#i felt like i havent been able to be excited and im still not
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today is the day i get surgery or dont. im so nervous lol
#i am still not fully cleared cuz i have to be evaluated by the anesthesiologist which they said they cant do#until the MORNING OF THE SURGERY#because theyre afraid i may have some blockage in my airway passage#im fully going into it expecting to be rejected#and ive mentally prepared#so i will be okay. it will just hurt a lot#but if i do get it. yay#i felt like i havent been able to be excited and im still not#just cuz of how frustrating and distressing this all is#and i hope if i dont i at least get some kind of refund lol#tp
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scent of the pine. 5 (e.w)
*takes off grad cap* alright . here we go.
wc;cw: 17.1k everybody died, sistersbestfriend!ellie, guitarist/producer!ellie, violinist!oc, age gap(three years), all ocs r blackcoded, SMUT!! MDNI!!!, phone sex, masturbation, mean ellie, weed alcohol nics yall know wassup, dubcon, virginity loss, masochism LOL, light bondage, dirty talk, ASSSPLAAAYYY😝, dp, mult. orgasms, subspace and drop, squirting, slapping(face ass tits pussy lol), toys, slight angst but also fluff, just lots of spit n cum
You’ve been very gloomy these past couple of months.
You hadn’t stopped thinking about Ellie since you left her home that morning, up until you and Arya jumped on the train to return to campus.
You’d never be able to express to Arya how much you appreciated her presence: she allowed you to cry, whine, pout, and sniffle about how much you missed Ellie, and she comforted you through all of it with gentle whispers of you’re gonna be fine, bitch! you’re gonna get piped down soon! I promise! Although you felt a bit selfish dumping your girl problems on her, she never made you feel guilty and justified that you always listened to her ramble about her hook-ups and high rambles. The only time she’d ever complained about anything related to your sorrowful monologues about missing Ellie’s laugh and smile and tongue was when you two had to work on your Music & Production Theory assignment (I’m gonna kill you if we fail and you’ll die dickless! Don’t play with me!).
…But other than that, she’s been so sweet!
Ellie has also been keeping in touch ever since you left. She sent you snaps of Duchess zooming around the house, her meals for the day, and three-second voice memos of her new project she was working on. You knew that she’d been flying back and forth to California and had a packed schedule with her producer friends whenever she was there, but your heart couldn’t help but turn gray when you wouldn’t hear from her for a few days.
Now it's March, and you and Arya are sitting on the floor as you glared searing holes into your phone. Ellie sent you a text when you were in class earlier saying that she missed your voice and was going to call you the second she had the opportunity. And you weren’t going to miss it. Ellie was worth wasting your Saturday night on!
“I’m not gonna lie girl,” Arya's voice cut through your intense phone-staring. “I’ve definitely had my dickmatized moments but you’re kinda crazy.”
You looked up at Arya as she carefully packed her blunt to get ready for her smoke sesh with her friends, concerned look on her face. It made you frown.
“What, why? What’d I do?” You asked with your brows pulled down.
And before you could hear her answer, you got a notification. You nearly snapped your wrists at the speed your hands flew to grab your phone to see if it was Ellie, your eyes bulging at your screen, only to see that your sister snapped you. You sighed in slight disappointment before opening it.
You ignored Arya’s snickering.
Your sister sent you a picture of her with hairspray and a lighter in her hand with a caption IM MOVING TF OUT I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT NO MORE BUGS R EVERYWHERE WHAT IN THE FUCK.
You couldn’t hold in your laugh as you snapped her back before Arya stood and went to the bathroom with a change of clothes in hand.
You heard the shower turn on as you got up and onto your bed to mindlessly scroll through Twitter.
After ten minutes of scrolling through a Best Euphoria Character breakdown thread, you got a text from Ellie, and you nearly squealed in excitement.
hiiii im sorry i havent been able to b on my phone like that :( been super busy with this sample
i just wanted 2 let u know that i might have 2 call u another time we still have a bunch of layering to do for this track n we’re on a timer. i miss u so fucking bad
You couldn’t ignore the sadness in your chest, but you texted back understandingly anyway.
it’s ok :( i miss u too. miss ur voice :(
Her reply bubble immediately popped up.
i know baby fuckkkk i miss ur voice so fucking bad im ab to start asking 4 daily voice memos 🤨
You smiled at your screen so wide.
LOOOOOOOL ur annoying
You typed and sent a follow up before she could.
go back 2 work 🥰🥰
kiss :(
mwah
mwah mwah mwah
You put your phone on your chest, and you couldn’t stop the smile that grew on your face. She made you so, so happy.
The bathroom door opened, steam from the warm water exiting the room along with a towel-clad Arya.
“What you cheesin’ so hard for, girl?” She said as she grabbed her edge control off her desk.
“Nothin’,” you said with a dreamy sigh as you stared off past her.
“…Uh huh, I’m heading out soon, I’ll be back late tonight, so don’t wait up.” She said with a smirk.
“Don’t forget to send me your location,” you reminded her.
She let out a quick course, baby before she went back into the bathroom.
You went back to scrolling through Twitter until your eyelids got heavy. A comfortably dressed Arya—she’s definitely getting some— kissed your forehead and dimmed your dorm lights before she left, and you dozed off.
You jolted awake as Rotation blasted in your ears. You drowsily picked your phone up and saw a el:3🌲 and 2:34AM across your home screen.
You perked up immediately to answer, sitting up so fast that you went lightheaded for a second.
“Hello?”
“Hi, you,” Ellie’s light voice rang through the phone. “Were you sleep? M’sorry, we can talk la— “
“No! No, I’m up, I was just napping, hi,” you said as you grinned softly at her laugh, laying on your back. “You’re up late. Did you guys finish?”
“No, but we were exhausted, so we called off for the night. And one of my partners kept rambling about this girl he needed to call, so,” Her voice was already making you squirm. Thank god she couldn’t see you. “But I wanted to talk to you, couldn’t help myself.”
“Oh my god, you’re so obsessed, damn,” you said with a giggle.
“Fuuuuck yeah, sooo obsessed, need to drink your bath water, shit, I think I’m dying!” she said in an overly desperate, dried out tone, making you laugh harder.
Both of your laughs calmed down before she started talking, “I’ve been meaning to ask you something.”
“Yeah?”
“Umm…” She sounded a bit nervous, and it instantly made you antsy. “I know you’re not gonna be back for a couple weeks or whatever, but I just… like I was gonna ask if you wanted to do something, like just the two of us…”
And a sly grin grew on your face. “Ellie… are you asking me out, right now?”
The other line was silent as you heard her move around and sigh before she spoke. “…This was literally the worst way to ask a girl out, fuck, m’sorry— “
You cut through her jittery rambles. “Ellie, stop apologizing! That’s so cute! Of course, I’ll go out with you!”
You heard her release a deep breath as she said, “Fuck, thank god, holy shit, I was so nervous. It’s been so long since I’ve done that. Almost shoved my vape down my throat.”
You laughed as your heart beat quickened. “You really gonna wine and dine me when I come home? We’re that serious?”
“Ohhh, we're that serious, you're eating nothing but lobster and pasta when I see you, swear to god.”
You snorted at her, “Okay, sugar daddy, get me a new car while you're at it. With insurance.”
“Anything you want, baby.” She said with a sleazy laugh.
You hummed at her offer in attempts to mask the pounding of your heart, but she mocked you, humming back at you in a higher tone.
“Shut up! I’m just thinking!”
“Oh, yeah? About what?”
You suddenly felt shy as her voice lowered. It was so much deeper. “Just… just you, I guess, I dunno, miss you.”
You heard her shuffle again before she asked softly, a smirk evident in her tone, “You miss me?”
You let out a quiet, but eager mhm! as your tummy swirled with want.
You listened to her gentle breathing before she asked, “Your roomie home?”
And your heartbeat picked up, your eyes fluttering as your blinking slowed.
“N-no, she’s gone.”
“Then lay down for me, baby.”
You instantly fell on your back, your scarfed head hitting your silk pillows. Your face was boiling hot, “I am.”
“You sound nervous, you good?” she asked you gently.
“M’great, just… yeah, I’m okay, want you to keep talking.”
“Stop me whenever, you understand?” Her tone was much more serious, and it made your thighs clench, your boyshorts growing wetter.
You whined out a uhhuh!, but she corrected you immediately, “Say you understand.”
“I understand! I get it, El!” Fuck, you wished she were here to touch you. To scold you in person.
You heard giggling and more shuffling around through the speaker, “You gotta shirt on?”
“Mhm.”
She chuckled lightly, “Take it off, take off everything while you're at it.”
Your heartbeat spiked, “But Arya might come back.”
“That’s why you have a blanket, honey.”
…Fair.
You quickly set your phone on your pillow, reaching for the hem of your shirt, lifting it up to pull it over your head, tossing it to the floor. You arched your ass up to pull your boyshorts off and kicked them to the foot of your bed. You reached for your phone again.
“Okay, m’ready now.”
“Such a cutie,” she cooed at you. You could hear the grin through her words. “Gonna make you cum so hard the second I get my hands on you.”
You whimpered into the speaker as your walls squeezed. Fuck, fuckfuck.
“You make me go fuckin’ crazy, can’t stop thinking about you.”
“M-me, too.”
“Yeah? What d’you think about?”
Say it! your brain yelled at you. She already knows you’re a slut, just say what you want!
“...Umm…”
“Talk to me, baby, about anything you want.”
You gulped, heart pounding in your ears, “Your… your hands? They’re… really nice.”
“Yeah? What about ‘em is nice?”
“Ellie…”
“Like when they touch you all over, when they hold you down?”
“Yes,” you barely whispered as your free hand traveled down your body. Not touching anywhere specifically, just roaming.
“Know you do, they get you so fuckin’ hot,” She breathed through the line. “Wanna touch yourself?”
“Yeah, w’na so bad.”
“Say please.”
“Ellieee— “
She cut off your embarrassed whines with a nastily casual tone, “I'll hang up right now. Ask nicely.”
You balled your traveling hand up in a fist as you pleaded with an upset pout, “Please, Ellie.”
“Please what.”
“… Please help me?”
“….”
“C’mon Ellie! Please make me cum! I wanna cum!”
Her condescending laugh pierced through your ears, “Touch those pretty fuckin’ tits since I didn’t get to before you left.”
You moaned out as your pointer finger and thumb rolled your stiffened nipple as you squirmed.
“They’re so fucking sensitive, got my sheets so wet when I played with ‘em. Wan’em in my mouth again, shit.”
You pulled at your other nipple, and you let out a moan into the speaker.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, miss you so fucking bad.”
“Miss you so much, Ellie, can’t wait t’see you.” You cried out quietly. Your pussy was clenching with need.
“Touch your pussy, babygirl, rub your clit. Get it nice and wet f’me.”
You followed her instructions at a lightning speed, spreading your legs wider and reaching your hand all the way down to bring your slick to your clit. Your breathing picked up as you slowly rubbed it into your bud, hips jerking.
“Tell me how wet it is,” you could hear how shaky her voice was getting, breathing labored. She was touching herself to you touching yourself, and it was making you wetter. It made you burn. It made you want to get her there.
“M’really wet, El,” you mewled out to her, trying to ignore your bashfulness.
“Yeah? S’dripping on your bed like it did on mine?”
“Shit, yes, I feel it.”
“Fuuuck, bet it’s so fucking tight, gonna break that pretty pussy in so good.”
“Want you to. Want you inside me s’bad, please.”
“Gonna give you whatever you want, promise, shit.”
You felt that feeling coming over you before you could think, “Think m’gonna cum, baby—“
“Already? Always cum so fucking quick—“
“I-I just miss you!”
“Then cum for me, love.”
“G’na, daddy!” You heard her groan at the name.
“Fuuuuck!” You heard the wet sounds from her pussy over her groans and whines of your name, and that swelling feeling in your gut exploded.
All you could get out was a garbled cumming! as your thighs shook in your pleasure, your fingers quickly rubbing your clit as your hips bucked towards the friction. It felt so much better because you knew she was listening.
“Don’t fucking stop, you’re gonna cum again.” She scolded when your fingers slowed and your breathing slowed.
“E-Ellieee—!”
“You wanted to cum so bad, right? Then fucking cum, fuck that pussy,” she must’ve been close: her breathing was heavier and shaky, the wet sounds from her side increasing.
You put your phone on speaker and set it on your pillow, propping yourself up on your elbow so you could fuck yourself easier. You’ve never successfully made yourself cum like this, but you slid your middle finger in experimentally anyway. You released a light gasp at the stretch. You were so soft and slippery on the inside, your clit twitching as you wiggled around in search for that spot that Ellie found so easily.
“D-Do me a favor?” she gasped out to you.
“U-Uh huh?”
She let out a breathy laugh, “Put your pussy on the phone so I can nut?”
You laughed with her, shaking your head as you grabbed it with your free hand. You placed it between your legs, thrusting your finger in and out, “Can you hear it?”
“Yeah, babe, fuck.”
You let out a moan with her, slowly fucking yourself and bringing your other hand over to rub your clit, hips jolting at the sensitivity. You both were moaning each other's name as you chased your pleasure in unison. You let out a loud moan when you prodded that squishy spot that made you black out the last time you saw Ellie. You hit it as hard as you could, pussy squelching around your fingers and belly swirling.
“Gonna make me cum, shit, sounds so fucking hot,” she whined out in between heavy pants.
“Cum with me, El? Please?” You rubbed your clit faster.
“Gonnagonna, fuck, m’so close—!”
You let out a shout of her name as it hit you, your fingers trapped between the tight grip of your walls. You rubbed your clit as you grinded into your pussy, your head falling back as your hips rocked back and forth to ride it out. You tried to quiet your wails as Ellie came with you, letting out obscenities while she talked you through it. You could hear how fast her fingers were moving and it made another wave wash over you, your cunt giving one last bone-crushing squeeze as its twitching calmed.
You pulled your drenched fingers out and slowly rubbed your clit as you came down, listening to Ellie’s quieting gasps of pleasure. You reached to grab a couple tissues from your work desk, wiping your fingers and pussy before grabbing your phone to set on your pillow. You heard her shuffle before she spoke.
“You okay, babe?”
“Yeah… wish you were here,” you answered with a pout.
“I know, a couple more weeks’n I’m all yours.”
“S’all I’m thinking about,” you said gently. “Go get some rest.”
“Don’t want you to gooooo,” you heard her pouting. It made your heart skip. “Stay on the phone with me?
“Don’t you have to get up early tomorrow?”
“…Yeah…”
“Right. You had a long day, go to bed.” Even though the sound of her breathing would lull you to sleep faster, you could only imagine how drained she must’ve been.
“Fine,” you heard her sigh in resignation.
“Sleep well,” you cheesed widely.
“I’ll try, promise. Mmmmwaaah!” she sent a goofy kiss through the speaker. You sent one back.
“Night, El.”
“Night, baby.”
You hung up your line, throwing your phone on your pillow as you sat up to go to the bathroom.
You missed her scent so much.
Your sister was very in love. And lonely.
It’s been almost three weeks since she’s seen Isaiah.
She was typically good at keeping her sneaky links on the low, only calling them to fulfill her needs in the middle of the night, buy her drinks, smoke her the fuck out whenever she wanted, but she never expected to miss one of them or wait for their calls. Fuck time zones!
When Isaiah and your sister first started hooking up, it started off normal. Quick, but nastily satisfying fucks in hotel rooms (that he paid for, city girl shit), smashing in his rental car before his studio session, in her car before she went to work; it was strictly sexual for months, and she was fine with him constantly flying back and forth!
Until he returned from California with a new strain that he said reminded him of her. She damn near bought a ring to propose to him herself. He smoked her out, she had one of the best highs of her life, and he gave her the craziest head on her couch, how could she not want him?!
And now he’s gone, making beats in California again as she sat and thought about his voice. His scent.
Why did California always keep the most important people away from her?!
Thinking about that city always gives her a headache. She ignited the packed bowl of her pipe, staring holes into the black screen of her phone as she waited for his call.
You were editing another compilation of you playing all four seasons of Vivaldi as Arya snored on your shoulder. Your subs were going to eat this one up!
The train Wi-Fi was kicking your ass and was this close to fucking up your render, but you were managing.
You stretched your wrists, and you leaned back from your small tray table, resting against your head against the rest and grabbing your phone.
You got a text from Ellie!
hiiiii baby can’t wait 2 c u
got smth cute planned :)
You didn’t notice the smile that spread on your face as you typed.
so excited :( wanna smell u so bad
You were about to set your phone down, but a text bubble popped up.
yeah? wna smell u too
gonna shove my nose in that pussy and inhale 😛
IMMA EAT IT RAAAHH
Your entire body flushed hot as you shook your head.
AYOOOOO??
UR FUCKDIGNNSTUPIDD GET OFF MY PHONE
LFMAKOAAOOAAO
kissie b4 i go? :(
mwahmwahmwah
mmmmmwwah
You set your phone down as you cheesed dumbly.
You wished this train would hurry the fuck up!
Your mom had come to pick you and Arya up from the station with slices of her freshly baked pineapple upside-down cake, kisses, and strong hugs. You never got used to being away from her months at a time; You'd missed her warm embrace so much.
You had a couple of days to yourself before you and Ellie's first date and… just thinking about it made your heart beat faster.
She’d texted you when you got home, telling you to dress up in something fancy. Would she buy you a fancy dinner? Take you to an art gallery? A night on the town in the city? The possibilities were endless with her!
Arya had been telling you that you needed to buy some… things for when the two of you get “freak nasty”, so she offered to drive you to the mall (no more fruit panties, you're an adult now!, she’d scolded you). While you were excited for what happened after your date, you didn’t want it to be narrowed down to that; You loved spending time with Ellie. You just got her back in your life, and you wanted to appreciate every moment that you could get with her when she wasn't working. You felt so happy when she was around.
