everytime i feel good i want to curse myself because how dare i feel okay when im supposed be sick? im sick in the head and i should be curled up in bed rotting with bl00d staning my sleve. how dare i laugh and smile and even pretend im okay, i want to scream that im doing horrible everytime someone asks. i want to throw my bl8de at my mom and roll up my sleeve and show her how horrible im doing. i want to feel cared for and not feel so mean and horrible. someone please help me get worse. i want to be the worse.

i went to sleep 5 hours before i had to get up and i didn't get 8 hours of sleep? i need a refund

the world is so cold… but my sheets are so warm and soft…

my new job is fine but getting ready to go to it is not fine

i HATE leaving my house but like i need to maintain my friendships i guess.

Things that are annoying me right now so I'm going to type them out instead of fix them because I'm tired:

My hair is getting long enough to touch the back of my neck

My pillowcase is a slightly velvety texture which rubs my face wrong

My right pinky nail has a tiny chip at the tip and I can't stop running my finger over it

My face has a night cream on it which has a jelly like texture that stays on my face for a long time and it hasn't soaked in yet so I have to sleep on my back for at least the next two hours before I can roll over and touch my face to the stupid velvet pillow

Thank you for letting me rant at you.

this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me this shift is going to kill me

My uterus has a mind of its own and I'm just along for the ride x.x

Can I just stay in bed all day and not deal with responsibilities? Also slept like garbage on top of this nonsense.

i want ice cream

I definitely should eat something since the only thing I have eaten today is one banana and bag of chips like 11 hours ago

But I feel so shitty, so unloved, so fucking angry at everyone and at myself that I don't even want to get out of my bed

I feel too shitty to even hurt myself

I hate living like this.

im in bed all comfy but i just realised i left my earbuds downstairs 💀👍

i have to pee but i'm so comfortable i don't want to get up!!! 😫😫