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can you pleeeeease post your dm sexuality/gender hcs on here.... 🥺 i don't have a twitter but i wanna know. it's like a pandora's box to me now i'm like scratching at the door. let me in
heres the link 2 the thread (mild spoilers btw) ill post a transcript under the cut for ppl who dont have twitter
first off i think laios relationship to sex is super removed for like 50 reasons without even getting into his actual sexuality
he grew up in a place with very repressed ideas about sex and has a lot of fear about asserting his presence in situations
his special interest takes precedent over any social interactions he has and the level of closeness he feels towards people
he has a hard time figuring out his feelings towards other people both bc hes autistic and bc he has freaky deviantart fetishes that make sex in his mind a very abstract concept <- this one is me projecting mostly
that aside, i feel like gender-wise hes attracted to ppl so infrequently it may as well be entirely case-by-case
the idea of him being gay appeals to me from the 'raised with traditional values he Does Not fit into/hasnt begun to question it yet' perspective, i lauve characters who put a lot of stock into performing a role thats expected of them and fail miserably for unknown (gay) reasons
from his perspective tho i dont think he would ever really label himself anything. hes going to pride parades in the shirt+shorts Ally Fit to clap for his friends
hes also 'cis by indifference' imo... i love tmasc laios hcs it just doesnt mesh w his personal history to me. i do think hes got some kind of therian gender thing going on (not trans or nb but a secret third thing) but i cant see him changing anything abt his appearance/pronouns to accommodate that post-canon. hes just doin his thang
falin is in a similar boat for gender. i LOOVE tfem falin but the village repression thing has been bugging at me so i dont think i subscribe to it anymore (canon purist sorry) BUT if u hold that hc i am clapping and cheering regardless
instead i was propagandised to a while back and i LOVEEE the idea that being fused w a male dragon and the residual traits she has after being revived have given her a type of gender euphoria she didnt realise she was missing. a little boygirl swagger if u will
sexuality-wise i also dont think she would care to label herself, shes a lesbian by virtue of only being interested in One woman and zero other people. without marcille i do think shes still exclusively attracted to women, and i like to imagine she might experiment around a bit during her travels post-canon (pre-relationship). hearing abt it might put marcille on the news though
marcille is very simple That is a transfem lesbian. she cant get pregnant, shes obsessed w being femme and all that combined w her half-tallman struggles to be seen as 'properly feminine' by elf standards reads very transfeminine to Me. also her bookboy crush REEKS of comphet its not subtle
i think a more comfortable marcy might have the space to experiment w being elf butch like her manga boys but thats mainly self indulgence for me. utena could have saved her
senshi is gay his whole thing is abt not being able to perform dwarven masculinity to a proper standard (soft hearted, not as strong or rugged as his peers) which is like gaycoding 101. also hes a bear. homosexuality be damned by boy can work a grill
adding onto this i rly think senshi got some type of euphoria from being an elf in the changeling chapters. he was feeling himself so much i think he was using it as an outlet to have fun being a little fem and fruity without needing to justify it. do u understand
i dont have any particular opinions abt him gender-wise beyond that. his bulge is an essential part of his character design but i also saw a transmasc senshi a couple days ago that made me nod my head thoughtfully so i could go either way
chilchuck is cis and bisexual this is just canon. not even just his old man crush on senshi altho i do think thats very funny but they put his ass on a cover themed like hes in a dating sim with all the men and women in the cast and then slapped it in front of a chapter called "bicorn". i simply cant pass up that kind of overt signaling. its so fucking funny what else is there to say truly
izu to ME is a transmasc aroace lesbian (this one has the least basis in canon i just know it to be true) shes a little genderfluid with it nd uses he/she i think. i like to imagine she consistently uses masculine personal pronouns to refer to herself either way tho (boku, ore)
i think izutsumis gender/sexuality is entirely secondary in priorities to her body dysphoria. she has a lot of learning and acceptance 2 do before that kind of self discovery is on the docket and in my mind eschewing gender on some level is part of that. get sillay
shuro is cishet but at least he feels bad about it. next
kabru is a transmasc bisexual this is also practically text. his whole thing of being treated like a doll by milsiril to put in pretty dresses, plus i think it would be pretty easy for him to stealth in the west since tallmen are seen as inherently more masculine than elves
(i also think changing genders is just more common for elves. theyre androgynous enough that it wouldnt be hard and like who in their right miiiiind would be the same gender for 500 years. dwarves too)
i think he started presenting as male socially in the west but didnt need to consider medical transition until he moved to a more mixed culture where other races might see him as a woman
i dont have to explain the bisexual part. have u seen him
namari is a butch bisexual this is just canon straight up. shes not transmasc but i think the default settings for dwarven women is like 4 years of T regardless. shes a hit at all the local cruising spots despite her renfaire nerdisms i know this
and just bc im thinking abt em kiki and kaka are identical and kiki is tfem :} theyre both attracted to women but kaka is a sub so i forgive him
THATS ALL 4 NOW theres a lot of characters so i cant have thoughts abt all of them at once but i hope this was good. im right about everything forever as per usual
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Ayo it's me !
SO uhhh
Damn that's my first time requesting something and I'm actually nervous, so it's about that nightmare thing I talked about, so maybe I thought you could write something (like anything it can be very short), IF you can write for Choso (if you don't i get it) comforting reader after a very realistic nightmare and reader is still scared after waking up because it was basically taking place in that same room and still feels like they're in the nightmare (I don't know if it's clear, but basically waking up still scared and having trouble calming down and feeling reassured because what if it's real)
Rereading this I'm realizing it's confusing, but hopefully with that post you answered to you understand a bit ;; and if you don't write for Choso maybe you can do it with any other (adult) JJK character, I'd be fine with it!
hihi! sorry this took so long D:
i really hope i managed to write what you described
this is my first time writing choso (and anything nightmare related in general) so forgive me if he’s ooc😭😭 and im also sorry this is a bit short, ive been pretty swamped with finals
cw: nothing particularly??? reader has a nightmare, no pronouns used, not proofread
you shot up in bed scrambling for your glasses, your blanket pooling around your knees as cursed energy rushed to your raised fists, ready to fight.
“sweetheart?” came a rumbling voice from next to you, making you flinch.
“hey, hey, its just me. just choso. whats wrong honey?” your boyfriend’s words were followed by a warm hand gently tugging you back into a sleeping position.
he pulled your face into his chest, careful to not smoosh your glasses, a soothing hand running across your back.
“nightmare?”
you nodded, letting yourself fall limp in his hold, trusting choso enough to take care of any threat.
“you wanna talk about it baby?” he asked, as he leant back to look at you in the dim lighting provided by the barely cracked open door of the bathroom.
“not really.”
he hummed, gently taking your glasses off to rest them on the dresser on his side of the bed, switching on the lamp while he was at it.
“the light make you feel safer?”
“yeah”
you could tell he wanted to say something else, but you really didnt want to talk about the horror plaguing your dreams.
your bedroom was supposed to be your sanctuary and the stupid nightmare had ruined every ounce of safety you felt in your bed.
you tugged your boyfriend closer, hand reaching up to tangle in his hair, that he’d started letting down from his ponytails while slept.
he draped his arms around your waist protectively, something he did often, especially in public (you’d come to learn that he was incredibly protective of people he held close to his heart)
“i gotchu,” he mumbled into your hair.
you sighed shakily against the crook of his neck, a few tears escaping your eyes as the adrenaline wore off.
before you could register the loss of his warm hands from your waist, his thumb was gently wiping away the tears from your face and pressing a kiss to your forehead.
he held your face, thumbs catching the wetness as it fell, kissing you gently, and staying there until you stopped crying.
“cmere,” he said, rolling you over his chest to his side of the bed, further away from the door, “no facing the door tonight, ‘kay? we’ll keep the lamp on so its less scary for you, yeah sweetheart? and if you still cant fall asleep, ill stay up with you.”
you began to protest, but he cut you off.
“aht, aht. i dont need to sleep, and even if i did you’re more important. so shush and cuddle me.”
you smiled softly at him, making your way into his waiting arms.
“thank you choso.”
“anytime, love.”
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I love when you talk about clothes. How do you shop?