… But of course, Arya wasn’t hearing that.
“Girl, you can save all that sappy shit for the wedding, do you want crotchless panties under your—“ She paused her waving of the… very exposed pair of pink underwear as she remembered something. “Oh fuck, you don’t have a dress!”
“…I was thinking about just wearing my prom dr— “
“Don’t even finish that fuckin’ sentence, are you serious?! Your prom dress? On your first date? You needa be slapped for that!” She said, irritated as she glared at you. You glared back at her attitude, now just as annoyed.
“What do you expect me to do?! I’m not… I’m not like you guys, okay? This typa shit is easy for y’all. You know how hard it is for me to… do things like this. Why do you think I’ve been single this whole time?!” You said with a hurt frown.
You knew she never meant any harm whenever she scolded you about your romantic situations, —or lack thereof—but that didn’t mean it hurt your feelings any less. You’re just starting to come into yourself and your appearance, and you need her, and everyone else, to be patient with you.
Arya must’ve sensed the pain and discomfort in your voice because her glare slowly fell, a gentle replacement immediately overtaking her expression. She set the panties back down onto the display table and grabbed your shoulders.
“M’sorry babe, okay?” She said softly, and you nodded as you looked off into the distance in rigid forgiveness; You knew she didn’t like that. “Look at me.”
Your eyes slowly met hers before she quietly spoke. “I’m sorry, I want the best for you, that’s all.”
She continued as your eyes watered. Just a little glisten! “You’re such a beautiful person—inside’n out and I want you to feel that way, even more so now because of that dick-slangin’ girlfriend of yours!”
“You’re annoying,” you joked as you laughed quietly, making her smile.
“It’s true! You’re my baby’n I love you.”
“Love you,” you mumbled into her shoulder as she pulled you into a tight hug, pressing a light kiss to the side of your head before pulling back.
She spun around and pointed towards the 30% off on all thongs! sign at the front of the store.
“Can you buy one, at least?” she said in half-joking exasperation, pout on her face.
“…Sure,” You relented with a sigh. “I might not wear it for the date, though!”
“That’s fine, mama! Just wanna make sure you got one for safe keeping!” She said slyly as she stuck her tongue out.
You shook your head as you made your way over to the rack, eyeing the pine green thong on the mannequin.
Two days passed and you were getting ready for your first date! You couldn’t believe it!
After Arya drove the two of you to the airport to pick up Kris and Starr, they’d spent the night at your place so they could see you off before Ellie came to pick you up.
Starr helped you wax your eyebrows and legs: she offered to wax your cooch, but you were scared and a little embarrassed at the thought of your friends seeing you so… exposed. You knew your friends didn’t care about seeing you naked, but you were still a bit sheltered with them. I’ll stick to my razor! you'd said.
Kris was pressing your hair while Arya helped you glue your lashes on as you frantically checked the time with a bouncy knee. 6:33… 6:34… 6:36!
Even though Ellie said that your reservation was at seven-thirty, you still needed to get dressed, had to count for the drive, potential stops for gas… and what if there was an accident on the road and it made you both late… oh, god what if you both caused the accident—!
“Bro, can you calm the hell down— “
“Y’know, I’m getting really sick of y’all asking the girl with anxiety to calm down—!”
“Stop moving and hold your ear down!”
You thanked god your mom was out on a wine night; She didn’t need her night ruined with you and your friends bickering.
You grabbed your ear in a tight downward pinch with a harsh sigh, moving it so Kris could straighten your baby hairs. Even with all this frantic movement from everyone in the room, they made it clear that they didn’t want you to see your final look until the very end, blocking all mirrors available with their bodies.
After fifteen minutes of… pure chaos, your hair laid flat, and your face was beat. You pressed kisses all over your friends’ faces with breathy iloveyouthankyou’s before grabbing your dress and undergarments to sprint to your bathroom, making sure not to look at yourself even though you desperately wanted to.
You shut the door with a deep and heavy exhale. You looked at your dress with pounding in your ears: it was a floor length, black velvet maxi dress with lace detailed sleeves. It accentuated your bust so a little cleavage was showing (I, personally, would have my nipples out, but this is cute, too! you recalled Arya saying in the dressing room); It was so… classy. You felt like an adult when you tried it on. You hope Ellie likes it.
You shook off your insecurities before they could terrorize you and removed your tee, underwear, and sweatpants. You put your pine green, lacy strapless bra on with the thong to match, adjusting it so… your pussy could fucking breathe how do people wear this shit everywhere they go!
You grabbed your dress and stepped into it, carefully pulling it up and over your shoulders. You straightened it out with your hand, making sure no wrinkles were in it before you took a breath, opened the door, and walked out to your bedroom.
Starr was the first one you made eye-contact with and she damn near fell out of your desk chair and onto the floor. Your eyes widened as the other two turned with excited gasps and shrieks.
“OH MY FUCKIN’ GOD WHAT THEFUCK—!”
“You’re so fucking fine, holy shit—!”
“If it don’t work out with ol’ girl, you know where to find me—!”
You shook your head at them before dropping your gaze to your floor so that they couldn’t see your small smile, your face flushed, “Okay, okay, can I look now?”
“Yeah baby, turn around!” Kris said excitedly as she grabbed your shoulders with an encouraging squeeze.
You spun around and was immediately met with someone who… did not look like you. At all. Even your brain was too stunned to speak. What the fuck?
The girls' excited expressions slowly dropped when they witnessed your shocked reaction, but you weren’t upset at all. Just… surprised. In a good way.
“What’s the matter, honey?” Kris asked you gently from behind with concerned eyes, meeting yours in the mirror.
“…I’m just really— “
THROW IT IN ROTATION! (THR—)
You jumped towards your phone on your dresser, nearly knocking your lamp off it. You answered immediately when you saw who it was.
“Hello?”
“Hiiiii, m’downstairs!” Ellie said giddily, and your spirit brightened. You smiled widely, and the girls followed.
“I’m coming down right now, just needa put my shoes on!”
“Ok, is it fine if I come in for a sec or?”
“Yeah, it’s fine. The girls wanna meet you!” And they nodded eagerly in agreement.
“… Fuck, now I’m scared.”
“Don’t be! They’re so sweet, c’mon.”
“K, gimme a sec, mmmmmwah!” she said goofily, you sending one back just as dopily before you ended the call.
“Y’all gay as shit,” Starr said with a headshake, making the other girls snicker and jump in excitement.
You, heels in hand, and your friends nearly jumped down the staircase to rip the front door off the hinges.
The minute your eyes connected with Ellie’s, you had to stop yourself from dropping to your knees and doing something crazy. Fuck.
She was dressed in an all-black suit with a… fucking turtleneck underneath her jacket. Her sleeves were rolled up so her forearm tattoo was exposed. She had…Cuban links around her neck and wrists. Her hair was cut into a mullet—when the fuck did that happen, holy shit?!— and the two slits in her brow were more prominent. You noticed one of her hands was behind her back, but you couldn’t even bring yourself to care about what she was hiding. You were, by all means, ready to fuck right now. You nearly said fuck the date.
And by the darkening of her eyes as she took you in from head to toe, you could tell she was ready, too.
“…Hey,” she said to all of you, but she kept eye contact with you. You stared back.
“Hi! Nice to finally meet you, I’m Arya,” your best friend interrupted as she stuck her hand out towards your date. Her eyes left yours to politely greet your friends with cute smiles and handshakes.
And then she turned to you, bringing her hidden arm around to hand you a burgundy sunflower wrapped in gold and pink ribbons and plastic. Evening sun!
She stepped inside and into your space—she always smelled so fucking good! — as you took it from her hand with a gentle thank you. Her cheeks were so red as she whispered back of course before planting a soft kiss to your lips. You heard your friends squeal quietly. Neither of you cared, sucked into your own little universe.
“Ready?” she whispered. You nodded excitedly with a toothy grin, stepping into your heels. She smiled back before taking your hand in hers.
“Oh fuck, wait a second!” Kris said loudly before running upstairs. You looked at your two friends, confused. Starr smirked as Arya shrugged.
Kris came running back down the stairs with a small backpack in her hand, giving it to you.
“Packed you some… things. Might not see you for a few days,” she said slyly as she winked, causing Starr to snicker. What the hell was in this bag?
“Be careful with our little baby, now! She’s fragile!” Starr called out.
“Will do, don’t worry,” Ellie replied with a light laugh before turning to you to whisper, “C’mon, baby.”
“Don’t forget to lock the door before you guys head out, keys under the mat,” you turned to say to your friends as you slowly walked out. “I love y’all!”
Shouts of love you! and be safe! rung through your ears before you gently shut the door. Your back was immediately pressed up against it before you could think, Ellie craning her neck to connect your lips in a hot kiss. Your knees went weak.
She pulled away before you could protest, looking you up and down, “Had to do that, fuck, you look gorgeous.” Your cheeks were so hot as you mumbled a quiet you, too!
“Think I’m gorgeous?” She hummed out with a small smile. You saw her cheeks shine a darker shade of pink.
You nodded with an mhm!, wrapping your arms around her neck to pull her in for another kiss. She grabbed your forearms and moved back with a shake of her head.
“Okay. No more bullshit, we’re classy tonight!” She said with a clap of her hands.
“Just one more,” you shook your head with a pout as you attempted to move her closer.
You shut your eyes when you saw her face move closer to yours before you heard her whisper a no against your lips.
“C’mon, we’re gonna be late,” She said with a foxy grin. She took your hand in hers to lead you to her… sleek ass car, fucking shit!
The heartbeat in your ears nearly deafened you.
The restaurant was… impeccable. You thought Cheesecake Factory was fancy; They were nothing compared to this spot. It was dimly lit, crystal chandeliers hanging from the ceiling, tables draped in a black cloth, marble plates, candles, bottles of champagne… This is wealth!
Ellie hadn’t let your hand go the entire car ride, all the way up until you reached the front desk to confirm your reservation. You both were led to an exclusive spot on the second-floor outdoor balcony so that the two of you were alone. You teared up at the sight in front of you.
Your small section was filled with lit lanterns, the decorative trees around your table wrapped in fairy lights, and your table was surrounded with rose petals. There was even a small flowerpot with an evening sun sticking out of it. The gesture was so simple, but your eyes watered with gratitude. You couldn’t believe she organized this for you.
“Like it?” She sounded so nervous next to you. You turned to face her and nodded with a sniffle.
“Such a crybaby, jesus,” she mumbled with a shaky laugh, reaching towards a napkin on the table to hand to you. You dabbed your eyes, minding your liner.
“This is so sweet, Ellie, oh my god,” you watched her expression fill with affection and doting before she pulled you in to kiss your forehead as she led you over to the table.
She grabbed the back of your chair to pull it out for you with an over-exaggerated call of m’lady!, ushering you to sit down. You laughed wetly before you sat with a thank you!
“I wasn’t joking when I said you can get whatever you want,” She stated as she circled the small table to get to her seat. “I’ll buy this place out if you ask, don’t give a fuck.”
Fuckfuckfuck—!
“Ellie, this is prettiest place I’ve ever fucking been in, oh my god!” You said as you glanced around the room.
“Ehhh, it’s alright,” she said with a cocky smirk, shrugging as she shook her jacket off her shoulders. You tried not to look at her toned arms too closely as you rolled your eyes. “Want some wine?”
“Is… is that allowed?”
“… It is tonight, shit— “
A man dressed in a black shirt, slacks, and apron cut her off with an introduction as your server, bowing his head in greeting. You noticed how he kept returning his gaze to you as he described the specials, but you paid it no extra mind.
After Ellie asked for the most expensive wine, the server departed with a stiff nod in her direction. You noticed her intense gaze as she watched him leave.
“You okay?” you asked gently. She silently shook her head yes before reaching out to you to grab your hand, playing with your fingers.
Hm. That was weird.
Dinner was fucking incredible. Shrimps should’ve never been called the “roaches of the sea”, they tasted too good!
You were two glasses of wine in, —nursing your third—and you were starting to feel warm and fuzzy, a smile permanently painted on your face as Ellie went on about astrology; You didn’t know what the fuck a mercury retrograde was, but you supported anything that kept that impassioned look in her eyes! She looked so excited!
“—that fucker thought that because I’m a fucking Libra I wasn’t gonna say anything. Like, I literally have an Aquarius rising, you cunt! I’ll fuckin’ run you ov— “
“How’s everything?”
You looked to your side and made eye contact with your server, you sipped from your glass as you eagerly nodded, “Oh my god, it was fucking incredible. Who knew shrimps could be that goddamn huge! Are we allowed to say bad words in here?!”
He laughed while nodding, “Yes ma’am, you’re allowed to do whatever you want in here. Would you like any dessert with the rest of your wine?”
“Yes, please!” You got giddy at the mention of sweets, “I saw this chocolate molten lava cake lookin’ thing on the menu, but there was no ice cream on top. Can y’all… à la mode it?”
“Course we can, the Chocolate Fondant with ice cream!” He said as he pulled out his notepad from his apron pocket, scribbling before turning to Ellie. You noticed how tense she looked: she was sitting back in her chair with her legs crossed, her finger tapping on the arm rest, and her shoulders were stiff. You didn’t comment on it, but something was off. “And for you?”
She didn’t answer, and her lack of response concerned you. You reached over to gently place your hand on top of her… clenched fist on the table, “El? You don’t have to get a whole one. You wanna share with me?”
She hadn’t looked at you since he arrived, though: she continued to glare at the waiter, and when you turned to look at him, you saw him glare at her. What the hell?
“We’re gonna get that to go, actually.” She demanded, her gaze sharp like knives. You recognized that tone of hers instantly. She was this close to swinging. Oh no.
“I think that would be best. Cash or card?” He snarked. You whipped your head to glare at his tone.
You felt the table shake as Ellie moved to stand. You jumped up and stood in front of her—almost breaking your damn ankle in these heels— before she could lunge at the waiter, letting out soft warnings of nononono as you blocked her off. This was an elitist establishment; you’re not trying to get arrested! The waiter scoffed and stomped off.
You watched Ellie seethe in her chair as she pulled her wallet out of her slack pocket, throwing a stack of hundreds on the table before grabbing her jacket. She wrapped her hand around yours before pulling you towards the restaurant's staircase.
She harshly pushed the doors of the restaurant open to lead you to the parking garage. You weren’t having it, though.
“Ellie! Ellie, wait! What the hell just happened?” You asked, grabbing her wrist with your free hand to stop her pacing.
“Doesn’t matter— “
“Yes, it does!” You said louder as you yanked your hand from hers. You grabbed her flushed face in your hands, but she wasn’t looking at you. She just continued to whisper obscenities under her breath.
“Baby, look at me please, talk to me,” you said gently, rubbing her cheeks with your thumbs in an attempt to soothe her.
She finally looked down at you, before looking around again, “Let’s get in the car first, c’mon.”
You released her face from your grasp with a nod, letting her guide you.
She let out a deep sigh when she shut her door. You leaned over to rub her knee comfortingly.
She looked down at your hand as her expression softened, “M’sorry, I— “
You shook your head, “It’s okay, just, what was that? I’m so confused right now—”
“Motherfucker wouldn’t stop glaring at me, pissed me the fuck off,” She said between grit teeth. “Kept lookin’ at you, the fuck was he smiling so hard for anyway—“
“A-at me?”
“Yes, at you,” She said like it was obvious. Your brows furrowed in confusion. “The bastard almost broke his neck trying to show you the menu, ohhh of course I'll put ice cream on the chocolate fountain, sexy, I'll make sure the chocolate’s extra hot for you, like what the fuck— “
You couldn’t hold in your laughter at her exaggerated impressions, and you felt her relax as she scoffed a laugh out. You watched as she reached into her jacket pocket and pulled out her mint vape, pulling from it. She turned her head to blow the smoke away from your face. You leaned over the center console, grabbing the side of her face to turn towards you. You planted soft kisses to her cheek in between your chuckles as she shook her head, licking her chapped lips.
“Dinner was really good,” you said in between kisses.
She hummed before she sighed, “Sorry I ruined it, you didn’t even get your chocolate fountain.”
You giggled, “Fondant, baby.”
She grumbled out a whatever, making you laugh harder, “I had so much fun, El, love spending time with you.”
She turned her face towards yours to whisper, “Me too babe. Missed you so much.”
“You smell so fucking good,” you whispered against her mouth before you could think.
“Yeah?” You felt her smirk.
You hummed in agreement before pressing your mouth to hers. She instantly reciprocated, turning her body so she could place a hand on the back of your neck to pull you closer. The kiss deepened, her tongue swiping against your bottom lip before she sucked on it. You let out a whine when her tongue licked into your mouth. Tongueringtongueringtongueri—
But then she pulled away. You followed her mouth with yours, making her smile.
“Let’s go home.”
You nodded so hard, you almost snapped your neck.
The minute you stepped foot into Ellie’s place, her mouth was on yours.
Her strong hands were gripping your hips, your arms around her neck as you moaned in her mouth.
Jinglejinglejinglejingle—
You pulled away from her and turned the second you heard Duchess coming, her small, fluffy body descending the stairs. You pushed Ellie’s grabby, traveling hands away.
“Baby! Oh my god! I missed you so much!” You squealed in excitement as you rushed over to her as quickly as your heeled feet would allow. She started purring and rubbing against your leg. You bent over to pet her little head as she nuzzled into your hand.
“You really chose her over me, wow, okay,” Ellie called out from behind you as you heard the fridge open along with some clinking glass.
Of course, Duchess’s demons took over as she whipped her head off into the distance, seemingly shocked by something, before sprinting back upstairs. There had to be a ghost or something in this bitch!
You shook your head before standing straight to turn towards the kitchen. You noticed Ellie shamelessly staring at your ass before she slowly dragged her eyes up connected with yours. And she just took a shot of pure vodka. No chaser. Fuck.
