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I spent, at a minimum, at least $500-$1,000 a month exclusively on my self improvement. Here is most of what I spend on, in no particular order:
Education (classes, books, courses, certifications, college tuition, seminars, etc.)
Private lessons for languages, musical instruments, sports, etc.
Personal hobbies and passion projects
Crest whitening strips (great when in a pinch), Invisalign, professional whitening, preventative dental care, prescription whitening products from my dentist
Investments such as index funds, REITs, ETFs, CDs, individual stocks, commodities, appreciative luxury items, precious metals & gems, etc.
Organic food, vitamins, supplements, high quality healthcare, therapy, massages, prescriptions (Rx skincare, etc.)
New glasses & contacts (getting some bayonetta glasses from Burberry soon, very excited)
Sports, gym membership + sauna, hot yoga, Pilates, kickboxing, tennis, skiing, dance, etc.
Personal care such as bath/shower products, body care, haircare, skincare, makeup, brightening eye drops, perfume, etc.
Travel, events, concerts, festivals, etc.
Shopping (clothes, accessories, home goods, etc.)
Eating out at restaurants and going to coffee shops
Beauty treatments such as manicures, pedicures, waxes, brow tint & threading, salon blowouts, hair cuts & colors, facials, lash lift & tints, vitamin IVs, etc.
Regular visits to my dermatologist, dentist, psychiatrist, eye doctor, primary care physician, gynecologist, and any other specialists
Semi-regular appointments with a personal trainer, holistic nutritionist, and dietitian
I don't do all of these every single month, but most of these are recurring throughout the year and budgeted accordingly. Eventually I might add in more intense cosmetic work like medspa services, Botox, etc. If you can find a workplace with a great benefits package such as high quality healthcare, an HSA/FSA, health & wellness reimbursements for the gym, disability & life insurance, etc. I would highly recommend it and max out all the benefits you can.
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nui shenanigans
#doodles#duck scribbles#midoyuzu#yuzumido#hi ive been in an absolute Situation lately 👍 gonna drop off the face of the earth again so long fellas#enstars#yuzuru fushimi#midori takamine#what if we had nuis of each other and i made nui me kiss your nui.........#have barely been drawing lately outside of work burnout eating me alive for real 😔#the horrors and depression and dysphoria may be unrelenting but mf so am i!!!!!!!!!#ahhh im behind on comms too i am extremely sorry 🙇♂️ gonna try get on top of those as best as i can#hoping to at least get out of my rut in time for the es rarepair week too tho o9#survived fragrance on engstars w 2 naru copies 👍👍👍 girl help i dojt want to open the game for another month or so but alas. valk ss next#damn im rambling again. anyways aaaaaaaaaaaa i wanna drawi wanna draw
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ON LOVE, ON VIOLENCE
1. consumed, david cronenberg | 2. taking it”, vievee francis | 3. the good fight, ada limón | 4. twin sized mattress, the front bottoms | 5. on the romance of cannibalism, silas denver | 6. allegory of divine wisdom (detail), andrea sacchi | 7. letters to milena, frank kafka | 8. teaching the dog not to nip, jim moore | 9. cherry wine, hozier | 10. warm bodies, isaac marion.
#web weaving#if any other trigger warning is needed please let me know!!!#web weave#tw abuse#tw violence#tw domestic violence#this is probably only part one it’s about to get real unhealthy around here fellas#eroticisation of violence#do NOT do this fellas this is just a web weave do NOT#poetry#on love#on violence#mine#pls don’t be mean to me im just trying to process my trauma ok bye
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(what about me?)
summary: even gods get lonely, it just takes them a bit longer than most. but when it hits, it hurts, and hard.
word count: 1.1k
-> warnings: major spoilers for mondstat archon quest, mentions of wine, little guy is sad and alone about it :(
-> gn reader (you/yours)
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starsnatch cliff is empty more times than it isn’t.
