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duahauuoplanh · 4 months

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#tình đã qua mất rồi..#ugh swear to god..#Junho #Yoona #King the Land #Lee Junho #always next to Junho #It’s Junho’s season now #2pm #SNSD #I put my heart into every gifset I’ve made #This love left a permanent mark #This love is glowing in the dark #These hands had to let it go free and #This love came back to me

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spotlightstudios · 11 months

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Ah yes, marking Joey Drew's memoir w/ his greatest sin right in the front cover 👌

Had a great time w/ this one, since the front inside cover is yellow. It gave me the perfect canvas to work in reverse on! (And waste by black ink markers, but eh...) I'm gonna add some wips here along w/ the finished version too:

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saltpepperbeard · 1 year

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I can’t even imagine how painful it must have been for Stede to come home and see that life had easily continued on without him. He left the world of piracy because he felt that he didn’t belong, that he had ruined all the parts of it he had touched, and that he had hurt his loved ones.

So he goes home to what’s familiar, to where he thinks he might have some sort of belonging…only to find that everything happily went on without him. That his portrait was painted over. That his son had forgotten him.

Like, in that moment, he has nothing. No crew, no love, no family, no belonging. The last little bit of familiarity he had is now foreign to him. What he knows doesn’t even know him anymore.

#OFMD #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #went to bed seeing stede whump gifs on my dash #so i woke up and chose VIOLENCE THIS MORNING HSDKLS #No but God #I was just thinking about that part where he's alone with the candle and he brushes over his blacked out portrait #He's in the dark figuratively AND literally #AND THE THOUGHT MADE ME TAKE SEVERE SEVERE DAMAGE AND REALIZE JUST HOW HURT HE MUST HAVE FELT RIGHT THERE #HOW EMPTY AND LOST AND CONFUSED #LIKE #HELLO??#HELLO???#'Jodi it was self-inflicted' Maybe so but like #He thought he was doing EVERYONE a favor by going home #He thought it was the right thing to do #He thought he could just carry on and put his own happiness in his back pocket because it would make everyone else happy #And even THAT proved incorrect #He didn't find solace by returning home either #In that moment there was NO place for him #Like are you kidding #ARE YOU KIDDING #So often I focus on how much Ed was hurting because YEAH OF COURSE #But then I sit back and think about Stede and I'm like mmmMMMSFHDJKGHLD

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bylertruther · 1 year

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kinda cool how in season one eleven escapes the lab thinking she's the monster & in season four eleven escapes the lab again knowing she never was and that none of what happened was ever her fault.

and how in season two she goes on a journey to figure out part of her past and is told by another of the lab's victims that she needs to find strength in pain and anger & in season four we saw that it was her mother calling her by her real, human name and telling her that she loved her that gave her enough strength to overpower evil and banish it from their dimension, not the hurt and rage she felt at her being taken away. and that again, she was able to perform a miracle and bring her friend back to life by thinking of the love she showed her and the way she had always treated her like she was a human being.

she and her story are just really cool, methinks.

#being selflessly loved and treated like a human being what gives characters who have never once been shown that before without having to #give something back in return the strength to fight back and reach their final form is something that can be so personal #like. why am i crying in the club right now #terry called her JANE not a number but a NAME a real HUMAN name and told her she loved her!#and max treated her like a PERSON like a GIRL not a weapon or a superhero and she never asked eleven to do anything for her #she just loved her and treated her like a normal girl like a normal friend #and it was THAT which gave eleven the most strength #eleven who has always had to give in order to get eleven who gets punished whenever she steps outside of the box people put her in #eleven who didn't know that people could LIKE things until season three eleven who had never felt like a girl until season 3 #eleven who finds her strength to release herself from henry's vines when she looks at max and remembers tht she has to fight #for her the same way that max fought for her then bc she loves her she loves her friend so much #eleven who looks at a man who has never been treated like a person and in her last moments thinks of her mother and the fact that #she was loved and she was given a name that she is still a person despite everything that there is still kindness in this world and #THAT is what gives her the strength to save herself and literally unmake him and tear a fucking hole in time and space like.#are you kidding me bro how do u expect me to realize all of that and NOT cry like 😭#the power of love... and being treated like a human being... to be seen and understood... there is always a light to be found in the dark #i'm . someone sedate me please for the love of god SEDATE ME PUT ME DOWN SHOOT A HORSE TRANQUILIZER AT MY ASS PELA SE

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elitehoe · 1 year

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The Elite vs HOB fallout will be devastating and the most important part of the devastation will be defined by who is misted.

