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knightfeared · 8 months

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𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 .

Howdy! Sorry for the incoming chonker of a post but I promise this is important! As someone with bad anxiety but a stronger want to start poking Mutuals more, both new & old, I figured it was about time to put something like this out there to know who is alright with me being a friendly pest. It’s meant to reassure me people are alright with me kicking their doors in with my muses. So . . .

𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐒 𝐌𝐄 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔’𝐑𝐄 𝐎𝐊𝐀𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆 . . .

➤ You’re alright with me sending you Askmemes as soon as I see they’ve been reblogged along with sending the occasional Unprompted Ask or Surprise Short Starter. Sometimes they’ll just be my muse(s) commenting on ongoing threads they spot — think dash-commentary style. Others are just IC / OOC Questions. Basically this just gives me permission to be a menace to your inbox without feeling guilty.

➤ You’re alright with me replying to any Open Starters I spot, even if we already have one or more threads ongoing. Just a heads up I will aim to keep these short since they’re usually spontaneous threads done for fun. If they happen to get longer? I’m here for it!

➤ You’re alright with me tagging you in Dashgames when I do come across them. Along with tag you in Musings, Aesthetics & Muse Song Posts if they remind me of your muse & our interactions.

➤ Piggy backing off the last point, there are no promises made, but if it’s alright that I make the occasional Edit through Gifsets of your muse or our muses dynamic, Aesthetic Edit Posts or Web Weavings. Even the occasional Drawing / Doodle. Chances are, if I’m inspired or invested enough & have the time to spare, I do enjoy doing these for close Mutuals!

➤ You’re alright with me making Headcanon Posts as our muses dynamics develop through ongoing interactions. This is a recent thing I’m trying to start doing more of, where I make Directories for muses on my end to better keep track & document HC’s. I heavily value developing bonds between me & my writing partners muses so if it is alright with Mutuals that their muse is *mentioned in posts like this?

Please let me know in a comment or IM! Usually I will ask permission to write these out beforehand.

➤ You’re alright with me giving you my Discord so we can talk more OOC to chat or to discuss ideas & our current threads / plot possible future ones. I struggle with this, but I would really love to discuss headcanons more when they crop up, along with just getting more used to screeching to partners about how much I loved recent replies. Just a warning is I am a little shy & my social battery can vary between extra outgoing to having no energy to respond back, so as long as that’s alright! I am making grabby hands!

Please note that interacting with this post also gives you permission to do any of these things right back. If you want me to do only some of these things but not others, please, feel free to comment in the notes or let me know in private.

Lastly, it you have yet to fill out my Interest Tracker — I highly urge you to so I know just what muses to nudge your way in the future along with what dynamics you’re interested in pursuing! It’s not mandatory but it helps so so much.

The purpose of this post is simply meant to reassure that there is a shared interest in interacting more in the future, mainly for my own anxiety since I do struggle a lot with pushing myself to poke new folks without feeling like I’m being a bit of a bother. It’s usually why I rely heavily on starter calls & inbox calls so I have that known permission to toss my muses people’s way.

#╰┈➤ ┊❛ PERMANENT INTERACTION CALL. ❜┊#TY IF YOU READ THROUGH IT ALL 💀💀💀💕🙏

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kaizsche · 4 months

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You are such an incredible writer, but you’re also an amazing gif maker! So, what’s your favourite gif set that you’ve made this year? Also, what is the fic that you’re most excited to write in the new year? Thanks for being such an incredible friend Kai 🥰

(literally me seeing your ask and am i copying q's answer to her own ask? the answer is yaaaaaaaaas.)

i don't really see myself as an AMAZING gif maker and an INCREDIBLE writer so to hear all these compliments from you is just straight up melting my goddamn heart vis. *teary-eyed emoji cos im in pc*

so to ask your... well... ask, i haven't been kind of productive this year, both in writing and editing stuff so i can't say i have a wide selection to choose from, but here's my ultimate fav gifset. like fr.

which predictably is a gifset from your fic which i've gotten so much interaction on and just having you message me about this was just... it honestly made me cry so yeah...

the freaking 'i know you have a lot of fic planned this year' just cracked me tf up. like... you and q know i go all ramble kai on anything resembling my fic ideas so you know what i already have in store next year...

first off, i am sooo excited to finally enter the spuffy writing fandom so there's that. i already have like 20+ spuffy wips in my docs rn but the most excited i am for next year are these two, i think: (and i'll be letting y'all take a lil peek of them)

sun and moon

“Who are you?” The Slayer demanded. Buffy could hear the restless fear simulating his heart and the cautious steps he took to back away from her. Smart Slayer. So he has honed his skills then? Knew she was different from the other vampires he dealt around the small town. Buffy grinned wickedly. It’ll be fun to dance with this one. “I kill your kind for sport, Slayer.” She let her words stew in the air, watched him put the pieces together—inch by agonizing inch.

spuffy dark fic (warning has possible incest!)

Joyce's heart stopped completely. Because standing at the door, a boy, her son she hadn't seen in years stood before her. Joyce had wanted to believe he changed—hair longer and tied at the back of his neck, still dressed in his boarding school's uniform but a few sizes bigger than she had first seen him—it was his eyes that gave him away. It was cold and unfeeling. He regarded her as if she wasn't his mother, as if she was nothing to him at all. "Joyce." "William—" She watched his gaze snap over her shoulder and at once, the piercing cold melted into warm fondness as did the trembling tension in his body. "Hello, cutie." "Will!" Buffy barrelled past her, leaping in his arms and she wasn't afraid, she trusted him to catch her. William staggered a few feet back from the impact, wrapping one arm across her waist and the other held her bottom to prevent her from falling. "You're here. You're really here." William held Joyce's gaze, a muscle in his jaw twitching as if to dare her to scold him—to remove him once more out of his Buffy's life. "Never gonna happen, love. I'll be here forever. I promise." Buffy sighed happily, enjoying the feel of his warmth, his hands on her. Joyce sighed in resignation, turning away from the challenge in his eyes. "It's cold outside. Come in." At this, William grinned. "Thanks, mum."

last but not least, how could i forget tvd?

take my breath rewrite (kolena + klena) i mean how can i ever resist kolena theyre like my main otp. i go batshit crazy for them.

Elena gravitates towards the lake, stares at her reflection in the water. Hates her face and her blood more than she realizes. She loved her face and her body once upon a time. Now, all it ever does is haunt her every step and shadow surrounded by men who knew every crevice of her body. They knew her better than she ever did. (It is the face that launched a thousand year curse, damning the girls that carried it. Reduced to nothing but objects in a man’s eyes. Katherine was right. I am always right. She hears her taunting giggle and sees her twin’s knowing smirk. I told you so. Nothing could ever bring more joy to her evil doppelganger than proving that she was right.)

kolena roommates au (this was actually inspired by a spuffy fic i read LOL)

"Okay, 20 questions." "Go." "Who's your favorite?" "Favorite who?" Kol groaned. "Favorite Mikaelson sibling," and looked at her bashfully, like he was expecting her to… say his name? "Rebekah." He yelled out an indignant cry, "What a load of bollocks! You're telling me, after everything we've been through, I'm still—" "You are a favorite," She cut him off. "Really?" He gaped at her, astonished. "My least favorite." She bit hard on her tongue, seeing the sheer disappointment and anguish encroaching on his face. And somehow, his voice had gotten louder, belting out at a higher register than Mariah Carey. "I rank lower than even bloody Niklaus?!"

i do hope to be as productive as i was in 2022 when it comes to publishing fics cause i'll really wither and die if i don't manage to publish these four.

special fic mentions:

the song of wandering aengus

banish air from air

only, helen (tentative title)

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

& special user mentions for just being there for me (listening, suggesting, reading) when i was going batshit crazy over my fic ideas. you're all wonderful ppl and i'm glad to have you in my life <3

@katherineholmes @qvnthesia @finnismyoriginalsin

thank you so much for this ask, vis <3 love ya 5ever

#katherineholmes #writing woes #woe is me... me is a writer?#gif stuff #writing stuff #kaizsche's asks #kaizsche #btvs #tvd #spuffy #kolena #klena #my plans for 2024 #here's to hoping these 4 see the light of ao3 #feel free to wallop me if it doesn't #annoy me in my asks... or something

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futureforged · 5 months

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𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 .