OH MAN valda my dude you have opened such a can of worms
so the tldr of it is: all over. it really depends on what specifically i'm looking for and like.... the size i need, etc. i get a god awful number of *really on point* fb ads for small clothing brands, plus i try and pick up shirts and such from indie artists where i can, plus a variety of fast/er fashion alternative brands, and thrifting. so much thrifting
however, i do have some pretty strict guidelines for what i will buy. ymmv on a lot of my specifics because a solid chunk of it is based off of how i like my clothes specifically to fit and everyone has their own jam, but the key things i think everyone should pay attention to are:
sizing/fit: do not compromise. there is some flexibility depending on the item and how willing you are to alter a thing, but it should always ALWAYS fit the way u like, or otherwise be comfortably tolerable in the ways it doesnt (sleeve length almost always gets me because i have very long arms, but i generally push my sleeves up anyway so its not a deal breaker, BUT the rise of my pants will absolute result in me never wearing them if it's not Right, hence ymmv)
everything you buy should either be immediately wearable in at least 3 full outfits from things you already own OR be a staple piece to build a new branch of outfit options off of that otherwise works with at least one key item already owned, like shoes
other things i really look at are under the cut cos it got long lmao
colour pallet (i own almost no bright colours; if there's colour, it is 80% of the time going to be pastel pink or lavender, though I've been branching out into brights and primary tones a little. i also own precisely Four brown items: two are CR merch, one is my vintage cat vest, and the fourth is a pair of absolutely gorgeous vintage boots that i got for hella cheap as a bootblacking restoration project)
cut/fit (depending on where i wanna present of the masc >< femme spectrum in that outfit; i like all my bottoms to sit on my (very high and narrow) waist, with skirts generally hitting at or below my knee and either very flared (circle or swing) or pleated. box cut "unisex" shirts should hit where the ball of my hips sit in my pelvis but femme cut shirts dont have to be that long they will be tucked in. i almost never wear something sleeveless, or if i do i wear a shirt under it, and the closest i get to a low cut shirt is shirts with keyholes, otherwise nothing lower than maybe an inch or two under my collarbone. my shoes are also generally high tops or boots and often have either a thick sole or a full out platform)
theme (this is how i wear really weird shit in very cohesive ways lmao; my tshirts are all generally ominous goth graphics OR cutesy kawaii vomit (or both lmao), patterns on my blouses and skirts (or pants, on the few patterned pants i have) are in similar veins (lotta halloween themes, lotta hearts) OR theyre very basic stripes/tartan that i mix and match with graphic shirts)
i also pay attention to quality as much as i can, and will absolutely not shop directly from the really aggressively fast fashion brands like shein, h&m, romwe, etc. they're always cut and made like shit and basically never look good on an actual person, but every now and then i'll find something cute in a thrift store that i can physically check for quality. vintage also tends to be better quality in general, especially if youre looking for natural fibers (the number of vintage silk dad shirts i own for summer is A Lot lmao), but can be cost and size prohibitive
aannnddddd some shops that i either routinely buy from or have been planning to buy from, for reference
"big" brands:
killstar, blackcraft clothing (generally traditional goth, better for straight sizes, decent quality for the price)
unique vintage, modcloth (vintage repro, both stockists for other vintage repro brands on top of selling their own things, generally pretty good quality across stocked and in house brands, most skirts and dresses have POCKETS, lotta killer sales, good size range)
smaller brands:
myviolet and foxblood (sibling companies run by the same people, myviolet is pastel kawaii stuff while foxblood is goth; they do sometimes carry the same cuts of things in different pallets. generally pretty good quality, does a lot of stuff in cotton or modal but not everything. size range is pretty stellar tho especially for a small brand)
disturbia clothing, straight to hell apparel (disturbia is more corporate goth leaning with a lot of business type wear in goth colors and patterns, straight to hell is very rockabilly leaning. both are pricey but their quality seems very sound (i have not bought from them though))
wicked clothing (sarcastic goth), two crow collective (chronically ill), thentvs (native american streetwear) (mostly tshirts, but really off beat ones. only bought from wicked clothing so far, just tryna decide how many more tshirts i need)
sleepy peach (retro repro but make it weird, lotta weird mens cardigans)
kei collective (stockist of a lot of indie designers in the western kawaii streetfashion scene, a wide variety of very cute to VERY WEIRD apparel and accessories)
die with your boots on (stockist, carries foxblood and a lot of other straight black goth basics. quality is on par with foxblood, size range can vary depending on brand, great place to peek for things like strangecvlt shoes or foxblood items that are out of stock on the main site)
art brands:
morning witchy (lot of botanical all over patterns on button up dad shirts, skirts, joggers, shorts, tshirts, and so on, with absolutely banger size range. gorgeous quality and absolutely beautiful designs. i want so many of their sweaters so bad)
stablercake (not specifically apparel focused but they do pretty frequent tshirt designs and theyre all great, ESPECIALLY if youre a furry. quality is always top tier unless its a bs manu error, in which case they typically offer a replacement or coupon when they find out something is fading weird, etc)
crescent creepers (weird goofy goth all over patterns, like 80s style cartoon bugs or deep sea creatures. sizing isnt great but if you're thinner, they have a lot of really fun overalls/shorteralls and button ups)
vetiver fox (very pretty goth patterns, has a lot of gorgeous swoopy skirts (with fuck off huge pockets) and some cool tank tops, is planning on maybe doing a run of regular tshirts too)
s2heart bunny (kawaii anime girl art shirts except soft and pretty and often sad or, as is the case with the ones i have, kawaii bunnies with nail bats and middle finger flags lmao)
egglien creations (weird bright very clowncore apparel, i have the cardigan from their collab with lulu van hoagland, who also does gorgeous work, just usually not apparel)
also a lot of the times, artists (especially tattoo artists) you follow will do tshirts and the like, which is where i get a lot of my really weird things
uuuuh yep thats it
#mochi rambles#cosleia#mochi talks fashion#yes all these brands are off the top of my head#no i didn't really have to look up the names of like#any of them#except two#because vetiver fox just recently changed their handle#and i can never remember the full part of lulu's name so i have to google them every time#other than that....
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Onto Bubbler...
Before it starts I wanted to say I have beef with Nino in this episode cause he makes his best friend's birthday about his hurt feelings and it's annoying and he didn't even get him a present
It was actually pretty nice of Plagg to try to give him that present
We love Sabine on this blog
Did Nathalie not even try to get him something herself??? She practically raised him!
Y'all should throw a small party at school if a house one isn't gonna work
Marinette is beyond thoughtful for MAKING him a gift.
EVEN CHLOE DIDNT REMEMBER IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY???
Are you seriously telling me Paris's Teen Sweetheart didn't have a fan club that is celebrating his birthday at all? He's not getting letters in the mail? Or fans coming up to him at school? Or MORE people telling his dad to throw a party/throwing one for him??? This episode is just. Idk man.
Marinette has been a called a push over in the last two episodes (and this is the SECOND EPISODE) so it's amazing to see how far she's come!!!!
ADRIEN HAD A PHOTOSHOOT SCHEDULED ON HIS BIRTHDAY? THATS SO UGHHHHHHHHHH AND DURING HIS LUNCH BREAK TOO
Bro. Nino says he's gonna go to Adrien's house and Marinette and Alya are in the background. Cut to only Marinette and Alya at Adrien's house. Did Nino get lost????
Alya can you please tell Adrien later that it was from Marinette?
NATHALIE YOU SNAKE
Wild how Gabriel really did come out to talk to Nino. Ohhhh he wanted to make Nino an akuma. Gotcha.
DONT SIT ALONE AND BE UPSET NINO. THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU. BE WITH ADRIEN. HE WAS JUST TOLD ON HIS BIRTHDAY THAT HIS BEST FRIEND COULDNT EVER COME AROUND HIS HOUSE AND YOURE JUST GONNA WALK AWAY??? GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOGETHER AT LEAST????? Speaking of, that photoshoot was super quick? And why was he dropped off at his house? No way lunch break is that fast???? Go to school??????
Ugly ass akuma
Gabriel seriously made an akuma who specifically hates and is mad at him 🤦🏽♀️
What even counts as an "adult" here? 18+ or like out of university or like old enough to have kids or-
I'm a Nathalie hater I dunno yall I can't believe her this episode.
Just a weird ass akuma
This being his first party makes me wanna cry.
NINO IF YOU TURN ON A SLOW DANCE BECAUSE CHLOE ASKED YOU TO THEN YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT ADRIEN. HE WAS VISIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE EARLIER THAT DAY WHEN SHE WAS UP ON HIM OH MY GOD.
NO ITS THE ADRIENETTE SLOW DANCE SONG NO NO NO
I think Ladybug should be allowed to use her power selfishly like this more often.
Did no one hear when Ladybug said "yours truly"??? It was pretty loud
No one knows how old ladybug and chat noir even are so people might be imagining they're also just stuck in bubbles lol. Oh god, if Adrien and Marinette were adults then they wouldn't be able to transform like that out in the open and THIS COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH A GOOD PLAN TO TRAP THEM OR FIND OUT THEIR IDENTITIES HAWKMOTH JESUS. What you have to do is: Bubbler brings all the bubbles together so you can see them all in one spot. Have Bubbler WATCH, not just throw a party. If someone inside transforms then great! You know who they are. But if LB and or CN show up anyway then you know they're not an adult and that whittles down your search BY A LOT.
Girl is pretty brave for writing "Love, Marinette"
Nathaniel has some Shuichi energy hm
Cool moves...
"But adults keep children, safe, and protected. They care for their kids, they love them!" "Most adults do, anyhow." JESUS CHRIST WAY TO GO STRAIGHT FOR THR HEART
Him throwing his staff for her to swing her yo-yo around was completely unnecessary-
You can really see how the stakes change between the beginning and end of the show. "Oh I'm stuck in a bubble for awhile and just have to wait an hour at most to go back to my normal day" to "oh the world is ending"
Adrien is such a good boy...
One day- NO ONE HOUR of no adults and suddenly every thing everyone is trying to mail will be late for another week. Huh
Marinette didn't take the credit 🥺
"You're amazing Marinette, someone Adrien will see that too." Cut to not even a full season later Adrien leaning back in Marinette's desk chair, "You're amazing, Marinette."
SOMEONE GET THIS BOY A LEGIT BIRTHDAY OR SO HELP ME
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okok catching up on troubleverse WHEWW and i have the perffff song for them, paired with the lyrics verse-for-verse and me screaming shrilly LMAOOO.
but this song is sosososo perf, like everything abt it from the lyrics to the singer's erratically paced singing to the general unhinged vibes and. IT SHARES A NAME WITH THE ENTIRE SERIES TOO OMG-- 'partner in crime' by madilyn mei!! i haven't listened to my folk indie queen for a hot minute but i had to pull it out from the dusty archive of my skull for u 😗😗
When you're gone I feel alone again / The voices cannot hold my hand / They keep me company at very best / Distract me from my loneliness
insanity mention?? dionysus the god of mania?? HELLOOOO CAN THOU HEAR ME [rattling at the bars of containment]
Maybe I'm just an anomaly / Even my demons have their families / Truly something must be wrong with me / To need you as much as I do
smth must be wrong with trouble to need luke as much as she does and vice versa smth smth okay like. i think the whole thing abt him being trouble's ESA from buddy system is saying enough 😭😭
I was never meant to win / [... maniacal laughing] SHUT UP!
THE LAUGHING AND THE MUTED SHUT UP HERE JUST GETS ME. straight chills, ik it didnt happen but during love like a blister if trouble screamed at the other counselors out of rage and the campers heard it the way it sounded in the song UGH. I WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN. THEY DON'T EVER WIN BC LUKE HAS BEEN DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE OMFG.
Here's the reigns / Take ahold of me / Please don't let me go / You do the talking / Sew up my mouth if I can't keep it closed
BUDDY SYSTEM CODED when they're on the road trip bc the image just comes to mind instantly, like if they see questioning adults luke has to do the sweet talking bc trouble is lowkey a pro yapper and can't keep her mouth shut at all. AND 'here's the reigns take ahold of me' NO WORDS no words at all just vibes bc wdym. i just think that luke being vulnerable to trouble and talking abt his mom as if he were giving her the reigns to his personal life ermm.
Run for it / I'll keep em occupied for you / Cause I love you, I love you so
SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME. trouble stepping into the battle with ladon to save luke, 'run for it i'll keep [LADON] occupied cause i love you i love so' I AM SICK. SOMEONE MAKE ME SOME CONGEE UGHHH.
I'm 'bout to die / Yet the only thing I find i'm worried about is you / Something tells me you aren't coming / Guess that I'm truly doomed
i saw ur synopsis of asking for trouble like. he's dying and the only thing he can think abt. is trouble??? r u kidding me? and then trouble supposedly pleading his case with the olympians in the as above so below synopsis DONT TELL ME that trouble is gonna be too late for luke and so he dies thinking that she still hates him (based off what im assuming from the when the curtains close synopsis, 'all strings r cut' WDYM??)