“You always talk about me staring, look at you!”
“You’re lucky that’s all I did,” She said as she poured another shot for herself. “Was thiiis close to doing something outta pocket.”
“Oh yeah? Like what?” you challenged. Yup, that wine was still kicking.
“Shoving my tongue in your ass,” she said casually with a shrug before leaning over the counter, taking sips from her shot glass.
That familiar swirl in your gut quickly turned into a tornado. Your pussy clenched tight with want. Oh. Oh, wow.
“Oh.”
“Uh huh.”
Do something! Say something sexy, you’re boring her! your brain shouted.
“T-that guy was trash, huh?” you said with a sheepish laugh.
“…Yup,” she said deeply as she watched you. Every breath you took, every nervous twitch of your body with that nasty little glint in her eyes. The one you recognized from New Year’s. You stepped out of your heels and took a stumbly step towards the counter.
Confidence! Confidence, dammit!
“Can I have some?” You said as you pointed towards the bottle of Absolut.
She snorted a laugh before shrugging, “I dunno. Can you?”
“Shut up, gimme some,” you said as you folded your arms over your chest. Her eyes dropped to your tits as she licked her lips; She wasn’t moving to get your drink, she just stared at your pushed up breasts. Your manicured nails dug into your lacy sleeve, but you stood your ground. “Right now.”
She smirked at your tone before returning her gaze to yours, shaking her head no. She tilted her head condescendingly, lifting her brow at you. She was… fucking testing you! The goddamn nerve!
“Ellie.”
“Hm?”
“Pour me a shot!”
“Or what?” Her tone was so low, so relaxed. You could feel yourself getting so wet.
“Or m’gonna…” Come up with something, what the fuck! “M’gonna…uh… fight you!”
“…You’re gonna fight me?” She squinted her eyes at you, setting the small glass down on the counter before folding her hands.
“…Yeah! Y’know what?! I’m actually mad, you ruined our first date because you thought some guy was staring at me!” There was a shakiness in your voice, but you waved your arms in anger as you started pacing, your bare feet stomping on the dark tile. Along with soft jingles. Duchess was back! “I’ve never been stared at by a stranger in my life!”
Ellie wasn’t retaliating, but you noticed her jaw clenching. It made you clench, but you pressed anyway.
“And you didn’t even get me my dessert! Maybe I wanted him to stare at me! Maybe I wanted the attention, for once! For fucking on—!”
You hadn’t noticed Ellie circle the counter during your toothless rampage, but you felt a sharp tug of hair at the back of your head. Your neck forcibly craned up at her as you let out a wet gasp and pained whined, your fist clenching in your shock and… arousal. Your eyes met her dark, fiery ones, her lips slightly parted as her breath hit your face. You couldn’t stop fucking squirming, your thighs rubbing together to ease the sudden tightness of your core.
“Don’t start acting like a fuckin’ brat,” She said lowly between grit teeth. “You’re cute, keep it that way.”
Despite your eagerness for… her everything, you spat back, “S-Screw you, Ellie! You’re mean!”
“Know I am. Seems like you don’t, though.”
Your body involuntarily shuddered against her, and you mentally cursed yourself for being your biggest enemy! Your tough act faltered the second you put it on, and she smirked. “So fuckin’ easy, you wanna screw me, baby?”
You were easy. You were, you were, all for her! Fuck, you’d do anything she asked of you. You hadn’t even realized that your hands were slowly lifting your dress up on their own accord, bunching the fabric around your hips. She looked down and scoffed out a laugh, her grip in your hair tightening. You were moaning aloud already, what the fuck!
“Givin’ it up like that? Like a filthy slut?”
You nodded, your head filled with nothing but desire. Need. Instinct. You needed her to fuck you right now!
“Get up those fucking stairs, gonna put the baby in the guest room.” You could hear her jingling on the couch.
Her grip on you loosened as she backed away to walk towards Duchess with a soft hi, baby! missed you!
That was a fast switch up!
You turned towards the counter and downed the rest of Ellie’s discarded shot before you bolted up the steps. You never ran so fast in your life.
After Ellie took care of Duchess, you heard her tread up the stairs. You were sitting on the edge of her made bed with your hands folded in your lap and slick pooling your thong. She met your eyes from where she stood by the top of the steps.
“Look at you, already so well behaved,” she cooed at you. She sounded so demeaning, and you loved it. You were so embarrassed that you did.
You didn’t reply but watched her slowly walk towards you. Your breathing picked up and your heart pounded in your ears and head and clit—
“You used to be so fuckin’ sweet,” she said down at you, her lustful eyes twinkling under the green and blue hues in her room. She shook her head at you. “You get some alcohol in you’n start acting out? That’s what you wanna do?”
You slowly shook your head no, jutting your bottom lip out.
“Talk.”
“No, Ellie,” you could barely whisper.
“Take this off,” she ordered abruptly, her pointer finger pulling at the bust of your dress.
You stood at her command, pulling your arms out of your sleeves to pull the dress down your body. Was it always this tight?!
After wrestling with your garb, it pooled at your feet. You stepped out of it clumsily as Ellie took in your appearance. You watched her rake her eyes over your body, chuckling softly at your undergarments.
“These are cute,” she said as she snapped the band of your thong against your skin. It made you flinch… and wetter! “Give’em to me.”
Your breath hitched, curling in on yourself slightly.
She gently cut through your thoughts before you could gather them, “Don’t think about it, just do what I ask.”
You hesitantly hooked your thumbs into your underwear and pulled them down on autopilot, cringing slightly at the large wet spot on the little triangle. You pressed your thighs together to help alleviate some tension. It didn’t help.
“Get up there,” she nodded her head towards her bed frame. You sat on the bed to scoot up the mattress, but she stopped you, tightly gripping your ankle.
“Nuh uh, hands’n knees’ c’mon,” she scolded, “Wanna see that wet fuckin’ pussy.”
You clumsily got up onto your knees, hands sinking into her pine-scented blankets. Your erratic breaths picked up as you nervously looked back at her over your shoulder. Her expression softened slightly, whispering okay, baby? and you nodded enthusiastically. You never would’ve thought that you would enjoy Ellie being mean to you, but it was making you drip. She smirked and her gaze dropped to stare at your wet cunt, and it squeezed in excitement.
Be sexy! you thought. Make her want you!
You deepened the arch in your back slightly before you slowly crawled up her bed like a cat until you were faced with her black, detailed bed frame. You boldly shoved your face into her pillows, —you sniffed them very deeply— making sure to keep your ass up as far as you could.
“It’s like that?” You heard her scoff out. Your pussy twitched at her voice; You hoped she noticed.
You took a deep breath, “Is it?”
“Fucking smartass. Show me your pussy.”
Your body burned at her vulgarity; she had no shame! You whimpered before you reached your arms behind you to spread your asscheeks, both holes pulsing in excitement.
You felt her move onto the bed before you heard the ripping of fabric. She grabbed both your wrists in one hand, knotting your soaking wet panties around them before dropping your bound hands onto your back.
“ELL— “
You were going to scold her for ripping your new pair, but you were cut off by a stinging slap on your ass. You let out a pained groan in the pillow as your nails dug into your palms. Oh, you liked that. A lot. You wanted more. Fuck, you want her to hurt you.
“Gotta beat it into you, huh? That’s the type of shit you like?” Ellie said in a nasty timbre. “The only way t’get you to behave?”
You didn’t even get to lift your head to say yes! before another harsh slap landed on your other cheek and you let out a muffled squeal again. You knew your pussy was dripping onto her duvet in a puddle!
“You’re lucky you’re only getting my fucking hand. Fuckin’ slut.”
Why was the disgusting part of you wishing that she were using something more? Something that she could etch into your skin forever?
“E-Ell— “
“Be quiet.”
You shut up. You shut up so quickly.
“Fuuck, look at this fucking ass.” You felt her calloused hands massage both cheeks. She spread them, made them jiggle. Hit you again.
“Gonna let me play with it, babygirl? Hm? Gonna let me touch you how I want to?” She cooed out at you. You knew she knew your answer, but you nodded your sweaty head into her pillow anyway.
You felt her place a light kiss on the back of your thigh, right under your asscheek, before she got up. You heard a drawer slide open. Her… special drawer. Fuck, she was going to destroy you.
You craned your neck as best as you could
to watch as she pulled out some items. She set them on the dresser before she undid her chains, bracelets, and earrings. She took her turtleneck and slacks off, leaving her with mussed hair and a black sports bra with matching boyshorts. Her back, her fucking back, holy fuck—
Your thoughts were halted by a thud near the edge of the bed: you couldn’t see anything that she chose, but you saw that familiar shade of purple in the middle of the small pile.
“You comfortable in that position?” She questioned you suddenly, her softness returning.
“Umm… I like it, but my arms hurt a little, not gonna lie.”
She tsked at you, “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“M’sorry! I was really into the “don’t talk” thing— “
“If the don't talk thing makes you not tell me when you're uncomfortable, I’m not doing it. You gotta tell me when you feel off, I don’t care why or when it is,” She crawled up to you and undid the knot from your wrists before grabbing your hip to help move you onto your back. “Here, stretch out.”
You laid your head on her pillow as you extended your arms and legs, sighing in relief before you rested, limbs spread out on the mattress, “M’okay now.”
She hummed in acknowledgement, but she wasn’t looking at your face. She was staring at your wet cunt, and it made you squeeze hard. She licked her lips as more slick pooled at your hole before meeting your eyes. “I like you better like this actually.”
You nodded as you offered her your wrists, signaling her to tie them again with a wide grin.
She laughed at you before crawling up to pull at your bra wire, “Wait, take this off first.”
“Want you to do it,” you sighed out dreamily.
She hummed at you, moving up to straddle your waist, “I meant it when I said this was cute, by the way.”
“Exactly, was cute! You saw my panties for three seconds and ripped them to shreds,” you cackled out.
“I was excited, felt a little frisky!” She laughed with you.
You both slowed your giggles when she started rubbing them through the fabric, both hands massaging you through the cups.
Your eyes fluttered when your nipples brushed up against the lace, your back arching into her touch. She slowly bent down to take one of them into her mouth, the bulb in her mouth circling the peak. You gasped sharply, arching deeper as your hand flew to the back of her head. You gently scratched her scalp with your nails, and she sucked on it.
You jerked and your grip on her hair tightened, and she moaned around you. You moaned at the vibrations on your sensitive skin.
You hadn’t noticed her hands snuck under you to undo the clasp of your bra as she pulled away from you, discarding the flimsy cloth and tossing it somewhere.
“So much for a surprise,” you playfully rolled your eyes at her. Calloused fingers dug into your cheeks. Your smile dropped and your eyes fluttered as hers burned into yours.
“You’re not off the fuckin’ hook. Watch your mouth, you understand?” She said lowly, breath hitting your face. You nodded quickly.
“I understand,” you whimpered out.
“Atta girl, you're learning,” she patronized with a satisfied grin, patting your cheek a couple times. You blushed harder. “Gimme those hands.”
She sat up to reach for your destroyed panties, your wrists connected at the veins as she bound them together, much tighter than the first time.
You rested your arms on the pillow behind you. She adjusted them so that your head was propped up and your neck was supported. You poked your chest out more as your tits jiggled with your movements.
“I do anything you don’t like, you tell me.” She said in a hushed, but stern tone.
“I will, El, promise.”
“Okay,” she bent down to press a soft kiss to your mouth before moving off you and towards the pile of toys.
She grabbed one of… what is that?
It was a teal circle with a small hole at the top of it. Technology is so interesting—
“It’s clean, promise,” she must’ve noticed your furrowed brows and stare. You shook your head.
“S’not that, what… what is it?”
“A vibrator, babe,” she said simply.
“…Hm, never seen one like that before.”
“I hadn’t either. It was a gift,” she snorted before she clicked a button on the top of it. A low vibration filled the room, “It feels good, though.”
“What’s it feel like?”
“It’s supposed to feel like you’re getting head… sorta,” She said in thought, “It kinda does, like a little bit… wanna see if you like it?”
“Yeah, p-please?”
“That’s cute.”
She brought her free hand up to roll your nipples between her thumb and pointer finger, making you whine out and squirm and arch your back. Your eyes fluttered closed.
You felt the gentle vibrations on your inner thigh before they slowly trailed up with every twist and pinch Ellie gave your nipples. Your hips started bucking up before she brought her hand down to slap your pussy. You let out a loud moan as your eyes shot open to meet her dark ones.
“Stop moving.”
“C-can't help it,” you said with pout.
“Yeah, you can.”
You let out a huff, and she gave your cunt another wet slap, much harder. You squealed loudly as your legs squeezed shut.
“Don’t get a fuckin’ attitude.”
You whimpered a sloppy slew of apologies, but you knew she wasn’t hearing it as she pried your legs apart with one strong hand to slap it one more time before slowly rubbing your clit. Your hips jerked, but you forced them not to lift.
“You get so fuckin’ wet,” she whispered in awe, the sticky noises of your pussy filling the room as she played with it. “Hear that? Shit.”
“Missed you s-so much— “
“Know you did.”
You moaned her name, and she mockingly moaned yours back. It made you leak more.
You felt her spread your lips open so she could watch your clit throb and jerk in need. You looked down and saw her eyes glued to your cunt, her freckled cheeks tinted red and her wet, pink lips parted. She looked up at you, smirking when she met your intrigued, needy eyes as she placed the vacant part of the vibrator over your clit.
“Like watching?”
“Think so,” you shyly mumbled out.
And then you felt the vibrations on your soaked bud. You gasped as your eyes closed.
You felt her pull the toy away before she slapped your clit. You cried out as your eyes shot open to meet hers again.
“Watch me. Don’t close your eyes.”
You jerkily nodded; You watched her so closely. She kissed your clit before spreading them with her fingers to bring the open part of the toy to your clit, trapping it inside once more.
Your bud was surrounded by the pulsing sensations of the soft silicone and your eyes almost rolled back into your head, but you craved Ellie’s praise, her reassurance. You wanted to be good for her.
All you could do was moan and shudder and watch her.
“Feels good?”
“Feels s’good, baby—”
“Yeah? Want some more?” she said fondly with a filthy glare.
You mumbled out a quiet yeah, wa’more! in between your pleas.
She pressed another button on the toy, and the vibrations got stronger. Your cries got louder.
“Sloppy fucking pussy.”
The tight pull in your gut was building, but you needed more. You wanted to pull on your nipples so bad but you fucking couldn’t! Why did you want your hands tied so badly?
“El,” you barely got out between your heavy pants, “can you—mmh!”
“What?”
“T-ouch my tits? Please, m’right there!”
She snickered at you before reaching up to slap one of them, leaving remnants of your slick on the soft skin. That wasn’t what you were expecting, but you want more of that!
“Hit me more?” you keened, your eyes glossy.
“You asking?” she snickered, and you nodded so fast.
She shook her head at you, “You’re gross.”
For her! You’re so nasty for her her her—
You received another slap. And another. Then she reached up to dig her nails into your brown bud. You couldn’t stop your eyes from rolling back, it hurt so good.
“Shit, m’gonna cum!”
“Uh huh.”
All you could do was moan out warnings of s’coming! and I feel it! and yes! It built and built until you could taste it and—
… Everything you felt stopped. And Ellie was laughing. You were going to cry.
No… nonono—
“Told you to keep your eyes open.”
“E-Ellie, please no, I can’t— “
“Y’know, I was hoping you could follow simple instructions,” she cut you off as she moved towards the pile again, grabbing her… fat fucking dick, yes finally yesyesyes—
And lube… and an emerald green buttplug with a matching… remote? Oh, fuck—
“You don’t know how to fucking listen, do you?” She tossed the items next to you before grabbing your shaky thighs to pull you closer to her, your head dropping onto the soft mattress. You laid flat on your back as she loomed over you, your legs on either side of her.
She watched your twitchy hole produce more slick, “Don’t even need to get you ready, could just slip right in and fuck you how I want.”
“Wan’you to! Wann’it so bad— “
“Yeah? Want me t’use you?”
“Fuck yes! Yeah!”
“Keep these fuckin’ legs open, then,” she grabbed her dick and stood to step into it, adjusting the straps securing them around her hips. She climbed back between your legs as she intensely stared at your tits. She looked so deep in thought, brows furrowed with her bottom lip between her teeth; What the hell was her evil brain conjuring up?!
She gave your breast one last burning slap that made you cry out before grabbing the lube off the bed. You watched as she ripped the cap off, pouring some into the palm of her hand to bring down to her dick to massage it into the ridges. Your walls were squeezing so tight, your pussy begging for whatever she was about to do.
You almost flatlined on her bed when she straddled you, climbing up your body until her dick rested between your tits, the lube she smeared all over it transferring to your skin. Her thick, wet tip was almost touching your chin, and all you could do was gape at it before slowly blinking up at her, meeting her burning gaze. She bit her lip as she slowly tipped the bottle of lube, letting the thick consistency land your chest before she rubbed it into your skin with her cock. You felt so fucking dirty!
“Stick that tongue out,” she ordered deeply as she closed and tossed the lube bottle.
Your lips parted on command, your tongue slowly sliding between the two of them. She grabbed your face in a tight grip before letting a line of spit slip out of her mouth and onto your tongue. You felt it slide down your tongue before you happily swallowed
it. You lolled your tongue out, silently asking for more with pleading eyes.
She sneered at you before she did it again, getting it all over your chin and cheeks. You couldn’t stop the whimper that left your mouth. She let a blob out onto your tits, mixing with the lube.
But then you felt a fiery hand come down on your cheek, your head flying to the side as you let out a choked gasp. Your thighs clamped together on instinct as your walls quivered at the sting. You felt her place a hand on the side of your head, keeping it still as her nails dug into your scalp.