it was a common destination for couples, the silence a welcome break from the bustle of the city of freedom. the stars up above were unblocked, bright, the full rotation of constellations visible by just tilting one’s head to the sky. two majors, twin sets of stars, the three minors orbiting, staring down, watching. the same form, night after night, a bard in green driving away the aspiring couples often enough they learnt to stop trying. a body is there, physically occupying the space, but with how little is being done, the cliff still feels empty. the stars watch, seeing all, as the same body comes and sits, as the same eyes turn to the sky, vacant with memory.
venti didn’t know which constellations were in rotation—he did, that was a lie, he knew every single one and their owners—nor how long they’d be up—liar, liar, liar—but he watched the sky anyway, spinning a cecelia in his hand. the stem was worn, some of the juice clinging to his fingers, but he didn’t set it down. to the left, to the right, the six petals twisting outside of his field of view.
the god of freedom found himself coming back to the same cliff every night, sometimes leaving the angels share earlier to get there quicker. he walked, picking a cecelia as he did, and sat in the same spot at the peak of the cliff.
was he truly free, he wondered, if the stars kept calling him back?
(he knew he was. it was his choice to return, his choice to stay until the sun rose, to take naps in the afternoon to make up for the sleep before coming back, back, back, night after day after night)
the galaxy streaking its way across the sky, blue and purple and greens mixing and blurring, broken only by the bright shine of stars. planets, all locked in their own orbit, worlds he’d never be able to see, all within his sight yet all out of his grasp.
his eyes fell on a star at random.
who lived there, he wondered? what was beyond the atmosphere he knew? how far was the next planet? was there even intelligent life? surely, there must be—you wouldn’t create only one planet with life on it, right? you’d create many races, aliens he couldn’t imagine, all created to thrive on their world and serve under you.
(were they treating you better? had you exited your resting world already, and found another planet to keep you occupied? was teyvat not enough for you? you… you’d tell them if they weren’t doing enough, right? you’d say? you wouldn’t just leave them in the dark, right?)
he wondered how far away you’d gone. he remembered you—of course he did, your visage was engraved in his mind, miles deep and never to erode—and your last moments on teyvat, how you’d promised the archons that you would return soon. that you wouldn’t be far.
of course, ‘far’ was relative. and what was time to a god? how long was ‘soon’ for you? how long would it be until he could be blessed with your presence again? the little of your aura that bled through your vessels wasn’t enough- it wasn’t, and he was horribly selfish for thinking so, but it wasn’t. not when he’d been able to lay his eyes upon your true form, not when he’d felt your skin beneath his as he led you through mondstat for the first time. the small glimpse of you that seeped into the air around your vessels may be enough to rest weary souls, but for a god?
you were the shining light of teyvat, always everywhere. traveling from nation to nation, occasionally visiting off-world but never for long, never, he never had to go without you for more than a year or two at a time, he never had to feel erosion start to sap at his life-
the stars grew blurry, and venti hastily wiped the tears away, continuing to search the sky.
he knew he was eroding. every god was. memories, resilience, patience, all of it fading. mortals (part of his mind flinched, but he was right, he was mortal, he could die) weren’t meant for the power of the divine, the gnoses grating against the walls of their soul. it was never a problem before, not when they had you, you to temper the flame of creation, you to brush your hand over a wayward god and breathe life back into their heart, you with your endless compassion, to accept what felt like overwhelming and discard it as trivial.
barbatos was eroding without you. every god was. the ley lines were acting up, the abyss growing stronger, the eons without your presence turning teyvat into a hollow husk. and yet, the pathetic little he discarded from your vessels had begun to heal it anyway.
why did you use vessels? you had to know it was easier to descend yourself, right? to let flowers bloom in your wake and the breeze brush grass from your clothes, to tuck ei’s hair behind her ear and let empathy back into her mind. your vessels did a lot, but they could not manage all- murata, focalors, the tsaritsa and her wretched fatui- you could fix it all, all with a blink and a smile, a gentle hand across the earth to sew it at the seams.
he was being idealistic. he knew he was. and yet, he could not help but to wish—wish, he wanted to laugh at the irony—that your return ‘soon’ would be within his lifetime.
he wanted to see you again. he wanted the scars across his soul to heal, for his empty, cracked cup to be filled with you. he wanted to go back to how it was, when ei could smile freely and the tsaritsa wasn’t so cold, when the wind blew softly, carrying the sound of laughter. time only turned one way, yet he wanted to reverse it, to force the universe in rewind, to when his greatest worry was which song to play you at lunch. he wanted to bring a bottle of dandelion wine and watch as morax insisted upon osmanthus, as rukkhadevata rolled her eyes with a smile and suggested how about tea instead, it’s barely noon.
he was selfish. every god was, to an extent, but he…
as venti looked up at the stars, he couldn’t help but pray that one of them was you.