I overhear your brain when it's close to mine / Oh, I know that we're not the same / My heart's on the line / I'm just a pawn in your game / Not your partner in crime
JO THEY R SUPPOSED TO BE PARTNERS IN CRIME HELLO. solipsism c'mere i just wanna talk bc drunk!trouble seeing luke from a different timeline and KNOWING HE'S REALLY THERE BUT IT ISNT HIM = 'i overhear your brain when it's close to mine / oh, i know that we're not the same' THEY ARE ON DIFFERENT WAVELENGTHS IN THE MOST LITERAL SENSE POSSIBLE WITH TIME in this essay i will--
You're slowly killing me / Taking your- (I was never meant to win)
luke to kronos, the titan is slowing killing him from the inside out the longer he's possessing luke. HE WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN UGH. i need to put maddie and u in affectionate jail bc ASDFGHJKL goodbye i am finished. troubleverse is sososoo evil, like this is srsly what everyone else feels when they read jubi bc if it is i am so sorry for everything.
to conclude jo, ily but i also am gobsmacked with my mouth hanging wide open and catching flies bc this whole thing is unbe-fucking-lieveable. the way u built their whole ass relationship from the ground up and swung a baseball bat into it like ok i need to take a business month to process this for reasons known and unknown, my bags r packed up at the airport, who cares abt my chem grade, it is sabbatical time WHEWW
THEOOOOO IM SCREAMING UNTIL MY HEAD EXPLODES THE SONG REC IS SO GOOD??? how tf did i miss that
i am so happy that you made the troubleverse part of your day it is an honor to have you connect the dots from your perspective and see how everything is playing out!! you in my brain ill make you congee BAHAH you've been the only one to put some of the dots together for the final arc (or at least voice it, thank you for being brave) and i will neither confirm nor deny but your analysis is pretty spot on for someone who binge read it today thank you so much!!
study for chem no rest for the weak >:( love youu
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thoughts about my oc/canon stuff under the cut.
so. aurellio and refa. aurellio was essentially born as a joke, saying "what if i made a centauri oc lmfao" and also, "what if, as a parallel to londo and adira, refa had his own dancer in a pre-canon timeline back home on centauri prime and they were both boys!" since yknow. refa is such an effective foil to londo i figured it would be a fun, kinda cute idea.
i also think it does narratively fit in well with b5. take londo, who isnt the best example but we see him commit all these horrible acts but we know about his love for adira, before we even see him start to reform or even start to really commit atrocities we know he has a heart. we find this out in the third episode. spectacularly done.
a better example of this would actually be bester, one of my other absolute favorite side villains. bester was never redeemed. bester, however, is given opportunities for the audience to see his heart. irt his family, his expectant lover, and his somewhat emotional reactions to the telepaths dying in season 5, though caused by him. we still hate him, he never gets redeemed, his love for the people in his life does still exist and doesnt excuse or justify his actions. it gives him a lot of depth that i also really enjoyed!
that is kind of what i'm trying to do with refa. aurellio is a late 20 something year old centauri who is majorly unaware of what refa is doing or does or will do in relation to his schemes to rise to power. i also think that in this pre-canon timeline (around 2253-2257) is when refa is doing little things to slowly climb to where we see him in the show. he always had a lot of power being the lord of his house so he didnt need to do much, but i think the ten or so years leading up to his appearance in the show was a slow, hands-off rise to power. so aurellio, who has no real relation to House Refa aside from being a patron, isnt involved or knowledgeable about house refa's politics.
i would get into the "refa is a good family man" headcanon i have but tldr: celes was his last wife because he chose her. he chose her because he genuinely loved her and he chose to have senna. his other wives and his other children operate moreso like londos wives and him did where there was no love and only obligation. so senna and celes get favored. senna cared enough about her father to throw rocks at londos head years later about it, so i think that they did have a good relationship. refa spoiled her, would do anything for her, which was strange for a noble centauri man to be so obsessed with his youngest daughter. maybe he knew she was always destined for greatness. weh. and well, when this baby is like "dad, i wanna be a ballerina" like most 3 year old girls want to be, he says "of course my love, let me find you the best teacher possible": enter aurellio. who he chooses. who senna also chooses.
so yknow. refa gets a boy toy as a treat. aurellio is almost a part of his family as a treat. they kinda sorta love each other, as a treat, and it also works with aurellio's unconventional relationships he has with his lesbian wife bestie and her twin, the actual love of his life. so like yay centauri polyamory.
i just feel like sometimes i have to justify doing what i'm doing with my oc/canon stuff bc 1. it's refa🤢 and 2. ive been in fandoms before that were hostile to me about liking villains And trying to expand on them and make them more than what the show gives us. im VERY satisfied with refa's character in the show. these headcanons arent filling a void that was missing because i dont think they needed to be expanded on in canon, i just like refa/the centauri/my centauri oc and expanding on centauri lore is fun. so 🤷♂️
if you wanna read my fic about aurellio and refa, here it is
i will also say i really do appreciate the kind words ive gotten about this because lol i was nervous about it due to previous experiences where stuff about not only my taste for the villains but also my ocs has gotten me harassed, vagued, made fun of to my face, etc. so thank you for being so kind 💫 i'm so happy aurellio is loved because i love him a lot as well.
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byler + conan gray songs
why every conan gray song ever is actually about byler (superache edition)
this one is going to be a long one but please stick with me at least part way through my slightly coherent gay ramblings i promise it’ll be worth it 😭😭
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“i look at you like you’re perfect for me” 😭😭😭 starting off strong 😭😭
“built us a world and i gave you the key”
will/mike both being vulnerable with each other and when they grow apart it feels like their “world” and the connection they slowly and cautiously built up over the years has collapsed, so much of their happiness is tied up with one other and both feel at different times that the other is ignorant or uncaring about this fact 😭
“Falling in love with a damn fantasy/That’s so me, so me” WILL CORE
“But I’ve been living/Life in fiction/In my head, we’re dancing in the dark/In my head, we kiss under the stars/But we know that’s not what we’re doing/Cause, baby, this ain’t like the movies”
definitely will, a little mike, dreaming of a happy ending and wanting a love like the movies so bad but knowing/thinking it can’t be true because it doesn’t fit into the heteronormative idea of love that is shown in the movies and people like him don’t get those happy endings
second verse is so milkvan from mike’s perspective energy (or lowkey el’s pov if she was mad that mike liked will even though i dont think she will be bc she doesn’t really love mike and she adores her brother obviously willel supremacy)
i also feel like even though the events in this song in particular aren’t super 1:1 with the byler storyline the emotions that are present during their fights are super there especially in the second verse, conan calling out his person feels a lot like wills calling out mike in s3 and s4 fights
“in my head/ we never grow apart/ in my head/ you never break my heart”
crying because why is the first two lines mike and the second two will 😭😭 it’s like a fucking romantic movie where they are both singing this song alone and the camera is cutting between the two 😭😭 i’m delirious
“Baby, we lost all the love that we had/And I can’t pretend it’ll ever come back/ I think you’re seeing right through me / that baby this ain’t like the movies”
byler used to be close when younger and then they both started getting conscious of their feelings and homophobia and starting pulling away and getting weird about holding hands, sleepovers, etc. and they grew apart and lost their love and will especially doesn’t want to hope that it’ll come back because heteronormativity and homophobia have made him believe that people like him dont get love 😭 also them both sort of mutually recognizing and hating the distance between them but not knowing what to do about it, seeing right through the others lies and deep down knowing they love each other but still believing and accepting that their love can never happen 😭😭😭
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people watching
this song definitely can be from wills pov about milkvan or whatever but personally i don’t think milkvan has a close enough relationship even through wills unreliable narrator pov to justify the beginning and really this song is 100000% mike
the beginning is definitely mikes pov of lumax or some other genuine couple who actually love each other and being “happy for them” but also being jealous of their love and freedom to love and really wanting that (for him and will)
“but i wanna feel all that love and emotion/be that attached to the person i’m holding/someday i’ll be falling, without caution/ but for now i’m only people watching”
at this point i feel like mike is in a relationship with el but recognizes that it’s not what he really wants and it’s not a relationship that he’s super invested in, he really hopes that someday he’ll be able to throw off his fears of homophobia and judgement and let himself “fall without caution” and acknowledge his feelings for will and be with the person he really wants to be holding, but until then he’s only watching those around him and longing for what they have and believing it can never be for him
“i’ve never really been in love, not seriously”
this one is SO mike about el, he cares for her but he knows deep down that it’s not him being truly in love, that she isn’t the person he’s really been in love with despite what everyone around him thinks and has told him he should feel like
“i had a dream about a house behind a picket felice/ next one i choose to trust, i hope i use some common sense”
HE TRUSTED THAT IF HE JUST FOLLOWED THE HETERONORMATIVE RULES FOR A WHITE PICKET FENCE RELATIONSHIP LIKE HIS PARENTS HE WOULD BE HAPPY, BUT IS NOW REALIZING THAT WAS A STUPID IDEA, HIS PARENTS ARENT IN LOVE AND HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH EL ISNT WORKING NO MATTER HOW HARD HE TRIES TO BE THE STRAIGHT BF HE THINKS HE HAS TO BE
“but i cut people out like tags on my clothing / i end up all alone but i still keep hoping / i won’t be scared to let someone know me / life feels so monotone, i still keep hoping”
HELLO THIS IS THE MOST MICHAEL WHEELER CODED BRIDGE IVE EVER SEEN??? feeling like he cut will out of his life???? ending up alone because of his own actions??? still hoping and trying to fix things with will?????? depression and hopelessness and feeling like everyone around him is moving on but life is still the same depressing colorless monotone despite him doing all the ‘right’ things bc really will is what makes his life full of light (sappy) and he’s still clinging onto the hope that someday it will all work out???? trying not to be scared to open up to will and let himself be known like it was when they were younger??? working on not closing himself off and pushing will away???????
the end. the fucking end. the emotion the longing the hope for the future combined with the resignation and feeling trapped in the present. SO. MIKE. WHEELER.
