Is there going to be any more parts added to the ‘i’ll be there’ and ‘i just feel so stupid’ story?

yes! im working on them as we speak, so be on the lookout in the next few days!!

I have completed 4 marks out of the 100 for the coursework that's due in a week. Need 40% to pass. Ahhhhhh.

Where do you begin and end?

posting my art here feels like standing in the middle of an exhibition hall clutching a crumpled piece of paper torn out of a notebook

Getting your heart broken by someone you know you shouldn’t like is the worst.

I know I will feel better once I eat but it doesn't feel like it.

every single time israel fires on people picking up food or humanitarian aid it truly cuts me to the core. obviously it's equally horrible to fire on civilians escaping the invasion or to bomb hospitals or refugee camps or people just living in their own homes. but there's something so brutal about hitting people right when they have gathered for life-saving aid. by firing on them there the IOF have set up an impossible dilemma where starving people have to choose between death by bullet or death by hunger. they have left no room for palestinians to choose life. i do not know how my government or any other government can just sit by and watch while innocent people continue to be gunned down for the crime of existing in israel's eyeline.

I still feel bad for letting my old account on Discord get hacked...

i rarely post anything personal on here so this may be weird. theres no one irl that im ready to tell yet, but my relationship with my boyfriend is in a precarious position right now. i just kinda need to get this off my chest.

he says he might not have romantic feelings for me anymore and it just hurts me so much. i really love him and i have so many conflicting emotions right now. i want him to be happy, but i also want him to stay with me ya know? and everything about this sucks so much.

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the mental illness is just fucking me up, and i didn’t consent to this🙃😵‍💫🫥

I know that as an asexual person I’m not broken, I know there’s nothing wrong with me, but so often I feel like I am. Especially now that I’m starting to think I might be aro too. I watch my roommate go out with all these guys, have fun talking to them, staying over at their place, being physical on the first date, and I wonder if I should be like that. Is that what I’m supposed to do? I go on a couple dates and hate it, I realize a guy is starting to catch feelings and immediately feel like I need to end things. I can’t bring myself to enjoy it, I don’t know if I’m scared or in denial, or simply incapable of love. I never grew up imagining my wedding, I feel like I’m too selfish to have kids or commit myself to someone. Maybe someday, but right now I want to be able to do what I want without feeling held back or holding someone else back. Is that wrong? All the poets and artists say love is the greatest thing, say it’s what makes us human. What does that say about me if I can’t even imagine it for myself.

So yeah, I know I’m supposedly not broken, but what do I do when I feel so much like I am?

im so furious. at me? yes. at him? yes. at the situation? yes. at everything? fr.

just cut my hair so poorly and got it everywhere in my room that im feeling soooooooooo not okay like i hate myself a lot.

literally disgusting how the only reason i make myself cut my own hair is because THREE + YEARS AGO i didn't tip the hairdresser because I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO and i think i was in high school and the hairdresser had like just given birth and finished her maternity leave and i went alone for the first time and i was super socially bad as per usual and all of it together literally makes me embarrassed to this day to the point that i cut my own hair (POORLY) because i cannot bear to step back into that place and i dont know where the hell else i would go. and tipping just scares me, point blank period, like i cannot do simple math and WHEN DO YOU TIP. so so upset they didnt teach us any of that in high school but ur just supposed to know ? girl