“G’na fuck these tits s’good,” you heard her groan out. Your cunt throbbed in desperation.
“Wan’ you to!”
“Beg me to,” she hissed at you.
“Please, baby, pleasefuck’em!—“
You felt her squeeze both your wet tits in one tight hand before she forced her dick between them, both of you letting out moans in between the squelchy noises from your bodies.
Her grip in your hair tightened as you heard her pleased sighs, her slurred curses, her whines of your name, why were you getting so tight, why did it feel like you were about to cum—
“Fuuuck, babygirl, feels s’fuckin’ good—!”
“E-El, please— “
“Yeah? What does my girl need? Wan’ some fuckin’ attention?” You hated how hard your core squeezed at her belittling tone. You nodded as fast as you could in her tight grasp.
“Not g’na til I cum, you’re gonna fuckin’ lay there’n let me do what I want, tha’s what you wanted right? Huh?”
More hot tears were falling to your hairline as you quietly sobbed and pleaded for her to touch your pussy, but she wasn’t hearing any of it. She released the grip she had on your head, but she just shoved her drenched, lubricated fingers into your mouth. Your eyes fluttered shut as you hummed around them, sucking them deeper.
“Gonna fuck that throat so hard one day, swear to god.”
You hummed and garbled pleas around them in excitement.
“Shit! Need that? Just wan’ something in that pretty mouth?”
You nodded, you kept nodding, you want anything she’ll give you.
“G’na fucking cum, all over that gorgeous face,” she gritted out as she snatched her fingers from your mouth. Her wet hand flew to your tits, pushing them closer together so that she could fuck her dick into the little hole she tightened.
“W-Wan’ your cum, daddy!” you encouraged her as you watched, you needed her to cum!
“Shit, baby, stick your tongue out,” she whined out as she grinded her dick between your tits. Your eyes opened and your tongue immediately started swiping across her tip whenever it came up to your mouth. Her hips jolted and stuttered on top of you as she watched you, and you watched her. You hurriedly sucked her rubber tip into your mouth and sucked sloppily like you were trying to milk her. You knew she couldn’t feel the suctions, but you saw her eyes roll back into her skull as she let out a loud moan. She was bucking her hips into her strap as her nails dug into your tits. You kept the tip in your mouth as she rode out her pleasure.
She looked so pretty and soft: fluttery lids, swollen lips, and her dotted cheeks flushed as quiet whines left her mouth. So pretty, she’s so fucking pretty—
Her tip suddenly slipped from your mouth as she scooted down your body.
“K-Kiss?” you asked softly, voice unsteady.
She didn’t say anything as she leaned down to connect your lips. It was light and careful, both of you breathing into each other's whines. She made sure to check on you, mumbling an okay? against your mouth. You whined out a yesyeah m’okay before you reconnected your lips.
You kissed for what felt like hours before she sat up to move off you.
“W-Wan’more,” you mumbled with pleading expression.
“Okay, babe.”
You watched as she scooted down, shuffling until she was between your legs. She held one of them up with a hand under your knee to press it to your chest, playing with your entrance with her free hand. You felt her slide a finger in and your mouth fell open, your walls clinging to her the deeper she prodded. You were stunned at how fast she found that spongy spot inside you, and you squeezed her tighter.
“Loosen up, can barely fucking move.”
You couldn’t do anything except wail out incoherencies about how fast you were going to cum, and you felt her slide another finger in.
“Nuh uh, hold it.”
“Can’t, Ellie, fuck— “
“Yeah you can, hold that shit.”
You tried you tried, but you couldn’t. All you could get out was a cry of stop, baby! stopstopstop before your peak washed over you.
But the pleasure left as fast as it came as she pulled out with a tsk, another slap landing on your pulsing clit. You sobbed her name, tears running down your temples.
“Couldn’t even hold it for a few seconds?” She scolded, and it made you and your pussy cry harder.
“Stop crying,” you felt her releasing the tight grip from under your knee to softly wipe your tears off your face. “Look at me.”
Your glossy eyes slowly peeled open, taking in the sight above you.
“Good?” she asked softly, and you nodded with a whimper of m’okay, El, I like it so much! please fuck me!
“Yeah? Babygirl wants some dick?”
“Yes! Pleasefuckmee—!”
You let out a groan when you felt her dick slap on your pulsing bud. You were spewing pleas and curses and cries of her name; you wanted her inside! Wanted to feel her so deep in your stomach!
You couldn’t help but lift your head to look down at her cock sliding between your folds, her thick tip nudging your clit with every thrust.
How were you about to cum from that alone? Your eyes were fluttering from the pleasure. You whimpered out a warning of your impending orgasm.
“You gonna cum from this? M’barely doing anything.”
You couldn’t speak, you just nodded. Your mind was hazy and racing with thoughts of her at the same time, your core clenching tight. Yeah, you were going to cum!
“Daddy—!”
“Fuuuck yeah, need me, baby?”
Your eyes rolled back so far back you swore you could see your brain shaking its head at you in disappointment, and you came so fucking hard. You felt her tip push past your spasming entrance as she quickly rubbed your clit with her thumb as it hit you. That stretch made you scream, and your head fell back.
“S’so big!” You couldn’t even register what you were saying, your burning orgasm taking over your mouth.
“Gonna be my good girl’n take it? Gonna make me proud?” Her voice sent another wave through your body as it shook in painful pleasure.
“Yeah, daddy, m’your good girl!”
“Then lemme in, love, c’mon,” she whispered out over your moans and groans and squeals. Your orgasm was still ripping through your body, your wetness dripping down your ass and onto the new puddle on the blanket. She was tearing you open with every shallow thrust, but you took every ridged, veiny inch like you were meant to.
“Good, baby? Talk t’me,” she said gently, halting her thrusts as she caressed your thigh.
“M’sti—m’stillcummimg—! “
She scoffed a wet laugh at you and went even deeper, “I feel it, squeezing the fuck outta me. Dirty fucking whore.”
You felt the balls of the strap resting against your ass as you slowly came down. She was all the way in, slowly pulling out only to push back in. Her tits were slightly jiggling in her bra every time she bottomed out. Your hands wriggled in the fabric; you wanted them in your mouth so bad.
“Wan’touch you, daddy, please?” you moaned out in a gasp as she fucked back into you, stretching you out.
“Touch me where?” She asked, thrusting deeper.
“Mmh! Your tits, please!”
She huffed smugly before fucking into you faster. She brought her hand up to her chest, squeezing one of them through her bra, “These tits?”
“Yeaah, fuck!” You could already feel another orgasm twisting in your gut at the painful stretch.
She mumbled out an uh huh as she slowly pulled the elastic up, her breasts slowly dropping out. She slowed her thrusts and brought her other hand to pull the cotton over her head, throwing her head back as both hands played with her nipples. Her moaning made you moan and fuck, you were in love!
“Lemme go, El, fuck!” you pleaded, your hands pulling at the restraints. How was such fragile cloth so resistant!
“Shit, baby, feels s’fucking good,” you watched her pull and twist them as she whimpered your name as she ignored you. She’d stopped thrusting to play with herself, only slowly grinding her hips into you, so you planted your feet on the bed to thrust your hips downward, clumsily bouncing up and down on her dick as you watched her.
She looked down at you and sneered, “Yeah? Wanna fuck me?”
“Yes, w’na make you cum, daddy.”
“Here, baby, gimme your hands,” you halted your movements bringing your arms to hers. She tore the knot in your panties and tossed them before slowly pulling out fully, a nasty shhlck! filling the room. You were so wet.
She leaned above you, reaching over your head to grab some pillows, setting them beside you. Her tits were in your face, so you slowly brought an inexperienced hand up to touch one softly. You gave it a gentle squeeze, bringing your other hand up to rub into the other. She let out a satisfied sigh of your name. You leaned up, boldly taking a soft nipple into your mouth. You sucked at it softly as your eyes fluttered shut, swirling your tongue around the sensitive skin.
“Shit, tha’s so good,” she moaned out before pulling at your now sweated out hair. You gave her one last hard suck before your head fell back on the bed, her mouth instantly connecting with yours in a spit-filled, smacking kiss. Her tongue was sliding all over yours before you sucked it into your mouth, making her moan into your mouth. She brought her hand up to wrap around your throat, gently squeezing the sides. She pulled back with a look of concern on her face, grip immediately loosening at your whimper, but you brought a hand up to cover hers on your throat, squeezing tighter. Your eyes nearly crossed when she hummed with a knowing smirk, pressing her middle finger and thumb into the sides again. She pulled away, licking your bottom lip before bending down to whisper in your ear.
“Turn over.”
You stumblingly flipped onto your stomach as she shoved two plush pillows under your hips to support them, even though you were poking your ass out towards her anyway. You felt her slap it playfully before kissing it.
You felt her hands pulling your cheeks apart like she told you to do to yourself earlier. You felt her staring and it made your heart beat faster.
“Okay, El?”
“Mhm, just looking.”
You looked at her over your shoulder, “You can… um… y’know?”
“No, I don’t know,” she snickered.
“What… what you said earlier?”
“What’d I say?”
“About me! The thing you said!”
“Want me t’eat your ass?” She said in between kisses on your cheek. She was grinning so hard.
“…Y-yes?”
“Then ask me.”
You looked forward with a harsh sigh, “You’re so annoyi— “
A tight hand grabbed your hair to pull your head back roughly. You let out a pained moan at the ceiling before you felt her lips at your ear, “What’d I tell you about that fuckin’ mouth?”
You instinctively pushed back on her with a whine of m’sorry daddy!
“No, you’re not, you keep talking shit’n it’s pissing me off. I’ve been trying to be nice t’you.”
Nice?! She almost made you black out with one orgasm!
You didn’t have a response, but your eyes actually did cross when you felt a thumb prod your ass.
“Should just shove m’dick in here, huh? I bet that’d get you to shut the fuck up,” she spat out and your back arched deeper at her proposal.
You felt another glob of spit land on your other hole, her thumb immediately circling it before popping the tip of it in. You let out a loud moan at the intrusive sting.
“Been wanting me to fuck this ass since I said it, haven’t you?” She rasped at you.
“Yeah!“
“Yeah!” She mocked you in a squeaky tone. “You’re disgusting, who woulda thought you would like this type of shit.”
Her thumb was fucking in and out of your hole as fast as she could manage. You shouldn’t like how much it hurts, that burn shouldn’t be making your orgasm build up again.
She let your hair go and your head flopped onto the pillow in front of you. Your nails dug into it when you felt her dick line up at the entrance of your pussy before she shoved it in. You let out a muffled shout.
You didn’t have a chance to adjust before she started fucking into you hard. Squelchy noises, slaps of skin, and your screams of pleasure immediately filled the room, her headboard knocking against the black walls. It was so fast and hot and made you feel cheap, and you fucking loved it. It made you feel desired.
“This is what you wanted me to do in that fuckin’ closet?”
“Yeah, daddy, fuck!”
“Wanted me t’fuck you up? Make you m’fucking bitch?”
“Uggh! El—!”
“Shouldn’t even be fucking you in this bed,” She groaned out, grinding her thumb deep into your ass.
“Should’ve bent you over that dinner table, right in front of that fucker.”
The imagery of Ellie fucking into you in front of your asshole of a waiter, making you scream out in front of everyone eating and drinking, claiming you as hers so that they know who you belong to made you see white. You bit down on the pillow in front of you as bursts of wetness left your cunt and splattered onto your thighs, the pillows, and Ellie’s dick. But she didn’t stop, you felt her go faster. Hit deeper.
“M’cu-mming!” you screamed, shouts of prickling pleasure muffled by the material in your mouth.
“Yeah? Tha’s making you cum? Wanna get fucked in public like a whore?”
“D-ahh! Fuckme!”
“Baby’s so stupid for this dick,” Her tip was hitting your fucking cervix and it hurt so good. You were about to cum again! “Who’s pussy is this?”
“S’your pussy! S’daddy’s pussy!”
“Keep sayin’ that, s’gonna make me cum so hard,” she groaned out, her thumb leaving your ass and ripping the pillows from underneath you, your hips dropping onto the bed. You felt her push back into you, her chest on your back as she grinded deep into you. Her arm came around your neck, your throat right in the crevice of her elbow as you let the pillow fall from your mouth. Your nails were digging into the covers as your cunt gushed on her.
“You’re getting so fucking wet. Like when I fuck you up? Treat you like shit?”
“Yeah yeahyeah—!”
“Make me cum, babygirl,” she whispered in your ear. “Fuck me back, c’mon.”
You pushed back onto her as best as you could as she grinded forward, even though it was quick and sloppy and desperate. She started moaning out fucks and like thats and all you could mumble out was slurry s’yours, daddy! because you knew she liked it. Her voice on its own was getting you there.
“Fuck, m’gonna fucking cum— “
“Uh huh! Cum in me, daddy pleasepleaseplease!” you squealed out in dazed excitement. You want her cum you want her cum!
“Fuuuck, babygirl, s’coming—!”
“Please make my p-pussy sloppy?” you could barely get your pleas out as your mind fogged. You couldn’t even bring yourself to feel embarrassed at your eagerness for her cum, and by the way Ellie shouted your name in your ear as her body shook on top of yours, she must’ve somewhat liked it? Right?
Your second thoughts quickly died as you fucked back onto her, helping her ride out her orgasm. She was crying out as her nails dug into your shoulder, and the sharp pierce made you cum again! You let out babbles of her name in your pleasure. You were both messes in each other's arms, you pushing back while she pushed forward, trying to make it last as long as you could before it died down.
You let out wet groans as she grinded you both to the ends of your orgasms, and you collapsed.
You felt a light kiss on your shoulder before Ellie gently pulled out of you, falling onto the bed so that you were side by side. You both tried to catch your breath in your exhaustion.
After minutes of heavy breathing and light caresses from Ellie, you reached under to grab the object that was digging into your side. When you saw what it was, your eyes widened, and stomach twisted.
You heard Ellie laugh softly next to you, “We didn’t get to use it.”
You paused as you stared at the buttplug that she’d thrown on the bed, the faux emerald at the end of it shining under the green fairy lights.
“It’s pretty,” you said in a hoarse whisper.
“Mhm,” she nodded. “Feels good, too.”
Your toes curled.
“What’s it feel like?”
She smiled, “You sound cute when you ask that.”
You shook your head and grinned shyly, “I’m just curious, I assume it’s… nice, or whatever! People on Twitter always talk about it.”
“Yeah, it’s really fucking nice.”
“Have you used it?” She nodded.
“Course I have, used all of ‘em.”
“Tell me what happened!” you said, dropping the toy on the bed before giddily flipping onto your side to face her. It made her giggle; You loved that sound.
“I was… like in this sex shop in Cali, and the cashier was like ‘heyyy, your orders over a hundred dollars, you can get a free item, blah blah blah’— “
“Not that, you bonehead! I mean when you use it!” You both let out loud laughs.
Her smile dropped slowly before she whispered, “Came really fuckin’ hard the first time I tried it, like… really hard. Swore I saw god.”
Your core squeezed in intrigue. You listened closely as she continued, “Like, I was still cumming even after I switched it off. There was a giant puddle on the floor when I finally stopp—.”
“Ellie?” you softly cut her off.
“Yeah, honey?”
“Can you… will you… I wanna try?” you said as your face burned, hoping she would accept your poor proposal to take your… other virginity.
You watched a sly grin slowly grow on her face.
“Lemme go check on Duchess’n smoke.”
You nodded slowly with a fluttery blink.
It was almost midnight, and you were laying next to Ellie on her couch in her Lauryn Hill shirt as you nursed a bottle of water. You watched as she exhaled the smoke from her pre-roll.
After chasing Duchess around the kitchen and living room, you both covered her in kisses before filling her food bowl and shutting the guest door as she ate.
“Such a nice view,” you mumbled as you gazed out the large window. You’d never been fond of the city: you always appreciated the stillness of your town, the close community where everyone knew each other, but the scenery in front of you almost makes you want to change your mind. It was always so lively and bright, even in the darkness.
“Right? When I first moved in, I slept in front of the window for weeks. The noise helped me sleep a bit better and the lights are pretty,” She said quietly before taking a puff. You listened and watched as she exhaled the smoke. You sat your bottle on the floor before speaking.
“Can I try?”
“You know how?” She asked impishly with a raise of her brow as the remnants of her puff left her mouth and nose.
“Fuck you! I know how to smoke, I just choose not to!”
“Right,” she said with an eye roll, gently tapping the ashes off on the ashtray in front of her before passing the joint to you.
You propped yourself up on your elbows before taking it between your thumb and pointer finger, watching the smoke leave the lit end before sticking it between your lips. You only inhaled for a couple seconds before pulling it from your mouth, softly coughing.
You slowly turned your head to look at her for approval, finding that she was already watching you. Her hair was still damp from earlier, her lips were swollen, and she was still in her boyshorts.
“Meh. Still a fucking rookie,” she said in a light tone as she wet her lips. You shoved her shoulder with yours, making her laugh.
“That strain’s supposed to make you horny,” she whispered, attempting to grab the joint from you. Something nasty curled in your gut at her tone, mindlessly bringing the joint back to your lips and inhaled some more before she could snatch it. You held it much longer than the first puff before choking on the carbon, making her laugh at you. You felt her pat your back gently through your coughs. You passed it back to her and she took it with a shake of her head.
After she smoked her joint down, she bolted upstairs, swiftly returning to the couch with full hands.
You flipped onto your back as she pressed the button on the buttplug remote, and it immediately started pulsing. She smirked down at you.
“There’s a couple settings, we can try ‘em all and see which one you like the most, ‘kay?”
You nodded eagerly as she switched it off and threw the toy on the couch next to her dick and flavored lube. She straddled you, grabbing your face in both hands to connect your lips in a soft kiss. You hummed into her mouth before she pulled away.