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disaster
it being halloween 👀👀👀 okay conan
“cause the potential of us, it was keeping me up all night long”
THIS IS SO BYLER CORE them having a MomentTM and laughing it off but then lying awake staring at the ceiling all night because “WAS THAT FLIRTING WHAT DID THAT MEAN DO I LIKE HIM DOES HE LIKE ME COULD WE IS THERE A CHANCE NO DEFINITELY NOT BUT MIGHT HE-“
“this could be a disaster/theres so many factors/like, what if you freak out, and then we’re losing it all/at the critical chapter where I say, ‘I love you’ and you dont say it after”
ARE YOU KIDDING??? SO BYLER them constantly not wanting to “ruin their friendship” and not taking the leap because they don’t want to risk being wrong and they aren’t sure if it’s reciprocated and they’d rather suffer in gay torment forever than lose the other person!!! this has been in SO many byler fics i’ve read. delicious
“I’m pedaling backwards/By saying that I’m drunk I really shouldn’t have called/I’m a little bit plastered, you call me a liar/Now I’m falling in faster/This could be a disaster”
THIS IS SO MIKE OMFG WITH WILL CALLING HIM OUT ON HIS BS AND MIKE BEING DOWN BAD AF AND CONSTANTLY ON THE DEFENSIVE AND BOTH LOVING AND HATING THAT WILL KNOWS HIM SO WELL!!! drunk mike confessions>>>>> but also he would definitely call and freak out that he said too much and pretend to be drunk PLEASE
“is it purely platonic to call me like every night?” BOTH OF THEM OVERTHINKING IT RIP bc the answer is no what yall have is not platonic
“But if I’m reading it wrong, man, it’d be better off if I died” LMFAO both will and mike being drama queens and not wanting to read it wrong bc they think theyre unlovable <333
“You’re not mine for taking/Maybe I’m mistaken/Maybe I just made it up, messed it up”
THIS IS SO WILL OMG IM CRYING especially when mike is in a relationship, thinking he’s a mistake (sobs), mikes not his to have and he doesn’t want to hope, constantly questioning and hoping and having a crisis because of mike being a confusing gay (the whole song before) but always coming to the conclusion that he must be making it up and that it’s impossible and everything’s his fault 😭😭 (this verse at the end of the song)
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best friend
i feel like this song is future byler after they’ve gotten all their awkward shit worked out and just get to be chaotic besties because they know each other so well and are each other’s “lifelines” “ride or die”, plus obviously “best friend” is a byler thing (more romantic than this song is supposed to be but i do think it still applies to their super close besties telepathic bond friendship), also i feel like this song and the “my so is my best friend🥰” and “fucking hate you but you know that that’s a damn lie” is very percabeth and since byler=percabeth it’s halfway canon already, also the beginning is byler coded except will loves el ofc and very affectionately hates on mike for all the milkvan drama and confusion instead (as we all do that useless gay) <333
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astronomy
this song gives very sad acceptance vibes from will at the start and moves on to more gut wrenching heartbreak loveliness later, mostly wills pov but also i’ve read some fics of mike feeling frustrated that he’s lost will and can’t read him as well anymore and resenting the gap between them but i feel like thing song leans more towards Resigned Gay Yearning which will corners the market on
first verse—> both have family struggles “socially speaking we were the same” both have runaway fathers (will literally, mike emotionally) and mothers who compensate unhealthily sometimes
“as much as it seems/ like you own my heart/ it’s astronomy/ we’re two worlds apart”
SO THEM s3-s4, the whole song is definitely wills perspective on them being close when they were younger and thinking mike loves him but then el and internalized homophobia entering the picture and them drifting apart until they don’t know each other as well anymore, even though wills loves mike so much (and mike ofc adores will in return) it’s not enough to keep them from losing each other until it feels like they are worlds apart
“from far away/ i’d wished i’d stayed, with you/ but here face to face/ a stranger that i once knew ….. you said distance brings fondness/but guess not with us”
obviously will still wishes he could stay with mike forever and is still in love with mike so not completely 1:1 but also i think this is mostly his reaction to perceiving that mike doesn’t like him anymore and has grown so far apart from him — during the summer he’s wished mike had stayed more in touch but now at start of s4 he’s thinking yk maybe it’d be better if he just let go since mike “obviously” has as well, so i feel like these lines are less an expression of wills emotions than a sad sort of observation of his perception of mikes feelings where he thinks “ig the distance did make us grow apart and mike has lost fondness bc of it”
“you can’t force the stars to align when they’ve already died”
sO “stupid.. so stupid” ENERGY PLEASE??? will being like “how did i ever think we had a chance” and trying to convince himself to give up on their relationship and being frustrated that mike keeps bringing it up and giving him hope when in his mind their chance already died long ago and he’s been trying to get over it
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yours
will. literally will. i don’t even have to explain because EVERY LINE IS JUST HIM ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH MIKE FROM HIS POV GO LISTEN NOW 🔫
i’m not joking. now (or after reading the rest of this gay rambling rant)
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jigsaw
idk how to explain this but just the unsettling chords and vocals at the beginning are ALREADY SO MIKE WHEELER INTERNAL MONOLOGUE I AM SHEDDING TEARS
“if changing my clothes would make you like me more/ if changing my hair would make you care/ then I’d grab the kitchen scissors and/ cut myself to slivers for you”
i’m so fucking torn on this one because on one hand the ‘being prepared to give literally anything to make the other person care about them/make them happy even if it causes sacrifices to your happiness’ is so will energy BUT ALSO will never changes himself for mike which is one of the most amazing things about him - even though he is in pain and this might be his internal monologue he stays true to himself and his bowlcut <33
on the other hand this is SO michael wheeler literally changing everything about himself and suppressing his true identity and expression to constantly trying to conform to the societal expectations around him, whether that’s super playing into heterosexual bf because he thinks he’s supposed to or rejecting dnd and his own personal interests in s3 because he’s been told that’s childish and he’s trying to follow what he’s supposed to do and “grow up” by projecting and using a gf shield and way overplaying heterosexuality so that he escapes criticism and homophobia to copying eddie’s style to changing that style completely when showing up at the airport in s4 in order to hide his true nerdy personality because he feels the need to conform to a certain standard around el to constantly performing heterosexuality with regards to milkvan in public to LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT HIS CHARACTER IS REPRESSION AMD CHANGING WHO HE IS TO PLEASE THE EXPECTATIONS OF THOSE AROUND HIM
“if being less insane would make you stay”
suppressing his true nerdiness and “freak” qualities because of fear of abandonment 🤩🤩 he does need el and feels like being “ just some nerdy loser” will make him lose her
“you take every part of me, all of the things you need/ then the rest, you discard/ i’ve looked in the mirror, now i’m just a jigsaw”
this is not really aimed at one person in particular, more so mike about society and heteronormativity and changing so much of himself and making so many sacrifices to fit in to what it means to be accepted only to be exploited by society and still be outcasted for those few real qualities he keeps
“all i did just to make you happy/still you don’t even fucking love me”
lowkey this is an el line (go off queen) but also i feel like mike feels as if he’s made so many sacrifices to fit that heterosexual mold and keep el in his life and it still doesn’t work and he’s still rejected (obvi not completely and they are still going to be friends, but his fear of abandonment makes him feel like he failed despite sacrificing everything else for it)
“if i made you like me would i even like myself”
no he doesn’t like himself. he has so much self hatred and guilt going on rn because he’s suppressed who he is SO MUCH in an effort to be accepted (by society, by parents, by what he thinks el wants) and avoid homophobia and keep el but he’s lost himself and people he loves in the process anyways
anyways mike needs a hug 😭😭😭😭😭😭 and let him scream out his pain in s5 agenda
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family line
i don’t feel right analyzing and comparing conan’s trauma to fictional characters and also i’ll cry so i’ll just say obviously both mike and will have serious family trauma which leads to them “lying to survive,” i feel like this song is more will core because of the similarities of his central trauma with lonnie obviously (and the “but my sisters when i cry” 😭😭 WILLEL) but i could see mike relating to parts of it too
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summer child (cried writing this one)
this is WILL!!
“you see all the flowers in the weeds / you’re scared of the dark when you sleep/ you cover up your arms with your sleeves even in hundred degree heat”
will always seeing the good in everyone and everything despite his life being full of traumatic shit, being scared of the dark and hating it 😭😭, covering up his arms (i am in your walls lonnie watch the fuck out) to pretend like everything’s okay and not worry the people around him 😭😭😭
“your father was awfully mean/ your favorite color is green/ it reminds you of the summer you turned three running through sprinklers in the heat”
LONNIE I AM IN YOUR FUCKING WALLS I AM UNDER YOUR BED also will’s fav color being tied to a precious happy childhood memory 😭😭😭 (i love the theory that his fav color is yellow bc mike guessed that it was and he looked so excited that wills couldn’t say no and will holds onto that secret fondly 😭😭😭😭) also just him clinging to happy childhood memories with johnathan and his mom despite his much trauma he had is so will 😭😭
“and you laugh and you dance in the wind….. but there’s darkness behind those eyes even when you smile/ oh summer child”
will has such a vibrant personality and is literal sunshine but he has always struggled with really intense trauma even before the upside down and it haunts him even in safe spaces when he’s feeling happy 😭😭😭 don’t mind me just violently sobbing
“you don’t have to act like all you feel is mild / you don’t really like the sun it drives you wild / you’re lying summer child”
SOMEONE SEND THIS MESSAGE THE FUCK OVER TO WILL BECAUSE HE NEEDS TO HEAR THIS. YOU ARE VALUABLE. YOU ARE LOVED. YOU ARE VALID. ITS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY AND TO EXPRESS YOUR NEGATIVE EMOTIONS. YOU ARE JUST AS IMPORTANT AS OTHER PEOPLE 😭😭😭
“aren’t you way too busy taking care of everybody/ to take care of yourself”
“and i’m always here for you too” to johnathan LITERALLY ALWAYS LOOKING OUT FOR OTHERS DESPITE INTENSE TRAUMA AND PAIN, him sacrificing his happiness for milkvan and never even considering his own wants and needs, only trying to help those he loves be happy often at his own expense 😭😭
this song is definitely will later in life after maturity and therapy looking back and sympathizing for his younger self 😭😭😭
hahahhahahahahaha will kinnies stand up 😭😭😭
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footnote
“you said at the party that i was too drunk/ i told you i liked you you said ‘sober up’”
getting drunk and confessing your love and the other person saying “you dont mean that you’re drunk” and replying “why would I lie? Its so clear im in love with you” IS SO BYLER HELLO?? THIS IS EVERY DRUNK BYLER FIC CONAN I SEE U
“A tense conversation, you like someone else”
every byler fight ever with mike throwing up his gf shield every 5 seconds smh ‘tense’ is putting it lightly you can cut their tension with a KNIFE
“So I’ll stop being pretentious and loathing our friendship/You taught me a lesson, that feelings are reckless/Its just like the novels, side characters end up alone”
^^^^ SO WILL he lowkey hates that he’s in love but theres nothing he can do about it because feelings are reckless, he wants more than friendship so badly but feels guilty for it, doesn’t think of himself as a mc (even though he IS) and feels destined for an unhappy ending because ‘people like him don’t get happy endings’, resigned to gay yearning fate
“Every line I would write for you/But a footnote will do”
HE LOVES MIKE SO MUCH AMD IS WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR HIM AND WANTS TO SPEND THE REST OF HIS LIFE WITH HIM IN THE BASEMENT PLAYING DND BUT FEELS LIKE HES UNLOVABLE AND WILL NEVER FIND RECIPROCATION SO HE BLENDS INTO THE BACKGROUND LIKE HE THINKS MIKE WANTS AND TRIES TO BE HAPPY FOR HIM FROM AFAR
the second verse about everyone around them thinking theyre a couple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“A footnote will do (please don’t forget me)” HELLO THIS IS WILL BYERS
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memories