➤ You’re alright with me tagging you in Dashgames when I do come across them. Along with tag you in Musings, Aesthetics & Muse Song Posts if they remind me of your muse & our interactions.

Please let me know in a comment or IM! Usually I will ask permission to write these out beforehand.

Lastly, if you have yet to fill out my Interest Tracker — I highly urge you to so I know how best to approach you in the future along with what dynamics you’re interested in pursuing! It’s not mandatory but it helps so so much.

#➤ ꜰɪʟᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ . . . // links. ( … ) PERMANENT INTERACTION CALL.#Moved this one over so sorry if you’re seeing it again 💀

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whatisthismandoinghere · 1 year

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Finally got around to making a list for that Hogan’s Heroes/Taylor Swift prompt list I mentioned a while back, so welcome to Cruel Summer at Stalag 13!! (cannot for the life of me decide if I love or hate the event name, it’s real hard to make a combo of Hogan’s Heroes and Taylor Swift 😂) Lemme know what you think, I was considering coming up with some alternate prompts in case there were some that weren’t catching your eye, but it was hard enough to come up with the 31, so if there is a Taylor Swift song or some Taylor Swift lyrics that you would have liked to see, drop me a line and I’ll add them on! I’m gonna go ahead and set it up for the month of July so everyone can have plenty of time to get a start on their creations (or if you’re like me you can just wait till the last second 😂) I may or may not make a collection on ao3 but I'll keep yall posted on that

For starters I’m gonna go over some rules (though I don’t really like to call them that cuz there aren’t really any rules) but anywho

If you’re writing, these do not have to be song fics, these are just meant to be prompts to inspire whatever story, art, etc. you may have inside of you, no use of lyrics or any mention of music required, it doesn’t even really need to be related to the song as a whole in anyway, so no knowledge of Taylor Swift is required

All types of media are welcome!! This includes, but is not limited to, writing, artwork, gifsets, video edits. Whatever you can come up with, you are more than welcome to share!

Interpretation is completely up to you!! Whatever idea comes to your mind, just roll with it, there is no wrong way to do it

You can complete as many or as few prompts as you wish

If you choose to post your work, please tag it with #cruel summer at stalag 13

Please wait until the day of the prompt to post, and late submissions are always welcome!

And most importantly, have fun :D

If you have any questions at all, please do not hesitate to reach out to me, I promise I don’t bite lol

Without further ado, prompts are below the cut! If the prompt is a lyric, I put the title of the song they’re from after it in parentheses. There’s also a picture after the text (and quick shout out to @annieslytherpuff21 for some of these suggestions!)

A Place in This World

It’s a typical Tuesday night (You Belong With Me)

Dear John

I remember it all too well (All Too Well)

Hung my head as I lost the war / And the sky turned black like a perfect storm (Clean)

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things

Death by a Thousand Cuts

Back when I was livin’ for the hope of it all (August)

Crescent moon, coast is clear (Ivy)

Sometimes I wonder which one’ll be your last lie (Vigilante Shit)

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray (Cold as You)

I close my eyes and the flashback starts (Love Story)

Innocent

Now I’m lying on the cold hard ground (I Knew You Were Trouble)

Out of the Woods

New Year’s Day

It’s Nice to Have a Friend

Peace

Past the blood and bruise / Past the curses and cries (Happiness)

I should not be left to my own devices (Anti-Hero)

I’ve been a lot of lonely places / I’ve never been on the outside (The Outside)

It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair (Change)

Do you still feel like you know what you’re doing / Cause I don’t think you do (Better Than Revenge)

Starlight

It’s poker, he can’t see it in my face / But I’m about to play my ace (New Romantics)

Don’t Blame Me

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes (Cruel Summer)

Epiphany

Tolerate It

Mastermind

All that bloodshed, crimson clover (The Great War)

#hogan's heroes #prompt list #cruel summer at stalag 13

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callsignspark · 9 months

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i already know a couple of them but am dying to know more about the wedding date one!! also i live and die for pt trainer bradley so 🤫

I wasn't sure which wedding date one you wanted (because there are two because I have no chill) so I did both!! and a lil info about trainer bradley!!

the wedding date fic:

this is an idea I had ages ago that I sent to @theharddeck in this ask that I've since modified. Natasha and Javy are getting married and as their besties, Jake and Bob are obviously part of the wedding.

Jake has decided he's in love with their wedding planner (a friend of Nat's but wasn't sure what her schedule would look like and if she'd be able to be in the wedding so she's helping them plan) but instead of flirting like a normal person he's gone the tugging pigtails and snarky route. he accidentally makes her cry with a comment that was supposed to be a joke. he immediately apologizes and they make up before the wedding, happy ending of them slow dancing at the reception.

Bob on the other hand as Nat's man of honor has become enamored with Javy's best friend and best woman (better name to be thought of I promise). these two are doing a lot of the heavy lifting when it comes to decorating, keeping the family fights away from the happy couple, etc. their night ends with Bob helping her take out her complex hairstyle and unzipping her dress. he takes his sweet time giving her multiple orgasms and then orders room service while she relaxes in the tub.

the wedding date fic (AU VERSION): this is a Bradley AU of the 2005 movie, The Wedding Date (I saw one gifset of Dermot Mulroney in that movie and my brain went !!!!!BRADLEY!!!!) it follows basically the same premise and is very sweet!

pt/trainer!Bradley: my beloved AU. our leading lady tears her ACL in a biking accident (that wasn't her fault) and her doctor was kind enough to get her into the best physical rehab facility in the county - the Metcalf Center! there she meets her very attractive physical therapist, Bradley Bradshaw. they both keep it professional while she's recovering, even as they're lusting for each other internally. but when her rehab course is finished and she's no longer a client??? whoooo boy. *cue the nastiest sex I've ever written*

send me a title (or several!) from my wip list to learn more about them!

#thanks jordan!!#ask game #wip game

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tuiyla · 2 years

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Here's a random question: What symbols/motifs/colors do you associate with; Pezberry, Quinntana, Faberry, and Brittana (and Quinntina maybe)

I really really love this question and sad I only get to answer it now but better late than never, let's go. These are more random associations than motifs but I promise I have an elaborate thought process behind each and every one.

Pezberry

Red, burning red. Fire & gasoline, which I know is a cliché or whatever and I use it a lot for them but if it fits, I sits. New York. Spotlight that blinds you when it's pitch-black and it suddenly turns on. Roses - red, of course. Intertwining fingers.