“Lemme give you head first, though.”
“S-sure.”
She hummed before smacking her wet lips onto yours. She planted wet, sucking kisses on your jaw, neck, and shoulder before she moved down your body. She lifted the shirt you had on just under your tits before she went crazy on your clit. She was flicking and licking and sucking between your legs as your fingers ran through her soft hair to pull her closer. Your moans and noises of your pussy as she fucked you with her tongue and fingers filled the entire first floor of her home. You came so quickly on her tongue, squeezing the muscle and fingers in a bone-crushing grip. You could tell she liked it as much as you did by how she moaned into your cunt.
After you came down, Ellie instructed you to hold your legs up so she could see your ass. They were pressed to your chest, both your arms tucked into the crevice of your knees as Ellie prepped you for the toy.
She’d rubbed some of your cum in before she spat on it, and now she was drenching her fingers and opening in the lubricant as you watched.
“Just relax, ‘kay?”
“Yeah,” you nodded. You were a bit nervous, but your walls were clenching with want.
She nodded before gently rubbing your drenched hole with her pointer and middle finger, making you sigh. You felt her slowly push a finger in and you immediately started to squirm. Your body was so hot already.
“Okay?” She asked you gently.
“Yeah m’good,” you said in a wanton sigh.
She grinned before kissing the back of your thigh. You felt another finger at your entrance before a burning sensation took over when she slowly pressed it in, and your head dropped onto the cushion in a choked gasp.
“Yeah? You like this shit?” She asked snarkily, but shock was evident in her voice.
“Y-yeah, El, like it!”
“So fucking cute, gonna fuck this ass so hard,” she whispered out, grinding her fingers deeper before pulling them out to squirt more lube on them.
She slowly pushed them back in and the lack of resistance made your toes curl.
“Do me a favor?”
“M-mhm?”
“Get that nice’n wet for me,” she said, shoving the emerald plug in between your twitchy fingers. You gripped it tight, releasing the hold you had on your legs so you could spread them. You brought your free hand down to your drippy cunt to spread the lips, exposing your clit. You slowly dragged the toy up and down your folds, a quiet, squishy sound joining the already sloppy noises in the room from Ellie’s fingers in your ass.
You could see her watching with a blush on her face, licking her lips as she prodded another finger at your clenching opening. You could feel the stretch more as she slowly popped the tip of it in, so you distracted yourself. You propped yourself on one elbow to bring the plug down to the entrance of your cunt, slowly fucking it into you. The silicone ridges dragged on your walls, and it made your eyes roll as you moaned softly. Ellie let out a shocked moan as she watched you fuck the plug in and out of your pussy. She leaned forward to spit on your clit, and you brought your shaky hand down to rub it. She mumbled curses out.
“Thinking about me fucking this pretty pussy? Wan’me t’split you open again?” She hummed out messily. She was just as fucked up as you were, and it made you squeeze.
“Yeah, daddy,” you moaned out softly, fucking the toy into yourself faster as Ellie fucked three fingers into your ass. “Shit!”
“Uh huh, nasty slut, look at you milking that fuckin’ toy.”
You picked up the pace of your shallow thrusts and she matched you, fucking even harder into your ass. You brainlessly brought your wet fingers up to your tits, roughly grabbing at both your nipples in attempts to mimic Ellie’s hands on you. You felt the familiar pull in your gut, but it was so much stronger, and you knew it was going to hit you hard. You were going to cum so quick!
“Ellie,” you could barely get your squeaky warning out, “Thi-think m’gonna, g’na make a m-ess!”
“Yeah, wan‘it baby, make me wet— “
“M’gonna—!”
You cut yourself off with a sharp gasp as colors exploded behind your eyelids, the hand at your tits slamming onto the cushion to dig your nails into it. Your shouts of pleasure overtook the sputtering sounds of wetness that shot out of you. You pulled the toy out and rubbed quick circles on your clit with it, making you release more juices all over Ellie’s expensive couch. She didn’t even seem to care with how hard she was still fucking your ass, whispering nasty curses at you, talking you through it, calling you sloppy, calling you hers. Your legs were trembling as both holes quivered in release.
Your sprays were starting to die down with the circles on your clit, Ellie’s fingers slowing.
Your eyes slowly peeled open, and you were met with her… high ass ceiling! You smiled as you felt her place kisses all over your thighs.
“Tired?” she mumbled out against your knee.
You slowly shook your head when you regained your ability to move.
“Wan’more.”
And she smirked.
Ellie moved you onto your stomach, —if she kept fucking you like this, you were going to die! — your face shoved into her cushion so you were surrounded by her scent. Your ass was, once again, propped up on Ellie’s expensive fucking pillows that you were about to stain with your sopping cunt, but neither of you cared. She was lubricating the plug from behind you, the gooey noises from the slippery liquid filling your ears.
You should’ve never hit that fucking aphrodisiac of a joint when she passed it to you: you never wanted to have sex so fucking bad in your life. You just lost your virginity a few hours ago; What’s happening to you?!
You couldn’t think of anything except Ellie and cumming and Ellie’s cum! You wanted her cum inside you so bad, you want to drown in her with every chance she’d give you—
“Ready, baby?”
“Yes, daddy, m’ready, need it s’bad,” you muffled into the cushion, your cheek squished against it. You sounded so… far away.
“Listen t’you, all floaty,” she murmured. You could hear her grin through it, it made your toes curl, “Feelin’ good?”
“S’good, daddy, fuck me please?”
“…Look at me, babe.”
You used all your energy to lift yourself up onto your elbows turning your sweaty, thoughtless head towards her, gazing over your shoulder and into her gentle, concerned eyes. She’s so beautiful—
“Baby?”
“Hm?”
“Why're you smilin’?”
“M’happy,” you felt yourself grin harder.
“Yeah?”
“Mhm,” you nodded lightly. “W’na fuck.”
“‘Kay,” she nodded, her searching gaze still lingering on your face. “Tap my thigh twice.”
You reached a limp hand behind you, immediately following her instructions.
“You do that when you wanna stop, okay?” You nodded, you felt like a bobble head. You want her in your guts now.
“What're you gonna do when you wanna stop?”
You paused.
Then tapped her thigh twice. You dropped your head on the cushion again.
You felt her kiss down your back. You sighed happily.
She slowly rubbed your clit and you jolted, before pushing your hips back onto her fingers. She was planting gentle kisses all over your back and shoulders to relax you. You let out a whine at the feel of her lips on you.
Then you felt the silicone on your hole. You moaned into the cushion in excitement and anticipation, you needed it to pulse inside you so badly.
“What’re gonna do when you wanna stop?” She repeated, her breathing heavy.
You slapped her thigh a bunch of times. You needed her to know you wanted it. You needed this so badly! You needed to know she wanted you!
Then you felt her pop the tip of it inside you. You cried out in appreciation as your holes clenched tight, trying to suck the toy deeper into you. She was pressing soft kisses all over your spine as she slowly pushed it in. You hadn’t realized that you were grinding your clit into the soft fabric of the pillow under you.
“Such a good girl, taking it so easy,” You felt her push the last little part of it inside your ass before the little jewel at the end of it was poking out of you. It was so foreign, but you couldn’t help the satisfied sighs and soft cries as you pussy dripped all over her pillows and couch.
You felt her plant one more kiss at the end of your spine before you felt the vibrations stir in your ass.
“Fuck, oh god! M’—aah!”
“Yeah? Feels fucking good, doesn’t it?”
You didn’t even have the ability to think of an answer before you felt her dick poke at the entrance of your cunt, slowly sliding in. Every wire in your brain went into overdrive as the pulsing of the toy and her cock rattled your insides in unison. She was slowly fucking her dick into you, sliding in deep so her tip bumped into your cervix, making you let out a muffled shout into the couch cushion.
“Fuckmedaddywan’itharder—!”
Your quick babbles were cut off as she sped up her thrusts, both her hands planted at the end of your back so she could rock you back and forth on her dick. She was drilling you, your slick coating the balls of her strap. You felt yourself slowly drifting away, your eyes crossed in your head and drool spilling down your cheek. All you could think about was Ellie. EllieEllieEllie—!
“M’right here, babygirl, I gotchu,” she cooed at you as she dug you out and you went limp. You heard the gushy sounds of your pussy and fuck, you were going to squirt so hard you felt it in your toes—
You felt the vibrations in your ass increase and you let out shouts of bliss, her tip beating your cervix just how you needed with every thrust. For the first time in your life, your brain was silent: no doubt, no loathing, no anxiety. Just pure ecstasy. You felt so fucking full. Full of her and joy and love! You love her and you never wanted her to leave you again. You love her you love her—
“M’yours, daddy, promise!” Tears pricked at your eyes as that hot feeling grew in your stomach. Your heart was pounding, and you couldn’t think, you just rambled as pleasure and happiness and love rushed through you. You were about to cum, all over her, all for her—!
“Shhh, I know, baby, it’s okay— “
“Don’t wan’anyone else! M’yours, always yours!”
You don’t remember when, but Ellie had pulled out of you. And the vibrations stopped. But you were still riding that edge, this close to your peak. Your fists clenched tight, and your hips bucked back to meet hers even though she wasn’t there to catch them. You heard Ellie gently call out your name from your side as she rubbed your back in attempts to slow your fuzzy babbling, “Look at m— “
“Always loved you, daddy, always been you, m’yours, m’all you— “
You cut yourself off with moans of her name and incoherent shouts and sobs of love you so much! I love you! as your orgasm ripped through you. Your thighs trembled as colorful specs of glitter exploded in your vision. You heard yourself screaming out as wetness splattered all over you and the couch and everywhere, and it didn’t stop. Your euphoria was so strong, your clenching cunt spraying as your ass squeezed around the plug shoved deep inside you. You were just shaking and crying and cumming and cumming and cumming—
You don’t know how much time passed, but you were still shaking as tears rolled down your cheeks. You couldn’t feel the plug inside you and Ellie’s strap was gone: you were pressed against her bare chest, your tits pressed together as she held you close. She was rubbing your back as she pressed gentle kisses to the side of your sweaty head, gently humming in your ear. You slowly brought your arm up to limply throw around her waist. You couldn’t say anything.
“Hi, honey,” She barely whispered in your ear. “Can you look at me?”
You slowly shook your head. You felt her kiss your head again.
“S’fine, just breath, okay?”
You nodded again. And your eyes welled up some more.
She must’ve heard your sniffling because she immediately pulled back to gently caress your cheek. You tried to turn your head to hide in the cushion, but she wasn’t having it.
“C’mon angel, it’s just me, okay?”
You slowly redirected your gaze to hers, your vision blurry as you studied her features. You cried harder, sobbing as you nestled into her shoulder.
She didn’t press you after that, she only held you tighter. She whispered gentle shhhs and s’okay, baby, m’heres as you wept into her sweaty skin.
You know she heard your confession of your long-lasting feelings for her, and even though she didn’t seem upset with you, you couldn’t shake the embarrassment, confusion, and despair that overtook you.
But she held you. She held you so tight.
After your gasped sobs eased into soft whimpers and shaky exhales, Ellie guided you upstairs and into her bathroom, strong arms wrapped around your waist to steady your uncoordinated movements.
She lifted you onto the counter and pressed a soft kiss to your forehead before moving to the shower to turn it on. All you did was stare at her black towel hanging from the wall rack. You still couldn’t think.
You heard her shuffling around before she moved back to you, easily easing you off the counter and into the shower, making sure to place you under the warm water first.
You gaped at the droplets sliding down the shower wall and she rubbed the lathered sponge into your skin softly. She littered you with kisses the entire time: on your face, shoulder, fingers, anywhere she could reach. But you couldn’t move, and neither of you said anything.
After Ellie rinsed you off, she gently dried your coils and face while kissing your nose. You allowed her to wrap you in a towel, gently drying off the rest of your body as you looked off into nothing.
“C’mon, honey,” she whispered into your ear as she moved behind you, holding onto your waist and walking you to her bed to sit you down, her soiled blanket already discarded on the floor.
It seemed like everything was moving in slow motion as you gazed around her room: the lights were twinkling like fireflies, her fan in the corner of the room whirring like gusts of wind in your ears, the strings of the rug under your feet reminding you of clouds.
She softly called your name as she walked in front of you. Your legs fell open so she could stand between them, “Look at me.”
You took a deep breath before meeting her tender gaze. She cupped your cheeks, softly rubbing her thumbs into them, “You needa eat and drink something, okay? Want some water?”
You nodded.
“Is it okay if I leave for a sec— “
You shook your head quickly as tears filled your eyes at the thought of her leaving. You need her close, you need her here with you—
“Shhh, not gonna go, not leaving, I’m right here,” she comforted immediately, planting more kisses all over your face.
“Want some clothes?” You shook your head, and she nodded gently. She gave your lips one more kiss before ushering you to stand. She walked over to her dresser and grabbed her pine-scented lotion and ointment. She moved behind you, rubbing the soothing cream on your ass before moisturizing your skin, the pine surrounding you. You calmed down at the smell.
“Okay, baby, come lay down.”
She grabbed your wrist gently as she moved you to your side, telling you to lay on your stomach as she pulled a new blanket from her linen cabinet. You obeyed silently.
You were instantly surrounded by warmth as she tucked you into her forest-scented covers. You heard her shuffling behind you before she walked around to her side in a new pair of boxers.
She laid next to you, pulling you into her chest as you breathed her in, sighing contently into her skin. She smelled so fucking good! You grinned.
She must’ve felt it as she pressed kisses to your head, “What’re you cheesing for?”
You shook your head and grinned harder, nestling deeper into her neck. She laughed lightly.
“We’ll talk in the morning, okay?” She whispered out to you.
You nodded, eyes shut.
You dreamt of pine-filled meadows.
OOOOOOWEEEE alright bookies that’s it :p i already got ideas 4 the next part LOOOOOL so yeah gonna start writing that soon. hope y’all liked it and the wait 4 the real smut was worth it. lots to comeeee
hope its proofread enough lol i always think that it is n then i go back and see a bunch of errors
pt. 6
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the bad grammatically r is going so hard r, this series moves at a very fast pace
you were excited for college, you finally got away from your family, being able to pursue your dream. you also got to get away fom lee minho, your ememy from almost over a year ago. safe to say you hated his guts after you two been through countless arguements, physical fights, legitimate public embarassment. and when he stole the girl you wanted from you, the girl you fell in love with, who loved every part of you and who you could tell everything to, every insicurity, everything.
now you finally arrive to your dorm, you see a oddly familiar car. "im a bit early to be checking dorms so i should be fine." is what you think to yourself as you walk into admissions. "hello, i see youre a bit early, name please," the HR attendant says to you. "Y/N" you say with a little eagerness. "you signed up for a co-ed room correct?" the HR attendant says. "yes!" you say. "did you see who you were going to be roomed with? it was sent out in a email a few weeks ago." "no actually, i wanted to be surprised" "okay, i got you. lee minho." when you heard that name your whole world froze. you felt a chill on the back of your neck and you knees almost locked. "lee minho? did i hear that correct?" "yes maam, your roomed with lee minho" you wanted to throw up, cry, throw something. "okay, thanks" the HR attendant hands you your dorm key. "thank you again"
you dig into your back pocket to get your phone. you scroll and find the email that reads. "Dorm Selections - Y/N is paired with Lee Minho for one of the co-ed rooms 204 on the thrid floor of the right wing of the building. Any complaints should be made before the first week of the dorms opening. Please feel free to do so before the given date."
you didnt know what to do, you didnt want to be stuck in a dorm with minho for year or longer. You started to go to the front desk but they wouldnt be able to do anything about it because its past the date to change dorms. "fuck it" you mutter out as you walk to the elevator.
as you walk to your dorm, you feel a chill down your spine. you havent seen minho in about a year, after having a arguement and physical fight with him at your best friend seungmins party. you left the party with scatch marks, a black eye, and a pounding headache. he left the party with a bite mark and a fractured nose. you still have the scratch marks from the fight. you have one on your right chest and one your ass.
you get to your room and open the door. there you see him. it takes everything in your system to not just pounce on him and hurt him how he hurt you. "what the fuck are you doing here?" he says. "this is my dorm asshole" "no this is MY dorm you bitch" "did you not get the notification that we were dormed together?" "dont talk to me"
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the rest of the day was pretty quiet. neither of you wanted to interact given what happened last time you saw him. knowing that you havent eaten yet, you head out of your dorm to get something to eat from the drive-by close to campus.
when you come back, you realize that you dont have your key and that you locked yourself out. you knock on the door...no answer. you knock again...no answer. you knew that minho was up because you heard music faintly. you yell out minhos name, loud enough for him to hear but not lough enough to disturb your neighbors. he comes to the door, opens it, grabs you by your wrist and throws you to the floor behind him. "what the fuck was that for!" you exclaim out, holding the wrist that was harshly grabbed by minho. "you should be saying thank you, fucking ungrateful bitch." "why would i say thank you when you litteraly just grabbed me and threw me like i was trash." "probably because you are trash. you certainly look like it."
after saying that minho knew he srcrewed up. although you two hated each other,you two were best friends first, he knew you didnt really like your apperance the most so he made sure not to make any comments about that. you looked up at him like youve seen a ghost, with a tear falling down your eye and rushed into your room. "y/n" "dont talk to me you fucking scum bag" "im sorry, i didnt mean to say all of that" "i dont fucking care minho." you hear foot steps sounding further and further from your door.
authors note: the bad grammar, we dont talk about her
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good morning, friends! im exhausted and only got like four hours of sleep, but at least im (kind of) mentally prepared to revisit the episode, so (you probably know the drill by now), here’s all my commentary and thoughts and stuff from the episode!