this is wills angsty song!! even though he doesn’t actually want to forget mike, sometimes he definitely wishes he could leave mike/the possibility of them having a relationship in his memories but mike keeps bringing it up and giving him hope and i can see him screaming this song out of frustration
“it’s been a couple months/that’s just about enough time/ for me to stop crying when i look at all the pictures/ now i kind of smile, i haven’t felt that in a while”
will trying his best to get over mike and be able to look back fondly on their memories together, feeling like maybe he’s finally moved on or been able to let go but then…
“but please don’t ruin this for me/please don’t make it harder than it already is/ i’m trying to get over this”
mike shows up again and starts giving him hope while also bringing in his issues with el and making will all confused again and regressing, i can see will being so frustrated with himself and putting in on mike for making him getting over them harder unintentionally
“i want to put you in the past cause i’m traumatized/ but you’re not letting me do that cause tonight/ you’re all drunk in my kitchen, curled in the fetal position/ too busy playing the victim to be listening to me”
from wills pov, ignorant to what mike is going through, wills just so over and frustrated with mikes defensiveness and projection and constantly using will as a relationship therapist and not listening to wills actual concerns (at first! obvi he comes back later to apologize and make up) and constantly having to go over the same things with mike and reopen old wounds and make it even more impossible for wills to move on
“now i can’t say goodbye, if you stay here the whole night/ you see it’s hard to find an ending to something that you keep beginning over and over again/ i promise that the ending always stays the sale”
will not being able to say no to mike even with all his frustration and knowing they’re going to go in the same old circles and not end up anywhere (they will!! but he doesn’t know that) and that it’s only going to make it harder for will to let go if mike keeps bringing up this possibility of “us”
“so there’s no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again/ i can’t be your friend can’t be your lover can’t be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love with somebody other than me”
AHHHHHHHHHH THIS IS SO!! BYLER??!!!!! will really letting out all the emotions here, feeling like he can’t keep going on like this and recognizing that whatever weird unresolved friend lover tension they have going on is holding them both back, and wanting them to just let go and move on without each other BUT ALSO at the end still expressing that bit of sad gay longing revealing that he does want to be with mike still and hasn’t moved on and that it’s hard for him to watch mike with someone else but also just wants to rip off the bandaid and get it over with since it’s inevitable anyway
THE BRIDGE!!! THE BRIDGE!!!! everything reminding will of mike and “barely just surviving” revealing how hard it’s actually been for him to move on and how he really hasn’t despite the first verse, i can see this being wills pov during/after one of their fights, and will maybe imagining doing what conan talks about in the bridge and finally saying enough is enough and making mike leave so he can get over him (not actually lol he too down bad but the emotion is probably there sometimes when he’s hurting)
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the exit
this song is SO BYLER
“february and the flowers haven’t even wilted/Its crazy how fast you tilted the world that we were busy building”
like how fast they grew apart especially as things fell apart in s3 until they feel like they don’t know each other anymore, this line is more wills pov since it’s sort of mikes relationship that messes up bylers dynamic and creates the chasm and awkwardness between them
“mid november and im … staring at a girl who’s not me/On your arm, a carbon copy”
CALL MIKE OUT!! EL IS JUST A WILL REPLACEMENT!! also gay pining i relate
“feels like we had matching wounds/but mines still black and bruised/and yours is perfectly fine”
i promise mike is NOT perfectly fine but hes doing his DARNdest to make it seem that way but will doesn’t see that and is overthinking whether they meant anything to mike at all and feels like he’s the only one hurting and gay yearning when he’s NOT
“feels like we buried alive/something that never died” THIS IS SO BYLER HELLO??
“So, God it hurt when I found out/You love her, it’s over/Do you even doubt it on your lips/You love her, its over/You already found someone to miss/While im still standin at the exit”
do i even need to explain ok fine yes i will a little — this is from WILL’S oblivious ass pov thinking that mike does love el and byler are hopeless and never meant anything to mind and he feels left out and replaced like mike moved on and left him standing at the exit waiting for him, do you even doubt it!! CALL MIKE OUT BC HE DOES DOUBT IT AND BC HIS SKETCHY CRUSH BEHAVIOR SURE MAKES ITS SEEM LIKE HE DOUBTS SOMETHING A GREAT BIT
but also this could be from MIKE’S dramatic ass pov during s4 when he thinks will moved on from him and doesn’t need him anymore and that there’s a girl he likes and is giving his art to when that was their thing and mike is still standing at the exit
“I can’t hate you for getting everything we wanted/I just thought that I would be a part of it/I was moving into your apartment/When you met someone, shes from your hometown…”
😭😭 will still loves mike and is trying to be happy for him but thought that they were going to be best friends forever and achieve their dreams together until el came along, can’t stay mad at him and can’t hate him so he stays in mournful gay pining
“Impossible to understand/How you’re not coming back, but I cant say it out loud”
SILENT PAIN SILENT PAIN this is lowkey from both mike and will bc S I L E N T G A Y P A I N
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and that’s all for now!! if you read all of this omfg i literally love you marry me rn if you didn’t i don’t blame you 😭😭 but i hope this helped spread the conan gray byler agenda
#it’s the way i was worried abt memories and jigsaw and then i listened to them and ending up writing 20 pages 😭😭😭#thERES NO ESCAPING IT. EVERY SONG. IS BYLER.#you guys please give this notes i spent way too fucking long on this for people not to see it I NEED TO SPREAD THE AGENDA#conan gray is byler#byler#byler songs#byler tumblr#conan gray#conan slay#byler tag#memories#footnote#movies conan gray#people watching#the exit#summer child#family line#disaster#best friend conan gray#astronomy#yours#jigsaw#superache#byler analysis#Spotify
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started ranting about doctor who to my gf and realized i actually have a lot of opinions (which start off summarizing hbomberguy's takes from the sherlock video but it was kind of a revelation for me) so if u want to hear them ive copypasted and edited them a bit for u guys under the cut <3
so like to set up how bad steven moffat is he explains why doctor who was so bad when moffat was the showrunner in a way ive been trying to articulate for years
basically he's a decent writer who was good at individual episodes that make reference to the doctors history but when it came to actually writing that history and the big events that would become the doctor's history he sucks so so so badly
like in the empty child he was amazing, he prioritized the story of the episode while giving the doctor an air of mystery and references a long and complicated backstory without compromising any charm or humor
but in the very first episode where he had reins on the entire show and its storylines he resorted to just a monologue from the doctor about how cool and special he is and that trend continued the whole time he was in charge. the entire universe suddenly revolved around the doctor
like. chibnall was clearly trying to subvert that by only using brand new aliens during his first season and having extra companions (three of them jesus christ) but he didn't address the heart of the problem and somehow made it even worse. the charm of the doctor was always that they were just a traveler bouncing around the universe and helping people or having fun or whatever
and of course there was always the tragic backstory and the genocide and being the last of his kind and all that but that always came second to the humans he loved!! the first time the master came back in tennant's run it was martha and her family and jack that saved him!! and chibnall tried to do that with yaz but it just didnt feel as impactful bc of how overpowering the master & timeless child plots were (dont even get me started on the timeless child shit retconning the entire history of the show to make the doctor quite literally the most important being in the universe)
moffat on the other hand went all over the place with it and wrote in intergalactic cults deadset on killing the doctor and when he did try to make companions special and important he completely took away their agency in the process
to me clara was a decent companion and had some great moments for me until she turned out to be not real or a metaphor or forgotten or dead or somehow retconned into existing since the show started in 1963 it was all so WEIRD and misses the point of making a companion important. it made her so important she lost her humanity imo
and then there was bill who also died and was mutilated beyond recognition and it just makes me think about how rtd never did that to companions. they were special not because of time magic or destiny or fucked up deaths but because they were just humans. with families. martha got to go back to her family. donna had to forget but she was happy in the end. rose was supposed to live out her life in the parallel universe with her own mortal doctor, and she did, but moffat STILL found a way to bring her back as a metaphor because his desire to deconstruct female companions into concepts and tragedies was just too strong
that's not even getting into what he did to river. or amy...
none of this is to say rtd is perfect of course, i'm really nervous to see how he deals with everything that's been thrown at the show in the past couple decades but considering he plans on staying for a while i really hope he manages to put a better twist on all of it. honestly the thing im most curious about is the special effects.. the show has been leaving very heavily on cg lately but chibnall did introduce a few decent practical effects and puppets so i hope rtd pushes for more of that. im getting off topic tho
that's all i have for now i hope u enjoyed and if u wanna discuss anything pls feel free although that's all the brainpower i have for today come back tomorrow <3
#the thing about doctor who is that it's still doctor who even when it's bad. which presents a dilemma to every new showrunner#in that they have to find a way to either incorporate the previous canon into their canon or find a way to discard it. in canon#how funny would it be if rtd started and immediately said all the timeless child bs was a fever dream
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a) yes the blog should be chatty more often I think it happens more then requests some days I love talking to everybody here all the vibes are good
b) GOT PERMISSION LET'S GO!!! I have made prototypes of the horns and tail, I have cleared it with my mom and we're gonna go look at fabric for the gloves and maybe wings, I have floated the idea of thw wig and I might go for it, and the vest isn't a problem! My mom is going to try and find something and if it doesn't work I have a gray one as a backup! Gonna cut my hair an inch or two if I try the wig tho. The banner has been moved from hanging from a belt to a paper patch over my heart, and the mask is still a problem, but I am full of spite and if I go trick or treating with my friend again I might be able to sneak it (I kinda hope I don't tho. She doesn't really know about my interests. but if I do then I can avoid parents.) But I also have a white mask that I doodled on during a group with my scouts before they disbanded and I can use that if I get desprite. I wanna bring in the traffic hearts somehow, but worse case I draw them on my arm or a red heart on my cheek with washable kids markers.
I have planned this out to the fullest and I have so much time to get everything done!!! (If you guys wanna see the specific design I'm basing this off, I can link a post with the picture bc I'm kinda proud of it) - Voidling Anon
YOURE ON A MISSIONS GODAM AHSJSHSJA THIS IS AWESOME
SHOW US STUFF :D Im not in the discord anymore unfortunately but definitely show me im your fuckin #1 fan through this right now
just dont stress yourself if theres some stuff thats too hard to make, like horns wings tail etc cos thats rlly top notch stuff to make yourself! but this is so cool :D kinda inspires me to go as one of my kins
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really long explanation of my song choices under the cut
1. WHITE WINTER HYMNAL (FLEET FOXES)
- its the cycles. the tragedy that is and was and will be happening. the removal from the scene and simultaneous desperation
- lyrical repitition yeah. timeloop
- "and michael you would fall" you WOULD. implied repition and inevitability. ya its like gan 👍👍
2. YOU & ME (TALLY HALL)
- "off again we go, another seed to sow, another part to keep in proper order, what have i begun, a getaway undone, i have seen the signs and i ignored them"
- ⬆️ HELLO? TIMELOOP. meticulous tweaking of circumstances to get gan not evil. i have seen the signs (of the impossibility of changing fate. and also of him in the first before having moral complexity) and i ignored them!!!!!
