You all wish you were me right now :3

Bonus:

He will be banished to the murky Depths

I’m sick of neurotypicals not giving me a straight answer. For instance;

asking: “is it going to rain today?”

“You won’t need a coat.”

And then theres

“When are we leaving/how many minutes until we’re heading off?”

“Soon.”

Like we ask them such simple, straightforward questions with a yes or no/simple answer and they make it unnecessarily complicated LIKE STOP PLEASE

the reason i’m not afraid of aging is because i want to be a hot middle-aged man who has a toxic yaoi relationship with another middle-aged man

Genuinely nothing has ever made people on this site more suspicious of/threatened by/angry with me than saying that "We should all bully the freaks more" is not some kind of righteous moral stance. Like it's absolutely wild how bent out of shape that gets people.

The strength of the reaction is such that it's obvious people are responding less to what I've said than to whatever it represents to them - clearly something frightening and dangerous. Despite myself I do have sympathy for that kind of outsized Big Feelings Anxiety Reaction, and enough chronic earnestness disease that (up to a point) I am willing to entertain conversations I most likely shouldn't if I think they're important enough, but man. If you actually want that earnest conversation you gotta turn the temperature down like twelve notches, not come skidding into strangers' inboxes wearing your best police interrogator's uniform.

*kicking my feet, twirling my hair* so there's this giiiiiirl

yeah.

youve convinced me. drop Star Trek recs what do i watch (ive been told to avoid the movies? are they bad lol)

Ok I've not seen all of trek, I've mainly seen ds9, tos and tng so I'm only gonna talk about those.

I think ds9 (deep space 9) is like. The most Genuinely Good show out of all the ones I've seen. I'd just start from the beginning and watch it all but if you aren't ready to commit to 7 seasons of queer antics with a seasoning of war time baseball (unrelatable but ok?) The best episode of ds9 and probably the best episode in all of trek is the one directed by Avery Brooks (the actor of Sisko) "far beyond the stars" (my icon is Fanart of that episode specifically) you can totally watch it as a stand alone💕 heavy Triggerwarning for racism, police murder and brutality, and institutionalization. To be clear the episode isn't racist, it depicts racism, specifically anti black racism. Maybe more light-hearted fun is "bar association" where quarks employees unionize. I think a few people have said ds9 only starts to be good in like season 3? I don't think that's true it's very good from the start and i do recommend watching it from the start.

The movies are a good time if you wanna put something on with friends and get drunk tbh! Wrath of Khan is also the only Moby Dick adaptation I've ever seen and it's such a classic. Like it sucks but it's also very good. And the whale movie (journey home) is genuinely a banger of a movie!

In general TOS (the original series) I wouldn't really recommend unless you're already kind of sold on star trek. It's beautiful, it's strange, it's homosexual, it's DEEPLY sexist. But there are some very fun episodes and it's the ideal show to put on while painting your nails. It kind of starts being a strong show in the second season, Amok Time ofc being a classic (but an odd episode to start with) The Changeling I think is a good episode that shows what tos is like from it's best side and fairly representative, and mirror mirror is the way better than average episode where the mirror verse is introduced which is very cool. I also like doomsday machine and the devil in the dark! Devil in the dark is one of the last episodes of the first season so maybe a good place to start from? Tho you wouldn't wanna miss The Naked Time!!! Tos is a banger of a show it's just very 60s.

TNG (the next generation) is kind of hit or miss and starts off slow but it has like the best horror episodes out of all of star trek I'd say. Absolutely will HAUNT you, scarier than most actual horror shows. Schisms is... An episode of a Nice Family Show FOR SURE :))))) Frame of mind also fucked me up.. idk man just. TNG. Geordi and Data are so lovely and then Fucked Up Shit happens.. For sure.

Both TNG and TOS are very "it's trekking time", ds9 being a space station treks very little. It's less of a star trek than a star kinky war time sex. Hope this helpss have funnn!!!

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me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic [@vexdakillah is the bad bitch]

oh yeah addendum in also the other day seeing someone autistic talking in that context abt what they want from genuine relationships in that they said they don't want to be Admired Or Desired. that one time someone was like, you're one of the best people i know, like well neat compliment sure i'll take it lmao, but also, that's somewhat confusing and even disheartening when it's like, i have no way of knowing this; we don't really interact? or times i have to ""unilaterally"" assess that i don't feel Friends with someone b/c i don't feel like, for one thing, i can just up & message them even lol; the feeling that to whatever capacity there's a relationship, it's been continual "don't mess this up" masking / efforts to "do things Right" from me....whilest also times it's been like, oh someone's apparently choosing to be around me? enjoying interactions? while still kind of confused about it. and then it's like oh it was Romantic Interest apparently lol :( like even if i wasn't aromantic which i so am....where was the [there is anything to feel is genuine] like again we never even got to any part where i wasn't masking and [do things Right] and on edge and certainly not at whatever point i apparently had whatever appeal. much less "when cishet men are just sprinting straight at you" but that's all the more, like, [you as a Person are certainly irrelevant] but not like it doesn't still feel ultimately mostly irrelevant even if people have more discretion / a more considerate approach in general. also that again there would not be a Right way lmfao. it just sure could be a totally neutral expereince rather, please. how i've had too many situations having to try to fling myself out a window figuratively, even w/those theoretically more considerate approaches

