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hexplaything · 6 days

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midnight existential thoughts: i don't know how to connect with people anymore

#i feel Very alone #i lost my friends bc i became a shitty person when i was with my ex #we all had a discord server together and i just pulled away bc i put all my energy into someone who was abusing me #im so. Afraid of being alone :-)#good girl speaks #and i just. i don't know if i have the ability to trust new people #so it's impossible to Gain new friends and im still just detached from the one friend who gave me another chance #i feel i just fucked up my entire life by being with my ex #i had it so good #i had a solid friend group i talked with every day family life wasn't terrible and school was going good #now i have all this self doubt and i've pushed so many people away

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thatfreakingcanadian · 6 months

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#i feel very alone #even on tumblr #i dont have any friends on here #ive never met anyone on here #its been 10 years #i feel like im talking into a void #both in life and on here #even my one last irl friend who i could send stuff to on here is gone #what am i doing #why am i trying sometimes #i see people thrive on here and feel so left out #me #someone please

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dontworryitsjustafirstdraft · 1 year

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I just want friends :(

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hollowedhaunt · 1 year

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Nothing quite like being misgendered and deadnamed first thing in the morning

#i have to be here for 6 hours..#i did not eat breakfast #i feel very alone

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general-bear · 1 year

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Maybe December would be more bearable if I lived with people I loved

#when I was a kid decembers were fine #and when I lived with three friends december was fine #but when I lived with strangers #randomly assigned roommates who didn’t like me that much #it was a horrible time #at least then I could go home and see my family whenever I wanted #now #I feel very alone

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evermorebaby · 2 years

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#im struggling today #im so tired #so many things are up in the air but also nothing is at the same time #i will not see my best friend until october bc shes filling her summer w trips and work #im living alone at the moment ; everyone in my flat has gone home #i dont want to go home because its so difficult there #my parents expect me to get a job and i just want a break for once #i have a fucking summer project !#i dont know why shes back or what shes doing or what she wants but shes suddenly responding to all my stories and calling me baby again #and i thought that she had stopped ? bc she ignored me for two fucking months #i cant help feeling that im just someone who will Be There and shes exploiting that and it hurts #no one will read this so ! fun #i feel very alone

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catmask · 10 months

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its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

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bigfatbreak · 14 days

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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a-gay-frog · 9 months

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I wonder if this person knows how much I look forward to their messages.

#personal #like not in a romantic way at all #but like #so few of my friends are actually messaging me #i feel very alone #but they message me like everyday #and i very much appreciate it #they have helped me to not spiral as much

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dartfuldodger · 10 months

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if you came out and you were harmed for an identity or label that no longer feels true to you:

it's okay to feel hurt by what happened even if it's over

you aren't a bad person because your identity changed

your identity then was still valid and you shouldn't have been hurt for it

#homophobia #transphobia #queerphobia #vent in tags #inspired by how I was corrective raped for being a lesbian #but I now id as bisexual #still have a hard time accepting it all #especially since there's just... Nothing out there on the subject #i feel very alone #well.#it be like that

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kellofbones · 11 months

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wow secunda is both comforting and depressing when you're feeling so terrible </3

#skyrim #secunda #music #skyrim ost #i feel very alone

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inkstainednote · 11 months

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Yesterday, can be described as fun -amongst other things. It was fun yes, but also it was sad. It was sad and painful. It was lonely. It was a picture of what once were and what could have been. It was also what is.

Yesterday, I sat there with my dad in our cold dark basement and we listened to his vinyls and his discs. It was nostalgic, a mirror to how we used to be when I was little. Identical but inverted. It made me realise how we could never truly turn back to that. We're painfully similar; he and I. And yet we're so different and I don't think the cracks in our mirror can be mended and repaired and glued together again anymore.

Yesterday was quiet and stranded and awkward. Eventually, he left too and I was alone. Of course he left. I'm not sure what happened between then and now. I'm not even sure if anything changed. I'm not sure if he stayed the same and I was just too young to understand once upon a time or if he's different now and I missed some steps of the process. I'm not sure if I was the one who changed so significantly and ruined what we had but you would think that with me being closer to adulthood now, our relationship would have changed to the better, not the worse. The worst part is I don't know if he was always like this but my youthful naivety and inability to understand wasn't the reason why he seemed changed and instead it was the fact that he kept his true self hidden, I'm not sure if he used to put a mask on which he doesn't bother with anymore. Yesterday was cold.

Yesterday was cold and lonely because more than ever I could feel the ghost of who never was but should have been. Someone that would have sat there listening to those discs with me and who would've played with me during our shared childhood when our parents were too busy with work to spend time with us (me). Someone that could have taught me my first swears, someone whom I'd look up to and copy. Someone who would ruffle my hair and let me steal their clothes and playfully fight with me. That would take the blame and cover for me and whom I'd take the blame and cover for too. Someone I could trust and talk to. Someone who'd understand me. Someone I'd be able to call my sibling.

Yesterday I listened to those discs alone in my dark wet basement and I dreamt of everything I could feel was missing. Of course I still didn't shed a single year. It was fun, in a bitter way, yesterday.

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rotting-blog · 11 months

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honestly it really fuckin hurts that no matter WHERE i go there will be no one like me. im a fictive from a shitty source that i honestly dispise for the most part. i still get memories of my family from back then and it hurts a shit load. im trans, im queer, im heavily fucked up. i have so much rage that is boiling under my skin and it makes me feel like a monster. i KNOW why im angry. im so fucking angry. im so tired of masking as our host. i wanna cry and i wanna shave ny whole head of hair. im so pissed. this sucks really badly

#london.txt #and the thing is i know ill be out of front sooner or later and when i come back ill still feel the same.#i feel very alone

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