Quinntana

Red wine. Magenta? The sound of a slap echoing lmao. I'm sorry I'm trying to think of more but all that comes to mind is the entirety of I Do and the playlist I have in my head but that's hardly symbolism for anyone but me. Anyway Cornelia Street is their song.

Faberry

Pastel colours like a faded mint or light blue but warm colours too. Gold/amber. Bathrooms! Sunsets reflecting on the surface of water. No! Sunrises. Big bouquets of flowers. Girls Like Girls music video.

Brittana

Pink. And pinkies! Bright smiles that light up rooms. In fact I have this consistent association between smiles and sunlight, which leads to a very specific association I have for Brittana - like, untranslatable word specific. It's a gifset plan I have had for months so in the hopes that I'll eventually do it, I won't spoil it. Soft touches and lightly contrasting colours. Sunflowers? Sunflowers. Cats and apartments with bright city views. The choir room! Oh my god the choir room.

Quinntina

So unfortunately we mainly just have background moments for them so this is even more vibes-based than the previous ones. Dark blue, dyed hairs, a bit of that Bubbline goth and pink aesthetic - but you never know who is who.

#part of me thinks i should do moodboards #maybe #anon #i don't really know if this was the sort of thing you had in mind and i'm sorry if not #with glee unfortunately we have to put all the work in with symbolism too #glee asks #pezberry asks #quinntana asks #brittana asks #quinntina #faberry

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revvethasmythh · 1 year

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In response to your Fearne/Chetney song post: Consider this ask an opportunity to pick any playlists you have and ramble about them, I absolutely love discovering new music through playlists!

yes EXCELLENT thank you!!

okay to keep myself on task so I don't just ramble for like 5k words, I'm going to treat this a top 10 list and this is going to specifically be for my widobrave playlist because she is my baby and I've been working on her for a long time and you know what? the wb tag deserves a little love. I'm going to try to spotlight different songs than I talked about before, too, for diversity's sake

this is absolutely going to get long, so I'll put the rest under the cut.

1: I And Love And You, The Avett Brothers

oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. What is there to say that the song does not say itself? There are a few ways I think this song could be interpreted depending on how you're reading the lyrics, but the line "that woman she got eyes that shine/like a pair of stolen polished dimes" is so fucking good and so Veth this will always be a top song for me. Also need to shout out the "the dream's the catch/the world's the cage" line in this one, because that has always made me think back to Heart in a Cage--I consider them related in my own personal widobrave lyrical thematic universe. Verdict: The vibes are excellent. The Avett brothers always pull through for me

2. Summertime, MCR

obviously this was going to show up in wb song list for me because I named one of my fics after this song! I've always associated summer with wb anyway, but the additional layer of the summer camp and that being a time they specifically spend together in post-canon makes it even better. "You can run away with me any time you want" also follows through on the "runaway" theme that they've both had on their separate playlists (Runaway by Yeah Yeah Yeahs on Caleb's first playlist and Runaway Pt. 1 (Love Has Limits) by Colony House on the Veth playlist).

3. Who Will I Hold, The Avett Brothers

I am screaming and crying and throwing up every time this song comes on. Listen to their one-on-one talk in episode 121 and then listen to this song. The lyrics are so remarkably accurate, it's a thing to behold. "I'm bracing for loneliness, I know it's coming/Now, who will I hold when you're gone?"

4. Hand Over Heart, Gin Wigmore

Melancholy and loving and again incredibly accurate lyrics from "and promise me, day and night/you'll always be my best friend" to "you got the magic to light up the stars/it's like the world is spinning just for you."

5. Not Alone, Shawn James

Very tender song that resonates a lot with wb, and also so very reminiscent of what Veth told Caleb in the finale with the line "Listen close and hear/I want you to let go of your fear/You can find love/Let go of your strife and get what you want out of your life." Like, I think there's a gifset out there somewhere where she basically just says this to Caleb.

6. I Will Follow Him, Peggy March

Okay so this one IS from the first Nott playlist, but I don't see it talked about very much and tbh if you're listening to it from the pov of having seen the end of the campaign, this one just hits different. Shoutout to the "he'll always be my true love" lyric. Like WHAT. The way that song was on an official CR playlist and no one ever talks about it, I'm--

7. Head Full Of Doubt/Road Full Of Promise, The Avett Brothers

A third Avett Brothers song, you say?? Why yes, indeed. Their songs just really hit for this ship with me. I consider this song to mostly be a Veth song, revolving a lot around Veth's self-doubt issues, but if we're following Rosie's Lyrical Thematic Universe (RLTU), this lyric, "There was a dream and one day I could see it/Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it" stands out a lot. Like the song progression of Heart in a Cage -> I And Love And You -> Head Full Of Doubt/Road Full Of Promise is what I'm getting at here. "Oh, the heart beats in its cage" to "The dream's the catch/The world's the cage" to "Like a bird in a cage I broke in a demanded that somebody free it." The caged bird thing is HUGE thematically with me and which I think is really funny because it's literally just ME out here with these hyper specific themes and motifs going on. But I love it, I think it works great for them

8. If U Stayed, ZZ Ward

You come to this song for pure angst and pure angsty only. If you want to feel angsty about the fact that they're non-canon, this is the song for you.

9. December Song, Birdtalker (of Blue Healer fame) and Joy Williams (of Trouble With Wanting fame)

"Friend your heart has been far away from mine/There's no one to blame but that wicked stalwart time/And as the year marches steady to its end/Oh, my heart is longing to be close to yours again"

I've been wanting to write a post-canon holiday themed piece based around this song for AGES. the details aren't perfectly accurate, but the vibes are very much there.

10. Lead to Light, Nico Vega

No song list/playlist of mine is ever complete without at least ONE Nico Vega song. The themes of, well, "I will drop anything for you" ring very true, but my favorite line is the bridge: "Oh my love, you know you are a teacher/But you don't know I can be a teacher, too." I appreciate it on one level as inherently suggestive, but extremely literal in the case of late widobrave with Veth opening up her camp to teach adventurers, especially since she had said she wasn't a good teacher sometime in the early campaign.

Honorable Mentions:

1: So Sorry Mama, Whitney Duncan

The details of this song do not match up with canon, HOWEVER, I am 100% certain Veth (lover of monsters and of bad boys) has had at least one, if not more, fantasies re: Caleb that sound exactly like this. So I'm including it because I am sure that she'd had this vision at least once in a dream

2. If We Were Vampires, Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit

I'll admit this one is highly specific to me, which is why it's in the honorable mentions section, because I'm pulling a lot of the themes of this song for the post-canon wb piece I'm working on right now. It's also just a very bittersweet, tender song that is so, so good about loving someone for as long as you can and making those days count

A bonus Veth-specific honorable mention:

Whiskey Fever by Dorothy. It's not all that deep of a song rec, but it's pretty accurate and it slaps. This song fucking slaps.

A bonus Caleb-specific honorable mention:

Innocent by Taylor Swift. Never thought I'd choose a T. Swift song for him, but it so eerily accurate to his story. Could double a wb song, but I largely relate it to Caleb due to its subject matter.

if anyone was actually curious, I'll just add the full playlist here for perusal sake because there's A LOT more on there, these are just my personal favorites:

#THANK YOU AGAIN FOR ASKING ME THIS #sorry this took ages to get out I had to finish nanowrimo first before I could devote myself to this mind body and soul #also shoutout to my friend for Not Alone and If We Were Vampires because she sent those songs to me and they slap #widobrave #music tag #asks #zealousvalkyrie #critical role

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guzhufuren · 10 months

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You asked for your reputation, so here it goes:

I don't know about anyone else, but to me you're a fucking celebrity in this fandom. I know it's tumblr and fame is non existent but. you are famous to me. Like everyone reblogs your gifs not because they're good (they are!) but because it's just Vlada's gifs what else was i supposed to do.