i feel like its important for everyone to know that i made myself an ice tea at 11:30pm because i knew i wouldnt be able to survive the episode alone
(and dont suggest that the ice tea is the cause of the lack of sleep, if anything it’s the only reason i got to sleep)
i was very nervous in the beginning cos i was pretty sure photjanee wouldnt be homophobic but also what if she is
props to her for not asking tinn cos he was visibly nervous/afraid
and gun told gim and she didnt even say anything at first. she just looked so freaking proud, then hugged him and said “whoever you love, i love” and i love her so much she’s a freaking perfect mother
PHOTJANEE’S NEURODIVERGENT AND AWESOME HUSBAND who is still nameless IS SITTING NEXT TO HER SO HE’S GONNA SAY SOME HELPFUL AND SUPPORTIVE WORDS
“were you afraid to hear the answer” im sensing a recurring themeeee (if youve forgotten and somehow havent rewatched the show over and over again, in episode 6 gun kept saying he was afraid to hear the answer of who tinn liked)
“i think if he’s ready, he’ll tell you himself. give it time. time for tinn and yourself.” I LOVE THIS MAN
also side note: she’s really pretty
i smell a sponsorship
a canon printer sponsorship
theyre so subtle with their sponsorships
“by the way, this printer is so convenient, it can be used with any operating system, right?” NICE ONE GEM, REAL SUBTLE, NO ONE WILL KNOW
TIWPOR TINNGUN DOUBLE DATE STUDY DATE ONCE AGAIN
AND SOUNDWIN BEHIND THEM (and also yo and pat i guess)
tinngun are always reminiscent of patpran, but so much throughout this episode it literally felt like i was watching bad buddy
GUN FINALLY KNOWS THAT TIW KNOWS AND GUN IS LIKE ‘wait did you tell him’ AND TIW JUST GOES
“do you think this nerd would succeed in getting your love without my help”
AND HE’S SO ICONIC AND HE’S SO RIGHT AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OH MY GOSH
also rip four and tinn’s homosecuality, they have to pretend to date for this music video
also also WE GET TO SEE FOUR AND HER GIRLFRIEND AGAIN OMG I LOVE THEM
THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY
LOOK AT THEM AND THEIR IN-LOVE-NESS
cant wait for the homophobia this episode /sarc
“we just have to wait until the dinosaurs are extinct and humans rule the world” TIW LITERALLY JUST SAID WE HAVE TO WAIT FOR ALL THE BOOMERS TO DIE OUT AND THEN GAYS CAN RULE THE WORLD THIS IS FREAKING HILARIOUS
I CANT EXPLAIN IT, THEIR FACES ARE SO REMINISCENT OF PATPRAN AND MORE SO THAN USUAL
does- does this count as a first kiss
that was so sudden
um
help???
theyre so cute tho i love them
PROM DAY (looking back, how does so much happen in this one day)
✨gotta love being outed✨
GUN JUST TOLD THE BROSKIS
and por is, naturally, very excited
but also somehow very oblivious
i had a feeling yo knew already
apparently sound told win ages ago (when? idk man)
pat having a suspicion about it is actually very surprising
“you and you, what’s going on? you’ve been weird”
FINALLY THE SCENE OF THEM HOLDING HANDS AND SHOWING THE GUYS IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR WAY TOO FREAKING LONG
AND THEY BOTH LOOK SO FREAKING HAPPY
IM DYING
i need to ingrain every soundwin scene from this episode into my brain cos there’s so much of it and i want to see it all forever please
tis raining and theyre under an umbrella and soundwin did it first
okay so. it sucks that they were outed. and people shouldnt take photos of other people and then post it on social media because they can, cos thats an invasion of privacy and is not cool.
on the other hand, everyone seems thrilled by it and tinngun aren’t hurt by it happening so i guess its okay
in general tho people should not do this cos it could go very badly
but this is a bl drama not real life so its fine
I SPY WITH MY LITTLE EYE A NEUROSPICY GUY
they did the happy arms
and theyre sitting cross-legged on top of a table
i love you random side character
PAT AND POR BEING ALL HAPPY AND EXCITED IS HILARIOUS I LOVE THEM
“no one cares about people’s sexual orientation these days. its a new world. right, pumpkin??” GUI4HERIH4IIGU (note to past me: it gets worse. you’re gonna progressively die even more)
EW PEOPLE ARE MESSAGING PHOTJANEE SAYING TINN’S GONNA RUIN THE SCHOOL’S REPUTATION AND STUFF
...what series was it
did- did you watch bad buddy, photjanee
did tinn’s parents watch bad buddy
ive decided they watched bad buddy until proven otherwise
‘its down to us whether we’re as kind to our son as those in the series’ THIS MAN HAS THE WISEST KINDEST WORDS AND I WANT TO GIVE HIM A BIG HUG
tiw and tinn are actually really sad about kajorn leaving the student council which is slightly confusing (not cos i hate him, im finding it increasingly difficult to hate him, i just didn’t think tiw and tinn actually liked kajorn)
‘people are arguing whether it’s guntinn or tinngun’
...
im gonna say it
i have to say it
you cant stop me from saying it
soundwin did it first
(technically it was satangwinny vs winnysatang but thats not the point)
there i said it
hah
babes she’s known for months
(but yes absolutely if you’re comfortable telling her and you think you should, go right ahead :] )
i hate this teacher
i would like to punch him please
luckily i know, thanks to the preview last episode, that he does, in fact, get punched, so it’s all good
KAJORN IS IN THE ROOM WHILE GUN IS DISTRESSED
I REPEAT, JORN IS THERE
yay tinn is there with gun while he cries
thank you tinn for existing
NO
GO AWAY TEACHER
DON’T ENTER THE ROOM
"im sorry, i was just joking around with my friend, i didnt mean to insult you" yeah, okay, well thats only part of the problem. other problems are: a. the fact that you had to say such a horrible thing in order to joke around with your friend. if that's the kind of humour your friend has, that person should not be your friend, unless it's also your humour, in whcih case, that isnt a sincere apology. b. it's not just that you insulted gun. you also insulted an entire community of people, of students, of human beings, who just want to exist and live as people doing what they want to do. you cant say something homophobic and then only apologise because it hurt one person close to you. you say something homophobic, and then you apologise - in a way that you GENUINELY MEAN - and say you had no intention of hurting so many people, including gun. or, alternatively, dont say the homophobic thing in the first place. c) you’re a freaking TEACHER. a TEACHER is there to SUPPORT and CARE for ALL of their students. a TEACHER should not be saying terrible things where ANYONE could overhear. if a TEACHER cannot be supportive for ALL STUDENTS, then they should not be a teacher. (im a huge defender of teachers cos theyre human beings with lives and families and hobbies and theyre more than just the adult human that tells you 2 plus 2 is 4. but i am also a huge defender of students cos theyre human beings and also children and theyre still developing. and i am especially a defender of students and an offender of teachers when the teacher clearly hates children or isnt a good teacher or should not at all be a teacher. so this isnt me hating all teachers, i love teachers, i could talk about how unappreciated they are for hours. but i cannot stand it when a teacher behaves the way this teacher did. i hate it so freaking much.)
THE TEACHER WAS “SHOCKED” COS GUN IS A “ROCKSTAR” SO THE TEACHER “THOUGHT YOU WERE MANLY”
THATS NOT AN EXPLANATION NOR IS THAT AN APOLOGY
GENDER AND SEXUAL IDENTITY ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FREAKING THINGS
AND EVEN THEN, GENDER AND GENDER EXPRESSION ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FREAKING THINGS
LIKING MEN DOESNT MAKE SOMEONE ANY LESS ‘MANLY’ SO STFU AND GET FIRED ALREADY
FREAKING YES
GOOD
HELL YES
KAJORN PUNCHED THE TEACHER BEFORE TINN COULD
THIS IS EVERYTHING I COULDVE ASKED FOR OR NEEDED
I LOVE IT SO MUCH
I LOVE KAJORN SO MUCH
IM FINALLY ALLOWED TO NOT HATE HIM AND IM VERY GLAD ABOUT IT
DAMN SOUND
I MEAN I AGREE BUT WOW I WASNT EXPECTING THAT
‘i HoPe YoU giVe A fAiR jUdGeMeNt oN tHiS cAsE’ bro its not court
and absolutely she’ll give fair judgement
shes freaking awesome and i love her
also what does probation mean
“don’t use violence to solve problems. do you understand?” okay, yes, im 100% on board with you, i completely agree, but, hear me out here: homophobia.
I LOVE PHOTJANEE SO MUCH
COLD AS ICE SHE GOES “if you’re not satisfied with my judgement, write a complaint. but dont forget to add every detail truthfully”
SHE’S SO ICONIC
TRULY A SLAY
“LET GO OF MY SON. as principal, all i can do is submit a report regarding your behavior to those in authority. but as a mom, MY SON CAN LIKE WHOEVER HE LIKES. STAY OUT OF IT. if i hear anything filthy from you again, your penalty will go far beyond this” I FELT HER ANGER
I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY SOUL
SHES FREAKING AWESOME
and kajorn looks so happy and content
i love him
PROM TIME AND THE STIMS ARE STIMMING REAL HARD RN
WHY AM I CRYING WHILE LISTENING TO YOU’VE GOT MA BACK? THIS ISN’T A SAD SONG
C O M E C L O S E R
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH POR
OOOOO NEW SONG
SOUNDWIN CHEEK KISS
IM LITERALLY CRYING THEYRE SO CUTE
(note to past me: it’s gonna get worse)
aww gun’s in the audience singing directly to tinn this is so cute
GRBRHKBGRIUBJROBUR
I WOULDVE BEEN CONTENT WITH JUST SOUND KISSING WIN BUT IM NOT COMPLAINING
I AM THE OPPOSITE OF COMPLAINING
GIREBVIRUB
TINN AND GUN ARE GOING ON THE STAGE TOGETHER HAND IN HAND
HOW IS THIS SO FREAKING PERFECT
AND SOUND’S GOT A GUITAR SOLO COS HE’S AWESOME LIKE THAT
HAPPINESS
BIG HAPPIES
MUCH OF THE VERY HAPPINESS
their hugs always look so comfy
someone in the audience asked if theyre real and gun said nothing but hashtag #MySchoolPresident and it’s still so funny to me
its like theyre telling us the watchers
like USE TEH HASHTAG, PLEASE
and we’re like WEVE ALREADY BEEN DOING THAT, CALM DOWN
ew old teachers
shut up with your judgy faces
no one cares
YAY FOR YOUNG PROGRESSIVE TEACHERS WHO DONT CARE WHAT THE BOOMERS THINK
cos, as tiw said, the boomers will die out soon and then gays can rule the world
can the episode just end here
i dont want to go through the emotional turmoil of whats coming
cos i know its coming
there’s gonna be a graduation scene
and im very scared
my mentally ill butt can never be okay for graduation scenes
and yet my mentally ill butt keeps consuming media set in the senior year of high school
DAMN THIS ENDING IS GONNA BE LONG
31:48 MINUTES
STRAP IN YOUR SEATBELTS COS WE’RE GONNA BE IN FOR ONE EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER
NO
WAIT NO LET THERE BE MORE
JUST ONE MORE
OR TWO
OR AN ENDLESS AMOUNT
DON’T LET IT BE OVER
PLEASE
“its the last day of our high school lives.” ACK SHOOT FREAK FRENCH GUSTAV AND SHOELACES AND TURTLES AND FREAKING SHOOT NOODLES WHAT THE FLIP
AH SHOOT I FORGOT ABOUT KAJORN BEING A YEAR YOUNGER THAN THEM
HE HAS TO CARRY ON THEIR LEGACY WITHOUT THEM
HES FREAKING ALONE
IDEK IF HE HAS ANY FRIENDS
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
ooo we’re gonna get another pool scene soon
NO STOP IT WITH THE SIGNED SHIRTS I CANT TAKE IT
‘no one ever asks if i can sign their shirts :[’ ‘sign my shirt’
‘ILL WRITE DOWN WHAT I FEEL THAT IM TOO AFRAID TO SAY’ I FREAKING LOVE THEM
WAIT
SHOOT
I KNOW I ASKED FOR IT BUT I DIDNT EXPECT THEM TO ACTUALLY DO IT
IM IN SHOCK
LITERALLY CRYING
WHAT THE FLIP
HOLY FREAK
NO WAY
THIS IS THE END
THAT’S IT
IM DEAD
GONE
DECEASED
THEY FREAKING KISSED
RIGHT THEN AND THERE
PROPERLY KISSING
BEFORE TINNGUN
WHAT
IS THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENING
OW I PINCHED MYSELF
I LITERALLY CANT BELIEVE IT
“i wont let you kiss first you barstool” HOW ARE THEY SO- GJRBGIKRB
BUT ONCE ISNT ENOUGH
OH NO, THEY HAVE TO KISS AGAIN
JUST TO MAKE SURE IM DEAD
THEY ALREADY STABBED ME A COUPLE TIMES
THEN THEY KISSED AND THEY SLICED ME IN HALF WITH A REALLY COOL SWORD
AND NOW THEYRE SLICING MY HEAD OFF JUST TO MAKE SURE IM DEAD
‘STOP TRYING TO LOOK HANDSOME IDIOT BECAUSE ITS MAKING MY HEART SO WEAK’ I CANT WITH THESE TWO
I LITERALLY CANT EVEN PROCESS THAT THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED
SURELY IM DREAMING RIGHT NOW
THERES NO WAY THEY ACTUALLY FREAKING KISSED
AND TIWPOR RIGHT AFTER??? IT’S TOO MUCH POWER
AWWWWWW NOOK AND YOOOO
BUT POOR PAT IS COMPLETELY LONELY
PLS LET PAT NOT BE LONELY FOREVER
THEY BETTER GIVE PAT SOME HAPPINESS
NO?? THEYRE JUST GONNA CHANGE THE SCENE LIKE THAT??? OKAY THEN????????
no but why wasnt tiwporpat an option
they couldve gone down the polyamory route
as much as i love poking fun at pat being lonely, i want him to be happy, and tiwporpat makes sense
(i must also say that patjorn also makes sense and i wouldnt have been mad if they went down the tiwporpat route or the patjorn route. theyre both amazing. but no, they went with pat is lonely forever and its really freaking sad. thanks guys.)
OH TINNGUN POOL SCENE
POOL SCENE NUMBER... IDEK AT THIS POINT
they should kiss btw
GUN WROTE #MYSCHOOLPRESIDENT ON TINN’S SHIRT AND TINN WROTE ‘APPROVED BY THE SCHOOL PRESIDENT’ ON GUN’S SHIRT AND ITS SO FREAKING PERFECT
IT COMES FULL CIRCLE SO BEAUTIFULLY
THEY LITERALLY COULDNT HAVE WRITTEN ANYTHING GREATER
I FREAKING LOVE THIS SHOW
tinngun still have not kissed
NO PLS I CANT TAKE IT WITH THE HEARTFELT SPEECHES
HOW DO YOU CRY SILENTLY
NO THEYRE PLAYING ONE LAST SONG TOGETHER
STUFF YOU
I LITERALLY DONT KNOW IF IVE EVER CRIED HARDER THAN I DID WHILE WATCHING THAT FREAKING FINAL SONG
tinn’s father is so neurodivergent i love him
OMG GUN IS ACTUALLY SITTING AT THEIR TABLE AND HAVING A MEAL WITH THEM
IT’S NOT IMAGINARY GUN
IT’S REAL GUN
THIS IS CRAZY
PFFFFFFT TINN’S DAD HELPED HIM WRITE THE SONG FOR GUN
THAT’S FREAKING HILARIOUS
OH MY GOSH THEYRE ABOUT TO KISS-
darn you gun and your bloody hand in the way
too many times
this has happened far too many times
just kiss
please
YES
GOOD
EXCELLENT
but also soundwin did it first
ANYWAY THAT WAS PERFECT
OH MY GOSH
IM NOT OKAY
(the funniest thing about me constantly saying ‘im dying’ or ‘im dead’ is that my fitbit hasnt been able to pick up on my heartrate for literally hours. like, since i started watching the episode. it just stopped working. and if your heart isnt beating, you’re quite literally dead.)
final thoughts / main takeaways from that episode (and therefore the whole show)
tinngun are very cute
tinngun are patpran variants (we already knew this but still)
tiwpor havent been dating the whole time but there was definite crushing for a very long time
pat is sad and lonely and pls let there be tiwporpat or patjorn at some point in the future
we need a sequel please and thank you
soundwin are freaking perfect
this show is perfection
im mentally ill
that teacher sucks
tinn’s dad is neurodivergent and i love him
photjanee is amazing and awesome and i love her
gim is the greatest mother and i love her
i love all of these characters way too much
and, last but not least,
soundwin did it first.
#my school president final ep#my school president episode 12#my school president ep 12#my school president#my school president the series#soundwin#winsound#tinngun#tiwpor#tiwporpat#tiwpat#patpor#patjorn#msp jorn#msp kajorn#tiwsonpor#satangwinny#winnysatang#markford#geminifourth#prom theepakon#nookyo#captain passatorn#aun napat#satang kittiphop#winny thanawin#mark pakin#ford arun#gemini norawit#fourth nattawat
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NEW COLOR PALLET TRIO INFODUMP AAUGH‼️‼️(art by nero mwamwa)
OKAY im genuinely gonna take huge insp off the movie because it just matches so well and it bridges missing concepts i needed for their lore AUGH OKAY so
• i'm reclaiming the idea that red gave jaide a torchic and named it chuy (it was named kaia but its CHUY NOW!!!) while i unfortunately cannot answer how did red acquire a torchic it's totally meant for her (maybe through trading with a hoenn local that happened to be in kanto at the time)
• before jaide left for johto, red and blue invited her to the safari zone in fuchsia city because they miss her and they want her to experience what it's like to catch pkmn (despite the pikachu incident that occured before) this allowed jaide to discover her talent - she's really good at catching pkmn, even better than both boys combined.
