodorant fresh and bright compared to the warm smell of sleep. Eddie has to wiggle a bit to get his arms from under the blanket to wrap around Steve's shoulders in return.
"Mmm, you're a jerk, waking me up so early," he whispers, even as he shifts them until he can hook a leg around Steve's hip, blanket and all.
"It's eleven, lazy bones," Steve whispers back. He lets Eddie move them more, until they're all tangled up again. Steve will have to fix his hair, but Eddie doesn't care. He should have thought of that before waking Eddie up.
Not that Eddie minds—would probably call Family Video as soon as the door closed behind Steve to make sure he wasn't mad at Eddie.
Eddie starts kissing a path from the top of Steve's forehead down to his lips, tasting toothpaste and mouthwash, and wondering if Steve's ever grossed out by Eddie's morning breath.
He must not be, because he returns Eddie's lazy kisses with a happy sigh, holding Eddie a little tighter. It drags on like that, and to Eddie it's timeless, too short and an eternity, bliss in just being able to kiss Steve like this, the smell of Steve in his sheets and his toothbrush in the bathroom, and his millions of hair supplies in a basket under the sink. Wayne's no doubt asleep in the front of the trailer, and Steve would have been as quiet as a mouse getting ready before he snuck back into Eddie's arms to say bye before leaving for work.
Eddie loves this. Says as much into Steve's mouth, swallowing it up when Steve says it back, whispers lost between them and the morning sun.
"Gonna be late for work," Eddie sighs, even though he doesn't move except to run a hand down Steve's back.
"Robin shift," Steve murmurs, moving in to kiss Eddie again, like he can't get enough of him, the same way Eddie can't get enough of Steve.
Laughing, Eddie kisses him more, addicted to the warmth, the wet slide of their lips, the heat of Steve's breath. "Gonna get fired one of these days," he says when Steve has to come up for air. Laughs again, when Steve just dips back in to start it all up again. "Steeeve."
"Don't wanna go," he whines.
"I know," Eddie says. This time, he shoves Steve onto his back to he can press him into the mattress, peppering his cheeks and nose with kisses. It's gotta be going on 11:30 by now, and Steve will be a whole hour late at this rate. "Just for now, baby, and I'll come visit you later."
"Promise?" Steve does this thing that he must have picked up from a girlfriend, where he looks up at Eddie with big eyes and pouts his lips and bats his lashes at him, and it shouldn't work. But it does. Every time.
"Promise," Eddie breathes, smiling, and leans down for another kiss. And another. And another, another. And Steve doesn't get to work until well past noon. When Eddie comes to visit around five, Robin chews him out too.
#steddie#steddie fic#steddielovemonth#this prompt made me weep#fun fact this lil drabble lives in my lil day dream where steve and eddie are waiting for the rest of corroded coffin to graduate HS#and they start driving city to city making it big and steve's like their lil roadie/group/merch stand man#and they're all besties but they're SICK of how in love E&S are but also would kill and hide the bodies of anyone that threatened them#and then one day they almost make it big but the producer takes one look at steve and tells them to lose the clinger and theyre like#actually fuck you steve's a part of the band#and the producer is like ?? how??? he doesn't play#and they gotta be like 'dude eddie couldn't write a song for the rest of his life unless it's somehow about steve#literally a vital member'#if i ever wrote this fic it would be slice of life fluff happiness sweaty boys sleeping in the back of vans and not showering for 2 weeks#damn now i kinda wanna write it#shush mal#my fic#dribble drabble#my steddies
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I just got the Wounded Wild and I. Am inconsolable. I'm so fucking sorry love of my life I'm so sorry!! Fuck!!
#slay the princess#now playing#as soon as I saw her i started soBBING#weeping even#how could i do that to her... horrible#this was my first time exploring the witch and the wild#and the wild was FASCINATING#especially for something i found (as I often do with fun stuff in this game) basically by accident#i had no idea that would happen#but then once i got to it i was like#very excited to hear the princess in my head#almost conscious of her part in the shifting mound#conscious of me#and i wanted to reach out to her#but at the same time her needing me to ignore the feelings felt wrong#at least from the perspective of the player in that construct#but also i have larger feelings about the shifting mound as a whole like. not listening to you until the very end#anyway i zeroed in on that and had to keep poking the feelings#and i. did not expect it to have such upsetting consequences.#i know it's all temporary and meaningless and she says don't mourn them#but i do mourn them#we hurt her over and over and i feel it every time#and oh my fucking god did i feel this one
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chrome updated on my phone without my knowledge yesterday and opened a new window and i thought id lost all my fanfic tabs. i haven't known fear like that in a long time.