But the actual reason I follow you is because I am scrolling my feed like normal, looking at gifsets, fics, everything very nice, amazing job guys! and then i come across something like "i wish i had Vegas hidden in a closet in my room like a stray pet I'm keeping without my parents approval so i could feed him at night and pet his head while he sips milk out of a bowl" or something equally insane and i just blink twice. check the username. and 100% of the time it's you. With all the love in my heart your takes are completely unhinged. I love it. I wouldn't stop following you for the world.

what else are you supposed to do jjkhJALSGSK this is so sweet darling i'm gonna scream in joy and then print this message to frame it for my non existent desk. thanks to your words i now aspire to continue to hold up the quality of my content to this level. where people just have no choice but to reblog out of trained habit

your idea of things i say sounds amazing but please. please, don't you know me better than this. you got everything right to the last word but it's reverse. i need to be the stray pet Vegas keeps in a closet with that milk bowl. please. it's all i want from life. choking on that milk forever and ever

i am so happy to have tied you down to my online bullshit forever stay tuned for more i promise to deliver

#an abundance of hugs and air kisses and bro fist bumps to you #asks

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galactic-pirates · 1 year

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Fandom, Creation and Me

With it being NaNo tomorrow I am doing update posts, and planning posts, and basically sorting everything out. It's also something I do at the end of/start of every year. It's part cleaning house, part goal setting.

This has been a funny year with moving house dominating all of it. I was just going to update my art goals, only to discover I didn't make my customary end of December post because that was during the madness. Then I remembered I didn't think I updated here either. I checked the archive and I did say I'd finally moved on September 13th but as to my fandom plans not a whisper. So I'm going to talk about it now!

Mid-April I made a post in which I said:

SO! My mission, should I choose to accept it bwahaha is to write EVERY SINGLE fanfic idea on my list (that I still want to write when I get to it) before the end of the year. Deadline December 31st. After that the slate is wiped clean.

This started to go off the rails when I stopped writing in the summer. Some people write more when they are stressed as an escape. I wish I could say I was one of them but alas I unfortunately do my best turtle impression instead and basically very little gets done.

When I moved into my house that was a fresh start in the biggest way possible. I want - no I need - to make the most of that. I had to think about what serves me, and ultimately I decided to make my clean break then. So yeah, no more fanfic from me.

I have a few WIPs on my HD but thankfully due to my policy these days of not posting until stories are complete, that doesn't matter. I do feel... I wanted those ideas to be brought to life as I do like them, but I had to make a choice about what was best for me, and wistful thoughts about what could have been aren't going to change my mind.

So am I quitting fandom?

No.

I'm still co-mod of Saffi Prompts and I intend to help with that if it comes out of hiatus. I'm still running Saffi Bingo, in as much as I sent out the cards months ago but nothing seems to have happened. I'm helping put together the 13th anniversary event for Bering and Wells next April.

I also just signed up for a Leverage Bingo Card because you see while my fanfic days are over, my fanart days are not.

I want to get into art in a big, big way. I feel like fanfic helped me a lot with my writing journey. Fanfic helped me see projects through from beginning to end, helped me produce on a schedule, helped me keep up the practice when my mental health wouldn't permit me to write other things. I owe fanfic a lot. It's my hope that fanart might fulfil the same function in terms of getting me started.

Now I know I've promised I would do art in the past and then haven't done it. For years I have made it a goal to do 1 piece a month and I've never got close. I think the best I ever did was at the start of 2021 when I think I made it to April before I stopped.

That was before though, and the start of my writing journey was a similar tale. I went through a time when I wrote once a year - for NaNo - and didn't write at all the rest of the time. It's unthinkable now but that's how it was. So just because I didn't draw on the regular in the past, despite saying I would, doesn't mean I will always fail at that.

TLDR

No more fanfic from me. Expect fanart - eventually. I want to work through some art courses I have first before I go back to trying to draw what I imagine. Hopefully this will mean when I attempt those imagined pieces they will be better, and not as cringeworthy when I look back later as to how I ever dared post them on the internet.

P.S. What about gifsets?

Nearly forgot about that. Fandom Friday will not be returning. I don't have the time. However, I'm not ruling out making sets when/if I feel inspired to do so.

#sam rambles (a lot)

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wotcherangie · 2 years

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I really love Retatsu/Ryou as a cute little ship, and I've shipped rarepairs before, so I didn't mind it being small, especially with people like you making such great fanart and gifsets for it! And both the animes have great scenes of them I always loved to rewatch! Thank you for all the graphics you post! Your art is amazing and your gifs are so smooth!

(It really bums me out seeing other people lately go out of their way to hate on such a cute rarepair and accuse its shippers of "self-inserting" or not having good enough reasons to like it. :c It just feels so mean-spirited after I've loved this ship ever since I was a little girl to suddenly see people tear us down for no reason...)

Hello anon! It is so nice to see the fandom so active in these days! Thanks SO MUCH for your compliment on my art (and gifs too.. even though I am not a gif-maker-kind-of-person XD but every ship and character had their gifset so.. I guess I wanted to make my own too, so glad this experiment feels well done), I promise I won't abandon this fandom, even though I'll post also not TMM related art too.

Like you said.. it is a cute and little ship, I couldn't find better way to describe it <3 and for some of us, as you mentioned, it is something we grew up with, at least for me. It was my comfort ship and it is so nice to see that is getting more love these days, with new and old fans. Unfortunately with more love on the web, I can assume it also comes more hate. It is not a word that I like to use, but it happens. (As I said I am not so into this kind of dynamic, I am just here to share art, not for the drama, but It is not a nice thing when you feel teared down). As soon as something becomes more popular, (even a small ship like this one) the hate comes and, as you said, for no reason at all. It is not even a toxic ship, on the contrary, it speaks to out heart and teaches us about acceptance, encouragement and having more faith in ourselves. Not only romantically, we should always have someone who is there for us, or that at least tries to make feel us better. Of course people can like a ship more or another, that is the beauty of shipping, there's enough ships for everyone :D Well, I think it's up to us to keep the fandom more positive and to not let our ship sink XD so let's spread more love, art, gifs, anything that makes us happy! <3

#ryoutasu #lettuce x ryou #lettuce midorikawa #mew lettuce #retasu midorikawa #tokyo mew mew new

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fromaliminalspace · 2 years

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For the gif makers ask meme... 14, 16, 34, and 48?