• so when she was prepared to leave kanto, she would at least have this newfound passion to try to capture, and her target is the johtonian pkmn. she's thankful they helped her find something special about herself. her parting words was hoping that she'd meet them and they'd become fully fledged trainers they aim to be
• skipping past the gen 3 to gen 6 events, we land on the gen 7 timeline, they're all adults now. blue is viridian city's gym leader,
jaide is professor oak and elm's designated professional catcher,
and red is the mysterious living legend and champion who later opened up to the public again thanks to blue.
• meanwhile - thanks to kukui, alola has been creating their own championship league which meant that it's still new. i like to think that the battle tree was also created at the same time and he needed "bosses" to facilitate the battle tree.
• kukui invites red and blue to become the battle tree bosses, to which red and blue agrees with. it's gonna have some sort of grand opening and this brings attention to people from the other regions to want to visit alola. i like to think bringing blue and red was a celebrity bait in some way, especially for red who's popular despite not showing his face around.
• at that same time, professor oak has a new job for jaide which was to capture all alolan regional forms of certain pkmn - she was given the funds to help her go travel to alola. blue would know about this and he tells her to come visit the battle tree because he and red will be there as well. (AHEM AHEM LIKE HOW MANOLO IS GONNA HAVE HIS FIRST BULLFIGHT AND IT COINCIDES WITH THE DAY MARIA RETURNS FROM SPAIN AND AND AND--
• ahem anyways, blue is very excited about this! because red and jaide havent exactly met up with each other properly (they were only able to say hi to each other through blue's contacts since blue and jaide consistently talking to each other throughout the years) (just imagine a funny zoom call where red and blue are in the same room and jaide is on the other side)
• red's ... quite nervous and excited about this! he's still getting used to the public attention and usually loses his mojo when he's being watched, and it's double the pressure when she's around. he can only pray he'll do fine at the battle tree if she's gonna watch him.
• a fun cameo happens with elio/selene where they solo red in the battle tree and blue watches them - jaide eventually appears as well to watch and they're both cheering for red 🫶
• red almost lost that round because jaide showed up and he kept taking chances to look at her
• after the grand opening, they were officially reunited and it felt so good to meet each other again. well, blue with jaide and red felt like nothing since he was simultaneously in contact with them. he's like the messenger between the apples 😔😔
• i like to think red really has never fallen off of liking jaide since he was a kid but it only got stronger when they meet again and it's like an old book had been dusted clean and ready to be opened
• and appleshipping pre romance begins shortly after wehehehhe
#IM SOOO PROUD#i GOT THIS SHIT FIGURED OUT FINALLY!!!!!!#now time for the actual romance plot (static sounds) shit idk how to write that AAAUHHH#~ rambling#~ loreposting#color pallet trio#♥️ appleshipping
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late summer station
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not gonna sugar-coat anything this time, other than my yearly busy summer, this year I’ve been struggling and fighting with personal+mental problem all summer… yeee, been busy alright, went several countries, multiple cities, meeting so many peoples, yet… I do have a rather heavy problem throughout this summer, something that might be a curse for me loving summer so much
intergalactic station
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hard to explain, but I called it a hanabi or fireworks complex.. you know hanabi or fireworks right? you waited and prepared for it excitedly, got super happy and awed during the amazing show, yet it didnt last long… and soon after, everything went quit and silent… that would totally illustrate my summer experiences this year…
getting new hope, having crazy adventures, experiencing a feeling that I havent felt for so long, and being NOT lonely for once! everything was happening so fast!!! July to August were the time when everything was so HYPED, was super excited and happy for once!!! yet… as they said, easy come, easy go… at the end of September, it seems all the happiness and good things suddenly stripped away from me… like never even happened, and im still trying to digest that fact now.. so yeah, much like hanabi huh?
from a crazy quick lay-over in Akiba, about 2 hours only,
to finally able seeing the fabled Kyoto’s Evangelion base,
to midnight exploration on ancient temple in a mountain side......
………to finding a giant Tachikoma in a sleepless night deep inside Yokohama after missing my train, lolol
aint saying not grateful or anything, those amazing things sure is a permanent memory for me, something that will be a permanent thing in my life, but it’s just… I do hope it will last.. then again, my fault to even dare hoping then, hahah… heavy… but yeah, maybe that would be a good experience for a summer lover dude like me, all happiness come only during summer, dang… heavy..
not even sure what gonna happen after summer 2023, what would the future brings me… and honestly, it’s quite scary… for once, kinda afraid… really afraid… yet for now, just trying to continue living
composure
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one thing for sure tho, it’s getting colder out there… autumn sure is coming… much like how I feel inside, hahah, and boi how I missed all of 2023 summer experience and personal happiness I had… if only it could last…
summer dusk
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ahem, if you looking for my regular toy posts and reviews, I’ll be pushing my summer content a bit longer till early October 2023, no worries! I just need to… vent all these frustrations, hahah… and yee, this blog would be the perfect place, since none of you even read my blog anyway, lol! just need a safe heaven to place this here, just for my personal reminder of this one crazy summer of 2023
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Mega tmi below the cut (sex stuff again)
Well.
I think i can definitely conclude that while i do have a lot of sexuality baggage from yknow christian upbringing cisheteronormative society etc etc and i still think i have a low sex drive and am not very sensitive down there at least to my own touch and still resent the universe for denying me a dick
I can conclude that i am not asexual. The decade long quest for answers reaches some type of end.
I feel good. Yes in that a weight has now been lifted but more that this is one of like, less than a handful of times getting off has felt good, has been something i enjoyed.
All things considered its a mild enjoyment, it was fun but not earth-shatteringly brilliant. But i think it would be more fun with a partner, which like will probably still not be life changing or anything...
And yet that kinda is why its life changing for me. Years of all this anxiety and self harm and its like, its like ive been standing stuck on the doorstep for so long and the doors started to look bigger and heavier but now they are finally open and i can just. Let go? just sit with sex and sexuality as just another part of [my] life.
I liked it, i want to do it again. This is the first time ive been able to feel that way.
Moving on to less emotional notes
- douching, not as much work as you would think. Ive worked out how my body usually is so its a matter of scheduling but the actual prep was straightforward.
- vibrators are a godsend. Still figuring out what feels best but defs beats the hand by a long shot.
- arms and limbs are awkward. Multitasking very hard, suddenly very much understand the appeal of the suction cup dildo. Towel is very good idea also because lube can and does get everywhere.
- have definitely decided i like anal though. Its fun, reminds me a bit of the gentle burn you get from doing muscle based workouts. But without the pain of doing muscle based workouts.
- i like how i feel afterwards too. Front hole stuff has never felt good to me but also would give me abdominal cramping afterwards :/ i dont remember if that was the case pre-t but its never felt good during anyway so
- clean up is a pain. Wish i had my own bathroom. Picture if you will a guy carrying two different glass toys, a wand vibrator, an enema and a bottle of sex toy cleaner through the yard at night and then having to open multiple doors to get to the bathroom all while trying to be quiet enough to not wake his grandmother up (granny flat bathroom is only accessible via the bedroom 😬)
So yeah probably not something i will be doing often unless there comes another time i get the house to myself for a week or something.
Nonetheless excited to keep trying things.
I feel kinda embarrassed writing all this but the thing is i am 24 and having to learn these things for the first time and thats okay. But also i think the past decade and my relationship with sexuality would have been a lot easier to navigate if i had known anyone with similar experiences. I mean i know a lot of people had similar upbringings to me and we all live in a society but its been. Its been very isolating because of how that affected me.
I dont think ive seen much shared at all in terms of experiences with compulsive self harm in a sexual context. If it had just been anxiety and self-loathing i would have been able to deal with it much sooner i think.
But the self harm was a kind of feedback loop of like, you self harm -> you feel shame and disgust and misery -> those feelings become your primary association with sexual thoughts and behaviour -> the only sexual thoughts you get are intrusive and distressing -> self harm becomes a means of feeling in control of the distress -> and on we go again and again and again
But its over. Its actually over and i want to cry. Its been weeks and i havent self harmed and im finding it a little easier to deal with triggers and just. I want to cry so much because i feel so fucking relieved.
The power of anal sex....
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logs before i forget bc i am Depleted of energy and need to winddown w star rail
i just hung out w new people and played ddlc which was very fun! we did some reading and stuff for it which was cool and then i got anxious and tired from the anxiety so i had to leave alkdfjahl but it was cool to see ddlc again and hang out with new and old friends
i FINALLY MADE PROGRESS IN HONKAI.... i finished chapter 13 and god.... i forgot how much i love this story so much just because its been such a long time since i was able to sit down and play it. like im pretty sure the last time i was able to make progress was back in december...? the only times i ever made progress was when i finished an exam and id just sit and read for a while and augh its such a good story i love it so much,,,
kinda related but getting news that theyre finally putting cn voices over the cgs is so nice ; w ; i mostly play in cn voices so it felt weird when it switched to jp but me and my friend were maybe going to stream honkai together on the weekend (i feel bad bc i'm probably going to be annoying. bc thats my fixation rn), so itll be cool to see the cgs in cn !! hopefully?? idk i tried to play it today but its still jp alksdjafh
that being said im also v excited about the weekend w my friend,, i just hope i dont wind up being annoying...
i also have new. oc ideas so thats. fun.....
oh! i got take out :) except it was weird tasting (burger pizza) but it was a funny experience so im chill. i havent had take out in a while cuz i just cook food to eat at home instead but it felt nice to have some takeout ;w ;
asldkjfah idk ... my brains so dead rn that i cant remember anything else.... okee i go do my night routine and winddown to star rail B)
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2023 'overview'
The standard end of year post of course!
This year has both breezed by and felt absolutely endless, personally at least, and i feel like i accomplished nothing(!), but still, here's a round up of some stuff i enjoyed!?
MOVIES:
as ever as always! I'm writing this a bit in advance, but i've deffo seen less movies this year than i did last year, tho i believe that i did manage to get out to the cinema way more than usual (tho, tbh, most often on my lonesome i think). I think i've felt the most divided on them this year; i liked a lot of stuff very VERY much! i also have felt so SO bored with a lot more things. i think i talked about having like. a matrix moment last year, nothing like that this year, tho a lot more of being like, 'well yeah, of course', or finally being able to recognise what a shot is, lol. Regardless, here are the movies i probably loved the most this year:
aftersun: all i talked about jan thru feb, need to watch it again. it looks great, its both fun & heartbreaking, and you KNOW i love the found footage side of it all - especially when it addresses that even when you have footage of 'objective reality' you just really cant know it all
operation avalanche: as w aftersun, this shit gets at like ALL my interests! OpAv isn't a perfect movie, and i think the more u know about the production/etc the more obvious that becomes [i genuinely WOULD love to see/know more about the version that really did have the mole/romance plotline integrated, but lbr, that doesnt really exist]. ANYWAY!! i do think this is such an exciting film to watch, especially the movie making sequences, and i think the feeling of it all comes across so truly iygm. also, obvs, bc i love conspiracies unfortch
the dirties: im sorry there's so much MJ on this list, short tho it is! but hey, these really took over my life for a month there lol. i still havent listened to the commentary w the real film critic, but i truly find this to be an airtight movie, the found footage stuff is so well integrated, justifying everything while also calling all intent/'reality' into question.. i do think someone could spend forever with it - its also funny & miserable! what more could u want
(watch my fancam please)
my house walkthrough: i genuinely just really like this!! ive said it before, but i genuinely just find it such an exciting watch, the bts just makes it so much cooler - what's sicker than repetition
Hon Noms:
la confidential: heat walked so this could run !
thirst: so much fun, i love vampire lovers who hate each other
beau is afraid: too long, but i really liked most of this, v funny
black tower: great example of doing smth so cool w very little
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books:
francis spufford, new sun series, chandler, mauretania
PODCASTS:
sfultra!!!: sean L@TDF finally returns to talk about sci-fi books! sean is one of the few critics i'll always keep up with even when i dont agree w him, & this show has been a real treat all this year - the patreon stuff is great as well - its introduced me to a lot of new stuff & crit, and its been good to hear from him again.
if u listen to any of these, listen to this
shelved by genre: really good, tho often we have different interests - got me to read a fair few more books this year! im not a games guy, and im mad behind on fatt, so its super nice to get to hear some austin biweekly anyway, lol.
twioat (as ever): i was a bit trepidatious about this season starting off, but it's been so much fun, the fellas really knocked it out of the park.
i loved hearing from some guests that we havent heard from in ages. this season on AJLT was also fuckin amazing, truly & really adored their coverage; possibly highlight of my summer??
toxic podcast: i almost certainly shouted this out last year, but it was nice to have this around again in the top half of the year!! ale has a letterboxd now & its fun to get to see just how many truly atrocious horror movies he does watch all the time. a true connoisseur
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pick’n’mix:
ntbts: its a such good show!! i've watched more tv than usual this year, but i love how this is done on almost every level. i apologised before for having so much MJ on this list & i stand by that!, but i do think that one of the best (practical) traits in his work is making difficult stuff look not only easy, but genuinely both fun & achievable. whens the movie going to drop??? (lol)
getting into shirts: this genuinely was more of an accidental year long thing, starting w the ones i printed for lizzie back in jan/feb, but its been fun! finally got back some screenprinting experience, and i think u can really see some amping up of ambition & basic skill/practice. i do wanna do more in the new year, but am trying to engage with actual intended outcomes (and lbr, the storage issue lol), so we'll see
the sopranos!!: sometimes they really were right about good tv being good, who knew! so much funnier, weirder & depressing than i wouldve expected- honestly undersung at this point. also, it introduced me to a tonne of music lol
the blackberry soundtrack: unfortch i continue to be kinda mixed on the film, as much as i think on a technical level it's so super cool & well-made. i do really like the soundtrack tho!! i'm kinda iffy on some of its application in the actual film, but im a hater, so what can u do lol. the actual thing DOES rip tho
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this whole thing makes it look like i got a lot more done this year than i feel like i did lol. i feel like i had plans up the top but they really all came out in the wash//
i read an okay amount of books, but failed to get thru any piles
i watched more tv than usual this year, and saw id say, a midtier amount of movies, but way more new movies than usual
i moved for a bit! then moved back & got a worse job lol
there was a lot of work i didnt get finished.. i have stuff ive been meaning to edition since this time last year that i still havent gone back to.. that said, i think i did get some stuff done, finally actually did some stone litho(!!!!) & had some stuff up in a show or two
who knows,,, maybe ill finally get my shit together & 2024 could be my year - people say good things about being 26 right??? 😭😭😭
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im so down bad rn
God the way they literally say ANYTHING to me just has me over here kicking my feet and giggling like a girl who got her crush to go with her to prom. They plague my mind at literally every moment throughout the day and THEY WERE IN MY DREAMS THE LAST FEW NIGHTS! Goodness i just want them to talk about anything that goes on in their silly little mind, and tell me about it. god they just rant about the shit their into and it has me in a literal fucking chokehold and makes me wanna commit vehicular manslaughter against orphans in the most loving way.
Me and them have been playing on VrChat together the past few days and its been so long since i genuinely felt this way about someone. They made me laugh so hard i sounded like a dying dolphin and holy shit i havent laughed like that IN TWO YEARS. They make mr so inexplicably happy whenever i get a notification from them on discord or instagram and the fact that [Runa] makes me so eager to get up in the morning and get ready is such a lovely feeling to have again. God, we havent known eachother or been dating for that long but just the thought of being able to call them mine makes me burst with elation and want to cry positively.
The way that they were so excited when a reference to Jurassic Park was made in The Tenth Floor: Part 2 filled my heart with so much joy i felt like i was going to explode. I just sat there with the dorkiest smile staring at their avatar, unable to do anything but agree with them as they got all happy. Good god, im positive this is love. Not the fake highschool love you do to get over someone, but one where you cherish the other person so much that it burns you to their core whenever they do anything and you just have to stop and admire their cute little goofy antics.
We have matching avatars in VrChat too which literally just adds fuel to the fire which is known as my heart in this case. The fact that they even wanted to spend time like that with me makes my heart ache. Everytime they reference something i told them in the past makes my knees feel like jello and my words get stuck in my throat. Nobody has ever made me feel this passionate about them before, and goodness gracious it kills me. Im on the edge of my seat whenever they start talking, and i never ever ever want that to change. One day i swear i will drive to their fucking house, despite living in different states, with as many gifts as i can possibly muster to bring. Ill give them my heart and soul.
But when I say this, I mean it fully. I would do anything for them. I want to have those childishly cheesy dates people envy. I would take them to every beautiful place and i severely want to make them feel so special about themself. If they were feeling sad i would bend over backwards just to get them feeling better, no matter the price. Goodness, i really really really just want the best for them. They deserve the world.
Me and them mainly talk on discord and the conversations we have fill my heart with so much admiration it kills me. One day I felt like I was dying mentally, and despite it being a big anniversary for them and their friend, they still checked in on me and wanted to make sure I was fine. Whenever we play games they make me freeze with how intelligent they are, and it makes me melt inside and i love that so much. Im literally crying as i write this because they make me feel so connected to this world. Ive always been disconnected and being able to feel complete again makes me so damn happy.
They never shame me for anything I say, and only tease lightly. We fit so well together, and I truly hope they feel that too. You make me so so happy, i genuinely hope you know that. Youve brightened up my life and im so thankful for that my nerdy tall ass hot sauce packet.
I love you so much Runa <3
- A.H.
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Hi, lovely author! 👀 Just finished reading the last chapter and omg it was so THICK and juicy and I loved every second of it 🥹 when Lix sais how he sometimes notices the others looking at y/n and what he wants to do about it.... I think I felt my ovaries twisting on themselves, damn🫠 the spice it's always so good, but the adventure it's just as exciting and I'm loving the character development 🥹 so... now I'll just go back in my corner, waiting for the next part, I guess. Take care and don't forget to let us know you're alive from time to time!
