“you have to work hard!” why? “so you can get good grades!” why do i need good grades? “so you can get into a good college!” why? “so you can get a good paying job!” so then i can use that money to do fun stuff? “no you have to save it for later!” why? “so you can survive and retire comfortably!” then i can do the fun stuff? “no, you’ll be too old so you have to take care of your health!” then when can i do the fun stuff? “in your youth, enjoy it while you still can!” but i thought-

Ok so… I’m a Therian. I figured that out today and I know that you can’t choose what Your theriotype you are, that’s called being a fake Therian. I feel trapped now…

nothing really feels real. I wonder sometimes if any of this is real

Am I real? Is anyone else real?

1. "Things You Wanted To Say But Never Did" by Geloy Concepcion // 2. Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life

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The instant we got a new landlord they decided to put these very tall very black fences all around us and the neighbors. Effectively blocking our view of most of the giant tree and the lawn outside. (One of the few things I actually admired about this location.) "Ah, we see you're enjoying nature in your little enclosure, we can't have that!" On one hand I enjoy the greater sense of privacy, on the other hand, it feels like we're living in a prison.

Sorry ppl, I’ve been trapped in IKEA for the last month. All I have is genshin memes for you🥺

“I read because this world is not enough for me.”

I wanna write but there’s two spiders in my room and they are throwing me off

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everything is getting hard again.

and i can't help but feel like i'm always doing something wrong or forgetting something important. i'm not sure how much more I can take before i hit the bottom.

I feel frustrated and I want to scream. I want to cry but it doesn't work. I want to let it out, the tears that seem to poison me from the inside. They are trapped inside of me and so I feel trapped. And they won't leave. It is trapped inside of me to the point where I feel like exploding. I want to explode and even that does not work. So it leaves me with emptiness. And I feel nothing and everything at the same time.

therapy finally happening on thursday but until then i have to figure out reasons why i shouldn’t kill myaelf

Autumn always makes me homesick. I miss the grey skies that swathed the entire landscape and came down to the very edges of the world.

There's a special kind of feeling experiencing this winter this year. Snow, melt, wind, snow, melt, wind, snow, etc, etc. I feel unnerved, depressed and sad. And none of those specific emotions. I want spring to come more than anything.