or even when people will be talking about what makes someone Deserving outside of the most conservative(tm) approaches like. this person isn't someone who just waits for things to happen :) like well hell yeah for them lol, meanwhile, i sure kinda am. being aware that in any given way i may not impress anyone / may be negatively assessed; only turns into "there go my power levels increasing again. shrugmoji" when correspondingly it's like, and i don't have to care, or certainly then blame myself about it if like oh boy, society when you have to be "objectively" judged as Worthy by randos, whatever their perspectives lol....or when like, the concept of social support is like, get a romantic partner, primarily, an ounce of backup from friends, the Real backup being family, or friends "as good as" family....or the ongoing journey of realizing like; it was never Just gonna be managing to leave [abusive childhood/family house]. the ways that other experiences outside that were Consistent, really, when being around peers means an immediate sense of doing something wrong / not being as good as them; authority figure adults sometimes acting just like an abusive parent does; no ways to regularly exist flexibly and/or less supervised/monitored, e.g. couldn't walk from [home] to [anywhere]....catching on like, ah, outside of That Situation? i'm still not inherently more valued by randos, still not Not liable to be regarded/treated with disdain / expressions of authoritarianism....Aren't We All; for real. but truly like oh hey, i didn't even realize i was getting all this Political experience in that [when you have a one on one personal abuser and You're Responsible For How They Treat You and Their Own Power Is The Whole Thing and You'll Never "Earn" Better But It'll Always Be Your Fault You Haven't] and all those kinds of logics and realities it's like of course this resonates crystal clear with logics and realities re: [political enemies] lmao. ofc they can be as "hypocritical" as they want b/c [you can just say whatever while you do w/e you want and other people have to deal] is an expression of power. of course "for [xyz]'s own good; individually or as a group" is really about ensuring the power to control their existences as property by shrinking the space in which someone can enact autonomous choices: anything For Children is about (conservative) parents controlling children as things they own and can do whatever they want with; like making sure kids Can't be gay or sm shit, it Is about children, just keeping them from being able to exist outside the sphere of control of an isolated Family life. hell yeah when they do anyways / tragically it always turns out people are actually people despite your wanting to disbelieve this / always have the power to ignore it..........but then yknow, the truth is we out here, and ofc it's like [police protect Property; enforce these property/owner relations] but what's Normal yet obviously harmful is also so borne by regular ordinary """harmless""" interpersonal interactions / people who feel supposedly well-intended but that's more superficial than in essence....even merely the Exhaustion in knowing interactions as Just chitchat w/supposedly amicable parties is like, a scrutinizing test that can only go wrong and lead to antagonism / animosity that can easily accumulate &/or compound. much less existence In Public and shit going wrong out of nowhere, and potential stakes....being like Lol at, again, years back thinking like "a horror short should be like, the premise that you might just be at a grocery or some ordinary asf situation but at any given moment, doing Nothing extraordinary, some rando suddenly goes Deeply Hostile Mode for a second. where even then suddenly disengaging from that mode is not a relief in that the [this could happen at any time] is emphasized" like lmfao that's [being in an abusive situation], that's [being autistic], isn't it so Zany that there's so much overlap / resonance.

Not At All being Lol abt how much actual discrete examples of produced horror is just like "what if there was disabled people." this is its own line b/c of the characters per block limit. but also disdainful emphasis

anyways lol wuh oh in conclusion, antifascism....isn't it always

There's 2 kinds of fan content creators

A: 'these adorable creatures deserve only happiness, love and the chance to recover. I can do a little sad but that must ultimately be happy'

And

B: 'YES, YES, SUFFER MY BLORBOS, SUFFER!!!"

You're clearly a type A.

I want to be type A, I swear I do. But given my current fic literally opens with my fav slowly dying, I think I might be type B XD

Ok but the funniest part is like. I am the complete opposite with my ocs DR stuff I'm like: And then they get to be happy and have a dog and sad stuff still happens but they get to grow and learn to allow themselves to be happy My ocs: and then she gets vivisected

fellas is it gay if a girl doesn’t mind you practically ditching her for 20 minutes to go over lines with your theatre mentor because and i quote “you’re having fun”

felt like since it was a new year i should probably update my pinned post :):)

Hey i'm sven! im a 21 y/o trans,gay,furry,alt dude. though i have others, my main fursona is based of ferrucyon an extinct species of fox. his name is cyon, i can't draw so i mostly use picrew and other avatar makers to kinda get a feel for what he looks like. im working on learning how to draw so maybe in the future i can draw him!

i mostly just repost stuff that's mainly animal themed in this blog but its not specifically be furry but most things are at least animal themed. i also have the occasional mogai post just cause i think it's fun lmao. i like to keep it light hearted and don't take anything i say too seriously.

feel free to check out my pronouns page!

- sven

do I have a crush on this person or are they just cool and I'm autistic

not a fan of eye contact, instead I just look at people's eyes

i have both anti-snape maruders-stans and pro-snape maruders-antis following me and i really dont know how i got here and im scared of posting anything marauders/severus related bc i'll always be pissing Someone off