Hugs💕, C
hi my dear.💕 i hope youre doing okay.<3 im so glad you liked the chapter and omg im so glad that little moment with lix had such an impact.👀🤭 tbh it was a last minute addition and i have no idea what possessed me to include it, but now im really glad i did (i sincerely hope your ovaries are okay lmao😭😭). i really appreciate you saying youre enjoying the blend of spice/adventure. trying to balance both is a journey in itself and i am STILL trying to get used to writing the spicier scenes, so this means a lot.<3 and of course it warms my heart to know youre loving the character development because im really having a lot of fun with this too, theres just so much i want to do with these characters.🥹
now that the new chapter is out im finally planning to dedicate some time to the request you sent in earlier. i really appreciate your patience.💕also im sorry i havent been able to reply to your most recent ask (i was putting everything i had into getting the new chapter of otde finished🥹) but the second request you sent in is incredibly beautiful and it absolutely SHATTERED my heart.😭 i think ill need a little time to let the ideas simmer to see if anything concrete comes to mind, but im really excited to consider some possibilities.
i promise ill make sure to pop out of my own corner every now and then to let you know I'm alive!! (this was so cute lol) please please take care of yourself too. i love seeing your asks, it makes my whole entire day to get the little hug from you at the bottom. thank you for your continued support, ill be looking forward to the next time i see you in my notifs.<3 much love.🤗💕
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ok. Okok. i think i’ve got my jumbled up thoughts altogether so! here they are under the cut (and it won’t be spoiler free so heads up!)
N’s route: man… i think when i played i was on a “i havent seen these characters in years” goggles high, ie graduation goggles if you will, but now that im thinking on it, it wasn’t super erm. cohesive. like when you can choose to say ily early on but then if you dont and N says it later, theres no option to reciprocate? odd. also there is no conflict resolution for the argument, it’s just kinda brushed aside.
what i did like was that if you play with an equally romantic partner as n, they do have a bunch of nice little moments. i’ve seen ppl say they come off clingy but like. i didnt see it that way. to me it comes across as more just that they’re SO passionate and so focused about protecting everyone (as shown in the backstory) but i can see why it’s off putting to others
F route: very cute little moments w the detective, absolute dream of a partner if you ask me. them talking about their mom? ruined me a bit why lie. also the “you’re the most delicious thing i’ve tasted” oof. my pulse was weak lads
i didnt like that there wasnt an ily choice for them?? doesnt make sense to me??? out of all the routes i feel like their would have been the most natural place to have an ily, but i digress. anyway. F love and supremacy always
A route: mixed feelings for sure.. i did feel like some of it was a bit ooc or like, i was just getting mixed signals. they’d say one thing and then contradict it a paragraph later and i was like. huh. ok.
overall tho… i will be so real with you guys it was kind of delicious. dare i say it was maybe my favorite. ik some ppl thought it moved too fast and i can see that! but for me it’s really not /that/ fast. think about if you read a book series that’s 2 or 3 books and it’s a slowburn. usually the couple will admit their feelings by the end of the second book or smth. and it’s not like A actually expressed their feelings and then jumped into a relationship yk?? personally i found the “one kiss and i cant have you anymore, this is done, i can’t let myself feel this” absolutely scrumptious. the slowburn is still in action even tho they kissed to me! but ig why some ppl didnt love it. bonus; them crying outside the detectives door didn’t feel ooc to me either. they bottked up feelings for 900 years and then watched the person they love almost die like. three times. and then consequently shoved them away again so there’s no way they’d be able to keep all of THAT inside. walls r bound to break eventually. anyway i did think this route was inconsistent at times but generally. i had a blast w all that pain and suffering
M’s route: i still dont really know how i feel about this one tbh. i did like a lot of it: the bakery scene, the lil not date, the scene in the shower especially. to me that felt very natural, just like. intimate and personal without being too fast or whatever. big fan. might think about that for the rest of my life. also if you’re on verda’s route with m the dinner party scene was equal parts awkward and funny so that was fun. AND as meh and underwhelming as the auction was, them saying they were willing to give more for the detective than they ever thought… mwah. there were moments where M felt ooc but i think i liked half of it. probably 😭
overall like i said before.. plot wise it isnt very cohesive and it’s not very exciting, it felt more romance focused than plot focused which ig makes sense but? idk. i like the thrill
if you’ve stuck thru this whole essay you’re a saint. and drop more of your thoughts into my inbox bc im curious to know what yall are thinking!
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im feeling kinda bad rn, so imma just, vent in here a bit
so, last winter vacations i discovered i was aroace, and it has been one of the coolest things that has happened to me, because everything made so much sense, and i felt so, so happy to know that my experiences were not weird or unique to me, and now that i knew, i could change my life for the better.
I was so excited to share this with my friends, and to be able to explain on detail why this made me so happy, and how did i experienced life.
then i got scared, cuz some of my friends have done stuff that, in retrospective, was aphobic, and it hurt me then, but now knowing all this new stuff about myself, hurted more
so, i decided i was coming out just to a few, and i had it all planed
the first girl to who my came out wasn't as intended, but it was okay. She is my best friend, and during vacations she gets depressed, and that day she was feeling awful, she felt like she was going to suffer from the loneliness she felt on that moment all her life, because she has never had a good and genuine romantic relationship.
so i was talking to her, and trying to make her feel lovable, i said all the things i found cool about her, and how she was such and important person for me, and that i loved her a lot.
then she said something like "yea, but it's not romantic love :/" and, i wanted to make her feel like other kinds of love are important, and that romance isn't everything in life, that she could be happy even if she didn't have a romantic partner.
(all of this without making her feelings less, i also told her that she is a big deal, and that anybody would be lucky to date her, and that someone eventually was going to)
so i came out to her, in a "there's a lot of people that are full without romantic and sexual love, so you can be full too, and then when you get a romantic partner, you will be happy and with a plus, like putting glitter on a cool drawing!"
it went well, and im happy i came out to her
but the other times were not so great.
the other times i wanted it to be about how i felt, i wanted it to be kind of special to me (ofc not saying that i was disapointed that the first time wasnt about me, i just wanted at least one of the rest to be how i wanted it to be)
so i decided trying different stuff each time. like coming out with a joke, an sticker, i was going to fucking paint an As card of the asexual colors, i was going to wear a black and a white ring, i was going to do a lot of cool stuff
but i wanted to test the waters with another friend, to see if some of them even knew ace existed
and, uh, i picked her because she was openly pan, and she felt safe, and wow, she is the one that says the most accidental aphoboc stuff out of all my friends
but i'll get to that
first, i had a bunch lf conversations of me trying to get her to understand what i was saying, and i was so fucking obvious but she just, didn't get it??
I- okay, once we were talking (with the first person i came out to btw) about their past crushes and such, and she asked for mine, and i said "oh, i havent have one, i dont really get those feelings"
and it became a very awkard me-trying-to-explain-that-im-aroace and-she-didnt-understanding-me conversstion, and my other friend jus sat there watching (that last thing was okay tho, she was still kind of down)
so i let it be, and tried to come out to another friend
this one was with a joke, and it was both great and awful
It was something like
*she making a pan joke about how she plays for the other side*
*me making a joke about how i dont have a side*
she: *inmediate understanding that im ace*
And we didnt talk about it, of how i was aro as well, because another friend arrived and aaaaaaaaa
im so mad about it lol
The next one was a f u c k i n g a c c i d e n t
A friend i was so not coming out to made a comment about a classmate being ace, and i said, damn same OUT LOUD, WHEN I THOUGHT I DID THAT ON MY FUCKING MIND
only she and the first friend i came out to where there, but it was a "oh shit" moment, i fucked up so badly
she saw my oh sit face, and said that it was okay, that she was demiace
and then there's the weird stuff
i told ALL my friends how cool it was that on a bday party with middleschool friends, they all acted so normal about me nlt having crushes, like "ah yea, we know u havent ever had one :)", cuz it felt so nice
and i thought it was not going to click to them that i was aroace just because of that one random story i told them because
a) they were d e n s e, like the second girl i tried to come out to, i had already been making subtle jokes about my aroaceness, and NO ONE UNDERSTOOD, and i counted with that everytime i did a joke. i did them carefully, not wanting to out myself, but enjoying my recently discovered identity
b) i phrased it so carefully and casual, and we changed the topic so quick, and no one asked me anything or gave any sign of have just witnessed someone coming out to them
but like, a week later, they all knew?????
and they didnt said anything to me
they just
knew
and somethimes they'll just trow a joke about my aroaceness and i'll be like ???????
for example, there was this time they were talking about crushes and one of them said something like "jaja [my name] is inmune"
and ??????
hello????
how do u know that????
I'm 80% sure the friend i came out on accident outed me to all my friends
and that they talked about me behind me, asking the questions i had the right to answer, but instead they'll just, speculate or something
and it sucks, mostly because i didnt got to explain my boundaries, and they are so fucking open about it
at this rate, im surprised the entire school doesnt know!
and a bunch of sruff that msde me uncomfortable (aka: how i didnt get to talk to them about how much they hurted me when they pressured me to date this guy, how they'll bring their partners to hang outs even if the partner wasn't invited, how the ones with a partner would kiss infront of me, how i felt i was less important that the partners even if we had been friends for way longer than the time they knew the partner, stuff like that)
just, hasn't changed, because i never got to talk about it
and now i wish i just came out to the first friend, and i wish i could made them forget
specially since if i got a partner now (a qpp is what i want, but i would be okay dating an allo, just, i'd have to explain to them all the stuff i didn't get to explain to my friends) they'll fucking invalidate me, i can feel them judging me and thinking to themselves "oh, she was not for real, she has a relationship woth someone!"
aáaaaaaa it suckssss
i cant even say someone is pretty, cuz i have to watch my steps and avoid anything that might make them think im not aroace enough
im not even sure they understand how split attraction works, im so done
if u read all that, advice is appreciated :)
#aromantic#asexual#aroace#arospec#acespec#aspec#aroacespec#arose#coming out#aphobia#friends#friendship
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HI RWBY ANON, AGAIN DHDH
i was waiting a bit for you to answer the ask so i can watch a few more episodes but i held back a bit and also had my exams going on at the same time so it was even harder but dhdhd FINISHED NOW
i watched a few more episodessss ( 9 - 10 )
i dont really have much to sayyy other than.
one. DID THE PROFFESSOR REALLY JUST. RELEASE A WILD BEAST IN THE CLASS ??????? like. i know he had faith that weiss would have been able to defeat it but ??? STILL JDHDND
oh oh oh and. im starting to see that WCD ( weiss character development dhdh ) its so nice to see her be.. nice, and sweet, to ruby
also 2. i almost got a tear in my eye when ruby was feeling bad about being the leader cause she felt like it was a mistake : (
IM SO EXCITED TO KEEP ON WATCHING THOUGHHH EHE thank you for replying to my asks by the way its nice to have someone to talk to about a show i enjoyyy !! GOODBYE
HELLO RWBY ANON!!! MY APOLOGIES, I TOTALLY HAVENT BEEN CHECKING MY INBOX AND I MISSED THE ORIGINAL NOTIF (life’s been pretty hectic lately)
ILL DO SOME QUICK RESPONSES TO YOUR FIRST MESSAGE
YES, THE SHOW IS SO FUNNY, ESPECIALLY IN THE EARLIER VOLUMES (still sillies now, but damn i miss the camp beacon vibes)
AND YES THE TEAMS!!! i was laughing to myself a bit when you thought ruby and jaune would be on a team together, just because i knew hehehe. weiss is definitely very difficult to put up with at first, but she makes me laugh so much (“ITS 8:55 YOU DUNCE 🏃💨💨). I ALSO LOVE REN AND NORA SO MUCH (boop). and yeah, blake and yang definitely really work well together 😌)
regarding your comment about auras, yeah, everyone has them!! they are essentially a part of your soul that protects you in fights and such. and regarding jaune,, you’re definitely not looking too much into it, you’re a really into something :)
NEVERMORE FIGHT MY BELOVED!!! still one of the end times the show <3
NOW ONTO THIS MESSAGE
yeah, the professor just did that. beacon is wild like that LMFAO
KFKDKGKFK CACKLING AT WCD, THATS PERFECT. BUT YUP, GETTING SOME SPRINKLES OF IT HERE AND THERE
and ruby will have a lot of conflict about being a leader,,, it hurts a lot, but damn. keep an eye out for it, i definitely love how the show handles it!!
ONCE AGAIN, MY APOLOGIES FOR THE LATE RESPONSES. HOPE LIFE IS TREATING YOU WELL AND IM SO GLAD THST YOURE ENJOYING IT. ITS SO FUN SEEING YOUR THOUGHTS!!
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sometimes i feel really selfconcious abt how much i have to say cause i feel like it looks like im tryin to get the last word but i swear im not im just so very excited to talk LMAO i always have a lot to say. i know "talking too much" isnt like. an actual thing. because usually its just, actually personality conflicts. like i mean its not morally wrong to talk a lot or whatever. im not trying to get the last word im just chatty.
i was kinda trained to be mega self conscious by my abuser and its faded A LOT but "talking too much" or appearing like im trying to get the last word still gets under my skin. idk. my friends are chill, im sure no one i talk to thinks that of me in like a mean way. everyone ive met through gw2blr has been extremely relaxed and kind. we're all just here to play funney bideo gaem and talk abt funney littel guyes. 👍
its nice. and ive been able to regain my self confidence, which i lost when i was like. eight. i havent felt this sefe and secure in my self since I was six. That's not hyperbole. the last time i wasnt scared of talking to people or starting conversations, i was an actual toddler. im twenty-one now. insane.
anyway shout out to how chill this community is and thank you all for being so chill 👍 hope i get to keep hanging out with you and making jokes with you.
#insane how much my life improved because i forced myself to reach out right before i went to bed#and then made myself accept a discord invite from someone id never really met before then#and now we're friends :)#life is fucken weird man thank god its improving for me.#now its time to escape the fucken legal limbo my dad and i are stuck in xd#i wanted to be in the new house by now#hopefully we can move within the year at bare minimum :/#personal#rotthoughts
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nah cuz i just finished weak hero class 1 and that shit was so fucking good 😭😭. so many emotions and just wow the acting was phenomenal and the way the whole series was filmed and the ost was all just so perfect and contributed sm to how the drama turned out. and even though a lot of things were lowk diff from the webtoon it still stuck with the mainplot which i thought was weird at first but after finishing it props to the director and writer bc it turned out so well. specifically bc i felt more emotionally invested in beom seok then with bryce in the webtoon (more on this l8r)
and also im p much caught up on the webtoon but this drama still had me at the edge like 😧 i knew what was going to happen but i was still nervous asf and it was so thrilling
WEAK HERO CLASS 1 SPOILERS UNDER CUT !!!!
like i knew that beom seok wld eventually betray them but i still lowk got attached bc of how it was just so nice to see them all together laughing and having fun. and i knew the slight red flags like when beom seok checked his instagram and soo hos instagram to see if he followed back but it was just so... 🙁🙁 nice to see them together it made me so happy😭
but yeah the mix of emotions i had for beom seok.. like i hate him. hes a coward and he did irredeamable things but at the same time i feel for him. no child should go thru that type of abuse and neglect from anyone. especially from people who are there to nurture and love...
i think yk that and him being bullied in his previous school contributed A LOT as to why he turned out the way he is. ofc its not an excuse, its never an excuse but i think its def an explanation.
but i really got so angry when specifically he hired the guy to beat up soo ho for the like the 3rd time and after the boxing scene when he went up and started kicking soo ho on the head and stomach repeatedly. and also when he started to cry after realizing that soo ho wasnt breathing and how he was in a coma like mfw...😭?? not to mention the way he continued to blame young yi for the friendship falling apart.. like bro...you did that to yourself ☠️
but the thing is i dont think ill ever be able to fully hate him ??? ITS SUCH A WEIRD AND COMPLEX FEELING. like i genuinely believe that if he grew up in a loving and stable home he wldve never turned out like that. he wldve been such a sweet person😭😭. and ik that not all abuse victims turn out to be terrible people like him but idk i feel like he rlly wldve been so much better if he grew up with parents who genuinely wanted him and not just as a public stunt. even if he got therapy i think he wldve improved lowk.
but like man when episode 8 started off with all of them in the classroom on cleaning duty, just laughing and being friends that fr broke me 😕 + that whole scene when si eun was gettting revenge but couldnt hit beom seok and left the classroom and when people tried to stop him he like ounched the window next to him and started screaming LIKE MANN THAT HIT SO HARD😭😭😭 cuz hes supposed to be the smart composed person but when he started yelling it just hurt so bad 🫠
and man when i saw the eunjang sign,, the way i legit screamed ☠️☠️ IM SO EXCITED 😭
ALSO,, even though i havent watched a lot of dramas this year i think this drama is definitely one of the best, at least, its my personal favorite. and i might be biased bc ive been reading weak hero since i was in middle skl and it has a special place in my heart but idc its literally so well done😭😭 anyways my god this got way too long LMFAO and to anyone whos still reading this thanks for listening to my ramble and look at these photos from the actors instagrams 😭😭
TLDR: weak hero manhwa > weak hero kdrama but the kdrama was still pretty good wish they stuck more to the og manhwa but it turned out good so im not thaaat mad about it and im actually very psyched for s2 to come out and tbh just grateful we got a kdrama😭 +++ the OST is absolutely wonderful😞
#im deffo softhearted for anything weak hero but this drama was genuinely so good 😞💔#i genuinely cant express the excitement i have for s2 to be released#i NEED IT#like NOW 😭#weak hero#weak hero class 1#kdrama#webtoon#+🗯
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