#genshin#genshin impact#sagau#self aware genshin#genshin sagau#genshin self aware au#venti#genshin venti#venti x reader#genshin x reader#sagau x reader#genshin x gn reader#i had this idea like ages ago and i was Real Sad yesterday so i decided to channel that energy#i’ve been in a real ‘(what about me?)’ mood recently so time to make that his problem!!!!#i have another venti angst i need to write too so. our fella boutta be Real Sad too.#coping 101#oh god all the stuff in my inbox i need to go oh god oh fuck-#uhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHH#i wanted to take a picture for this and ended up with no picture and two hours gone. love that.#by no picture i mean i didn’t even get the nighttime photo i wanted#how is this 1k btw it felt like 3#???#hey stew remember that talk we had about commas………………#title from the drafts: either ‘cold cold world’ or ‘(not ehe)’. might start leaving this in the tags of every post ngl
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No way, the Real Peppino and Anton.
Bonus closeup/focus on my fave sketch
#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#antonblast#dynamite anton#peppiblast#lin rinku's art#you know how it is with the old man yaoi#i tried real hard to draw them Not Young bc i'm not used to drawing older people LMAO#that and i admittedly don't draw a lot of varying body types so yeah#might not be so evident but it's stuff like the chin and neck areas too#sketchdump#oh yeah#anton's dog#idt there's a name for the lil fella afaik. but there sure is a dog#also if you're gonna get at me about the war level being retconned idrc ppl can hc it to be a thing that happened
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Cecil fans how we doin !!!!
#Carlos would be proud#Do you think Cecil and Carlos know about the polls bc they canonically have tumblr#Imagine if it gets referenced in a future episode...#welcome to nightvale#Wtnv#cecil gershwin palmer#cecil palmer#cecilsweep#tumblr sexymen poll#sexyman poll#sexyman tournament#Breaking news listeners I just beat a skeleton in a tumblr sexyman poll#He seemed like a nice fella. His puns were funny. A real funny bone#undertale#sans undertale
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Sanlu consuming my brain like a goddamn fungus. Please send help. I’ve already written down so many ideas for fics I’m going to blow up
Blurred bc spoilers and also some of these are really REALLY self indulgent (embarrassing) and may never see the light of day
#HELP!!!!!!!#Sanlu#One Piece#Lusan#Sanji#Luffy#It’s official. If I’ve already got AUs and am writing fics. It’s so jover <3#Waves goodbye to Zolu it was a good run#This makes perfect sense tho bc I ALWAYS end up shipping my two favorite characters together#Sideeyes Tododeku Trustedpartner Diode Albatross and many more#Coughs anyway. I think I need a therapist#Currently crawling out of my skin for any and all Sanlu content#I have devoured the majority of the AO3 AND tumblr tags. (It is not enough.)#*laughs nervously* I’m in danger!!#Shima speaks#Ohhhh the brainrot is so real. They are literally rotting my brain. These bitches ain’t even paying me rent#FELLAS. Is it gay to tell a cute boy about your dream and decide to sail with him to find an impossible treasure#FELLAS IS IT GAY TO TRY AND SACRIFICE YOUR LIFE TO PROTECT SAID CUTE BOY.#Is it gay to get stupidly unreasonably jealous when cute boy compliments somebody else’s cooking.#The real questions!!!!!
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More 1770s fellas, one being the little persona I'm making an outfit around and one being an actual 20-year-old whaling ship owner from Nantucket.
#my art#sketchbook#history#sadies day job#ocs#18th century#the oc is named oliver gray and hes an artist from providence#the real fella is francis rotch who owned the beaver and the dartmouth and tried to get everything settled peacefully w the governor#it didnt work and him coming back to the meeting and announcing that he couldn't was what sey everything off
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u know. fucking queen.