- YOU AND ME DIVINE. A CIRCULAR DESIGN! RETURN TO BE IN ORBIT ALL THE TIME
- "you turn away and around, ive been coming down" its a bit. its a bit that you might see your shadow... iykyk
3. EVERYWHERE (BRAN VAN 3000)
- youre everywhere to me... its gan. hes hes everywhere
- everywhere you came an left you came in the name of love! and left a wake of happiness and tenderness and SWEET CONFLICT.... it is always tortured :( link is so good natured but um well. its not going right. he still holds reductive morality that wont actually save anyone
- "you come on down but you dont come down" - its the way link keeps coming back to this guy this GUY HE LOVES to save him but he never gets at the root of it he never. comes down to why gan does what he does ever.
- also works as a sorrows (part 5 of b+f) gan perspective 👍 unrequited love baby
4. TEXAS REZNIKOFF (MITSKI)
- ok i actually have very little justification for this. but its verry sorrows esque to me. sorry
- oh except "but ive been anywhere an its not what i want... i wanna be still with you". its them to me.
5. FRANCIS FOREVER (MITSKI)
- what more can i say... the isolation. the seperation
- in sorrows ganondorf if left literally all alone on a shipwreck for days to months Several times, and is also hopelessly in love with link. for context.
- "i dont need the world to see that ive been the best i can be... but i dont think i can stand to be where you dont see me" - its literally him. he really only has link in his life, and he is doing all his evil-magic suppression in isolation FOR HIM.
- ⬆️ oh also somewhat a post-fear no more link. haha. he greives rajo his son and rajo his brother a lot. all this timeloop bullshit is for him after all... in defiance of fate and the gods snd everything. he MISSES HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING one might say.
6. ANNIE'S SONG (JOHN DENVER)
- hes everything to link👍 gives him purpose
- LET ME GIVE MY LIFE TO YOU. LET ME DIE IN YOUR ARMS.... the devotion and it all. yeah
7. I'M STILL HERE (GOO GOO DOLLS)
- this is particularly a song for fear no more rajo. the weird father son dynamic they got here is so fucked
- rajo feels inadequate he feels evil and ALSO smothered by link his dad. because link is trying to save him from being evil right. so hes both expecting him to act badly and need saving and ALSO be good. its fucked
- oh and also deeply estranged by society due to being raised in hyrule abd very much Not being hylian.
- like the lyrics refer to feeling inadequate and lost alone. people (in this case link and (joker voice) SOCIETY) expecting bad things from him... he wants support from his dad but its still very complicated WHATEVER...
- its um. hes just like jim treasureplanet.ok whatever
8. HYMN FOR A SCARECROW (TALLY HALL)
- by contrast. a link song.... nobody knows you and neither do i...
- the farmer jim in the lyrics is corfo cepolla to me (he is a farmer who link comes back to several times across timelines for advice and help raising ganondorf as a baby. hes cool guy).
- "he may imagine you heard and he knew... you wouldnt hear what he might have known" <- despite it all link really fails to take to heart what needs to be learned from the cepollas. HES A VERY ONE TRACK MIND GUY... like a scarecrow!
- song is about an enigma of a guy right. why does he do what he does. is he even aware. only the wind knows... its very him.
- also the birds the crows. they are fate somewhat. he drives them away by nature of what he does but the line "igniting a spark in [the crows'] minds so they circle and fly" feels like they are driven to return anyway. very much a theme in the story, like evil still arises whether in ganondorf or not. you cant save everyone always
9. BIXBY CANYON BRIDGE (DEATH CAB)
- link greiving his lost brother/son/friend ...
- in the silence it became so very clear that you had long since disappeared...i cursed myself at bring suprised that it didnt play like it did in my mind
- ⬆️ he keeps fucking dying. despite all the time nonsense rajo cant come back and you cant erase the losses of former timelines
10. SAMSON (REGINA SPEKTOR)
- the "history books forgot about us" and the "we coukdnt bring the cloumns down" is very sorrows to me. they loved each other and it still wasnt enough to CHANGE anything because he still died by links hand and the timeline was still reset.
- the uh. hair length thing is actually pretty important because 1. its a cultural thing to have gans hair long. 2. rajo cut off all his hair before he killed himself in fear no more (momentous Fucking occasion). and link feels ratherrr responsible for that. the hair cutting is a betrayal. and in the times where link raises him in the hylian fashion and cuts his hair its like. uprooting his whole life and for what? NOTHING to change. wawawawa
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abelia, daffodil, camellia, jasmine, nutmeg, 3, 12, 21, 37, 49 go crazy
tehehe let's go
abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?
i want to be that bitch but i hate having things touching me when they don't have to be. closest i got was a necklace i had on for several months but i snapped it over spring break :/ ig hopefully when i get a piercing i'll have that at least!
daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?
yes i do! i have two older siblings. i've always been told i'm very similar to my brother, which i find sweet and heartbreaking cause he was in college before i was even like. conscious. i looked up to him so hard though so it makes sense. i have a similar like physicality to him too. i think we're all u know. a product of our upbringing. my brother has always been an artsy dude, always more of a radical thinker and funny and i've modeled my music taste after him for a large part of my life. he's a little more of a stiff now having like a family and a job but he is a freelancer so that's cool lol. my sister is hardcore like. she's disney adult not in an I can't forgive you way but it becomes a bit much very quickly. she and her husband are very Capitalism. she's also very much more likely to side with my dad on things or at least vouch for his perspective. so i think there's always been a bit more of a tough barrier between us. but i've still hung out with her and her husband a lot in the last several years
camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?
mm. i dont know that we wanna get into this <3 im the same im different every little girl i've ever been lives inside me idk who she was at the time idk if i know who she always was but we're all here and also i've changed so much in a year alone but i have a lot of the same um problems lol idk
jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?
i don't have a good answer for this other than i still havent rewatched dead poets society since november 2019.
nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?
UGH um just once i would like to have a genuinely homey feeling room but something still feels off. i have some posters and i got lights but it still feels like. cold. idk!
3. do you leave the window open at night?
not rn but you know who does! peeta <3 during summer i like to yeah unless it's way too humid or something
12. what kind of day is it?
i was on a shoot today for someone's short film and it was really fun! i love working in film i love the crews i've worked with. i stepped in this GIANT puddle and my foot got so so so cold but luckily it was a moderately warm day out. otherwise im very tired and lacking motivation but um <3 we stay silly
21. something you’ve kept since childhood?
i have cards from when i was really little and a lot of notebooks and papers from like middle school containing plenty of bad fanfiction and notes passed between my friends and random written rps
37. someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?
this one friend of mine who's like insane like i've almost cut her off several times. but we just don't talk a lot. and two of my other friends who are twins and are literally always a piece of my heart though it's been so long since we've really talked
49. can you skip rocks?
i used to be pretty okay at it as a kid now... idk i might flop <3 i'd still try though. sometimes i just liked to throw bigger rocks to see a splash
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Hey ryen 🤗 I took some notes while reading 3tan9 yesterday. The fic dropped at 1am my time and i had to clean my notes up a little so i would not be too embarrassed by the MESS I wrote but be warned because this is still messy😄 (did not want to get rid of my real live reaction I guess) also the last paragraph I wrote at 4am so… yeah. This is kinda long so take all the time you want with reading and replying😊
heart lifeless next to his shoes
Nooooo but also sooo well written!!!!😩
Kicking My FUCKINGGG BLANKET HEEE DOES NOT THINK IS IS HIIIIMM SHE IS SEEING. AAAAAAAHHH (okay after finishing the scene he thought it was him but not wanting her to confess? I am confused did he get it right away or was he doubting himself and just played it off?)
Your voice cracks as your stars burn out. Your universe collapses in on itself, plunging into your throat and choking you in an instant.
This is sooo fucking hurtful but so beautiful worded
But I’m really fucking into you, doll. I have been for a long time.
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THIS HAS ME SCREAAAAMING AND GIGGELING ROLLING AROUND IN MY BED LIKE A MANIAC (even just rereading these worts now makes me giddy. I am sooo close to giggleing like a school girl. I am unwell)
Her CONFESSION AND HIS HOLD GOT TIGHTER I AM DYING THIS IS SOOO ADORABLE (also love love love that oc ignored her insecurities to reassure him💕💕😭)
Whatever you want it’s yours- I AM SOBBING MA’AM HOW DARE YOUU
Insecurities last. This is soo amazing feels like reading poetry
Ohhh my god it is nooone of them bro is none of them I thought it was namjoon for sure!! But i loooved this story. Really really amazing and i just flew through it!! I want to know what went down with kook exactly but i feel like this is a great point for your break. Bc my babies are HAPPY AAAAHHHH
Love love loved this chapter!!! not gonna lie you had me in the first half. I was anxious that this was gonna be suuuper angsty but it wasn’t it was sooo adorable and sweet and I was so happy reading this!!! The way you compared love to the deep blue sea and the moonlight and stars comparisons 🥰and ahhh it felt so poetic and made me feel the love and oh my GOD i am so happy! this was so sweet!!!
Oh my good i am so happy that this turned out so sweet although it hurt a lil bit (or a lot) for a while there.❤️🩹 but its okay bc it tured out good. (And even if it did not, these are your storys and you can do with them whatever you want) Also Ryen what are you talking about „long wait“ you have been keeping us fed this whole time with all your work.
Wait just remembered you spoiler out of Context what was that about? I don’t remember a green tote was that oc overnight bag? I thought she had a backpack i am confused. Was the trash when oc wanted to throw the tangerine peel away?? there was so much going on so I think i missed it. 🙈
This was such a great read!! it was a whirlwind of emotions I love it so much and thank you so much for sharing this story with us.
(Also I think there is definitely something going on or going to happen between bro and yuri)
Ooooh and I loved the „It’s been a year“ line when it has been almost been a year since 3tan dropped and this was such a meta moment 🤭
I hope you can relax during your break, enjoy your time and get some well deserved rest!!!🍀✨🍊
-🧶🍁
AHHH BABY this is incredibly special and thoughtful of you?? holy hell! i love the note taking and all the thoughts don't mind messes at aLL. let me put my response under a cut my gosh i am so excited to dive into this
the heart next to his shoes. ah, yoongi... you old, silly man.
in the kitchen, you got it right the first time: yoongi was being cheeky and making reader say it. he knew what she meant, but he didn't wanna lean into it so easily. he wanted her to say it, so when she didn't outright, he went cheeky with it as an out for her to take. it's funny but it's also sad.