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having a category 12 "thought about william wisp for too long" moment
#that last scene in 40 . got me fucked up so bad. motherfucker. aauagahaghhhhrrghgh.#idk if its the paranoia anxiety of animal sounds in my ceiling again finally catching up to me but im srs like.#almost starting 2 cry right now and im not even LISTENING to the episode.#thought abojt david kaufman again. fuck . part of me is like god i need 2 go listen to his lines again but the other part of me is like.#no mac you have work jn the morning and youre ALREADY not gonna grt enough sleep due to the fucking animals in your ceiling.#head in hands. we need 2 dismantle capitalist society so i can spend the next 24 hours fucking weeping over william wisp.#then maybe ill get my thoughts in order enough to actually write about him#having soioooooo many blood and gore thoughts about [redacted for spoilers] . i havent seen ANY art of it#except one like. vague abstract thing. whcih was awesome dont get me wrong. but i want 2 see something visceral.#and im not good enough at blood and gore to do it myself . plus ive burnt myself out so hard on the painting projects.#and im still not DONE with them#ughhhghgh. anyway. on 24/7 wiwi lockdown ovwr here
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me and that other anon are destined to be bffs i think bc i too was just thinking aboht kevin day in a headband recently and almost sent u an ask about it…… i just wanna see his hair pushed back out of his face kinda slutty. my thing was that i was thinking about jean cooking and using wire headbands (very important that it’s a wire headband) to keep his hair back and wondering if it would be possible to force kevin into one. and Then if he could ever have a blair waldorf moment well that would be nice even if someone had to beg him into it :) athletic headbands are also sexy and cool though, or like a bandana during exy……..
jean cooking with a wire headband on just absolutely broke me oh my god……………. oh my god……. this is so real………. 🥹🎉⁉️ my fucking god. THE VISUALS i really like him i like him oh i like him i truly do like him very much…… i want to see jean deep frying something with a wire headband on pushing his hair back and he looks so focused and so interested on the task. just really giving it all his all. i feel sick i love him. please. thank you for sending me this i love it so much
i guess i can see a bandana?!? the thing for me is that the way i imagine kevin’s hair is like super long with very little variety in strands length which makes it easier to tie back for games but also makes his hair look really straight and flat sometimes……. kevins haircut is called “not at all” because its what happens when you’re really depressed and grieving you abusive dead brother. so in a way i dont think hed Need headbands but he could be convinced to use them. i like babushka scarf kevin day
#asks#jean#kevin#fav#i wannasee. jean cook with a wire headband#i wanna see it i need to see it#seriously almost started weeping its so cute…… hes pushing his bangs back
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learning that Cary Elwes was also Wesley Princess Bride has changed me in ways I can never reverse. Look at himmp ..
#yes this is new information to me okay I’m 19#sawposting#cary elwes#the princess bride#wesley#lawrence gordon#saw 2004#audibly weeping . he is so pretty ….#can we start calling Adam buttercup can I make that happen#can this be my contribution to the fandom#Imm…… Ooueueeueuuugueeeuuugghgg#listen princess bride was of my Most formative childhood medias ever okay#and unfortunately saw came out in theatres before I came out the womb so I never got to experience it until almost 20 years later#this is actually blowing my skull open
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it’s where my reason stops, and something else comes in
#cm punk#mjf#cmjf#blood#flashing images#my videos#i'd been planning to make something to this song forever but i didn't have a vision for it#and honestly i still sorta don't but i just had to zone out and do something with Big Emotions#and now it's like almost 3am and i will crash and tomorrow i will wake up to even more news#like my plan for this weekend is literally two separate wrestling hangouts where i'm supposed to introduce friends to wrestling#i will be a fucking wreck lmao#just put on punk's roh farewell video and start weeping in front of the screen just blocking it from view from everyone else
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I got Spiritfarer for Christmas from my brother.
It is 1:30 am and I just finished Alice's storyline.
I am NOT okay.
#spiritfarer#alice#I have never cried this much over any character ever#when one of the other passenger told me to move her house to ground level i started to lose it#and then she started talking about Annie#I've been weeping for almost an hour
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oh no its halka hours again
#posts with the target audience of 0 fucking people. im the only mf here who's enlightened enough to love this particular opera alas#praaaawda już mnie nie porzucisz wrócisz w nasze góry wrócisz o sokole móóóóój jaśko drogi móóóóój#a few minutes ago i almost started crying cause i thought of that little duet#i znowu naaaaaam szczęście i raaaaj szczęście i raaaaaj like ok???? im already fucking weeping what more do you want???????#halka#stanisław moniuszko
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Do you ever learn of a really really good song at the exact worst possible time for you to hear it and you just kinda burst into tears over it and can't stop
#i have been bawling uncontrollably over The Milk Carton for the past who knows how long#came up as a recommended song in Hallows' music playlist and when i decided to click on it i just started weeping#still haven't stopped but at least it's calmed down a little bit to type this#might delete later but it's been a while since a song made me cry so hard i almost threw up (not exaggerating)#i had to get the feelings out even just through text or else i felt like i was gonna explode
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