[ask meme link]

14. How long does it usually take you to make a set

for real, while technically i can make a gifset within a day or a few, i have a nasty tendency to procrastinate everything, literally everything, even stuff i actually enjoy. and when i do get around to actually making sth i overthink it. sometimes for months. yup. lbr overthinking (alongside chronic lack of spoons) is the main reason i create stuff so rarely and post it even rarer even if i have it finished for a while. i'm trying to improve, okay..? just gonna kick myself more often into calling things finished and posting them, i literally have dozens of gifset ideas waiting to be executed, several art wips (as well as finished pieces), two videoedit ideas, and quite a few k words of both fic and meta… the tricky part is just to get around to all of it

16. How long have you been making gifs

oof lemme see… in June 2020 i made my first gifs that weren't completely horrible cuz before that i was using merely a phone app for this with video editing software (this and this were made this way). and then in February 2021 i finally figured out what was missing from my PS and preventing me from editing gifs there and fixed it. so yeah, i've been relatively new to this, i guess..? though ngl the experience of very spontaneously making two videoedits before trying out proper gifing was a nice starting point

34. A set that took you a long time/was really hard but you’re really proud of how it came out

hm the stardust one is the first that came to mind even though it's more the case of "it didn't receive as much attention as most my other cql gifsets but i'm still quite fond of it" rather than it being particularly time/effort-consuming. not to mention that i'm hardly ever actually proud of anything i create but well, that's just my brain cockroaches messing stuff up. back on track, the WWX gifs in the trust parallel set were a pain to edit but eventually i ended up learning new tricks while groping my way around it so i'm not complaining

okay, if i were really to pick a gifset i'm proud of that'd be the ripples one, no doubts (gonna add the link once i actually finish and post it, i promise). it's the most advanced technically (don't even ask me how long i've been nitpicking it from all directions and how i'm still tempted to drop the current version in favor of approaching it from a whole new direction bc surely it can be done way way better if i just go nitpick it some more! ya know, the usual overthinking) and it's sth very personal to me thematically. the underlying meaning of it is too closely related to liminal spaces (or more like what i simplify as "liminal spaces" as i suspect my own understanding of this concept in general can differ quite a bit from that of other people) so putting it into actual words gets tricky. but this kinda comes with the territory so nothing unusual

48. How would you describe your giffing style

ugh honestly idek if i have one..? for real, i don't think there's anything about my gifs that makes them stand out much. at least there surely isn't anything that i deliberately make sure to integrate every single time (maybe i do unconsciously though, who knows). so i feel like it's more for others to judge ¯_(ツ)_/¯

what i can say is that when i do make gifsets i apparently tend to illustrate some narrative parallels or sth with them..? or just combine scenes with a quote that strikes me with fitting vibes. or both. also i like to have fun with the colors and lighting and use adjustment layers quite heavily (but gotta admit it's hardly an option to halfass this if i wanna my Yi City gifs to look vibrant and alive enough). i suppose alternative subtitles to all my cql sets are a feature of my so called style as well since i always translate them myself instead of going the easy way and copying any of the already existing ones. which is also fun! even if, well, adds to the amount of time and spoons i put into it but what can i say, it's a matter of habit by now

#Liam whispers into the void #the void whispers back to Liam #ebonykain #ask games #creativity #gifing #yeah i'm still (somewhat) alive here #me? replying to an ask game for once? more likely than you think #and than *i* think tbh #should do sth about the other ones as well actually but hopefully i'll do it sooner rather than later #also feeling like this came out longer than anyone would probably wanna see so sorry for that i got rambly #but this doesn't look long enough to warrant the long post tag. correct me if i'm wrong though #anyway thank you Ebony for sending the ask and prompting me to at least *think* in the creative direction! it's really appreciated💜#ngl was considering posting this once i post the ripples gifset but knowing me this can get postponed for another year so NOPE #now or never #should finish that one as well though #upd: feels ironic to answer a gifmaking meme and not know how to properly add someone else's gif to the post #i thought it'd look right once i hit post but no. not enough at least #looks like i gotta settle at this cuz i can't think rn of how else to do it

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stealth-hot anon again

you are SO right not a single one of the Sabres is pulling off that Leon Draisaitl smirk, like I'm sorry that man smolders and the Sabres, while very cute, would look like they're just super excited to play a game! None of them are making Connor Bedard reconsider his career and whether it might not be better to just drop to his knees right there if you know what I'm saying.

ugh I feel you with the curse of liking a team that's not super fandom popular... the thing is, I think they will be eventually, but there's definitely ways to speed things up!! obvi reblogging all the videos. All the gifsets. All the gifts that Sabres social media has given us (I think they might be the best in the league at that, like the between 2 stalls series is hilarious, and they let this child-team show some personality which is hard to come by in the hockey world.) Fanart helps, obvs, though I say this as someone who cannot make it. and, unfortunately, fanfic... like sometimes it's a case of drumming up interest with the Narratives and letting the audience build from there which is obvi. V annoying. But also are there any compelling narratives now?? As a longtime Jonathan Drouin-Nathan MacKinnon shipper, the narratives were definitely there, they had all this history, and then it just fell into place this past summer and it took a little while (and some good on-ice performances), but people are getting into it again. Are there any guys like that? (I think Bo Byram and... Cozens, maybe? Is that right?) If there are videos or interviews of that, that is also vvvvv compelling, even if I'm not into the ship it does make me curious to know more about a relationship in general. Owen Power was on one of those very homoerotic college teams, right, does he have any teammates nearby? JJ Peterka and Jack Quinn have excellent chemistry and the Sabres social media know it, which I appreciate. And then there are the individual personalities. Dahlin's aquarium video was hilarious. Tage Thompson might not have a personality (he very well could I just haven't seen one yet) but he is an excellent artist. And Jeff Skinner. We cannot sleep on Jeff Skinner. He is an absolute fandom goldmine, from the figure skating past to the very real personality to the fact that he's def a cutie (appeal to the more mature folk! and everyone else!) to the fact that he's got the NHL record for most games played without a playoff appearance (poor dude), he's a compelling dude and how could you NOT root for him.

stealth-hot anon yay hello again!!!!!!

unfortunately the sabres are doomed by the narrative :(( I wasn't really a big fan of them last year, but I get the sense that they were actually a really fun team to watch (high scoring, promising young talent, admittedly questionable goaltending) and thus the vibes (and filmed content!!) popped off. Then this year started shit and decidedly unfun and killed the vibes that were cultivated last year :( Dylan Cozen's been kind of cold all year, Tage has been alternately injured and/or underperforming, and it doesn't help that Jack Quinn's been out of the lineup for the majority of the season (but it seems like he's coming back soon!), so there hasn't been nearly the same amount of fun off-ice content for fans to sink their teeth into this year...that said, I have faith for next year!!

as for interpersonal player narratives...dylan/bo definitely has good potential but i think the air of tragedy that still clings to the trade needs some time to clear LOL

"Owen Power was on one of those very homoerotic college teams, right," LMAOOOO I'm not really into NCAA fan/shipping culture, but I know Owen and Kent Johnson is/was a pretty big self-sustaining thing? Might need to look into the state that ship is in...

And JJ and Jack. Now that's a duo. Every video they're in together is simply incredible, I have no shame in admitting I've watched all of them more times than I can recall. I think I have 2? 3? WIPs going for them rn?