#kenny would be ideal he's just come back and he's said multiple times the bucks are pulling the weight for him malakai could feed on that #if kenny is misted I see him going full horrible bitch cleaner and the only person to bring him out of that is kota #nick and matt would feel unneeded and unwanted and throw themselves to hangy #matt is the emotional one out of the elite he would be the easiest target for malakai but malakai doesn't typically choose easy targets #if matt is misted he's gonna be an insufferable bratty bitch and hangy would obviously be the one to bring him out the dark #hence the 'you bring out the good in us' thing this would put hangy back with the elite but with a lot of unmended fences #nick is the one that holds everything in for the sake of the elite malakai could feast on nick and pick him apart into madness #if nick is misted by god brother that's going to be so sexy why would we want to break him from that evilness #I think it would have to take all 3 boys to bring back an evil deranged gremlin nick since each have a different bond and connection to him #either way by the calculations of my math me an hob girlie + me an elite girlie = winner #nick jackson #matt jackson #kenny omega #the elite #aew #aew lb

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your-subby-creature · 9 months

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Over-caffeinated the Creature and now he is awake at hours where he should not be, what crimes will he commit?

#Creature rambles #brain so eepy body so eepless #oh also the creature may not be eeping very well in general hes gonna get a sleep study bc he may have ~problems~#life is hard for the creature he wishes to sleep and also for a day without a headache #do normal people get headaches every single day or is this something i should put under disabled oddness #hmm much to ponder much to think about in the dark of this sleepness night #im so sorry everyone this is rambly but its ok #oh also fun story by which i mean very scary story but some teen hooligans jumped in front of my car today #i dont thinky ive recovered yet it was very scary for the creature #i didnt hit anyone thank the gods but they were trying to prank their friend and mistook my car for theirs? and just jumped in the road?#in the middle of the night??? everyones completely fine but i am shaken by this event #oh to be snuggled im so afraid of car crashes and so extra afraid of hurting someone while driving it was very scary for me #but im around the neurotypicals rn and they dont get that the creature doesnt bounce back as quickly as they do

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kagedbird · 2 months

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I am being hit with the ATLA maladaptive daydreams help

#I had to stop writing because I just kept getting lost in the sauce #Inuyasha and ATLA were the first shows I watched that I did self inserts with #Technically anyways with Inuyasha— I mostly just put myself in Kagome's shoes #But with ATLA it was definitely a self insert story I never wrote #And it's BACK WITH A VENGENCE #..................also I am mad that I am realizing years later that I do in fact have a fictional man type.#zuko: has black hair has red marking on his face that was part of a childhood thing that causes him shame learns to be a better person #kaidan: has black hair has red marking on his face that was from younger years that causes him shame and learns to be a better person #.............i can hear my friends pointing and laughing at me for continuing my affection for dark types #god damn it #kb rambles

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duahauuoplanh · 4 months

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#tình đã qua mất rồi..#ugh swear to god..#Junho #Yoona #King the Land #Lee Junho #always next to Junho #It’s Junho’s season now #2pm #SNSD #I put my heart into every gifset I’ve made #This love left a permanent mark #This love is glowing in the dark #These hands had to let it go free and #This love came back to me

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ladyofthelake · 8 months

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Things I spend hours creating whether it's gifs or fanfic etc and I literally etch a piece of my soul into: 🤡5 notes 1 reblog 4 likes / 2 kudos🤡

Things I spend five minutes on eg shitty gifs that go too fast (for me Crowley) are dark as fuck like that terrible GOT episode and literally basic af ie just a dialogue scene no song lyrics or html edit to make the post look pretty: ✨2500 notes ✨