#just ignore the article is from 🦊 news#I'll have to look to see if everything here is accurate actually (like using the word 'woke') but im sure the backlash is real#every woman every person is different and special and unique it's kind of batshit insane we are only now getting a woman w short hair to win#and the backlash is STILL there 💀#fellas is it. woke. to have short hair as a woman#💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#apple lady words
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so. Sonadow generations amirite
#KICKING SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP#AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#omg sega just call it sonadow generations#I KNOW YOU WANT TO#everyday this crackship becomes a little more real#i get to live to see gay hedgehogs#i was born in the right generation fellas#WOOOOOOOO#tonight we FEAST#sonadow#me
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for the writing game 21!!!! (chosen very randomly and has nothing to do with any of my ocs btw......)
Also i hope you're doing ok, have a nice day <33
Hiii! So sorry this took a second, I've been very tired and busy and to be fair I wasn't sure how to incorporate the prompt or make a writing idea out of it that wasn't just. Net zero information. I guess it kind of still is... again, not my best work, but I am doing these requests to get more comfy with posting my less polished and perfected writing so here goes!
P.S. Thank you for asking how I've been! Not at my best right now but I believe I'll be okay :')
P.P.S. Cyrus's view on the Church of Seir0s do not reflect my opinions about any of this it's just what he thinks. As a character
21. amber
The cathedral of the Garreg Mach monastery was bathed in sunlight as the dawn was breaking. A lonely figure sat up on the bench, his white hair making him look like he was glowing. Cyrus found his own snow-white hair more annoying than he did beautiful or endearing.
As his mind woke itself up, a sense of urgency crept up on him. Right… Before he gave in to the sleep deprivation, Cyrus remembered watching Dimitri stand by the destroyed statue of the Goddess. Cyrus had seen him do this so many times, and, even after talking to Dimitri as much as he did, he never understood what the prince hoped to accomplish with praying to the Goddess.
Both of them were nothing but toys in her wicked game, after all. Or that was how Cyrus saw it.
Looking up at the spot where Dimitri should’ve been, he saw nobody. Cyrus raised an eyebrow — where could he have gone off to? Dimitri barely left this spot before. Cyrus had to wonder if the man was safe now, as he remembered his tendencies to get himself in danger.
“Cyrus.”
A familiar deep voice made Cyrus turn his head and finally look away from the statue ruins, before his thoughts could consume him. The familiar sound of armor clanking with each footstep gave Dimitri away.
“Your Highness?” Cyrus’s voice was still hoarse with sleepiness.
“You mustn’t sleep here. It is cold,” Dimitri said in a harsh, strict voice, his eye yet again set on the ruins of the statue. However, Cyrus could spot something in his hand — it was shining with a yellow glimmer, and was familiar to Cyrus for some reason. That made him look down on his cravat that always had been pinned by a shiny amber jewel… Only to find it gone.
“It seems you’ve lost this.” Looking away, Dimitri extended his hand to give the jewel to Cyrus; indeed, it was his amber jewel that used to be attached to the pin.
“Thank you.” Cyrus took it with hesitation.
In response, Dimitri groaned and looked away. “Think nothing of it.”
“Where were you during the night?” Cyrus insisted on talking to Dimitri, who appeared to be vexed, but actually wasn’t.
“While you were asleep, I noticed that you lost this,” Dimitri said, his voice somber. “So I went looking for it.”
Cyrus’s bright eyes widened, the curls of his hair bouncing slightly as he tilted his head, confused. He wanted to ask why, but didn’t want to sound ungrateful. Still, Dimitri picked up on it:
“Maybe you would leave me alone if I did something like this,” he said, his brow furrowed. “There, I did something kind to you. Will you leave me be?”
Heaving a sigh, Cyrus smiled as he looked down on the jewel. It had a dried blood stain on it. He shook his head slowly, and Dimitri’s eye widened with surprise.
“I’m afraid I cannot do that, Your Highness.”