But yeah, shipping aside, they're just an extremely charming team with great group chemistry and individual personalities. I won't stop clocking into my shift at the sabres fandom mines to get more people to let the light into their lives🫡

#stealth-hot anon always a pleasure to speak with you!!!#asks #anonymous

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matan4il · 2 years

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Buddie vs Lone Star meta (1/3)

Important! * LS = 911 Lone Star * OG = original 911 * These three meta posts were written before watching LS s3... * part 2 * part 3

LS 101

Not that long ago, I made this gifset pointing out how both Buck and Eddie had to witness an explosion (in OG 315 and OG 405 respectively) was possibly gonna tear them apart from the other forever, comparing it with how Michael had to go through the same thing with David in OG 508. Well, to kick off my “since OG and LS exist in the same verse, we can draw meaning from comparing the shows” meta, I’d like to add in that time when Grace was on the line with Judd and had to hear live how an explosion almost left her a widow… And if we wanna put the specific ‘explosion’ aspect aside and just talk about how the 911 verse tends to put one of its protagonists in crucial danger while showing the most significant person in their life bearing witness to it, then we can also add Bobby listening live to Athena being attacked in OG 317 and, of course, Buck staring in horror as Eddie is shot right in front of his eyes in OG 413. See, if the 911 verse keeps putting Buddie through what it otherwise reserves exclusively for its committed romantic couples, then that implies it’s because with Buddie, it has the same emotional impact…

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Okay, this one is mainly written jokingly, but… TK taking Alex to that restaurant in ep 101 ended badly, just like when Buck took Abby and when Eddie took Shannon to a nice restaurant. Clearly, the 911 verse is saying they’re all disaster queers, who shouldn’t be allowed anywhere near fancy restaurants, suits or heterosexuality. XD

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Towards the end of the ep, Grace comes up to Owen to plead Judd’s case. I wanna point out two things here. One, when she talks about his record, she mentions it’s all online, meaning it’s public knowledge. It felt like a small admission on the 911 runners’ part that when Abby got Buck’s number from the incident report, back in OG 102, that was a violation of his privacy and just plain wrong. Two, out of the three people who are aware Grace did this, nobody expresses having any issues with her taking steps to talk to Judd’s captain in order to fix things for him, because that’s her man. So what does it say when the same exact thing happened back in OG 204, where we discovered that Buck talked to Eddie’s captain in order to make things better for him and no one so much as batted an eyelash? Well, except for Buck, who did at Eddie, just… flirtatiously.

LS 104

In this ep, TK finds out that Owen has cancer. He vows to be there and help his dad fight it. His exact, repeated words are, “I’ve got your back.” That took me back to OG 201, when Buck and Eddie exchanged this promise. This comparison could have been seen as proof that the line is a lot less suggestive than how Buddie shippers have taken it, but I have a different interpretation for what it means, based both on similarities AND glaring differences!

(this and two more points under a cut to save your dashboards)

It takes an extreme event where TK believes he’s likely losing his dad for good to vocalize this line. That makes it incredibly charged and meaningful, but it’s said when the threat of Owen dying is looming large over them. To really drive home the point that this is about a current, concrete danger Owen is facing, TK says his line, then repeats it for emphasis, but Owen doesn’t reciprocate it.

Buck and Eddie, on the other hand, while they did initially face a life threatening event, the moment when they express that they swear to have each other’s back is after they’re already in the clear. They’re both safe, the threat is def behind them, yet it’s now that they feel the need to vow to be there unquestioningly for each other for all threats to come. And with Buddie, the line is being reciprocated! This isn’t about specific threats, it’s about commitment (which I kinda alluded to in this humor post), a fact which is even further underlined when in OG 207, Shannon reminds Eddie that what she needed from him and didn’t get was for him to have her back. I’ve written about this before, but her using those exact same words really makes it clear that in Eddie’s case, they’re about commitment and support between life partners. Eddie intuitively gives that to Buck, but not to other people in his life, not even to Shannon, who he did love.

To add to this, when TK says his line to Owen, that builds on one of the most fundamental bonds in his life, one that’s always been there and can’t be broken. Buck and Eddie, in contrast, are still relative strangers in OG 201, which means it was extremely unlikely that they would share a line that it takes others so much more to get to. Yet something instinctual in them (the same thing that made them initially butt heads while they both also showed an increased awareness of and interest in each other) makes Buddie, shortly after they had met, utter this line that for others it takes a lifetime and a grave danger to build up to. If they even succeed in following through on this promise.

Oh, but I also have to mention how these scenes were filmed! With the Strands, the line is said while both of them are in the shot, and we’re looking at their side profiles, meaning we only get a partial view of their faces, so the viewer’s eye naturally moves from one to the other, not fully focusing on either. It is a bonding moment, but one for people who are already blood family, they’re already bonded. This moment is important, but it’s not surprising.

With Buddie, however, we get close ups of them both! The camera goes back and forth between them so the viewers don’t have to, we’re free to clearly see every single thought and emotion fleeting across their faces and to get a close, intimate look at both men, which makes this feel deeper than just another bonding moment. It’s not obvious that it would take place between two people who just a sec ago were clashing, so we need to truly witness it in great, intimate detail and take it in. It’s not just a bonding moment, it’s one that fundamentally changes their r/s from resentful co-workers to committed friends.

And what are the emotions that we’re witnessing? With TK and Owen, we get from their profiles that they are solemn in this moment. It makes sense, given the risk to Owen’s life they’re going to be facing together. But with Buddie, we see wonder, joy, elation, awe... there’s a whole emotional journey that they go through in such a short scene, and we get to be a part of it. If we feel so strongly about this moment, it’s because the characters involved in it do as well.

This scene has such a lasting impact on us as an audience, because it had the same effect on Buddie, this exchange changed the trajectory of their lives from two single men each trying to make it on his own, carrying his emotional baggage, into two men who form a family unit together and face their troubles together. This is a key element in all great love stories, and comparing it to this line shared between a father and son, seeing the similarities (an expression of deep care and bonding) as well as the differences only makes that clearer.

LS 203

I already wrote about the crossover ep here, but I’ll highlight two things. One, I still can’t deal with the fact that Eddie wasn’t assigned to Marjan’s team. That man saw his Buck giving this woman attention, got jealous, went over and stalked Owen’s tent, looking for a way to be partnered with her (*cough* cockblock Buck *cough*). Unhinged moron in love. Two, every single thing I wrote back then is made even more profound by the reveal of the legal guardianship (which I referenced in reply to this ask about scenes changed by that reveal). I mean, for real. The way Eddie smiles fondly at the picture of Chris in that adaptive skateboard while saying, “Buck helped,” all along knowing that is his baby daddy. Marjan is gorgeous and smart and brave and a badass, in so many ways she’s just like Eddie, she could be the perfect fit for him, but Mr. “heart eyes at this goofball” Diaz doesn’t even really try to see where this might lead beyond just making sure she’s no threat to his r/ with Buck. He’s so freaking gone for that man…

LS 207

This ep brings up a change in the 126’s dynamics, as TK starts working on the paramedics team. What comes into focus specifically is his new partnership with Nancy. They like each other, but pretty quickly Nancy realizes TK annoys her, while he in turn senses that and doesn’t take it too well. They even end up “competing” for who gets in Tommy’s good books.

Obviously, it made me think of how Buddie started with a rivalry in OG 210. But theirs was NEVER a dynamic of being annoyed with each other, not getting along professionally, or actng like kids competing for an adult’s good graces. There was ALWAYS something much more charged about it, we never heard, “Eddie is annoying,” “Buck is condescending,” “Eddie isn’t listening to my professional input,” “Buck is getting on my nerves…” It was always implied that the issue was, “Eddie is so great, IDK how to handle that” and “Buck isn’t responding to my friendly advances as expected, WHYYY?”

And if that’s not enough to make it clear that the comparison highlights very different dynamics, there’s also the fact that the whole resolution of the conflict is handled completely differently. For TK and Nancy, it’s not actually settled between the two of them. The insight that leads to the resolution plays out between TK and Carlos! They’re the romantic couple, they’re the life partners, they’re the ones who help each other figure stuff out and change course to a better version of themselves. It’s Carlos’ words that allow TK to realize where he went wrong and treat Nancy better, making their rivalry evaporate as if it had never existed (which… technically shouldn’t work, because how DO they organize their equipment in the ambulance? TK’s new system, Nancy’s familiar one, some combination of both that they work out together? We don’t know, the show doesn’t bother giving us an answer in this ep to how their professional partnership will actually be handled, because it no longer matters, the emotional resolution took place already, thanks to Carlos).