#true story😂😩#literally my most popular post is a merlin and daegal gif which is one gif dark af and its taking the piss #whereas the story I wrote years ago about arthur coming back that I put my entire heart and soul into has like a couple of kudos #but my one where its a little naughty has way more #I see you lol 👀#but at the end of the day Im proud of my story I barely write #and its the longest fic ive written but I love it and thats what matters #what even is this post #also sidenote I am still learning ps and one day wanna be at least half as food as the god tier gifs here #so im not saying my gifs deserve thousands of notes #but its just funny to me what ends up veing popular #ironically this gif is basically the same caption I used on my popular merlin one lol #its 3am I need to fucking sleep

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skitskatdacat63 · 4 months

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I wish I could post some of my photography from today, but it's a bit too specific so I don't wanna dox myself shkfkgkg but ahhhh man I love taking pics whenever I go to the city 🥰

#i love taking pics when im w other people #cause theres a group mentality w taking pics yknow?#<- like if you see someone take a pic of smth your brain is automatically like 'ah! i should take a pic too!!'#but i picked my phone particularly for the camera #so inevitably the other person always ends up being like #'ill leave the photography to you. send the pics later?'#the pics i took today are such good wallpaper material #but unfortunately im p attached to my f1 backgrounds #but my friend said they were good wallpaper material #and i finally got back home and checked and ahhhh not to brag but my framing is so good :)#*also abt my day out 🤭#i love classical music and its so cool seeing it live BUT #unless its a loud dramatic piece(ex. Holst's Mars) or one you know pretty well #oh my god it puts me to sleep i feel so bad 😭#its just too cozy and dark in the concert hall and i kept feeling myself drifting off #also i will say. i usually think that: European city architecture > american city architecture #but theres some really beautiful historic buildings in my city #and i realize its really silly for me to think that theres no great sights in america bcs #i get that same 'wow' feeling whenever i see certain buildings here #catie.rambling.txt

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tardis-auto-pilot · 1 year

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@staff messing with the trending page layout is going to be my villain origin story

#put my fuxking tags back where they belong #and let me scroll through my recommendations till i forget where i am like God intended #the new layout makes me want to throw things #goblincore #me #tumblr #chaos academia #dark academia #cottagecore #possumcore #idek what other cores #bastardcore

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nerdie-faerie · 7 months

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I have got to get worse at my job cus no way can keep letting them rely on me like this

#work tag #got on shift on Sunday and my manager pulled me aside when i clocked in to say thank god youre here i need you on front theyre an absolute #mess over there theyve got orders waiting nearly twenty minutes i need you to figure out whats going on and whip them into shape i know you #can just get all those order out right away just put them where you want them so you can clear that screen. and i did sort it in under 5 #despite there having been 3 people on front before i got there which is more than enough people to deal with just 6 orders and yet #and today several people called in sick and one of my managers asked if i wanted some extra hours i said depends when she was like just #until ten tonight which is only an extra hour later than i finish but ive already expressed im not comfortable finishing at 9 for only a #8 hour shift cus its an hour walk back and thats far to go by myself in the dark but i agreed anyway one of my other managers then asked if #i was okay to get home if i stayed that late cus obviously there must be a reason i dont usually stay that late i was like im only walking #so it doesnt really matter but it is gonna be late to be walking back but its fine manager then comes back again and asks if i could stay #til 11 ive only done an 11 once before when they were understaffed again and she did the same but i was wary to agree to the 11 cus thats #reeeally late to be doing such a long walk by myself again other manager is like you dont have to agree to anything youre not comfortable #with then argued to the manager that ive got to walk home and i shouldnt stay however im thinking it over as i make my break and approach #the actual shift runner for this evening and suggest i stay until 12 instead cus thats when my work bestie is finishing and if we finish at #the same time i can then walk back with her instead of just doing the 10 and honestly i need the hours but i shouldnt be so relied on tbh