"Your voice cracks as your stars burn out. Your universe collapses in on itself, plunging into your throat and choking you in an instant." yeah this one def was a punch to the gut, but i'm glad you think it's good :(((
"But I’m really fucking into you, doll. I have been for a long time."AHH I WAS KICKING AND SCREAMING AND BLANKET KICKING DURING THIS ONE TOOOO MY GOD LIKE REALLY YOONGI?? REALLY.
the confessions. all the confessions. my god i love them so damn much and his little actions and tendencies have me wanting to wrap him up and never let him go. him and reader honestly, since she was so, so strong in this chapter. the growth is honestly amazing.
"Whatever you want it’s yours-" YEAHHH IM NOT OK EITHER WHO TOLD HIM THIS WAS OK TO SAY??
"Insecurities last. This is soo amazing feels like reading poetry" thank you so much, babe! i'm touched that you think it flows like poetry ugh i love you.
"Ohhh my god it is nooone of them bro is none of them I thought it was namjoon for sure!! But i loooved this story. Really really amazing and i just flew through it!! I want to know what went down with kook exactly but i feel like this is a great point for your break. Bc my babies are HAPPY AAAAHHHH" ITS NONE OF THEMMMM i know most people thought namjoon, but to that i say: you can just imagine a joonie clone or something kdjsfhsf if you flew through the chapter then that's good for writing sake! means it read well and wasn't bumpy. good feedback. and i'm glad you think it's a good spot for a break!
"Love love loved this chapter!!! not gonna lie you had me in the first half. I was anxious that this was gonna be suuuper angsty but it wasn’t it was sooo adorable and sweet and I was so happy reading this!!! The way you compared love to the deep blue sea and the moonlight and stars comparisons 🥰and ahhh it felt so poetic and made me feel the love and oh my GOD i am so happy! this was so sweet!!!" it was still pretty angsty! but then it wasn't. it beautifully wasn't angsty afterwards - we just had to get through the muddy water first. and i'm glad you liked the deep sea and moonlight and stars! i love imagery like that bc the moon also controls the tides, so i wanted to tie those all together.
"Oh my good i am so happy that this turned out so sweet although it hurt a lil bit (or a lot) for a while there.❤️🩹 but its okay bc it tured out good. (And even if it did not, these are your storys and you can do with them whatever you want) Also Ryen what are you talking about „long wait“ you have been keeping us fed this whole time with all your work." AHHH thank you so much, babe. i have a no sad endings policy but that means i get too drag us through hell first LMAO and i guess you're right about the wait! i think i just meant from the last main part since that came out in august? late july? something like that.
"Wait just remembered you spoiler out of Context what was that about? I don’t remember a green tote was that oc overnight bag? I thought she had a backpack i am confused. Was the trash when oc wanted to throw the tangerine peel away?? there was so much going on so I think i missed it. 🙈" the green tote was signifying the bag reader brought tangerines in, and then the trash was from her almost throwing the tangerine (a metaphor) away.
"This was such a great read!! it was a whirlwind of emotions I love it so much and thank you so much for sharing this story with us. (Also I think there is definitely something going on or going to happen between bro and yuri)" glad it was a good read! the emotions were plenty, for sure. and you're so welcome, and thank you for reading<33 and you think something about bro and yuri, huh? even though rohan is with yuri?? oh nO
"Ooooh and I loved the „It’s been a year“ line when it has been almost been a year since 3tan dropped and this was such a meta moment 🤭" YESSSS i thought that was so fitting honestly. glad you noticed LOL
"I hope you can relax during your break, enjoy your time and get some well deserved rest!!!🍀✨🍊" thank you so much, baby. i shall have a good time during break and we will still have fun! :D this was amazing feedback and i am so so grateful. it made me happy and all the hard writing days so worth it.
#you are incredible#🧶🍁 anon#lovely people#asks:3tan#3tan9#3tan spoilers#3tanbro#*ryenfictalk#long post#mailbox💌
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my epic and official review of FMN by @sipsteainanxiety below the cut <33
(ALSO GO READ IT IF YOU HAVEN'T)
okay starting off with ch 27:
the eye contact through the mirror,, good shit right there
this is random but i keep thinking about the baby and i feel so :(((( and DDDDD: PLEASE they gotta be a family again i am beggingsgfhgf
"you could still pull up. i'll sure she'll understand" okay i pull up--
"gotta get that quality time in with your girl" amen sero, amen
"cowabummer, dude" HJDFK SERO I LOVE YOU he's really coming in here with some hit lines isnt he
he;s so nervous :(((( just wanna wrap him in a big hug he deserves one
the thought that bakugou, who's extremely calculated, is willing to just risk it all just to be with the person he loves means SO much my heart is aching but like in a good way
the art AWWWWWshfgfddsk he is SO. yeah love him
Dr BitchAss McGee better step back alright im not playing around this time bc katsuki is sad again and that is NOT allowed in this household
if this man doesnt stop clicking at me i swear im gonna click him into the next dimension
this bitch is keeping me in a WAREHOUSE??? didnt your mother teach you how to treat a lady smh
OH DID THIS BITCH TAKE MY MEMORIESS AGAIN I SWEAR
this woman sounding like the Joker by talking about society like get your clown ass away from me im not batman
lady im sorry your partner died but i literally barely remember that incident because SOMEONE took my memory so why tf am i here i mean i understand that youre trauma dumping but find a better outlet, sis <3
oh heres bitchass mcgee in the corner okay lemme at him
"you bounced back though, didn't you?" okay untie me and then say that to my face
AAGHHHH NOW ITS BEEN REVEALED THAT SAKI'S HER DAUGHTER IM AAAFDHGADDFGDHFGSDHHFHDGFGHDH PLEASE LET THEM BE A FAMILY AGAIN THEY ALL DESERVE SO MUCH LOVE AND HAPPINESS
YEAHHHH WOOOOO KATSUKI COME IN AND KICK SOME ASS WITH ME love how this violence will hopefully bring us together <3
AAAHHH i didn't think i'd be in the notes!!! tysm ily <333333 !!!!!! i wanna draw this lady now sjfhdg i have a mental image of her already
okay time for ch 28 hgskdghasghsdf
these two bitches with one needle trying to beat us like just accept defeat, sweaty <3
OH SHIT WAIT HER QUIRK UH OH
YEAHHHH LEMME KICK THE DOCTORS STUPID HOE ASS WOOO
YESSSEESRESDSED A SOLID PUNCH TO THE FACE HELL EYAH
i should go back and take his wallet and socks; wallet bc it's funny and i can give it to the police and socks bc then he'll be very unconfrotable and thatll ALSO be funny
this lady has rabies or something omg
"YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME" "I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE" HDF KSHGHDJFHGSDKG PLEASE THAT TOOK ME OUT GHGJFSDHFHGK
bitch stop playing with me like im a puppet this isn't some wack version of coraline where youre the other mother okay put me down i'll bite you
when i said to put me down i did NOT mean like that
YEAHHH WOOOHOOOO IM A BADASS what a power couple omg
AAAHHHHGHH YES this friendship with eijirou is EVERYTHING
mother and father, please give me my child back immediately :) (threat)
YESSS GO OFF SIS THEY DID LIE TO YOU!!!! GO OFF!!!! QUEEN SHIT
YES uncle ei awwwww my HEART omg
kissed sunsets awwwww PLEASE thats so cute
the fact that he kept everything where is was, like the SNEAKERS, im,,,, my heart hurts he missed yn so muchAND TH EBOOK AND THE MUG AND THE NOTES HNMNGMHNFHMNHMFNNFH IM IN PAIN!!! ABSOLUTE AGONY!!!!!!!!!
OH AND THE PITCURE FRAME ON THE PILLOW I AM GOIGN TO WEEP AND SOB AND CRY
YES YES YES THEYRE A FAMILY AGAIN YE S S RSSE
HE GOT THE WHOLE NURSERY READY OMG PELA SEGREREKFVDHSGKDJSG SOBBIGN AN D SCREAMIGN
HE HAD THE RING ON HIM THE WHOEL TIME IM
HMNGHGNMGNHM LOSING YM MIND THEY MEAN :(((( SO MUCH TO ME :(((((( THEIR LITTLE FAMILIY IS SO IMPORTANT I LOVE THEM
amazing job AS ALWAYS this had me absolutely captivated omg <33333
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YAYAYYA i wanted to do madamemiz's ask game about the DCA because i llike them 🫶 UNDER THE CUT !! ! !! ! !!!
how did you get here?
my hyperfix on the dca started earrrly january this year because i played hw2 and was promptly swept off my feet and ive been sick over them since. id played it before , but started playing again bc i wanted too 100% the game! oh if only id known !!
2. why these characters in particular? what was the hook for you?
originally it was Sun that hooked me onto both of them. hes just so silly!! and such a prissy bitch!! and i love it!! plus i love the idea of 2 separate ids in one body, thats always fun to mess with 😋
3. how long have you been here?
since early january of this year!! though, im not SUPER active in the fandom itself. i just silently enjoy fanart/fics , and VERY RARELY draw and post on my art bog. im not a big participator in fandom itself, im perfectly comfy just watching.
4. have you actually played fnaf sb?
NO. and i do not plan to. the game is too buggy to pay 40 bucks for it, plus i really dont wanna give scott anymore money (fuck you scott cawthon i hate you scott cawthon a million plagues upon you and your life scott cawthon) so ill pass. im perfectly fine with just watching videos.
5. if you make content, what's your favorite piece you've contributed?
THIS POST!! i love vocaloid, and i love the dca, and whats better than combining the two? i was especially proud of myself bc these were animations, which is something i NEEEVERRR to, so id say i was pretty damn happy with these!!
6. what's your favorite sort of art or fic? what genre/flavor/style?
ive still yet to actually read any fics abt the dca (im in the process of reading one about djmm rn <3 its so good i love it so much <333) but im a sucker for angst w/a happy end (the heart wants what the heart wants, and who am i to deny ?)
7. what's your favorite au?
i like aquatic aus for the dca!!!!! i love seeing all the different designs ppl give them ... i also rlly like cowboy/western aus too :)
8. do you have any ocs, or have any ocs you're fond of?
not yet, but ive absolutely thought about it!! maybe one day ... (for now though, im happy with my silly little technician s/i hehe)
9. what do you think of the dca's canon appearance? Scary? Cute? Something else?