Buck and Eddie, though… their resolution is all about them, and only about them. It also gives us a cleat indication that their work partnership will work out just fine now that they’ve figured out their emotional tension. Yes, Bobby told Buck he had to learn how to play nice in the lead up to Buddie working things out, but it was Buck’s dedication to the job and bravery under fire, it was Eddie’s big heart and willingness to forgive immediately and see past the initial rejection from Buck, that allow them to move from enemies to friends, who become life partners… Seriously, at no point did Bobby say, “Buck, you have to help him raise his kid,” but that’s exactly how it went down anyway. That came about fully from Buck and Eddie’s choices. Buddie figure things out, transform their r/s and make each other a better version of themselves all on their own… Like romantic couples on drama shows tend to do. ;)

~ ~ ~ Thank you so much to the amazing @judsonryder for making the gifs for these posts. She’s a true hero! You can find more of my Buddie meta, gifs, humor posts here, and my Buddie fics here. Please feel free to contact me if you need help with anything, and thank you in advance for any show of support! xoxox

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panharmonium · 3 years

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THAT is the importance of an adult who Understands.

one of the things that i always come back to when i think about sasuke is that sasuke has virtually everybody in the village fooled. you couldn’t find a more messed up kid in all the hidden leaf if you tried, but you wouldn’t know it to look at him, because he can’t afford to acknowledge or display weakness - firstly, because weakness means he isn’t strong enough to take on itachi, and secondly, because signs of struggle on sasuke’s part might mean that an authority figure tries to involve themself in his life, and sasuke doesn’t want anyone interfering in something he sees as a personal quest. he doesn’t see himself as a child who needs to be looked after by adults; he sees himself as an adult in a frustratingly small body, and he wants all the other adults to leave him alone and let him do what he needs to do. he doesn’t want meddling. he wants everyone who has the power to potentially keep him from getting what he most desires to remain oblivious to his true state of mind, to not look too closely, to never see a child in distress, because if he ever lets on that he doesn’t have his shit together, it’s possible that one of the leaf’s less negligent grown-ups will swoop down on him and start trying to intervene/“parent” him, which to sasuke’s mind just means “get in the way.”

sasuke, who has long felt like he’s already an adult dealing with adult problems, won’t tolerate that. so he masks his issues, to the point where he has virtually everyone around him completely deceived. his regular schoolteachers don’t worry about him - he’s a high achiever, he gets perfect grades, he’s top of his class in everything, he doesn’t make trouble. his classmates don’t worry about him - they buy the ‘i’m so cool, nothing fazes me’ act and worship at his feet, even as he demonstrates that he wants nothing to do with them. the rest of the leaf village doesn’t worry about him, either - they see him as a source of village pride (and a source of entertainment/drama, like when they’re all so excited to watch The Last Uchiha fight for their nation during the chunin exams). even though sasuke is so messed up on the inside, the exterior facade he presents to people is specifically designed to prevent any wondering about how he’s doing. as far as the world can see, he’s doing Just Fine (and while everyone is busy not wondering about his health, he can get down to the business of getting his revenge).

sasuke’s strategy for relating to other people is, essentially, the opposite of naruto’s approach. naruto, in his early childhood, draws as much attention to himself as possible, causing all sorts of mayhem, in the hope that someone, somewhere will see him. he makes trouble and causes problems precisely because he desperately wants someone to acknowledge his pain, and that’s how he ends up landing iruka as an adult support figure, because iruka notices what’s happening and decides to get involved. sasuke, in contrast to naruto, doesn’t want anyone to acknowledge or even notice his pain, because if they do notice it, they might try to stop him from pursuing what he thinks is the only way to alleviate it. that’s not an acceptable outcome for him, so instead of making a scene and calling attention to himself, he hides in plain sight.

sasuke doesn’t want people to get involved in his life. he wants to be left to his own devices. he doesn’t think he needs (read: deserves) anybody’s help, and some tiny part of him knows that a Responsible Adult might raise their eyebrows at what he’s doing to himself, so he uses his “high-achiever, too cool for school” persona to pull the wool over everyone’s eyes. and he almost succeeds - until kakashi enters the picture. kakashi, who can’t be fooled. kakashi, who has known from Day One, Minute One exactly what goal is driving all of sasuke’s high achievement, and who knows that sasuke is NOT okay, in either the head or the heart. kakashi, who in the above gifset can tell that sasuke is having a crisis without even turning around. kakashi doesn’t need to be shown evidence before he gets concerned. he’s known from the very start that sasuke is struggling, because he lived through similar pains and tried to cope with them in similarly unhealthy ways (remember: “useless things like emotions only get in the way”/“having too many ties in this world will only lead you astray” + “everyone you’re talking about has already been killed”/“they’re all dead...because i wasn’t strong enough to save them”).

sasuke still tries to put up the front. a few scenes prior to the above gifset, sasuke is the one who is making fun of naruto for freezing up - you’re not hurt, are you...scaredy-cat. and he completely fools his peers with his attitude - sakura’s got stars in her eyes, naruto’s super jealous; both of them think sasuke’s So Cool and Super Powerful and Not Afraid of Anything!

but when sasuke himself is confronted with a serious, imminent threat to his life (one against which his supposedly “advanced” skills are useless, one from which he can’t protect himself; aka, one where he’s suddenly reminded that he’s actually a twelve year-old genin and his safety is out of his control, just like it was the night his family was murdered), he’s the one who panics. the other kids are scared, too - but sasuke completely loses it. he almost kills himself to get away from the intensity of his fear. *cough* it’s the ptsd *cough* but anyway -

kakashi is able to sense this without even turning around. he’s preparing to fight an aggressor under the least ideal circumstances possible - they were supposed to be on a mission where it was four people protecting one man, but because tazuna lied to them, they’re now in a situation where it’s one man protecting four people, including three children - and even with all of that competing for his attention, kakashi is still focusing closely enough on each individual kid to sense that sasuke is going off the rails. without even turning around, he knows.

we all remember this, right?

it doesn’t matter how much of an act sasuke puts on. kakashi has been there. he knows better. he can’t be fooled. he calls for sasuke by name and pulls him back from the brink.

kakashi interrupts this crisis so effectively. not only is he able to snap sasuke out of his panic, but he’s also careful to then extend his reassurance to everyone present, accomplishing the dual purposes of calming everyone else down and also redirecting attention away from sasuke’s more extreme reaction, which the others haven’t noticed yet. it’s deftly done. it addresses sasuke’s crisis on an individual level without putting him in the spotlight. it works. the way sasuke relaxes in that last gif...man.

calm down. i’ll protect you with my life.

i’ve already talked a little bit about how much it would mean for somebody with sasuke’s particular history to hear that (especially when those words are spoken by an adult who follows through on the promise every single time), but here i just want to focus on the fact that the only reason sasuke is lucky enough to receive this reassurance in the first place is because kakashi isn’t fooled by sasuke pretending he doesn’t need to hear it. kakashi and the kids are very new to each other at this point, but even so, kakashi still understands sasuke better than any other adult in the hidden leaf. he’s the first authority figure who sasuke hasn’t been able to trick into obliviousness - sasuke can’t pretend away his problems in front of someone who used to have all those same problems himself! kakashi is too savvy to be waved away with the whole ‘i’m super advanced for my age i don’t need any help don’t look behind my mask’ charade. kakashi invented that game. he knows it’s one you don’t want to win. he won it himself, when he played it, and winning just meant that everybody took him at his word when he acted like he was fine and nobody ever gave him the kind of help he needed. he’s not going to let another kid get away with the same self-destructive shenanigans, not when he’s around to call their bluffs and be the kind of support structure he himself could’ve benefited from when he was younger.

