Augh frankly i dont want to talk to anyone ever again i just want to go in the woods and fight people until i cant feel the pain from the cold

really sad to say this but i dont think i'll be using the word "posic" to describe my experiences with object sapience anymore. recently found out people who do not experience object consciousness, but "want to" or "think it should be real" are using the label and i refuse to associate my trauma with that. honestly i think it would be better if a new label was made for that but its not my problem. im sad to say this as ive loved the posic community since the beginning and have been a proud member

i also fear that continuously using "posic" to describe my relationship to objects cute-ifies my delusional companion syndrome which is actually a very fucking traumatic illness to live with and i dont want to keep feeling like im romanticizing or discrediting my own experiences, and i especially do not want to accidentally associate myself and my trauma with someone who is ultimately a complete outsider to my experience (or worse yet, desires to live my actual trauma lol but i highly doubt anyone is this insane)

to be clear i dont dislike people who "want" object sapience, i just dont agree with them using a preexisting word that describes the intimate experiences of other people to describe their identity. i dont have to tell you this but doing that really doesnt make sense. i dont like the idea of sharing what is meant to be close-knit spaces with someone like that. it feels to me like my sacred space is being invaded. in reality whether im right or wrong doesnt matter, i just wont be in that space anymore :0)

all DCS related posts will be tagged with DCS specific tags and no longer posic tags

literally so stupid that i care so much abt if people like me bc u shldnt and in trying so hard not to but i do !!! becuase i want friends in general and to be friends with specific people but i just get so caught up in the anxiety of that and putting in an effort to develop friendships with ppl who probably literally dont care much either way when i shld just be myself and the people tht want me around want me around and the people that dont dont. but instead i care soo fucking much.

hi ive been sick so of course that means ive been thinking about kaeya being sick and sooo pathetic about it again

i havent seen any episodes since 2x3 but i think its SO interesting that the fandom will continuously say ben has no power and that no one cares hes an adult but the moment he doesnt step in to help deliver a baby its suddenly "hes annoying" and "you said yourself youre the adult step it up"

sodies are fun, but i miss ink armor. i preferred it

i love rewatching mine cutscenes cause even if he tries to be about as emotional as a boulder there’s always at least one single frame of him where a thousand words couldn’t really encapsulate everything he’s feeling in that moment

"Anakin/Obi Wan/Yoda/Padmé/Shmi is the most tragic character in Star Wars" you are WRONG actually. L3-37 HOWEVER.....

full offense but people are allowed to dislike the recent wwdits episodes and leaks for the finale – it doesn't mean we don't understand the genre or characters in the show it just means we think it sucks

if you say i swear to god its probaly cause youre lying: no i say it cause its an expression of speech these people are really funnt and make no sense imagine someone learning this from these freaks videos and then they apply that to people in their own lives... god bless

maybe its not queercoding TO YOU. I get it though

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Even just half-heartedly looking for work as someone who is legally blind, autistic, with no highschool diploma, GED, or degrees and who can't leave the house is a very specific kind of let-down and disappointment that just really makes a person depressed.

ugh had to get up bc I'm too awake to fall back asleep and started getting hunger cramps

anyone else ever remember how they are gonna end up in some dead end soul sucking job instead of the actual career they wanna pursue because they are far too unskilled for it. just me. awesome.

loving the chronic trauma of being disabled in a world that is actively disdainful towards me. gestures vaguely at all the bullshit i have going on with the HSE making it thrice difficult to get my disability allowance. and the bullying. and the education system. and the ableism from my own parents. and the ableism from people who i used to call my friends. and the general lack of understanding