I LOVE THEM I THINK THEYRE SO PRETTYYYYYYYYYY i dont really see them as scary from looks alone tbh, like MAYBE moon but it'd have to be rlly dark so it was just his glowing eyes visible. other than that they are just silly billys cutie patooties to me. id pinch their cheeks if i could (i mean i know u can but. ykwim)
10. what keeps you in this fandom despite the very small amount of canon content the dca had?
im kept sane by both my own brain's constant thoughts abt these robots, and also the art and writing made by other fans!! i 🫶 images.
11. be honest: if you had to pick only one, sun or moon?
:( i GUESS sun, if i HAD to choose, only bc Moon's the one with the virus. it feels so wrong to separate them. you wound me.
12. thoughts on eclipse?
I LOVE THEM!!!!!!! i hc that eclipse isnt one whole robot, but its a state of being where sun and moon are both comfortably, equally in control of the body. so like ... in a WAY they could seem blended into one whole ai, but theyre both still in there, and have moments of one overtaking the other, while still as "eclipse".
13. thoughts on pre-glitch sun?
I feel like pre glitch Sun was juuust starting to get a bit overworked and burnt out, like right before the virus (and afterwards, it jsut got worse and worse). i think the DCA are genuinely good at taking care of kids, they just slip up often and arent absolutely perfect at it (unlike how they would be, if they were actually made to be caretakers and not theater animatronics). sometimes Sun is too loud, having to constantly remind himself to lower his voice when around more meek kids in the daycare.
he definitely has his moments where he needs to correct himself and remember that he is taking care of young kids, but all in all, i feel like Sun was pretty good at taking care of the kids (much better than he was when he was first moved to the daycare, since i can imagine he was VERY, VERY BITTER about being moved from the theater, but its not like being a theater animatronic was synonymous with despising children, so he wouldn't HATE them or anything yk ??)
14. thoughts on pre-glitch moon?
YKNOW I WONDER does moons voice sound like that bc of the virus, or is that just his voice ? nonetheless, i feel like Moon was good with his job, and maybe a bit better than Sun, only bc i feel like handling naptime would come with less struggles than daytime activities.
Moon was probably so much more gentle, less hunched over and 'scary-looking' when he moved, and rather than punishing kids for not sleeping he just ... actually helped them sleep. yknow ? whether its holding and rocking some of the younger kids to help them sleep better, or maybe one of the kids has something on their mind that wont let them sleep, i feel like Moon was actually really good at his job.
im firm on believing the DCA is actually good at taking care of kids due to what cassie says about the AR sun/moon plushies!! theyre good at their job!!! to a degree LOLLLL
15. do you interpret sun and moon as two sides of the same person, or truly two separate beings in one body? does it matter?
i interpret them as two separate beings in one body!! i like this interpretation, it feels more fun to work with and is oddly cathartic? emotional? interesting? theres just so much emotion that comes with sharing a body with an entire other identity, knowing that you and them are tightly knit together, whether you want to be or not, because no matter what, you have them, and they have you, and you're stuck with one another. and yes, you and them are different, but you bleed into one another at some parts, at some angles the yellow and blue smudge, and sometimes you struggle to see where 'you' starts, and 'they' begin.
i love love love thinking about how they experience sharing a body with one another, how they maneuver the world and their thoughts. ITS SO FUN!!! THEY MAKE ME SICK.
16. what's something in the fandom you'd like to see more of?
WAITER!!! WAITER!! MORE PRISSY BITCH SUN PLEASE!!! ill literally never ever get enough of it.
17. what's something in the fandom you'd like to see less of?
this is ENTIRELY just me, but seeing the dca act all suave and sexy feels mischaracterizing. this tweet literally captures how i feel perfectly
like OB VI OUS LY have fun and do what ur little heart desires, never ever am i gonna bash someone for DOING THAT, but whenever i see them drawn sexily and with abs or anything like that it just makes me wonder if we have the same character in mind. you dont get them like i do. we are playing with our touys in different corners.
18. anything you're looking forward to?
THE MOON NIGHTLIGHT. i have the sun one already and i NEED the moon one so he isnt alone :( i hope they fix up the coloring on the moon one, bc the dark bit looks so weird and messy (im assuming it only looks like that since it was the first look at him, but still!!! i think they should just make him all white, and not make the NIGHT LIGHT dark in some areas, lol???)
19. do you think you'd actually get along with the dca if you met them irl?
this is one of those rare times where i DO think i would get along with them, or at least Sun!! i feel like id definitely be super duper anxious first meeting them, like the enthusiasm levels are a bit jarring, but i really do feel like i could get along with Sun (and maybe Moon ... if this is pre-virus, then more likely, but if its while Moon has the virus .. .. . . . . .. .. .. .. mauybe.)
20. free space! talk about whatever's on your mind!
if i think about the dca and their room and state of neglect for too long i get sick. i get insane and curl into a little ball like a roly poly. they make me so sick. i hate them i need to bite them.
also genderfunny aroace dca forever and ever. ok? 🫶
#orig. post#IM SO SORRY IF THIS SHOWS UP IN THE TAGS I DONT WANT TO PUT SLASHES IN EVER INSTANCE OF THEIR NAMES ☹️#OP OF THIS ASK GAME THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE QUESTIONS THEY WERE SO FUN TO ANSWER!!!!!#it got my brain thinking :3
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guess I'm on weekly release now. ep 40 that must have been the most confusing battle for megumi. getting his ass kicking planning to get hit just so he can get another hit in and then his opponent stabs himself through the head. i was not expecting this much characterization from jogo. like usually you can tell which characters are going to be important based on how "cool" the mangaka makes their visual design and jogo looks like a normal flunky but he has a fully fleshed out character. sukuna and jogo are having a naruto style heart to heart wtf.
ah i wanna watching gojo go feral again what ep was that... ep 33 huh was it that far back? guess this whole arc is more about the fallout of gojo being sealed. damn yeah who animated that cut with the arm. the animation for this series really is top notch all around but especially the fights, i think jjk has cemented it's place as best animated fights i in any anime i have ever seen. satoru-chan is so manically happy to be fighting. wow this episode feels so much longer than it actually is.
41: well at least sukuna is having fun. and he took an interest in megumi, this can't end well for megumi.
I wonder why the author made jujutsu high be 4 years. for even 1st years its essentially on job training with them already being put to work. I do wonder how much schooling they're actually getting. and then narratively at this point there aren't even 3rd years and when i checked the wiki 4th year characters dont exist. and then with nanami leaving, originally i thought he then went to college but he's a lot younger than i initially though and most office jobs want more than highschool. so does jjk give you a university degree at the end? i know japan has 4 year universities but do they do 2 year associate degrees? just an all round weird decision.
i started out curious why people were mad about the sukuna fight and now im reading the manga i guess
yuuji: I don't need purpose i'm going to be a cog in the machine
huh itadori is actually choso's brother. huh. but the whole thing with the cursed womb fetuses was that they were never born. i dont know what is going on here. and why didn't choso recognize the stitches earlier. if brain dude is swapping bodies then the genetic material like gametes should be changing or is the implication that yuuji is also made from cursed energy/weird human experimentation. ... panda's right yuji really is attracting older brothers.
*squints* is that kazakstan????? when did kazakstan become a world superpower???? idk if its the translation but im having trouble understanding. kenjaku changed people into being more suitable vessals and to give non sorcerers cursed techniques? because that's not what the text says. then was does the remote activation do? and why did he need mahito's technique? it wasn't garunteed he'd be able to absorb mahito. i cant make sense of this.
poor megumi just got dragged headfirst into clan politics.
does the culling game apply to all cursed technique users or just ones brain dude implanted?
145: instrumentality??????? instrumentality. -_-
maki's new design is goated, love the sleeves. i like her more i hope she pisses off more men. i also finally noticed that meimei isn't wearing a dress, it's a tricked out onsie. i love that design
152. suguru was too pure hearted. see you can totally get away with mass murder you just need to play the politics game.
alright my curiosity is sated. not like i was watching jjk for the plot anyways.
powered by children lol. madoka level harvest negative emotion energy as a renewable fuel source.
i think i get why people were saying the zenin clan is kinda incest-y
huh is gege trying to say gojo taught sukuna about love.
so sukuna just ate his own mumified corpse's head, im getting that right?
Saw someone compare gojo to achilles (so geto would be patroclus?) And im mad i didnt think of that first
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My best relation to my long time friend and meant alot to.. and how things will stated at things
I have noticed and confirmed in spite that my long-time friend or close friend who is into the Final Fantasy series, the 7th installment, is into Ka Snake of the Jungle Book and all of that kind of stuff.
We have been talking rarely and talking more to less as the month ago half began, and since she decided she would be my partner and she joined up my groups off four of them, she will join up to other groups of mine and will help her out eventually.
Despite that, I felt pity on her own fan club that left. She said she has a similar situation to mine. For years it has been, and I have known her since 2015 and befriended her before, and we parted ways since 2020. We knew each other, but she was not really kind. But we parted ways despite both of us being a bit immature and too much, and they were stubborn in the past. We left our own separate ways since then.. until last year for trying to contact, and even this year for a month to contact and tried to talk to her. She is a busy person for creating the stuff, so we spoke of things and asked her about my wishes and greatest wanted about "being nice and kind" to me, and she did for a smile.
Despite we reunited, now we became close buddies for personal friends and closer friends as considered. I am official here for her as official; I know her for the longest time since 2015-2020. Even though we parted ways, things didn't do justice due to common interests, and sometime over the years, we changed for the better. I thank my longtime friend for being who she really is.
Some part and some things—if due to other folks and other people whom they dont like nor get along with me for blocking, cutting me off, left behind, and things like that; deviantART as an example, I gave a Llama badge to someone for that person who cut me off on two accounts and gave them a Llama badge when they did that, and that is it—but for future reference for anyone... I also too believe it sadden that not everyone doesnt want to stay with me for a long time nor ever wanna be nice to me for make believe stories and things like that, but for the future reference and I believe my closest long time friend she is the only person that I know of her since 2015—one of the most veteran people before 2008, right afterward of people whom I once knew come and gone (still trying to make amends and do justice to do anew and start over) up to 2018-19 of former folks, gotten to make new friends and gotten better people and real people around, so in cases I spoke to my online sis, I dont think I will not be moving to any new account or anytime soon. For bad relations, if they don't like something about me or my differences, they have to block me and go find a better person, despite my attempts to show proof that "I have been real to people."
I have deiced I want to stay with my current long time friend.. she remind me of myself that had "left people behind" that are the so call nothingness of buddies,, it is the same issues I have, the one they dont wanna stop...... I have my strong close relationship to my close friend... it really touch my heart she be nice to me.. it sad people like me never have people around to be nice...
It is my status..... I too am also am growing out of the online involvement and because I have my own life worry on busy stuff... sighhh
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