#naruto #pan watches naruto #meta #he's like me #*#haven't written tracts upon tracts of thoughts about these two for a couple days so you knew it was coming #i think about kakashi calling for sasuke in this moment at least once a day #the utter certainty in his voice when he tells sasuke 'calm down. i'll protect you with my life'#sasuke has never ever had anybody talk to him like that in his life #the dramatic change in his expression in that last gif......the Relief #for a first brief moment in five years sasuke feels.......................safe #literally i will NEVER be over kakashi managing to reach this kid #who thinks he's too strong to need adult assistance and in too much pain for anyone to ever understand #'i DO know how you feel'#every single day i think about that #the power behind 'trust me'#especially where i'm at in the show now #when sasuke has never been able to trust ANY of the adults in his life #his parents; itachi; his own community's government; orochimaru; 'madara'#everybody lying to him or using him for something #for him to have one adult who said from the very beginning #'my first priority is your safety. i will die before anything happens to you'#and for that person to make good on that statement again and again #that means so much #even if sasuke can't recognize it right now #someday......he'll see more clearly

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jxstadaydreamer · 3 years

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lucky ones

(gif from this gifset by @pikayeollie)

Pairing: Park Chanyeol x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Word count: 1222

Warnings: stress breakdown, self doubting

Summary: Chanyeol was excited to spend some time with you but this wasn't what he was expecting to come home to..

Author's note: This was the result of a bad day and I just really needed some comfort. Who better to get it from than our big friendly giant? I wanted to switch things up a little and test my ability to write something other than smut so please let me know what you think! Feedback is always welcomed :)

Chanyeol was excited to finally go home. He knew he’d been neglecting you a little and he was excited to finally have a decent amount of time off now that they had finished their promotions. He had dropped by the convenience store to pick up your favourite snacks, drinks and even some ice cream. He was ready for a night in, just cuddling and watching Disney movies. He expected to come home to you, chilling in the lounge or snuggled up in bed binging your favourite tv show. He could imagine you looking extra cosy and comfortable, hair up in a messy bun, fresh faced and usually dressed in his hoodie because you said it saved you from having to wear pants. He laughed at the thought as he was pulling into the parking lot.

He opened the door to your shared apartment and found...darkness? He stopped for a second, a little confused because you didn’t mention having plans to be out tonight. Glancing over at the shoe rack, he could see that all your shoes were there and your slippers weren’t so you had to be home. Maybe you had gone to bed? He closes the door and unlocks his phone to check the time. No, you wouldn’t be asleep yet. You were too much of a night owl to fall asleep at this hour. He makes his way into the kitchen to put the bags of food down and switches on the light which casts its glow into the living room and that’s when he noticed you were sitting there on the couch.

“Oh my god, you scared me.” he jumped and rubbed his chest to calm down his racing heart. But you didn’t answer. “Baby?” he calls out. You didn’t answer so he tries again.

“Y/n, can you hear me?” he asks worriedly as he starts walking over to where you were seated.

When he rounds the sofa, that’s when he sees the blank stare in your eyes but the streaming tears down your face. The way you had wrapped your arms around your knees which were curled up to your chest.

“Hey, what’s wrong? What happened? Are you okay?” he shoots out as he pulls you into his lap, tucking your head under his jaw and stroking your back attempting to soothe you.

You still hadn’t answered him but began breaking into small sobs. He hushed you and hugged you tighter as you cried.

“Shh, it’s okay. I’m here now. I’m here. I’m with you.”

Soon he could hear your sobs start to die down, your body relaxing a little and your breathing slowed too. You even hugged him back now.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked in a calm voice. A voice that you could tell was trying to hide how worried he was so you wouldn’t feel bad about making him worry.

“No...not really. It’s nothing.” you replied in a small whisper.

“It’s not nothing if it made you cry like that Y/n. I haven’t seen you like that in a long time.” he says as he tilts your chin up to inspect your eyes.

You can see the worry swimming in his irises and you look away, not being able to hold the intensity of his gaze.

“It’s silly. It’s just me over-thinking everything. Again. Don’t worry, I’ll get over it.”

“How about you talk to me about it and I’ll tell you if it’s silly or not?”

“But I know it’s silly. It’s embarrassing.”

“Just talk to me, baby. I’m here for you to unload on. No matter how big or small the problem is. I promise you’ll feel better after you do.”

“I just-..” you say as you try to gather your thoughts. “I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore? I feel like I’m always so busy and doing so much but at the same time I’m doing nothing.”

You look at him to gauge his reaction towards the nonsense you just spurted out but he says nothing, just lovingly looks back at you and nods, telling you to continue.

You sigh. “I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I feel like..I’m going nowhere. I just feel like I’m a useless existence. I don’t even know why you love me sometimes.”

“Hey, look at me.” He cups your face, turning you to look at him and he kisses you. “I love you always, everything about you. I love how you love me and how you love everyone around you. You’re so caring and you always know just what to say or do to make us feel better. I love how you always support all my dreams and my ridiculous ideas. I love how you’re so understanding about me working all the time, even when it makes you cry because you miss me. I know because I can see the little patch of wetness your tears leave on your pillow and you’re holding my pillow. But even when you’re lonely, you never complain because you don’t want me to feel bad.”

You hug him a little tighter and nuzzle your face into his neck. He chuckles and kisses the top of your head.

“I like the silly little things you don’t even know that you do too. Like the little wiggly dance you do when you eat something good. The way you jump in your sleep from a bad dream and your hands fly out searching for me. And then you let out a happy little sigh and smile. I like-”

“Stop. You’re embarrassing me.”

He laughs at you. “Do you feel better now?”

“Embarrassed. But yeah, a little better. Thank you.”

“I’m glad. But don’t worry, okay? You’re doing great. You’re just stressed because you’re not looking at the big picture. All the efforts you’re making now will get you where you want to go. It’ll be worth it. I’m always so proud of you, my little one.”

“Everyone’s little to you when you’re a giant.” you mutter. “Thank you, Yeol. I love you.”

“You’re definitely feeling better if you can manage some sass.” he laughs, “I love you too, please don’t ever forget that, okay?”

You nod and smile at him.

“Okay, how about some Disney? I’ll let you pick. I even got all your favorite snacks.”

“It’s already kinda late though, don’t you have more schedules tomorrow? You should get some rest or you’ll give the makeup artists a hard time covering up your panda eyes.”

“Nope. We’re done with promotions! Today was officially our last one so you have me to yourself for a while. I made sure no one would bother me unless it was urgent.” he beams at you. “Now, let me go get changed and I’ll bring the snacks. Pick something for us to watch.” He kisses you and slides you off his lap to get up.

You giggle when you see him trip over his own feet and he turns around to glare at you but smiles right after. You watch him walk down the hallway and turn back to think to yourself how lucky you are to have him. Little did you know, he was unable to wipe the smile off his face while thinking about how he was the lucky one to have you.

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