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bylertruther · 2 years

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thinking about how lonnie only ever cared about will when he died and that was just to profit off of his death + will giving a girl he doesn't know his toy truck just because she's crying and he thinks she needs it more even if he knows joyce can't buy him another one + one of the very first things will did upon waking up in the hospital was ask if jonathan was okay + will telling them to close the gate in season two even though he's part of the hivemind and that would've killed him, too + will breaking his own heart by confessing his feelings and giving mike the painting he's spent so long on but saying that all of it came from el thus sacrificing his own wants and self to again help others + how that same selflessness and self-sacrificing nature of his is going to undoubtedly rear its head in season five again because he's at the center of it all and it all goes back to him and vecna is a creature that feeds off of n fans the flames of pain and guilt... feelin very scared n anxious in this chili's tonight over this actually 😳

#he is NOT going to die obviously clearly we know this they're not killing kids #BUT.#i'm just saying.... i don't think it would be crazy for him to feel guilty and like maybe this wouldn't have happened if...#well... u kno.. :(#he would never give up bc that's literally his whole thing that he's a fighter and a survivor #but. he does love his friends and his family. and he has been willing to die if it meant saving them before so like. yanno.#BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN I'M JUST SAYING THE ANGST IS LIKELY GOING TO BE THERE #AND THEN OFC EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY WILLIAM SHUT UP SIT DOWN AND GO TO TIME OUT #and then we'll get some good n scrumptious hurt/comfort ok no one stone me i'm knocking on wood ok i Kno #just imagine will proposing that and everyone immediately says NO and mike especially gets pissed #because he's SICK and TIRED of fucking losing will every single time he thinks he's got him back #and god dammit he's already seen what life is like without will there he's not going to do it again he's NOT #don't go where i can't follow + crazy together + it was the best thing i've ever done + it's hawkins it's not the same without you #versus closegate + el commissioned it + she needs you and she always will #mike who is clutching onto will for dear life unwilling to let him go and will who is all too willing to #walk through the gates of hell if it means saving everyone he's ever loved and putting them out of their misery #but of course there's a better plan and letting will die is like killing a puppy it's like taking a sledgehammer to the foundation of #everything yanno. without heart we'd all fall apart n u can't beat the darkness without the light #anyway. can u tell i'm procrastinating editing my fic rn n thats why im writing epic poems in these tags <3 #mine

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milo-is-rambling · 10 months

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I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day)#(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

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azemcrystal · 9 months

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Wakes up.

Immediately, nauseatingly homesick for a life, world, and existence I can never get back.

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Feeds the cats.

#transcriptions.#Ohhhh my god oh my god put me back in my townhouse with the smell of dark roast coffee and no one minding how late I was to rise that day.

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arsenicpanda · 2 years

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Someone needs to write the essay on Betty Cooper, the sins of the father, generational cycles, serial killer genes, and Calvinism

#Riverdale #Betty Cooper #not me obviously #because I don't know enough about Calvinism to go into depth on it #I just know enough to recognize that Betty's worries about whether or not she is evil #and how those worries are based on her father and her serial killer genes much more than on her actions #and how they are wrapped up in some idea of fundamental goodness and 'good' as something you either have always been or have never been #are very Calvinist concepts #scholars specializing in Calvinism and its influences on America and American society where are you #god I love Betty she is SO INTERESTING albeit sometimes in a frustrating way (it's all the Calvinism)#has she--like the rest of the core four--been flattened as a character? yes obviously #is the Calvinism getting old? again yes obviously #but is she still complex and interesting? yes OBVIOUSLY #I have Betty Cooper brainrot #she lives in my head rent-free because I do not quite understand her but I want to SO BAD #I thought I did before but apparently I was wrong and I especially don't post-time skip #and I just want to pick her apart and put her back together #in the end Riverdale's success as a show and as a commentary on Archir Comics and America and Americana #and the darkness under the societal ideal of normality #rests on where they go with Betty and how they handle her and what her arc ultimately is #and if they stick the landing on her relationship with societal pressures and norms and boxes #and the archetype of the perfect girl nextdoor #my thoughts on Riverdale let me show you them

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