#fe3h oc#oc cyrus bartholomew lenz#What happens next after this.............well it is up to interpretation I guess. Love me a good ambiguous ending#Sorry this is shorter and less like. Polished and nicely written...#I am trying so hard not to be too harsh on myself and my writing but I'll be real fellas my brain was barely working when I wrote this !#I just hope it does not show too much lmfao#Anyway this is probably not good but it does give some insight into how they interacted <3 I hope#Btw next one is going to be. Ummm Juicy if I can ever get to it and execute it better >:) So buckle up!
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Okay…
#lawrusso#I think Amanda should be with me actually#Idk probably already clipped.#that shirt on him#Ralph’s smile#handsome fella#eeeeeeee#My babyman#This ep was crazy for these lines#can’t wait for S5 blooperssss#Beware my tags as always#Johnny couldn’t handle a fifth round yet so LaRusso just put him on his knees and jerked off on his face. there we go#I will be dreaming about Daniel straight up just grabbing Johnny’s hair and rubbing his dick all over his face and getting hole for it<3#‘Bigger is better’ STOP talking about your preferences in men’s dicks Johnny#Daniel is so humble. That’s how I know he’s big. Please just get on the table go at it at this point#‘Wanna see who’s leg can go higher’ Surefire to make Daniel picture you bent in half Barbie style#The way I get that from this lol#and the real scene#That guy in the background is kinda….#safety first#nsft
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This whole thing was done for me and me personally
#and to all aro and ace babes muak !#conan gray playing? also personal. that was also for me#I need like. a moment. it’s getting real in ways I don’t know how to deal#the seaosn was really good. cried and throw up again like in the first one. comfort media dropped 8 more eps babes#heartstopper should be studied in schools. like a whole class dedicated to it so we can all become the best versions of ourselves#mandatory reading and watching for schools all over make it happen#heartstopper#Isaac#okay I finished it I’ll shut up now !!!!!!! good night fellas
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hellooooo it's my quarter-annual "don't worry, still not dead" post. been having a real "Keep Pushing Boulder Up The Hill -- Oops!" time the last few years in truly every aspect of my life but I am still planning on continuing here eventually. still zero clue when that will be but i would *like* to be writing again this year, lol (boulder rolls back down the hill)
#move -> have medical issues -> house is a nightmare -> move -> have medical issues -> house is a nightmare ->#-> move -> get dumped -> house is a nightmare -> have medical iss-#like it's getting OLD at this point fellas.... it's the same shit every year🙃#anyway i finally have a Not Bad doctor and a Real Job so i'm hoping to be done pushing the boulder .... soon
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It might be I have anti social personality disorder 🤨
#hmmm#i dont think its just the autism fellas#idk im already aware i have some sort of personality disorder as diagnosed by a psychiatrist but without any more precision#and my vast confusion about other people might be explained by that#idk ive been reading about it and well#very much possible#ive known since i was 15 that i dont experience empathy in a “normal” way#and i have a very rich inner life within my brain#tbh i love my own company (most times) and im my favorite person#but there is such a big stigma about anti social ppl so im like#well. i can name a bunch of ppl around me who would dismiss me about that#but my dear just because someone can mask does not mean that is the real them#like idk especially if you cant tell when someone is masking like that's on you 😭#i see someone masking and feel so sad like damn bestie i get it this is the only personality of yours people will enjoy#winter rambling in his tags? its more likely than you think
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Excuse me, I've stumbled on this lovely establishment recently, and I was wondering if it is permitted ordering something without the component Reader? I just don't really like the taste of it, though I understand if it is essential to the drinks recipes
Although we have been inactive for a while now (thank you guys for your patience, we appreciate all of you still sticking around and following us, you rock <3), this, I can answer!!
If that's what the esteemed customer wants, then yes, we will take reader-free orders :3
#not a request#{💌 mod rory 💌}#{we shall get back to our scheduled kittyposting next year!! or at the very least try}#{I've been looking through our existing asks in fact!! quite a few have me real excited to take a crack at them!!}#{on that note (and on behalf of my fellow mods too): ✨ HAPPY NEW YEAR FELLAS ✨}
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